Chapter 60 Chapter 8 The furthest distance in the world

Sheng Huainan walked around the school for a long time, and heard the faint cheers and "Happy New Year" from somewhere at twelve o'clock, and it was already ten past one in the middle of the night when he returned to the dormitory.The lights in the dormitory were turned off, but everyone else was sitting in front of the computer typing on the keyboard, chatting about QQ, only Zhang Mingrui disappeared.When he entered the door, Lao Liu gave him a sideways look, smiled, and continued to talk to his wife seriously. Brush your teeth and wash your face, put on your pajamas and climb onto the bed, set the alarm on your phone and throw it beside the pillow.Lying on his back, he saw that the ceiling was reflected in a dark blue because of the computer screens of the people below.

Sheng Huainan closed his eyes and covered himself under the quilt. I vaguely heard the boss say, why hasn't Zhang Mingrui come back, and eloped with a beautiful woman? The fifth child laughed, you are wrong, in fact Xu Riqing has always asked him out. The boss yelled loudly, probably because he remembered that Sheng Huainan had already laid down and fell asleep, covered his mouth again, and whispered, I rely on me, don't I?Has this kid won the lottery? Xu Riqing...he recalled that day, when Xu Riqing had just walked to the door of the supermarket, Xu Riqing suddenly rushed over and grabbed his sleeve and asked, do you think you can hide forever?

This sentence shocked him hard. He didn't know whether he should not say a word and be indifferent to the end on such an occasion, or calm down temporarily and stop talking in public. Suddenly, a magic weapon descended from heaven. "Classmate, are you Luo Zhi?" He is actually thankful that he has a photographic memory for people. In the summer vacation before entering university, he went to pick her up at the hotel where Ye Zhanyan’s classmates were reunited. Ye Zhanyan suddenly pointed to a girl in a white shirt who had gone far away from the crowd and said, Well, that is the legendary Luo Zhi, what do you think?

What do I think?Sheng Huainan smelled the alcohol on Ye Zhanyan's body, and thought that she was really confused, so he glanced hastily, when someone called "Luo Zhi", the girl turned to talk to the person who called her.She has a beautiful appearance, a pair of beautiful eyes, and looks very comfortable.He shrugged and said, it's pretty good, why ask this? Ye Zhanyan suddenly smiled.That smile was completely different from the one he was familiar with before, and for some reason, it was actually very sad. It's pretty good, I think it's pretty good too.Ye Zhanyan burst into tears after finishing speaking.

He was confused, so he quickly took out a facial tissue to help her wipe her tears, but she just said a word over and over again, "It's really good, it's really good... You see, you're going to go so far away soon. I am so far away. That fragile look was nothing like the usual Ye Zhanyan.He hugged her from behind, but didn't know what to say, he just rubbed his chin on the top of her head and said, fool. When he called out Luo Zhi's name at the entrance of the supermarket that day to save him, what he remembered was that Ye Zhanyan who was crying for no reason. He didn't know at the time that it would be the last time he saw Ye Zhanyan.

For the next month, they could only be reached by text and phone calls.His mother completely controlled his leisure time, first sent him to Hong Kong for a five-day tour, and then let him accompany his cousin to the Maldives for more than a week, and then his father’s friends in Shanghai sent him invitations for his children His parents even agreed to help him with mathematics in the third year of high school.He was helpless, but he also felt that he was going to go to university soon, and it was better to follow their wishes before--it turned out that it was soon time to report to Beijing.The family went to the airport to see him off, so it was naturally inconvenient for Ye Zhanyan to show up.So, ridiculously, he never saw her again.They broke up before he could go home for winter break.Haven't seen both holidays as there was no contact.

How ridiculous, the last time he saw Ye Zhanyan, it seemed that it was specifically to introduce Luo Zhi. But the first time he met Luo Zhi, his mind was full of Ye Zhanyan—before that, he had lived a peaceful and numb life, and he hadn't thought of Ye Zhanyan for a long time. In fact, in all fairness, the first chat with Luo Zhi in the cafe made him very happy. It is rare for him to meet such a smart, gentle and interesting chat partner, but he just feels bored. It seems that as long as he talks with girls, he feels bored ——In fact, he and Ye Zhanyan never had any memorable conversations. He likes being with her, it's easy and natural, and he doesn't need any bullshit reasons at all.He cheered up and looked at the girl opposite, suddenly he was a little dazed, why did he just sit here and chat with her?

Fortunately, Luo Zhi did not reveal the kind of nympho that bored him, deliberately concealing it with aloofness, on the contrary, she was very natural, without any trace. If these indifference is pretending, that's really amazing. Of course, why must she have ulterior motives?Not all women have to like him.Sheng Huainan, you are really narcissistic - he shook his head self-deprecatingly, and laughed. Ye Zhanyan once said, don't be so narcissistic. Back then, he confessed his love through text messages, and then went to find Ye Zhanyan at the door of their class.She asked how do you know that I will accept your confession?He smiled and said, I knew you liked me at a glance.

This sentence, he used to frown at all kinds of girls looking for excuses to strike up a conversation for a long time, although his relationship experience is blank, but it’s like he can tell which ones are pickpockets in the train station without stealing things, Some things are just enough to look at. But when he said this to her seriously, he felt a little unconfident and panicked. The other party blushed all of a sudden and said, you...don't be so narcissistic. At that time, the classmates in their class were lying at the door gossiping and looking at the two of them, sometimes booing, Sheng Huainan was not bored at all for the first time.He has always hated his own affairs being interfered by others. The crowd watching that day, because he was in a good mood, was regarded as a witness of happiness.

He was distracted all the way like this, and when he came back to his senses, what he saw was Luo Zhi's meaningful smile.She was not in a hurry or annoyed, which made him even more flustered. She is different from Ye Zhanyan, too different.Ye Zhanyan is not as calm and sharp as she is. Ye Zhanyan always has a simple and innocent look, just like after being accidentally splashed with water by him, she crossed her hips and frowned and scolded him, but it was a little bit Delicate and shy.And Luo Zhi was just like the day when he was splashed with hot water, calm and introverted, and even endured the pain to make a few jokes with Zhang Mingrui.

But Luo Zhi was not happy.No matter how she laughed or joked, he could see her unhappiness. He once lamented their resemblance excitedly in front of her—when she laughed, her eyes would bend into crescents, making one wonder if she could still see the road clearly; she liked Agatha Christie more than Sherlock Holmes, she liked bagpipes, He always chooses to sit in the same seat on the bus, likes to play Ace Attorney, hates fat meat, puts fat meat on the beam of the stool, eats with three chopsticks, and brings a lot of exercise books back to school every Friday night in high school home for the weekend to ease the guilt but get so addicted to online comics that they bring it back for nothing on Monday... They look like this.She would not know, however, that what really touched him was the fact that he felt, through the smoke of these pleasant conversations, that she was as unhappy as himself. The kind of smiling unhappiness, the loneliness of not trusting anyone or caring about anyone. And what I just saw today is her hard and inviolable pride. They look like this. And after returning from Houhai to send her back to the dormitory that day, the phone suddenly vibrated crazily in the middle of the night and ended all of this. Luo Zhi had a crush on you for a long time, Luo Zhi hated Ye Zhanyan, Luo Zhi buried herself very deeply, Luo Zhi lied, Luo Zhi... break up.What a ridiculous trick? The shock and anger brought to him when he first heard this story made him temporarily avoid her, and even based on the fragmentary clues Ding Shuijing told him, he took out his raincoat to test her on that rainy day. What is the difference between such a shameless thing and those boring girls? It's all fake, it's all fake.Take possession in the name of so-called love. However, she stood under the orange road lights at midnight and said frankly, I do like you.That pair of tragic and nameless penetrating eyes completely shook him. Has she really loved herself for so long?Sheng Huainan is not someone who is easily moved.He just suddenly felt very warm. Simply because of being secretly in love with such a girl brings caring and warmth.When he thought of this, he felt a miraculous throbbing in his heart. This inexplicable warmth even affected his judgment - the other party was Ye Zhanyan.How much he didn't want to trust Luo Zhi.But now, he neither believed that Ye Zhanyan would frame her nor believed that she was guilty. But one side is always lying, isn't it? He was a mess. Sheng Huainan turned over again, poked his head out of the quilt, and looked directly at the fluorescent lights on the ceiling in front of him. But why, why did he ask her excitedly, asking her if she had a crush on him in high school... Her expression, that kind of indifference that "has nothing to do with you", why? Is the one you like really Sheng Huainan? You approached him, you told him stories, you smiled slyly at him, you lowered your head and gently pressed your mouth when he held your hand—did you really see the person in front of you clearly at those times? ?Sheng Huainan suddenly felt sour in his heart. I thought you would be the one who understood me. Secret love is painful, right?The farthest distance in the world is when you are by my side, but I don't know that you love me. However, sometimes, what is more painful is that I know you love me, but I don't know if it is me you love. He was startled when his phone vibrated next to his pillow. "A new piece of information comes from Zhanyan". Ye Zhanyan called herself a few hours ago at the New Year's Reception, saying Happy New Year, and that she felt bored attending the New Year's Reception with her father, and her tone was natural and smooth, as if they had been talking on the phone yesterday and the day before yesterday and never lost contact—even some The coquettish tone back then.However, he only smiled a few times reluctantly, and there was no way to break out of the scope of politeness. "I'm downstairs with you. Even if you are already asleep, you will know when you wake up tomorrow morning. I once stood here all night, just to see if you are doing well. " He sat up abruptly, and the boss laughed loudly, "Master, you want to cheat the corpse?"