Chapter 35 Chapter 34 Rainy Day

In mid-November, winter is coming.The heating was turned on in the dormitory yesterday, and Luo Zhi has been hiding in a corner since then, unwilling to go out. She didn't eat at night, so she grabbed a box of instant noodles from the supermarket.When I ate half of it, I found that there was no taste. It turned out that the powder seasoning packet was left in the box.She has been dull and confused these two days.She got goosebumps from nausea as she pulled the oily, transparent pouch out of the broth with a fork. In high school, she was the fastest at instant noodles.Standing by the window sill of the boiling water room, listening to the gurgling sound of the water heater, I struggled to tear open the oil bag.Sometimes the opening is torn too small, and the solidified oil inside can only be squeezed into the bowl.At that time, a boy I didn't know stood by and frowned watching her squeeze the oil bag. That scene is vivid in my memory.Luo Zhi knew that the boy never said anything.

Indeed, the things squeezed out like that are very similar to stool.The color shape and... the dynamic effect are very similar. However, it went well today, probably because it was too cold and the oil was agglomerated. After tearing it apart, a large square piece fell into the bowl, which was meaningless at all. The noodle bowl was thrown on the table, half of the noodles were left in it, and I lost my appetite.Luo Zhi got up and wiped the seasoning packet with a facial tissue, put it upside down in her hand and played with it, looking at the seasoning powder and vegetable mince inside, in a daze.

My deskmate in junior high school has a weird habit.Every day, he would bring a packet of instant noodle seasoning, pour it into his own water bottle, and shake it vigorously. The vegetable powder would float up and down in it, and the color of the water would instantly change—that unimaginable color. Then, he started to drink it with great enjoyment, with that cherished look, he took a small sip and half-closed his eyes, naturally he couldn't see Luo Zhi's distorted face. In the end, she couldn't bear it anymore, and one day she asked, where did you get so many seasoning packets?

He stared wide-eyed, a natural look.My family cooks noodles every morning. Several packets of instant noodles are cooked together, and the seasoning packets are put in so as not to be salty. Of course, one or two packets of seasoning powder can be saved every time the noodles are cooked. So... is it good to drink? He graciously handed over the bottle and said, here, try it. The corners of the mineral water bottle had been worn white, and the liquid inside was even more horrible. Luo Zhi's eyes stayed on the water mark on the bottle mouth for a long time, swallowed and said, no, thank you.

The boy's eyes were a little hurt at the time, but he still didn't say anything.Put the mineral water bottle back into the school bag, and then leaned over the table with an embarrassed expression to do physics problems. After that, Luo Zhi never saw him drink that kind of drink again.Now that she thinks about it, she feels very sad. Asking too much about these seemingly harmless details of life can also hurt people. She never apologized.An apology is a way to revisit, second degree hurt, or act as if nothing happened. However, when she graduated, her deskmate gave her a whole set of EVA.

"Like Evangelion, right?" She put it away carefully and nodded happily. "Come on for the exam." The deskmate was a bit embarrassed to find something to say. Everyone in the class had almost left, but he was still stuck in the aisle. "The same to you." "I have nothing to cheer for. Anyway, it's good to be able to go to a vocational high school." Luo Zhi knew that it was very meaningless to comfort others at this time, so all roads lead to Rome, so she still smiled, bowed her head and did not speak. After being silent for a while, the deskmate suddenly said, "Luo Zhi, do you hate me?"

She raised her face in surprise, "how come?" "Really?" The deskmate flushed with excitement, "That's great, I like you too!" Luo Zhi was dumbfounded, as if her concept had been changed secretly, but seeing her tablemate happy, her words were stuck in her throat and she couldn't make a sound. "You don't like to talk, and I always do strange things. I can't control myself. I always make troubles in self-study classes and affect your study. You also drink strange things that make you feel sick... Later, I stopped drinking, and you also treated me Much better, talk to me too, I'm very happy."

Luo Zhi opened her mouth, unable to explain, completely unable to follow his train of thought. "I always wonder if my behavior makes you angry today, and whether it will make you happy tomorrow... Hehe, actually, you didn't pay attention to me at all, did you? I didn't know until later that I told you a lot You don't remember anything at all." The tablemate smiled foolishly, and continued, "In short, you are the best girl I have ever seen, you must work hard. I really believe in you, you will become the most amazing person." Most amazing person?How can you have such excessive demands on me?However, Luo Zhi didn't say anything, just smiled brightly at him, and casually grabbed a mechanical pencil in her pencil case that had been used for several years.

"I have used it for a long time. My favorite, the lucky pencil, is for you. I passed the exam, and everything will go well in the future." she lied.She always lied, but Luo Zhi didn't feel that there was anything wrong with her in exchange for a memory she cherished forever and the most heart-warming smile at her deskmate. What's more, she inadvertently let the boy guess her own thoughts for so long. Luo Zhi recovered from the memory, hesitated for a moment, then poured the seasoning packet into the hot water cup, stirred it with a spoon, and took a big gulp. It's a bit weird, but it's really not hard to drink.

It rained suddenly outside.There is very little rain in early winter in Beijing, so this rain is particularly deserted, and the coolness seems to penetrate into the bones. Luo Zhi opened the window, looked at the pedestrians running downstairs to hide from the rain, grinned reluctantly with the smell of mud. Can't laugh. I don't know how many times, Sheng Huainan disappeared. I sent him a few text messages asking how the cold was going, but he didn't reply.During Saturday's law class, Luo Zhi was struggling in her seat, and saw him walk in the door from a distance, but he didn't even glance in her direction.

Luo Zhi didn't know whether it was sad or angry, she had no ability to react at all. What's even more frightening is her uncontrollable text message hallucinations. Turn off the phone, turn it on, no new text messages, turn off the phone again, and turn it on again... Nokia finally died at this moment. Luo Zhi, are you alright? Facing the restarting screen, she planned to smile. After resisting for a few seconds, she suddenly closed the window and fell down on the bed in the dormitory. Although the posture was not as exaggerated as Belle's, the essence was the same. No wailing.It was just tears slowly oozing out, and she gave up resisting.It turns out that when you care about someone, it's useless to pretend to be anything on the surface. All kinds of emotions that she once despised came to my heart wantonly. If, if Ding Shuijing really cared about her opinion and attitude, then she must not have made her feel good during this period of time.Comparing her heart with her heart, Luo Zhi felt very guilty. The so-called retribution. After all, life is not acting in a movie. When the plot begins to turn in the middle of the movie, the right time and place follow the protagonist's awakening and make a big reversal.However, God treated her so hot and cold, and her determination and pride of "finally being brave once" were immediately shattered. She can make decisions, but she really doesn't count. I finally got tired of crying, just like I used to run laps on the playground until I collapsed. Wiped away the tears, stayed for a while, and opened the vocabulary book on the table. Is the first new word in all word books in the world "abandon"?Many people sign up for the TOEFL IELTS with arrogance, vowing to keep memorizing words, but the first new word they see is "give up".She laughed, with a bit of dark humor.Then turn to the page with the bookmark. Luo Zhi, Luo Zhi, you have to work hard. Suddenly, the phone on the desk vibrated, and it happened twice in a row.Luo Zhi was startled. Zhang Mingrui, and Sheng Huainan.Same sentence. "Where are you? You weren't trapped outside by the heavy rain." She replied to Zhang Mingrui, "Thank you for your concern, I'm staying in the dormitory." Luo Zhi threw her schoolbag on the chair and found herself shaking a little.It may be that the weather is too cold.She crouched on the ground, clutching her arms, confused. As soon as she entered the room, the heat hit her face.Just went out. He didn't seem to realize that he was holding it too tightly, and when he let go, there were a few white marks on his arm, which gradually became a little red and swollen.