Chapter 31 Chapter Thirty How Not To Be Alone

Seeing through the glass of the rest area many children practicing spinning under the guidance of the teacher, Luo Zhi was a little lost in thought. When she realized that Sheng Huainan had already put on her skates and was looking at her helplessly, she quickly sat down, Put the white pattern knife to the foot and start to take off the shoes. Because of being watched by him, Luo Zhi was very nervous, she barely put her left foot on, tied her shoelaces and tied the knot into a tight knot, when she started to put on her right foot, suddenly Sheng Huainan half-kneeled in front of her. "Are you sure you didn't go to university through the back door?"

Luo Zhi stopped, but he hadn't chewed through the ambiguous reproach and sarcasm in his words, he had already lowered his head to take the shoelaces in her hand and began to thread the shoe holes, his movements were smooth and neat. When tying her shoelaces, Sheng Huainan's head rested against Luo Zhi's knees, she could clearly smell Sassoon, and the smell of Ariel washing powder on the scarf, like a dream, unchanged for many years. In a trance, he was already skating hand in hand with him on the cool ice rink, and he didn't even refute when he laughed at his three-legged cat's skating level, but bowed his head as docilely and shyly as a kitten.

When she sat on the sidelines to rest again, she suddenly wanted to know how she would feel if she recalled today after many years. That mood depends on how far away the time of memory is from now, and it depends on the final result of the two of them. "What are you thinking?" Luo Zhi glanced at him, and said slowly, "Aren't you better than the average person? I'll give you a chance to read minds." "You've lived for twenty years, and I've only known you for two months. You have to give me some time." He handed over a chocolate-flavored one, and he tore open a strawberry-flavored one and ate it.

"Do you like strawberries?" Luo Zhi wanted to laugh, and suddenly remembered what Luo Yang said, do you girls like the taste of strawberries? "I don't like it," he swallowed a mouthful of ice cream, "I realized after buying it that you like chocolate and not strawberries, so I'll eat this." During the chat, I accidentally mentioned that I like chocolate-flavored ice cream. Luo Zhi remembered it, narrowed her eyes and smiled, and said to him, "Thank you." "By the way, you have finished your midterm exams." "Well, including Fa Dao's midterm paper, everything is over."

"However, the end of the term is coming soon." "Yes, soon." "Let's go to self-study together in the future." Sheng Huainan suddenly suggested. "Okay. Where do you usually study by yourself?" "The library, what about you?" "The library always needs to occupy seats, and the air circulation is not good. But one advantage is that the desks are very large. I usually go to a teaching place, which is a bit worn out, but there are very few people, so there is no need to find a seat." "No wonder I can always meet all kinds of classmates in the library, but I have never seen you."

"I usually seldom borrow books." "Don't you like reading books very much?" "Yeah, but I prefer to buy them back to read. I like new books. The books in the library have been touched by many people. They are dirty and hot to the touch." Sheng Huainan suddenly laughed wickedly. "What?" Luo Zhi asked in bewilderment. "It's a good thing you're not a boy..." He stopped talking and continued to laugh. Luo Zhi tilted her head and thought for a while, then laughed, "Virgin complex? Come on, the point is not here. I don't even like the new books in the library."

"Then why?" "Because I have to return it sooner or later. When I think that it will not belong to me one day, I am very flustered. I must buy it in my hand, hold it in my hand and read it, make excerpts while reading it, and keep it like new. Let it stay on my bookshelf obediently. However, the bookshelf has long been unable to fit, and there is a big box under the bed." "Can I understand that you are too possessive and have too little sense of security?" Luo Zhi rolled his eyes at him, "Do you think psychology is such a simple subject?" Sheng Huainan actually stuck out her tongue. She suddenly felt her ears burning, so she quickly turned her head away.

"However, sometimes you can really see interesting things in the library, such as the one in the movie where a man and a woman collide unintentionally, the books are scattered all over the floor, and then..." He started laughing again, "It's really clichéd Yes, when Zhang Mingrui was a freshman, every time he said he was tired and wanted to leave his seat and go to the bookshelves, he would bump into one casually. An academic machine with sharp eyes and teeth, no sister in white with fluttering hair." "He should go to the classical literature area to try his luck. This kind of thing depends on the number of girls in each college?" Luo Zhi's mind suddenly appeared Zhang Mingrui's playful smile, and he couldn't help but also started to laugh. Xi.

"However, although I understand his psychology, I still feel that the real 'unintentional encounter' is more meaningful. In retrospect, it will feel a bit destined by fate." Sheng Huainan's words made Luo Zhi a little frustrated, yes, why don't I know, she thought silently, without saying a word. "Back then, when I liked Ye Zhanyan," he said, Luo Zhi couldn't help turning her head to look at him in amazement, and Sheng Huainan's original natural words were frightened by her, "What's wrong?" "No, it's just...the topic changed too quickly."

He mentioned Ye Zhanyan in front of her, in such a casual tone, without concealing it.A stone fell from her heart.The speculations caused by Zheng Wenrui's words and the text messages in the playground were self-defeating.He can already mention her so calmly, can't he. "I fell in love with her at the time, so I had a lot of expectations for such boring activities as going to the cafeteria for dinner, or to put it another way, I was looking forward to all the activities outside the classroom. Go out and wander around. Many people can deliberately walk in the hallway after class or during lunch break and dinner, just to increase the chance of meeting someone in their hearts. However, if you try to limit your actions and keep your life in a normal state, it will not be easy. With one more expectation, it will feel very different, I don't know if you can understand..."

"It seems that fate came here by itself, rather than you looking for it on purpose." "You are much more concise than me," Sheng Huainan made a twitching expression, "What a shame." Luo Zhi ignored it, "Could it be that there is no difference at all? There is no special action at all?" She didn't know what answer to expect. "However, there will still be a small change. Maybe you will laugh when you say it." "Go ahead. I want to hear it." "At that time, I knew that she liked to chat and take a walk with her good friends on the playground after dinner, and liked to sit next to the flag raising platform, so every time before eating, she would go to occupy the space, and occupied the one next to the flag raising platform. Some of my buddies noticed the basketball hoop, and they helped me to occupy the space. Sometimes I saw her in the corridor and passed by, and I would suddenly joke with the buddies next to me, laughing loudly and loudly on purpose. Cheerful, sometimes my friends thought I was having intermittent convulsions during that time." You will also have such a performance?Luo Zhi laughed out loud, "However, don't you feel very awkward? For example, afraid of embarrassing yourself? I know that boys playing together can sometimes be very brutal, swearing or something, although these are necessary jokes , but don’t you feel that your expressions and movements are unnatural because of her presence?” "Ah, yes. However, even if it's awkward, the more you want to score when you shoot, the more unstable you will be. Not only do you not show off, but you often make embarrassments. But, think about it, that kind of feeling is not bad." Sheng Huainan smiled heartily, Luo Zhi looked down at her toes, their love was so magnanimous. "But I don't think I really saw you in high school." "Really?" You've seen it, you just haven't noticed it.Luo Zhi felt that there was no point in discussing it. "It must be a person who stays in the classroom, and never goes out. There are a few boys and girls in class 2 opposite us who are very conspicuous. They wander in the corridor every day. Once they went out of the classroom to go to the bathroom for several days without meeting these people. I wonder if they disappeared collectively and dropped out of school." They are conspicuous, so if you don't see them for a few days, you will think they are missing.Even if I squat at the gate of your class every day, it means that I have never appeared.Luo Zhi smiled and said, "It's more comfortable to stay in the classroom. After class, you can continue to read novels and comics. Of course, I also read them in class." "It's good to read more books," he nodded. "You can learn from other people's lessons." "Actually, reading books doesn't have any guiding significance most of the time. It's just to discover that there are all kinds of wonders in the world. There are many people who are unluckier or better than me. They don't feel too lonely." He looked at her seriously, "Do you feel lonely?" "Didn't you say that I have a lot of things on my mind? Forget who on the tricycle said I live alone?" "Don't you have any good friends?" Luo Zhi tilted her head and thought about it. In fact, she didn't need to think about it at all, but she didn't want her to say "no" so bluntly, "No. But I have a very good brother, but it's not a friend, but a family member." "So reading?" Luo Zhi didn't know how to explain it, she was afraid that Sheng Huainan would think that she was indifferent and eccentric - but after thinking about it, why did she hide it, she really did. "Then what if you feel confused, have something you can't figure out, and don't communicate with your friends? Will there be answers in the book?" he asked. "Probably not, but at least let you know that there are many people who have the same troubles as you and are also looking for answers from ancient times to the present. You are not alone. Moreover, there are indeed many experiences from the predecessors that are worth learning from." He laughed again, only then did Luo Zhi realize that there were tiny dimples on his face. "Really? For example, once we swore to each other, and love was inseparable, why did it become so boring later? Is there an answer in the book?" She could smell a bit of joking sadness from his words.She guessed why. "Camus said," she answered him slowly, "love can burn or exist, but not both." Sheng Huainan was silent for a while after listening, and said, "Well, what my dad said is right, it is good to read more books. It is much more profound and simpler than what those mother-in-law and mother-in-law say." In fact, many times when I read such sentences that resonate with her, I often feel tired while excited.She managed to accumulate a little bit of inspiration here and there, and when she suddenly looked up, she found that her predecessors had already carried it forward and done it a thousand times better. "We are forced to develop a little life wisdom by the trivial matters of daily life. This is not fake. It is just that what we try our best to explain and describe, the predecessors have already explained it clearly, and there is no room for development. All Things are not unprecedented.” He stretched and leaned back on the chair back, "Is this how you feel the existence of your ancestors, and then you are not alone?" The words were a bit teasing, but Luo Zhi was not angry. Books, besides depressing her own vulgarity, had once given her much joy.In her lonely and humble youth, when she gradually grew envious of those glamorous youth, another sense of superiority rose at the same time, like an old man looking down at a child who doesn't know how to feel sad.And these senses of superiority all come from those books. Naturally, it also comes from her poverty and vicissitudes. Without retorting, she stood up, threw the ice cream wrapper into a nearby trash can, and said, "I'll go skate."