Chapter 48 Section 1

The phone rang.Prince Chambord did not expect that this time Poentso took the initiative to call him, and he was as happy as if he had found the "Seven Tara Gate": "It must be my prayer before the Buddha that worked, and you finally turned on the phone. I I don’t know how many times I’ve called you, I thought you already…” Poencuo said: "I jumped down a long time ago, but I still feel that I have something to say, so I just wait, when I want to say something." "Do you want to talk now?" "No, I want to die now, and I will die after I finish talking."

"Then don't talk about it, just keep waiting, I won't listen." Poentso begged: "You should listen to it. If you don't listen, I will take it away. I won't even leave a story to this world." "Okay, okay, take your time." Poentso said in a very thin voice: "I am a precocious person, and I knew from a very young age that I was created by my parents' joy in bed, that I was a product of sin, and I carried the sin they imposed on me from birth. As I grow up day by day, I often ask myself: What is the meaning of life brought about by this kind of sin? I hate my parents. They are authentic Tibetans but don’t believe in Buddhism, so I don’t believe in it either. What they left me, except divorce Finally, the indifference to me and my dumb sister, and then a house. Later, my mother’s new husband, a man who believed in Buddhism, took away my house and beat me. I got it back, and died in a car accident before I had time. Fortunately, the company paid me a lot of wages, and I was able to rent a house and support my dumb sister. After that, my life changed. First I took drugs, and after quitting, Started drinking again, and what drinking brought me was alcoholism, and every time I drank, I got drunk. I knew that I was beautiful and attractive, and in this flashy world, I could do whatever I wanted. I had no love, I didn’t love others, and they didn’t love me. I Intercourse with men is all sex, sex, sex, full of adventure and possession. When I gave myself to three men one night and went crazy until dawn, I started to see men sick. Sexual indulgence brought me exactly It was sexual aversion, and I stopped having sex. But then it changed, and I found that only when a woman has uncontrollable love can she enter a real and definite life, and will she have real pleasure, including the pleasure of sexual intercourse. I With love, I am surprised that I actually have love. I am not sure whether he loves me or not, but I love him, just like a seed fell in my heart, and it quickly grew into a tree, verdant Extreme. The feeling is terrible and painful, but there is a different kind of pride and warmth. You are proud that you can give everything for him, and you can die for him. Oh yo, love originally wanted to die for him. He's a cop. We've been dating for three years and I haven't had a drink or dated any other man for three years. When I was 100% sure he'd marry me, he yelled at me, 'Get out .' The reason is that he found out my dumb sister was doing drugs. I don't think that's a reason, my sister is my sister, I am me, and it's not my poor dumb sister who is going to marry him. I asked him to explain and he said 'I Such a person needs to marry who you should think about'. What can I do? An ant who will be trampled to death at any time, a cowardly woman who lives in fear, how can she beg for love from a policeman? If she is not dumb My sister is left alone, I committed suicide a long time ago. At this time I met you, you are the best man I have ever met in my life but the man I dare not love the most, so the idea of ​​suicide became more and more intense, It's getting stronger."

She stopped talking, and Prince Chambord was silent for a while before asking: "Can you tell me who the policeman who abandoned you is? I can call and tell him some truths about love." "How could he listen to you?" "I can give him a medicine. After taking it, he will fall in love with you again and never give up." "What medicine is so effective?" "The Love Song of Tsangyang Gyatso." Poentso shouted: "Don't tell me fairy tales, I'm not a child." "Buddha, I mean it. How about this, let's kick that policeman away and talk about the things between us. You say that others don't love you, and you say that I am the best man. You dare not The best man I love is now loving you. Listen, I'm not a liar, I'm telling the truth. As long as you give up suicide, I'll do what you want me to do. We've known each other for two months, right? That's enough to produce love."

"You just want to save me. When I don't commit suicide, you won't love me anymore. So I must commit suicide and jump from here with your promise to love me. The thirty-six-story building is not high. It will take about ten seconds until death, okay, the body is shattered, and the soul is out of the body." "It turns out that you believe in a soul, and your soul lacks a master." "I don't believe, I don't believe that there are spirits and gods in the world, I don't believe in retribution, I don't believe that Buddha is good for us, and I don't even believe that people can have a spirit that is different from the body."

"Then do you trust me? Can trusting me make you believe in Buddha?" "You can make me believe in Buddha? When, right now?" "Hurry up, you will believe me when I open the 'Seven Tara Gate'." "Why? What is the 'Seven Tara Gate'?" "Buddha's light, the Buddha's light that can make others love you, and make you love others." Poentso said contemptuously: "It's the Buddha again. The Buddha never solves problems. When he meets someone who doesn't want to die, he says yes, end this painful life quickly. If he dies, he will be reincarnated. When he meets someone who is hungry , He said that hunger in this life is because you didn’t accumulate virtue in your previous life, so hurry up and do good deeds. When someone bullies you, he says that it’s a blessing to suffer a loss, and repay a grievance with virtue. In the end, those who don’t want to die still die, those who are hungry are still hungry, and those who suffer a loss are still Suffering. Especially in wars, earthquakes, floods, so many people died, where is the Buddha?"

"That's because people's hearts are not Buddha, and it's because..." "Stop talking, I don't want to hear it." "You must listen to this. How will your dumb sister live if you die?" "I don't care, I can't control it if I want to. She is still taking drugs. I infected her at the beginning. I quit, but she can't quit. She took all the money I earned. It's not enough, and I have to sell it. Jewelry, clothes, and everything of value, and stealing. I can't do anything about her. Maybe it's better if I die, and I've consulted a fortune teller, and she said that she must have a better result than me."

"You just gave you an excuse to give up your dumb sister." "I bought life insurance. If I die, my dumb sister will have money." "What do you do if she takes the money to buy drugs?" "I can't do anything alive, what can I do if I die?" After Poencuo finished speaking, he hung up resolutely.Prince Chambord called again, but she didn't answer, so anxious that he beat his head with his mobile phone: what should I do?what to do?What if Po Entso is about to die? Mesa sneered and said, "She didn't commit suicide, she just used suicide to fall in love with you."

Prince Chambord said loudly: "Since Poencuo is using his life to talk about love, it is even more necessary not to love. Stop, stop." "What are you stopping for? You're not digging termas?" Mesa said, and handed him the translated "translucent text". "Look, what exactly is it?" Prince Chambord held the "translucent text" and couldn't read a single word. Poencuo kept appearing in his mind: "It was the police who abandoned her, and she committed suicide for the police. If I knew who the policeman was, I would Alright." Immediately sent a text message to Poencuo: Who is the policeman?who?who?who?who?who?

Prince Chambord knew that Poencuo would not respond, so he threw the phone and the "translucent text" on the seat, and put his hands on his head.However, the phone rang, and it was the sound of a text message. Poencuo said: Should I tell you?I want to think about it. This means that there is still time, and when there is time, there is hope. He immediately wrote back: Think slowly, I will wait without eating or drinking.