Chapter 8 Chapter 8 The Cry of the Soul

Sure enough, Ma Qianli came back two hours later, taking Du Yiyue with him. After getting out of the car, I went straight to Xiao Bai's office, opened the door and shouted: "Doctor Xiao, you are really right. This girl is like crazy. When she heard that we had arrested Luo Qi, she rushed towards us ...Fortunately, you warned us, so nothing happened." Xiao Bai frowned, "What about her?" "In order to prevent her from making trouble, we put handcuffs on her... She scratched my neck with her nails." Ma Qianli raised his neck to show Xiao Bai. Xiao Bai sighed, and called a nurse, "Call a few male nurses, and take Du Yiyue to the women's ward for partial restraint. See if she is willing to eat, and give her some food after partial restraint." Easy-to-digest food, I'll see her later."

The nurse nodded and was about to leave when Xiao Bai called again: "Be careful, she's very nervous right now, don't let her hurt herself." The nurse responded again and left quickly. "Doctor Xiao, what's going on here? Did this girl go crazy from fright?" Ma Qianli asked with a grin, rubbing his neck. Xiao Bai sighed deeply, "She should have suffered from Stockholm Syndrome, also known as hostage complex, which is a relatively rare psychological misunderstanding. During the long-term hostage period, the hostage has a good impression and dependence on the perpetrator. Even falling in love with an emotional wrong love that hurts others."

"S... what is it? There is still this kind of disease?" Ma Qianli was stunned. Xiao Bai nodded, "Stockholm Syndrome is very rare, but not completely absent." "Strange, this is really the first time I have seen such a hostage." Ma Qianli shook his head incomprehensibly. Xiao Bai introduced: On August 23, 1973, two robbers robbed a bank in Stockholm, the capital of Sweden.The police arrived in time and surrounded the bank.The two robbers held three bank employees hostage in a standoff with police for six days. Unbelievable things happened during these six days. The three staff members even developed a good impression of the robbers and even protected the robbers against the police.Until a few months after the robbers surrendered to the police, the three employees who had been held hostage also unanimously stated that they did not hate the robbers.Not only refused to accuse the robbers in court, but also helped the robbers raise funds for legal defense.

What is even more incredible is that one of the female staff members fell in love with the robbers.No matter how much the family and doctors persuaded, it was useless, and finally got engaged to the robber while serving his sentence. "This incident has attracted the attention of countless psychologists. This strange psychological change is also called Stockholm Syndrome according to the name of the city. It is Du Yiyue who has entered this psychological misunderstanding that he will attack you in turn. " Xiao Bai sighed. Ma Qianli opened his mouth in astonishment for a long time before he came back to his senses, "This is the first time I've heard of this kind of disease. Then when will she recover? I hope she can testify in court."

Xiao Bai shook his head, "This is a peculiar psychological misunderstanding, and we can only rely on psychological guidance. It will be difficult to recover in the short term. At present, we can only appease her emotions. Have you notified her family?" "I've been notified, and I'm rushing over." Ma Qianli nodded. "Well, after seeing her family, her emotions will soon settle down. I haven't seen her yet, so I don't know what level she has reached now. I guess she has little hope of testifying in court. But you guys in Luo Qi The criminal evidence found in the old nest should be enough, right?" Xiao Bai asked again.

Ma Qianli nodded, "It's all thanks to Dr. Xiao's help. It's Luo Qi's second uncle's old house. His second uncle has no heirs and bequeathed it to him, so we can't find out. I found a bunch of books related to criminal investigation, and it can be seen that he has done a lot of homework." "What's it like in that room?" Xiao Bai asked. "It's an old-fashioned one-story house in the countryside. The location is very remote, and there are no people around. It has two bedrooms, one living room, a large yard and a cellar. One of the rooms was converted into an operating room by him, and Du Yiyue was locked in the cellar." Every time he goes back in the middle of the night, he parks his car in the yard, and when the gate is closed, no one knows what’s going on inside. I asked the nearby villagers, and they said that no one lives in that house.” Ma Qianli Said with a wry smile.

Xiao Bai also sighed: "Life can drive a person crazy, it can release the devil in his heart, and become another person he doesn't even know himself." "Isn't there still you angels who guard the soul?" Ma Qianli said with a smile. Xiao Bai shook his head, but he didn't say anything more.There was a trace of helplessness and compassion in his eyes, as well as his bottomless sadness. I don't understand why he has such eyes. Could it be that he sympathizes with Luo Qi, a murderer? "Just...what's the disease? Could it be that Du Yiyue has been like this since then, falling in love with someone who hurt her?" Ma Qianli still couldn't remember that name.

Xiao Bai shook his head, "It's also the first time I come into contact with such a medical case, and I will try my best to guide her out of this misunderstanding as soon as possible." "This disease is so unbelievable that I would fall in love with someone who hurt me." Ma Qianli was amazed, with big question marks and exclamation marks on his face. Knowing that Ma Qianli wanted to know the cause of this strange disease, Xiao Bai slowly explained: Not every abductee will suffer from Stockholm syndrome, and there are several important conditions for its occurrence.

1. The hostages truly feel that the perpetrator can directly threaten and decide their own life and death. During Du Yiyue's kidnapping, he could see every crime committed by Luo Qi.This is a strong hint that he can take her life at any time. 2. During the period of being held hostage, the perpetrator expressed some hints of concern for the hostages and acts of kindness, and these hints and actions were accepted and noticed by the hostages.The most critical one is that the hostages were not seriously injured during the process of being held hostage. What hostages need most in such a terrible environment is self-comfort.So the hostages infinitely magnified these good hints in their hearts to comfort themselves.When these hints are amplified beyond the harm she has suffered, her subconscious mind will get a self-comforting concept-he is actually forced to do this, and he will not hurt me-he is a good person!

In other words, during the six months that Du Yiyue was held hostage, Luo Qi did not hurt her. 3. During the hostage process, the hostages are completely isolated from outside information.I can only see the perpetrator all day long, and under the influence of the perpetrator's thoughts and opinions, gradually transform from fear to identification. Du Yiyue was locked in the cellar for half a year, which was completely consistent.Moreover, Luo Qi was in charge of her board and lodging, which formed the concept of a master in her subconscious. 4. The hostage confirms that he cannot be rescued at all, that is, complete despair.Only after giving up the hope of being rescued, will they begin to work hard to adapt and settle down in this kind of hostage life.This is relatively common in prisons. Newly imprisoned criminals will desperately resist and even try their best to escape.But after experiencing countless failures, he will begin to adapt and settle down in this prison life.

It still has something to do with time, half a year is indeed not a short period of time, enough to make Du Yiyue completely desperate in that cellar. 5. It has something to do with the personality of the hostage. This is actually the most important one. This is why Stockholm Syndrome is rare.It is not uncommon for hostages who have been kidnapped for decades, still resist their perpetrators, and finally escape successfully. So it was Du Yiyue who kidnapped Luo Qi, if it was another person, the result might not be the same. It is said that Stockholm syndrome is rare, but it is actually not uncommon. It has appeared in various concentration camps, prisoner-of-war camps, prisons, cults, pyramid schemes, and various kidnapping incidents in history.When a group of people are in this environment at the same time, this psychological shift is amplified in the group. Social psychology points out that the influence of groups is extremely powerful, even terrifying.It is not a group of people that can form a group, such as hundreds of employees in a company.Although they work together, if they do not have a sense of identity with each other, they will not have the concept of a group, and several people in the same department will easily form a small group relationship.And if they live and die with each other in an environment similar to the Jewish concentration camp, they will quickly form a group relationship in this environment. When this group relationship is formed, the influence of the group also appears, especially in the form of group pressure.In order to avoid being isolated by the group, individuals unconsciously begin to obey and cater to the group, including psychologically, to achieve amazing consistency. For example, before joining a cult, many people had their own personalities and ideas.But once an individual identifies with this group, they will quickly follow the crowd.Become a puppet in this group that acts in unison, even thinking and psychology are amazingly consistent.The same is true for group crimes, the 1983 Hulun Buir League massacre is the best example. The 19-year-old Hong Jie led the seven children he had just met to the road of crime with one meal, and killed 27 people overnight. The Stockholm Syndrome is like a duck to water in this group, and it spreads rapidly. This kind of group influence spread is called: Stockholm Mental Syndrome. For example, the three bank employees in the previous example quickly formed a group relationship under the condition of living and dying with the same fate, and the three of them also suffered from Stockholm Syndrome at the same time. Xiao Bai explained for a long time before Ma Qianli nodded and said, "It's really weird, I never thought that even people can be tamed." "It is the nature of all animals to fear the strong and bully the weak, and human beings are just one of the animals after all." Xiao Bai had a trace of helplessness on his face. Ma Qianli chuckled, "You, a doctor, dare to say such things?" Xiao Bai sighed, glanced at Ma Qianli, and asked, "If you abandon your humanity, what's the difference between humans and animals?" "I don't have time to discuss these philosophical issues with you." Ma Qianli scratched his head, and then said goodbye: "Then Du Yiyue will leave it to you, and I will go back and finish this case. It can be regarded as a big stone in my heart. , I can sleep well tonight." Xiao Bai nodded with a smile, got up and sent him out. I also walked to the door of his office, "I... want to visit Du Yiyue." Xiao Bai pondered for a while, nodded and said: "Well, let's come together. She knows you, before her relatives come, you can help her to comfort her." I followed Xiao Bai to the female patient building, and I kept thinking about what Du Yiyue would become.What could a girl who was locked in the cellar for half a year be like?Must be ragged and unkempt. But when I saw her, I froze.Because of her extreme resistance, the nurse did not change her hospital gown, and she was still wearing her original clothes.It was the latest gray and white European-style loose woolen gown, and her complexion was also very good, not as pale as Yu Mo's long-term absence of sunlight.If I'm not mistaken, she also seems to have light makeup on. She was partially restrained, half lying on the hospital bed, and looked at everyone vigilantly.Her eyes swept across my face coldly, just shifted away, fell back again, and fixed——she recognized me. "Tang Ping?!" She was a little surprised. I nodded, "Long time no see, Xiaoyue." "It's good that you're here! Quickly help me untie these things, they treat me as mentally ill..." She froze again when she said this, because she just noticed that I was also wearing a hospital gown. "You...how did you become a patient?" She continued to ask. I smiled wryly, "I have depression." "Oh..." She opened her mouth, but didn't know what to say. In fact, this situation is a bit funny. She and I actually met in this way in a mental hospital. "Hello, I'm Xiao Bai, your attending doctor." Xiao Bai introduced himself. "You guys are sick! Why are you arresting me! Let me go!" Du Yiyue struggled and cursed at Xiao Bai. Xiao Bai smiled and asked: "Let go of you, what are you going to do?" "I want to see Luo Qi, have you caught Luo Qi?" Du Yiyue replied bluntly. "Luo Qi was arrested by the police, we are only responsible for the patients." Xiao Bai replied, first dispelling her hostility. Du Yiyue glared at him, "I'm not sick, let me go!" "Do you know that Luo Qi killed three people?" Xiao Bai asked. "So what if you know?" she replied. "And he kidnapped you, right?" "So what?" Du Yiyue replied again. Xiao Bai smiled slightly, "You fall in love with someone who kidnaps you and hurts you, is this kind of love reasonable?" Du Yiyue opened her mouth, thought for a while, and replied: "Love doesn't need a reason, and he never hurt me." Xiao Bai nodded with a smile and said: "I know he treats you very well. Apart from kidnapping and imprisoning you, he has never done anything wrong to you. He also buys you clothes and daily necessities, takes good care of you, and even takes care of you often. You go to the yard to bask in the sun." "You...how did you know?" Du Yiyue was stunned. "Of course I know, and I also know that at first you tried desperately to escape, but you kept failing. Later, you didn't even have the idea of ​​​​running away. Even after that, there were countless opportunities in front of you, and you never thought about running away again. Or call for help." Xiao Bai continued. Du Yiyue thought for a while and asked, "Did Luo Qi tell you?" "I don't need Luo Qi to tell me, I can guess it." Xiao Bai replied seriously, and then asked: "Have you heard of Stockholm Syndrome?" Du Yiyue shook her head, Xiao Bai roughly explained the illness. After finishing speaking, Xiao Bai looked at Du Yiyue and said, "Now, you ask yourself a question: Are you in love with Luo Qi, or have you been tamed by Luo Qi?" Du Yiyue lowered her head and remained silent. Xiao Bai sighed, "Tell me about the matter between you and Luo Qi, don't worry, your family is coming. As long as you can understand and get out of this misunderstanding, you can leave here at any time." Du Yiyue was silent for a while, and then slowly said: In fact, Luo Qi is quite worthy of sympathy. When he was in the company, everyone treated him as a fool and a punching bag.In fact, his paintings have many merits and solid painting skills, but lack of creativity.Many people in the company talked too much, and he was like a sandbag, letting others beat him without saying a word. In fact, I know that he attaches great importance to other people's evaluation. Once I praised his painting casually, he scratched his head like a child and smirked for a long time.I can't help him, I still need this job, so I can't go tit for tat for him.I can only encourage him and comfort him from time to time, but in fact, there is only so much I can do. On the day Luo Qi was fired, I was actually very lucky for him. I hope he can change to another better working environment in the future, with fewer harsh colleagues.After that, there is no news of him, and I don't know how he is doing.It's just a dismissed colleague, and I don't care so much. But just three months after he was fired, on my way home from overtime work, someone behind me covered my mouth with a handkerchief.I passed out after smelling a strange smell. When I woke up, I saw myself locked in that cellar.Luo Qi squatted in a corner like a kitten, pulling her hair with both hands and staring at me blankly.His eyes are very complicated, I can't tell what it is, like annoyance, helplessness, fear... No sooner had I called to him than he turned and fled, locking the little cellar door.I went to the door and asked him why he did that, and I knew he was leaning behind the door.He didn't answer me, he just slammed his head against the wall desperately, asking himself: "Why did I become like this? Why did I become like this, why..." When he faced me, he didn't say a word.He just brought me food every day, bought me new clothes when he saw my clothes were dirty, and even bought cosmetics for me.He also built me ​​a bathroom in the cellar, and once I took the opportunity to grab a brick and smash it over the head.Maybe it was because my hand was too weak to knock him unconscious, blood flowed from his head, and he just turned his head and looked at me blankly with blood on his face.I was terrified, I took a few steps back and shivered in a corner.I don't know what he will do to me next. He just stared at me blankly for a few minutes, "I'm sorry..." he said, then turned around and went out to bandage.At that moment, my tears came down, and I didn't know why I was crying, whether it was for me or for him. A week later, he killed for the first time, and I don't know what happened outside the cellar.But I could guess, I could hear the sound of struggle and another man's screams.A few hours later, I heard Luo Qi's painful howling again. He kept cursing himself and those who had discriminated against him.He kept asking: "Why are you forcing me! Why are you forcing me to take this path..." After a long time, he became more and more silent.In addition to bringing me food every day, I just stay in front of the TV and radio, constantly changing channels to listen to news reports about this case.I know he is very scared, except to buy daily necessities, he hardly ever goes out.Occasionally he would go back to his house in the city for a few hours to hide from the public.Then come back here at night, and in the middle of the night I often hear him screaming when he wakes up from a nightmare.He squatted at the door of the cellar and stared blankly at me every day. No matter what I said or asked, he didn't answer, just kept staring at me blankly. Until one time, I tentatively said: "I want to go to the yard to bask in the sun." Unexpectedly, he agreed, opened the door of the cellar, and went to the yard with me to bask in the sun for an afternoon.He also helped me move a wooden chair from the house for me to sit on.I don't think even he himself knew why he wanted to kidnap me, so he kept looking at me so blankly, and he couldn't answer my question. Two months after the incident, he seemed to be in a much better mood.Because the police hadn't found any clues, he often went out to find out the news, and every time he came back, he hummed a little tune.He seemed to start to enjoy life, not only often brought me some roadside snacks, but also started to learn how to cook himself, and sat quietly watching me eat when he was done. I also seem to be gradually getting used to this kind of life.Luo Qi was really nice to me, he tried his best to help me with what I said and what I didn't say.Luo Qi's transformation was very slow, but also very fast. After that, the smiles on his face became more and more, and even he became more confident.He used to watch the news with trepidation, but now he watches the news with great enjoyment.As long as there is a report of this case on the news, he will watch it attentively, with a very enjoyable smile on the corner of his mouth.I have seen him smile like this, it was when I praised him for his good painting. I think he should give up after finishing this one time, but after half a year, he gradually became agitated.I kept changing the channel to find news every day, and I knew he wanted to find news about that case.But I don't know why he wanted to find it. Wouldn't it be better if there were no reports about the case? He went out suddenly one night, and when he came back, I heard his heavy footsteps and the clang of the instruments on the operating table.I knew he had killed someone again, so I yelled at him at the door of the cellar: "Luo Qi, please, don't kill anyone again! This is not you, this is not you..." He walked to the door, and after a long time, he finally replied: "This is me, I want them to remember me and my works forever!" At that moment, I was stunned and understood that what he wanted was not money, but attention.He wants to attract the attention of others, he has been ignored by others for too long... After everything was done, the corpse was kept in that room, and he had to wait for the rain to throw the corpse.I have also been staying in the cellar, I dare not go out, I am afraid of seeing the dead body.He often sat at the door of the cellar and stared at me blankly. I said, "Luo Qi, stop killing people." He stared blankly at me for a long time, then suddenly said: "You go..." Then he stood up, leaned against the wall, and flashed a passage. I was stunned, and I knew he really wanted to let me go.But I can't go now, if even I leave him, he will turn into a total devil.I saw that his figure had been swallowed up by the darkness, he was no longer the same Luo Qi as before, the only thing that remained the same - he still loved me. I said: "I won't leave, I will always be with you, but you don't want to kill any more people, okay? Let's leave here together, find a place where no one knows us, and live together." He froze for a moment and asked, "Can I? I'm a devil, and I'm not good enough for you." I said: "Yes, as long as you stop killing people, I am willing to spend the rest of my life with you." He thought for a while and said, "Let's do it one last time. I'll stop completely and end my 'art career' after I do it one last time." Then I closed the cellar door. I looked at the iron door, and my mind went blank. During the week after the second body was dumped, he watched the news and listened to the radio every day.Watching with relish, watching with great enjoyment.In fact, he is just a child who hopes someone will care about him.One time when he was enjoying watching, I walked over and turned off the TV, and I said, "Don't watch it anymore, and don't kill anyone anymore." He smiled like a greedy child, raised a finger, and looked at me with pleading eyes: "One last time, if I do it one last time, I will stop, okay? Just one time." I didn't answer him, I just went back to the cellar and sat down on the edge of the bed.I don't know why Luo Qi became like this, I only know that he has been driven crazy, the world has driven him crazy. You also know what happened later. In fact, the cellar door has never been locked, and I can leave at any time.But I'm still waiting for him to come back, and I hope that's really the last time, and I've even made plans for our future.I plan to have a few children, let them develop freely when they grow up, and learn anything in the future, just stop learning art... After hearing the story, we were all silent.The story is simple, yet puzzling.What role did Du Yiyue play in this story?Is it the victim, or the angel who saved Luo Qi's soul?Has she been tamed or has she really fallen in love with Luo Qi? "You are Luo Qi's last ray of light in the darkness, the last ray of concern in his heart. Without you, Luo Qi will kill more people." After a long time, Xiao Bai finally sighed and said slowly. "But...but I feel that I really love him. Does love need a reason?" Du Yiyue's eyes welled up with tears. Similarly, I don't know who she is crying for now, for Luo Qi, or for herself. Xiao Bai handed her a tissue, "You are a kind and good girl, but that is sympathy, not love. During the process of being imprisoned, you identified with him, relied on him, and finally thought you fell in love with him." "Do you know why Luo Qi kidnapped you?" Xiao Bai asked. Then he replied: "Because he hopes you can stop him, and his kindness is calling for your help. In fact, you have already done a lot without knowing it, otherwise it would not be just three people who died, but more. " "He said it was the last time..." Du Yiyue sobbed. Xiao Bai shook his head, "I thought it was his last time before, but now it seems not. It was just the last time I promised you, not the real last time." Du Yiyue was stunned, "Why?" "In the last case, he deliberately left a bunch of clues, hoping that the police could catch him. Because he knew clearly that it was not the real last time, and he couldn't stop. It was also because of you that he I hope that I will be caught, he doesn't want you to suffer with him, so he can only destroy himself." Xiao Bai said with a sigh. "That's what he said?" Du Yiyue was stunned. Xiao Bai shook his head again, "Actually, even he himself doesn't know these things, these things are buried in his subconscious. He can still do this, all because of you, you are the last one left in his world Alive." After Xiao Bai finished speaking, everyone was silent again.Human nature is really complicated. Luo Qi kidnapped Du Yiyue in order for her to stop him from killing more people.Luo Qi kept leaving clues so that the police could catch him and save Du Yiyue. What the hell is this story?I thought about it, this should be a story about conscience.Luo Qi killed three innocent people who had nothing to do with him at all.Seen from this side, Luo Qi is ferocious and crazy.But from Du Yiyue's point of view, he is confused, worthy of sympathy, and has not lost his humanity. Maybe everything is like this. If you look at it from another angle, you will come to a different conclusion.Luo Qi has committed a heinous crime, but he still has the last trace of relative kindness left.Fortunately, there was Du Yiyue who helped him keep this last bit of kindness, otherwise it would not be just these three people who died. Du Yiyue's family arrived and broke the silence in due course.My parents hugged her and cried, and Xiao Bai and I also left the ward to give them some space. The ideological work of Du Yiyue's parents is actually very easy to do. Xiao Bai only needs to tell them: "Du Yiyue is in love with the serial murderer Luo Qi." Her parents immediately agreed to allow Du Yiyue to receive treatment. In fact, parents are right most of the time. They are no more stupid than you. Their thinking seems old-fashioned, but they are often right.Because they have accumulated half a lifetime of real-life experience, which is more precious than gold, so sometimes we might as well listen to our parents. Just like the first time I took my girlfriend home for dinner, my parents said to me afterwards: "This girl is too fashionable and a bit of money worshiper. As soon as she enters the door, she looks around at the furniture and decoration in the house. She is not a person who lives, Not a suitable wife either." Because of this, I had a fight with them at the time. I didn't expect the development of things later, as my parents said, alas... Xiao Bai and I were smoking in the corridor, thinking about these things about Luo Qi. "What is human nature like? Is it good or evil?" I asked. "Both Freud and Xunzi agreed that human nature is inherently evil, but Confucius said that human nature is inherently good. This issue has been debated for thousands of years. In fact, it is meaningless. Whoever wins loses, and human nature is still the same." He said. "Then what do you think? What do you think human nature is like?" I asked again. "When a person is just born, in Freud's words, it is an id state. That is, the id, the beast I, has no concept of right and wrong, no distinction between good and evil, only beast-like desires and instincts. As the baby gradually Growing up, the environment, encounters, culture, morality...these tangible and intangible things taught him, influenced him, and finally shaped him." "Beast me, isn't that evil?" He shook his head, "Tigers are venomous and do not eat their offspring, and wolves are evil and respect their mother's kindness. In fact, there is no good or evil in human nature. We were all once a blank sheet of paper. The people and things we have experienced are sketched on that sheet of paper." , let us interpret and comprehend by ourselves. Human nature is taught, and even more so.” "Enlightened?" "Well, enlightenment. Enlightenment is more important than teaching. Teaching belongs to others, and enlightenment is your own. Those who are close to vermilion are red and those who are close to ink are black, this is teaching; coming out of mud but not stained, this is enlightenment. In most cases Education accounts for a large proportion, so children with rough growth are prone to mental problems. But this is not absolute. There are also examples of people who realize the true meaning of this world through the rough, mature early, and have the best in their hearts. This is teaching and enlightenment difference." "Then children who grow up in a happy family should be fine, right?" "That depends on how you define the word happiness. Excessive doting on a child will only make the child willful, late-maturing, immature, and even become another Luo Qi when he grows up. Everything must be in moderation, and love is the same." "What about love? What is love like?" I asked again. He looked at the sky, the sky was very blue at this time, without any extra embellishments.He sighed: "As I said, love cannot be defined. But love is an instinct and a need throughout human history. Anyone needs to love others and be loved, no matter what kind of love, family affection, friendship, Love...is all love. Love is invisible, but it has the most powerful power in the world." "You always talk about love very seriously. Actually, I don't think so. Don't those people who have one-night stands in bars also love every day?" He smiled slightly, "Is that love? It's just indulgent desire, distorted love. The more they want, the more confused and empty they will become. Because love is about giving, not possessing and conquering." "Love is giving..." I pondered this sentence. He smiled slightly, "Like patients with paranoid love and delusions, they don't understand the simplest truth. If you like someone, you want to get him, and you can't wait to tie him tightly to your side for a while, even under the guise of love." To hurt each other. They think this is love, but in fact it is just the most selfish possession." "Psychologically speaking?" I asked. A smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "I said so." I glanced at him, "What do you say in psychology?" He looked at me meaningfully, and said with a cheap smile: "What you say in psychology is not important, what you think is the key. Teaching belongs to others, and enlightenment is your own." "You know, every time you put on that smirk of yours, it makes me sick," I said through gritted teeth. His smile became even worse, and it can be described as sunny, "It's great that you finally said this sentence, so you don't have to keep it in your heart." "What about you, how many words do you hold back in your heart? I think you are more boring than me." I retorted. He shook his head, "I can't bring my emotions to work, otherwise I would have collapsed." "Then what do you do when you're in a bad mood? Besides talking to your girlfriend's picture, there must be other ways to vent, right?" I asked. He smiled wryly, "I'll change a handful of change, then go shopping on foot, and give a dollar to every beggar I meet." I glanced at him, "You are really rich." "Because giving is joyful, because seeing them, I know that I am not the most miserable and unlucky one in the world." He took out his phone and checked the time, "It's almost time, you should go play that shadow game with Yumo." "When did this game come to an end? It was just a simple game at the beginning, and now there is even a script. What's next?" I asked helplessly. He replied with that mean smile: "When the game will end, I don't care. It's up to Yumo to decide." So I can only continue to look for Yu Mo, and continue this game that I don't know what kind of game it is. The game goes on, and so does life. For the next week, time flies by.In fact, time has never been fast or slow. This is just our illusion.Because there is nothing worth recording in my mind this week, there is a large blank in my memory, so I feel that time flies by. Sometimes I can't help but think, what are we living in this world for?In fact, it seems to be just to accumulate some memories.For example, I would think at this moment: Did something special happen yesterday? It seems not, so I feel that yesterday passed quickly, and a feeling of wasting time will float in my heart. Anyway, Xiao Bai still didn't intend to stop this shadow game, I really don't know what this lunatic is thinking. But I can see some subtle changes in Yumo. At the beginning, she was full of interest, and she waited in the treatment room early every time.But now she is getting a little tired, and usually waits for me to call her before going, and her ward has been moved to the second floor.When I walked into her ward this afternoon, she was lying on the bed lazily flipping through the scripts she wrote, not knowing what she was thinking. "Here you are," she said. "Well, why do you look a little sullen?" I asked. She propped her knees, holding the script she wrote, and was silent for a while. "You think the stuff I write is ridiculous?" she asked. "Why do you say that?" I asked. "Isn't the story of a person growing up with his own shadow ridiculous?" she asked. "This is your own story, isn't it?" I asked. "I used to think it was, but after I have written so much now, I don't know if it is true. I used to think it was true, but I found it very difficult to write. I used to think I was writing about the past, but now I realize that I am It seems to be making up a story." She finally stopped asking me questions and replied. I was silent because I didn't know what to say. "Tang Ping, don't you think these stories are absurd? When I wrote them, I didn't know which of these stories were true and which were false. Sometimes when I woke up in the middle of the night, I suspected that I was still in a dream. , I seem to be having an endless dream," she said. "Actually, we are all dreaming. It's not that we can't, but we don't want to wake up." I said. Yu Mo looked at the script he had written in a daze, and suddenly said, "Tang Ping, why don't we change the game." "What game?" I asked. "You go east and I go west, let's see who can find himself first." She said seriously. 我愣了愣，“这……这游戏难度可太大了。” “可这游戏很多人玩了一辈子……”她忧伤地说。 我能读懂她的忧伤，但我听不懂她说的话。