Chapter 35 12. Old things repeat themselves

weekend. Wang Jingwen sat on the bed blankly.Confused, eyes slack. She woke up from a nightmare again. In fact, the nightmares that came as expected every day no longer frightened her.She has actually adapted to this kind of mental torture that is like a daily meal, and has practiced the ability to wake up from the nightmare immediately with just a hard blink of an eye.But just like this, Wang Jingwen felt deeply sad and desolate-how did the long-awaited "normal" life become like this?It's not as good as being in a nursing home.Although the previous life was monotonous, boring, and lacking in freedom, at least my heart was quiet and full of security.

Wang Jingwen looked up and let out a long sigh.She knew that what made her feel more and more uneasy was the increasing sense of contradiction every day.Whenever she doubts or dislikes her current life, her parents' warm smiles and meticulous care make her feel at a loss and grateful.Especially in the past two days, the parents have worked hard to enrich their lives.Mother cooks all kinds of fresh dishes in different ways every meal, and father buys many books he likes to read from the bookstore.All these moved Wang Jingwen, but felt sad for a while.Because it meant she had to continue to suffer from those nightmares and hallucinations.

And in the past few days, something caught Wang Jingwen's attention - she found that every time she had horrible hallucinations and horrible dreams, the same man would appear.The man either had no head, or lacked limbs, or was just a black shadow, unable to distinguish the outline and appearance.But Wang Jingwen's intuition told her that these were all the same person—from the beginning to the end, it was this phantom-like illusory man who was entangled and tormented her.She doesn't know why.All she felt was deep fear and helplessness. Today's sky has been gloomy, Wang Jingwen looked out the window, the gray sky enveloped everything, making everything look heavy and depressing, just like her mood at the moment.She looked at the wall clock on the wall again, it was already six o'clock in the afternoon - she had stayed in the room for more than five hours, and it was time to go out to get some air.

Wang Jingwen opened the door and stepped out of her room. As soon as she raised her head and looked forward, she was stunned—— Both parents sat neatly on the sofa, staring forward blankly with empty eyes.In the living room, neither the light nor the TV was turned on, and it was dull and breathless.Wang Jingwen didn't know what happened, so she asked blankly, "Dad, Mom, what are you doing?" My father turned his head mechanically and slowly, and looked at Wang Jingwen gloomyly: "We are celebrating the anniversary." Wang Jingwen's brain turned numbly: "To commemorate what? What day is today?"

"Do you know what day it is today?" Mother's tone was stiff. Wang Jingwen stood blankly, unable to remember for a while. "Today is September 12th." The father looked at her and paused every word. "September 12th..." Wang Jingwen muttered slowly, her mind was lost. The parents turned their heads away and stopped looking at her, as if they didn't want to remind her any further. Their attitude made Wang Jingwen feel that this date represented a day that should not be forgotten.She kept repeating in her mind: September 12th, September 12th... Does this day have any special significance?

Suddenly, a violent feeling of panic came over her and made her tremble.There was also a spasm in her stomach, a feeling of nausea.She covered her mouth and tried her best not to vomit, then opened the door of the house involuntarily and rushed outside. In the garden at the door, Wang Jingwen took a few deep breaths, trying to calm herself down, but her heart was still beating wildly and uncontrollably.Just a moment ago - when she was silently thinking about September 12th - a memory suddenly flashed in her mind, almost only a few tenths of a second, and she still couldn't figure out what was going on.But it was only a few tenths of a second, which already made her feel terrified and trembling all over.At this moment, what Dr. Nie said to her reappeared in her confused mind again——

"If you want to completely get rid of the psychological shadow, you must say goodbye to the 'past', and you cannot recall or pursue it. You must completely forget what happened in the past." I do, I swear!But, goodness— I seem to remember something! Wang Jingwen panicked and trembled all over. She turned her head, looked at the closed door, and suddenly felt a surge of anger. She wanted to go back and ask her face to face, what was going on! Wang Jingwen suddenly pushed the door open.Parents are no longer sitting on the sofa in the living room.The doors of each room are closed, and I don't know which room my parents are in.The whole house was filled with darkness, exuding a chilling atmosphere.

Wang Jingwen stood at the door, looking at the scene in front of her.For a moment, time seemed to stand still, and everything froze. This scene has happened before. I entered the door, the house was pitch black, no one was there, and then I went to my room... Yes, I went to the door of my room, which is what I did.Wang Jingwen's eyes slowly moved over, staring at her room, her legs became uncontrollable, and she slowly walked to the door of the room as if possessed by a demon. This is an antique-style keyhole door, through which a part of the room can be seen. At this moment, Wang Jingwen is like a puppet under a spell.Her body could no longer be controlled by her brain, she only knew that she did this at the time—yes, like now, squatting down slowly, with her eyes touching the keyhole.

She looked in.Saw the scene inside. At this moment, all the blood in Wang Jingwen's body rushed to her forehead.All the original feelings and memories are restored.She held her head and muttered with a pale face: "I remembered, I remembered everything..." As the world was spinning, she collapsed, and suddenly found in horror that the floor and walls were all covered with blood, and the whole room was stained. It was bloody red, and his body and hands were also stained with blood.The last string in Wang Jingwen's mind finally broke. After screaming heart-piercingly a few times, she passed out.

In the haze, she saw her parents standing tall in front of her, looking down at her with indifference... After an unknown amount of time, Wang Jingwen woke up.She found herself sitting on the sofa in the living room, with her parents sitting opposite her, staring at her coldly.At this moment, Wang Jingwen's memory has fully recovered, and she can't help but curl up in the corner of the sofa, staring at the two people in front of her vigilantly. Dong Lin sneered: "Why are you so scared? We won't eat you again." Wang Xingyu said indifferently: "Looking at your appearance, you have really remembered everything—in this case, our goal has been achieved."

Wang Jingwen twitched twice, and suddenly burst into tears: "You...all these years have passed, and you still haven't forgiven me. Moreover, you still refuse to let me go, and you want to take revenge on me in this way..." "Forgive you?" Dong Lin's sharp voice was like metal scraping across glass. "How dare you ask us to forgive you? What do you think you did before? Break a teacup?" Wang Jingwen's body was trembling and she didn't dare to face them. Wang Xingyu took out a photo album from behind and threw it on the tea table in front of Wang Jingwen: "Don't you want to see this photo album? Just look at it." "No, no..." Wang Jingwen shook her head in fear, shrinking into a ball. "No! You must watch!" Wang Xingyu roared angrily, "You don't want to forget! I want you to open your eyes and see clearly, to see how much pain and suffering you have brought us!" Wang Xingyu flipped through the photo album angrily, and held it in front of Wang Jingwen, almost touching her nose.Wang Jingwen couldn't avoid it, and her eyes came into contact with the photos on the album.Five years later, she saw that person again, a severe burning pain churned in her internal organs, and two lines of tears accompanied her thoughts back to several years ago...