Chapter 51 Chapter 5 Mo Xinger

I don't want love, I just want to die. When I die, I wish I could scream as loud as that rabbit screamed. Have you ever heard a rabbit scream? Twelve years ago, the winter was the coldest since I could remember, and it was rare that there was heavy snow all over the sky.Early in the morning, when I was thirteen years old, I was still hiding in bed when I was awakened by a shrill scream.I fell into a drowsy sleep, as if my heart had been stabbed, and every hair on my body stood on end.The terrifying screams continued—that was definitely not a sound that humans could make! Miserable beyond description, it hardly passes through the eardrum, but directly penetrates the skin and penetrates into the brain and heart.My heart is about to burst, split into countless pieces.I threw off the warm blanket and jumped out of bed in my underwear in the unusually cold and humid air.Prompted by the screams, in the dim light, I opened the bedroom door, walked through the hallway full of teddy bears, and broke into the kitchen where the sound came from.

The screaming had ceased forever. I saw Dad holding an iron bar covered in blood, and some blood was splashed on his body and face.There was a chopping board on the kitchen floor, and a lump of fuzzy flesh and blood lay on the chopping board, still shaking slightly.I recognize this mass of flesh and blood, although it has changed beyond recognition, but judging from the white fur, a pair of long ears and short tail, it is my Xiaobai. My little white.It is a rabbit. My father bought it from the market two days ago.Such a cute little animal, when I was thirteen years old, I even fed it with vegetable leaves and tried my best to clean up its black bean-like feces.

OMG, I thought it was a pet my dad gave me! Only then did I know that my father bought it from the vegetable market in order to have a fresh rabbit stew in the coldest season!My family has a good recipe for cooking rabbits. It just died, my dad beat it to death with a stick. Seeing my sudden change of face, my father worried that I would catch a cold in such a cold day, and urged me to go back to the bed, and then apologized: "I'm sorry, Xing'er, it was my father who was too light-handed. He beat the rabbit to death without a stick, and let it die again." I called a few times and woke you up."

Rabbits are screaming... Rabbits are screaming... Rabbits are screaming... My name is Mo Xing'er, and I am twenty-five years old. Today, I can still hear the screams—in the last refuge of mankind, I always suspect that besides cats, dogs, and mice, there may be a rabbit or a nest of rabbits hidden. April 1.Sunday.Night, 22:19. When I screamed like a rabbit under the alternate attacks of mice and horror films, I walked out of the theater on the ninth floor of the Future Dream Building, regretting that I should not watch this American horror film called "Bloody Town" alone, and hurriedly squeezed into the theater. Sightseeing elevator, just want to escape from this building as soon as possible. ——The end of the world is coming.

I witnessed a woman being cut in half by a falling elevator.I plummeted to the ground floor in the elevator, my back covered in shards of glass.I endured the pain, cleaned the wound, and pulled a large woolen cloak to wrap myself up like an Arab. I heard that I found a way to escape upstairs, so I hurried back to the ninth floor and saw Luo Haoran. The scream of the rabbit sounded in my ears, it turned out that the dream hadn't woken up yet. He still remembers me! A few minutes later, I rescued another man named Zhou Xuan. Professor Wu Hanlei became the leader of Doomsday.The owner of the building——Luo Haoran is very low-key. He is most familiar with this building and is responsible for the power supply.He never took the initiative to say a word, only when the professor asked, he said a few simple sentences, almost without adjectives and adverbs.Besides the two of them, the third person who can play a leading role is Zhou Xuan.

They jointly formulated a series of survival rules, forcing everyone to strictly abide by them.Given that resources such as food, water and air are very limited in the subterranean doomsday world, if anyone is not disciplined, everyone's life may be endangered.I found two black sheep - Guo Xiaojun in a Dior suit, the rich second generation is obviously a gay man who looks down on everyone and fantasizes that his rich dad will hire Superman, Spiderman, and Batman to go through hell to rescue him; There is an injured white-collar worker named Xu Pengfei who always glances at me out of the corner of his eye. I can feel the pornographic meaning hidden in his eyes, which is disgustingly obscene!

I'm used to the gazes of men. Usually there are many wretched men staring at me in the company. Even the American boss will leave me alone in the company until late at night under the pretext of working overtime. When he suggested that we go to another place for a drink, I I just said that my boyfriend was waiting for me downstairs, leaving him with an ugly face and running away. The so-called "boyfriend" is a myth. As for the hints or explicit hints of male colleagues, and the introduction of blind dates from relatives and friends, they are all rejected. I hate men. Among the surviving male animals underground, the only thing I don't hate is Zhou Xuan.

Sorry, I left out Zhengtai, but he is not yet a man. After a busy and desperate first night, the underground world is unexpectedly calm.I lay on the railing of the atrium on the second floor, looking at the shopping mall from the first floor to the ninth floor, each floor was lit with a faint light.Some survivors have come out to look for food, and some are still sleeping. The name is to preserve their physical strength. They probably think that they can live longer by slowing down their metabolism like a bear hibernating. better? "Good morning." A man's voice sounded from behind, I turned around vigilantly, and saw Zhou Xuan's face.

I couldn't help smiling. Unfortunately, I can't remember, when was the last time I laughed from the bottom of my heart?ten years ago?fifteen years ago? I found that only in this man's eyes can I not see the filth. Zhou Xuan also showed a rare smile, although it could be seen that he was forcing himself, pretending to be happy and relaxed-but this man is also very cute.He is there to encourage every discouraged survivor not to give up even in the end of the world. "Thank you for saving me last night." He didn't forget that I got under the cabinet to save him. I shook my head: "It's a trivial matter, where are you going?"

"Everyone is collecting food in the supermarket. I want to go to the restaurant upstairs. Maybe there are still a lot of food hidden in the refrigerator of the restaurant." "It makes sense, let's go together." On this sunless apocalyptic morning, Zhou Xuan and I checked the refrigerators of all the restaurants.Although the power was cut off, I still found a lot of unspoiled food, which was distributed to the seriously injured in the Haagen-Dazs store on the ground floor, as well as the Japanese mother and child.There were a lot of drinks in the refrigerator, and Xuan Xuan didn't take a sip. They all gathered in the small room on the third floor, and each person was only allocated one bottle per day.I stared longingly at the big can of juice, and he sensibly handed me a bottle.

I gulped it down happily and followed Zhou Xuan to the private bookstore on the fourth floor. I pointed to the densely packed bookshelves and said, "Actually, I also like reading." But I was saying in my heart—come on, Mo Xing'er, don't you just watch Jinjiang Tanmei Leisure?When did I see you in a bookstore? "Not many people are willing to visit bookstores these days." Zhou Xuan said to himself, and walked a few steps in the bookstore silently, but he did not pick up the books on the shelf, but scanned the spine carefully, as if looking for some important book. I took out a book by Guo Jingming, put it back on the shelf immediately, and then took out another book on tomb robbery. He walked to the deepest part of the bookstore, in the corner of the most inconspicuous bookshelf, and struggled to pull out a book with a black cover.I took a peek at the back, and there were a few words printed on the cover of the book—the work of Zhouxuan in Ruolan Inn. "You wrote this book?" I snatched the book from Zhou Xuan's hand, and found the photo of the author in the front door, and it was the person in front of me—the photo was much younger than now, and he looked more like a girl My favorite literary youth. "This—yes." With an embarrassed expression on his face, he snatched the book back, stroked the book with both hands, and said, "Sorry, it's very badly written, and no one reads it." "What novel is this?" "Mystery novels, but the reasoning is very bad. Actually, I wanted to write about the fate of the heroine of the inn, her tragic life, and the several different men she met. Her name is Ruolan, so I chose this title." "You are a writer? You have been writing for many years, but why have I never heard of you?" This stupid question made Zhou Xuan blush, and he took half a step back: "Oh, yes, I'm just a third-rate writer, a nobody, living a precarious life." "Let me read your book." "You won't like it." He forced a smile, hid the book in his clothes, and left the bookstore in a hurry. When I went to the bookshelf to look for this book again, I found that among the thousands of books in the entire bookstore, the name Zhou Xuan was no longer seen. I turned back in disappointment, and found someone looking at me from a distance. That person had the figure of a little girl, but was wearing adult clothes. It was the hair-washing girl, what was her name?Ashanti? The girl's eyes were sad, and as soon as she saw me looking at her, she turned and left, and I felt a little scared. The next day, night. Together with Zhou Xuan, I delivered food to the seriously injured in the Haagen-Dazs store. Some people couldn't do it themselves, so I fed them. The oldest survivor was an old man in his sixties, unable to move due to broken bones, lying in a sleeping bag we found for him.He said: "Thank you. Your conscience is so good, you will definitely escape this catastrophe!" I smiled wryly and replied: "Old man, thank you for your kind words." "Hey, it's just my old bones. I don't know how many days I can live." "I will do my best to protect you!" Zhou Xuan seemed to swear to the sky. "Actually, I really want to live a few more years." The old man had a slumped nose, hehe smiled, "I don't think I've lived enough, I'm so sorry." He laughed a few times, and was a little sad. I couldn't stand it, so I could only comfort him and say, "We will all survive." After all, I pulled Zhou Xuan and ran out of the Haagen-Dazs store.If it had been a few seconds later, I would have been in tears, and it is almost certain that these seriously wounded would be the first to die. Sorry, I still don't know what the old man's last name is. Zhou Xuan looked into my eyes and said calmly, "I will not leave anyone behind." I don't want to continue this desperate topic anymore.Although there is eternal night underground, I still want to feel alive on the ground.Looking up at a forty-five-degree angle, I can vaguely see a few shimmering lights on the ninth floor, while the dome is as dark as the real night sky—the blurrier the vision, the more it looks like the real starry sky, and it’s good to deceive yourself. Zhou Xuan approached me gently.Does he want to smell my two days without a shower, or to see if I have pimples on my face?I didn't run away or resist, and continued to look up at the "starry sky".Although he was holding his breath desperately, I still felt the man's temperature until his hot exhalation hit my ear. Itchy, I like it. Just when I was about to relax, another man's dull voice suddenly sounded behind me—"It looks like the Orion Nebula." Zhou Xuan and I were startled, turned around in a panic, only to find that it was Professor Wu Hanlei. He frowned and looked at us: "I'm sorry to bother you. I had an illusion just now, as if I was looking at the stars in the wild west." "me too." "But it's an illusion after all." Professor Wu patted Zhou Xuan's shoulder, "Tao Ye and Yang Bing are patrolling tonight, you should have a good rest." After Wu Hanlei left, Zhou Xuan regained his stern expression, as if he was a different person, and he didn't say another word.He kept his distance from me, and went into the dark alone, and I don't know where he sleeps. I was alone in the women's clothing store on the third floor, and a feeling of loneliness that I had never experienced suddenly came to my heart.If there is a mobile phone signal and his phone number now, I must send him a text message, only three words are needed - "I can't sleep!" That's right, I slept soundly last night, but this night I tossed and turned until early morning when I heard commotion outside. Guo Xiaojun died, and was stabbed many times in the locker room on the fourth floor, which was horrible. Although no one sympathizes with him, it makes everyone feel dangerous—just among us survivors, there is a murderous demon hidden! On the third day of the end of the world, Zhou Xuan was busy carefully inspecting the scene, analyzing with the security guard Yang Bing, and studying who was most suspected of the crime. For a whole day, I tossed and tossed behind Zhou Xuan, to no avail.I'm sorry, but he's really not suitable to be a detective, he's just talking on paper, and he's actually analyzing the possibility of killing someone in a secret room, he's so weak!His set of things only exists in novels and cannot happen in reality. What surprised me was that the hair-washing girl Axiang approached us several times, with an indescribable meaning, so I never dared to look at her for a second time—I believe she looked at me with hostility. Just in time for Qingming, Zhou Xuan suggested that the survivors go to the fourth underground floor to worship the dead, but everyone scoffed at this—no one wanted to get close to the pile of corpses, let alone the disgusting stench.As a result, only Zhou Xuan went underground to "sweep the grave" alone. After dinner, I sat on the sofa of the Starbucks on the third floor, imagining that I was on a weekend night, wearing a loose casual skirt, sitting alone drinking coffee, and spending time carefree-but this is just an illusion, the reality is far away Ten thousand times crueler than imagined, maybe in a few days, I will starve to death or freeze to death or be killed on the floor of the end of the world. Zhou Xuan came back from sweeping the grave underground, still smelling like a dead body. I looked into his innocent and pitiful eyes and asked, "How long do you think we can live?" "I don't know." He put on a philosopher's posture, "Maybe one day, maybe a month, maybe a year, maybe forever..." "I think it's enough to live to be seventy years old. I don't want to be a vampire." "But at the end of the world, it may be quite difficult to realize this wish." Seeing how serious he was when he spoke, I couldn't help laughing again, and forced myself to sit upright: "Then, we can only wait here to die?" "If you give up hope, you are really not far from death. However, as long as you still have faith and persevere no matter how much suffering you suffer, I think you will live forever! Please believe that human vitality is the most tenacious Yes, many people were buried under the ruins and survived for more than ten days without eating or drinking. Who said that all human beings on the ground are dead? We have so much food and even electricity. Our gift! No matter what method we use, we must live on!" "What if all the food is gone?" "Eat everything you can eat!" "Animal?" I happened to see a white cat walking gracefully across the courtyard. "That's a must." "You are too cruel." "It's better than starving to death! If necessary, you can even eat—" "Have you ever eaten rabbit?" "Rabbit?" He scratched his head cutely, he didn't look like he was in his thirties at all, more like a young high school student, "No." "Have you ever heard a rabbit scream?" "Can rabbits also bark?" He showed an incredible expression. Yes, people have heard cats, dogs, birds and even mice, but almost no one has heard rabbits. "I've heard it." My shoulders trembled slightly, and I went back to that cold morning with piercing screams in my ears. "Rabbits can only scream. If you hear it, you will never forget it." "Oh, it's a good thing we don't have rabbits here. I think the rabbits on the earth have been extinct due to the end of the world. With the screams of human beings dying, the rabbits are also screaming?" "Better not to hear it!" Zhou Xuan stared into my eyes, approached me and asked softly, "Why did you say this?" "I'm afraid that if we wait to die here, sooner or later we will scream before dying." "Are you really that desperate?" "What do you think?" I really don't know what to say, he is the most unrealistic person, "You are too naive! It's not just me, in fact, everyone thinks so in their hearts!" Zhou Xuan bowed his head in silence for a moment, then took my hand and said, "Come with me." His strength was so strong that I couldn't break free, and I didn't want to escape, so I followed him down two flights of stairs to a small room near the surveillance room deep in the corridor on the ground floor. There are several computers in the room, as well as quite professional microphones and recording equipment. This is the broadcasting room that all large shopping malls have.He pulled me to sit on a chair, turned on the computer, called out the CD library, and pulled out a long list of song requests. Nessun Dorma - I chose this song decisively - "Nessun Dorma" from Puccini's opera "Turandot". Zhou Xuan nodded understandingly, turned on all the speakers in the whole building, looked into my eyes, and pressed the play button. Nessun dorma! Nessun dorma! Andrea Bocelli's version, I didn't choose Pavarotti or Domingo or Carreras or their chorus, because Andrea Bocelli is blind and lives in darkness forever, just Like we will always live in the underground of the end of the world, it will always be night without day, and it will always be tonight when no one sleeps. A few seconds later, Andre Bocelli's voice was broadcast to the entire underground future dream building through the speakers in the corridors of more than a dozen floors. The first two sentences made me close my eyes, and Zhou Xuan gradually turned up the volume to achieve a concert-like effect. Suddenly, he boldly grabbed my wrist and dragged me out of the radio room to the center of the atrium on the ground floor.From here to the ninth floor, it is like the most luxurious concert hall in the world, filled with the singing of Andrea Bocelli, like ten thousand angels singing in unison. Nobody can escape No Sleep Tonight.All the survivors in the underground, except those seriously injured and unable to move, gathered in the atrium, beside the railings on the second and third floors, squeezed out the heads of men and women, looking for the source of the trembling singing. Zhou Xuan tightly grasped my hand, which changed from cold to warm, I did not resist, put my head on his shoulder, closed my eyes, and listened to the climax of the aria, Prince Calaf is in sight—Dilegua o notte! Tramontate, stelle! Tramontate, stelle! All'alba vincero! Vincero! Vincero! In the end, at the moment of passionate eruption, two lips kissed my forehead, the moist and gentle feeling made people want to fall down and never wake up. The melody of "No One Sleeps Tonight" has stopped, but the entire underground Future Dream Mall seems to be echoing the sound of nature for a long time.The audience on the second and third floors applauded, as if watching Andrea Bocelli sing in front of us. Who said the world is ending tonight? Zhou Xuan pulled me to the corridor, I leaned against him weakly, and asked in his ear, "Where are you taking me?" Silently, he walked along the corridor, through a small door, and illuminated a dark space with a flashlight. "Where is this?" Looking at the unfamiliar environment, I was a little scared. He bit my ear: "Future Dream Hotel, do you understand?" I see.However, in the underground of the end of the world, is there a suite for lovers?I couldn't see clearly, and as I was trying to find the elevator, he pulled me into a small room.There are a few large suitcases on the ground, which are stored by hotel guests. No one would think of them here. Zhou Xuan turned off the flashlight and kissed my lips.I have made a decision to give myself to this man. I don't know if he is the man I was destined for, I only know that it is the end of the world, I may not be able to see the sun and breathe the air tomorrow morning, and I will die soon and be buried in the deep In deep graves, no one mourns and no one remembers.If you miss him at this moment, you will not only miss your whole life, but you will miss the time and space of the entire universe, and you will miss countless past lives and future lives. No one fell asleep tonight... In the middle of the night, I faintly heard a strange sound, opened my eyes vigilantly, and woke up Zhou Xuan next to me. Before five o'clock in the morning, we packed our clothes and rushed out, hearing fierce dog barking along the way.Arriving at the atrium on the ground floor, he smelled a bloody smell. Luo Haoran led his dog, which was barking at the Haagen-Dazs shop. When Luo Haoran saw me running out from the hotel with Zhou Xuan, his expression changed subtly—and only I could notice this. I avoided his sharp gaze, lowered my head and rushed into the Haagen-Dazs store, only to find blood all over the floor.Zhou Xuan held me up.Found the last survivor - the oldest old man, the other four seriously wounded were dead, stabbed to death with a sharp weapon! "Who did it?" The old man's consciousness was unexpectedly clear: "It's the girl who looks like a junior high school student, but is actually not young anymore." "Ah Xiang? How is it possible?" However, when I remembered the way she looked at me these two days, I realized that it was a killing intent!Ah Xiang wants to kill me too? "Why would she do that?" "She's crazy." Tao Ye and Xiao Guang also rushed over.Xiaoguang almost spat out. "Ah Xiang must be caught!" Zhou Xuan clenched his fists, "Everyone prepare their tools. She has killed four people in a row and holds a murder weapon. She may have mental problems and is very dangerous! Say it again, very dangerous!" Luo Haoran led Churchill around the ground floor, and Churchill yelled at the basement floor. It finally worked, and everyone followed it downstairs.Maybe it was because the smell of the corpse was too strong, Churchill seemed clueless, walked around the supermarket hastily, and went down to the third basement floor. I saw a Lexus GX460 was smashed, and a man fell on the steering wheel covered in blood-Yang Bing died. Five people died in a row tonight!Because I chose "No Sleepless Tonight" for everyone? Going back to the supermarket upstairs and turning on all the lights, Churchill started calling again, aiming at a corner of the supermarket. "Just search on this floor! Pay attention, try not to hurt her, catch her alive!" Before Zhou Xuan finished speaking, Tao Ye complained, "That's before she stabs me to death!" I always followed Zhou Xuan closely, holding an iron rod in my hand for self-defense.When I turned a shelf, a figure jumped out and threw me down.I smelled the smell of blood and saw the cold light of the knife tip. Just when the sharp blade was about to pierce my heart, I grabbed the opponent's hand firmly. Ashanti! I saw her eyes, bloodshot red eyes, crazy eyes. Suddenly, Zhou Xuan pushed Ah Xiang away for me, and she stabbed him with a knife.Amidst my screams, Ah Xiang held back his hands strangely, without piercing his chest with a single knife. Zhou Xuan wrestled with her on the ground.Just as I was about to hit her with a stick, blood spurted out. God!deal with! I thought he was stabbed to death by Ah Xiang, but I didn't expect him to stand up. Although he was covered with blood, he was not injured. The knife stayed on Ah Xiang's body. This girl who looked like she was always thirteen years old had the knife handle stuck in her heart. she died. His blood-red eyes stared at the ceiling of the supermarket, unwilling to die. Other people gathered around, if it wasn't for Luo Haoran holding on to the dog leash, the barking Churchill would have bitten the dead Ah Xiang. They stared at A Xiang first, and then turned to Zhou Xuan, who was covered in blood. He took two steps back in a daze, and spread out his hands—it was also full of blood! "No!" Zhou Xuan cried out in pain, "No! I didn't do it on purpose! I didn't intend to kill her!" I rushed to his side, didn't care about the blood, grabbed him and said loudly: "I saw it all, I can testify for you! You are here to save my life! Of course you didn't do it on purpose, you didn't kill him!" She, but during the scuffle between you, she accidentally stabbed herself with a knife!" "No, the knife has been snatched from her, but she is trying to grab my hand—it's me...it's me..." Zhou Xuan fell to his knees and kowtowed to Ah Xiang. "What is there to feel guilty about? This woman just killed four people! Four seriously wounded, unarmed, waiting to die--it's too cruel, I would have been stabbed to death if I encountered it. Zhou Xuan, you are killing harm for the people, what are you doing?" Otherwise, we will all be killed sooner or later!" Tao Ye said excitedly, trying to pull Zhou Xuan up from the ground, but he pushed him hard. "I believe Ah Xiang didn't intend to kill someone, she just had a mental problem, she shouldn't have died." "Enough is enough, now is the end of the world, not the time for a court debate on whether there is a mental illness!" Tao Ye yelled, "We are trapped in this ghost place, all our family members died on it, and we sleep every night wondering if we will wake up .I think I'm going to be mentally ill too!" It was I who pulled Zhou Xuan up, and Tao Ye and Xiao Guang carried Ah Xiang's body to the fourth basement floor for burial, and also wanted to bury Yang Bing who died in the car - I guess it would take a lot of effort to get his body out of the car . When carrying Ah Xiang away, I noticed that she was wearing a huge and beautiful diamond ring on her left ring finger. Looking at my bare fingers, I feel an inexplicable emptiness and regret in my heart.In the underground of the doomsday, there is no chance of wearing a ring anymore, although Ah Xiang's one is definitely not hers. I dragged Zhou Xuan into several men's clothing stores, changed his blood-stained clothes from inside to outside, and put on brand new clothes. It looked like he was on a blind date. Zhou Xuan was still staring blankly at the floor, like Ah Xiang's corpse Still lying there. "I killed people." "I didn't expect you to be so timid! Don't you write mystery novels? You must often write about murder." "That's different. Fiction is just fiction. It's all made up. Maybe I can't be a good novelist because my stories are not true, or my nature is too weak to face real death and killing." I stroked his lips, looked at his pale face with distress, and said softly: "Do you know, since I came here, I want to kill every day!" "Kill who?" Facing Zhou Xuan's suspicious eyes, I hesitated for a long time but couldn't speak. Still he broke the embarrassment: "Everyone has a secret that can't be told, and I have it too! So, you don't have to tell it." Looking into his understanding eyes, I said gratefully: "Thank you!" "It's just that I hope you can restrain yourself and don't make the same mistake as Ah Xiang again. Don't kill someone! Once you kill someone, your life will change completely." "But at the end of the world, we all have today and no tomorrow, who cares about these?" I thought of the dead Axiang and the huge diamond ring on her finger, "Our lives have long been completely changed gone." "Do you believe in judgment?" "I……" Seeing my noncommittal expression, Zhou Xuan replied firmly: "I believe." I don't want to keep arguing with him, it's just a waste of energy.I left him breakfast and he said he wanted to be alone for a while. He is a man living in his own world.Simply thinking that as long as you stick to principles, you can be alone; that as long as you don’t hurt others, you will get a fair return; that as long as you have a little fear, you will not do harm to the world; Will wait until the angels flap their wings and come to the rescue. Although I like such a man—almost unique in this world, I can't be as naive as him to be stupid! From the gathering of twenty or so survivors, seven people have died so far! The four seriously wounded were killed by Ah Xiang, and who killed Guo Xiaojun?Some people say that he was also killed by Ah Xiang, but I think it is unlikely.Yang Bing's bizarre car accident is also a mystery. There will be other people who will die one after another, killed by various methods, and even the murderers are different-every survivor in the underground may be a murderous maniac, just like no one can imagine that Ah Xiang will suddenly go crazy Kill four people in a row! I will die anytime too, right?If, if I die, who can punish that person? That person's name is - Luo Haoran. I want to kill him. From the first night of the end of the world, the first sight of him.I imagined it all the time—slit his throat with a sharp knife, and the cold air poured into his trachea, making him die full of regret and fear in the great pain of suffocation and blood loss... For some reason, I always No hands.Whenever I am filled with the desire to kill, I will try my best to restrain myself.Because of the end of the world?Because of dealing with it?Or give up on yourself? If everyone is going to die, Luo Haoran must be the one who survives to the end! The reason is very simple, good people don't live long, and evils last for thousands of years.Analyzing rationally, he is the owner of the building, so he can naturally find the safest refuge.No one knew what else he was hiding.Just under the fourth basement floor, there might be another space.Perhaps in a secret room, there are a lot of food, water and even oxygen tanks hidden.Also, all the fuel needed for the generator is in his hands. In the future, he will use it up as soon as he says it will be used up. Who can guarantee that he will not hide a few barrels of diesel oil!Only he can enter the monitoring room and see all the secrets through the camera.Maybe he already knew who the murderer of Guo Xiaojun was, but he used the surveillance blind spot as an excuse.Yes, maybe Guo Xiaojun was the one who killed him.He also thinks that the rich second generation is not pleasing to the eye, so lazy and proud, arousing everyone's anger, it is better to kill him. Kill it clean!Kill it clean!Kill it clean! The rabbit screamed again... I blocked my ears and shrank in the corner, trembling like a pendulum, and Luo Haoran's face appeared in front of my eyes again. Yes, I know this man, and I will never forget him, even if he burns to ashes. Seven long years have passed, but the deep pain has continued to this day, tearing me into pieces and then stitching and tearing me again, just like this. That year, I was still in my third year of high school.Dad works in Future Dream Real Estate Company and is an ordinary salesman.One night he worked overtime until late at night and didn't have time to eat dinner.My mother was sick and bedridden, so I volunteered to deliver meals to my father and came to the building where he worked.At ten o'clock in the evening, the huge company was in darkness.When I was looking for my father in the maze of cubicles, I suddenly bumped into a man head-on. I quickly said sorry, and at the same time the lights in the corridor were turned on, facing a pair of eyes as deep as the sea. In the moment of grave-like silence, I lowered my head shyly, and the man was silent for a while before saying, "Who are you?" I carefully reported my father's name, and he said in a deep and honest voice: "I saw someone in the sales department working overtime, it must be him." Then, he led me to Dad's office.And when Dad saw his appearance, he was immediately surprised and speechless. "You go home early, don't worry your daughter." He said lightly, and left the company. Only then did my father tell me that the mysterious man was the chairman of the company, and everyone called him Mr. Luo.Usually the boss seldom shows up in the company, and employees can only see him at the company's year-end meeting. Tonight, for some reason, he came to the company to patrol in the middle of the night. A week later, Dad was promoted to sales manager, which was the envy of his colleagues.Originally, I was worrying about my mother's medical expenses, but now I can solve most of it.A few days after this, my father took me to a company executive party on a weekend night.I didn't want to participate in this kind of boring dinner at all, but my father said that the boss had ordered me to bring my family members with me, and my mother was seriously ill and couldn't go out, so I had to bring me to do business.In order to keep my father's new position, I was forced to change into a beautiful dress and go out. It was a five-star hotel in the suburbs, the women wore expensive jewelry, the men blew their hair, and my dad looked like a poor pauper.I have never experienced such a scene, and I lowered my head and dared not speak.Dad was not good at drinking, but in order to save face for the boss, he was poured several glasses of white wine and became unconscious. I wanted to take a taxi to take him home, but the company had already prepared guest rooms for drunk employees, not to mention being far away from the city, and the traffic was inconvenient at night.I couldn't move my drunken dad, so he had to be carried upstairs by a few of his colleagues.The elevator was so small and overcrowded that I was forced to take another elevator and knock on a suite on the top floor according to the room number I was given. What I saw was not Dad, but his boss, Mr. Luo. The first time I saw his face clearly, he was about thirty years old at the time, a bit like a movie star, and he must be admitted as an attractive man.As I turned to leave, he grabbed my arm and quickly locked the door.I'm eighteen and know what that means.I couldn't open the door and could only yell "help". "There are only the two of us on the whole floor, and no one will come up." His voice was mellow and magnetic, not at all like the bad guy he imagined. I calmed myself down: "What are you doing?" "Can we chat?" "Can't." "Just need to talk for a while." His tone was still calm. And I was still stubborn: "No, please let me out, I'm going to my dad's room." "Don't worry about him, someone is taking good care of him. You know, he is drunk with pleasure, how many people want to take the position of sales manager! This is a major turning point in his career, you should be considerate Hit him." "At what cost?" I asked bluntly. "Is it me?" "Girls nowadays are really precocious, why do you think of this?" "I'm not a child! Let me go, please!" Finally, I showed the child's cowardice and helplessness, but he was more relaxed: "Don't you want your father's career to develop further and your family's life to be better? I know that your mother has been in poor health , requires huge medical expenses every year-I can meet your needs." I was ready to yell, but I swallowed it when I reached my mouth. I looked down at my feet. Although the clothes on my body were pretty, these shoes were old——if Dad could give me some money,我想去买一双最新款的淑女鞋。 “坐下吧。”看到我一时语塞，他又靠近半步，“你的梦想是什么？” 我不由自主地坐下来，坐在这间总统套房的真皮沙发上。许多年后，当我在电视上看到“中国达人秀”，每次听到评委问“你的梦想是什么”，就会由衷地恶心。 当时，我一阵茫然，十八岁，还没想过这个问题，只希望顺利考上好大学，妈妈的病可以早日康复，爸爸也不用再那么辛苦。 “我想成为一个作家。”大概是那年刚开始看《哈利·波特》的缘故。 “很好。我会帮你实现梦想的。” “怎么实现？” 虽然看起来谈话已趋轻松，但我心里还是充满警惕。 “好，我们可以就这个好好谈谈。”他从冰箱里拿出两罐饮料，打开放在我面前，“渴吗？” “谢谢。”我真的很渴，拿起一罐喝了一大口。 “你知道吗？”他没有动另一罐饮料，而是单拳托起下巴，“以前，我也有过一个梦想，就是让我的妹妹幸福。可惜，后来她死了。” “对不起，我是独生女。” “我知道，但你不知道的是，你长得很像我的妹妹。” 看着他幽幽的眼神，我才明白他盯上我的原因——就是因为我的这张脸。 “哦……”我没来得及说出“既然如此，请把我送回爸爸的房间吧，明天我们还可以继续聊天”，就感到一阵头晕目眩……等我醒过来的时候，已是第二天清晨，套房里只剩我一个人，身上却没有任何衣服。 刹那间，耳边响起了兔子的尖叫。 他拿走了我的第一次。 我哭到几乎虚脱，再没力气尖叫了。房间里只留下我的衣服，却没有他的痕迹，连那两罐饮料也消失了——他就是用这个卑鄙的手段，使我失去知觉。 我痴痴地穿好衣服，看着镜子里自己苍白而漂亮的脸，看着这个已不再是少女的女人，我的一生就这样被毁了。 平静地打开窗户，站在窗台上眺望郊外的田野，我跳了下去。 可惜，没死。 从七楼摔到四楼的平台，只是普通的骨折，双腿打了三个月石膏，居然连后遗症都没留下！ 那一天，当我被送到医院，爸爸也终于醒了酒。他把医生护士赶出病房，跪在地上求我饶恕他——尤其是求我不要报警！他说就算打了110，也不可能定案，老板有雄厚的背景，无论哪方面都可轻松搞定。他还说，如果真的闹到那一步，他的工作就会丢失，妈妈的医药费又怎么办？只要我们不声张，老板还会给他更多补偿，把他提拔到更高的位置。 爸爸还没说完，脚绑石膏头缠绷带的我，就把一口唾液吐到他的脸上。 然而，我却没有报警。 爸爸的每一句话都是对的。就算报警又能怎样？现场没留下证据，连我的身体里都没留下什么，仅凭一面之词如何告赢他？他甚至可以说我是自愿的！那罐饮料早已消失，而我要检验血液里有没有药物成分，也过了新陈代谢的有效期。这样做的唯一结果就是自取其辱，还会断送爸爸的前程，或许还有妈妈的生命！ 我忍了下来，决定继续活下去，为了父母也为了自己。 我打着厚厚的石膏，努力复习准备高考。可是，每个夜晚都会听到兔子的尖叫，每个清晨都会从泪水中醒来。 就在妈妈被转到最好的医院，用上最贵的进口药三个月后，却因并发症去世了。 妈妈头七那天，爸爸从公司楼上跳了下来——四十九层，直接坠地。 亲手埋葬爸爸的骨灰以后，我打消了对他所有的恨。他只是一个懦弱的男人，他所做的一切都是为了妈妈，为了我能有更好的未来。他没有能力也没有胆量反抗大人物，认定自己在权贵面前不过是渺小的牺牲品，一切的挣扎都是徒劳无益，只有顺从命运安排，还能从狮子脚下分到一块肉。可他无法面对女儿，对我的愧疚一辈子无法消除。如果妈妈活着，他还有让自己活下去的理由，可当妈妈不在之后，他就只能选择自我毁灭了。 那一年，经历了被人下药迷奸、自杀未遂、骨折三月、妈妈病故、爸爸自杀，我的高考分数一塌糊涂，只能去上一所外地的野鸡大学。 当然，我也想要离开这座城市，离得越远越好，因为这座城市里有那个男人。 大学毕业后，我回到这里工作，渐渐淡忘过去的伤痛，虽然偶尔还会听到兔子的尖叫。有时我会来到未来梦大厦，买件新衣服或独自看场电影，纵然我知道这栋楼的主人是谁。 七年过去，我再也没有见到过他。 要不是世界末日，不知自己还能再活几天，我恐怕不会接受任何男人——即便周旋。 兔子还在耳边尖叫……无法闭上眼睛，无法忘记过去，随时随地充满羞耻，仇恨一次比一次强烈地涌上心头。 我要杀了他！ 趁着自己还没死，没被饿死渴死闷死或被杀死，就算我是一只温驯的兔子，在将要死去的时候，也会作出最绝望的反抗，如果不能用身体，那么就用尖叫。 在此之前，我想再与周旋共同度过一个夜晚。 我们蜷缩在三楼的一个小房间里，共享了一顿简单的晚餐。我抚摸他的头发，还有越来越硬的胡子，想象他十八岁时，肯定是一个忧郁的美少年，每天愁眉苦脸地写着诗，或一个人发呆为未来而担忧。 周旋用手电照着我的眼睛，看得出他很爱我，就像珍爱自己的生命。 “答应我，星儿，我们要永远在一起。” 他说出这句话，就像十八岁的高中生！但在世界末日，还有谁敢说永远？ “好吧，如果还有明天。” 当我们相拥着一觉醒来，已到了世界末日的第五天。 这一天，我始终盯着罗浩然，无论他带着丘吉尔到哪里。我也学会了隐藏自己，在最远的地方看着他，装作是为了其他事，有时还会拉着周旋作掩护。 入夜，罗浩然没有再带狗巡逻，而是回到四楼日本料理店的住处。正好轮到周旋去巡逻，我一个人守在四楼，身上藏着一把锋利的尖刀。我很有耐心地等待，反正已等待了漫长的七年。直到子夜，我确定那条狗也熟睡时，才悄悄摸进那个充满腐烂鱼腥味的地方。 果然，拉布拉多犬正在打呼噜。我把手电光线调到最弱，看到罗浩然——但他并没有睡觉，而是坐在一张椅子上，睁着眼睛。 他看到了我，刹那间便明白了我是来干什么的。 我掏出刀子，抵在他脖子上。他并未反抗，只是按下墙边开关，灯亮了。 拉布拉多犬抬起头来，刚想大声吠叫，罗浩然却训斥道：“丘吉尔！继续睡觉！” 这条狗不解地看着我和他的主人，但它是聪明的狗，知道我手里的刀子意味着什么，立即跑到主人脚边。罗浩然说：“别动！趴下！” 它只能乖乖趴在地上，用凶狠的目光看着我。我并不惧怕这条狗，哪怕它咬我一口。我的双腿因为自杀摔断过，什么样的疼痛都能忍受。只要它胆敢叫一声，我就一刀割断它主人的气管！ “你要杀我？”他冷静地看着我的眼睛。 我微微点头，刀尖已然颤抖：“是，你还记得我，对吧？” “我永远记得你这张脸，如果不是这张脸，我也不会伤害你。” “伤害？你也知道你伤害了我？” “对不起，我承认我做过的一切。七年前，我第一次看到你，就想起了我死去的妹妹——她是我这辈子最喜欢的人，你就像她十八岁时的样子。我提拔了你的爸爸，又特意安排高管聚会，让人把他灌醉，又骗你到我房间。但我确实很想和你聊天，只要能找回一点点感觉，很多年前与妹妹在一起的感觉。” 罗浩然仍然直勾勾地看着我，好像要从我的脸上看出什么端倪。我也是第一次从他的眼睛里，看到了某种特别的悲伤。 “你这个变态！”但我不会饶恕他的！想起那个夜晚，就心如刀绞，“你怎么解释那两罐饮料？你有没有下过药？” “我承认，那是我手下人安排的，因为他们知道我从来不喝饮料。” “那你有没有对我——”又一股羞耻感油然而生，再也说不下去了，若控制不住情绪，刀刃就要割破他的喉管。 “是的，我做了。” 他居然如此坦白！我咬住嘴唇，不想让自己心慈手软：“你知不知道？我差点因此而自杀身亡，我的爸爸后来自杀死了！” “我知道，也是这个原因，我再也没去找过你，我不想给你带来更大伤害。”无法想象的是，他的目光竟那么真诚，“对不起，一切都是我的错，我给你和你的家人造成了无法挽回的伤害。从世界末日的第一晚，我见到你并认出你的那一刻起，我就想要向你忏悔。对不起，虽然现在太迟，但我还是要忏悔。” 该不该杀他呢？也许，我的仇恨积累了七年，并不是为了杀死他，而只是为了听到他的忏悔。 我依旧虚弱地喊道：“我要杀了你！” “你杀吧。”罗浩然闭起眼睛，等待我的刀子落下。 刀子却无法再向前哪怕一厘米！低头看到拉布拉多犬，它的眼里似有混浊的泪水。 天杀的狗眼！刀子从我手里坠落。 强忍着要夺眶而出的眼泪，我埋着头冲出日本料理店，跑进通往五楼的逃生通道，蹲在拐角抱头痛哭。 七年来，无法言说的痛苦与屈辱，如同烙印永难磨灭，却为什么不敢下手？真的饶恕他了吗？ “一旦你杀了人，你的生活就完全变了。” 我找到了理由——周旋对我说过的。 突然，有人从背后抱住了我，又有一块毛巾堵住了我的嘴。我拼命挣扎，却抵抗不了那双胳膊。那绝对不是罗浩然，更不可能是周旋，而是……许鹏飞？是他吗？我闻到一种浊臭的味道，听到野兽般的喘息——刹那间，想起他向我投来的猥琐目光。 我想要大声呼救，却什么声音都发不出，他把我拖到五楼走廊，黑暗深处的一个店铺里。 一块黑布蒙住我的眼睛，漆黑一团的同时，有只手扯下了我的衣裙。 他真是个畜生！ 天哪，谁来救救我啊？不要……不要……不要……尽管用力扭动身体，我却无力反抗，只有泪水肆意横流。为什么到了世界末日，这种事我还会经历第二次？七年前跳楼死掉算了！前世造了天大的孽，地狱里还要还债？ 兔子在尖叫……兔子在尖叫……兔子在尖叫……我想死。 眼前黑布忽地掉了下来，在地上滚动的手电光里，我看到了那个畜生的脸。 许鹏飞！ 这张脸是如此恶心龌龊，距离我不过几厘米，又臭又腥的口气喷到我的脸上。 真想大喊一声：“你现在就把我杀了吧！” 他胆怯地后退，抓起手电逃跑了，听脚步声像跑到了楼上。 我浑身酸痛，站不起来，好久才摘下堵住嘴巴的毛巾，艰难地穿好衣服。我几乎爬出了走廊，扶着栏杆走到四楼，却撞到了一个人。 对方发出了一声尖叫，是个女人，就在她要逃跑时，我一把抓住了她。 是那个叫海美的女高中生。她把我搀扶到三楼，喊出大家来帮我。我说许鹏飞就是强奸犯，已逃到了楼上，男人们纷纷拿起武器去追捕——尤其是周旋。 玉田洋子是个好人，她为我擦去身上的污垢，找来干净的衣服。但我拒绝换上新衣服，固执地穿着那身被弄脏的白色衣裙。洋子照顾我到清晨时分——但我没有睡着过，却再也流不出眼泪。 六点钟，我推开玉田洋子，独自走下楼梯。 男人们还在搜索许鹏飞，楼上不时传来他们的声音，但看来毫无结果。我独自经过昏暗的底楼，找到监控室——平时这扇门都是锁着的，只有罗浩然用指纹开锁才能进入。我想要找件工具把门撬开，这扇门却自动打开了。 罗浩然就在门里，冷峻地说：“我看到你想要进来。” 原来，头顶就有一个摄像头。我平静地说：“你知道发生了什么吗？” “我已经知道了，我很抱歉——” “让我看一看监控，我想知道他在哪里。”说完我就推开罗浩然，径直走进监控室。拉布拉多犬吠了两声，却被主人制止。 “你从监控里看到那个畜生了吗？” “我看到了。”罗浩然坐下来按了两下鼠标，屏幕上出现一段夜视画面——许鹏飞从一条隐蔽的通道逃到底楼，穿过一道小门进入了酒店大堂。 “他去了酒店？”想起两天前的晚上，我与周旋在酒店大堂的小房间里度过的那个美好夜晚，“你告诉周旋了吗？” "No." “为什么？”我揪住了罗浩然的阿玛尼西装的领子。 他淡淡地回答：“周旋的情绪已经失控，他不适合担负领导或组织者的角色，他现在只会让大家都失去理智。” “我去杀了他！”说罢，我飞快地冲出监控室。 我没有直接去酒店大堂，因为手无寸铁，必须找一样合适的武器——我想到一种特殊的酷刑，绝对惨无人道，正好用在许鹏飞身上。我跑到地下一层超市，从家用工具货架上找到了一台便携式电钻——许多安装工人的必备工具。 我找到插座为它充电，直到它发出骇人的呼啸，足以穿透墙壁与金属，更何况人肉与骨头？ 我拿起电钻正准备上楼，超市里响起一阵慌乱的脚步声。我躲到货架背后，看到昏暗的灯光下，身上带血的许鹏飞出现了。 我悄悄接近了他，努力屏住呼吸，没想到如此冷静——不如说是冷酷，大概我才是天生的杀手。 突然，我用右手卡住了他的脖子！第一次爆发出如此强大的力量。 许鹏飞涨红了脸，一点反抗的力气都没了。我用左手打开旁边的电灯开关，一盏灯从头顶照亮了我的脸。 我是要让他看清我的脸，还有我这身白色的衣裙，被他强暴时的衣裙。 我左手抄起电钻，按下启动按钮，电钻立即发出世界上最可怕的转动声——怪不得许多恐怖片里都有这样道具出现，哪怕在电影里看到都让人汗毛直竖！许鹏飞吓得一个劲往后退，电钻一点点接近他的眼睛。 “Fuck！”他本能地骂了一句。 不过，就算用日语、韩语、德语、法语、俄语、意大利语、西班牙语、阿拉伯语、古希腊语、上古汉语、火星语一起骂出来都没有用！ 这怂货开始求饶了，而我的左手丝毫没有停顿，一毫米一毫米地精确推进。 看着许鹏飞的眼泪狂飙，我的心里真是爽死了！ “去死吧！”我狂怒地吼了出来。电钻飞速旋转着，刺入了许鹏飞的左眼。 兔子在尖叫……兔子在尖叫……兔子在尖叫……这畜生的鲜血覆盖了我的视线，还有从他的眼睛里迸裂出的玻璃体组织。 差不多钻头全部进入他的眼睛，估计有十厘米左右，我才关掉电钻开关。 我一下子失去了所有力量。许鹏飞满脸是血的尸体倒在地上，电钻还插在他的眼睛里！ 这时，一群猫狗嗅到了血腥的气味，贪婪地围拢了上来。 “你们的早餐来了！”我忿忿地说了一句，扔下这具脸上插着电钻的尸体逃跑了。 “一旦你杀了人，你的生活就完全变了。” 整个上午，我的耳边充斥着周旋的这句话。我躲在底楼角落里，给自己换上一套新衣服，把血迹清理干净。 血腥味还飘在鼻尖。 中午，心急如焚的周旋找到了我。他抱住我，用手电照亮我的眼睛。原本早已止住的泪水又如泉水涌出。他用手帕替我擦拭，轻声耳语：“没事了。乖，一切都结束了。” “是我杀了他！”我也贴着他的耳朵说。 他点点头：“我知道！我知道！” “我做错了吗？”我开始怀疑自己是否做错了，声音越发颤抖，“你让我不要杀人的。” “你没错！他不是人，是畜生！你只是杀了一条疯狗而已，一点错都没有！” 我相信这并非安慰，而是周旋的肺腑之言——人真正感受到疼痛时，总会不顾一切地为复仇与杀戮寻找理由。 “你不要碰我！”我把他从身边推开，蜷缩到黑暗的角落里。 “星儿，你怎么了？” “我被人强暴了，我的身体是脏的，而你那么单纯而干净，不要弄脏了你！” “那不是你的错！那个畜生已经死了，他受到了惩罚，你不要再为难自己了。” 刺眼的手电光线中，我发现了他的言不由衷。 “不，我是为了你好。” “星儿，我会永远爱你的。” 周旋说出这句话的时候，他的嘴唇都在微微颤抖。 “在世界末日，没有明天，更没有永远。” “不，因为世界末日，刹那就是永远。” God!他说得那么漂亮，那么完美，那么富有逻辑，那么无法辩驳……但我不相信！ 就在此时，整栋大楼陷入了黑暗，楼上响起一片骚动声。周旋似乎早有预料地说：“最后一滴柴油用完了。” “我们快死了吗？” “不会的，我还有一部分食物储备，前几天刚从冰箱里拿出来的那些，肯定还有一些可以吃的。” “你总是想到最好的结局，但世事无常。” “世事无常……”手电光束里的周旋面色凝重，他再也说不下去了。 世界末日的第六天，最黑暗的时光——从冰箱里拿出来的那些食物，大多被猫狗偷吃完了！周旋只剩下了几瓶水，他从小光那里找来一些饼干，填充我们饥饿的肚子。 虽然，他一直陪着我，却再没吻过我一次。我也没去吻他，更没像过去那样抚摸他的头发与嘴唇，看着他单纯的眼睛。我蜷缩起来，既为抵御寒冷，也是不愿他再碰到我。而他几次想对我说什么，却欲言又止，直到我昏昏沉沉地睡去。 这一夜，一定发生了很多事情。这也是我自从世界末日以来，睡得最久的一次。 the seventh day. 清晨，我被一阵枪声惊醒，已看不到周旋了——我慌忙走到八楼栏杆边，低头往下看去，只见一片黑暗的大海。我不敢下去，害怕又遇到什么可怕的人或动物。 无比漫长的等待后，周旋拿着铁棍回来了，他的腰里别着刀子，肩上挂着绳索。 “你是不是要去杀人？” "yes." "Kill who?" 周旋停顿了许久，冷冷地吐出一个名字——“罗浩然。” "why?" 刹那间，我以为他知道了——知道了七年前发生的事。可我从来没有流露过半句。 “与你无关。”他的语气异常冷酷，仿佛与昨天换了一个人。 空气越发混浊，即便在八楼，也能闻到地底涌上来的腐臭味。我独自坐在地上，闭着眼睛等待死神降临。 晚上九点，头顶传来震耳欲聋的声响。 但我不敢上去，直到日本母子与陶冶急匆匆往楼上跑去，我才跟在他们后面，冲进九楼电影院的通道，也不知前头出了什么事，为何大家都要往里跑。当我跑到一半，整个天花板砸了下来。 我被埋进废墟，不知过了多久，救援队员把我挖了出来。 接下来的事，你们都已知道——没有世界末日！ 被送到地面后，无数镜头与闪光灯对着我们。而我只担心周旋的生死，直到看见他最后一个被抬上救护车。 他用眼神告诉我——罗浩然死了。 此刻，我孤独地躺在医院的隔离病房里，回忆地底的七天七夜，自己与其他幸存者发生的一切——那是不能说的秘密，如此黑暗与残酷，没人