Chapter 3 Chapter 3 The choice under the razor?

My hands and feet were numb, and my whole body was cold. After a while, I realized that I was standing on the ground and shivering. The computer flashed a pale white light in the dark night, and there was a photo of that woman in the middle, those bloodshot eyes were still staring at me viciously, and that unclear face was still hidden in the darkness... I froze in the dark. Locally, I went back to that night a few years ago, the night when I and the woman in the nightmare looked at each other!I just wanted to yell, but I couldn't make any sound from my throat...Suddenly, my nose was filled with that rancid burnt smell again, and the eyes on the screen seemed to come alive!

I turned off the power tremblingly, and the room suddenly fell into darkness! I don't know what is hiding in the dark? I hurriedly turned on the light, and the fluorescent lamp was shining blindingly. There was no one in the room! The computer screen was pitch black, there were leftover wine and leftover cakes on the floor, and the bed sheets were messy, making people feel sad. I shivered from the cold, and couldn't help shivering. I got under the quilt, but I was still shivering badly.The smell of sex was all over the bed, it was the body fluid from Liu Fei just now, and that smell was mixed with the coldness of the spring night.

My mind is so confused that I can't make sense of anything.I have forgotten about this incident, obviously I have forgotten it, this incident has never happened, it is just a nightmare!a dream!But how could this happen?I asked myself over and over again, but there was no answer... The sky began to light up, and there was a dark curtain outside the window at first, but after a while, the fluorescent lights in the house seemed extremely dim.The morning sun radiated wantonly on the bed, and I was tormented by a burst of sorrow, confusion, fear, and hunger. That woman is by no means a real person, she is just a dream, the nightmare I had the day Yu Qing died!But how could she be called "Shui Ling" again, and how could she find me again?

God!I realized that I had already forgotten about Yu Qing. How long has it been since she appeared in my memory?No, she's always there, it's just that I keep refusing to think about her.Like Liu Fei, I chose to forget in the face of an unexplainable suicide. My mind was in a mess and I had to talk to someone to prove I wasn't crazy. I hesitated for a while, then turned on the computer again. The computer starts up slowly. I glanced at my watch. It was past seven in the morning, and it was just getting dark in Toronto.If there is no nightlife, the past should go back to the dormitory.I hope that the past and the lost are also on the Internet.

When I dialed the number, I suddenly remembered that I had laughed at the professional religious studies of the past more than a year ago.At that time, I asked her if she wanted to become a nun after graduating from the Department of Religion at the University of Toronto. She said that she chose that unpopular major because of a full scholarship.At that time, I dismissed all mysteries and mysteries. Who knew that today, more than a year later, I would encounter this damn thing! As soon as I logged on to QQ, I saw the message from the past. She is not online, and her profile picture is gray.When Liu Fei and I were drinking and having sex last night, she sent me three messages:

"Happy Birthday! Happy Birthday!" "Are you there? Talk to you?" "Forget it, I don't care about you, must I go out to fool around again?" I'm a little surprised how she knows my birthday.I replied: "Thank you!" The avatar of the past and the past flashed, and she was online. It turned out that she had been invisible all along. The past is gone: "You are finally back and have been waiting for you. What did you do? Who did you spend your birthday with last night?" Me: "How do you know my birthday?" The past is gone: "You told me yourself, you forgot? Hey, did you miss me when you were with other women last night? Don't lie!"

I don't remember telling her about my birthday.I replied: "I didn't do anything bad last night, I missed you all night, and I wanted you to accompany me on my birthday, we lingered all night by candlelight... (one million words are deleted here)" The past is lost: "Bragging, delete a million words! Do you have such an animal?" Me: "I'm gentle with others, but when I see you, I can't help but turn into an animal! A man who can pretend to be gentle in front of you must be mentally deformed!" The past is lost: "Stop! Why don't I go to QQ to find me? It must be with other women, and I don't even care about surfing the Internet!"

Me: "Heaven and earth conscience, if after seeing you, you can still be interested in other women, that man must also be mentally deformed!" The past is lost: "Haha, thank you for the compliment. But you are giving away when you say this. I know at least two things: 1. You must have been with a woman last night; 2. According to your theory, you must be psychologically deformity!" Me: "It's amazing, even I know I'm mentally deformed!" The past is lost: "Do you still need to ask? You want to lie to me that you are not with other women, but you are too embarrassed to lie directly, so you evade your words, keep praising me, and try to use hints to make me feel sloppy. You won't find another woman if you're infatuated."

She is always so smart, and she doesn't feel dizzy at all after being praised.But it's no wonder, is she a beauty, can she be praised less?I replied: "I don't know who would dare to marry such a shrewd girl like you? If no one dares to do evil things, why don't you take advantage of me!" The past is gone: "Then you don't need to worry about it. Some people who don't know how to live or die are vying to be punished by me? Well, I won't talk to you. You must have something important to discuss with me today! Tell me quickly." I was taken aback and replied, "How do you know I have something urgent?"

The past is lost: "Please, don't ask such naive questions. You don't want others to see through your own thoughts, and you always cover up yourself naively. Every time you have something important to say, you must first make some wanton jokes , so that people feel that you don’t really care about what you have to say next, and then you can get to the point casually. Today you deleted a million words, so this must be a big deal! Can we get to the point now?” This guy is really annoying.There should be many beauties in the world, but this one is probably the only one with a brain.If all the girls in the world are so clever, men don't have to mess around!I couldn't help but smile wryly, always being seen through by this little girl who is a few years younger than me.

I replied: "It's not to hide myself, I just feel embarrassed. To be honest, I have a question to ask you, but this question makes me feel very ashamed." The past is gone: "You want to ask me when my first period was, right? Don't be shy, you have always had this kind of perverted thirst for knowledge. I was about 12 years old, red, so scary! You are satisfied Bar?" Me: "Please, stop messing around! I've been up all night and I'm already upset enough." The past is gone: "Okay, okay, let's stop making trouble, you can talk about it." I hesitated for a moment, thinking the question was silly, but finally asked: "You study religion. Do you believe in ghosts? Don't laugh at me!" There was silence for a while, I was a little guilty and impatient, when suddenly her reply came on the screen: "You must have seen something last night! What did you see?! Don't scare me!" I asked in surprise, "How do you know what I saw?" The past is lost: "I've said it all, don't always ask such naive questions! You have never looked down on ghosts and gods, and today you suddenly asked me such a question in a secretive manner, it can only be because you really saw something It’s a weird thing. Come on, I’m so anxious, do you want to talk about something serious?” Me: "It's you who always interrupt! Well, let's be serious. I told you about my girlfriend Yu Qing's suicide before, right?" The past is lost: "I said it. You said that you have lost all conscience and deceived her body and feelings. However, the great, pure and noble Yu Qing still loves you deeply, a wolf-hearted, dog-like, pig-like fellow. In the end, the poor She finally died tragically with hopeless love. And shameless you cheered at her dead body: 'I finally have the freedom to pick up girls again!'” I replied dissatisfied: "Don't make fun of other people's bad luck! What I want to tell you is that she committed suicide and another thing happened that night. That night I dreamed of a weird strange woman standing in front of my bed and staring at me A few hours later, when I woke up in shock, I found that Yu Qing had committed suicide." The past is lost: "Why didn't you say it earlier?!" Me: "I think it's just an absurd dream, there's nothing to say, besides, I've forgotten about it, and I never thought that weird woman was real. But last night, there was a woman named Shui Ling Sent me a photo on the Internet, she is actually the scary woman in my dream! She really exists, she was standing by my bed in the middle of the night two years ago!" There was no reply for half a day.I asked: "Speak? Are you scared stupid? I was scared to death last night too!" The past is lost: "How did the woman in the nightmare find you?" Me: "A co-worker warned me that someone was looking for me on a 'night owl' forum, so I went to see it." The past is lost: "Is it a female colleague?" Me: "To be precise, it's the female boss." The past is lost: "She celebrated your birthday with you last night, right?" Me: "Yes, yes, don't ask these useless things, we had sex last night, are you satisfied?" The past is lost: "Does she love you?" I resignedly replied, "I guess so." The past is lost: "Then she must hate you too!" Why do I?" The past is gone: "Why are you so stupid? Do you still need to ask me? Which woman who falls in love with you can not hate you?" Me: "That's right." The past is lost: "What did the woman in the nightmare say?" Me: "She said I owe her an unfinished dream." The past is lost: "This is very strange, do you know what it means?" Me: "In a dream two years ago, I woke up when she was about to grab my face, and she didn't have time to kill me. I guess that means that she wants me to finish this dream. That is to say , she will return to my dream and kill me in my dream!" Even though it is broad daylight, I still shudder as I type this line.I pondered this sentence for several hours, and it can only mean this, nothing else! The past is lost and there is no reply.I went on to say, "I don't understand why Shui Ling didn't kill me two years ago, but killed Yu Qing. However, maybe killing Yu Qing was part of her revenge on me. I just don't know why she took revenge on me." The past is lost: "Didn't you say that Yu Qing died because of her secret lover?" Me: "At that time, I thought that dream was fake. I couldn't explain Yu Qing's suicide, so I said that. But if that dream was true, it would not only be the two of us, but also a third person in the room on the day Yu Qing died! If that's the case, did Yu Qing really commit suicide? I'm afraid that Yu Qing was killed by Shui Ling that night, and died for me! You are right, I am indeed a heartless bastard! Yu Qing died for me , but I have always hated her, thought she died for her lover, and always wanted to erase her from my memory!" The past is lost: "You still love Yu Qing, don't you?" My heart twitched violently, and the frozen memories rushed up, and I was so sad that I almost shed tears.I didn't want to answer the question of what happened in the past, but after thinking about it, what's there to be ashamed of, who else can I tell except her.I replied: "Love, I still love her, how many times I dreamed of her, dreamed that she was still with me in this room, dreamed that she was lying on this bed with another man, I always woke up with heartache , I found that the pillow was already wet with tears. I don't believe in love at all. I know that all love will eventually turn into deception. Enough of deceiving each other for lust! I don't want to love anyone, and I will go crazy if I do it again! " The past is gone: "It's too late for you to say anything now!" Me: "I know, I know everything, don't provoke me anymore! I have been living like a lonely ghost for the past two years, busy torturing myself every day, and getting drunk every time I think of her. I really Unable to bear to spend long nights alone in this room, I frantically looked for a lover. Although I knew that after ejaculation, I couldn’t escape the disgust, but I was still nostalgic for the little bit of warmth when I hugged. At that time, it was like being addicted to drugs. I completely lost my mind, just wanted to hug anyone, anyone, as long as it was a woman, I wanted a woman to hug me. I don’t know how many women lay on this bed after Yu Qing’s death. I can’t even remember their names I’ve been tossing and tossing endlessly, as long as it can make me forget the past, I can do anything and anyone!” The past is gone: "It's the first time I heard you say that you are not as miserable as Yu Qing. I thought you were very happy before! Then why didn't you know how to cherish her back then?" I smiled wryly and replied: "It seems that neither of us cherishes the other. Of course, it may all be caused by me. I always want to feel sorry for others and always want to be a bad person. But after all, I have received higher education. Although I have no morals, I always I’m sorry to intentionally hurt others. You can call this weakness. So, I have to ask for the next best thing, I can only sincerely hope that others will forgive me first, so that I can feel sorry for others unscrupulously! Despicable enough, isn’t it?” I don't answer the past, I don't know if I'm mad at me? I went on to say: "This is what happened between me and Yu Qing. It doesn't involve love or not. To be honest, we have been in love until the last moment. But since the first day we fell in love, I have always wanted to have an affair. I have always wanted to cheat. I want to feel sorry for her, but because she is so kind to me, I am not ashamed to hurt her on purpose. This is simply the most terrifying spiritual shackle in the world! So many sexy women are dangling in front of me every day, I We are all struggling with depression, afraid of being known by her when doing bad things, and lying after doing bad things! You know, if possible, I always want to be a person who is honest with myself and others, but how can I be honest in love? What about an honest person? So, I had no choice but to hope that she would hurt me first. Is it a bit perverted? Later, when she was really sorry for me, to be honest, I was so happy at first! Tone, now we can all be more honest, I can finally be a bad guy unscrupulously! But then I look down on myself again, what the hell, if you want to be a bad guy, you have to follow other people's asses!" The past is lost: "Don't you regret hurting the person who loves you?" Me: "I don't know, when the pain really comes up, it's really unbearable. I'm afraid if it happens again, I will be smarter and not let myself fall in love with anyone in the first place, so maybe I don't have to hurt anyone, and I don't have to follow There is something wrong with expecting others to hurt me!" The past is lost: "You have neurological problems, but I still like you very much! If a man keeps talking about himself in front of me, I will be on guard and start to find fault with him unconsciously. But when I meet If you say that you are a bad guy, I will definitely think: In fact, he is not as bad as he said. I will start to look for your good points." Me: "It's better to be a villain! But, why did you get here? You haven't answered my question yet! Are there ghosts?" The past is lost: "You want to know how to explain your matter in religion? But you don't understand what religion is, and the answer to religion can only be the last choice." She has been worrying about me for the past six months, but I don't appreciate it at all and just keep avoiding her.Guilt tortured my heart, I didn't know how to comfort her, so I had to kiss her teary eyes over and over again... We still made love that night.Her body is still young. When I kissed her nipples, I heard a suppressed sob. I raised my head and saw Liu Fei's face full of tears under the moonlight.She was crying softly, trying her best not to make a sound, but the hot tears couldn't stop pouring out, and her whole body seemed to turn into tears and flow away.I suddenly felt pity and tenderness, and hugged her tightly into her body.She moaned repressedly, hugged me tightly, cried and kissed me, and finally let me cum inside her... We lay quietly on the bed, under the moonlight, our two naked bodies glowed white like dead bodies.I was enveloped by a burst of extreme emptiness. After ejaculating, all desires receded like a tide. I was like a stranded sea fish, lying on the beach and waiting for death to come... Liu Fei didn't know when she made her tears. She stood up, looked at me quietly for a while, and asked, "Do you know what wish I made when I was blowing out the candles?" I shook my head. She said softly: "I make a wish: 'If there is an afterlife, let me meet you before you are destroyed, and I will definitely give you a good life.'" She sighed softly and lay in her arms.I also hugged her with open arms, the body was no longer warm, and there was a bleak chill. It was already three o'clock in the morning when Liu Fei left. Me: "What final choice?" Lost in the past: "Ever heard of 'Occam's Razor'?" Me: "I have a little impression, but I forgot what I said specifically." The past is lost: "'Occam's razor' is a general scientific principle, saying that if there are several possible alternative answers to a question, we should choose the answer that requires the least assumptions to verify. In that case religion is the last option worth considering." Me: "Be specific, I didn't understand." The past is lost: "For example, why did the woman who appeared in your nightmare suddenly find you on the Internet? There are two answers to this question: one is a religious answer, and the other is a common sense answer. If you choose the religious answer , we have to have a whole bunch of assumptions: suppose there are ghosts, suppose she can enter other people's homes without knowing it, suppose she can kill people in a way that makes people think they are suicides, and assumes that This ghost can surf the Internet, type, use online forums as bait to find you, and take pictures... All these assumptions are absurd, and none of them can be verified. If you choose this answer, there is no way to verify it. That's why I say the religious answer is the last answer, and it should only be used after all other answers have been ruled out." Me: "But that's the only answer, how can there be another answer?" The past is lost: "Of course there is! Another answer is that the water spirit is not a ghost, but just a person! This answer requires very few assumptions, and they are all provable assumptions. We only need to assume that your nightmare is not just you People know, you told someone, and the person who knew your nightmare hated you, or told your nightmare to someone who hated you. So this person who hates you goes online and uses your nightmare to torture you. Use Occam's razor, we can easily choose the second answer: people are doing tricks! Who have you ever told your nightmares?" I was about to say no when I realized I was wrong!I told Liu Fei about this nightmare.When Yu Qing just died, I was with her all day long and told her everything.But it can't be that she hurt me.Did she say it?No, who can she talk about my privacy with? The past is gone: "Why don't you talk? Did you remember who you told?" Me: "I only talked to the female boss who came yesterday, but she would never use this to torture me! It is unlikely that she would tell anyone else!" The past is lost: "Why can't she hurt you? You just admitted that she loves you, and she hates you too." Me: "Didn't you see what I said earlier? It was she who came in the middle of the night to warn me not to go online, and not to contact that Shui Ling." The past is lost: "Curiosity killed the cat. If a woman can't take advantage of a man's curiosity, she's living for nothing!" Suddenly, I understood everything at once! It's her, it's Liu Fei, she made everything! She hated me for ignoring her for half a year, and came to me last night after making up a story.After she understood that I was ignoring her because of Xie Yuting, Liu Fei immediately told me the story.In order not to make me suspicious, she cried, said she loved me, and made love to me, so that I didn't have time to think about the loopholes in her story.Her home is not far from here. After I sent her away, she immediately went online and waited to send me photos.She knows me well, knowing that the weird story will make me hesitate for a while, she has time to rush back, and if it is too late, she can find someone to send her photos for her.She graduated from the Central Academy of Fine Arts, from an editor to a night shift teacher, no matter whether she uses computer synthesis or finds a model to take a ghost photo, there will be no flaws. Anyway, the woman in my nightmare did not show her face. She knows me too well, she knows that my most painful memory is Yu Qing's death, she will use this to revenge me! Shui Ling is Liu Fei! There was a soreness in my heart, why did she do this, why did she stimulate me like this?Isn't this kind of revenge too childish? But what is the reason for women's revenge? No, not right!Liu Fei's revenge is not childish at all!If the past hadn't helped me analyze this matter, I would feel so uncomfortable, and it would be impossible to think about it rationally. God knows how suspicious I would be during this period of time, and what fear and pain would become!Liu Fei can still continue pretending to be that water spirit to torment me. Or, she wanted me to return to her as I could no longer bear the loneliness and pain like before.Because she told me all this, I will feel that she loves me and cares about me. She is my closest person, and these privacy can only be shared with her alone. It must be so!Either she's trying to get back at me, or she's trying to get me back with this, or both! The past is lost: "Why don't you answer, do you want to understand?" Me: "A woman's mind is really scary!" The past is lost: "I'm afraid it's not that a woman's mind is terrible, but that you love Yu Qing so much that you don't have time to think about the pain for a while." Me: "Maybe, I have been out of my mind since last night, and I just got better. I also feel strange, why did I believe in those nonsense yesterday?" The past is gone: "Just figure it out, don't make things difficult for yourself. Find me online after the night shift, I'm going to be busy now." Me: "Thank you for staying with me for such a long time. It's already night over there, what are you busy with, are you busy betraying our love?" The past is gone: "Who dares to have any love with you? I'm afraid of being killed by a cruel guy like you! Let alone, I will have an exam in a few days, and I haven't read it at all!" Me: "Okay, see you tonight. Kiss every inch of you. 88" The past is gone: "You can kiss after I finish applying the arsenic cream! 88" Me: "As long as I can kiss your beautiful body all over, what is my life? See you tonight!" After logging off, I sighed, Yu Qing died for others after all. As for Liu Fei, this woman whom I have been fond of last night, this is the first time I feel that she is so weird and unpredictable! It was past six o'clock in the evening when I arrived at the newspaper office. From a distance, I saw Liu Fei looking at the samples on the other side of the editorial platform. When I walked towards my partition, Liu Fei looked up at me, smiled softly, and looked a little shy.Her eyes were red, and there were still traces of crying last night.I also smiled and walked into my partition as if nothing had happened. My partition was next to Xie Yuting, and when I approached, she was also looking down at the pattern. Although she didn't look up at me, I'm sure she knew I was coming.Sitting next to Xie Yuting is so embarrassing, sometimes I hope she finds a boyfriend quickly, so that our relationship can be normalized.It's unbelievable that she's 25 years old and hasn't even had a first love. As soon as I sat down, I heard the piercing scream of the fire engine downstairs. The screams caused a commotion on the entire editing and editing platform.Several reporters on duty rushed to the window, and the people from the photography department also rushed over, making a lot of noise.Everyone else stood up one after another to see what they were tossing about. I also stood up and saw the director of the photography department counting: "One, two, three, four..." When he counted to "eighteen", he turned around excitedly and shouted: "Eighteen fire engines, something big happened!" Come on, hurry up, get the equipment, good job! Heading east! If the interview car can’t fit, take a taxi to catch up!” The staff in the photography department hurriedly grabbed the camera bags, and the writers rushed to the elevator with them.The director of the photography department yelled from behind: "Many people must have died. I want some panoramic shots, ones with dead bodies, the more dead bodies, the better! I also want to take pictures of the bravery of the firefighters, otherwise the Propaganda Department will give me a lot of money." I look good!" His subordinates all agreed loudly and rushed into the elevator.The director of the photography department turned his head, rubbed his hands in excitement, his eyes sparkled with excitement, and murmured as he walked up and down: "I'm worried that the picture on the front page is not good? This is a good thing that fell from the sky!" " A bunch of boring people!When I turned around and wanted to sit down, I saw Xie Yuting looking at me. Seeing that I found out, Xie Yuting lowered his head in a panic, his face was flushed, and he felt a little embarrassed, so he hurriedly said something to cover it up: "What is that weird smile on your face?" If I used to just say "nothing", that's all, but today, I suddenly saw Liu Fei looking at me not far away from the corner of my eyes, and a sense of malice arose in my heart in vain. I looked into Xie Yuting's eyes affectionately, and leaned closer to her and said, "Did you know that running a newspaper is almost like opening a coffin shop! Those who run a coffin shop regard bad things as good things. The more dead people are, the happier they are. If there are no dead people, they don't make any money." It’s the same with the newspapers. As long as something happens, no matter if it’s good or bad, it’s all good, and they’re all happy. They’re afraid that nothing will happen. If nothing happens, they’ll have to drink the northwest wind! This is the group of people who talk about humanistic care every day. , The conscience of the society, I hope that a few more people will die, so that the newspapers will be published!" Xie Yuting was taken aback for a moment, but her mind didn't turn around, her mind was slow.Then she said disapprovingly: "As long as you have a lot of weird ideas, is that what communication studies teach?" I suddenly put away my smile and said to her: "Don't move! There is something in your hair!" Before Xie Yuting could react, I quickly turned behind her, picked up her long hair and smelled it in front of her. The hair smells like a forest, and I don't know what shampoo I use. When Xie Yuting turned her head in wonder, I had already put down her long hair and said with a smile, "It's okay, a bug has already flown!" Xie Yuting reached out to touch that piece of hair worriedly. I raised my head, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw Liu Fei's face turned pale with anger.She must have thought that Xie Yuting and I were talking about love just now, and even made out for a while.By the way, I just want her to think so! I continued talking nonsense with Xie Yuting for a while, making her giggle.Over there, Liu Fei couldn't sit still anymore, and started throwing things angrily. Xie Yuting was as innocent as a child, he forgot to be angry with me in a blink of an eye, and his eyes began to stare at me for a long time with a smile as before.My heart moved, I was a little sad, and I thought: Don't be ridiculous, just accept it when you see it! At this moment, Liu Fei came to my desk and stared at me with a stern face: "Xiao Nan, please come to my office!" I smiled ambiguously at Xie Yuting and stood up.Xie Yuting looked at me worriedly, I gave her a slight nod to show that it was all right, and followed Liu Fei into her office. The entire editing and editing platform is partitioned, and there are only a few rooms at the end, where the director and the person in charge of the center work. As soon as she entered the office, Liu Fei's stretched body softened all of a sudden, she sat down on the sofa like a little woman, turned around and looked at me reluctantly, as if she was about to shed tears again. We used to have sex on this couch.I was a little soft-hearted, but I immediately realized that Liu Fei's aggrieved face was all fake.She played tricks on me, and even pretended to be pitiful and lied to me! Liu Fei was so excited that she was about to cry: "What do you think I am, air? From last night until now, I have been looking forward to seeing you for more than ten hours, but I am looking forward to you flirting with others in front of me I went to you last night just to worry about you, not to beg you to love me! Why didn’t you let me stay away from you, why did you treat me so well all of a sudden? Dare to have any more dreams. You suddenly gave me another dream yesterday, and you immediately threw me into the muddy pit today! If you are not nice to me, you don’t have to hurt my heart and torture me like this?” I leaned on the door and watched her acting coldly. After she finished speaking, I sat down, faced her, and said contemptuously: "Who is torturing whom? Your bad luck is not all self-inflicted." ?” Liu Feixiang was whipped, and suddenly raised her head and stared at me with tears on her face. I said: "The simplicity of your life is a big joke! You don't know it yourself, I can't help but laugh. You have been used to being a beautiful woman since you were a child, and you always feel that men should be around you as a matter of course, and no one is allowed not to love you." You. If any man doesn’t love you, you’ll go crazy with jealousy. You must get that man to prove your charm. Let him fall in love with you! Your husband doesn't love you like other people, so you lie to yourself that you are in love with him, and force him to fall in love with you like crazy, but if he still doesn't love you, you have to marry him. What happened, you married a fool! You got a fool and regretted it, and felt that you didn’t love him anymore, until he fell in love with someone else, and you became jealous again, and felt that you loved him so much that you insisted on getting him again .Your so-called love is nothing but jealousy and domination. You have been living in a dream, thinking that everyone in the world is against you, and everything is not going well. In fact, it is just your own psychological problems!" Liu Fei's eyes were dazed and confused, she looked at me bewilderedly, and murmured: "How do you say such a thing? How do you say such a thing?..." "What I said is all the truth! Don't you treat me the same way? Just because I had trouble with other girls every day when I first came and ignored you, you were so jealous that you felt like you were in love with me again. Let me be subdued by your charm. Later, when I ignored you for half a year, you came up with a vicious idea, came up with some kind of water spirit, and pretended to be the woman in my nightmare on the day Yu Qing died to torture me. I'm in love with you again! In order to make others love you, you are doing everything like a lunatic! Don't you think you are mentally deformed?" Liu Fei exclaimed "Ah", her face was pale, "What? What did you say? Shui Ling is the woman in your nightmare? You contacted her? Why are you so stupid! You fool, why would you Doing that? I worried for months, and finally warned you, but you went to the door yourself! Why are you so stupid? You may not love me, but how can you not believe me, how can you not take yourself seriously What?" She rushed forward and grabbed my hand tightly, her lips trembled violently, her eyes were like crazy, staring at me with tears in her eyes. I shook her hand away in disgust, "It's all worn out, what else are you going to do? Are you going to lie to children with your nonsense?" Liu Fei trembled all over and stared at me fiercely, but the tears did not flow down after all.After a while, she stood up slowly, a resolute look suddenly appeared on her face, her eyes seemed to burst into flames, she opened her mouth to speak, but couldn't. I turned around and opened the door.When she walked out of her office, she heard her cursing behind her: "Xiao Nan, you self-righteous idiot, none of you heartless bastards deserve my love!" I ignored her. After taking revenge on Liu Fei, I should have breathed a sigh of relief, but I didn't feel happy at all. I've never thought highly of people, and I'm rarely offended if someone does something bad.People are so perverted, what is there to be angry about?But today I was really angry and said such vicious things.I don't know why!Maybe I care too much about the scars of the past, and I am in a hurry with whoever touches them.Thinking of the way Liu Fei looked at me with a pale face at the end, I feel a little distressed, maybe I really love her a little bit. I can't help scolding myself for being weak!Obviously she was the one who punished me first, but I scolded her but still felt that I was too much.No matter how much she goes too far, she is not too much! After a few hours of boredom, I threw the layout to Xie Yuting and asked her to hand it to Liu Fei, and then left the newspaper office. As soon as I entered the house and saw the leftover birthday cake from last night, I suddenly felt sad again. Liu Fei did this because she loves me, how could I say such hurtful things?Besides, she may not have done it.Maybe she once told others about my nightmare, and they used it to plot against me, but I got angry at Liu Fei without asking. I lay sadly on the bed.Yesterday Liu Fei was still lying on this bed, hugging me tightly, kissing me and calling me by my name, but today I was so cruel to her... Forget it, she is not the only one I am sorry for, people like me are harming people in this world, and I am also being harmed by others. I close my eyes, stop thinking about this headache, and pray to wake up and forget about it... I don't know how long I slept... In the darkness, I suddenly felt panicked, and my nose was full of the smell of burnt and rotting flesh! I opened my eyes in a daze, and suddenly woke up someone in the room! A dark figure of a man was standing in front of my bed, leaning over and staring at me!I screamed in fright, but only a grunt came from my throat. I trembled violently, but my body was as motionless as cast iron. The man's face was completely unclear, it was just a dark figure, he couldn't stand steadily, shaking slightly, as if he was going to fall on me at any time.He slowly tried to raise his hand, but could only move a little.I stared at his slightly trembling hand in horror, not knowing what else he wanted to do, but that black hand was trying to reach out to my head! I was covered in cold sweat, breathing quickly, and suddenly felt a strange trembling!Behind this man, what is more terrifying behind him!I looked up and looked behind him in panic. what!他身后站着站着那个古怪的女人水灵！ 我要昏死过去了，心脏发疯地跳，象是要从胸腔里蹦出来！脸热得象发烧，全身却冷得直打颤！ 水灵那双爬满红血丝的眼睛恶毒地瞪着我，脸依旧隐匿在黑暗里。她正在那个男人身后跳着诡异的舞蹈，身体缓慢地扭动，双手不停地抬起，掐在一起，然后再放下，再抬起…… 突然，我发现，那个男人原来一直是被水灵的动作控制着，随着水灵抬起手，掐起，他也不断地试图抬起手，掐起……他双手笨拙无比，象僵尸一样生硬，每次只能抬起一点点…… 我猛然明白了水灵在干什么！ 她在控制这个男人！她在教这个男人掐死我！ 我一动不能动，喘着粗气，死盯着月光下四支扭动的手臂。那个男人每一次移动都要比上一次抬高一点点，他也喘着粗气，晃晃悠悠，吃力地想把手按到我的脖子上！ 我疯狂地注视着这一切，象被钝刀割肉一样，忍受着死亡一点一点逼近，我想大喊，求他们快一点杀死我，可我发不出一点声音，他们也象哑剧一样绝不出声……不知过了几个小时，黑暗中无法觉察时间的流动，那个男人的手越来越灵活…… 我在梦魇中忍受忍受着灼人的煎熬……可是，这真的是梦吗…… ………… 黎明之前连星光都要隐没，所有暗夜中闪现的身影也一点一点隐没在晦暗的阴影之中。黎明前的黑暗过去时，水灵和那个男人也着黑暗消散了…… 我的手能动了，但浑身麻木酸痛，我吃力地拉起被子盖在脸上，被子都已经湿透了，被我的冷汗浸透了！ 我躲在被里无声地啜泣，哭得浑身颤抖…… I'm wrong!I'm wrong!一切都错了！ 噩梦里的女人已经找到我！ 只剩下唯一一个解释，只剩下最后的答案：水灵真的存在！鬼魂真的存在！ 网上那张照片是真的！ 不是柳菲编造的，水灵真的存在我看到她左乳房被烧焦的黑糊，里面露出血色的碎肉，她身上的每一个细节都和两年前一模一样。所有这些细节我从来没对柳菲说起过，我只提过噩梦中的女人身上有几处烧焦，柳菲不知道那是在左乳，她根本就不可能知道！我太笨了，水灵照片上的细节一点都不错，那照片绝不是柳菲伪造的，我早该明白的！ 可我却错怪了柳菲！ 眼泪无声地渗入被中，我的心被恐惧和悔恨蚕食着。 我完了！真的完了！ 水灵又回到我的梦中，她是来继续我未了的梦的！ 那个被她操纵的男人是谁？他是谁只能有一个答案：柳菲的丈夫！