Chapter 2 Chapter 2 The Mysterious Woman

My 28th birthday puts me in a very dark mood. I always fool around on weekdays, and only when it comes to my birthday, I suddenly realize that I have wasted many years of time, and feel an inexplicable panic. I'm almost thirty, and I still haven't achieved anything, and I don't want to achieve anything.Nobody needs me, nobody misses me, and I don't want to miss anyone.I'm just living in this world alone and confused, and I don't see any improvement. All day I fell into lazy melancholy. When I got off the night shift at night, I put the last pattern on the desk of the night shift director Liu Fei. She turned her head and didn't even look at me.

This is of course my own fault.There was a time when Liu Fei and I were very close, not only sexually, but also something that could be called affection.Liu Fei is seven years older than me, and I have dreamed of having such a beautiful sister since I was a child.When Yu Qing just died, if she wasn't by my side, God knows how terrible my life would be? But for the past six months, I have been avoiding Liu Fei, so she has a cold face and doesn't talk to me anymore.But I don't really care if she ignores me! Before going upstairs to go home, I bought twelve bottles of beer in the supermarket downstairs, intending to spend an ordinary night. What reason is there in such a boring life to celebrate my birthday?

But this day is by no means an ordinary night! I had just drank less than two bottles of beer when I heard a knock on the door.I wondered who would look for me at this time, got up and opened the door, and there was Liu Fei standing outside the door! "Unexpected?" She looked at me with a smile. I was astonished!An hour ago she was still dismissive of me, but in a blink of an eye she stood in front of my door as if nothing had happened. "Why are you in a daze, why don't you take it quickly?" Liu Fei handed over a box of birthday cakes.Her affectionate appearance made me suspect that there seemed to be no cold war between us for half a year.

"I was taken aback, did you intentionally surprise me?" I pretended to be enthusiastic to hide my embarrassment.I haven't talked to her for half a year, and I found my tongue a little jerky. As I took the cake, I let her into the house. Liu Fei stepped forward with one foot, looked at me suspiciously and said, "If you're upset, I won't go in." "No, no, I was thinking of you." "Nonsense, do you think I'm still avoiding me?" Liu Fei immediately smiled, and when she saw the beer all over the floor, she showed a mocking expression again, "Hey! So much wine! I want to hide and drink alone on my birthday." Are you drunk?"

"I've been drunk every day since I can't hear your voice!" The cheeky nonsense slipped out of my mouth by itself, and I found myself acting as if we had just made out yesterday. Liu Fei just smiled tolerantly. "What kind of life do you live?" She stood in the middle of the ground and looked around my house, before I could answer, she began to tidy up the house.I wanted to help, but I couldn't see anything to do, so I ended up watching her busy.That professional suit wrapped her graceful body, it seems that she came to me directly after get off work. In just ten minutes, the room was indeed much cleaner.

We sat on the ground, with the birthday cake she bought in the middle, which said: "Where there is the dream, There is the home." Inserting them one by one, counting to 28, she stood up with satisfaction and turned off the light. "Now, make a wish and blow out the candles?" The candlelight flickered in her pupils, and she still looked at me with a smile. This is really a headache!I hesitated for a while, then finally shook my head and said, "There's nothing to do, let's blow it directly?" "How come? Everyone has a wish?" "There is nothing to allow!"

"Don't you have someone you want to love?" Liu Fei's expression was half a smile but not a smile. "No!" I smiled and said nonchalantly. Liu Fei said disapprovingly: "Forget it, let me make a wish, you come to blow it?" "Whose wish is that?" "It's my wish! It's been many years since no one celebrated my birthday, and I haven't made a wish for many years." Liu Fei closed her eyes and began to pray, her lips moving slightly.She must have come to accompany me suddenly because she remembered the sadness when she celebrated her birthday alone, but I never thought about celebrating her birthday.There is a trace of gratitude in my heart, but also a trace of guilt.However, I still feel that there is nothing to celebrate this birthday.

After Liu Fei made her wish, she spread her teeth and smiled, then lowered her head and blew out the candle, the room was completely dark, "Forget it! You should blow it out!" "It doesn't matter, whoever plays it is the same." I smiled and turned to turn on the desk lamp, "What wish did you make?" She smiled, didn't answer me, poured half a glass of beer and drank it all in one gulp.Putting down the wine glass, Liu Fei's eyes suddenly became very serious, "Do you know how uncomfortable it is for me not to be able to talk to you these few months?"

"I'm also very sad. For a while, I can only talk to you. Now I don't even have anyone around me to talk to." "It was you who ignored me first. Can you blame me if you don't speak?" I smiled and said, "I don't blame anyone, maybe I just want to torture myself." Liu Fei said disdainfully: "By the way, torture me?" "I hope you are doing well." Liu Fei stared into my eyes for a while, then shook her head dejectedly, and said impatiently: "I'm terrible. You don't know anything at all! There is a terrible thing that has been worrying about you for the past few months. Speaking of which, we pretended not to know each other when we met, and we never knew how to speak. I was still hesitating tonight, should I use your birthday to break the deadlock? , but in the end I was still soft-hearted and couldn't help coming. To be honest, I really hate you to death, but I don't want to watch you die!" Liu Fei's eyes suddenly filled with fear.

"Why am I dead? What happened?" I was taken aback. Liu Fei trembled, drank the wine in the glass in one gulp, stared straight into my eyes and asked, "Do you know a woman named Shui Ling?" I was taken aback: "This name is very weird, I have never heard of it before!" Liu Fei looked at me suspiciously, and asked, "Really? Couldn't it be that you forgot his name after going to bed?" "How come, I have built archives for them in the computer." Liu Fei curled her lips: "Be serious, don't you really know her?" "Why did you lie to you? I really don't know her! What does she have to do with me?"

Liu Fei shook her head, lost in thought.After a while, she raised her head and said, "You tell me one thing first, and I'll tell you later! Why have you ignored me for half a year? I'm not pestering you, please love me. If you're tired of me, you can To put it bluntly, why are you ignoring people so suddenly?" I know I can't escape today. She called it my birthday, but she actually came here for it.I hesitated for a while, and finally decided to say it straight: "It's because of Xie Yuting..." Liu Fei's complexion changed suddenly, and she snorted: "I knew it was because of that little girl! You can love as much as you want, can I still stop you in vain? Then you don't have to see me like an enemy." , what am I not sorry for you?" Xie Yuting is the editor of the supplement, and I live in the same direction. After the night shift, we often take a taxi home together. During that time, she and I got very close.Once I brought her home to have sex with her, but she was a girl who was a little too innocent to take my sexual hints as love.I'm not down to the point of lying and cheating for sex!As a result, I didn't do anything that night and sent her away quickly. From then on, I tried to avoid her eyes and never talked about it again.Xie Yuting couldn't understand why I pursued her first and then suddenly stayed away from me, and was very annoyed.But I avoid her, leaving the unexplainable as it is.I don't want to find strange secrets in familiar people, so I simply avoid familiarity.There are always some secrets that are unknown. The so-called intimacy is just an appearance and will always be an appearance. It was only later that I sadly discovered that I really cared about Xie Yuting a little bit.Her eyes are always watching me from time to time, and I really don't want to look like a nymphomaniac in those innocent eyes.It was because of this that I started to avoid Liu Fei, but for some reason, Liu Fei and I stopped talking. Of course, Liu Fei couldn't tell all of this. I sighed, and said to Liu Fei: "It's not what you think. Xie Yuting is a girl from a good family, and I am not the same as me at all. Her mind is ridiculously simple, thinking that life is just marrying the person she loves, Have a child, raise the child...and what do I believe? I believe that love is just a dirty joke, I believe that marriage is just two liars working together in a business! I don't believe in anything! I especially can't stand her seriousness Her eyes stared straight at the softest part of my heart, but it was impossible for me to respond to her, and I was incapable of loving anyone. I don’t want to love anyone, and I don’t want to think about love. Thinking about it makes me sad Terrible. But Xie Yuting's eyes are clearly reminding me, reminding me of love and my own cowardice. Yes, I am a coward and dare not love. I am already finished, and my heart has died a long time ago. But I don't I need someone to always remind me so kindly that I live as boring as a zombie!" Liu Fei looked at me with a strange expression, two lines of tears suddenly flowed from her eyes, her voice changed: "You are a smart person who sees through everything! But I am a fool, and I am also a fool who wants to be loved! Yu Qing committed suicide, you became so cynical. But my life has been ruined long ago, but I still can't help but love you. How can you treat me like this? You think you are cheap and unworthy to touch precious things Stuff, only deserves to be with people who are as low as you! I am a lowly thing, I am not a girl from a good family, and my feelings are nothing. If you like it, you can touch it casually, and if you don’t like it, you can throw it away casually! Who do you take me for?" I hurried to hug her, and Liu Fei opened my hand. I begged: "Don't cry! I'm a lowly man, I'm not good enough for you. I'm just sad that nothing can last long, and I want to hide alone. I've been in more pain than you for the past six months!" I kept comforting her, but Liu Fei couldn't stop crying more and more. In the end, I had no choice but to hold her quietly and let her cry in my arms.It's useless to say anything when a woman is nervous, it can only make things worse.I kissed her tear-stained face and said nothing, feeling so bored.Why can women be nervous at any time, but men have the obligation to coax them? That's all, fortunately Liu Fei no longer refuses me to hold her. Liu Fei cried miserably for half an hour before the sound of crying gradually faded away.I still don't speak.After a while, she raised her head and whispered: "I'm sorry, I'm stupid, so it's unfair to say you. I can't give you anything, so what future can we have? Do I believe in love and marriage? We Everything has been destroyed, there is no road ahead, nothing! I have suppressed enough for the past six months!" Liu Fei broke free from my arms, smiled sadly, with tears on her face, "I'm sorry, I made you laugh, a The old woman is jealous of a girl ten years younger than herself!" I said, "You're not old at all, and most women, no matter how young, dare not dream of your beauty." Liu Fei said disdainfully: "What's the use of being beautiful? It's not the same as it is today. Let's not talk about these things. I came to you today to tell you something important, but I cried like an idiot. Oh, don't you Blame me, I have had enough these few months, I can only cry in your arms!" I said, "You are welcome to cry in my arms, any time anywhere! But what are you talking about? You said I was going to die or something." Liu Fei suddenly showed a look of fear, "I never told you how my husband died, did I?" "Is he dead? I thought you just had a bad relationship." Liu Fei frowned and said: "He has been dead for several years, and I don't want to mention it, because I have never figured out how he died. I didn't find out until a few months ago that his death It has something to do with you!" My scalp tingled, "Impossible, I don't know him at all!" Liu Fei said: "He doesn't know you either, but it doesn't matter. Let me tell you from the beginning. In fact, this matter may not be right from the beginning, but I haven't noticed it all the time. I didn't know it when I married him. I know you, but even if I know you, I’m afraid I can’t change anything. At that time, I loved him like a demon, so I don’t know what life is waiting for me! Up to now, I don’t have any ruined dreams left. Let’s not talk about this, but when I mention this, I feel resentful. My husband is a student of electronics. His brain is assembled from diodes. There are only two operations of yes and no. It’s pitifully simple. It’s really strange that I was an art student. How did I fall in love with him! I really fell in love with him, can you believe it? At that time, there were so many attractive boys who couldn’t move their eyes when they saw me. He looked at me blankly, and immediately lowered his head to play with his broken circuit boards. But I just fell in love with him like a demon, and insisted on being with him despite my mother’s objection. I didn’t believe it myself, but now I think about it Still think it's ridiculous! Once, when I was in love, I pulled him out of a pile of circuit boards and asked him to walk with me. It was night, the moonlight was beautiful, and I turned around and looked at The man I was loving with all my heart, said emotionally: 'The moon is so beautiful tonight!' You know how he replied? You can't even guess! He looked up impatiently and said: 'What can I do?' Don't laugh! I mean it! In such a romantic atmosphere, with such a beautiful girl looking at him infatuatedly, he actually said such a sentence..." When Liu Fei brought up the matter before marriage, she couldn't stop her resentment.I had to say, "But you're still married to him, aren't you?" Liu Fei said: "Yes! It's a pity that I was so stupid at the time, I lost my temper and tried to transform him into a romantic person. My mother said that our personalities were at odds, but I couldn't imagine that. How much, I love him, what can I do? At that time, I was still very naive, thinking that love was everything in life, and I still managed to marry him. But after less than two years of marriage, I found out that it was miserable! I have not been transformed into a person with sentimentality, but I have been transformed by him day by day. Every night he is either holding the TV and giggling or chatting on the Internet. He rarely pays attention to me, and I am gradually bored watching Hong Kong and Taiwan garbage. It’s over. We have nothing to say between us, the big deal is cooking, laundry, and the work. I always feel depressed, but I don’t know what’s wrong. I just wonder, is this the love I want? This is Do I want a home? I didn’t understand it until I met you in 2001. When you came to the newspaper, I just became the night shift director. Every night, watching you play tricks with the young girls in the department, But I never looked at me! I suddenly found myself very sad and jealous, and I missed a lot of things that should be me forever. Really! It’s been several years since a man looked at me with that obsessive look I almost forgot the feeling of being looked at and loved by others, as if I was just a rotten piece of wood, and the man turned his head indifferently after seeing me. You don’t know, every night I lie in the cold On the bed, there was a man snoring like a pig next to me. All I could think of was your smirk. Thinking about it, I was so sad that I shed tears. I really wanted to kick the pig next to me like a pig. I kicked the man out of bed! But I just thought about it, I didn’t really kick it, and I didn’t want to do anything to you, what else could I do? I’m married! I was always rude to you at that time, I hate you, because you let me know that my life is so boring. I always want to cry! Only a few years ago, I was the object of a large group of boys chasing, but what happened in just a few years, I feel that now I'm just a native who is too old to be wanted! Even if you come to pursue me, so what can I do? What? I can’t get a divorce! Do you know? It’s your youthful, mischievous appearance that reminds me all the time: I’m already a dead person, my life is over, and the rest of my life is just a mere day! I'm still so young!" I said, "It's not that pitiful, is it? I thought you were sexy and young at the time. But since you don't love him anymore, why can't you get a divorce?" Liu Fei hesitated for a moment and said, "It's not that simple. I found out that I still love him after something happened. At that time, I thought I didn't love my husband anymore. I thought he was just a stranger, an irrelevant outsider. , far, far away from my heart. But I still decided to live on self-deception, I can't imagine how to live without this home. Until one day, I accidentally found a delicate women's watch in his bag , in a very beautiful package, with a card full of nasty words on it, but the name on it is not mine, but a woman named 'Shui Ling'! At that time, I never thought that this woman was so weird, I just remember that I was stupid all of a sudden, and the pain in my heart was unbearable. I suddenly found that I still love him, and I still can’t leave him. But he never gave me anything, never said any nasty words to me, but put These words were left to other women. The words on the paper clearly said how many times they had made out! I found tears on my face, and when I wiped the tears, it was ridiculous to find myself laughing! We have always been Different dreams in the same bed, that is a real different dream in the same bed. Every night I lie in bed thinking about you, and he is snoring next to me, dreaming of other women. We are a pair of pathetic liars! Dreaming of unrelated dreams, pretending to be the closest person to live together! But I thought about it all afternoon, and didn’t dare to talk to him about the watch until he came back. I didn’t dare to have a showdown with him, for fear that if I said everything If you understand it, it’s really irreversible. I still love him! I had to hide and cry alone. I hate him, the woman named Shui Ling, you, myself, and everyone! But I can’t say a word Squeak, I can only grit my teeth and cry. Alas, I really regret that I should have a showdown with him at that time, maybe he will not have an accident later! But I didn’t know what to do at the time, no one could talk to me After discussing, I was so depressed that I applied to go to other places for interviews. I knew that I would just leave them in Beijing to do something special, but I didn’t know what else I could do other than relax.” Liu Fei's voice suddenly became gloomy: "But as soon as I left, something happened! It was in 2002. When I was interviewing in Xi'an, I suddenly received a call from the Dongcheng District Police Station, asking me to return to Beijing immediately, but I didn't say anything. What happened. I knew something was wrong, so I flew back immediately. They didn’t tell me until they arrived in Beijing that my husband had died. It was a strange death! It was unimaginable! Late that night, he turned on the faucet to fill the washbasin with water , and then buried his face in the water and drowned himself. It was not until the people downstairs came to the landlord because of the water leak, and the landlord opened the door that he was still standing there stiffly, his body bent, his head buried in the washbasin that was rushing. As soon as they pulled him, he fell to the ground in that posture, with a weird smile on his face that made people frightened!" Liu Fei picked up the wine glass and took a big sip of wine. Her hands trembled slightly, and a chill suddenly rose in my heart. I had never heard of this kind of death. It seemed that her husband's strange smile appeared in front of my eyes. Liu Fei went on to say: "At that time, I didn't shed a single tear, and I was so stupid. I just thought it was impossible, it couldn't be true! I was very dizzy, my whole body was weak, and I just wanted to be alone. But that The police just didn’t let me go and explained to me again and again that my husband committed suicide because the door was locked from the inside and he was the only one in the room. The police didn’t let me stay by myself and kept comforting me. I could only sit there and stare blankly. Staring at his collar, my mind was empty, only one thought was turning around, and I found myself thinking: That policeman's buttons are funny. I can't understand what he is saying! Until the night, I was alone When I was sitting at home, I burst into tears and came back to life. The first thought was: No, no, the police must have made a mistake! No one can kill themselves that way, let alone my husband He is still a person with a weak personality, and he never has the perseverance like a devil. He can bury his face in the washbasin and drown himself! What a joke, he has to turn on all the lights even when he gets up at night! Besides, what reason does he have to commit suicide? He is so capable, married a beautiful wife, and hooked up with a sleazy lover! I lay on the bed and cried all night until I passed out from crying... During those days, I felt like I was going crazy, that family I couldn’t stay for a day, and I kept applying for interviews in other places. But as long as I went back to Beijing and lived in that house, I would wake up in tears every night! As a result, something happened again within a year..." Liu Fei suddenly stop. "What happened again?" I asked curiously. Liu Fei shook her head, ignored my question, and continued: "It has nothing to do with you, something happened anyway! Afterwards, I suddenly thought about it, and I said to myself: 'Anyway, it's already like this, I can live as I like. How to live!' I think of one time, you said to some girl on the editorial platform with a smile: "Seduce me, I'm easy to be hooked!" Since you are so easy to be hooked, okay! I'll seduce you! That's me For the first time in the past few years after marriage, I carefully groomed myself. Seeing the person in the mirror gradually returning to the appearance of a good girl at the beginning, I couldn't help crying again. What kind of life have I lived in these few years? I wipe I dried up my tears, put on my makeup and went to work. You see that my eyes are really different from before, so you are hooked right away?" Liu Fei smiled faintly, with tears still in her eyes. "I've wanted to take the bait for a long time, why didn't you give it a chance before?" I said with a smile. "It will be sweet! Have you forgotten about ignoring people for half a year? When Yu Qing committed suicide, you only knew that you were tired of me. Where did you go when I was sad? You know, you told me Those things sounded more sad than you yourself. At that time, I told myself that although I no longer dare to hope for any love, I still want to care about you forever. I dare not talk about love and marriage anymore. With you. But you suddenly ignored me because of a little girl who doesn't understand anything!" Liu Fei remembered this incident again, her eyes turned red, but she couldn't hold back her tears. I leaned over and kissed her.Liu Fei frowned, and said, "It's fine if you ignore me, and I don't care if you ignore me. After get off work, I lie alone on the cold bed and wake up crying almost every night. I don't care if I end up like this." I knew who to blame, and I just felt that I was the most unlucky person in the world. One night, I woke up again, and found that my face was full of tears. I was about to find a handkerchief to wipe my tears, but suddenly felt a burst of fear, someone was in the room! I got goosebumps all over my body, and when I looked up, there was a black figure standing in front of the bed, I was about to yell, but I was suddenly stunned, that black figure turned out to be my husband!" There was a chill in my heart, and I gently held Liu Fei's hand. Her hand was cold and trembling, and her voice was trembling slightly: "For some reason, when I saw him, my mind went blank, and I didn't even know who I was. Where. He bent down, whispered a series of numbers in my ear, pointed to the computer, and then retreated into the darkness in the corner. I suddenly woke up, raised my hand to turn on the light, and there was no one in the corner! I told myself : "Feifei, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, this must be a nightmare..." But I couldn't help but hug the pillow and shiver all night. I hated you to death that night, you heartless bastard, why didn't you say no Chi hid far away, I have been with you for more than a year, why can't you accompany me at this time? I called you tremblingly with tears in my eyes. What woman are you messing with!" Liu Fei gave me a hard look. I kissed her tears and said, "I'm sorry, I was supposed to be with you that night." Liu Fei pushed me away in disgust, took a deep breath, suppressed tears, and continued: "Later, when the sun was shining on me, I suddenly remembered the string of numbers in my dream. He refers to He talked to me while looking at the computer. I turned on the computer, but I couldn’t think of any use for this string of numbers. He always chatted on the Internet during his lifetime and never ignored me. I clicked on the QQ icon on my computer at home, and when I was asked for my password, I entered that string of numbers, clicked Invisible to go online, and that string of numbers was really his QQ password! All of his QQ friends are women, of course, he is not I was so stupid to chat with men in the middle of the night, but I immediately saw the name of 'Shui Ling', that bitch who he wanted to give her a watch at the beginning! I clicked on the chat records between him and Shui Ling, and watched for three hours, the more I read The more scared you are! Do you know what is written in it?" Of course I don't know, and I can't guess, so I just shook my head. Liu Fei said, "Your name was mentioned countless times there!" I was dizzy for a while!A few years ago, what did a strange man and woman talk about me in the middle of the night? Liu Fei said: "My husband keeps teasing that woman named Shui Ling, and Shui Ling is willing to cater to him, but every time he gives him something sweet, he always asks about your situation. I just remembered that there was a time when he always I love to talk about each other with photos of our colleagues. At that time, I didn't dare to think deeply, I was afraid that he would see that I liked you. But it wasn't until then that I realized that he had been lying to me all this time, and he wanted to get you from me. to please that bitch named Shuiling. The Shuiling also told him that I miss you every night when I lie next to him! I was terrified to see this, I never told anyone that I like you , No one can know, but that woman named Shui Ling knows everything! That woman spoke very strangely, she must have malicious intentions, she asked my husband to contact you, wanted to meet you, and said that the two of them would deal with you together. But My husband is a coward, he always pushes back and forth and doesn’t dare to look for you. Finally, I finally turned to the night he died in 2002. Do you know that on the night my husband died, I made an appointment with Shui Ling at one o’clock in the morning, The forensic doctor said that he died from 3:00 to 5:00 in the morning. But he never went out, the door was locked, and no one ever went in. I was terribly afraid that Shui Ling might have really come that night, maybe she was Murderer, I don't know how to kill people like that! Being in that room scares me to death!" I hugged Liu Fei, and her limp body was shaking in my arms, and I also felt cold all over, and my mind was full of doubts.I asked, "Do you know who that water spirit is?" Liu Fei said: "I don't know, I don't know until now. It was only a week or two after that, and I found her post in 'Night Owl'. polite!" "Night Owls" is a forum on the Internet, where people who stay up late pour water.In the past, Liu Fei and I used to go there to stir up trouble when we were on night shift. I haven't gone there for a long time, afraid of meeting Liu Fei there. I was surprised and asked: "What are you looking for me for?" "I don't know, what could be a good thing? Just think about how my husband died! You haven't been to 'Night Owl' for a long time, but I'm still worried that one day you will accidentally go again and see that woman's Post, just contact her without knowing anything. That would be bad! Do you know how anxious I have been these past few months?" Liu Fei grabbed my hand suddenly, looked up at me, and begged : "Promise me, don't go to 'Night Owl' again, it's better not to go online again! She said that you always use a vicious tone when you get up, and she has been asking about you and looking for you on the Internet for several days. It’s been a year! Why can’t she go to the newspaper office to find you openly, why is she so sneaky? She also lures other people’s husbands to deal with you! I dare not even think about who this woman is and what she wants to do? These few months I can’t sleep well every day, and I always have nightmares, dreaming that you, like my husband, died in front of the sink with a strange look. I woke up in the middle of the night again and again, covered in cold sweat, and I didn’t know how to speak. I always Living alone in fear and pain, thinking wildly by myself, I finally couldn't help telling you everything today! Promise me, don't get involved in this horrific thing! I'm sure that Shui Ling went to my house the night my husband died Yes! Really! The watch is gone, the one he bought for her is gone, it was given to her! She was there that night!" Liu Fei's hands gripped me tightly like convulsions, her eyes flashed madly.I don't know if I was frightened by her words or by her frightened look.I hugged her trembling body tightly in my arms, and promised in her ear that I would never get involved in this matter.Liu Fei finally breathed a sigh of relief and collapsed into my arms. She has been worrying about me for the past six months, but I don't appreciate it at all and just keep avoiding her.Guilt tortured my heart, I didn't know how to comfort her, so I had to kiss her teary eyes over and over again... It was already three o'clock in the morning when Liu Fei left. It has been almost two years since Yu Qing committed suicide, and I still dare not keep a woman at home overnight.I was terrified of waking up to find a dead body in the bathtub, even though I knew it was silly. When I walked back to the dark corridor alone, I felt a great emptiness in my abdomen. The semen took the last bit of warmth from my body, and now it is empty, there is nothing! Who is that woman named "Shui Ling"?What is she looking for me so mysteriously? In the past few years, I have been in a daze, immersed in my own melancholy, how could I know that there are so many strange secrets behind it!Liu Fei is undoubtedly a little nervous tonight, she has suffered too much in the past few years.She was right, I was a heartless bastard who never cared about her.And I should have cherished her long ago, she loved me.There are not many people who love me in this world. In fact, there seems to be no one except her! I always corrupt the people who love me so hopelessly that I don’t know how sad I am until I hurt others! Who is Shuiling?Is it another person I hurt? I turned on the computer, hesitating whether I should go to "Night Owl".Liu Fei's terrified and crazy eyes seemed to appear in front of me again, my index finger froze in mid-air, and I felt a sudden chill. impossible!It's not such a wicked thing at all! Liu Fei is often nervous, and it is not surprising that she dreams of anything.But her husband's death was really weird, how could there be such a bizarre way of death?Who knows, maybe he got overexcited for his lover and died of a heart attack while washing his face! Oh, let it be!Who can do anything to me, let alone a woman?My life is almost ruined, and I have nothing to lose! I clicked on the tab page of "Night Owl Forum" in the favorites and slowly opened it. The title bar still has the old welcome words: "This is a paradise for night walkers, and the dark night is our party!" The page is fully opened. I was taken aback, the top post was really looking for me! The subject of that post was: "Xiao Nan, I will definitely take back what you owe me!" The person who posted it was indeed a woman named "Shui Ling"! Who do I owe?I'm afraid I don't owe anyone anything other than feelings.Is Shui Ling someone who once loved me?And how did I hurt her?Impossible, I only talk about sex and not about feelings, and I never lie to others that I have any love.If it is possible for someone else to fall in love with me, I will definitely run away immediately. So who could Shui Ling be? The answer can only be in this post! I clicked on this post, but there were only three words in it: I thought for a while, I can't follow up and ask Shui Ling, because Liu Fei will be upset if I don't count my words. I took a look at Shui Ling's status, she was online.I sent her a short message through the forum: "Who are you? What do you want from me? Do I know you?" Within a few seconds, the computer made a "ding" sound, and an immature female voice said, "You have a new message!" After clicking on it, Shui Ling wrote back, "You can't hide, and I finally found you! Have you forgotten me?" Immediately afterwards, there was another "ding", "You have a new message!" Shui Ling sent a second letter. I clicked on the second letter, which read: Slowly open a photo below. I yelled "ah" and jumped up from the chair all of a sudden! The woman in this photo is actually the woman who appeared in my nightmare the night Yu Qing committed suicide! impossible!how is this possible? !