Chapter 18 Chapter Seventeen A Weird Smile Appeared on His Face

When Wang Ba's wife Zhang Mei came to her, Su Xiaosan was very surprised and terrified. When Zhang Mei came to visit, Chen Huaiyuan did not know where he was. He was really an unreliable man, and he even said that he would start over with Su Xiaosan. After the doorbell rang, Su Xiaosan asked inside the door: "Who are you?" Zhang Mei smiled and said, "I'm Zhang Mei, Wang Ba's wife!" Su Xiaosan saw that alluring face through the cat's eyes, and suddenly felt very nervous, as if she had done something shameful and was caught in bed. She blushed and her heart beat faster.

Zhang Mei seemed to have figured out what Su Xiaosan was thinking, and still said with a smile: "Miss Su, don't be afraid, I didn't come to fight with you, I just wanted to have a good chat with you, open the door, it's cold outside." Su Xiaosan thought, I really can't be afraid of her, and why should I be afraid of her! After emboldening herself, Su Xiaosan opened the door. After Zhang Mei entered the door, he frowned, glanced at the messy sofa that Chen Huaiyuan slept on, and said, "Where do you want me to sit?" Su Xiaosan calmed down, and said coldly: "Whatever."

Zhang Mei bit the bullet and bent down, pushed the pile of quilts on the sofa in, and sat down. Su Xiaosan said: "Don't worry, our sofa won't stain your butt!" Zhang Mei smiled: "It doesn't matter if it gets dirty, it will be clean when you go back and wash it, but if you get dirty in your heart, you won't be able to wash it clean again." Su Xiaosan understood the meaning of her words, and for a moment didn't know what words to refute her. Zhang Mei said, "Let's get straight to the point, how much do you want?" Su Xiaosan said, "Money?"

Zhang Mei said: "Yes, money! Isn't it a matter of money?" Su Xiaosan said, "Who do you think I am?" Zhang Mei said, "Then who do you think you are?" Su Xiaosan said, "Who I am has nothing to do with you." Zhang Mei said: "Of course it has a relationship, a big relationship! Think about it, your character problem has seriously affected my family! Wang Ba confessed everything to me. It was you who seduced him. I I believe my husband is telling the truth. When I saw you that day, I thought you were abnormal! So, the main responsibility lies with you, not him. But I don’t deny that he is also at fault, so I come to discuss with you to solve this problem Question, please make a price, how much, this is the price for Wang Ba's fault."

Su Xiaosan trembled all over. Zhang Mei said: "Speak up, you make a price, as long as money can solve the problem, it's not a problem. In fact, I came here because of pity for you. You are all women. I know women's difficulties. Otherwise, I won't care. This matter, besides, Wang Ba gave you money after the affair with you at that time, and you have to bear the consequences when you come out to do this kind of thing. You should think about it." Su Xiaosan stared straight at her, unable to say anything. Zhang Mei said again: "Maybe you want to blackmail Wang Ba through this matter and let him marry you? Or do you have other ulterior motives? I can tell you directly, get rid of this idea as soon as possible. Our husband and wife are very loving. Everyone in the world knows it. Men, there are always times when you can't control it. It's normal to have some wild food outside. I understand him, and it is impossible to fall out with him because of this matter. Now you should understand. I give you a good Suggestion, you can take a sum of money from us, go and make the child, and then find a good man, live a good life, with your looks and talents, it should not be difficult to find a good man, there is no need to live like this Abusive life."

Su Xiaosan finally couldn't hold it anymore, and shouted angrily: "You are living a life of indiscretion, look at your face, what is it! I have never seen such shameless people like you! We have nothing to talk about Yes, get out! Even if I'm poor, I won't want your stinky money! Get out, get out!" The smile on Zhang Mei's face disappeared, and he said coldly; "Su Xiaosan, don't be shameless, you can make things big, and you will hurt yourself that way! For us, no problem No, where do you tell, even if you go to the court, the result is the same, and you are the one who is ruined! For Wangba, there are only benefits, even if it is a hype of their company, maybe his company's books sell well Even better! A woman who designed the cover, seduced the boss of the book company, and finally the woman threatened him with pregnancy... How newsworthy is this, I guarantee that Wang Ba will not spend a penny, and the national media will overnight Post this news! You can figure it out yourself!"

Su Xiaosan's face was livid: "Get out, get out, I will never see you for the rest of my life!" Zhang Mei said: "It seems that you are really stupid! You can figure it out. Anyway, I have already left the words here. If you figure it out, you can call me. I am too lazy to spend money with you here." Talking about it, your smell here is unbearable!" After speaking, Zhang Mei stood up, patted his buttocks, and left. Su Xiaosan closed the door heavily, leaning her back against the door, tears rolling down in disappointment. What is this! Su Xiaosan hated herself to death!

For two days in a row, Su Xiaosan lay on the bed, neither eating nor drinking, sometimes falling asleep and sometimes waking up.Time seemed to have stopped. It would be a wonderful thing to die like this.But she is not dead, she is still alive. When I was asleep, I had nightmares again and again. Su Xiaosan dreamed that she was walking in a long alley, and there were many people standing on both sides of the alley, men and women, old and young, and they all looked at her with disdain.She felt ashamed, walking in a hurry like someone who had committed a heinous crime.Those people pointed at her, said ugly words, spit at her, and threw rotten leaves... Facing people's insults, Su Xiaosan wanted to run away quickly, but her steps were so slow.Suddenly, a man chased her from behind, grabbed her by the hair, beat her hard, and smashed her head against the wall.This man turned out to be Su Guoqing, his adoptive father.When he was beating Su Xiaosan, people gathered around and shouted: "Kill her, kill this slut!" Su Xiaosan yelled sadly: "I'm not a slut, I'm not a slut, let me go. Let me go...Mom, come and save me, mom, come and save me--"...Everyone disappeared, Su Guoqing and the onlookers disappeared.The alley was terribly lonely, Su Xiaosan was covered with bruises, lying on the wet ground, her whole body was also wet, she didn't know if it was blood or sweat.She raised her head with difficulty and shouted: "Mom, save me, mom, save me—" Two women suddenly appeared not far in front of her, and they looked at Su Xiaosan indifferently.Su Xiaosan saw them, one face was clear and the other was blurry.The one with a clear face is her adoptive mother Yang Xueli, and the woman with a vague face is unknown, could it be her biological mother?Su Xiaosan shouted: "Mom, come and save me, Mom—" But they turned around and disappeared into the depths of the alley without looking back...

Su Xiaosan also dreamed that she was standing by the Suzhou River and saw a woman put her baby girl under the sycamore tree, then turned around and disappeared into the night.The baby girl cried loudly, and the crying tore through the deep night, and also tore Su Xiaosan's heart.She walked over and picked up the baby girl.The baby girl stopped crying suddenly, and said to her in an adult tone: "Mom, don't abandon me! Since you gave birth to me, why did you abandon me? If you knew you were going to abandon me, you shouldn't have given birth to me. Mom, you have the heart to let me cry in this miserable and rainy night? You have the heart to let me experience all kinds of hardships and sufferings in the process of growing up, and experience the pain of the heart..." Su Xiaosan's face was full of tears.She didn't know who the baby girl in her arms was.It seemed to be herself, and it seemed to be her daughter.Su Xiaosan hugged the baby girl and looked around in a daze, unable to find anyone she could rely on, or a warm home...

In another dream, Su Xiaosan was forced on a big bed by many people.One of the men said next to him: "Take out the baby in her stomach, and I will give you whatever you want!" A woman continued: "Yes, take out the child in her stomach, money is not a problem! Hurry up and do it, what are you still doing!" Su Xiaosan recognized that the people who spoke were Wang Ba and his wife.They hurriedly stripped off Su Xiaosan's clothes, her struggle was of no avail.Someone said, get out of the way, out of the way.This person appeared in front of Su Xiaosan, holding a sharp watermelon knife in his hand, with a ferocious face, he sneered and said, "Su Xiaosan, you finally fell into my hands, hehe!" Xiaosan shouted in horror: "Guiguzi, you will die!" He sneered and said: "Of course I will die, I expected it, you know, only death can make me fly away, in fact, I am also tired of it." This world! Hehe, but before I die, I want you to die! Then we will fly far away together." The evil Guiguzi sneered and put the knife on her protruding belly, and cut it like a watermelon. go down...

... Endless nightmares are tormenting Su Xiaosan. Every time she woke up from the nightmare, she was sweating profusely and panting. She wanted to get up and go outside to take a breath, but she was powerless. In the middle of the night, she woke up again from a nightmare, and felt a person standing beside the bed again.She smelled strong bad breath, and then smelled the scent of roses... Su Xiaosan couldn't lie down anymore after the black shadow drifted away, and suddenly there was a strange power in her body, and she got up from the bed .After turning on the light, he walked into the bathroom, and saw a dark red kiss printed on his left cheek in the mirror.Su Xiaosan turned on the faucet, frantically splashed water on her face, and then scrubbed vigorously... To wash off the dark red hickey, Su Xiaosan came to the living room and saw Chen Huaiyuan lying on the sofa and sleeping. Su Xiaosan was furious, walked over and grabbed his arm, and shook it vigorously: "Chen Huaiyuan, get up for me! You useless thing! Did you know that someone came in again!" Chen Huaiyuan sat up in panic, and said indiscriminately, "Don't grab me, don't grab me, I didn't do it, I didn't do it! Don't grab me, don't grab me—" Su Xiaosan stared at him blankly, thinking: Chen Huaiyuan must have done something shameful, otherwise he wouldn't be so panicked. Chen Huaiyuan woke up and said, "Xiao Shan, what's wrong?" Su Xiaosan said flatly: "He's here again!" Chen Huaiyuan said, "Who?" Su Xiaosan said: "Guiguzi!" Chen Huaiyuan's gaze suddenly became cold: "Damn him!" Su Xiaosan said: "We all deserve to die!" After finishing speaking, she walked into the kitchen weakly, took out two packs of instant noodles from the cabinet, and took out a bottle of orange juice from the refrigerator, and walked into the bedroom silently.Chen Huaiyuan said: "Xiaosan, let me cook something else for you. You haven't eaten for two days. I called you, but you ignored me." Su Xiaosan ignored him and closed the bedroom door . Su Xiaosan sat on the bed, opened the package of instant noodles, took out the instant noodles, stuffed them into her mouth, took a hard bite, and started to chew.In the past, when I was busy, I always ate instant noodles like this while working. "It smells so good!" Su Xiaosan said, "Why should I torture myself like this?" She picked up the phone and saw that there were dozens of missed calls.There are several other messages.The calls were all from Jiguang, and all the messages were sent to her by Jiguang.In this world, only Jiguang still remembers her, and only Jiguang cares about her. Jiguang's messages and phone calls make her feel her own existence. "Small umbrella, how are you?" "Xiaosan, why don't you reply to my messages?" "Xiaosan, did something happen to you? When I was sleeping at night, my heart suddenly hurt, and I felt that your heart was also hurting. Please tell me what happened." "Xiaosan, something must have happened to you. I can feel it, really. I don't answer your calls or reply to your messages. I am so anxious. Xiaosan, no matter what happens, you have to get through it, remember Hold on, there is no hurdle that cannot be overcome. If you see this message from me, you must call me back, otherwise I will be worried to death! You know, my heart is always in pain. " Looking at these messages, Su Xiaosan felt very warm and sad. Should I give Jiguang a call? Su Xiaosan's heart suddenly felt extremely painful, and her entire chest was numb with pain. Is Jieguang's heart aching at this time? With trembling hands, she dialed Jiguang's number. "Hey, light festival—" "Small umbrella, I'm Jiguang." "Did you not sleep?" "I fell asleep, but I woke up suddenly with a terrible heartache. I felt that you were calling my name. I felt that you were very helpless and in great pain." "real?" "Really. Xiaosan, what happened? Tell me, tell me everything, let me share it for you, okay, Xiaosan!" "It's nothing. I feel much calmer when I hear your voice." "Something must have happened, I feel it, you can't lie to me, Xiaosan, just tell me, just tell me." "Do you really want to hear it? Will you look down on me if you hear it?" "I really want to hear it! I understand what you say, Xiaosan, don't worry, no matter what you do, my love for you will not change." "I am pregnant." "what?" "I am pregnant!" "You're sad about it, sad?" "yes." "Is it Chen Huaiyuan's child?" "No, if it had been his, I wouldn't have been so miserable and ashamed! I'll tell you everything. I was so depressed and angry that night that I had the shameful idea of ​​having sex with a man. Jiguang, don't despise me. I really thought so at the time. You know how ridiculous and ignorant that idea is. I actually thought that only by sleeping with a man can I make my soul peaceful. You know, I have always had a feeling for men Feeling of fear, so I don’t know many men. After thinking about it for a long time, I called Wang Ba, the boss of the book company... I didn’t expect this to happen. Really, Jiguang, I’m a dirty person now, I don’t deserve it You care so much about me, you don't deserve your love for me. After I finished speaking, I felt a lot more relaxed, and I think I will face it well. Jiguang, forget about me, I am not fair to you. " "Xiaosan, I really understand you. Don't think too much. I said that no matter what you are, I love you. I know that you have not completely freed yourself from the pain. It will take a process. , I am willing to spend this difficult time with you. As long as you feel that I am here, your heart will gradually be at peace. I hope that you will ease the pain because of my true love, everything will disappear, and only love will last forever!" Su Xiaosan choked up and said: "Jieguang, I don't deserve what you do, really, I don't deserve it!" Jiguang said emotionally: "Xiaosan, don't cry. Wipe away your tears and muster up the courage to face it. Let me hold your hand, stare into your eyes, and watch you slowly calm down..." ... Su Xiaosan lay powerlessly on the hospital bed, her body seemed to be completely hollowed out, she didn't feel any pain, just numb, her mind was still clear, and she could start thinking about the years to come.She killed the child, and the hemorrhage almost took her life. She was reborn from the ashes, and she felt that she was a different person.Su Xiaosan missed someone in her heart, and for the first time felt that missing someone was so firm, happy, and focused on nothing else.Su Xiaosan felt that his breath was like a huge magnetic field, covering her, making her feel warm and full of courage to live.She wanted to call him, but couldn't.There are many messages from him in the mobile phone, and those words comfort her soul. Chen Huaiyuan was sitting beside the hospital bed, his mind was absent, his eyes were glazed over. He didn't know what Su Xiaosan was thinking, if he knew, what would happen? Su Xiaosan tilted her head, smiled at him, and said weakly, "Huaiyuan, thank you." It was Chen Huaiyuan who accompanied her to the hospital for surgery.Chen Huaiyuan had been waiting outside the operating room. When the doctor came out and told him that Su Xiaosan was bleeding heavily, he frantically grabbed the doctor's collar, stared and shouted: "You must save her, if she dies, I will kill you!" The doctor told him to restrain himself and try his best to rescue him.After he calmed down a bit, he took the initiative to say to the doctor: "Doctor, you can draw my blood. I have type O blood and it can be used!" When the blood was drawn, 300ml was withdrawn, and he insisted on letting the nurse draw it. The nurse said: "No, you can only smoke up to 300ml at a time!" Chen Huaiyuan said: "Yes, you continue to smoke!" The nurse said: "Really not!" Smoke!" The nurse had no choice but to smoke him another 300ml, and he continued to smoke, but the nurse never smoked him again.After the blood was drawn, Chen Huaiyuan felt dizzy, and sat powerlessly at the door of the emergency room, waiting until Su Xiaosan was pushed out. Chen Huaiyuan was in a trance: "What did you say?" Su Xiaosan said softly: "I say, thank you." Chen Huaiyuan smiled miserably: "Thank you, this is the first meaningful thing I do for you, and it may be the last time." Su Xiaosan said: "Huaiyuan, don't lose heart, everything will be fine, you and I are the same." Chen Huaiyuan smiled wryly, but said nothing more. Su Xiaosan said again: "Huaiyuan, go back and rest, you have worked too hard." Chen Huaiyuan still didn't speak, and turned his face out of the window. Su Xiaosan couldn't see his face, but could feel his body twitching. Zhong Feiyang walked into the ward with a bouquet of lilies and a basket of fruits.Su Xiaosan was slightly surprised: "Officer Zhong, why are you here?" Zhong Feiyang smiled: "Don't talk, lie down, your body is still very weak." Su Xiaosan said: "Thank you, Officer Zhong, I'm fine." At this moment, Chen Huaiyuan turned his head and glanced at Zhong Feiyang, looking very nervous, stood up, and walked out of the ward quickly.Zhong Feiyang said: "Didn't you break up with him? Why—" Su Xiaosan said: "It is because we broke up, but we still live together. When he finds a place, he will move out. This time it is really his fault." "Zhong Feiyang said: "That's right, you can still be good friends after breaking up, there is no need to act like enemies." Su Xiaosan said: "Yes, there is no need to act like an enemy. In fact, everyone has unspeakable suffering in their hearts. Just understand." Zhong Feiyang said: "You have to take good care of your body, you still owe me a meal." Su Xiaosan said: "Did I say I would invite you?" Zhong Feiyang said: "Yes, you forgot, you told me yourself that if you solve Xiang Hanlan's case, you will treat me to a big meal." Su Xiaosan said: "Sorry, I really forgot." Zhong Feiyang said: "It doesn't matter, when you recover from illness, you can invite me, and I will pay the bill." Su Xiaosan smiled: "How can that be possible? Even though I'm poor, I can still afford a meal." Zhong Feiyang said: "Okay, stop talking, let me tell you something, you listen quietly, but, after listening, don't be afraid." Su Xiaosan said, "I've already died once, so what are you afraid of?" Then, Zhong Feiyang told her what happened in the empty house opposite Xiang Hanlan's house. It was three farmers from Anhui who renovated the house.A small contractor named Huang Guoquan led two workers, and the two workers were Huang Xiaoshuan and Huang Gezi.Huang Guoquan is a man in his forties, Huang Xiaoshuan and Huang Gezi are both in their twenties, and they are both from the same village.Huang Guoquan's wife gave him two daughters, and she is pregnant with another child, which will be born soon.In order to escape family planning, Huang Guoquan's wife Li Yuncai also came to Shanghai to cook and wash for them, waiting for the child to be born.There are three kinds of unfilial piety, and the greatest thing is to have no offspring. Huang Guoquan misses his son like crazy. Sometimes when he sees a little boy walking by on the street, his eyes will be glued to him, as if the boy is his own son.Every time Li Yuncai gave birth to a girl for him, he would be very angry, beating or scolding her.Forced by his violence, Li Yuncai swallowed her anger, and secretly vowed in her heart that she must give Huang Guoquan a son, otherwise she would not have a good life in her life.Huang Guoquan also made a wish to her, if she gave birth to a son, he would support her like a queen.Unexpectedly, in that dilapidated rented house, Li Yuncai gave birth to another baby girl. Huang Guoquan was so angry that he wanted to hang himself, and Li Yuncai also lost his mind.On the night when the baby girl was born, Huang Guoquan threw Li Yuncai's mother and daughter in the rented house, and returned to the decoration site of Hongtai Community by himself.They usually live here.He said to them dejectedly: "Oh, this bitch gave birth to a baby girl for me!" Huang Xiaoshuan said: "Uncle Guoquan, just look at it a little bit, boys and girls are the same no matter what time it is! But Huang Gezi said: "It's impossible to have no boys! Uncle Guoquan, don't be angry, it's a big deal to have another one!" It's getting heavier and heavier. Is it easy to earn this hard-earned money? What if I have another baby girl? I'll take them to drink the northwest wind!" Huang Gezi said: "I think it's best to give this girl away first, so If you have another child, your burden will not be so heavy. If you have a boy in your next child, wouldn’t everyone be happy!" Huang Xiaoshuan said, "That's a good idea." Huang Guoquan sighed and said, "But who wants it! I can't Holding the child, I went door to door and asked: Do you want it? I will send you a child.” Huang Gezi suddenly lowered his voice and said, “If it’s not possible, I just threw her away at the gate of that community. Maybe she has good intentions.” Someone picked it up and raised it." Huang Xiaoshuan said: "This is not good, if no one picks it up and the child dies, what should I do? If the police find out, it will be a serious crime!" Huang Guoquan said: "We should think of a surefire plan. That's right, this girl must never be left behind! Neither giving it away nor throwing it away, this—" Huang Gezi stood up suddenly, knocked on the load-bearing wall with his fist, and said inexplicably: "This wall is It's really thick!" Huang Guoquan also stood up, walked over, knocked on the load-bearing wall with his fist, and said to himself, "This wall is really thick." Huang Xiaoshuan said, "The load-bearing wall is thick, which has something to do with girls. What's the relationship?" Huang Guoquan said: "It's related, it's related!" Huang Xiaoshuan and Huang Gezi stared at him blankly, wondering what kind of medicine he was selling in his gourd.Huang Guoquan suddenly said coldly: "What if you dig out a piece here, put a small wooden box in it, and build it up again?" Huang Xiaoshuan was shocked when he heard this: "You want to build the girl into the wall? "Huang Gezi said coldly: "I think this idea is good, I think it will never be possible for someone to find out." Huang Guoquan said: "Then do it like this. Tomorrow, you dig the wall. Just bring the child!" Huang Gezi said: "Okay!" Huang Xiaoshuan said: "I won't do it, don't drag me, I'm afraid!" Huang Guoquan stared at him viciously: "You have to do it if you don't do it, otherwise Build you into the wall together, I will keep my word!" Huang Xiaoshuan was trembling all over.Huang Gezi smiled and said, "Xiao Shuan, what are you afraid of? This is something people don't know." Huang Xiaoshuan's face turned pale.Huang Guoquan said: "Go to sleep, it's getting late, do as I say tomorrow!" In the middle of the next night, Huang Guoquan quietly carried the child into the house.They covered the windows and doors with bedding and got to work.The baby girl in the swaddle was still sleeping, her little face was pink and her eyes were a line.Huang Guoquan said: "Smother her to death first!" Huang Gezi trembled, and said: "Don't cover it, after building it into the wall, if there is no air, she will suffocate herself!" Huang Guoquan said: "That's fine, I really can't do anything." At this time, Huang Xiaoshuan was so frightened that his face was ashen, and his whole body was shaking like chaff.Huang Guoquan was about to put the baby girl into the small wooden box, when Huang Xiaoshuan said, "Wait!" Huang Gezi said, "What are you going to do?" Huang Xiaoshuan said, "I think this girl is very pitiful, she will go back just after she was born. At noon, I sneaked out to buy a set of small clothes and shoes, let her go in a decent dress, so my conscience will be at peace." He said, he took out a set of small red clothes and a pair of red clothes. embroidered cloth children's shoes for the baby girl.After putting on the clothes and shoes, Huang Guoquan put the baby girl into the small wooden box.Just as they were fixing the lid of the box, Huang Xiaoshuan found that there was only one child's shoe left on the baby girl's foot. He searched around the house, but he couldn't find the other child's shoe.They put the box into the wall, and then filled it with cement. When they were about to seal the hole in the wall, a baby girl cried suddenly.They quickly sealed all the holes in the wall, and the crying of the baby girl disappeared... After Zhong Feiyang finished speaking, Su Xiaosan trembled all over. Zhong Feiyang asked with concern: "Xiaosan, are you okay?" There was no trace of blood on Su Xiaosan's face, and she said tremblingly, "It's okay, it's okay! How can people be so cruel nowadays?" Zhong Feiyang said: "People have always been cruel." ... After Zhong Feiyang left, Chen Huaiyuan flashed in like a ghost. Seeing Su Xiaosan's frightened look, he asked in a low voice, "Xiaosan, what did the policeman say to you?" Su Xiaosan shook her head and said, "Nothing, nothing!" Chen Huaiyuan stopped asking, and said, "Xiao Shan, you are too tired, close your eyes and rest for a while." Su Xiaosan really closed her eyes. At this moment, Guiguzi pushed the door and walked into the ward with a rose in his hand, with a strange smile on his face.