Chapter 16 Chapter 15 The powdery ashes are flying in the wind

Chen Huaiyuan came back very late. Su Xiaosan opened the door for him and smelled alcohol. Su Xiaosan said: "You are so weak, and you still go out to drink, don't die!" Chen Huaiyuan smiled and said: "I didn't drink much, I just relieved my boredom. Besides, my rotten life, even if I drank to death, it doesn't matter. Thank you for your concern, Xiaosan!" Su Xiaosan said: "What's the use of caring about you? You are a person who doesn't need others to care about. You said you didn't rest at home all day long. You are really going to die outside. There won't even be a body collector." Anyway, I won’t collect your corpse for you.”

Chen Huaiyuan said: "Hey, if you die, you will die, and who cares who will collect the body!" Su Xiaosan said: "To be a human being, you must have a sense of responsibility, and you must do what you say. Don't forget, your father's grave hasn't been repaired yet!" Chen Huaiyuan was speechless, and his face was particularly ugly. Su Xiaosan said: "I'll tell you one thing. Xiang Hanlan's case was solved, and she was poisoned to death! I also suspected you, thinking that you killed Xiang Hanlan." Chen Huaiyuan smiled: "Why did I kill her? You have no basis for suspicion. Whether her case is solved or not has nothing to do with me. In fact, it has nothing to do with you. Now the relationship between people is very suspicious. , friends who seem to be good can turn against each other at will, or stab you in the back."

Su Xiaosan said: "That night, when you scratched my portrait with a dagger, you thought you were a murderer! Now you don't think so. In fact, you are a person who can't even kill yourself!" Chen Huaiyuan sighed: "Yes, killing and committing suicide require both capital and extraordinary abilities. As for me, I have nothing!" Su Xiaosan said: "Okay, I won't grind my teeth with you anymore, and I have to go to Xiang Hanlan's memorial service tomorrow morning. You can go to sleep!" Chen Huaiyuan said: "Nowadays anyone can hold a memorial service when they die. It's so boring! You go to sleep. It's the same whether I sleep or not. I am awake when I sleep, and I am sleeping when I am awake. I am a lonely monster." .”

Su Xiaosan said: "You are not a monster, you are an idiot!" Chen Huaiyuan gritted his teeth, wanted to say something but couldn't say anything. Cloudy, wind whimpering.It's a heavy-hearted weather, perfect for a memorial service or something.Su Xiaosan walked out of the gate of the community, looked at the hazy sky, feeling very sad.She turned her head and saw the mysterious man in black, why did he appear again, and it was during the day.The night man was leaning on a cane, staring straight at her.Su Xiaosan hurried to the side of the road, ready to take a taxi, not daring to look back at the man in black.

A taxi stopped, and Su Xiaosan was about to get in the car, when suddenly someone behind said, "I'll go with you." Su Xiaosan turned her head and saw that it was Chen Huaiyuan. She said, "What are you going to do?" Chen Huaiyuan said, "Suddenly I want to go." Su Xiaosan sighed: "You can do whatever you want, I can't influence you, you can go if you want." Xiang Hanlan's memorial service was held in a small mourning hall of the funeral home. Not many people came, except for her friends and colleagues during her lifetime. None of the bosses who hung out with her in bars or karaoke halls came.

Su Xiaosan and Chen Huaiyuan walked into the mourning hall. Xiang Hanlan's body was placed among the flowers. She was made up, her hair was neatly combed, and there were white flowers on it, and she was flushed, looking like a sleeping bride. She was wearing her favorite white embroidered cheongsam. Wearing a pair of red high-heeled shoes on the feet. Su Xiaosan's eyes were clouded with tears, she really hoped that Xiang Hanlan would just lie there and take a nap instead of leaving the world forever.She put a bouquet of lilies next to Xiang Hanlan's head, and said with a sob: "Hanlan, you have a good journey, and we will be good friends in the next life."

With a livid face, Chen Huaiyuan bowed towards Hanlan's corpse, and said softly, "Life and death are always face to face." Xiang Hanlan's parents stood there, silently watching the people who came to the memorial service. They all had white hair and sad faces. Su Xiaosan walked up to Xiang Hanlan's parents, took her mother's hand and said, "My condolences to the elders!" She thought of many words to comfort them, but at this moment she couldn't say a word, she couldn't even comfort herself.Xiang Hanlan's parents are both elementary school teachers. They have spent their entire lives in that remote southern town, and they are full of peaches and plums. They never thought that they would hold a memorial service for their precious only daughter in Shanghai.

Su Xiaosan stood beside Xiang's mother, holding her arm. Chen Huaiyuan walked to the other side and stood with those people. Su Xiaosan was startled: how could he come! Guiguzi walked into the mourning hall. He was wearing a black suit, a pair of sunglasses, and his hair was shiny and shiny. He was completely different from the wretched appearance when he molested Su Xiaosan on the subway.Holding a rose in his hand, he walked up to Xiang Hanlan's body, bent down, and moved his lips, as if whispering to Xiang Hanlan.Then, she put the red rose on Xiang Hanlan's chest. He walked up to Xiang Hanlan's parents, shook hands with them respectively, and said, "My condolences."

He glanced at Su Xiaosan. Su Xiaosan was so disgusted that she couldn't see his eyes clearly, but found an imperceptible smile at the corner of his mouth, which was a malicious smile. Zhong Feiyang also came. After he walked over, Xiang Hanlan's father held his hand tightly, and said with sobs: "Officer Zhong, thank you, thank you for defending the little girl Zhaoxue!" Zhong Feiyang said: "This is our What should be done, you guys are so sad!" Su Xiaosan nodded to him, and said, "Thank you, Police Officer Zhong!" Zhong Feiyang nodded to her with a serious face, and said softly, "You're welcome!"

The memorial service began, with a eulogy to Han Lan's father. With tears in his eyes, he choked up and said: "My beloved daughter, Hanlan, has been smart and beautiful since she was a child. She can recite a hundred Tang poems at the age of three, and she can talk to people in English at the age of six... From elementary school to middle school graduation, every year is a Three good students; for four years in university, because of excellent character and learning, he was awarded a scholarship every year... After joining the work, he worked hard and was kind to others, which won the praise of the company's leaders and colleagues... Our daughter Hanlan is our pride, But the heavens are jealous of talents, and the vicious people took away her flower-like life... The white-haired man sent the black-haired man, weeping and crying, the sun and the moon were dark, and the grief was endless...Daughter, I only wish you go all the way Well, waiting for us in heaven, we will meet one day..."

During the process of reciting the eulogy, Father Xiang was unable to continue several times because of his grief. The thousand-word eulogy took more than an hour to finish. There was a sigh in the mourning hall. Su Xiaosan cried like a tearful man. She can touch everyone's sadness, because at this time, the sadness is so real! While Su Xiaosan was sad, she also thought this way: No matter what, Xiang Hanlan is happy. With such loving parents, how many people will see her off. If she dies later, who will send her a gift? A sincere eulogy, who will see him off? ... After the memorial service, most people left. Su Xiaosan, Chen Huaiyuan and Zhong Feiyang stayed behind. Su Xiaosan wanted to send her friend Xiang Hanlan off again, and also wanted to spend more time with Xiang Hanlan's parents.Perhaps Chen Huaiyuan stayed because he was bored.Zhong Feiyang wanted to wait for Xiang Hanlan's body to be cremated, and send Xiang Hanlan's parents to the train station. After the matter was over, they didn't want to stay in Shanghai for a day, and hoped to bring Xiang Hanlan's ashes back to the person who gave birth to her and raised her. Buried in a small southern town. Before the body was cremated, Hanlan asked her parents to see her daughter's body cremated with her own eyes. The funeral home workers obliged. Su Xiaosan also went in with them. Chen Huaiyuan followed like a follower. Zhong Feiyang didn't go in, saying he couldn't bear the scene. Xiang Hanlan's parents pushed her daughter's body into the cremator with their own hands. They brought Xiang Hanlan naked to the world and sent her away naked. The ashen-faced, expressionless funeral worker pressed the button, and the door of the cremator automatically closed, and Xiang Hanlan's body was quickly reduced to ashes. Xiangmu wailed loudly, crying and shouting: "Hanlan, don't go away, don't leave us alone—" Father Xiang hugged his wife, unable to say anything, the muscles on his face kept twitching, and the painful expression made people feel heartbroken. Su Xiaosan opened her mouth, but she couldn't cry out even if she wanted to, and tears rolled down her eyes.At this moment, she felt that Xiang Hanlan had really left her, and she would never see her flowery face again! Chen Huaiyuan stood there, watching coldly as the flames engulfed Xiang Hanlan's body. He said softly: "The soul in the fire, dancing wildly in the flames, with an enchanting posture, singing songs of joy..." ... Xiang's father carried the urn and walked out of the funeral home. Su Xiaosan supported Xiang's mother and followed behind, while Chen Huaiyuan followed behind them.Zhong Feiyang had already driven the car to the door and waited. Seeing them come out, he trotted over and helped his father. Walking up to the police car, Xiang's father turned back to Su Xiaosan and said, "Xiaosan, thank you. Hanlan is blessed to have good friends like you." Xiang's mother took her hand and said, "Xiaosan , if you have time in the future, come to live with us for a while, we will treat you like Hanlan, you are also our daughter. Every time Hanlan goes home, she will talk about you and say that you are her best sister , and talking about your life experience, we all like you and hope you are happy." Su Xiaosan said: "Mom, you are my parents. I will definitely visit you! Take care of yourself and call me if you have any difficulties!" Xiang Mu said: "We won't have any difficulties, you have to protect yourself!" Chen Huaiyuan stood behind and looked at them coldly. Zhong Feiyang said: "Uncle and Aunt, it's getting late, so please stay away." He glanced at Chen Huaiyuan, and that glance was meaningful. Su Xiaosan supported Xiang's mother and got into the car first. When Xiang's father got into the car, he accidentally stepped on the ground, his body trembled violently, and when he let go of his hand, the urn fell to the ground.All the people present were stunned, looking at each other in blank dismay.The urn was inexplicably opened, and Xiang Hanlan's ashes were scattered on the ground.Suddenly a gust of wind blew up and lifted the powdery ashes into the air.Those pink and white ashes suddenly turned golden yellow, and the golden yellow ashes gradually gathered together to form a pattern, and that golden pattern illuminated the hazy sky, so eye-catching.Su Xiaosan was surprised to find that the golden pattern turned out to be Xiang Hanlan's face.She seemed to hear Xiang Hanlan whispering softly: "I don't want to leave Shanghai, I don't want to go back to that lonely town, I love Shanghai so much—" Zhong Feiyang drove the car and left the funeral home with Xiang Hanlan's parents.Su Xiaosan watched the police car go away, disappeared into the rolling traffic, and her heart was taken away.Su Xiaosan looked devastated, with no strength in her body at all, her hands were propped on the sycamore tree by the roadside, as if she was about to collapse. Seeing this, Chen Huaiyuan approached her and helped her up. Su Xiaosan said: "Go away, don't touch me." Chen Huaiyuan stood aside obediently, looking lonely. At this moment, Guiguzi appeared. It turned out that he hadn't left, and he didn't know where he was hiding just now.He is the erratic ghost in this city, who will disappear at any time, and may stand in front of you at any time.He was still wearing the sunglasses, and said eccentrically, "Xiaosan, I know you are in pain, and so am I. I told you that I love Xiang Hanlan very much, just like I love you. But, I don't want you to be like her." Leaving this world prematurely like that. In fact, how good it is to be alive, you can still love, you can still eat, and you can still watch the wonderful vicissitudes of life... Don't be too sad, think about the good things, as long as you are alive, you are lucky! I am comforting you, and I am also comforting myself, I am as sad as you..." Guiguzi was very close to her, Su Xiaosan could smell his bad breath. Feeling sick for a while, Su Xiaosan vomited, but couldn't vomit anything.If his words came from Zhong Feiyang or Chen Huaiyuan, she wouldn't be so disgusted!Su Xiaosan said angrily: "Get out of here, you shameless bastard—" Guiguzi smiled: "Small umbrella, don't be so angry, your body is important! I don't have any malice towards you, I think we should become Good friend!" Su Xiaosan turned her head and said to the silent Chen Huaiyuan: "If you're a fucking man, kill that bastard!" Chen Huaiyuan was stunned for a moment, and then rushed towards Guiguzi like a hungry wolf. Guiguzi was punched heavily in the face, and his sunglasses fell to the ground.Before Chen Huaiyuan's second punch landed, he ran away.While running, he turned his head and said, "Su Xiaosan, I won't give up, I will make you my girlfriend—" Chen Huaiyuan wanted to chase, Su Xiaosan said: "Forget it, even if you catch up with him, you can't kill him! In fact, such a lunatic is not worth your life to change with him, although you are not good Things, but your life is worth more than his, at least you know how to build a new grave for your father!" Chen Huaiyuan gritted his teeth. He stepped on the sunglasses that Guiguzi left on the ground and crushed them vigorously. On the taxi back, Su Xiaosan and Chen Huaiyuan were silent, each with their own concerns. Su Xiaosan suddenly felt a strong dislike for this city. She didn't know why she was alive and had to bear so much pain.She thought of Jiguang, Shangri-La, and the holy mountain... She took out her mobile phone and sent a text message to Jiguang: "I am very sad, my heart is pierced by a knife, and I feel that life is meaningless! Even you What I said is also false and does not exist. To me, it is just a temptation." After a while, Jiguang returned a message: "Xiaosan, I understand your feelings. If you want, let me share your pain and sorrow. I used to have your thoughts at this time, and then I came to Shangri-La. It has changed. Maybe I can't convince you what to believe, but there is one thing that exists, that is love, and love can save the soul. The most missing thing in you is love. Over the years, I have loved you silently, and you have also It gave me strength, just like the beautiful and holy clouds in the sky here. Every time I paint an oil painting of clouds, I feel that I am painting you in my heart. Love doesn’t have to be reciprocated, as long as you give, your soul will be comforted.” "Jiguang, I believe that the love in your heart is good for me and nature. I also believe that your heart is as pure as the snow on the plateau. But I can't help myself, and I feel suffocated at any time. Everyone There is a sacred place in my heart, you found it, but I don’t know where it is, I can’t find it, and I can’t see the future, my heart is ashamed.” "Xiao Shan, you are under too much pressure. The most important thing is that you can't let go of some worldly things. You are squeezed by that materialistic city, and every pore is covered with urban dirt. However, this The first time I went to Shanghai, I saw your soul. There is still a pure land in your soul. Indeed, you can’t find it by yourself. You are right. Everyone has a holy land in their hearts. Don’t look for it anywhere. It exists in In your soul, once you realize it, you will become pure and invulnerable. In the hustle and bustle of the world, people value the least important things more than life, such as fame and wealth; You see things that are worthless, such as faith and love, and always cynically think that faith and love are illusions that do not exist! Even ridiculous things! You may not understand now, but I believe that one day, you will understandable!" "Jiguang, what you said is very reasonable, but I still can't comprehend the deep meaning in your words. Now, I am still immersed in pain and despair, everything is so gloomy and fragmented!" "I feel your pain, and my chest starts to hurt. I think I am sharing your pain and sorrow, you have to believe! Only by believing, can your pain be transformed into me. There is always a magic in the dark Power is in our bodies and souls. Believe it, and let me bear all your pain and sorrow." "..." Chen Huaiyuan asked, "Who are you sending messages to?" Su Xiaosan ignored him. Chen Huaiyuan asked again: "What are you talking about?" Su Xiaosan said lightly: "Things you won't understand, things you will never understand in your lifetime." After saying this, she felt that her heart was much clearer. Because she believes! In the middle of the night, the wind outside the window was rumbling. I tossed and turned in bed, unable to sleep.Is it the same for Gu Xin?Is he just lying on the bed in the room next to me?Or are you still painting scary oil paintings in that gloomy studio?During dinner, I mentioned Yu Tao.For a few seconds, he was in a trance, but he quickly regained his composure: "Son, Yu Tao will come back, he loves you so much, he won't have the heart to leave you. I think, when he comes back, I'll give it to you For weddings, this building is for your wedding. If you think it’s inconvenient for me to live here, I can move out. As long as you are happy, Dad can do anything.” I also hope that Yu Tao can come back, and I hope I will marry him after he comes back, no matter whether his family objects or not, if that is the case, I will not let Gu Xin move out.What a blessing to have a loving father and a loving husband.The reality is so cruel, whether Yu Tao is dead or alive is still a mystery.Thinking of the oil painting in the studio, I was terrified, what would happen to me if Yu Tao was really killed like in the painting? I'm going to have a complete breakdown! He will even end his own life and go to the underworld to follow him. In the dark, I heard someone crying. It seems that Wang Hairong's soul is crying. In the past, I often felt his desolate crying.Ever since I fell in love with Yu Tao, I think they have merged into one, Yu Tao is Wang Hairong, Wang Hairong is Yu Tao, they are an inseparable whole.I found the most ideal soul residence for Wang Hairong, which is Yu Tao's physical body.At this time, I was not afraid at all, on the contrary, a kind of power rose up in my body. I said softly: "Don't cry, tell me, where are you? Let me find you, and use my tenderness to soothe your soul. Use my sincere love to water your precious life! Believe me, I can't do without you For you, I can give up everything, including my life! Tell me, where are you? I must find you!" The crying died away. Immediately, I heard a sad sigh. I said softly again: "Don't sigh, it's useless, it's useless to cry, and it's useless to sigh. The best result is to let me find you. If your soul is really floating in this room, Then please tell me where you are, or take me there to find Yu Tao's body, whether it is life or death, I will find it. Otherwise, my life will not be peaceful, and there will be no happiness. If you If you really love me, tell me quickly, I know you know Yu Tao's whereabouts, you are together." In the darkness, Wang Hairong's soul said: "Ah Hong, come with me!" I believe that I am not in a dream, but so awake. I get out of bed. It seemed that someone took my cold hand and walked out of the room.The entire building was pitch black, and I could tell the direction without turning on the lights, because someone took my hand and led me through the darkness to seek the truth.When passing by the door of Gu Xin's bedroom, I stopped and heard voices coming from inside.That was my father Gu Xin speaking: "Shan, you can rest in peace, our daughter is finally with me; Shan, I will treat her well and protect her well; you know, she is so Well, it is the elf who fell into the mortal world, and it is my life! She is as beautiful and pure as you, and I will give her all the love and make her the happiest person in the world..." My scalp shuddered Numb, inexplicably numb, what Gu Xin said suddenly became so untrue.After a while, I heard Gu Xin's snoring, what he said just now must have been talking in sleep. I continued to be led up the stairs leading to the third floor. When I came to the door of the studio, I stopped. The door opened without a sound. Although I couldn't see how the door opened in the dark, my intuition told me that the door opened silently. I stood motionless outside the door. Suddenly, a misty green light appeared in the studio, like a dream. I told myself truthfully, this is not a dream. Two men appeared in the green light.They faced each other, as if arguing violently.The person facing me turned out to be Yu Tao, and the back of the person with his back to me was so blurred that he couldn't tell who he was.They were arguing, and the vague man rushed towards Yu Tao frantically.I opened my eyes wide in horror. A sharp knife was inserted into Yu Tao's heart. It was inserted so deep that only the handle of the knife was exposed. How much strength would it take to do this.Yu Tao's face was full of doubts, he covered his heart with his hands, lowered his head slightly, and watched the blood overflow from his fingers.The blood was gurgling, and Yu Tao also vomited a big mouthful of blood from his mouth, and slowly collapsed to the ground, lying prone in the pool of blood.The green light gradually disappeared.I can't say anything, I really hope this is a nightmare and everything is fake when I wake up.The blood on the ground gradually became brighter, and the blood flowed out of the studio, like a molten slurry, between my legs, and went downstairs. Bright blood led me down three flights of stairs, to the ground floor, and all the way to the door.The blood flowed under the camphor tree in the small garden and seeped into the grass.The blood that had flowed dimmed and was wiped clean by the darkness. The dim red light from the street lamps came in, and everything in the small garden could be seen. I grabbed a shovel from the corner and dug desperately in the grass where the blood seeped into it.The soil was soft, and it didn't take much effort to dig it up.After a while, I dug out a hole.When I plunged the shovel into the soil again, I felt the obstacle, and the shovel seemed to be stuck in human flesh.I smell a scent, it is the smell of my beloved's body!I threw away the shovel, threw myself into the pit, and desperately dug away the layer of soil with both hands, and a dead body suddenly appeared under my nose.The sharp knife is still stuck in the corpse!I picked up the dead man's head and wiped the mud off his face. With the dim red light of the street lamp, I could clearly see the dead man's stiff and cold face, which was Yu Tao's face.The blood in my veins stopped flowing, my heart seemed to stop beating, and I turned into a cold stone without any consciousness. At this time, a tall figure appeared outside the building door. He just stood there, staring at us blankly. The world stands still. There is no wind. Not breathing. There is no heartbeat. no language. There is no sound. Even the lights of the street lamps froze. The world turned into a gigantic block of ice.