It has been ten years since Juying left her.In the past ten years, she did not know how many tears shed, how much muscle she lost, for Juying, for her heart and soul. Others' daughters grew up beside their own mothers, leaning against their mothers all the time, shouting "Amu, Amu".Only her Juying, her sweetheart, didn't grow up by her side, and didn't lean on her side and shout "Am Aim". Some people's daughters leave their mothers. For example, after getting married, she doesn't live with her mother.But the mother can still see her daughter, she can go to her daughter, and her daughter can come to her.Even if the daughter is taken far away by her husband, the mother can write to her daughter, and the daughter can also write to her mother. The mother cannot see her daughter, but the daughter can send her a photo lantern.Now there is only her, Juying's mother, who has not seen Juying in ten years, never received a letter from Juying, or even a photo.Ten years ago, she never took a picture of Ju Ying.

Can she know the current situation of her Juying?Juying smiled?Juying's eyes are tear-stained?Juying's world is a bright one?is a dark one?Is there a god bless Juying?Are there evil spirits playing tricks on Juying?Juying fat?Juying lost weight?Or sick? ——Only God knows this kind of thing! But Juying has grown taller and matured, she believes it is certain.Whether a man or a woman, she believes it is inevitable to want a wife or husband when they reach the age of seventeen or eighteen.She is sure—you don't need to ask Juying—Juying desperately needs a husband now.Juying must feel very lonely now, very lonely.The air Juying breathes must be heavy and stuffy.Juying must be very distressed and depressed.Juying must have felt that life is not interesting.Or—she thought—Juying even wanted to commit suicide.To drag her darling Juying from a pessimistic, desperate, and dangerous place to an optimistic, hopeful, and safe place, she knows that neither threats, nor theory, nor advice, nor maternal love can help; The best way is to give Juying a husband, a young husband.Naturally, Ju Ying would never say that her troubles were caused by not having a husband; or that Ju Ying really didn't know the cause of her troubles.But giving Juying a husband will definitely get rid of Juying's loneliness, Juying's loneliness.He will give Juying a lot of gentle comfort and a lot of happiness.With Juying's body entrusted and her soul attached, she will be happy and will not fall into such a dangerous place again.Ask a seventeen or eighteen-year-old woman if she wants a husband, and she won't get a "yes" answer.No matter how much she notices men, likes men, misses men, or even loves a man, you don't need to be polite.Juying's mother understood this truth, so she resolutely put the responsibility of her daughter on her shoulders according to the usual custom.She has spent a lot of effort.Five or six years ago, as soon as she heard the matchmaker say that someone wanted to find a wife for her son, she would brave the wind and rain and trek across mountains and rivers to find out.Today, she is satisfied, and she has found a very good son-in-law.Although she can't see her son-in-law now, she has seen a photo of his son-in-law when he was seven or eight years old.He was born very beautiful, obviously a smart child.Because of the matchmaker's agreement, she has already made an engagement with his parents.His family is very rich, and there is no need to mention the amount of the bride price.Four hundred yuan ocean has been sent once.She is busy with the dowry right now, so she will be as good as her strength can be.Only in this way can she feel at ease and feel worthy of her daughter.

Juying's father is a businessman.Although he didn't understand foreign language, but because he was mature and honest, the foreigner of Sensen Kerosene Company entrusted him with money and asked him to be the manager.His salary is not much, only 30 yuan per month, but the bonus at the end of each year often exceeds his annual salary.He has been in Sensen Company for five years and has thousands of yuan in savings.Juying's mother was very frugal about food and clothing.Although Juying's father brought her one hundred yuan or two hundred yuan from afar from time to time, she was always unwilling to make a good dress or buy some good side dishes.Her body is not very strong, and often due to a little overwork or a little unhappy heart, her thighs and backs will become sore, her heart will ache, her teeth will become swollen, and her eyes will become blurred.But in spite of her sickness, she was never willing to hire a female worker, even a little girl who was paid very cheaply.She often has to work even when she is sick.Although her waist and back are sore, when she has clothes to wash, she still refuses to wash them in the water tank at home—she said that the water in the tank is for emergencies—she must run to the river and walk down the high road. She knelt down on the last level of the swaying and narrow pier, bent her sore waist and back, and washed her clothes vigorously.Although her eyes were red, blurred and painful, she still had to wear glasses when she had to make clothes or shoes, and barely made her clothes or shoes.The reason why several of her diseases have become old diseases that cannot be cured, and they are getting worse day by day, is not due to her excessive and reluctant support.Juying's father and neighbors repeatedly advised her to hire a female worker so that she would not have to work so hard, but she always refused.She knew that the advice of others was right.She knew that her body was getting worse day by day.But she thought that she was nothing, no matter how sick or how young she was.She thought that the most important thing was to marry a husband for her daughter and find a wife for her son as soon as possible, and all of them should be held lively and luxuriously.Juying's mother and father, one worked hard at home, and the other went overseas to do business, most of them were for the important affairs of their children.

If the marriage of the children is hastily settled, great uneasiness will arise in their hearts.Because they feel that the marriage of their children is something that should be done within the responsibility of parents, and children can stand by and watch except for worship.If they can't make the happy event lively and lavish, they feel sorry for their children.They have a lot of daughters, so they have to spend some money here and there to marry them off one by one in a lively and luxurious way. Besides, they don't have a second daughter except Juying, and Juying is a mother. My favorite heart.

It is her responsibility and her very wish to do everything she can to prepare a dowry for Juying. Ha, would Juying not like such a good dowry?Will people still not praise it?You see, which kind of incompleteness?Which one is not pretty?Which one is worthless? Roughly speaking: two gold hairpins, one silver hairpin and one pearl hairpin.Two gold and silver hairpins each.Ear picking, two gold ones, one silver one.Two pairs each of gold, silver and diamond earrings.Four gold rings, and two diamond rings.There are three pairs of bracelets, but there are two pairs of gold bracelets.From the inside to the outside, there are three sets and four sets of coarse clothes for the four seasons, and two sets for each of the fine clothes.Clothes made of silk and grosgrain, such as woven silk, are included in the list of coarse wear.There are eight quilts, four of which are made of lake crepe.There are four felts, two of which are made of foreign cashmere.

There are six pairs of cross-cloth squid pillows, and landscape figures are picked out on both sides.One big bed, two wardrobes, one square table and one piano table.The chairs, stools, tea tables and various wooden utensils are all made of rosewood and other high-quality hardwoods, or carved or inlaid, all of which are very detailed, and all the pieces are painted in various colors such as light yellow, golden yellow and light red.The pewter utensils in the glass end-cases dazzled.There are six pairs of candle holders of different sizes, and the largest one weighs twelve catties each.All the other small items for daily use are exquisite, novel and valuable.In addition to all kinds of things that I can't describe in detail (even Juying's mother can't remember them all clearly), they also went to ten acres of fertile land, with a price of about 120 yuan per mu.

The auspicious date is approaching, and a lot of dowry has to be sent to the man's house a few days ago, Juying's mother is getting busier every day.Everything has to be considered by her, supervised by her, or done by herself.But despite being busy day and night, she never felt tired easily, and her body was several times stronger than usual. She was very happy.Everyone went from "aunt" to "father-in-law" and from "father-in-law" to "grandmother". She was so sad to see it before, but now it's her turn!Neighbors and relatives should know that Juying's mother is not an unlucky person!

When she went in and out, she always saw Juying's smiling face. "Yes, the wedding date is approaching, my darling!" She secretly said to Juying.Suddenly two red clouds flew out from Juying's cheeks. "He is a good-looking gentleman! A clever gentleman! You go to his house and be 'his man'! Let you follow him day and night, guard him, and let him accompany you day and night Hold you, hold you!" Juying shyly hugged her head and wanted to run away. "Serve him well," she said solemnly to Juying, "obey him and don't make him unhappy. Be happy and give him a son next year! Be filial and considerate to your parents-in-law. Be considerate to other elders. Those who are young should be respectful, and those who are young should be kind. Don’t let others speak ill of you, try to win your mother and yourself, and remember it firmly!..."

The music was playing lively, gradually approaching from far away.Everyone living in the street knew that Juying's sedan chair was out of the house.Juying's marriage is more lively and rich than others, they all know it.They all waited and watched on the street with the old and the young in advance. The first to pass by were the two sister-in-laws.Each of them had a big red silk cloth draped across their backs, and the procession arrived after about half a mile to see off their sister-in-law.Headed by two big lanterns with scarlet letters.Behind the lantern are eight flags and eight blowing hands.Then came a long row of refined, lifelike paper boys, paper maidservants, paper horses, paper sedan chairs, paper tables, paper chairs, cardboard boxes, paper houses, and many utensils made of paper.In the back, there is a drum pavilion with two bars of paper laid out, and the two bars are really laid out.There is a fragrant pavilion behind the pavement, and behind the fragrant pavilion is Juying's sedan chair. This sedan chair is different from ordinary sedan chairs. It is not red, but blue, with four-dimensional colors.A dozen people behind the sedan chair carried a very heavy coffin, which was Juying's coffin.The coffin was placed in a set of large latticework, covered with red tapestry and festooned on all sides, followed by two sedan chairs and many children on foot who were about to turn back halfway.

People who watched said that Juying's mother was doing well, and praised her for being able to endure hardships and stand hard work.They also talked about Juying's intelligence and the groom's beauty, and they all said that they matched well. At this time, Juying's mother was crying at home and passed out.The mother's heart is so sad that she will never see the coffin of her darling from now on.How beautiful, how smart, and how obedient Juying was when she was young!She just learned to walk, and when she couldn't speak, her every move was very cute.A guest came, and my mother called her to salute, so she went over and bent over.When the guest offered her candy or cakes, she blushed and refused to take them, but looking at her mother, she said, "Just take it, thank you!" She took it with both hands and bent over.Then she walked up to her side, put a little in her mouth, and gave some to her mother, who said, "Mother don't want to eat it," she let out a "huh" sound, showing displeasure, He raised his hand high, insisting that his mother eat it, and his mother took it and put it in his mouth, and she was so happy that she fell on her mother's lap and laughed.At that time, her father was unlucky and went to Yunnan to do business. He had no letter from home for half a year and six months, and he didn't return home for four years, and he didn't send any bad money back.My mother and her grandmother worked hard to make rough and fine things for others, and earned to support her. She learned to grind paper by herself when she was six years old, embroidered at seven, and learned to make clothes for girls with small feet. Paper, pick the lace up.She doesn't play with other children, and she doesn't eat snacks, but just sits in the house and works all day long.She couldn't leave her mother, and mother couldn't leave her.She is mother's flesh, she is mother's only heart and soul!Several times, my mother thought that her father was unlucky. My mother and grandmother worked hard day and night with their heads bowed for others. They couldn't make more money. They made a beautiful new dress for her to wear and bought some delicious candies. He gave her food, but asked her to help mother do hard work day and night. Mother felt sad, and suddenly hugged her and cried.When she saw her mother crying, she burst into tears.

The mother didn't tell her what the mother was thinking, but the mother's heart was bitter, and she was also bitter.At night, my mother asked her to go to bed earlier, and she always said that she had done this.Mother was afraid that she was tired, but she said that Mother must be tired. She said that Mother had more things to do than herself.She said to her mother several times, "Em, I will grow taller and stronger in a few years, and I will cook for you. You are too miserable, and you have to do this and that again." Laughing, Niang hugged her and said, "Okay, my meat!" At this moment, tears almost rolled out of Niang's eyes.Mother sometimes felt very sad in her heart, with a sad face on her face, and she sat alone without saying a word, then she came over, stood leaning on Mother and said, "Mum, I guess Daddy will be back tomorrow." She saw Mother Sick and lying in bed, the smile on her face was gone.She didn't have the mind to work anymore, but she just sat by her mother's bed all day long, holding her hand, or hitting her back or legs.In the past eight years, Mother has never hit her or scolded her, and she really doesn't need Mother to touch her lightly with her fingertips!Mother respects Bodhisattvas, and Mother has never done anything to desecrate Bodhisattvas.But, my God!Why don't you take care that Gan'er is by Mother's side?Although my mother was careless at that time, it was also because she was suffering so pitifully, that's why my mother asked her to go to her cousin's place with her grandmother to have a wedding banquet, so that she could take advantage of the excitement and have fun.Who would have known that it would have harmed her instead?If I had known this, cough, why should she go!She refused to go: "Mum won't go, and neither will I." She said to her mother.But there are food, good-looking, and fun, so why shouldn't a mother persuade her to go once in a while? "Then E-Mu will be alone at home." She couldn't be more stubborn than her mother, so she agreed, but she added this sentence, would mother be willing to leave her?Can mother leave her?Oh my god, she has been gone for eight days, mother has already suffered enough!Her father is in a place thousands of miles away, has no money, no letter, and no one comes back. Mother is doing hard work day and night in the city of sorrow, what is the fun of life?Mother's only comfort is this darling, without her, Mother would not want to live anymore.On the ninth day, she came back with her grandmother.Niang likes it so much: it's as if Niang's soul is lost and comes back again!As soon as she saw her mother, she called "Amu" and ran to her mother. Mother picked her up, and she put her arms around Mother's neck, and pressed her cheek to Mother's face.Mother asked her if she liked it after going there for eight days, and she said, "I like it, but it's not very interesting if Emma is not there." Mother touched her hand, looked at her face, and felt that she was thinner than before.Mother was a little unhappy.After a while, she coughed a few times, but Mother didn't pay attention.Unexpectedly, after a while, she coughed again.Mother quickly asked her how many days she had been coughing, and she said two days.Mother asked her if she was in good health, and she said she was fine, but coughed and coughed, which was a bit annoying.Mother felt a little regretful when she heard this, and hurried to the street to buy two coppers of Su stalks to make tea for her.She told her mother what the bride looked like, what kind of clothes she wore, what she did when she was having trouble, and other things. She really liked it and she talked with great interest.The next morning, her voice was a little hoarse, and Mother was very worried.But because she had to prepare breakfast, Mother didn't ask her carefully. When Mother was cooking, she also swept the floor of the house on behalf of Mother.When eating, my mother saw that she couldn't eat, her cheeks were a little red, so she hurriedly touched her head, her hair was burning.Niang asked her what else was sad, and she said that her throat was a little sore.As a result, my mother regretted it very much, and my mother felt that she should not have been asked to go in the first place.Grandma felt even more regretful. She said that she didn't know where the negligence had caused her to catch a cold and cough so that her throat was sore.Mother put down her rice bowl and looked at her throat, which was as red as blood.After tidying up the rice bowls, Mother called her to go outside again and let her have a closer look.At this time, Niang saw a small white spot on the right side of her throat.Mother didn't know what kind of disease it was, she only knew that throat disease was extremely dangerous.Mother's heart beat up, and grandmother was also very worried.Mother asked her again, and she felt that her throat was not feeling well that day. Only then did she tell that she felt a little dry the day before yesterday.Mother hurriedly called a rowing boat and took her to a laryngologist four miles away.What the doctor said scared my mother to death. He said it was diphtheria and it had been going on for two or three days. "Diphtheria!" What a terrible name!Mother heard many people say that people with this disease die within a week!The doctor wanted to take a shiny thing down her throat to apply medicine, but she was afraid, so she kept her mouth shut and refused.Mother advised her that it would not hurt, but she still refused.Finally, Mother cried out anxiously: "It's for Eminem, my flesh!" So she also cried, and she obeyed Mother's advice and asked the doctor to apply the medicine once.When I came back, the doctor gave me another pack of medicine to eat and rinse. The next day, she got worse: her voice became hoarse, she coughed more and more, a white film formed in her throat, there were more white spots, and she had a fever.Both mother and grandmother were very scared.According to a neighbor, the doctor yesterday was not very good. He is a traditional Chinese medicine doctor, and he should consult a western medicine doctor for this kind of disease.The best way of Western medicine is to inject liquid medicine. As long as the patient does not suffocate within twenty-four hours, the liquid medicine injection can be kept safe.Although Niang didn't really believe in western medicine, she saw that Chinese medicine was not good enough, so she had to try it.Shoushan Hospital is on the side of Wanqiu Mountain. My mother wanted to stop by to ask for medicine, so she brought joss sticks and incense ash.She was afraid of Chinese medicine, and she must be even more afraid of Western medicine, so Mother had no choice but to tell her not to go to the hospital, but to go to Wanqiu Mountain to seek medicine. She believed her mother's words and went with her mother by boat.But when it was time to go ashore, she understood.Because she had been to Wanqiu Mountain twice, and the hospital looked nothing like Wanqiu Mountain. She cried, and she refused to go ashore no matter what.Mother persuaded her, and the two boatmen also persuaded her, saying that without medical treatment, she will not get well, and if you are not good, mother will not live, but she always refuses.The boatman wanted to carry her ashore, but she struggled wildly with her hands, crying even harder in a hoarse voice. Mother felt very uncomfortable when she saw it, and thought of the skills of foreign doctors, she was afraid of what to do with surgery. I must refuse to go, so it is better to follow her, so I only went to Wanqiu Mountain to ask for medicine and came back.On the third morning, her breathing was so difficult: there was a hissing sound in her throat, as if something was blocking her throat, and the cough became more severe, and her face was very pale.She lost a lot of weight, and she didn't eat for two days.The mother's heart was burning like a raging fire, and she would only cry while hugging her.Grandma didn't have any idea, and she could only shed tears.Many people said that you can give her water chestnut juice and radish juice, and my mother did so one by one.But on the morning of the fourth day, the voice in her throat was as loud as a pig.The voice of the voice can no longer be heard clearly.The mouth is wide open, and the nose opens and opens quickly following the breathing.Cough very badly.His face was blue and white, and his cheeks were sunken.The lower jaw became long and sharp, the eyes were wide open and sunken in, the whites of the eyes were blue and white, and the eyeballs were dim and lifeless—like the face of a goat!Death! Mother was afraid to see it.Mother looks like her heart is about to break!But is mother willing?Is mother willing to watch her die?Is mother willing to give up her heart?Nope!My mother has to think of a way no matter what!Mother had no money, so she borrowed money to hire a doctor.Physicians invited two, both said it was lung wind, and each prescribed a prescription.Niang knelt down in front of the stove again, tears streaming down like a tide, and made a wish to Zaojun Bodhisattva for three thousand high king scriptures, to fast for a year, and begged Zaojun Bodhisattva to bless her.The mother sincerely wished in the room and said that if there was a guest in the room, she would be forgiven.I'm sick tonight, so I will burn fifty ingots tonight until it's completely cured, and put a table of sixteen large bowls of rice soup.In the first half of the day, the neighbor who wanted her mother to take her to the hospital came again.He said that if he didn't ask the doctor to give medicine injections today, he would definitely not get well.He said that he had seen several people healed with his own eyes, and if she didn't "go" within twenty-four o'clock, she would be safe after the injection.To invite a doctor from the hospital, you have to call him a sedan chair. The injections and medicines are expensive. He said that it takes six yuan to invite him. Since he said so, my mother must give it a try when she is desperate.Mother had no money and no place to borrow, so she had to entrust someone to take her fur coat and ask for a doctor.What's the use of the leather jacket? If there is no way to save her, can mother survive?During lunch, the doctor came.He said that he shouldn't be so late to invite him, now it's twelve o'clock tonight, and he can rest assured after passing this test.She heard it, cried, and held her mother's head and neck tightly.She is very innocent.She was afraid of injections, so several people held her down, and the doctor gave her an injection in her buttocks and poured a bottle of medicine into it. —— However, fate is doomed, what use is there!Cough, mother should be so pitiful!In the second half of the day, her breathing gradually stopped, and it was eleven o'clock at night... Oh my God! (from "Grapefruit")