Chapter 16 shemale

one I am seventeen years old this year, and my mother still treats me like a child.I was already going to read the original Western History at school, but my mother seemed to regard me as a primary school student who was reading Mandarin textbooks for the first time.Regarding this matter, he always held grievances in his chest, but these grievances have not been shown until now, but today's grievances are too great, and he wants to resist his mother no matter what. Who would want to be there on such a lukewarm early winter afternoon, with no clouds in the sky, no wind, and the sun shining extraordinarily warmly?Although the typhoid fever is just right, my body is weak and I cannot go out, but I have had dry drinks for more than a week, and it has been more than ten days since I got out of bed.I feel that I have already returned to the original state, and I can go outside for a stroll, but my mother doesn't allow me to go out.

"If I don't allow you to go out, then why do you want to go out? Are you people and I am not a person?" He remembered the few words his mother had ordered him before going out after lunch, and he felt more and more angry: "Baby, be good today, just play at home by yourself, mother is going to the market to buy something, she will be back soon!" At that time, he wanted to quarrel with his mother to go out, but after hearing his mother's soft words, he couldn't lose his temper.And the caresses and soft face that his mother put on his cheeks when he was about to leave made him have to smile and send her to the car.When he stood at the door and saw the shadow of his car disappearing at the corner of the alley, he suddenly felt a kind of loneliness in his heart, and this kind of loneliness turned into a kind of injustice after a while.After his mother's foreign car turned south at the corner, he suddenly wanted to chase after it, crying and screaming, but it was too late.I had no choice but to go back to the upper room in a dull mood.

Sitting in the house for a while, looking through the glass window, he saw the sunshine in the yard and the clear sky, and his sense of injustice suddenly increased again. "Resist, resist!" With such thoughts in his heart, he stood up on both feet and walked around the room several times.He feels that the utensils in the house are all things that annoy him.Especially those two old women sitting in the suite doing needlework are his jailers and his enemies.He walked around a few times resentfully, took a few glances into the suite, and walked from the upper room to the door outside the yard.

two Walking out of the gate, looking at the pedestrians in the alley and the sunlight on the road, although he felt a kind of joy of being liberated in his heart, but at the same time, a kind of fear arose: "I actually resisted, it's better not to encounter bad things today!" He was puzzled for a while, and wanted to follow his mother's order and run home, but before he could turn his feet, a rickshaw came behind him. A middle-aged driver smiled and said to him: "Take the car! Pull you there!" He got into the car in a daze, and the driver asked him where he was going. He thought about it for a while, but couldn't figure it out for a while, so he just said "Chengnan Amusement Garden".The driver let go of his pace and ran south.

It was just after two o'clock in the afternoon, when residents in Beijing went to market, and as soon as the foreign car reached Sipailou Street, he saw many vehicles and pedestrians running in four directions. There were also middle-aged men and some people sitting in the car. A young woman, he felt that a street was of special interest to him today.Because he has been living in a house with paper windows and powder walls for more than a month, he does not come to the street anymore, so the passers-by on the road and the shop signs on both sides are very novel to him, not only that, but also The blue sky over his head, and the long street in front of him, all the way to the Shunzhi Gate, seemed to be in a dream, and he felt very familiar and strange at the same time.

When the car passed the Shunzhi Gate, the sublime and majestic impression he often felt before his illness, and the impression of the busyness of human beings, returned again. His face, which was originally plump and pale, after this long illness , more white lover.Probably because of the warmth of the sun, his lips were pitifully redder than usual today.A row of long black hair messed up on his forehead, matched with his big piercing eyes, made everyone who saw him feel a kind of heroic impression.The light gray half-worn goose-skin crepe squirrel fur robe worn on his thin body, and the pair of black satin double clip shoes on his feet completed the noble beauty unique to his youth.He was lying on the car and was being pulled out of the city all the way. No pedestrians heading north, no matter men, women, old or young, looked at him inattentively.

He got out of the car in front of the gate of the amusement park, and looked into his pocket, but he couldn't find any small dime or copper coins. He had no choice but to reach into the pouch inside the robe to take out the new ten-yuan banknote to exchange it.This banknote is a newly issued note that my mother took from Bank C the night before yesterday.Because Xinjie is cute and the pattern on the back is very interesting, he asked his mother to keep it there, bought a ticket at the place where the tickets were bought, took the change, and returned to pay 20 cents To the coachman, he slowly stepped into the amusement park and walked around.In his heart, he finally felt uneasy, and his mother's sad face loomed before his eyes from time to time:

"Let's go back! I'm afraid my mother has already returned home." But the sound of gongs and drums disturbed this self-repentant tenderness.After entering the box and sitting down, he saw that the stage was empty and there was nothing there. The gongs and drums on the corner of the stage were beating very vigorously. After a pause, the gongs and drums stopped. A beautiful woman in red trousers tied her hands behind her back and followed two A soldier came out. "Are they going to kill her? Poor thing! I don't know what crime she committed?" He looked at her miserable attitude, listened to her mournful singing, and felt extremely wronged for her, and in his heart he only begged for the pardon of this young girl who was about to be executed.

three He was moved by the plot of the play, and unconsciously forgot his worries about disobeying his mother, and finished watching the two tragedies.When the last one with pheasant feathers on his head and a beard with a fox tail behind his back came onto the stage, he heard a few loud shouts from behind him. He turned his head and looked behind him. He felt that the eyes of the women in the row behind were both hanging. on his own face.Immediately blushed, turned his head to sit silently for a few minutes, holding his breath, he heard a scream from behind and started again, and unconsciously wanted to turn his head back to see who was screaming like this but he only turned his head halfway, and he remembered the eyes of those girls just now, and a deeper blush appeared on his face.Just when he was about to turn his head back to the original place halfway, he raised his eyes and saw a row of women sitting next to his right hand, and they were also staring at him.He suddenly felt ashamed.Turning his head, he sat there motionless and stared at the stage for a while, he finally felt that the women's gazes from the side and behind were all injected into his face, and he felt very uncomfortable.At the same time, he thought of his mother's sad face, and felt that he couldn't sit peacefully in the midst of those calls and listen to the play.Stealing a glance at the row of women next to him, he bowed his head and walked outside the arena.

In the short days of early winter, it is already the time of twilight.He walked out from the porch to the front yard, and saw that the sky had already turned gray. The grassy and wooden bridge court in front of the court and the few tourists scattered in the yard were also vague, as if separated by a layer of tulle weft curtains. look.Shen Wan exhaled to the sky, walked a few times in front of the court, he suddenly saw the back of a girl at the water's edge two or three zhang away from him.It was already too late to see clearly, but she was indeed wearing a rose-purple fashion dress with large sleeves, and a pair of high-soled leather boots rattled under the loose skirt. There is that kind of fluffy hair. Although he can't tell what shape it is, he only thinks it is ethereal and sentimental, and there is something that makes people have to love it.Judging by her moving posture, the proportions of her upper and lower limbs can be said to be a perfectly balanced creation, her figure is neither long nor short, neither fat nor thin, just on par with his.He raised his head to take a look, only to feel that this back shape was very familiar to him, as if he often lived together.But where is it often seen?He couldn't remember again.While thinking silently, he followed the back shape and walked.

She walked all the way to the edge of the ditch, turned to the north gate and went out, and he followed her out, walked out of the amusement park, and suddenly a bright moon-chartered car ran close to her at the gate.She didn't speak a word, and after getting in the car and sitting down, the car ran north.When he reached the gate, the car was about four or five feet away from him.Like a man who has lost his reason, he ran to the road in front of his door, saw a car touting deals, and jumped on it.The coachman asked him where he was going, but he was so focused on the car ahead that he didn't hear him. Seeing that he was staring blankly at the car ahead, the driver thought he was the same as her. Together, they desperately chased after them.He tried to explain to the coachman several times and asked him to take him back to Xicheng's house, but one was afraid of being overheard by her in the car ahead, and he felt embarrassed, and the other was that he would follow him by mistake, and he was not unhappy in his heart. So the coachman went in a daze. Four It was the time when day and night met, and the vehicles on the road were very crowded.The shops on both sides of the street have been lit up.He opened his eyes wide, tilted his head forward, concentrated his attention, and stared at her neck exposed from her collar.He could also see her delicate and white flesh.When he saw the piece of flesh that was like rice flour, and the black hair clustered there, his heart beat wildly.His breathing also became short, and he felt his cheeks burning like he was lying on the stove.When the car left the north entrance of Jewelry City, a gust of north wind blew in his face, and he smelled an intoxicating warm aroma.He tilted his back to the back of the car, feeling that his limbs had melted and he could no longer move.Walking to the entrance of Dongjiaomin Alley, a car came from behind.His car took a step to the left, and the light from the front of the car shone on Zai Ban's head and body. He could only see strands of her hair shining there. Like the Buddha statues in ancient paintings, a circle of golden light was baked.While he opened his nostrils, he was chasing after the warm fragrance, but at the same time he hoped that the car would slow down so that he could take a closer look at her neck and her hair. His coachman, after catching up with hers, relaxed his pace and stopped running fast, but in his heart, he only hated the coachman, and refused to catch up with her two more steps, so he ran forward so that he could have a look at her. appearance. The car passed the Xiagong Mansion, crossed the street, turned around, pointed to the northeast, and ran towards a calm place.The sky became darker and darker as we walked, and the road became less and less people were met.Looking at the outline of her car ahead in the dark, and hearing the footsteps of the two drivers running, he felt a little scared.But at this moment his coachman stopped and called out: "Stop! Let us light the lamps!" She, who was sitting in the car in front, also looked back after hearing the cry.But at that time, her car had already advanced a few steps, and the distance from him was far away, so he couldn't see her face clearly after all.But what can be seen vaguely in the dark is her thin face and a pair of big black eyes.The coachman lit his lamp and wanted to go forward, but her car had turned north and was out of sight.The coachman asked him: "Why didn't the car in front wait?" He blushed for a moment when he heard this, so he could only reply hesitantly to the coachman: "I... I wasn't with them originally...." "Not together? So where are you going?" The coachman was taken aback, and asked him unwillingly: "I... I live in Xicheng ××××××, what kind of place is this?" "Then why didn't you say it earlier? We're almost at Qihua Gate!" "Take me back, I'll give you a few pennies." Originally published in Beijing on December 1, 1923 "Vice Engrave of Morning Post · Supplement to Commemorate the 5th Anniversary of Morning Post", unfinished