Chapter 20 Saturday, May 26 overcast

Last night, it was like a dream.After opening his eyes, he continued to be numb and in a daze.I signed it?signed.Walk.It's as if everything is over. The text message on the mobile phone rang after a while, and I picked up the mobile phone: Bao, the plane is at 1:00 pm, and we will go to the airport in an hour. Xiaowen? !Airport? !My head exploded for a moment, and I woke up suddenly. I checked the time when the text message was received, and it was nearly ten o'clock in the morning.And the time now—11:30! I didn't have time to think at all, so I turned around, changed my shoes and went out.Ping An stomped desperately on the elevator, trying to use his own weight to make the elevator go down faster!

God bless, let me catch up! After entering the airport, I looked around stupidly, and suddenly remembered, I picked up my mobile phone and called Xiaowen.When Xiaowen answered the phone, she was cautious, her voice was soft, and she was pleasantly surprised. Finally, she made an appointment to meet me next to a restroom in the lobby on the basement level of the airport. Hang up the phone and run all the way.I don't know what I'm anxious about, but I have a thought in my heart that I want to see Xiaowen, even if it's the last time.At the agreed place on the basement floor, I looked around and finally saw Xiaowen walking towards me quickly.When she saw me, she smiled all of a sudden, waved her arms slightly, and then pointed to a corner not far from me.We arrived at the corner one after the other, and finally stood face to face. I gasped, and her cheeks flushed with excitement.

"Where are your parents?" "It's in the restaurant over there. They can't see it here, and they can block it." Xiaowen was carrying a big bag, squinting and smiling. "I..." Looking at Xiaowen, I was speechless for a while. After holding back for a long time, I said dryly, "I'm just here to see you off." Xiaowen smiled: "Crazy, didn't we say goodbye last night? Now it's like an underground party." I also laughed, unable to speak, the sadness in my heart grew, expanded, and filled. "Hey, how is He Mo? Have you contacted him?" Xiaowen smiled, still concerned about this.

After hesitating for a long time, he still briefly talked about what happened with Mo Mo at home last night.To be honest, regarding the matter of Mo Mo, I feel very sad, and I really want to find someone to talk to.But this is related to Mo Mo's reputation and innocence, who shall I tell?The safest option right now is Xiaowen. After hearing this, Xiaowen also seemed surprised: "Really?" I nod. "Bao, do you care about this?" Xiaowen frowned, with a sullen expression on her face. I didn't say anything, actually I really cared, but there was also a girl in front of me, how do you say that?

"Bao, I want to ask you, do you love me?" Xiaowen said suddenly. I feel like the back of my head is going to explode... Xiaowen looked at my surprised expression, and pressed her lips hard: "Well, let's say, if there is no Mo Mo, and you love me, I still have this child in my stomach, and I want you to be with me , will you agree?" This question is also tricky.But in fact, after a second I saw that Xiaowen didn't really ask this question, she just wanted me to think, then I thought, I thought... I will, I don't have a virgin complex, and children should too Not a big deal.So, I nodded.

A trace of great joy flashed quickly in Xiaowen's eyes, but she immediately turned serious: "Bao, since you can accept me, why can't you accept Mo Mo?" "That's different..." "Why is it different? Do you love her as a person or her heart? Do you care about your future or her past?" These words are really philosophical. "Xiaowen, I'm here to see you off, not to listen to your class!" I lowered my voice, expressing my annoyance. Xiaowen curled her lips, turned her face to one side, opened her eyes suddenly, and turned around: "Yes, there is something!"

Xiaowen flipped through the bag quickly, took out a large black plastic bag, and stuffed it into my hand. "what is this?" Xiaowen pointed to the bag with a smile and said: "Don't use your power for personal gain. These are gifts, and they are gifts from me to Sister Fan, Brother Meat, Brother Fu and Brother Tang. Thank you for helping me during this period. Thank you, I entrust you." "Well, I promise to complete the task." I nodded. "Okay then, it's almost time to explain thoroughly this time, take good care of yourself!" Xiaowen smiled and held out her hand to me.I also reached out and held her.

"Goodbye!" Xiaowen said very hard, and then tried to withdraw her hand. I didn't let go, I held it tighter.Xiaowen was taken aback for a moment, and looked at me in surprise, and that surprised look quickly turned into relief and sadness.With a light push, Xiaowen took a step forward and leaned tightly into my arms. "Silly girl, you probably won't have a chance to meet again after you leave, take care of yourself!" I said, hugging Xiaowen's thin shoulders, together with the backpack on her back.Why is my nose sour. Xiaowen raised her hand, gently stroked my hair, and said softly as if comforting a child: "No, you can contact me, there is my mailbox address in this bag, and I will get married as soon as possible when I am outside." network communication software, as long as we have time, we can contact you at any time!"

I hugged Xiaowen tighter, the easier she spoke, the more uncomfortable I became. After a moment of silence in my arms, Xiao Wen put her arms around my neck: "Bao, thank you so much, you helped me so much, and more importantly, you made my heart live again. Do you know, here Before, when he completely disappeared in my world, I felt that I would never fall in love with anyone again, nor could I cry anymore, let alone be happy. You are like a lucky star, bringing my parents back Being around me makes me even more happy..." I hugged Xiaowen and listened quietly, trying to control my tears.

"So, I hope you can be happy and happy too. You can't make me feel guilty about you forever, can you?" Xiaowen slowly stood on tiptoe and rubbed her cheek against mine as she spoke. I closed my eyes, felt the warmth and softness, then slowly turned my head, my lips pecked Xiaowen's cheek lightly, kissed little by little, moved little by little, and finally kissed her bun.Xiaowen closed her eyes and responded to me affectionately.It was a long kiss, but it was not intense at all. Our lips, our tongues, and all our movements were soft, deep, slow, and delicate.Yes, there is already a tacit understanding, already nostalgia for each other, but this should not be love, at least, this is incomparable to the unforgettable love that Xiaowen has experienced.So, I knew it in my heart, and she knew it in my heart: we have no beginning and no end.

For a long time, we separated.I looked at Xiaowen, she was still keeping her head up and facing me with her eyes closed. "Xiaowen?" I called out. As soon as Xiaowen opened her eyes, tears flowed down instantly and burst out of the frame. As soon as she raised her hand, she quickly wiped her eyes, Xiao Wen tried her best to raise her eyebrows and stare, suppressing her tears, maybe also suppressing the pain of parting. "Xiaowen, one last question." I looked at her, reached out and wiped away the remaining tears on her cheeks, "Tell me... that night, the night I got drunk, did we... what happened?" Xiaowen smiled, smiled, and wrinkled her nose, pure, cute, clear, and transparent. "Just think about your hooliganism!" I laughed too, but didn't let go, still holding her shoulder: "I beg you to tell me, you can't leave with a secret." Xiaowen tilted her head: "Do you hope to have it, or not?" I was taken aback, lowered my head, looked at Xiaowen, and smirked. Xiaowen blushed, and curled her lips: "I knew it! But, you can do what you want! Isn't it good?" The airport announcement sounded, and it could be heard that this was to inform Xiaowen that her flight was about to board the plane.Xiaowen and I both listened, and then looked at each other with helplessness and reluctance in our eyes. "Okay, I'm leaving!" Xiaowen smiled, leaned closer again, and kissed my cheek, "Baby, you are a good person and will be happy. Take care." "Well, take care of yourself too." I nodded. Xiaowen took a step back, got out of my hands, and then stepped back step by step, smiling at me and waving at me while backing away.I laughed too, waved my hands, and found it difficult to breathe.Finally, Xiaowen turned around, walked quickly, and started to wipe her face with her hands while walking.Looking at her back, I can think of what she is wiping, because the frequency of her raising her hand to wipe her cheeks is getting faster and faster, and her steps are getting faster and faster, and she almost started to trot after returning. "Xiaowen!" I suddenly yelled.Xiaowen didn't stop, didn't look back, and disappeared around the corner. I can't chase after me, because Wen's father and mother may see me at the corner.I felt lost, but I didn't know what I lost, and I didn't know what I was calling out just now, or what happened.I just want to call Xiaowen by the name, maybe with the passage of time in the future, I will not be able to say this name anymore. Just as I was looking at the emptiness around the corner, suddenly a familiar figure flashed out and ran two steps towards me!It's Xiaowen!I was excited, with a smile on my face, and I opened my posture to run to meet her.However, there was no smile on Xiaowen's face, but nervousness and fear!After running around the corner, he stood still, waved his hands and stomped at me impatiently, and said something silently. I also responded silently, spreading my hands and shrugging my shoulders. Finally, my quick-witted mind came to my senses, Xiaowen told me to run!In an instant, my palms were cold, and I ran to the other side of the corner. I saw a wall stack next to me with two rolling billboards on it, so I rushed over and squatted down under the billboard, pretending to tie my shoes. bring.Or how to say that if a person is unlucky, drinking cold water will stuff his teeth!He squatted down too quickly, and there was a desperate thud in his ear, and the crotch was undone... I didn't have time to tidy up, or even think about it. Almost at the same time I squatted down, the figures of Wen's father and mother appeared at the corner, dragging their suitcases, and walking towards this side.Xiaowen immediately jumped over with a smile, deliberately chose the side leaning against me, took Wen's mother's arm, and led them to the other side of the passage, away from me as much as possible. I kept on tying my shoes, luckily no one noticed me because my shoes had no laces at all! Xiaowen and her family of three are getting closer and closer to me, and my head is almost stuck in my crotch.God bless, God bless...Fortunately, the family of three walked over from the other side not too far away from me, talking and laughing, without even looking at me.I breathed a long sigh of relief, squatted down, turned around on the spot, and watched the backs of the three people walking away step by step.From a distance, I saw Xiaowen holding her mother's arm in one arm, and quickly raised the other hand, swung it vigorously a few times, and then put it down immediately.I knew she was saying goodbye to me. He got up, straightened his clothes and pants, covered the front and back with his hands, with his buttocks between his legs, dejected, and walked out of the airport with very feminine steps. Hey, such a sad farewell, why did I end up in such a mess... Take a taxi, get out of the airport, and get on the highway. Looking down at the split crotch, a fact began to flash in my mind-Xiaowen is gone. This fact made me calm down after a short period of sadness.Perhaps in the earliest days, even in my subconscious mind, it was inevitable that sooner or later, even if all the plans had not changed, even if everything ended according to the original plan, it was time for Xiaowen to leave.It is impossible for her to stay in the mountain city, and it is impossible for her to stay in a certain place for a long time. She has her way of life, and she has her goals. When I looked up, I met the driver's gaze from the rearview mirror, very contemptuous.I guess, the driver may be full of contempt for me, the passenger sitting in the back seat who has been looking down at his crotch. But I have no other mood now, only one thought in my mind: drink.So he immediately took out his mobile phone and sent a unified text message to Rougou, Lao Fu, Lao Tang and others: drink at night. Soon, text messages came back one by one, asking for the time, place, and whether they could bring family members. I was thinking about how to drink at night, and at this moment, another text message came: You are still alive!I've been looking for you for a few days, and you're all turned off, and I'm almost home! who is thisI checked the sender: Laodu. Hehe, I actually forgot about this kid.So I texted back: I'm on a business trip, are you still in the mountain city? Soon, the call came, and the old man scolded me when he came up, saying that I was not righteous, that my old classmate hadn't seen each other for so many years, and he didn't even give him a chance to drink and catch up. After meeting that day, he disappeared, and the phone was turned off forever. I asked him if he was still in the mountain city, and the old man replied that he was still there, but he was leaving soon, and things were almost busy here. I'll reply to him right away: Let's have a drink at the bar in the evening, and I just want to introduce some friends to you. The old man was happy, and he said yes, if he has time in the evening, call him and he will be there on call. In fact, I just want to drink and get drunk. As for who I drink with, it doesn't matter much. The kid's mother over there has flown abroad, and the divorce agreement with his wife has also been signed here.All the good things were done by me alone, so shouldn't I have a drink to celebrate? Take a taxi directly home, enter the house to take a shower, stand under the water for a long time, close your eyes, and try to calm yourself down. It's a bit sad that Xiaowen is gone, but it's definitely a good thing for her, and it's not a big deal for me to lose love, she's not mine, her child isn't mine, and there's not even any A relationship beyond the horizontal line, as a friend, I should definitely be happy for Xiaowen to have such a result. Standing in front of the mirror, my whole body was wet, my hair was pressed against my forehead and cheeks by water, I looked at myself in the mirror, at the pendant with three feathers on my neck, thinking of Xiaowen’s smiling face, and her The desire placed on this silver feather is full of thoughts. The other end of that wish is Momo.But I really can't figure it out, Mo Mo and I, who hurt who?I really want to know, what is Mo Mo hiding?Because I know that it is definitely not just such a little thing as her so-called nurturing.And, support?Why run?Why are you looking for me?Why get married?Why do you have to sign to give up tens of millions of property?Isn't the girl being adopted just for money? Some things, once you start, you will think about it endlessly, and the more you think about it, the more suspicious you will be, so some people will have mental illness, so some people will have schizophrenia, so some people want to drink. Completely naked, walking back and forth at home, I saw the black plastic bag I brought back. Inside are gifts and blessings from Xiaowen to her friends. A pair of couple bracelets were given to Rougou and Xiaofen.A delicate black lock is hung on the thick one, and a small silver key is hung on the thin one.What was written on the note was: Brother Rou, Sister Fan, I wish you happiness forever, and I hope that apart from Sister Fan's key, Brother Rou will always be a lock in front of other women. What was given to Lao Fu was a necklace with a small delicate ring inside.The note said: The cloisonné beads on the necklace have the meaning of attracting wealth and wealth. I wish Brother Fu happiness and happiness, and the business will grow bigger and bigger.Another: The ring is for the little girlfriend named Yanzi, Brother Fu, you have to be a good boyfriend and father, hehe. There is no doubt that the above-mentioned things were all made by Wen herself, but the ones given to Old Tang were not. Opening up Old Tang's pocket, I saw a very beautiful brooch. I was taken aback. I wouldn't give this to Old Tang, would I?Turning over again, I found a small thing, it was a small steel dog in a standing posture, unexpectedly, on the lower body of the dog, a slightly out-of-scale genital was hanging rigidly.I reached out and pressed it, and there was a snap, and flames burst out of the puppy's mouth! —It turned out to be a lighter.The note said: I don’t know what Brother Tang likes. This lighter belongs to my father.That brooch is for Ni Xiaowan, I wish you happiness. I was playing with this lighter, it was really good, to be honest, if it wasn't because this lighter matched Old Tang so well, I would have kept it myself. There was also a note in the bag, which was actually for me.It was written very simply, an email address, and the following line: Remember to write to me, Bao, I don't want to lose contact with your friend. Feeling slightly melancholy, I packed everything up and put away the note, suddenly feeling tired.From the time I opened my eyes in the morning to now, I have been non-stop, and my spirit is highly tense. At this moment, I suddenly feel tired. Lying on the sofa, he fell asleep unknowingly, and when he opened his eyes again, it was already past five o'clock.Immediately call everyone: come to my house to collect souvenirs, and it will be invalid after the deadline. Xiaofen smiled as soon as she entered the door, stretched out her hand to touch my face, apologized, and winked to pretend to be cute.Hold back the vomiting, let everyone sit down, and distribute the gifts. Everyone had surprises and emotions on their faces, but after a show of hands, everyone agreed that the most successful gift was for Old Tang, because he was an invincible match for Old Tang. Wearing and admiring the presents respectively, the meat dog suddenly asked: "Why did you see Xiaowen?" "Nowadays." "Where?" "Airport." Everyone froze and looked at me together. Xiaofen tentatively asked: "Xiaowen, she..." I smiled and nodded: "Well, I left with her parents and went abroad." Xiaofen's eyes turned red in an instant: "You girl! You don't even give me a call!" I laughed: "Maybe it's because I'm afraid of being so sad like today." Instantly, everyone stopped moving and looked at me together. Old Tang took the male dog lighter, pressed the genitals up and down, and said loudly with a smile: "What are you doing, I don't understand! Xiaowen is gone, Bao is sad, and wants us to drink, Bao fell in love with Xiaowen Yes! How easy it is to analyze!" ... Some people are wasted bullets when they are shot. The conversation was almost over, discussing the place to drink, several proposals were rejected, and then proposed again, finally reached an agreement, and everyone set off together. After arriving at the negotiated hotel, he found a private room and called the old man. The old man was pleased and told him that he would be there soon. I talked to a few people around me, and today I have a friend who is my high school classmate. Just halfway through the dishes, Laodu came and introduced the two parties one by one. Everyone was not a shy type, and they joked with each other, saying something about "respect for a long time" and "concession and concession". Nonsense, soon lost the sense of restraint. After the dishes were served and the wine was poured, I held up a full glass of white wine, stood up and smiled: "I'm mainly happy, after so many years, I can drink with my buddy—— Laodu again, and these good friends here, I Let’s do it first.” After speaking, I drank a glass of white wine in one gulp.With a stomach that has been empty for a day, this glass of white wine is three taels. Immediately after eating it, I start to turn it up, hold on to hold the air pressure down, sit down with a smile, and let everyone feel free. Everyone was dumbfounded. Although we had drunk like this before, we had already finished a glass before we even started to say a word. It seemed that everyone noticed that I was a little abnormal today. Just see it, I want to get drunk today. He took the chopsticks, randomly picked up a few mouthfuls of vegetables, stuffed them into his mouth, and swallowed them whole, suppressing the nausea that had been rising all the time. He picked up the wine bottle, filled his glass again, raised his glass with a smile, and turned to the old man sitting beside him: "Hey! Old man! How many years have you been able to sit and drink together again? Fate! I respect you One cup, let’s drink it first, you can do whatever you want!" After finishing speaking, he raised his head and downed a cup.This time, I didn't hold back, coughed, spewed a little white wine from my mouth and nostrils, choking me to death, pulled the napkin and wiped it, waved to everyone, regained my strength, raised my head and smiled: "It's okay, it's okay. " Everyone was staring at me, and even Old Tang looked at me with a hint of worry. I shook my head and reached for the wine bottle, but Lao Fu who was diagonally across from me snatched the bottle: "Such a good wine, did you drink it all by yourself? Come! Lao Du, I toast you!" As he said that, Lao Fu handed the wine bottle to the meat dog, picked up the glass in front of him, and stretched it out to Lao Du. The old man hesitated for a moment, then raised his head, but he might not be able to hold enough alcohol, he only drank one-third of it, but he already had a pained expression on his face! I smiled and snatched the glass from Laodu's hand: "What are you doing? Laodu! You can only drink so much, you can't let others look down on you. Brother, I will block it for you!" After finishing speaking, I poured the remaining wine in the glass Drink it in one gulp. At the wine table, after this brief surprise, the atmosphere became abnormally active quickly. Meat Dog, Lao Tang, Lao Fu, and Lao Du frequently toasted each other, said polite words, drank one mouthful after another, and even exchanged sips. There is eye contact, and it boils down to one principle—stop me from drinking. But this thing can't be stopped, and I drank two or three in a row before, and then I drank two or two, fifty-two degrees of white wine for the old man, and it didn't take long to stay in my stomach. There is a way straight to the top. But my purpose is simple and clear - to get drunk.Although everyone seemed to be talking enthusiastically, I still struggled to drink half a glass, and then yelled at the waiter for beer. When the beer came, I was so excited that I insisted on giving the performance a depth charge... About most of the content of last night, I basically listened to what everyone told me, because I have no impression in my own memory. It was the first time I was so drunk that I lost consciousness. I didn't know what happened on the wine table, including how I got home. It was almost noon the next day when Meat Dog and Lao Pai told me about these things. I opened my eyes on the mattress in the study and had a splitting headache. After taking a shower, I felt slightly better, but I was surprised. Suddenly, I found that Xiaofen and Rougou were sleeping in the bedroom, Lao Fu and Lao Tang were sleeping in the living room, and they were all in my house.After a brief inquiry, I roughly understood what happened last night. Everyone was also worried about me, so they didn't leave all night because everyone knew something. Xiaofen made me hot tea, and I felt much better after drinking it. Everyone sat in the living room and started to join me, helping me find my lost memories... It is said that I drank a lot of wine last night. It was not until later that I was completely drunk and my speech was slurred. When I put my arms around the old man next to me and started to ask questions, everyone here suddenly realized the reason for my drunkenness and discomfort. I was in a hurry, staring and asked me what I asked Lao Du last night. "Mo. You've been asking about Mo." Xiaofen looked at me and said softly. I was dumbfounded, I guessed that was what I asked, but how I asked, and how Laodu answered, I have no impression at all.Everyone began to piece together all the questions and answers about my drunkenness and old age last night based on their own memories. Lao Fu said, I asked about Mo Mo's situation after graduating from high school.And Lao Du replied that she dropped out of university before finishing her studies. I don’t know the specific reason, and I don’t know what she did later, but occasionally she would meet with Lao Du and a few classmates, and the money was very generous, so In these circles of old schoolmates, there were naturally some gossips. Meat Dog said, I asked Lao Du if Mo Mo had a boyfriend in the past few years.The old man said no, and he dared to swear that he did not. He didn't know what happened to Mo Mo. After breaking up with me after graduating from high school, he never had any intention of falling in love.According to Lao Du, Mo Mo is beautiful, has a good figure, and has many suitors. Even Lao Du's friends are tempted, but Mo Mo completely closes the channel and does not show affection for any opposite sex. Because of this, he was once guessed as "La La". Xiaofen said, I also asked Lao Du, Mo Mo has been looking for me, Lao Du nodded, but said that Mo Mo did not admit that he was looking for me, at first he just inquired casually, and when talking with classmates, I would gnash my teeth , the students also basically know that I haven’t contacted Mo Mo since I graduated from high school, so they all understand Mo Mo’s emotions, but then, suddenly, Mo Mo pays more attention to me, and even finds a lot of things that I don’t know. People who are familiar with me inquire about my situation, it feels like they must know where I am hiding.Later, there was no news about Mo Mo, and there was a rumor in the Moments over there that Mo Mo came to find me, but after all, it was someone else's business, no one cared too much, and no one mentioned it anymore after a long time... "What else did I say?" I asked. The friends glanced at each other, all bowed their heads and did not speak. Even Old Tang's expression was serious.He looked up at me, and said in a low voice: "When you were drunk yesterday, you cried and laughed, and said... Mo Mo was taken care of by someone..." I stared and I said this?I actually said this?Only then did everyone look up at me with sympathy. "Bao, you told me about your marriage to Mo Mo last night." Lao Fu stretched out his hand and patted my shoulder, "Although it was a mess, we probably understood it." The meat dog also reached out and patted me: "Bao, why did you feel uncomfortable last night and why did you get drunk? We all understand now. I think you should have expressed all the grievances in your heart. Mo Mo and your pretended meeting , you married Mo Mo, what else is there to sign, tens of millions, etc. We all know you are uncomfortable." That said, my nose is sore.How difficult it is for someone to understand oneself in today's society! "Baby, are you awake now?" Xiaofen reached out and touched my forehead with pity. I nodded seriously, feeling that these people seemed to have something to say. "Bao, I got you back last night. You were so drunk, but we talked about you for a long time." Lao Fu said, "You know we are not just chatting, but caring about you." "I really care!" Old Tang nodded to me with a serious face, "You are the only good brother I am!" Meat Dog and Old Fu turned their heads at the same time, staring fiercely at Old Tang. Old Tang was startled, and immediately changed his words: "I'm just you three good brothers!" Lao Fu turned around and looked at me: "Bao, we had a chat last night, and I think you should talk to Mo Mo about this matter." The meat dog nodded in agreement: "Yes, Bao, because we have all seen Mo Mo, and I don't think she is that kind of girl. If a girl has no difficulties, who would be willing to be adopted? For money? But like you yesterday I said later, she married you to give up such a large sum of money, is this normal? Can you still say that Mo Mo is willing to be adopted because of money? " I was stunned, thinking that these people had never been so serious with me, and now it made me very uncomfortable. "Baby, compare your heart with your heart. I am also a woman. I advise you to talk to Mo Mo. How can a woman marry casually? Even if you want to marry someone for something, you must marry someone who is reliable!" Xiaofen sat beside me , kept stroking my back, "What do you think? For example, you see, I have never married a meat dog." Xiaofen's words have the same meaning as what Xiaowen said. The meat dog stared and sneered: "Of course, you were taken care of by me!" Everyone laughed together, and the extremely depressing atmosphere just now was relieved. I also feel comfortable in my heart, this is just like what they did just now, making it look like impeachment of me.However, I listened to everyone's words.At the end, Rougou asked me a multiple-choice question: If your wife and your lover fell into the water at the same time, would you look for another plump one or a petite one?Following everyone, I also smiled lightly. I knew that the meat dog was trying to comfort me. In layman's terms, there are no fragrant grasses anywhere in the world. Seeing that my mood was stable, everyone got up and said goodbye.I laughed and cursed these people away, closed the door, and immediately leaned against the door, tears fell from my eyes.To be honest, these guys really moved me this time.Sometimes, it is really a blessing to have some intimate and loyal friends. According to Xiaofen's instructions, I drank porridge, and my stomach felt much more comfortable.Do you really want to talk to Momo? Romance belongs to romance, reality belongs to reality!In the novel, the male and female protagonists are all in love every day, but in reality, how many of them don't go to work because of their children's affair? After working for so many days, it was the first time that I sat comfortably at my desk and looked randomly on the Internet, but in fact, my eyes read the text and looked at the pictures, but I didn't think about it at all.This is a very superb skill, so that being unintentional at this moment is better than intentional. I smoked several cigarettes, until some beautiful colleagues complained, I suddenly remembered something, ran to sit in the big conference room outside, and sent a text message to Mo Mo.Text messages are carefully chosen. I don't want to be too harsh, but I want to express my own meaning: first of all, I can be sure that you hurt me, and you understand.But I don't know, am I hurting you, you tell me. Pressed the send button, sat in the big conference room, in a daze.After half an hour, there was no reply, and I felt a little panicked, so I called Mo Mo, but the phone was turned off.I'm really scared now, did I really hurt her when I signed the divorce agreement that night? After hesitating for a moment, he called Xiaoxi's cell phone.It rang twice, and it was connected. "Xiaoxi, I'm sorry, I'm Lai Bao, that Momo..." "roll!" Hang over there.This girl still holds a grudge!Call Xiaoxi's cell phone again, and refuse to answer it.I'm a bit out of ideas.What should I do in this situation?I want to find Mo Mo, and everyone's persuasion makes sense, but I don't know what I can say to her after I find Mo Mo.Many times, people are like this, it seems that one can always hear one person saying to another: "Let's talk." But when they are actually sitting together, when they are face to face, they are more speechless. As time went by, there were fewer and fewer people in the newspaper office, but I was always sitting in front of the computer in the office to read news, pictures, and videos.I don't want to go home, and it's even more uncomfortable to face such an empty environment.After eleven o'clock in the evening, there was basically no one in the office, only I was sitting in front of the computer, smoking, dazed, and pointing the mouse aimlessly. At twelve o'clock, I gave up the long escape and left the newspaper office to go home.At the 24-hour supermarket at the entrance of the community, I bought a dozen beers and a few bags of peanuts.I'm not an alcoholic, but is there a better way to stop thinking about things and go to sleep sometimes than getting drunk? Open the door, enter the room, throw off your shoes, wander towards the living room, sit on the sofa and open a can of beer, put your feet on the coffee table, and take a sip with your head up, cool!When I was about to take a second sip, I suddenly felt something strange on the TV not far away.Looking carefully, I found that someone had pasted a few pieces of paper with scotch tape on the horizontal frame on the top edge of the TV screen. Who is so wicked? I took a few steps forward, pulled it off, and looked down, but at this moment, I almost collapsed, and I couldn't pull my eyes out again.It's a letter written by Mo Mo.she has been here. precious: Maybe this is the last time I call you like this, maybe it is in my heart, maybe there is no you on the other side, hehe, I cry when I write this. In fact, there are some things I want to tell you, but I don't know how to speak.You are my only boyfriend since I was a child, and being with you is also my only love experience. You won't believe it, but I'm telling you this with all my heart. I'm afraid of your expression after telling you the truth that night.I can bear what other people think of me, but I can't bear it because I love you, being despised by someone you love, can you understand the pain? I received your text message, I don't know what you mean, is it a refusal, or a return?Some words are difficult to speak in person, so I write to you, which may be the best way. Bao, have you been hating me for keeping it from you?I know, we are destined to be separated, I am not worthy of you, and you will not want me, then I will tell you everything, I can’t do anything like Xiaowen to repay, in order to make me feel less guilty, I tell you you all. I said I was adopted, are you surprised?I was also surprised, because I never thought about the word "nurturing", and it had nothing to do with me, it was imposed on me by others. At that time, I was still in college. Because of some things, my father was first shuanggui, and then expelled from the party and public office.Since then, everything has changed. Because of a sudden fire, my father fell ill and was seriously ill. He needed a liver transplant.All property of our family is confiscated, so where can I get money to replace my father's liver?I dropped out of school, went to work where I shouldn't be, and I promised my boss that I would do anything for a man except sleep.I want to save my dad. But luckily, there, I met Xiao Xi, she said that my eyes are very pure, and seeing jewelry and money does not shine.After knowing my situation, she said she could help me.Xiaoxi introduced me to her boss, whose surname is Yang. Everyone around him called him Mr. Yang. I didn’t know what his real name was until Mr. Yang died.Xiaoxi's job is to be the personal escort of Mr. Yang.To the outside world, we are the goddaughters of Mr. Yang, and we naturally call him godfathers.The work is very simple, just talking with godfather, taking a walk, serving food and daily life. Xiaoxi has been the personal escort of her godfather for five years, and the contract she signed with her godfather is also for five years.Godfather felt that Xiaoxi was gone, and no one could replace her. Xiaoxi helped godfather find several girls before, but he was not satisfied until he met me. you think i'm dirtyThat's right, in the eyes of outsiders, Xiaoxi and I must be Mr. Yang's personal playthings, we will sleep with our godfather, and we will do all dirty things for an old man for money.Actually not, the godfather never had those thoughts, he just wanted to have someone to accompany, talk to, and take care of.He didn't touch us except for holding hands and hugging. 干爹答应我，出钱给我爸爸做手术，代价是我和他签三年的合同，这三年我不能离开他，要一直照顾他。没想到这件事被我妈妈知道后，她会那么生气，就是因为这件事，妈妈犯心脏病去世了。我当时心都碎了。一切都是我的错。 后来干爹拿来了钱，但我爸爸却死在手术台上。 连续地，失去了两位最亲的人，我想过自杀。在我最难的时候是干爹救了我，那真的是一个很好的老人，他心疼我，照顾我，一直到我情绪稍微恢复。 你说我变了。但在那个环境，我能不变吗？干爹有个儿子，一直和我斗心眼儿，怕我夺了财产，而我经常陪干爹出入一些场合，那里的人也全都一个比一个精明，他们有意图地靠近我、拉拢我，试图利用我在干爹身上得到好处。 我和干爹签的是三年的合同，但干爹却没有坚持这么久。第二年年底的时候，干爹身体开始不好，到第三年年初，干爹去世了。但并不是他去世了，我就无债一身轻了，因为在干爹的遗嘱里有我！ 干爹在遗嘱里写了：如果我和他儿子结婚，他儿子将继承他全部遗产，其中有一千五百万会归到我的名下；如果我和别人结婚并且幸福的话，那全部遗产的三分之二就会捐献给一个慈善机构。 所以，干爹去世后，他儿子一直在找我，一直在逼我和他结婚，因为他想要财产。可干爹的儿子连禽兽都不如！他有钱，玩女人，甚至玩男人，他很脏，很恶心。他到处宣扬我怀了他的孩子，说我在干爹没去世之前就和他私通很久，这些事情，很快就在我那几年所交际的圈子里传遍了，无论我到哪儿，所有人都鄙夷地看我，我成了一个十恶不赦的女人，歹毒、阴险。渐渐地，当初由干爹带着我认识的，并且喜欢我的那些人，全都开始远离我，我成了一个个体，彻底孤立无援，连一个说话的人都没有。 do you understand?这些都是干爹儿子逼我的手段，他想把我逼得走投无路，只能和他结婚，但我不能，如果和他结婚，那我才真的是为了钱，因为我不只是不爱他，我更恨他。 我开始躲藏逃避，但无论我藏到哪儿，他始终能找到我，把我关起来，强迫我喝药，逼我和他上床，但他没有得逞，因为我…… 你说你遇到老度时，我就知道完了，起码你知道了一些事情。是的，我一直在打听你，在找你。一开始找你，只是因为恨，只是想报复，但后来，事情闹得乱了，我更想找你，爸爸妈妈都走了，我没有任何依赖了，而你曾经是我最信任的人，甚至可以把自己交给你。我跑来山城，假装遇到你，然后就成了现在这个样子。 你会不会觉得我傻？其实我可以和干爹的儿子结婚，这样我就有很多钱，即使离婚也一样有这些钱，但我不能，我真的不想把我的身子交给那个人。看到这儿你会笑吗？你会觉得我是什么啊，不就是**吗？但是，宝，我不能，因为我还是处女。 高中时候的那次经历让我很懊悔，像对不起你似的。回家后自己用手指试，太疼了！去医院检查，我是石女。你懂什么是石女，对吗？这也是我和你之后，一直没有恋爱，一直在找你的原因，因为你是唯一和我有那种程度亲热的人，无论我变得多么有心计、多么市侩、多么狡猾，这一点不能改变。 宝，我和你说得太多了……我实在被干爹的儿子逼得没办法了，才想出找人结婚的主意。小曦给我介绍了好几个人，但我想到的还是你，我相信你。那时候我就想，如果最后你知道真相，骂我、打我、唾弃我，我认了，因为我们做过夫妻。但是我没想过你会这么痛快答应帮我，甚至不问原因。我回来问小曦，小曦告诉我，男人这么无私地帮一个女人，只有一种可能——他爱她。我突然找回了失去多年的幸福感觉。但那晚，我和你说完包养事情，你的表情告诉我，一切都是梦而已。你不会接受我，哪怕你爱我。但我感谢你，宝，全身心地感谢你。 干爹遗嘱上说，如果我和他儿子以外的男人结婚，会有一笔补偿，是一百万。就是那天你看到的，宁姐递给我的信封。宁姐是干爹的秘书，李叔叔是律师，朔大哥是干爹儿子的人。 你可以不相信，但我不想再解释，我已经很对不起你了。你知道去欺骗、隐瞒一个你爱的人有多难？但是，如果我早就告诉你这些，你还会帮我吗？ 原谅我。 宝，补偿的钱，我留了八十万放在你饭厅的桌架上，可能你会更恨我，觉得我在用钱收买你的感情，但我不知道除此之外，我还能做什么。 宝，好好保重，你是好人，一定会幸福的。 宝，我爱你。只爱你。 ... 三页纸，洋洋洒洒、密密麻麻。到处是泪滴浸湿的痕迹。 一切事情，都写得明明白白。这个时候，我要是看不懂，我要是不理解，我就是傻X。但是，如果末末不说，我怎么明白呢？ 拿着信，我站在电视机前颤抖着。 我不能想象末末为了父亲签下那份三年陪护合同时，是什么心情； 我不能想象末末独自面对父母接连去世时，是什么心情； 我也不能想象末末被迫接受了一份遗嘱，被那个什么大少爷逼得跑来山城寻找我，隐瞒着和我假结婚时，是什么心情。 事到如今，我可以承认了吗？狗屁的爱要怎么说出口！再恶心我也要说！我爱！我真的爱她！ 脑子里沸腾着，忽然意识到自己在电视机前站了太久，而末末呢，她在哪儿？ 我完全冲动了！握着那三页纸，呆愣地抬头，嘴上下意识地大喊：“末末！末末！”那喊声听得我自己都打战，但我相信那是发自肺腑的。因为我怕了。要知道，写了这样的信，意味着末末已经走了，离开这儿，离开了这个城市，甚至离开这个国家！ “末末！别走！末末！末末！”大声地、激动地、完全不经大脑地喊着，就好像这么喊，会感动上苍一样。一边喊着，在门口忙乱地换着鞋，我不知道我要去哪儿，就是下意识地要追出去，无论去哪儿，起码要先追出去，电视剧里不都是这么演的吗？ 忽然之间——身后卧室门开了：“谁喊我？几点了？干吗呀？” 一时间，空气都凝结静止了。我猛地转身看，末末头发蓬乱，睡眼惺忪地站在卧室门口，穿着睡衣，一脸恼火地挠着头发。 两个对望着，都在愣神。This is too unexpected! “你，你怎么在这儿？” “我，我是来找你，你不在，我给你写信，哭啊哭的，后来太累就睡着了……”末末也没完全清醒，眯眼挠头发，实实在在地回答。 我激动了，刚刚那几页信纸带给我的冲动，此刻骤然爆发！ “末末！末末！我以为……我以为你走了！”我激动地喊着，声音颤抖。 末末猛然惊醒，看着眼前的一切，而后突然一转身，回到卧室，啪的一下，重重关上了门。 我急了，几步跑过去，拳头擂着卧室门：“末末！开门啊！末末你干吗？开门！” “我不！”末末的声音倔犟无比，“你要干吗？骂我？还是和我讲大道理？我都不想听。” “不是！我爱你！”我气恼地吼了起来。 “啊？”末末也急了，“说什么？” 好吧好吧，不折腾了，不玩言情了。我仰头，长长喘气，然后慢慢说：“末末，开门，我爱你，真的。” 卧室里沉默了半天。一个声音幽幽传来：“宝，我知道你看过我的信了，对吗？那你能不能考虑清楚？我不希望你一时激动。”末末的声音很冷静，不像是装的。 “我不是！末末，我不是！信我都看了，我都知道了！”我喊着。 “都知道了？”卧室里轻轻一声质疑。 “嗯，但我不管什么干爹，什么财产，什么石女！” 我是疯了吗？no!Drunk?no!看了那封信……有这个原因，但此刻，我就是想面对末末，一定要！ “末末，出来，好吗？”我轻声说。不知道怎么，或许爱情，真的是一瞬间的事情吗？这什么这一刻我就一定央求她的谅解？到底……谁对谁错啊？ “宝，别逼我，我不会开门的，我不希望你是看了那封信以后的一时冲动。我希望你真的是冷静考虑之后的结果，明白吗？”末末的声音哀怨、低沉。 “末末你不出来，我就等你一晚上！”看看我的义薄云天。 卧室里叹气：“宝，我求你，我们冷静下来再谈，你走吧，好不好？” Walk?Give me a break. “不，我不会走的。” "why?" “……这是我家。” 我就在客厅沙发上苦苦等了一晚，但最后还是百密一疏——不小心睡着了。 大大地打了个哈欠，长长地伸了个懒腰……哎？昨晚好像有事儿。 ——末末！ 于是急忙起来，直奔卧室，拧开门，空空如也。她，走了……这一刻，心里无比失落。 愣了许久，才想起给末末发条短信：躲避吗？谈谈吧！ 许久，没有回音，打过去，关机。 呆愣了片刻，脑子里显出念头来，找小曦！ 号码按了一半，我仰头发愣，忽然快步走向门口——还打电话？去小曦家啊！末末一定在那里！有什么比当面把话说清楚更好的？ 出小区，打车直奔小曦家。凭借自己惊人的记忆，半个小时，我已经站在小曦家门口。 喘气，定神，敲门。 门开了，面前是小洁，瞪眼看着我：“姐夫？”我心里一阵舒畅，还在这么称呼我，现在听着，怎么这么舒服呢？现在看小洁，怎么那么顺眼呢？ 上下看了我一遍，小洁扭头喊：“曦姐！畜生来了！” ……我身子一趔趄，扶住门框，这也是昵称吗？ 很快，小曦抱着肩，幽幽走到我面前，斜着眼睛：“找谁？” “小曦，我要和末末谈谈，求你让我和末末谈谈！” 小曦看了我半天，那眼神在一下一下割着我的肉。 “自己找。”终于吐出几个字，小曦一侧身。 我也不客气了，直接走进去，在小曦家的楼上楼下、里里外外找了个遍，房间衣柜、壁橱、冰箱、洗衣机、抽屉……当找到二楼那间卧室时，我还期待着一推门末末在里面玩电动，扭头跟我微笑，但里面空空如也。 末末不在。 “小曦！末末她……”快步走回到门口，直直看着小曦，几乎是喊。 小曦轻描谈写：“她走了。” “走了？” “是，带着行李走了，没说去哪儿。”说着话，小曦一步步走近我，逼着我不由自主地后退，“赖宝，别找了。如果末末爱你，那她无论在哪儿都会爱你；如果你伤了她的心，那无论怎么她也会伤心。末末是一个什么样的女孩，我比你清楚！”小曦说着，犹豫了一下，扭头瞪了小洁一眼。 小洁一愣，马上知趣地转身，走远，消失不见。 小曦转过头来，走近我，压低声音：“末末是石女的事情也和你说了，你怎么想？” 我后退一步，一愣，什么怎么想？不就是石女吗？先天性阴道狭小堵塞月经不能……当我不懂啊？手术就行了啊。 小曦轻轻叹气，又走近一步：“宝，你知道吗，末末费了多少心血才在这里找到你，又犹豫了多久才假装和你见面？除了你之外，她根本没有过别的男人。”说着，小曦伸手轻轻给我一拳，“她不止一次说过，如果你都不要她，那她一辈子不做手术，一辈子做石女，不接触任何其他男人！” 我已经退出了小曦家门外。 小曦扶着门，对我点头：“我不想和你说太多，你好自为之吧。” 门呼的一下，在我面前结结实实地关上了。 我终于知道了虚脱是什么感觉——整个人都软了。做男人，要软成这样，就真太不男人了…… 小曦说的话我听见了，听完之后心里就开始空了，但更郁闷的是，末末不见了，我不知道她去哪儿了，可能小曦知道，但她不告诉我。我明白，她这一路瞒着我，就是不想让我知道真相，不想让我瞧不起她；我明白，她这一路和我嘻嘻哈哈的，总是逗我、耍我，这一切都是在掩饰她心里的苦闷。 但我不明白，这本来是明摆着我一直有受伤害的事，怎么到了现在像是我在伤害她一样？这就是冤家吗？看天上云卷云舒，看身边人来人住，看路边花开花谢，看公交车上挤死挤活，看城管砸摊砸货，看小商贩骂爹骂娘……他们的生活都是充满乐趣、朝气蓬勃的，咋就我这么苦闷呢？连一个小丫头我都搞不定！ 沮丧地回了家。在浴缸里放了满满一缸水，我是很少泡澡的，但今天我要泡一下，好好地，长时间地泡一下。泡不到别人，让我好好泡一次自己吧。 胳膊在水里划着，我悄悄地想，一切都消失吧，一切都不存在吧，我要是一条鱼该多好，就这么在水里游弋，顺着下水道游走，越游越远……越游越远，最后迎面碰上一颗卵子，然后我们很高兴地做朋友，一起玩，一起慢慢变成一个小生命…… Hey?不是想的是鱼吗？ 正泡着，手机响了。 接了电话。小曦的声音劈头盖脸地砸过来：“赖宝！末末走了！” 我结巴着回：“我……我知道，你……你告诉我了啊！” “不是！她真的走了！”小曦大喊大叫，“刚才她的确是出门了，我那么说是吓唬你。后来我无意中发现，末末的行李不见了！我这个乌鸦嘴啊！” 我傻眼了，猛地从浴缸中站了起来。刚才在小曦家，我也猜出她是故意气我的，我只想过最坏的结果是有一段时间见不到末末，因为她躲我，但现在麻烦了，如果末末真的走了，带着行李，连小曦都不知道她去哪里的话，那就真的完了！ 手忙脚乱地出了浴缸，胡乱擦着身子，用毛巾围住下半身，马上给末末打电话。一边按着号码一边祈祷：别关机！Don't turn it off!Don't turn it off! pass!歌里怎么唱的来着？随你去天堂，上帝是好姑娘！ 许久，没人接听。末末为什么不接电话？ 我在客厅里焦急地走着，胡乱拿着袜子内裤，但我根本不知道自己要干什么，要去哪儿。痴呆一样听着手机走来走去，路过家门口时，忽然定住！有声音…… 门外有手机铃声，很近，很近。 会不会是……我冲动了，猛一步跨过去，一把拉开了门。 门外，站着末末，直直地面对着我，手里拿着手机，我一拉门，她吓了一跳，瞪眼，又急忙把头低下去，头发垂下，遮住了脸。 “末末？”我吃惊地叫了起来。 末末声音很轻：“宝，我是来，我是来最后……”说着，末末一捂嘴，眼泪瞬间流淌。 “末末！我以为你走了！吓死我了！”我说不上心里是什么滋味——喜？怒？ “宝，我想清楚了。”末末哽咽抽泣，声音柔弱沙哑，“宝，你是个好人。所以，你应该找一个纯洁的、可爱的、善良的、了解你的、能够全心全意爱你的女孩在你身边，你需要一个很优秀、很完美，能让你永远快乐的女孩来和你在一起……” 我爆发了，上前双手一下抓住末末的肩膀：“不！胡说！我不要什么善良可爱！我不要什么很优秀很完美的女孩！我只想要你！我只想你不离开我！” 末末听着，慢慢抬头，先是愣，接着目光变得气恼，脸色也阴沉下来，死死看着我，一字一句地说：“宝，我说的就是我！” ah?我傻了，纯洁、可爱、善良、优秀、完美……末末在说她自己？ “你……那你刚才说，你是最后来什么？不是和我告别？”我脑子里跟滚筒洗衣机似的，乱七八糟地翻滚，还带着轰鸣。 末末摇头叹气：“我是来最后问问你，你……你要我吗？！” ……所以说，有话不能说半截！我看着末末，笑了；末末看着我，也笑了起来。 “你又玩我！”伸手摸末末的脸。 末末伸手从衣兜里拿出一张纸，递到我面前：“宝，还……离吗？” 不用看，我也知道那是《离婚协议书》。脸上笑着，狠狠地把那张纸撕得粉碎。但用力太大，腰腹也跟着使劲，好死不死的，腰上的毛巾一松，脱落下去。 末末一愣，飞快地呀了一声，双手捂脸。Love someone!反正也不是第一次在浪漫时刻尴尬了。就这么赤身裸体地伸手一拉，把这个不要脸的小丫头，紧紧地，紧紧地抱在怀里。 “别走了，末末，我要你，我要你和我在一起，我要你做我老婆！” 末末紧紧贴在我胸口，声音温柔得跟小猫似的： “我本来就是你老婆了呀… 我和末末举行了小型婚礼，小曦、小洁、肉狗、小粉、老付、燕子、老唐和小婉悉数出席。 婚礼其实也就是一个饭局。 饭局上，当小婉看到末末时，表示了惊讶，扭头看老唐：“唐，我上次看到的赖宝老婆……不是这个呀？” 众人大笑，老付说：“那说来就话长了。” 老唐转身扶着小婉肩膀，一脸严肃：“看到了吧！看到了吧！小婉，现在你明白了？找到我这样专一的男人是多么不容易啊……” 毫无疑问，因为这句话，大家又借着老唐的身体舒筋活血了一番。 有了末末的那一百万，我终于脱离房奴生涯，直接付清房子的贷款，这里终于实实在在地成了我和末末的家。 我现在的生活是：人在皇朝故宫，身穿龙袍坐在龙椅上，微笑着向殿堂之下挥手致意；然后脱龙袍，向工作人员交照相的钱，出故宫，骑自行车回家，给老婆做晚饭。惬意得很。 和小雯取得了联系，告知我和末末的现状，小雯来了E-mail，说她在那边一切都好，祝福我和末末，让我们一定要实现她附在那三根羽毛上的愿望。还说孩子出生后，名字就叫他亲生父亲的，但小名，要叫“宝”。 我和小雯的那张后期合成的合影，依然摆在家里的书架上，不一样的是，经过高手老付的PS，现在那张照片：我在中间，右边是小雯，左边是末末，我完全是左拥右抱的架势。这是末末自己要求的，照她说，如果没有小雯对我的劝说，我们也不会在一起。只不过，这张照片不定期是成了末末经常戏谑我的导火索。 每次当我无意中看了一眼那照片，末末必然会一股醋味地说：“你不是不特想小雯啊？” 我就笑：“男人嘛！肯定都有除了老婆之外的梦中情人。” 一般这话说出来，等待我的都是一番家庭暴力。 带着末末做了手术，医生说末末属于“外石”，手术并不难。 感谢上帝，手术很顺利，术后恢复得很好，但要彻底恢复才能同房。 五个月后，去医院检查，大夫说一切完好，可以那个了——这个老不正经。 于是，这天晚上，我和末末迎来了货真价实的新婚洞房。干干净净地洗了澡，香喷喷地上了床，我们完全赤裸地紧紧拥抱在了一起。末末很紧张，脸色潮红。我完全兴奋，距离上次光临末末的裸体，已经多少年了啊！ ……很明显的，末末全身颤抖了一下。 "What's wrong?" “烫。”