Chapter 19 Friday, May 25 overcast

Xiangjiang is an international metropolis, bustling and chaotic, just like my mood in these two days here. The news to be interviewed has been completely exposed, all the streets and alleys are discussing various speculations about Cecilia Cheung's pregnancy, and the person involved is not in Xiangjiang, it is said that in order to hide from the paparazzi, she went on a secret trip.In order not to return empty-handed, I asked my beautiful colleague to contact many colleagues on my behalf, found out some so-called inside information, all of which were "revealed by insiders who did not want to disclose their names", and told the beautiful colleague, no matter the truth Fake, all written, the entertainment industry is like this, and the entertainment news is the same, where are there so many real things?If it was all true, there would be no hype.And even if the star is offended, the report will not be reported to our newspaper. We are not the first media to break the news.

The handbook for journalists says: News must be thoroughly investigated and interviewed, and must be based on facts, emphasizing the truth of the news.It's just that this point is basically invalid for entertainment news. After digging up some materials, I contacted friends in the same industry and asked them to take their beautiful colleagues out for a run.When those colleagues heard that there was a beautiful woman, they all salivated and agreed.So the beautiful colleague pleaded for mercy many times and asked me to accompany me to go there. After being invalid, she shouldered the heavy responsibility and single-handedly entered the Huahua Xiangjiang entertainment circle.

Not so much to run around, basically nothing to do for a day and a half.I specially gave my beautiful colleague half a day to go shopping, and taught her some methods and tricks to enrich herself. The beautiful colleague completely attracted me as a confidant and worshiped me like a god. In two days, I went back home.The beautiful colleague is reluctant to part with it.I taught her that this kind of thing must be done in moderation and accepted as soon as it is good. The first time the public fund comes out, it must be resolved quickly. This time, I will definitely let you go with confidence; on the contrary, if you have such a chance, you will play to your death and waste time to death, and when you go back to reimburse the editor, you will feel pained, then you will not have your share next time.

The beautiful colleague sighed: Listening to Jun's words today is better than messing with society for ten years. In fact, I have too many worries, and I have thought about many things and problems in two days, and the grievance and anger before have been almost wiped away by the 48-hour calm test, and it is time to go back and finish. In the past two days, my mobile phone has not been turned on. After one o'clock in the afternoon, I left the Shancheng Airport and turned on the phone.In a moment, countless text messages swarmed in, and the text message notification sound kept ringing.

Rougou's, Laofu's, Laotang's, Xiaowen's, and more Momo's.The text message box on the mobile phone was full, and I didn't see the rest, only the last few text messages. Bao, are you hiding from me?Did you really go to Xiangjiang? Bao, I'm sorry!Sorry!Sorry!Sorry!Sorry…… Bao, where the hell are you?Why not boot?call me back please Po, I want to talk to you, I want to tell you something... Bao, call me when you come back, we're getting a divorce. ... Panting for a long time, it was very uncomfortable, and my heart was stagnant again. I work hard, I work, I am kind, I help others, I wanted to enjoy life, but unexpectedly, life enjoys me...

There is only one text message from Xiaowen: Bao, I heard you went to Xiangjiang?Come back and call me. Without hesitation, dial the number immediately.In fact, I still miss this family of three and a half people very much.Moreover, in the past two days, I feel more and more that I have begun to have an inexplicable emotion towards Xiaowen, which is gradually infected from my heart, and even festered. The phone rang a few times, and when it was connected, a faint voice said, "Hello." "Xiaowen, it's me, I'm back." "What are you calling for?! I don't want to hear your voice!" There was a scream on the other side of the phone.

I was intimidated. On the phone, he coughed lightly.Instantly understood that Xiaowen's parents were beside her. "Xiaowen, are you okay?" I tried to keep my voice down, almost out of breath, to ensure that only Xiaowen could hear my words. Xiaowen paused there, her voice cold and angry: "What are you talking about? What is there to talk about! You are not human!" I froze for a moment, and quickly analyzed it in my mind. What Xiaowen said meant that I should have said something before that, it should be—"Let's talk." I didn't speak, and vaguely heard a vague voice next to Xiaowen, it seemed to be Wen's mother, but I couldn't make out what was being said.

Xiaowen sobbed: "Okay, Lai Bao, when do you have time? Let's talk and make everything clear!" Xiaowen was very cold, as if it was real. "Okay." That's all I could say. "Five o'clock in the afternoon, our cafe." Bingbing said, the phone hung up. Our cafe, I know, Xiaowen and I have only been to one cafe. Back home, empty and dead. However, I haven't been back for two days, but the house is extremely clean. For a lazy person like me, if no one urges me, I seldom clean up. But now the house is almost spotless, even cleaner than when I was at home!Who did the cleaning?Xiaowen?end?Or the snail girl?

After turning around, I finally got the answer.It should be cleaned at the end of the day, because on the coffee table in the living room, there is a piece of paper under a cup.It was a "Divorce Agreement", with Mo Mo's signature on it. The words "Ai Mo Mo" were written in distorted and scribbled words, as if the hand of the person who signed it was trembling. Holding this "Divorce Agreement", I was stunned for a long time.divorce?To be honest, even ten days ago, this vocabulary was extremely distant and unfamiliar to me.I have to admit, I really didn't have much experience with divorce for the first time.Do you really want a divorce?It should be, even if I don't leave, Mo Mo will ask to leave, I guess she has her own life, her purpose and long-term plan.And I, really, I don't know if I can live with a girl who totally cheated on me.

After getting out of the taxi, I stood near the cafe and hesitated for a long time. I should be able to imagine the expressions and eyes of Wen's parents and Wen's mother after seeing me, and I must face a harsh and sharp crusade. I am afraid that today's encounter , It will cause a psychological shadow on me in the future, and I may suffer from "father-in-law phobia". Stepping into the cafe, Xiaowen was sitting at a small table not far away with a smile, waving at me, and she stood up and walked out.I observed vigilantly and walked over hesitantly step by step.Looking at the smile on Xiaowen's face, it seems...it's not a Hongmen banquet.

Xiaowen walked up to me, her smile faded, her eyes became pity, she slowly stretched out her hand, and touched the half of her cheek that she had slapped, with a gentle and loving voice: "Baby, you have been wronged." In an instant, all the accumulated grievances and pain burst out of the dike, tears almost spurted out of the eye sockets, shaking his lips, and wailing: "My life is so hard!" Clenching his hands into small fists, he beat Xiaowen up and down angrily... That's right, of course I was joking, I'm not that perverted. When Xiaowen touched my face, my heart fluttered, but I smiled and shook my head: "It's okay." "Does it still hurt?" Xiaowen looked up at me and stroked me with her cold fingers, tears began to flow out little by little, soaking her eyes. "You think you are all Bodhisattvas of the Nine Heavens and Ten Earths shaking your head for fear of thunderbolts, golden light and lightning palms? Does it still hurt?" I tilted my head, trying to avoid Xiaowen's hand.To be honest, she touched me like this, which made my heart flutter more and more. Xiaowen smiled: "You're still poor!" As she said that, she put down her hand and naturally put her arms around me, walked to the seat with me, and sat down facing each other. "How are uncles and aunts?" After sitting down, I asked for a cup of coffee. Xiaowen nodded seriously: "Very angry!" As she spoke, she laughed. "Then...why didn't they come?" I asked, and looked around anxiously. "No, Mom and Dad said, let me settle this matter by myself, I will have a good talk with you today, and make a conclusion." Xiaowen said, her eyes suddenly became sad. Oh, it really is a break. "What's the situation now?" Stirring the coffee with a small spoon, I gestured to Xiaowen's stomach with my eyes. Xiaowen smiled and reached out to touch her stomach: "Parents mean, if there is no result in talking with you today, let me go with them, I... agree." I felt my heart tremble slightly, but a smile appeared on my face: "Good thing! Where's the child?" "Son, hehe, they still think it's yours, but they let me decide whether I want this child or not." Xiaowen said, looking down at her belly, "I also said that the child is mine, and It doesn't matter to anyone, I want to give birth, and my parents agreed." Look, in the end it is a person who is living abroad, that is, it is open! "Not bad, not bad!" I smiled and clapped my hands, "In this way, your affairs will be reunited! I can also retire, hehe!" Xiaowen smiled too, an ugly smile.He looked up at me with apology and pity in his eyes: "Bao, I'm sorry, I was planning to destroy my image, but I didn't expect to get you now..." "It's okay." I waved my hand, "I'm used to it." "Really, treasure! I'm sorry, I really don't want my parents to have this impression of you, and make you wronged and beaten..." Xiaowen leaned forward and said excitedly Then, the more you speak, the lower your voice. "Okay, okay!" I hurriedly relieved the depressing atmosphere, "Anyway, it's almost as expected, and the solution is very good. I don't care what your parents think, I probably won't have a chance to see each other in this lifetime." This is a joke, but why is it so sentimental when it is said? The two of them became silent.I lit a cigarette, and Xiaowen sipped her coffee. After a long time, Xiaowen suddenly raised her head, squinted her eyes and smiled, and asked, "Bao, that girl that night was Mo Mo, wasn't she?" I nod. "It's so beautiful." Xiaowen also nodded. Again there was silence. After a long time, this time I spoke first: "Hey, Xiaowen, you cried so sadly that night, why..." Xiaowen interrupted me, and smiled hard: "I'm pretending, otherwise how could my parents believe it?" As she said, she turned her head, and I heard her exhale, adjusted her breathing, raised her head again, and looked directly into my eyes. "Baby, but that night, Mo Mo was real." "What really?" I was taken aback. "Angry, sad, and that hateful look when she looked at me." Xiaowen tilted her head and smiled, her eyes squinted upwards, as if recalling, "Really, Bao, Mo Mo is really jealous, Really hate me, they're all women, I can see that." "She's sick." I pouted. "That's not true! Bao, she loves you too. If a girl doesn't really love you, she won't be sad for you. She may be angry because of you and cry to vent, but she will never be sad. Mo Mo is true sad." Xiaowen kept talking, as if trying to force me to believe something.I just laughed, I can believe what Xiaowen said, but what's the use? "Did she misunderstand me that night?" Xiaowen leaned forward with concern, stretched out her hand and waved in front of my eyes, attracting my attention, "I asked you, did you explain it to her?" I nodded: "I explained, she doesn't believe it, ha ha." "I wouldn't believe it if it were me." Xiaowen lowered her head and said to herself, after thinking for a while, her eyes suddenly opened wide, "Bao, can you call Mo Mo and let me meet her, and I will explain to her face to face." "Ah? Now?" I was taken aback, then shook my head, "Another day, I'm not in the mood right now." "It can't be another day!" Xiaowen's voice suddenly calmed down, "I don't have time." "Why?" I had an ominous premonition. Xiaowen smiled wryly: "I'll come out to talk with you today. If the talk doesn't work out, I'll go back and leave by plane tomorrow. I'll go with my parents." I was stunned.Walk?Oh, let's go, it's good, isn't this the result we want?I have been mentally prepared for this fact, but in my heart, why is it so uncomfortable? Relieved, he shook his head: "Forget it, Xiao Wen, you don't know what's going on with Mo Mo and I, you don't need to explain anything to her, it's unnecessary." Xiaowen stretched out her hand and clasped it on the back of my hand that was resting on the table: "Baby, I'm leaving tomorrow, if I don't explain to Momo, I'll feel uncomfortable and I won't feel at ease for the rest of my life, please! " I hesitate. "Bao, I don't care what will happen to you and Mo Mo in the future, but I can't leave with so much guilt, I already feel sorry for you! Please, please!" Xiaowen frowned slightly, begging, her eyes were a little bit moist. Looking for a sigh, shaking my head, I glanced at her, and slowly reached out to take out the phone. When Mo Mo received my call, she almost shouted in surprise, but I didn't have any emotions to cooperate with her, so I told her to come out, there was something to do, and then gave her the address.Mo Mo's tone was low for an instant, as if she understood what I wanted her to come out to talk about, and said sadly that she knew and would be here soon. About half an hour later, there was a noise at the door of the cafe. I turned my head and saw Mo Mo walking over, looking around, and met my eyes. In an instant, her eyes moved, and she saw Xiao Wen, and immediately froze in place.I waved at her, she bit her lip and walked over hesitantly. Xiaowen stood up with a smile, and said hello to Mo Mo: "Hello." Mo nodded hesitantly, looked at me, Xiaowen stretched out her hand to indicate the position beside me: "Sit quietly." Mo Mo glanced at me, I understood Xiaowen's meaning, and moved a seat inside helplessly.Mo Mo sat next to me. "My name is Zhu Xiaowen. Let's be straightforward. I came to you today to explain what happened at Lai Bao's house that night." The few of us met and communicated in the bar until we asked me to help our parents, and we talked about it until that night. Mo Mo listened, his expression became more and more surprised, and when Xiaowen came to certain plots in the early morning, Mo Mo's expression also became sad. In the end, his eyes had a little sympathy, although he still vaguely questioned.Undoubtedly, what Xiaowen said was exactly the same as what I explained to Mo Mo that night. "Mo, don't doubt anymore." Xiaowen finished everything and leaned forward slightly, "It's a bit presumptuous to bring you here today, but I'm going abroad tomorrow, and I may not come back. I don't have a chance to explain to you. Mo, Lai Bao is a good person, I believe you will be happy, I wish you all the best." Mo Mo was taken aback for a moment, raised his head sharply, looked straight at Xiaowen, then turned his head slowly, and gave me a sad look. "Xiaowen, that day...we..." Mo Mo looked at Xiaowen apologetically, not daring to meet her eyes. Xiaowen smiled and shook her head: "Mo, I have something to say. It was the first time I saw you that day, but Lai Bao and I mentioned you many times before, talking about your first love and your agreed marriage. " "Many times?" Xiaowen and I were anxious. "You also talked about the agreed marriage?" Mo Mo turned his head to me anxiously, "You told Xiaowen all this, so why didn't you tell me about you and Xiaowen in advance?" I curled my lips to look at the end: "Women are different from women. I told Xiaowen that she can understand. Let me tell you first, you don't have to make trouble!" Mo stared: "You! Am I that kind of person?" Xiao Wen hurriedly waved her hands on the opposite side: "Okay, you two, stop arguing and listen to me. Mo, everything you did that day made me understand that you love Lai Bao, right? Don't deny it, we are both Woman, I can see that." Mo Mo was about to say something, but Xiaowen said it, she opened her mouth, but bowed her head without making a sound. Xiaowen began to attack me: "Lai Bao, do you remember what I told you? Marriage means too much to women. Even if there is an agreement to marry for some purpose, women will find their most trusted, The most trustworthy person. If Mo Mo didn't love you and didn't believe in you, she wouldn't really register her marriage with you. You know the so-called marriage agreement, even if it goes to court, it may not be acceptable. evidence, isn't it?" ... I don't talk, just do whatever I want. "Mo, Bao is really a good man, very kind, and he is really the kind of person who will not mistreat you under the same roof. There are very few such men now." Xiaowen continued, her tone calm and persuasive.Mo Mo stared at the ground, nodded slowly, thoughtful. "I'm very happy to know a friend like Lai Bao, so I hope he is happy too." Xiaowen smiled softly. Mo Mo frowned, bit her lips, and looked into Xiaowen's eyes: "Xiaowen, I understand. I want to thank you for being able today... But, there are some things you don't know, so I dare not promise you anything. " Xiao Wen held Mo Mo's hand in both hands: "To be honest, if Bao Bao didn't love you, I would have taken away a man like him." ... "I have something for you." With a smile, Xiaowen took out a small black flannel box from her bag, "Mo, this is a gift from me, and it can be regarded as a blessing." While talking, Xiaowen opened the box and gently placed it in front of Mo Mo.At the end of the day, I also looked at it. It was a pendant, a black string, and a silver feather. Mo Mo stared straight ahead, thoughtful, and suddenly turned his head to look at me. The speed was so fast that I shivered in fright. "He..." Mo pointed at my neck. Xiaowen smiled and nodded: "Yes, I made the treasures too. They are all blessings. It is said that before the phoenix nirvana, three spiritual feathers fell from the tail of the phoenix. Whoever gets them can realize the three original wishes." While talking, Xiaowen actually stood up, picked up the three-feather pendant, walked around behind Mo Mo, and gently put it on for her.Mo Mo was taken aback, looked down at the three feathers that had fallen on his chest, and reached out to stroke them. While putting it on, Xiaowen said: "However, because I made it, I have the right to make a wish for the pendants of the two of you first, occupying one for each of you. The first wish is to wish you happiness; the second is to wish you happiness." I hope you two can be together forever. The rest, you can handle it yourself." I don't know if it's an illusion, but why do I feel that there is such an imperceptible sadness in Xiaowen's eyes? Mo Mo kept lowering his head, gently touching the three feathers on his chest, tick-tock, a tear dripped down and wet the back of his hand. "Okay, Xiaowen, let me tell you about you?" I couldn't stand the situation, so I started to change the subject, "After you leave, it may be a long time before we meet again. Take good care of yourself when you are abroad." Xiaowen nodded, her eyes turned red, and she immediately turned her head, holding back her tears. Beside me, Mo slowly raised his eyes and looked at Xiaowen, with tears streaming down his face, his voice trembling: "Xiaowen, thank you." Xiaowen smiled: "I'm repaying my kindness. Bao has helped me so much." She said with a finger, "You too, don't you also want to repay your kindness?" Mo Mo was stunned for a moment, the tears flowed more urgently, she shook her lips, shook her head at a loss, her eyes wandered: "But I...but I..." As he said that, Mo suddenly stood up, took his handbag, covered his mouth, turned around and ran out of the cafe quickly. Sitting outside until it was getting dark, Xiaowen and I chatted without saying a word, more time was silent, I had already drank the fifth cup of coffee, but the two of us still sat like this, as if neither of us wanted to stand Get up, no one wants to say go first. Finally, it was Xiaowen who stood up first, twisted her waist cutely, and winked at me: "Bao, that's it, our conversation is over, you are a liar, you are a beast! I will go with my parents tomorrow. " I smiled and nodded: "Xiaowen, no matter how much your parents hate me, please help me with a word - I wish them good health." "You have no chance to stand up." Xiaowen was still smiling and teasing, as if she was trying to cover up something. After paying the bill, the two walked out of the cafe one after the other.At the entrance of the cafe, we looked at each other, smiled, hugged, and said a lot of blessings to each other. I watched Xiaowen get into the taxi, and watched Xiaowen wave her hands vigorously to me after getting in the car. She smiled very sweetly and cutely. It wasn't until the taxi disappeared that I turned around, raised my hand, hailed a taxi, and went home.The car drove to Binjiang Road, and I asked the driver to stop. It was not far from home, and I wanted to take a walk by the river.The most precious thing for man is life. There is only one life, and a man's life should be spent like this: When he looks back on the past, he will not regret for wasting his time, and will not be ashamed for doing nothing. When he is dying, he can do this Say—my whole life and all my energies are dedicated to the cause of women's happiness!Am I that kind of person now?When I walked to the river, I suddenly felt a kind of reluctance, as if I realized at this moment that Xiaowen was leaving tomorrow, and I probably would never see her again this time.I know that she and I have some feelings for each other, but there is no possibility. The reason why Xiaowen suppresses herself is because she is pregnant with another man's child, and that man is obviously the whole of her love. But just now, in the coffee shop, was Xiaowen and I meeting for the last time?Without any warning, I took out my mobile phone and dialed the number. After one ring, Xiaowen answered. "Not yet?" I asked. "Well, still in the car." Xiaowen's voice was soft and nasal. My heart tightened: "Xiaowen, are you... crying?" Xiaowen sniffed her nose twice: "No way, I just have a cold." An obvious lie, just now in the cafe, after talking so much, I didn't hear that she had a cold at all.Then she, really cried?Parting because of injury, parting is just around the corner? "Xiaowen, tell me in advance what time is your flight tomorrow. Okay?" I asked softly, unable to stop my thoughts. There was silence over there, and after a long silence, Xiaowen hummed lightly.But this sound was too soft, so light that after I hung up the phone, I was even a little dazed, wondering if Xiaowen really had a hug with me. Walking home, I seemed to think about a lot of things along the way, and I didn't seem to think about anything. After getting out of the elevator, he was absent-mindedly holding the key while walking towards the door of the house. Suddenly, his body trembled, his scalp went numb with fright, his hand softened, and the key fell to the ground. There was a man sitting at the door of my house with disheveled hair and couldn't see his face clearly. "Who?" I asked tentatively. When he looked up, it turned out to be Mo Mo. My spine was twisted with anger: "What are you doing?" "Waiting for you." Mo Mo sat on the ground, curled his legs and hugged his knees. "Don't you have a key? Why don't you go in?" Mo Mo stood up slowly, rubbing his hands on his legs, grinning in pain, but still showing me a sad look: "I used to be able to, but now I don't know if I can still enter your house." My heart was furious: Damn, pretend to be pitiful with me! Picking up the key and opening the door, I turned my head to look at Mo Mo who was standing outside the door with his head bowed and rubbing his hands, I said, "Come in." Mo Mo came in obediently with his head bowed, changed his shoes silently, walked to the living room silently, stood by the sofa instead of sitting. "What are you pretending to be? Don't make me look like a little bird." Mo slowly sat on the sofa, and suddenly reached under his buttocks, and took out a piece of paper. "Bao, this... Did you read it?" Mo Mo asked in a low voice.What she held in her hand was the Divorce Agreement. I nod. "Then you..." Mo Mo looked at me tentatively, lowered his head, rolled his eyes up, and continued to be pitiful. I didn't speak. "Baby, let's talk." Mo Mo's voice returned to normal, not as loud as before. I nod. "Bao, I want to know, do you love me?" This question was very sudden and direct. My head started to mess up, I got up, walked to the dining room, took a can of beer from the refrigerator, and drank half of the can.How do I answer? "Bao, tell me, do you love me?" I rolled the beer can with both hands, and sighed softly: "I loved it." "No, I'm asking now! Do you love me?" Mo Mo asked me immediately without giving me time to breathe. I don't know what to say, because I understand that my answer must be directly related to everything that Mo Mo will say next. Mo Mo looked at me with a pale face and no tears. "If I tell you that I love you, will you still divorce me? If I tell you that I have been in love with you all these years, I will never forget you, and even ask around for your whereabouts, wanting to find you, you Will you still divorce me?" My heart trembled.Maybe Xiaowen is right, a girl doesn't love you, doesn't trust you, how can she put the treasure of marriage on you? I raised my eyes and looked at Mo Mo, with emotion in my eyes. "You won't, will you?" Mo Mo's eyes almost pleaded, "Because you love me too, right?" I was looking at those sad and expectant eyes, and my psychological defense was also disintegrating little by little.Finally, I nodded slightly. Mo Mo smiled quickly, but the smile was fleeting on his face, but he lowered his head even more deeply. "Bao, if I tell you that I have... been taken care of all these years. Will you still love me?" ... The sky that had just shot a ray of sunshine was covered with dark clouds again, and in an instant, lightning flashed and thunder thundered, and the earth shook. It was almost dark before my eyes, and I instinctively thought that I had heard it wrong!Staring at Mo Mo in a daze, his hands were weak, the beer can was tilted to one side, and the beer flowed out and spilled on the floor.I didn't realize it, I felt empty in my heart. Mo Mo lowered her head, her hair hanging down, covering her face: "There are many things that cannot be explained clearly in a few sentences. In the eyes of everyone, I am a girl who has been raised. This is a stain that I can't wash off in my life. .” I felt my eyes began to swell, I couldn't blink at all, my throat was dry, and I couldn't take a breath. "I think, you can't accept it either?" Mo Mo started to raise his head slowly, but instead of looking at me, he stared at the piece of paper in his hand, "So I agreed to marry you, I told you , we will divorce, because I have such experience, you will not want me, even if you want me, I will feel that I am not worthy of you...Bao, sign it. " Holding the pen, I trembled.To be honest, I seem to have speculated about this possibility, but when this fact really came out of Mo Mo's mouth, I still had a hard time accepting it.Do I love Momo?It should be love, but she... Yes, I'm selfish, I can't bear the fact that the girl I love has been taken care of by others, it's a kind of injury, it's a great shame!In a sense, Mo Mo is now my legal wife, but can I accept living with her?Can I bear a girl who has such an experience to be with me day and night?Am I that open-minded and magnanimous?the answer is negative.I'm just a little man. ...Finally, I slowly bent down and stretched out the pen to the piece of paper.One stroke at a time, write down my name.The moment the pen fell, the tears that I saw Mo Mo from the corner of my eye also fell.After signing, I lost all strength, and just dropped the pen on the coffee table. Mo Mo was also in a daze with tears streaming down his face. He stared at the piece of paper, then quickly wiped his face with his hand, took the paper, and stood up while folding it. "Bao, thank you so much! Anyway, you helped me a lot." While talking, Mo Mo moved his steps lightly, came to me, leaned over and kissed my cheek lightly, then the sound of footsteps came to the door, the trivial sound of changing shoes, the sound of door opening, and sobbing again and again, finally It was the soft closing sound of the door. The house suddenly became dead silent, the whole process, I did not move, like a statue, from the brain, to the heart, to the whole body, completely numb.