Chapter 52 Section 5

Ding Yi had a breast re-examination first, and it was still a mammogram, but this time I took a few more pictures, with a very tricky angle, squeezing her breasts left and right, making her look like a cake, which made her very worried, like this Squeeze vigorously, if there is really cancer growing inside, won't it be crushed? The hospital was more considerate this time, instead of waiting ten days and a half months for the results, they asked her to wait there after finishing the treatment. After a while, a doctor called her to another consulting room and asked her to watch the fluorescent screen. The mammogram on the website is quite clear, and the root and veins can be seen clearly. It is neither violent nor pornographic. Even a pervert will not have distracting thoughts when seeing it, because it is completely pathological.

The doctor said: "We found a light spot on your left breast. If you see it, it is here, but not on the right breast. This may be a tumor, or it may be that your two sides grow asymmetrically. If you have previous The film is fine as a comparison, have you ever taken a film before?" "Maybe not." "Then do an ultrasound." So I made an appointment for an ultrasound. This little bright spot seemed to be engraved in her mind, and it kept flickering there. She almost didn't dare to touch her left breast, for fear of breaking that little thing.She remembered that her mother had a colleague who had breast cancer. She underwent surgery to remove both breasts. She saved her life, but lost her husband.

She imagined that her two breasts had also been cut off, and her chest was flat. She could still pretend to be a "chest" to the outside world, but she couldn't pretend to be in front of her husband. She wondered if he would run away. A few days later, when it was time to see a gynecologist, she anxiously went to the doctor's office. It was a female doctor, whom she had chosen specially. If she didn't care about men and women, she could have a follow-up examination at least three days earlier.But thinking of those embarrassing examinations, she thought it would be better to choose a female doctor.

The female doctor had a strange surname and a foreign appearance. She called herself Doctor Z. After she was laid on the treatment bed, she used an instrument to observe her area. It felt like a smear, not painful, but a little swollen.She thought that dripping vinegar would burn and hurt, but she didn't feel the burn yet. The doctor said it was done, which made her wonder if vinegar was used. She asked as she put on her clothes, "Is there a problem?" The doctor said, "We have to wait for the test results." "When will the test results be available?" "A week or so, and I'll call you then."

She felt that she was being suspended again. The results would not be known until the ultrasound of the breasts, and the test of the cervix. The waiting time was a week or two. How could this be a human life?Why do doctors in the United States tell patients the truth directly?In my impression, doctors in China hide everything they can, and only tell the family members of the patients. She didn't bother to urge the professor in the department to write a recommendation letter as soon as possible. She didn't know if she would survive or not. What job was she looking for?It is better to finish writing the dissertation as soon as possible, lest cancer be detected, and even the dissertation is too late to finish, and an American master's degree that is obtained will fly away.

But she also felt very uneasy when writing the thesis. She was always thinking about the results of the review, and she had no one to talk about. Well, maybe people think she is Mrs. Xianglin. I want to talk to my husband, but two people are like the sun and the moon, it is difficult to meet together.One day she couldn't take it any longer, and after dropping the kids off at school, she went to her husband's bedroom, shook him awake, and said, "Hey, wake up, I want to talk to you." He was sleepy and unhappy: "What are you doing? Woke me up so early." "Is it still early? I've already sent Ding Ding back."

"You went to bed early." "Who told you to go to bed so late?" He asked reluctantly, "What's the matter?" "It's still a matter of reexamination." He answered irrelevantly: "Why didn't you check your ovulation this month?" She said angrily: "People are dying, so why check for ovulation!" "Who's dying? What nonsense are you talking about all the time?" "I've told you twice in total. I didn't say a few words on the phone last time. This time it's just the beginning. Why is it 'all day long'?"

"You just love to chew on words." She was no longer interested in telling him about the reexamination, knowing that not only would he not explain her, but would blame her instead, she said angrily: "I'm too lazy to tell you, you can sleep on your own." He stopped her: "Hey, what's the matter with you? You woke me up and stopped talking. Are you trying to make trouble?" "What's the point? You don't care, you don't care, what's the point of me telling you?" "What the hell is going on?" She thought about it, walked back to his bed and sat down, and talked about the reexamination.

He said: "That's all? Then why make it so scary? Isn't it just a review?" "Do you think I will have cancer?" "The test results haven't come out, how do I know?" "You are a doctor, how could you not know?" "I'm not a gynecologist." "Didn't you say before that you know everything about being a doctor?" "Did I say that?" She repeated the conversation from several years ago, and he frowned and said, "I don't remember." "Forget it if you don't remember, I'm too lazy to tell you."

He stopped her again: "Hey, why are you running? You haven't finished talking yet. What happened to your job hunting in J state?" "It's not that I'm looking for a job in J State, but someone offered me an interview opportunity at the meeting, and then sent some materials over." "They haven't decided whether to give you a job or not?" She became a little impatient: "It's not that I haven't decided whether to give me a job, but I haven't decided whether I should go for an interview." He was stunned for a while, and said, "It's been a few days, right? I guess they won't give you the chance for an on-site interview. If you had, would you have waited so long?"

Seeing him saying unlucky things like a crow, she became even angrier: "I still have a letter of recommendation that I haven't sent, how do they decide?" "Why haven't you sent it yet?" "How would I know? He said he was busy." "Is he unwilling to write a letter of recommendation for you?" "Why should he agree if he doesn't want to?" "If you don't agree, I'm afraid you will be unhappy." The more she listened, the more angry she became. This person didn't have a good word to say, and he couldn't come up with a solution, so he would say something frustrating.She mocked: "Why are you asking so carefully? Don't you still want to write a letter of recommendation for me?" Unexpectedly, he actually replied, "Yes, I can write a recommendation letter for you." "What's the use of writing? You are my husband, people will believe you?" "I won't say in the letter that I am your husband. How would people know?" She didn't know whether this would make sense or not, so she decided to ask Lu Ping first, so she prevaricated and said, "Lu Ping also invited that professor to write a recommendation letter, but he hasn't written one yet, so I'll ask her first." "I can write one for her, too." "Can you write for her?" "Why not? Just tell me who to send it to." "I still want to ask Lu Ping first." She called Lu Ping after her husband went to work. When Lu Ping heard this, he agreed very much: "That's good, your husband is the person in charge of the scientific research project in this field. He must have a lot of weight in writing a recommendation letter for us. But how can we get involved with him?" "It can be said that we have done data analysis for his laboratory." "Well, it's a good idea." But after a while, Lu Ping changed his mind: "I think it's a bit strange. Your husband didn't want you to work in other places before. Why did he suddenly turn around and write a recommendation letter for you?" ? Will I write you a bunch of nonsense to make you go?" She broke out in a cold sweat, it was too possible, why didn't she think of it. She asked worriedly: "But if we reject him, will he go to J state to spoil our affairs?" "You don't want to reject him directly, just say that we have already reported the name of the recommender to J State, and it is not good to replace him now." "Then he wouldn't say 'one more reference is not bad'?" "Just say that they only need three referees, and if there are too many, they will think you are long-winded." She really admired Lu Ping's calm mind and many ideas. If it was her, she must have been fooled by her husband. The next day, according to Lu Ping's instigation, she replied to her husband with the exact words. He wasn't very happy, but he didn't insist any more. He just murmured, "Good intentions don't bring good rewards." "Didn't you not want me to work in other states?" "What before? I don't want you to work in other states now." "Then why are you writing a letter of recommendation for us?" "I see that you are in a hurry and want to help you. It's fine if you don't appreciate it." "If I get a job in J state, what will you do? Should I go there or stay here?" "Where did I go to work? To be a postdoctoral fellow?" "Can't you take the scientific research fund to J state?" He had a disdainful expression on his face: "If you don't understand, don't talk nonsense. Part of my fund comes from the unit here. How could it be brought there? You think the fund is your own money. Take it wherever you go?" "Then what to do?" "Just separate the two places, as long as you bring the child there. Ding Ding is a girl, and she is so old, I can't take care of her here." He didn't object to her going to another state to work. Instead of being happy, she felt disappointed and had an ominous feeling: Could this person be the master who sent a false letter?Is it impossible to do what he supports? She couldn't help urging the professor Se to write a recommendation letter again, and Professor Se said: "Actually, the recommendation letter is useless. They are going through the motions. After so long, the person who interviewed on the spot has already been called to J state for an interview. Where else is waiting for you?" She was so mad, why so long?Isn't it all because of you?If you wrote the recommendation letter earlier, how could it take so long?If you're not going to write, just say so at the beginning, so we don't have to wait.You didn't do what you promised and dragged down our affairs, so you're still here to sell your mouth? But she didn't dare to complain, and only begged in a coquettish tone: "Whether there is hope or not, please help me and Lu Ping write and send the recommendation letter, and I will treat you to Chinese food." This trick really worked. In less than two days, Professor Se sent an e-mail saying that he had written a letter of recommendation for her and Lu Ping and mailed it. She thanked Professor Se strongly, and fulfilled her promise to invite Professor Se to a Chinese restaurant for dinner. But Professor Se said that he doesn't like restaurant food, which is Chinese food modified according to American tastes, and he wants to eat authentic Chinese food. She understood, and suggested: "Then come to my house to eat, and I will cook myself." After making an appointment, she was a little uneasy, fearing that Lu Ping would find out that she had a bad style of work, so she called Lu Ping to report the matter.Who knew that Lu Ping said that he and Professor Se had made exactly the same deal, and Professor Se said that he had sent their recommendation letters, and Lu Ping had already set a time to invite Professor Se to dinner, so he would not go to the restaurant either. homemade. The two laughed again, and she said, "I thought I was the only one so despicable." Lu Ping also laughed loudly: "I didn't want to tell you, I was afraid that you would think I was dirty." "I don't think this professor is honest at all." "He's a bit of a slut, but he's just a slut, and he's just having a meal, he didn't say he was going to eat people." "Will you propose to eat people while you're eating?" "No, the old and the young are all around, how dare he eat people?" She remembered that Lu Ping was different from herself. When someone else's husband encountered such a thing, he would definitely be by his side, while her husband would definitely stay in the laboratory and let her deal with Professor Se alone. She shared her worries, and Lu Ping said, "He didn't even show up for such a thing? That's too unreasonable. Why don't you just tell him that you're going to invite Professor Se to your house for dinner, and that Professor Se treats you well?" I mean, let's see if he can attend voluntarily, if he can, then there's nothing to say, if not, you don't have to worry about anything, just talk to Professor Se." "Stop joking!" "I'm not kidding, I'm serious. Professor Se is always a little old, but he is still good-looking. He is a professor at an American university. How can he not be better than your husband? He is so warm to you, but your husband is so cold to you , why don't you choose a hot face, but choose a cold butt?" "It's meaningless to choose anyone for this kind of one-night stand." "Who says it's a one-night stand? Professor Se is serious about looking for a wife." "He doesn't have a wife?" "It's been a few years since I died, and I'm worried that I can't find anyone, and I must find an Asian woman." "Why is this happening?" "Because the wife he died was Asian and Japanese." "Then his children are not all of mixed race?" "A son and a daughter, both of mixed race, are extremely beautiful. Haven't you seen a picture of his two children at his house?" "I haven't been to his house, have you?" "I went there when I was taking his class. It's a big house, very luxurious." "Since this is the case, why would he take a fancy to me?" "Why don't you like it? I don't think his Japanese lady looks as good as you." "Do not make jokes." "Then when he goes to your house for dinner, you ask him to show you the photo of his wife." "He has a picture of his wife with him?" "Definitely take it with you, foreigners are very romantic." Following Lu Ping's instigation, she told her husband about the dinner party. He didn't say anything at first, but after two days, she suddenly asked about the time for the dinner. She asked curiously, "Why do you ask so clearly?" "Arrange experiments, meetings, etc." "He came to eat, what's the matter with your experiment and meeting?" "To avoid time conflicts." "Are you also going to receive Professor Se?" "of course." "Did you take this matter to the laboratory and talk about it, someone else gave you an idea?" He said a little embarrassedly: "Well. They said that this professor has no good intentions for your wife, so you have to keep an eye on it." She laughed: "Don't tell me, the people in your lab told you to come back early the day I came back from a meeting." He answered honestly: "Yes." "Then if they don't say this, do you know that you will come back sooner?" He said conceitedly, "Of course I know."