Chapter 69 Section 27

March 31, 2006 is the vernal equinox in the traditional lunar calendar.On the vernal equinox, when the sun moves to zero degrees of the yellow longitude, the sun shines directly on the equator on this day, and the day and night are almost equal. After that, the direct sunlight gradually moves northward, and the days begin to grow longer and the nights shorter.Min, which is half, this day is the middle of spring. On this day when the grass grows and the warbler flies and the peach blossoms dye the earth red and the sandstorm in the north is about to move, Xiaoya is sent to the Beijing Sixth Hospital in Beibingmasi, a medical institution specializing in the treatment of mental illness.Once a person enters, it is like disappearing from the world, telephone, E-mail, everything is gone.He Lin didn't know where she was, and she couldn't find out from her family, but her mother's family only heard from her son-in-law that her daughter needed to rest for a few days and would be able to go home soon...

A hazy morning where the sun was hiding behind thick clouds, and the air was filled with dust particles blown from Central Asia. A figure quietly emerged from an alley in Beibingmasi, got into a taxi and left.Half an hour later, he appeared in a residential building in Liuliqiao. Mrs. Zheng was cutting her heart out in the kitchen. The bright red shredded radishes were stacked one by one on a white plate printed with orchids, which was really pretty. Xinxinmei has the effect of clearing the throat and moistening the lungs, so the old lady devoted herself to making it for her son.Hearing the sound of the door, he poked his head out of the kitchen and was stunned for a moment, only to see his daughter-in-law pouring water for herself without distraction.

"How did you come back?" "I can't come back to my own home?" "Why don't you stay in the hospital? But you paid for it!" "I'll pay you too, how many days can you try?" Looking back at her mother-in-law, her eyes were a bit erratic, but the most important thing was staring and disdain. Mrs. Zheng was also polite, "You have depression and you don't want to watch it? Who can stand you?" "Can I have depression without you? Why don't you?" The mother-in-law kicked the round radish at her feet aside, "How did I get it? I am generous, fat, highly respected, and I have done nothing wrong, so I am afraid that depression will come to my door?"

Xiaoya snorted coldly, and said only unpleasant and provocative words, "I didn't do anything wrong, and I have accumulated virtue, why is my man so short-lived? Isn't this going to come to the door early to repay him?" Mrs. Zheng let out a sharp "uh". Like a wounded beast whose scars were ripped apart, a gust of air rushed out of her chest. on the chin. Xiaoya sneered, raised her foot and kicked her mother-in-law's lower abdomen, and kicked it so far that the old lady backed up and hit the kitchen door.The mother-in-law regained her composure, looked in disbelief, immediately screamed again, and rushed forward, Xiaoya slapped her twice again, and the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law wrestled together.The daughter-in-law is tall and young, and the mother-in-law retreated to the kitchen with three twists and turns, and then slammed hard, the mother-in-law staggered in the inertia of retreating, and was about to sit on the floor, just on the floor. Basin, just sat in the water basin so precisely—Ms. Zheng is also used to being frugal. She uses the basin to wash things, and then can use it to flush the toilet again—the basin is not too big or small, and the buttocks are not big enough to put it in. It's easy, but once it's in, it's even harder to pull it out.The old lady was sitting in the water basin, twisting and cursing at her daughter-in-law, and picked up a round radish and threw it over.On the contrary, the daughter-in-law has the audacity to start a war against her!

Xiaoya turned around without saying a word, picked up half a bag of ancient boat flour beside her and poured it on her mother-in-law's head with a puff—the old lady's head was full like a snowman!While rubbing her face and hair with her hands, she scolded vigorously: "Stupid × you wait, my son comes back and peels your skin! You stupid × just wait to be abandoned! With me here, Hong Jun will want you again!" You, I'll call you little mom—" Xiaoya walked over and kicked her mother-in-law to the ground with a few bangs, telling you to be strong, telling you to talk nonsense and rely on the old to sell the old!The old lady howled like a pig, and almost didn't come up in one breath, and her head was blurred—there was a crash, there was a sound of glass outside, she didn't hear it, she just got up from the ground while beating the flour, cursing the kitchen knife in the left hand and the rolling pin in the right to find it. , I didn’t see my daughter-in-law again, I looked for all the rooms, I shook my head and cried for a while, I wanted to call my son, let him come back, let him see how miserable he is, I don’t know why the landline phone is not in the original place , I didn’t know where the fight happened just now, so I packed up and went to the bathroom to wash up. Before I finished washing, there was a loud knock on the door, and the neighbor shouted: "Mother Hongjun, your daughter-in-law jumped off the building!"

It was 11:35 when Xiaoya left that day, the sun had just emerged from the gaps in the clouds, a thin layer of light shone on the earth, and it also illuminated her thin and distorted body and the shocking pool of blood beside her, staining her eyes. His copper hair, not long ago, was a warm wine color in the sun, and a sapphire blue barrette was still fastened tightly at the end.From the fifteenth floor, like meatloaf falling down, there is no hope.A quarter of an hour later, the 120 ambulance arrived, but there was no rescue.Later, 110 came, investigated for a long time, and determined it was suicide.

He Lin got the news at one o'clock in the afternoon the next day. For some reason, she was very tired, as if her cerebral cortex lacked oxygen. She threw herself on the bed and fell asleep, and fell asleep easily without dreams.There is a kind of grief that exceeds the load of the heart and cannot be faced directly. It needs to be accepted bit by bit in a careless way. Like a flood, the stone was washed away directly.The human body and mind will automatically generate a protection mechanism when a major event occurs. This is an evolutionary choice in natural selection. You can even smile and cry, but you will not be knocked down immediately.After waking up at eight o'clock in the evening, Chuanzhi hadn't come back yet.She didn't miss him anymore, and no one else, so she went up to the third floor barefoot.Usually, I seldom go there. The shape of the upper room is irregular and the space is narrow. There are some sundries and half-dead flowers and plants bought before.Now, she stands at the diamond-shaped window and looks out at the lights of thousands of houses in Beijing. This huge and noisy city is gradually sleeping in the night wind blowing, which reminds me of another world that is always peaceful. That world must be beautiful, otherwise How come so many people didn't come back?Now my friend is gone too, without worries, and rushing to the peaceful, bright and breathing paradise she has always wanted. Death may not be the end, it is not pain, and it is not just an escape. You are just tired, bored, heart failure and exhaustion I want to turn this page, find another exit, and start another...

He Lin climbed onto the window lattice, lifted her thighs out with difficulty, stepped out of the window, lowered her head, and with the faint light, she even saw clearly the five toes flying in the air. They were free and at ease, waiting for the moment of flying... …Suddenly, the right side moved, followed by the left side, and the little life in the abdomen kicked left and right like blowing bubbles.He Lin protected her belly all at once, thinking instinctively that she couldn't bump into the baby in the momentary body-to-ground collision, that the baby couldn't be suffocated to death just because the mother couldn't breathe, and that the baby couldn't be suffocated because the mother couldn't breathe. Mother shed all her blood and closed her eyes like a fish trapped in shallow water at low tide... That night, a night that no one knew, a secret that would be buried forever, she retracted her legs and left the window sill in this way.

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