Chapter 46 Section 4

The Spring Festival in 2005 came with great enthusiasm. The TV sang "The Rooster Sings the World White" and "Wearing the Rooster and Dancing, Getting Rich and Getting Started Early". It was like a frenzy of firecrackers, the crackling and continuous sound was like a tsunami, one knew the beginning but could not see the end, the whole sky was filled with lightning, thunder and celestial maidens scattered flowers. He Chong went out with a bag of firecrackers and fireworks on his back, and wanted to find an open place to set off with his cronies.The TV was ringing in the living room, and Mrs. He and his wife kept answering the phone while looking out in the sun. Relatives, friends, subordinates, and students paid New Year's greetings.

He Lin was also harassed, mostly by text messages.In a bad mood, all packaged and sent in groups.When he was bored, Chuanzhi suddenly flashed in like a loach, and without saying a word, he lifted the quilt and squeezed in and lay side by side.He Lin refused to give way and ignored him. Chuanzhi hugged her tightly, put his head in her arms, shivered like cold, and said in an extremely sad voice, "wife, please forgive me, you don't want me, me, or myself, without you and me Go to hell." He Lin stared at the ceiling and said nothing. "Didn't you ask me to admit my mistake? I was wrong. I shouldn't have done it. Just beat me ten times harder. I deserve it! Please don't be angry and torment yourself. You feel better, how can you treat me?" It’s all done, you’d better punish me, any way—”

He Lin remained silent. Chuanzhi was about to cry, "I know that you have looked down on me in your heart. I have always been under pressure. In fact, I lived a very depressed life a long time ago. There are two aspects. One is that your conditions are better than mine in all aspects. You don't even have to You can get into the same university that I struggled to get into without getting a high score by working too hard! You don’t have to be too motivated to get a good job. I didn’t have a Hukou before, I think It is difficult to walk in this city, like a second-class citizen, looking at people everywhere. Now that you have a registered permanent residence, you still have no burdens on your family, and what I can give you with great effort may be what you don’t want or look down on. I always find it too difficult to satisfy you. So I work hard and try to do more things for the family, hoping to make you feel that I am useful, not inferior to others, let alone relying on soft rice to count on you to be here Set up a foothold in the city! I always feel that I just started from a low level, and I will develop in all aspects in a few years. As a small civil servant, I don’t think this is a career for a lifetime. At the beginning stage, it’s hard and tiring. Point, in the future I will compensate you, I will compensate you twice, and I will not let you suffer with me! I know I owe you a honeymoon, and I will keep it in my heart if you don’t mention it. One day I will take you to travel around the world, You have to believe me! I have passed the postgraduate entrance examination, and I think it’s okay. The economics department of Renmin University, my wife, if I pass the entrance examination, I will work hard, study hard, take good care of my family, take good care of you, and never let you be wronged. I know You have an opinion on my family, alas, it’s difficult, people’s origins cannot be chosen, and some people are destined to bear a heavy burden for life when they are born. In the environment where I lived, my parents had no regrets when I was young. The best time is given to the children. Everything they do, including the purpose of living, is for the children. Now they are too old to work and take care of themselves. They don’t have pension insurance like the cities. There is medical security, minimum living allowance, and nothing. If they don’t rely on their children, what do they expect to live? They can only starve to death! Things in my hometown have always been another pressure for me. My mother also treats you according to the inertia of rural thinking I have opinions. I think the so-called laziness, gluttony, love of spending money, and disobedience are just differences in the two lifestyles and life concepts. There is no conflict of principle. I also made mistakes during this process. I shouldn’t have trusted one side, and I shouldn’t have trusted my mother. My wife, you have been wronged so much, and I refused to admit my mistakes to you because of face—a lot of times I was extremely depressed, and tried every means to compromise, Let the two of you balance, the result is not pleasing to both ends; you are also pessimistic, tired, and tired. Sometimes you really want to disappear suddenly and go to a place where there is no smoke. It is quiet to be a monk or a Taoist priest! Finally, there is no pressure, and I am not cautious in front of my wife. , don't make her unhappy, and won't be exhausted..."

Then Chuanzhi brought a basin of hot water to wash He Lin's feet.He Lin has a problem, that is, she doesn't wash her feet well when she takes a bath.Chuanzhi had washed her before, and the rough fingers massaged the toe joints. It felt good, and women were easily moved by these warm and delicate details. He Lin burst into tears, and actually felt an inexplicable sense of guilt. Quarreling with her mother-in-law, fighting cold wars, fighting for territory, fighting for the position of the hostess and the right to speak, was sometimes intentional, and for a while it seemed crazy The same is not the case on a certain issue, but unexpectedly, it pushes the man in front of him into such a desperate and miserable situation. To love someone, you must tolerate his relatives and accept everything about him!

Chuanzhi held his wife's feet and confessed while washing.So the man's tears and deep self-blame, self-criticism and crying worked. He Lin told him about his next plan, "After a while, I may go to my American sister for a while." "I'll go as well!" "I have completed the visa application." "I'll make it up right away!" Then with weak eyes, "I'm afraid you will change your mind and not come back." "I want to stay a month." "I'm asking for leave, as long as I can, and I want to go with you——going far away, I must never let you be too far away from me!"

For a person like Chuanzhi with a legitimate job and real estate, it is not difficult to apply for a family visit visa. The difficulty is to convince his mother.The old lady is in Baoding with the grandson of the Wang family who is still in her belly, a small town one and a half hours away from Beijing by train.The price is cheap there anyway, a small two-bedroom in an average location only pays 600 yuan a quarter, and a distant relative who has a twists and turns rents a house there, just looking for emergency care, and never gets a little bit of light.The old lady is very clear about insiders and outsiders, and knows who can get rich and who can't.I don’t want to go too far, it’s useless if I’m far away from my son, and my son’s future is endangered if I’m too close. Baoding is a good city. On weekends, my son spends an hour and a half in the morning and can go back in the afternoon.

Chuanzhi was worried that his mother, sister-in-law, and unborn child would be wronged, so he gave them a year-end bonus of several thousand yuan, and gave them physical oil, rice, and supermarket discount coupons, which could be exchanged for cash, but not for cash. All mentioned Baoding.The elderly and pregnant women seem to be fleeing, and they are the most caring and most in need of caring. Anyway, there is nothing missing at home. "Son, it's Chinese New Year, when are you coming to see me?!" "Mom, let's not go, you and sister-in-law have a good New Year, you should eat and drink, don't worry about money. I have something to do, busy!"

"What's the matter? I can't pass the year? I don't have half a day? I don't believe it!" "Isn't this job getting busier every year? Treating guests, giving gifts, eating..." The old lady has nothing to say, she is very familiar with this, "Is there someone who gave you a gift?" "I have no right and no job, who will give it to me? I will give it to my leader. There are a lot of superiors. How can I do it if I don't take care of it during the New Year?" The old lady thought for a while, "You can't just give gifts. Where did you spend the New Year? At He Lin's house?"

Neither admitted nor acquiesced. "What's the use of pulling a son? Who's going to leave their own mother to go to the mother-in-law's natal house to celebrate the New Year! It's so close that I don't know how to come and see your mother..." Chuanzhi then talked about accompanying He Lin to the United States for a period of time. The old lady was very happy, and her son was going abroad! "Son, is it far away?" "Far, what about a day's flight." "A day's...airplane...does it cost a lot?" "It takes money, there's no such thing as a free lunch now."

"You flower or her flower?" "She spends it, I don't have any money." "What are you going to do in America?" "Play, play." "Spend so much money to go out to play?! Master, can we save the plane money, save the money for playing, don't go? Go by train!" "Oh, what do you know, I won't tell you. I have to go!" "I live here, and I have to spend money to move around, and I can't earn two people. Your eldest nephew will come out in three months. Confinement, children use, pacifiers and bottles, if there is no milk, you have to buy it." Milk powder, why don’t you need money! Why don’t you feel wronged if you skip a trip to save me and have no arms or nose?”

"Mother, don't think about it, okay? If I don't go to He Lin, the money I save will not be given to me, nor will it be in your hands! Really, let's talk about three months later, there is no shortage of food and clothing right now." ? All right, leave me alone, I have my own arrangements." Putting down the phone, the old lady didn't know whether it was envy, showing off, or in a tone of urgency, she turned her head and yelled at the eldest daughter-in-law who was washing potatoes: "I raised a son to raise a silly bear, and I went to the old man's house to celebrate the new year. How rich and good he is, what do you want?" What, really! Beijing is such a big city that you can’t enjoy it, and you even went abroad to play... I simply forgot his mother in the back corner!” After turning around, he said back, “If I didn’t If you can get away from this and that, I have to go with my son!" Xiuhua lowered her head and said nothing, rubbing the potato skin vigorously with a pair of rough palms soaked in cold water.