Chapter 43 43. Absolute Privacy

Luo Yang began to seriously discuss marriage with Zhao Xiaorou. Originally, Luo Yang didn't expect it to be so fast, but he found that after the two of them confirmed their relationship, Zhao Xiaorou still had to go back to his home every day.This made Luo Yang somewhat lonely, and he asked Zhao Xiaorou directly if he could just move in and live with him.Zhao Xiaorou refused without thinking.Luo Yang asked why very strangely.Zhao Xiaorou said: "No reason! I just want to live together after marriage. Otherwise, I'm nervous." Luo Yang naturally thought of Zhao Xiaorou's past with Zhang Li, not because of jealousy, but because of pity.He guessed that after the tension, Zhao Xiaorou must have suffered a lot psychologically. He not only wanted to heal her pain, but also helped her rebuild her confidence in love.Luo Yang said: "Okay then, let's get married!"

Zhao Xiaorou didn't expect Luo Yang's decision to be so sudden and resolute, which frightened her.Luo Yang looked at Zhao Xiaorou's suspicion, and asked softly but seriously: "What? Don't you want to?" Zhao Xiaorou said vaguely: "No... I didn't... It's just that it was too sudden." Luo Yang said: "Didn't you agree to my marriage proposal? Didn't you..." Zhao Xiaorou hurriedly said: "No. I don't regret it. I just think we still need a process? We... getting married at this time... will it be too sudden?" Luo Yang grabbed Zhao Xiaorou's hand and said, "Not at all. I regret that I said it too late. It has been six years since we graduated. If I had said six years ago, you would have been my wife by now. If I had said eight years ago Just to say, I am a father now. Xiao Rou, we are not boys and girls anymore, and it is not the first day we met. I made this decision because I can be responsible for this decision. You can too. I Know what you think, don't be afraid, our life will be very good. We will definitely have quarrels, frictions, and differences, but you remember, I love you, and this promise will not change Yes. Do you trust me?"

With tears in her eyes, Zhao Xiaorou tried to nod her head. Then Luo Yang began to plan: When will we get married?Zhao Xiaorou thought for a while and said: "You decide! I'll listen to you." Luo Yang pondered for a while and said: "Registration can be done very quickly. You have met my mother, no problem; I will go to your house anytime Recognize relatives?" Zhao Xiaorou hesitated for a moment, and said: "Do you want more? Now we don't need the orders of our parents or the words of matchmakers to get married." Luo Yang smiled and said: "Then you have to tell me! Having raised such a big girl, if she said she would go with someone else, her parents would have to know! Otherwise, someday your parents will go to court and sue me. , said I was kidnapped. Even if I jumped into the Yellow River, I wouldn’t be able to clean myself up!”

Zhao Xiaorou looked up at Luo Yang, with tears in her eyes, and said, "Do you have to see me?" Luo Yang looked at Xiaorou hesitantly, and said, "I'll see you!" Zhao Xiaorou said: "That's good. You have to be mentally prepared to follow me tomorrow morning." Just because of this sentence, Luo Yang didn't fall asleep all night.After tossing and turning, Luo Yang couldn't figure out what happened.It was finally dawn, Luo Yang hurriedly got up to freshen up, and parked the car downstairs of Zhao Xiaorou early.Luo Yang sat in the car and was stunned for more than ten minutes before sending a text message to Zhao Xiaorou, saying that he had arrived.Zhao Xiaorou replied quickly, saying that she would go downstairs immediately.

Luo Yang opened the window on the driver's seat and explained Zhao Xiaorou's building door, within a few minutes, Zhao Xiaorou came out.She was wearing a gray smock and jeans, the weather was already cold, and Zhao Xiaorou still had a black coat on her arm.Zhao Xiaorou saw Luo Yang waving at her, so she went straight to Luo Yang's car, opened the door and got in the car.After taking his seat, he said simply and clearly: "Changping. Let's go!" Luo Yang drove straight onto the Badaling Expressway. Under Zhao Xiaorou's guidance, Luo Yang almost didn't know which exit he came out from.Anyway, this place should be near Yanqing, Luo Yang felt that he would never come to this place in his life, it was a bit remote.

Exit the expressway, take the asphalt road, and then take a section of the dirt road. Apart from the village, a yard suddenly appeared on the side of the road.Zhao Xiaorou said: "Here we are, stand on the side of the road!" Luo Yang parked the car on the side of the road suspiciously, and kept looking left and right when he got out of the car.Zhao Xiaorou said: "Don't worry, there are very few large vehicles here, and they won't be scratched." Luo Yang followed Zhao Xiaorou into the yard.The yard is the structure of a rural yard, and it seems that there are several sets of yards.Each yard is a house on three sides, and there is a corridor in front of the house.In the corridor, old men and women in twos and threes were pushed out in wheelchairs to bask in the sun.Luo Yang realized that this place should be a nursing home.

Zhao Xiaorou took Luo Yang straight to the last courtyard.There is a bad smell in this yard, and there are no old people out to bask in the sun, only two workers are drying diaper-like things on the wire in the yard.One of the elder sisters saw the two of them coming in, smiled at Zhao Xiaorou friendly, and said, "Come?" Zhao Xiaorou also nodded and said, "How is this week?" The eldest lady pouted her mouth in one of the rooms and said, "Go in! I just finished washing his hair." Zhao Xiaorou subconsciously pulled Luo Yang's hand, Luo Yang also subconsciously clenched Zhao Xiaorou's hand, and the two entered the room holding hands one after the other.

As soon as Luo Yang entered the door, he saw a single bed with an old man lying on it.The old man's eyes were closed, his hair was gray and his complexion was fine, as if he was asleep.Zhao Xiaorou walked in, put down her bag skillfully, picked up the towel and hot water bottle next to her, went to the side of the shelf, and said to Luo Yang while ironing the towel, "Sit down. Wait for me." Luo Yang watched Zhao Xiaorou go out to fetch cold water, watched her come in with a basin to wash towels, watched her deftly lift the quilt to wipe the old man's body.After working for a while, Zhao Xiaorou looked at Luo Yang and said, "This is my dad. You saw him. But he can't see you. He has been like this for more than ten years, a vegetable."

Luo Yang took a step back in horror, and said, "Why didn't I hear you mention it? When did it happen? How did it happen?" While rubbing the old man's fingers, Zhao Xiaorou said, "That's it after I finished the college entrance examination." Luo Yang said, "Is it an accident? Or is there some kind of illness?" Zhao Xiaorou said: "Neither! It's my mother! You can see my father, but you can't see my mother. She was sentenced to life, and her sentence was commuted last year, but she still has ten years to come out. You are not a direct relative, no law visitation."

Luo Yang's jaw was about to drop, he grabbed Zhao Xiaorou's arm and said, "Xiaorou, what's going on?" Zhao Xiaorou said calmly: "As soon as I finished the college entrance examination, my father filed for divorce from my mother. My mother is the kind of woman who has a strong desire to control and possess. The center of her life is only my father. They have been married for more than 20 years. I Dad has been restrained for more than 20 years. In his words, he has never had an orgasm. He thinks my mother's love for him is suffocating and he cannot bear it, but because of me, he has been holding back and not attack.

My dad is a nice guy, romantic, and life loving, but he just can't stand jealousy and control.But my mother doesn't understand these things. She only knows that my father is handsome, outgoing and outgoing, so it's easy to attract women.My dad is a middle school teacher, teaching high school Chinese.I was originally the head teacher, but my mother suspected that some female students were throwing arms at my father, so she went to the school to find the principal, and tried every means to prevent my father from leading the class; later my father was the person in charge of the school's Chinese teaching and research group, because Suspected that a female teacher was having an affair with my dad, so she went to make trouble again... During the year of my college entrance examination, the two of them almost didn't talk to each other.I also knew that the two of us couldn't eat or sleep together at that time, but I naively thought that if I worked hard to get into a good university, maybe they would relax. Later, I got the admission notice and it was my first choice.My parents are very happy.My dad gave me a sum of money at the time, saying that I could go on a trip, either to the beach or mountain climbing.Excitedly, I went with some classmates, and when I came back, I found that my father had become like this, and my mother was taken away by the police. I could only live in my aunt's house in those days.My aunt said that my father sent me away on purpose, and he asked my mother for a divorce.Of course my mother refused. She cried, made a fuss, hit a lot of things, and threatened to go to school to expose my father.But my dad was determined to leave, saying that he never wanted to live that kind of life again. My aunt said that my mother believed that my father was so heartless because he had someone outside.She also stalked my dad for two days, but she didn't say anything about the result of the stalking.I just knew that she called my dad later and said that she agreed to the divorce and asked my dad to come home and sign the agreement.My father came back, and my mother made a table of meals, saying that she wanted to have one last meal.My dad ate and drank, and that was it. " Luo Yang didn't know what to say, so he could only ask, "Your mother is at dinner..." Zhao Xiaorou said: "I put Valium in the wine. As soon as my dad fell asleep, she gave my dad an injection. She is a doctor. She knows how to save people and how to kill people." Luo Yang said: "Then she..." Zhao Xiaorou looked at her father who was motionless, and said: "She thought she could kill my dad and then commit suicide. But she didn't. When the dose was given, she still relented, so my dad became like this. She turned herself in Yes. She said she thought my dad would not survive, and she wanted to die with my dad. If she committed suicide, my dad would still not forgive her over there; if she was shot, maybe my dad would still accept it. she." Luo Yang put his arms around Zhao Xiaorou's shoulders and said, "Why have you never said this?" Zhao Xiaorou said with dull eyes: "Who can I tell? Jian Ning and Lan Yun are my best friends, and I have never mentioned them. I think this is a shame in my life. I have such a mother, Paranoid and manic, using his love as a weapon, he will die with the person he loves at every turn. After college, I was full of hatred for my family.I don't believe in love, you can't say that my mother doesn't love my father, but what else can this kind of love do except torture others?Is love like this? After I worked, I found this nursing home for my dad.I have only visited her for 5 years since my mother went in.I want to ask her, does she regret it?She said she didn't.The only thing she hopes is that she can be sentenced to death, because when my dad no longer loves her, she feels worse than death. " Luo Yang said softly: "Perhaps, your mother has mental problems. Maybe she is a paranoid personality. She is an example, and does not represent everyone and all love." Zhao Xiaorou looked at Luo Yang with tears in her eyes and said: "I didn't understand this truth until ten years later. I spent ten years driving away the anger, hatred and suspicion in my heart, but on the day I drove away, I met The person who arrived was Zhang Li..." Luo Yang held Zhao Xiaorou tightly in his arms and said, "Everything is over. Now I have me."