Chapter 17 Seventeen, only in bed

Since having close contact with Zhang Li, Zhao Xiaorou feels that the relationship between herself and Zhang Zhang has undergone a qualitative change.In the past when the two were alone, Zhao Xiaorou was more like an audience, listening to Zhang Li talking endlessly.Now Zhao Xiaorou has found a sense of equality, and she suddenly feels that this man is no longer tall and unreachable.He's real, he's sentient, he's not just floating around.And now Zhao Xiaorou has something to say.From strange to familiar between men and women, if only relying on language communication, this time may be unlimited.Maybe a month, maybe a year, maybe longer.But if there is physical contact first, the barrier between language and thought can be disintegrated in an instant.The two of them will no longer try to cover up and try each other, but they dare to say a lot, especially for women, once they let go of their bodies, what else can they not let go of?

Zhao Xiaorou enjoyed this feeling very much.She suddenly understood Wang Jiazhi in "Lust, Caution".A girl with ignorant beliefs gave her life in a muddleheaded way, but why did she fall in love with a traitor hopelessly?Zhao Xiaorou watched "Lust, Caution" twice, the first time was the abridged version.Zhao Xiaorou didn't understand, and felt that all the causes and effects of the love between the two of them were nonsensical. If one had to find a reason, it would be because the traitor was Tony Leung.Zhao Xiaorou believes that no intellectual woman in China can refuse Tony Leung.The second time she watched the full version, she saw the cause and effect of the two people's bed, and Zhao Xiaorou also experienced the torment of the heart with Wang Jiazhi.From coercion to equality to conquest, Wang Jiazhi and Mr. Yi are in harmony, and Zhao Xiaorou also believes that "sex" is justified.However, this is another paradox.Even if it's animal mating, it's still up to you.It is not possible to have the urge to go to bed when you see any opposite sex, but you still need to have emotional communication first.Zhao Xiaorou is not conservative, but she has never met anyone she can devote herself to.The arrival of tension made her completely open herself up.

But this is just Zhao Xiaorou's own idea.For Zhang Li, going to bed is going to bed, it's just the love between two people, it doesn't mean anything, it's just that there is another woman in this world with whom he once had a relationship.His relationship with Zhao Xiaorou is still the same as before, and even the contact is not as close as before, because the book has already been published, the signing has been done, and the publicity has been completed, so there is no need for him to see this female editor frequently.Of course, if a woman insists on posting up, I have no reason not to accept it.Zhao Xiaorou is still very beautiful, and she feels very good. It's nice to meet you when you're bored.

The two people's ideas are thousands of miles apart, but they haven't communicated about this matter.Zhao Xiaorou also wishfully believed that she was already Zhang Li's girlfriend.She likes to be playful, but she is not unrestrained.There is no woman who doesn't care about the ownership of her body. Zhao Xiaorou believes that Zhang Li is her boyfriend and the one who is going to get married.After returning from Zhang Li's villa, Zhao Xiaorou was silent all day, waiting for Zhang Li to call to greet her.But there is no tension.It sank for another day, still nothing.On the third day, Zhao Xiaorou couldn't stand still anymore.In the past three days, she turned down all social activities, played ball, went shopping and went to nightclubs, all for free, for fear of missing Zhang Li's phone call in the noisy environment.Apart from going to work and going home, Zhao Xiaorou suddenly became a house girl.On the third day, the house girl couldn't help calling Zhang Li, Zhang Li on the phone was as usual, and she still talked to Zhao Xiaorou as usual.

Zhang Li said, "Xiaorou? Hello. Is there something wrong?" Zhao Xiaorou got stuck, didn't know what to say for a while, and stammered, "Tonight, do you have time tonight? I want to have dinner with you." Zhang Li smiled and said, "Okay, wait a minute, let me take a look... well, it's fine tonight, what do you want to eat?" Zhao Xiaorou feels that the tension really hasn't changed, but he should have it, how could it not?His relationship with her is different.Zhao Xiaorou said: "Anything is good to eat, mainly because I want to meet you."

Zhao Xiaorou heard the tense smile on the other end of the phone, and barely made a sound, but Zhao Xiaorou still felt it.She sensitively felt that there was pride in it, but she refused to believe it.She comforted herself, if Zhang Li just wanted to trick her into going to bed, there would be no need to spend so much talking, there must be many young and beautiful girls rushing to stick on him. The meal that the two of them ate that night seemed to be in harmony with each other.Zhao Xiaorou returned to silence again, mainly thinking about something in her mind.But when Zhang Li expressed his invitation to go to his house at night, Zhao Xiaorou got into the car without hesitation.She was not sure if this was the only way to tighten the tension on this man and clarify the relationship she wanted.Zhang Li can keep quiet. After all, Zhang Li has become a national celebrity since "Tianxia Forum". Walking into him at this time will make people say that his purpose is not pure.But Zhang Li must understand her thoughts, she doesn't want anything but his people.

This evening the scene reappeared.The only difference is that Zhao Xiaorou remained sober amidst the passion.After Zhang Li finished his workload and lay on her body a little tiredly, Zhao Xiaorou lost no time in asking his own question: "Li Zhang, am I your girlfriend now?" Zhang Li closed his eyes and hadn't finished enjoying the passion just now. Hearing this question, a smile appeared on his face. There was a little contempt in this smile, which was noticed by Zhao Xiaorou in the dark.Zhang Li said: "Xiao Rou, we are all adults, can we be more natural?" Zhao Xiaorou doesn't understand, it's all like this, how can it be "natural"?

Zhao Xiaorou said: "I just want to find out, what is the relationship between us?" Zhang Li replied with certainty: "Of course they are friends!" Zhao Xiaorou turned over and sat up, naturally put the quilt under her armpits, and asked seriously: "What friend?" Zhang Li opened his eyes and looked at her: "Xiao Rou, what do you want to say?" Zhao Xiaorou said: "I want to ask. Zhang Li, are you my boyfriend?" Zhang Li couldn't help laughing, and said: "Xiao Rou, why do you think so? Do you have to be someone's girlfriend? We are very happy like this. You can find me when you are lonely, and you can find me when I am lonely. You and Those women who hate to marry are different, you stand on your own, you are independent, why are you attached to a man? Just because we made love?"

Zhao Xiaorou couldn't answer Zhang Li's question. Facing this man, she completely lost her previous aggressiveness. She couldn't even control her emotions and wanted to cry.She murmured, "What are we doing like this?" Zhang Li put his hands on Zhao Xiaorou's shoulders, enjoying her smooth and tender skin, and told her very lyrically: "Zhang Xiaoxian wrote an article called "Friends You Can Hug". Isn't it good that we are like this?" Zhao Xiaorou broke the boat and said: "Then what if I get married in the future?" Zhang Li's hand wandered more presumptuously on Zhao Xiaorou: "That's your freedom. If you don't want to see me one day, I definitely have no objection; but if you want to keep with me forever, I will be very happy! Xiaorou, I I am willing to be your friend for the rest of my life, even if you are gray-haired and full of children and grandchildren, so will I."

If this sentence was said before the two of them went to bed, Zhao Xiaorou must have been deeply moved again.It's a pity that this sentence means that after going to bed, the time and place are wrong, Zhao Xiaorou really wants to cry but has no tears.What made her even more angry was that Zhang Li added another sentence: "Xiao Rou, some girls want to use sex as a threat, thinking that once they go to bed, others will be responsible for her. I believe you will not do this, or, I'm going to underestimate you." Zhao Xiaorou thought to herself, in order not to make you look down on me, I'd better go.She said nothing more, put on her clothes and got out of bed quickly.Zhang Li looked at her, took her arm, and asked, "It's so late, do you want to go back?"

Zhao Xiaorou had already regained her senses. She quietly wiped away the tears that were pouring out, and said normally: "There is still a meeting tomorrow morning, so it's better for me to leave early." Zhang Li didn't intend to get out of bed, and said: "Then you go to the gate, you can ask the security guard to call a car for you. They have a call phone." Zhao Xiaorou said, "Thank you. I can figure it out myself." Autumn night, the sky is already very cold.In order to meet Zhang Li today, Zhao Xiaorou specially wore a light silk skirt.Walking in the cold night now, the layer of silk seems to be nothing, and I feel almost naked.Zhao Xiaorou felt that she was as frivolous as this dress, throwing herself into her arms for no reason, and begging for status like a resentful woman after the work was done.The more she thought about it, the more wronged she felt, and she felt that she really wanted to go to bed as a threat, just like what Zhang Li said.When did you become like this? She walked out the door alone.The villa area is full of flowers, but when you go out, it is deserted.She didn't notice the security guard who called the car at all, and she didn't want to.She stepped on 5cm high heels and walked in the direction of the highway with one deep foot and one shallow foot.She felt that this was the punishment she deserved.She even thought that if some bad guy popped up suddenly and did something to her now, she deserved it, who made it so big that she couldn't see people clearly! Ten minutes, twenty minutes, an hour, Zhao Xiaorou was completely lost in the darkness.She basically couldn't recognize the direction, and she didn't want to call for help. Occasionally, she felt the roar and wind speed of the passing cars around her, and she even said to herself contemptuously: "Why are you still alive?" After an unknown amount of time, Zhao Xiaorou's cell phone rang suddenly.She thought it was tension, but she denied herself for a moment, and scolded herself for not being smart enough to stop having fantasies about this person, as she was just his sexual partner.Zhao Xiaorou looked at the phone, and it was a text message: "How have you been these two days? Why hasn't there been any movement?" Luo Yang sent it. Zhao Xiaorou called Luo Yang: "Send text messages so late?" Luo Yang's background sound was very quiet, and he was at home as soon as he heard it. He said, "I suddenly thought of you, and I was a little worried. I called you to ask. What are you doing?" Zhao Xiaorou cried uncontrollably: "Luo Yang, I don't know where I am, I'm lost." Luo Yang was also flustered on the phone, and asked clearly that Zhao Xiaorou came from Daxing, asked about the buildings around her, intersections, villages, and even some signboards...Zhao Xiaorou heard Luo Yang panicked and made a series of voices over there , he was getting dressed, changed shoes, locked the door, and asked Zhao Xiaorou's location while walking in the empty corridor... When Luo Yang found Zhao Xiaorou, it was dawn.Zhao Xiaorou sat disheveled on the curb, her heel was already sprained, and the stockings on her legs were scratched by something.Seeing Luo Yang's car, seeing Luo Yang running out of the car and pulling the door, watching him hug her into the car, Zhao Xiaorou's expression was in a daze.When the car drove onto the Beijing Expressway and headed straight for Yuquan Camp, Zhao Xiaorou suddenly hugged Luo Yang's shoulder and burst into tears.At a loss, Luo Yang parked the car in the emergency parking belt, put his arms around Zhao Xiaorou's shoulders, looked at her, listened to her, and made her cry.