Chapter 15 second quarter

A week later, the tattooed pup was completely integrated with me. Every time I see my arms, it makes me happy.I often pose in front of the mirror.This puppy Pochi is more than just a tattoo to me, it makes me feel a real existence.I can't put it into words, but I often have the wonderful feeling that I have a real puppy on my arm. But I haven't told my father Fan Nan and my mother Mei Sae about the tattoos, nor have I told my brother. Maybe I don't feel obliged to tell them, and I think my father will be angry if he finds out. One morning, I was woken up by dogs barking.Early in the morning, I don't know where the wild dogs are!I rubbed my eyes and looked at the alarm clock. There were only three minutes left before the alarm rang, and it would be too late for another sleep, but I still fell asleep in a daze.

"There seems to be a dog barking this morning." Today's breakfast is rice and miso soup. In order to add something to the table, I brought up the topic of dogs. "Sure enough, someone has a dog in this apartment." Mesa replied.I thought it was a wild dog somewhere, but what she said was that the barking of the dog seemed to be nearby. She seemed to be in poor health that day, and her voice was often hoarse, and it didn't sound like her voice anymore.Maybe she has been worrying about her husband's serious illness. "I get stuck in my throat when I eat, is it a cold?"

"Shall I get you some lozenges?" My younger brother Kaoru suggested. "Mesa-e, go to the hospital," the father said, "Although it's just a cold, there are cases of death. You have to be careful. If you die at this age, you will leave the children in the world." , so how come?" Mei Sae had a complicated expression, and she only answered "Oh...". On the way to school, I noticed that the dog looked a little strange on the tram. I've been sitting on the train seat like this lately, staring at Pochi on my left arm.This is often the first week or two after I get something I like.After this period of time, you will feel that the existence of the things you like is a matter of course.Although the attachment will gradually increase instead, but I still like this time very much, and I feel happy even watching them, so I always want to watch them as much as possible.

But Pochi seemed a little strange that morning. Blue, sitting alone facing me, head tilted as if asking something, white flower in mouth.I just glanced at it, and felt that it was a little different from when the Chinese sister pierced it. In the crowded train, I put my face close to my left arm and yelled loudly. I guess the people around me looked at me as a strange high school girl with strange eyes. By the way, was the puppy's head tilted to the right or left before?Now its head is tilted to the left, but I always feel that the direction is opposite to before, maybe I remember it wrong.

I decided not to think about it any more, and got off the tram after a while. On my way to school at the station, I passed a middle-aged woman walking her dog.The dog she led was small, tawny, with black eyes. It turned out to be a Yorkshire terrier.I got excited when the terrier came up to me, sniffing my scent. Is there something about me that attracts this dog?In short, I was already mentally prepared to touch it, but at this time another dog barked from elsewhere.It was like barking specifically at the beagle. I looked around, but I didn't see a dog. The beagle seemed frightened and ran away from me in a hurry.The owner of the dog also seemed to be surprised by the barking of the dog just now, and looked around there.

It's a pity I can't pet the terrier now. I looked at my watch, and then hurried to the school.At this time the sun is already very strong, it is estimated that today is another hot day, I feel very uncomfortable.I looked at the dog on the tattoo and stopped immediately. Can the dog on the tattoo also bark?If Pochi had barked just now, it would have become like this. The blue puppy still sat there with its head tilted.The only difference is that the white flower it held in its mouth now falls to its feet. How can there be such a thing?Certainly not my misreading!I calmed down and accepted the fact.

I have always felt an indescribable sense of reality from tattoos before, as if someone said that tattooed dogs were living on my skin, I would also think it was possible.This is within my acceptable range, and I can accept this more than a relative who will leave me in half a year. But Yamada didn't think so.I told her about the tattooed dog moving, but she didn't believe it. "Suzuki, would you like me to make an appointment for you to go to the hospital?" She looked at me, worried that I might have a cerebral hemorrhage or something, and suggested to me like this. During the short break between classes, Yamada and I climbed onto the roof of the school.There is a slight breeze, blowing the solar heat reflected from the reinforced concrete.

"Yamada, I didn't bring my insurance card with me today." I rolled up my sleeves and let her look at my arms.It would surprise her to see a subtle change in the dog's pattern, so she wouldn't suspect that I was sick. Sure enough, Yamada looked at my arm and was speechless in surprise. "How is it? Did you see that the white flower in its mouth really fell under its feet?" "No, it's not just this..." She looked at me blankly and tilted her head. "It's gone, there's nothing there." All of a sudden I couldn't understand what she meant.

I looked at my arm myself, the tattoo was still there, but only the white flower was left. But the most important dog went somewhere, leaving only this flower.The part of the skin where Pochi was tattooed returned to its beautiful appearance before the tattoo was done. The dog went missing and it made me panic. But we found Pochi right away.It was lying three centimeters above my navel and sleeping, with its eyes closed and a happy expression on its face. I lifted my shirt up to expose my navel, so Yamada put his ear there. "Tattoo Puppy is snoring." With an expression of disbelief, she muttered like this.

Pochi changed places several times after that, and when I came home from school, it was back on my left arm, sitting there obediently.It seems to know that there is its fixed position. I stared at Pochi desperately that day, and finally I discovered the fact that there is absolutely no scene in which he can be seen moving.In the blink of an eye away from my eyes, Pochi changed places and changed poses.I had always imagined it moving around like in the cartoons, so this discovery was a surprise to me.In this sense, Pochi is less like a cartoon and more like a comic book. Just now it was a pattern of sleeping, but the next moment it turned into a pattern of stretching.The pattern in the middle is definitely not there, and it will always behave like a pattern when someone looks at it.God seems to have given Pochi freedom to move freely when no one is watching.So in the blink of an eye, the dog on the pattern flipped over.

Unbelievably, Pochi seems to know me too. Not only that, but his understanding of the vast world beyond the skin seems to be the same as that of ordinary dogs. I thought about the incident with the little terrier this morning. The dog barking I heard at that time must have been made by Pochi.Facing the beagle approaching, it accidentally barked.As a result, the white flower in his mouth fell off. And what about the dog barking I hear before waking up in the morning?Pochi on my arm must have done this too. I stood on the platform of the station and waited for the train, staring at Pochi stuck to my skin.There were also high school students on their way home and several office workers standing on the platform.The sky had already been dyed red, and at this moment, an inaudible broadcast sounded, and then a decelerated tram drove into the station. Pochi had just been lying there sleeping, but just a few seconds after I took my eyes off it, it started licking its own fur. I walked into a car and sat down on the seat next to me.I lightly touched the head of Pochi, who was trimming his hair, with the pad of my index finger. When I was blocked by my fingers and couldn't see the dog pattern, Pochi narrowed his eyes happily. I suddenly had a strange thought, would I marry the dog on the tattoo? When I got home, I found my mother's son Kaoru eating a bowl of instant noodles unhappily, and I suddenly felt back to reality. "Where's Misa-e? Are you not at home?" "She left a note saying she went to the hospital." Kaoru pointed to the note on the table with her chin, which was written with a pen. "Looks like it's about cancer." Kaoru heard my murmur and turned around.It seemed that he didn't know that his mother's husband had cancer. He and I are siblings, but this history has some scary elements.The first time I saw him seemed to be when I was a year and a half before I knew what this guy was who just came to our house.If I could go back to that time, I would definitely put him in the cardboard box that Misa was holding in my arms and throw it away, but it's too late now. Kaoru took away my father's love and mother's love that should belong to me.I once used violence against him in retaliation, but it backfired, and I was beaten by my father Fan Nan.Now that I think about it, my father started to hate me probably because of that. Kaoru has grown up now, with a clear mind and a strict attitude towards life, which is very different from my sister.Parents' expectations were placed on him, and in fact he lived up to expectations. This year, he was admitted to a high school where only bright students can enter. I went to a high school a few grades below his, and I walked into that school amidst the sighs of my parents.From that moment on my fight with him seemed to be over. After returning home from school after being tired for a long time, I have to face my younger brother, so I don't want to do it, so I want to go back to my room as soon as possible. "I lent money to someone, but I haven't returned it. You should know, can you help me rush that girl named You? Don't you know her?" "Got it, I'll tell you." "Don't you know her?" The tone of his voice made me very angry. At this moment Xun coughed, seeing how badly he was coughing, it must be that a lot of instant noodle soup ran into the trachea, I guessed like this, and I felt happy. "Could it be that Meisha's cold caught me?" After the cough stopped, he said while clutching his chest in pain. "Oh, oh, it's really tiring to go to the hospital." Misa sat on the chair and said that, as if she was exhausted.I found that her voice was a little different from usual. Could it be that the cold has worsened? Mei Shahui and the two of them seemed to have eaten out, so they bought a cake and came back. While Misa-e was taking a shower, my father, Shigeo, called Kaoru and me into the living room.Kaoru seemed to feel that the matter was extraordinary, and I vaguely knew what my father would say next.I am afraid that my father has already heard from his wife that he has stomach cancer. My father sat us down with a serious expression on his face, and again I realized that I was giving him a headache, which I remembered doing him so often.Even though I thought I was doing a good job, Dad seemed to pick on me. "I went to the hospital today." Father began to speak. "I originally asked your mother to go to the hospital by herself to check for a cold. But in the evening, the doctor called my company and said that there was something important to talk about, and asked me to go." I'm baffled that it's not what I thought it would be.The sound of mother taking a bath in the bathroom was faintly heard. "The doctor said that your mother has a tumor in her throat, that is, pharyngeal cancer, and she can only live for another six months." I am speechless. "Does mom know about this?" Kaoru asked. "I don't know yet. When I went to the hospital to meet her, the doctor lied for me and explained to her that the cold was more serious, so he let me go." Father took out a cigarette from his breast pocket and was about to smoke one, but he crushed the cigarette in half, and said to himself: "Do you want to quit smoking from today?" I retorted in a low voice in my heart: I just thought of quitting smoking for my health now? It seems that the mother hasn't told her husband about the stomach cancer yet. It is too accidental that two people in the family are seriously ill at once, and it is said that the death rate of cancer is very high.I think the chances of both parents suffering from cancer at the same time are so small that it can only be imagined within the scope of astronomy. Could it be the blue tattooed dog that brings these misfortunes?But no matter how you think about it, it seems too impossible. When Misa came out of the living room with wet hair after taking a shower, Kaoru deliberately switched the TV channel to a very relaxing comprehensive program.He coughed violently like before, but still pretended not to know anything. Kaoru also went to the hospital the next day because he had a persistent cough.The diagnosis came out and it turned out to be lung cancer.The remaining life is as short as the parents.