Chapter 18 Section 9

"It's a decent house!" Koda looked around the room, "It's a dormitory for seasonal workers, but I thought it was a simple room." "It's the dormitory of a first-class company, how can it be like that." Zhigui said with a smile.Make room for three people to sit. The three sat side by side against the wall.But no one sat cross-legged, Atsushi and Ken put their hands on their knees, and Koda sat upright for some reason. "Hey! Would you like something to drink? If there is Coke and the like." "No, you're welcome!" Koda said.

"Really..." Zhigui sat down facing the three of them.Seeing their eyes was somehow frightening. There was an awkward few seconds of silence.Naoki didn't even say "What's the matter?" "Well, today, Nezu contacted us and found me." Koda said. Zhigui raised his head, "Say what?" Koda looked at the other two.Atsushi and Kenichi remained silent, as if entrusting Koda to speak. "Nezu said that since the last time, he has done various investigations on our affairs. The evaluation of the workplace, what are the rumors near the residence, and experiences..." Yoo paused, and he continued, " Family situation, etc., because I am afraid of any troubles and entanglements after my official debut."

"And then?" Zhigui pretended to be calm and asked, but his heart was already panicked.Part of what Koda said echoed in his heart, family situation, entanglements. Koda licked his lips and said: "Nezu also investigated Naoki's situation. He also found out about Naoki's brother." How did you investigate?Naoki thought of it at first.But it's useless to think about it. "It's not good..." Koda said this. Zhigui raised his head, but immediately lowered his eyes again.As if nothing happened, he hummed.He couldn't hold it anymore. "Even if you are officially on stage, even if you become popular, there must be a group of people who want to investigate the matter of the members one after another. It is said that it is because of mutual dismantling in that circle. If there are such people among relatives, it will just provide them with an excuse. In that case The image of the band will decline, the performance will become difficult, and the company will not be able to do anything, so..."

"Does it mean that if the current situation is like this, we will not be allowed to officially go on stage?" "what……" Zhigui sighed.Seeing the exhaled breath turn white in the air, I remembered that I forgot to turn on the electric heater, but I didn't even have the strength to turn the switch. "If I don't participate, can the band be on stage?" Zhigui asked with his head down. "Mr. Nezu said: It's enough to have Yusuke for the vocal music. It's a pity not to let Naoki participate." It seems that Nezu's mind is to get rid of Naoki.

"Really? So the three of you got together to convince me!" Naoki shifted his gaze from Koda to Atsushi and Kenichi.The two bowed their heads. "Naoki, forgive us!" Koda put his hands on the ground, lowered his head and said, "We all want to perform on stage! That's why we've worked so hard until today. I don't want to let this opportunity go." The other two also adjusted their sitting postures, imitating him and lowering their heads.Seeing them like this, Zhigui felt even more desolate. "Where's Terao? Why isn't he here?" "Yusuke doesn't know anything about this matter. Only we know." Koda still lowered his head and said.

"Why didn't you tell Terao?" So Atsushi and Kenichi looked at Koda worriedly.It looked like they were also worrying about Terao. "Mr. Nezu contacted me instead of Yusuke. It is said that he was afraid that he would not simply agree. I was worried that Yusuke would lose his temper and say things that he would not do even if he didn't appear on the stage." That was predictable, Naoki nodded. "But it doesn't work if you don't tell Terao, because I'm going to quit, I have to explain to him, what are you going to do?" When Naoki asked, Koda fell silent.His teeth clenched his lips.It seems that it's not that I don't know how to answer, but that I am worried about how to answer, Zhigui feels this way.

"Is that so... If I say quit and find a proper reason to quit the band, then Terao won't find it strange." "Sorry! That's what I thought." Kodaichi said, the other two lowered their heads even lower. "Mr. Nezu also said that this is the best." Everything seemed to be done according to the man's instructions.Zhigui felt a sense of exhaustion all over his body.Is this what adults do?Adults are such incredible creatures, sometimes saying that there can be no difference, and sometimes subtly recommending the difference.How can this self-contradiction be understood?Will I gradually become such a person?Straight expensive think.

"However, what if Terao asks him to stay? He won't agree right away." "We know that too, so we're ready to help." To Koda's words, I really wanted to say: "Did you know to help at this time?" But Naoki held back. "Okay! I understand," he looked at the three, "I quit." Koda raised his head, and then Atsushi and Kenichi also raised their heads, all three of them looked sad. "The next time I practice, I'll tell Terao to think about the reason for quitting before then." "I'm sorry!" Koda said softly.

"I'm so sorry!" the other two muttered. "Forget it, when I think about it, I'm not a member of the band. I think that's fine, and I don't know any musical instruments." The three of them also understood that what he said was just him comforting himself, they just listened sadly and didn't say anything. After the three left, Zhigui didn't stand up for a long time, but sat cross-legged, staring at a point on the wall. The result is still like this! It felt like I was finally freed from a nightmare, and my confidence in living as an ordinary young man in the future was strengthened. All the doors that were closed after I met music opened again, I felt like this.

Those are all illusions, and the situation has not changed in the slightest.The cold wall that separates the world from himself still exists in front of his eyes.Trying to get over it just makes the wall taller and thicker. Zhigui lay down on the tatami, his body became a big character, looking up at the roof.The stained roof mocks: Look at you, it's about the same place. At some point, he hummed a song in a low voice.It's a sad song, and it's about struggling in the dark without seeing the light of hope. Naoki shuts his mouth, realizing that he will never have anything like singing in front of people again.

He closed his eyes, tears streaming from them.