Chapter 17 Section 6

We set foot on the return journey in the pattering rain.While I was steering the steering wheel, I was thinking about her confession just now, and the sentence that touched my heart the most was 'we are so similar'.I felt the same way at that time, and this similarity is not only reflected in the personality, way of thinking about problems and values, but also some things that support the two of us flowing deep in our hearts can find commonalities, and at that time I stopped myself from looking into it.So, in fact, at that time I did realize the essence of the matter.I recalled that when I met Sayaka, I was not a very happy young man, just staring at a photo album full of annoying photos.

My father is a doctor, but he doesn't run a very large hospital, but the kind of ordinary and conservative quack doctor you can meet on every street.There are only two nurses in this hospital, and one of them is my mother. When I was in the first grade of junior high school, they told me that I was actually not their biological son. It is said that a child was born after a relative’s divorce. They asked if they could adopt it, and they agreed without saying a word. Since then, I have become a child. adoptive son. Despite my gratitude to the parents who raised me, I was shocked and traumatized.At that time, I was at the age of rebellion against my parents, and this news was like adding insult to injury.

"You are still our child, this will not change, don't think about anything, just be the same as before," my adoptive father said to me, and I nodded silently.I don't know how else I can react. Maybe, as the adoptive father said, it should be the same as before.But I couldn't do that, and the idea that they weren't my real parents lingered in my head.It is impossible for my parents not to notice my changes. From then on, the life of my family was immediately disrupted. At that time, a woman appeared in front of me and called me suddenly on my way from school.At that moment I knew immediately that she was my real mother, so when she offered to talk to me, I followed without thinking.

She didn't reveal her identity, but just asked about my parents and the situation at home. I basically couldn't answer completely, but just lowered my head. A few days later, the woman came to my house, and even though I was asked to stay in my room, I heard their conversation through the wall. She made a request to have her biological child back, but my parents flatly refused.I couldn't understand the specific reason, but the general meaning is that she and her second husband also divorced, and now they are living alone, so they want to take the child back to live. "I beg you, please return my child to me. I can repay you in any way you have given me in nurturing you," my 'natural mother' cried.

"How can we agree to the fact that you have said such things until now? The child is ours, and I will not give it to you." The adoptive father's tone was very strong. "Didn't I tell you to never appear in front of that child before? You came to our house talking to yourself, you really don't know what to do" From the words of my adoptive father, I realized that it was no accident that I met my biological mother immediately after I found out that I was an adopted son.They told me the facts in order to prepare me psychologically for the appearance of my biological mother.

They talked for a long time, and before long, some subtle changes in their opinions began to appear.To put it bluntly, they all spoke the truth. "Do you want me to live alone for decades? Who should I rely on to support me when I grow old?" "Didn't I say, you should find another good partner. The two of us can only rely on that child, and he is the only one who will inherit the family. It is precisely because of this that we have worked so hard to raise him Don't you think you are too selfish to fight for it at this time?" In short, the "biological mother" is for the security of her own future retirement, while the adoptive parents are for someone to inherit the family business.

Of course not only because of this, they must love me in their own way.But for me at thirteen, the fact that they see themselves as a guarantee for old age cannot be ignored. In the end, the result of their discussion ended with the conclusion of "Let him decide another day".My biological mother didn't seem very happy with this, maybe because she realized that this decision method was not good for her. After that day, there was a small change in the attitude of my adoptive parents towards me.My adoptive mother has treated me better than before, and my adoptive father has begun to follow my personal wishes in terms of future career planning. If I don’t like it, I can choose not to be a doctor. No matter what career I choose, they will fully support me. That’s roughly what it means.I still don’t forget to repeatedly emphasize all the hard work they put in raising me.

And my biological mother would wait for me on the way home from school every day, and take me to a nearby park to chat, saying that it was chatting, but she was the only one talking.She told me that it was out of necessity to give up my custody right at that time, and now she still has deep remorse and tears from time to time. A week later, my mother came to my house again.This time I sat around the table with them, and my adoptive father said to me: "Who you want to live with is up to you. You don't have to worry about it" The three of them stared at the corners of my mouth. In fact, I already had the answer in my heart at this time.In fact, what I think is not what I want to do, but the conclusion I draw after considering how to do it to be the most satisfactory.

"I still want to live the same way as before" I replied.My adoptive parents beamed with joy, while my biological mother hung her head dejectedly. My mother went back, and she was allowed to visit me often in the future.And my adoptive parents told me not to take it to heart at all, and praised my choice was absolutely right.They also unscrupulously spoke ill of my biological mother, and even cursed her that she would be very unhappy in the future. That night I suffered from insomnia, hiding in bed and crying, not knowing why I was sad, but was attacked by an inexplicable sense of loneliness.Maybe this incident declared that I am the only one left in this world.

After that, I almost never saw my biological mother again.When I was a freshman in high school, I heard from my adoptive mother that she seemed to be married again. My adoptive parents and I also live the same life as before, and it seems to be no different from an ordinary family.But I can't deny that I'm just playing the role of son, and I can't tell them that. It's really not a big deal, everyone is alone in the world - I comfort myself every day.And at that time, I met Sayaka. The rain started to pour again, waking me from the memory, and I turned the wipers faster. "Aren't you sleepy?" I asked Sayaka beside me.

"Well, it's okay, I just fell asleep for a while." "Oh yes" "What were you thinking just now?" "It's nothing, it's not a very important thing." I turned on the radio, and a Japanese singing voice came out.I didn't know the name of the band or the name of the song, but Sayaka seemed to be familiar, and tapped the beat with her fingers. We were so much alike—what she had just said echoed in my head again, indeed.The moment I met her, I had a strong sense of companionship.She must be alone. After meeting Sayaka, my nostalgia for my family faded little by little.Really want to move out of here as soon as possible - I've been planning to do so. "You're so weird these days," my adoptive mother said to me one morning, seemingly hesitating for a long time to say this. "yes?" "You don't call me mom anymore, don't you want to call me?" "It's not - I'm leaving" I walked out of the house as if fleeing. Indeed, I don't want to continue to call my adoptive parents "Dad, Mom" ​​anymore.I don't know the reason, maybe I'm tired of the "player's home" game. Player's game? I slammed on the brakes, the tires slid on the muddy ground, and the car leaned a little.Sha Yejia screamed softly beside him. "What's the matter?" She looked at me with a blue face, her eyes wide open. "We may have made a big mistake" I said. "mistake?" "As far as Yusuke's 'father' is concerned, let's go back to that house first." I stepped on the gas pedal and started the car again. After returning to the house, he was the first to go to the bedroom and grabbed Yusuke's diary.Read it from beginning to end again, especially where 'that bastard' appears. "Hey, what happened? What did we do wrong?" "Maybe it's inappropriate to say that it's a mistake. It should be cheated by Yusuke. But the diary is not for others to read, so maybe this expression is not accurate enough." I closed the diary and put my hand on her shoulder. "Come on, let's go to the second floor" Went into the parents' room, spread out the letters again and read them again. "It's true, it's exactly what I thought it was" "what?" "In these letters, there is no mention that Yusuke is Keiichiro's son. Sure enough, these two people are not father and son, so the blood type conflict just now can be explained." "Then whose son is Yusuke?" "The eldest son's son," I replied, "is the person Keiichiro called the eldest son in these letters, and he is Yusuke's father." "How come...but" Sha Yejia kept pulling his bangs together, "the eldest son is called 'that bastard' in the diary, right?" "Yes" "Then shouldn't you be two people with your father?" "You think so because there's another 'Father' in the diary?" "yes" "The 'father' mentioned in this diary is indeed Keiichiro, but Keiichiro is not the real father. He is actually a grandfather, that is, a grandfather. Similarly, the 'mother' mentioned here should be grandma." Sayaka's eyes blinked, "Why do you think so?" "Didn't we always feel that the age gap between Yusuke and his parents was too big? And in this letter," I picked up a piece of letter paper, "it is not difficult to feel the excitement of Keiichiro when Yusuke was born, After hearing that it was a boy, he said inwardly that he was quick. Judging from this reaction, if he is not the father of the child, he should be the grandfather. The age gap between Yusuke and the eldest son is too large, so you can figure it out. Since you are not a brother It’s father and son, so it’s only natural that there’s a big age gap.” "But why do you call grandpa your father?" "It's likely that Yusuke was raised by his grandparents when he was a baby, so he gradually formed this habit. The letter said that his wife passed away two years after the eldest son got married. Of course, Yusuke gave birth to a boy during this period. But it is impossible for a man to take care of a child, so the eldest son must be entrusted to his parents to raise him." "Even so, making a child call grandpa daddy..." Shaya writhed unhappily. "Perhaps it was this that led to the tragedy of this family." "...how do you say that?" "Well, although all this is just my imagination," I entered the topic, "from these letters, Mr. Keiichiro is a very strict person. It can also be clearly reflected from the education of his eldest son. character. Because of this, the eldest son was very upset and anxious after his setback in becoming a judge” "It also wrote that he's 'good for nothing'" "However, in the end, he gave up because one hex can only hold one cup of wine, and asked his son to give up the judicial examination and choose the profession of a teacher. Judging from the content of the letter, this move seems to be completely correct. The matter of marriage The same is true, if the marriage partner is the daughter of a distant relative, then the eldest son should not have found it himself, but his parents found it for him." "The eldest son is exactly like Mr. Yuchu's robot" "You're right," I pointed at Sayaka, "that's exactly what I want to say. Although it's just my feeling when I read the letter, the eldest son is likely to obey Keichiro's words. Then, if Yusuke Yusuke is the eldest son's son This point, then this relationship is even more obvious. How will Keiichiro treat this grandson?" "After reading the letter, the feeling is that Mr. Yuchu has transferred his expectations of the eldest son to Yusuke. You see, even the name is given by the old man himself." "This is one of the strong evidences of the relationship between the eldest son and Keiichiro, so there is nothing unnatural. Keiichiro's wife is also a person who does not complain and listens to her husband everywhere. Regarding Yusuke's education policy, Keiichiro Ichiro is also planning to take full control of it. No, maybe it can be called a single-handed overlord. Besides, the eldest son’s wife passed away again.” "Mr. Yuchu will definitely want to take the child over." "Although I don't know if the eldest son will object, it has nothing to do with the overall situation. The matter must be settled like this. In this way, Keiichiro will take on the role of Yusuke's father. It should not be Keiichiro himself who asked him to call him father. , but he has no intention of correcting this title, he might be flattered to be called that.” Sayaka frowned. "I always feel a little abnormal..." "For Mr. Keiichiro, the existence of the eldest son is a big stain in his life that he wants to forget, so he must try to discard the fact that Yusuke is his grandson. The letter mentioned that the eldest son had to quit the school after getting involved in gambling. work, and Keiichiro is most worried about the impact on Yusuke. This is strong evidence that he has drawn a line between his eldest son and Yusuke." "Well, it is indeed, and then—" Sayaka opened Yusuke's diary, "The question about the Christmas gift was also solved, and the gift was given by Yusuke's own father. Here it says 'This year I sent it again Gift', if it was from Dad, it would not be surprising. The following content can also be understood, 'Dad complains about why he always sends some toys, and it would be better to send some books, and he got angry on the phone'” "When I first read this text, I thought it was a gift from Yusuke's grandparents, but I didn't expect it to be the opposite." I smiled wryly, "Leaving this aside, there must be a place in the diary that clearly shows Keiichiro's respect for the eldest son." Attitude, show me" I took the diary and flipped through it page by page, until I found Keiichiro's account one month after his death. "Look here," I pointed to her, "here it says 'my father despises that person, and told me, you must never be like that in the future'" "Mr. Yuchu completely wants to alienate Yusuke and the eldest son." "Because he failed in the cultivation of the eldest son, he does not want to repeat the same mistakes with Yusuke. The education policy is very strict, which can be clearly understood through Yusuke's diary. But Yusuke is extremely obedient to this strictness, and has always respected 'father' Love. Probably for Keiichiro, Yusuke is a proud work.” "It's just like a commodity." Sa Yeka said with a gloomy face. "It is to manufacture a robot named 'Education'. After the manufacturing project went smoothly for a while, an accident suddenly occurred." "Is it because Yu Chu has a brain tumor?" "Totally correct." I nodded, "It is conceivable that he regrets having to give up Yusuke's education. Maybe he is more regretful than his own death. But at this time, the one who is more uncomfortable should be Yusuke who was left in this world. ?” "Because the instructor is gone?" "If only this was the case. The scariest thing is that the 'bastard' who has always been despised has returned to this family, and he is still a father." "Ah..." Sayaka probably had this picture in his mind, and his eyes became gloomy. "Let's change our position and think about it first," I said, "from the standpoint of the eldest son. After the death of my father who suppressed me for a long time, I can finally return to this family to live, and my own son is also there, it must be The mood is arrogant. He must hope to have a good relationship with his son." "Ah, so that's it." Sayaka looked at the diary again, "It was still written like this after the paragraph just now' When I was in the room, that bastard walked in without knocking on the door, and made me very familiar Looks like you're talking to me'" "Because I finally waited for my son to come back, this action is justified. But what is Yusuke's reaction to this?" Sayaka continued to read the diary, "'I said to him, please don't get in the way of my studies. Then the bastard walked out of the room, and I'm going to use this trick to bomb him later'" "There are many other scenes where Yusuke hates 'that bastard'. It's no wonder that he has been indoctrinated with this idea since he was a child. But as his biological father, his son's attitude towards himself is indeed a shame. And he must You can vaguely see the shadow of Keiichiro in Yusuke." "Has the eldest son always hated Mr. Yuchu?" "It must be hateful," I asserted, "so as long as Yusuke is unwilling to open his heart, to the eldest son, Yusuke is just an object of hatred." "Then……" "Yeah" I said with a nod, "and the abuse started"