Chapter 93 Chapter 92

A few days later, Yinzhen remained silent.When Shisan came to see me, I asked him: "What does the emperor want?" Shisan sighed, "I don't know either. After all, this is to let him give away his own woman. How can the emperor bear it?" Said Wan Fu sighed and left. Imperial Physician He will come to check the pulse every day according to the routine.After finishing his consultation today, he said with a smile: "It's much better. After taking two more pills, the medicine can be stopped." After speaking, he wanted to get up and leave.I signaled Qiaohui to go out, and said to Dr. He, "What is my condition now?" Mrs. He said, "It's almost done. Then it's the daily maintenance."

I said: "I'm not asking about this illness, I just want to know how much time I have left?" Imperial Physician He was silent for a while, and I said again: "Please tell me the truth! Patients have the right to know their illness, and so do doctors. It is the duty of the patient to tell the truth." Imperial Physician He sighed softly and said, "After getting along for more than a year, I also know that my aunt is not an ordinary person in the world, I am afraid that life and death have already been taken lightly. But I still remember what I said when I checked the pulse for the first time. If you follow the instructions, you can be safe. No worries for ten years." I nodded slightly, and Imperial Physician He continued: "More than a year has passed, and there should be more than eight years left. But today I can only say that if everything is fine, there will only be three or four years left. It's been a year." After finishing speaking, he lowered his head.

I smiled and said, "Physician He doesn't have to be like this. I'm really not a good patient. Does the Emperor know about this?" Imperial Physician He said: "The Emperor has never asked about this matter, and I... I didn't dare to say it either." I smiled and said: "Thank you for your careful treatment this year, Imperial Physician, if it wasn't for the Imperial Physician, I'm afraid..." Imperial Physician He got up and saluted: "As a doctor, I only hate my poor medical skills, not enough to cure my aunt's illness. "I shook my head, Imperial Physician He saluted again, then turned and retreated.

Mei Xiang and Ju Yun looked at me strangely, Qiaohui pouted and muttered: "What are they doing?" I drank the medicine in my hand and said, "Don't you ask what's going on?" Qiaohui He handed me the teacup and rinsed his mouth, "What is there to ask? If it weren't for Miss, I wouldn't be able to stay in this palace for a day. Miss and master love freedom, so it's better to go out of the palace. That night When I found Miss, I was almost scared to death by her. Her face was pale, her eyes were straight, and she kept calling 'sister', walking around but just circling on the ground. Later, Imperial Physician He came to see Miss and just sighed "Whether the disease can be cured is in her own heart. If she doesn't want to be cured, even if Hua Tuo is reborn again and again, there is nothing she can do." I cried and cried, but the lady just slept. Later, thanks to the thirteenth master, the lady just came It gets better every day." Qiaohui said, her voice was crying, she pointed to the blue sky outside the window and said: "Miss doesn't want to see these things through the palace walls of the Forbidden City anymore."

I put my arms around Qiaohui and said: "I have wronged you these days! I have lived a life of fear with me. I am afraid that I have never suffered so much since I was a child." Qiaohui shook her head and said, "Miss's life like this is almost gone. Twenty years later, when Qiao Hui came in, I really understood the hardships Miss has suffered all these years. As long as Miss feels good, I will be happy no matter what." I nodded. Before the words fell, Yinzhen walked in quickly from outside the curtain. Just as Qiaohui was about to say hello, Yinzhen's face was calm, but he shouted: "Get out!" Me, I nodded slightly to her, motioning her to go out quickly.

Yinzhen stared at me, his temples throbbed, and after a long while he paused and said: "I finally understand why you can't let go of Lao Ba so much! I understand why you made him guard against me; understand why he knelt in front of the Taimiao as punishment, you just Accompany me in the Buddhist hall; I understand that as soon as I hurt him, you will come and hurt me." I stared at Yinzhen's dark and cold eyes, and finally let him know, "Did the ninth master say that?" Yinzhen said: "How I wish it was the old nine who did it this time, isn't it! It was the old eight who told me personally Yes. He told me word by word. He taught you how to ride a horse, he gave you jasmine flowers, and the bracelet you wore on your wrist since you entered the palace was also given by him. Over the moon, he hugged you, kissed you, and you have sworn oaths, 'Death and life are bound together, and you will talk to Zicheng. Hold your hand, and grow old together with you.'..."

I shouted: "Don't say it, don't say it!" Yinzhen leaned down, stared at me and said, "Don't say it? When Lao Ba told me these things in detail, I was roaring in my heart over and over again. This is the sentence, but I can only continue to listen as if nothing happened, how do I feel? How do I feel?" He raised my head, "Look at me! Ruoxi, you have kept it from me so hard! Why did you let him do this to me? Let Lao Ba stab me in the heart, and I can only smile Sitting quietly, he stabbed me again and again. Why did you not tell me back then, but also deliberately acquiesced to my misunderstanding of you and the fourteenth? Why? It turns out that you are the eighth from the beginning to the end! 'I will live up to my love'?"

He put my hand on his heart and said, "Do you know how painful it is? You let Lao Ba hurt me so much, how can you bear it?" I burst into tears, and my heart shattered into powder little by little. I wanted to hug him, but he pushed me away, walked a few steps away and said, "You are not allowed to touch me! From today on, I will never want to see you again! They will never let me Sorry!" After saying that, he staggered away step by step. I jumped off the couch and ran a few barefoot steps. Just as my hands touched his sleeves, I stopped hesitantly. His sleeves slipped through my fingers. I held on to the door frame and watched him go away step by step, my body convulsed. Like a skeleton, limp on the ground.Since I have decided to leave, this may be the best ending. From then on, he will no longer miss me, there will be no me in my heart, and there will be no pain if there is no love!

He kept muttering in his mouth: "From love comes sorrow, from love comes fear; without love there is no sorrow, where is there fear? That's why don't love, love parting is suffering. If there is no love and hate, He is unfettered." Over and over again, only in this way can I stop myself from catching up, so that I will not be wiped out immediately under the huge pain. "That's why don't love, love and parting are suffering. If there is no love and hatred, there is no bondage..." "Miss, everything is packed. Do you want to check it again?" I shook my head slightly. The things I really want to take away are all in the small bag beside me, and the others are just belongings. It doesn't matter if you have it or not. .Qiaohui said: "Then I'll tell the eunuchs to load everything into the car." I nodded.The two eunuchs came in to carry things, and found that there was only a small box, they were all taken aback, and the older one asked with a smile: "Do you want to take away all these things in Fujin?" Qiaohui said: "That's all. !" The two of them picked up their things and went outside, and said to the eunuch waiting outside: "Let's go away! That's all these things."

Cheng Huan pointed to the things around him and said, "Have you given all of these to me?" I smiled and said, "If you want it, you can keep it. If you don't want it, you can deal with it however conveniently." Thirteen came in, looked around the room silently, and then turned his eyes back to me.I got up and said, "You can go!" Thirteen nodded slightly, and walked out. The eunuchs around were lighting lanterns, I led Cheng Huan, Qiao Hui held the package, and walked silently behind Shisan.Walking to the carriage, Cheng Huan was about to jump into the carriage in a few quick steps, Shisan stopped her and said, "Ama and Auntie still have something to say, you and Qiaohui take a carriage first, and I'll let you come over later." She twisted her body and glanced at me, guessing that I would not help her, so she nodded and quickly ran to another carriage.

I turned around and stared at the Forbidden City, which was still in the dark. For nineteen years, my life in ancient times had been occupied by it.I thought I should be happy on the day I left, but now I know that there is no trace of happiness.Looking at the Hall of Mental Cultivation, his heart clenched tightly, waves of pain, he turned his head sharply and got on the carriage. Thirteen ordered: "Let's go!" The wheels rolled, and I was getting farther and farther away from him.After holding back for a long time, I finally couldn't hold back, lifted the curtain and looked out, praying in my heart, let me see you again, just one time.There are only cold red palace walls, glazed tiles, white marble columns, and the silent night. The Forbidden City gradually disappeared into the night, I was still leaning outside, Thirteen lightly grabbed me and said, "It's windy outside, it's not good if it blows for a long time." I took another deep look at the Forbidden City that I couldn't see clearly. , slowly retracted his body, Shisan looked at me silently for a while, and sighed: "You can't forget Brother Huang!" I looked back at him and didn't speak. After the thirteenth meeting, Zi Shen said: "I thought you could stay together forever. Instead of forgetting each other like me and Luwu." I said: "There are too many bloody lives between us. If we don't leave, Maybe there will be more and more, I can’t face it.” Shisan took a jug of wine and two small cups sideways, and shook them at me. I asked, "Why don't you be more prepared? Aren't you the most impatient with the small cups?" Shisan smiled and said, "The age Don’t forgive anyone! It’s better to drink slowly now. You should control your drinking in the future, one or two cups of blood, your body will not be able to bear it if there is too much.” I nodded, took the wine glass and touched Shisan lightly, and then I drank it all with a tilt of my neck.Thirteen laughed and scolded: "I just finished talking, so I drank like this again!" I played with the wine cup without saying a word, I really wanted to get drunk, but I could only hold back. Thirteen drank the wine in the glass little by little, and I said, "You take care of yourself." Thirteen gave a light 'hmm'.It has been twenty years since we met for the first time in Baylor's house, and now we are about to part. Scenes flashed through my mind quickly. Thousands of words came to my mouth, but I had nothing to say. In the end, I just said slowly. He continued: "Being forced out of Shi Ye's mansion by you is the most fortunate thing in my life." Thirteen looked at me tenderly and said, "It's also the most proud thing in my life." The carriage stopped suddenly, and the guard shouted: "Master Thirteen!" Thirteen raised the curtain in surprise, leaned out, and asked, "Why..." His voice was choked, and he just stared outside.I raised the curtain in puzzlement and froze for a moment.The eighth elder brother in a bamboo green robe led a horse and stood on the side of the road, looking at me quietly.The twilight of the morning sun cast a layer of golden light on the fluttering clothes. Until Shisan jumped out of the carriage, please An said: "Why is the starling here?" Our side reacted.Yunyu Shuibo said unhappily: "I'll see Ruoxi off." Thirteen said indifferently: "Don't dare to trouble Myna! We are still in a hurry, please come back, Myna!" I jumped out of the car and smiled at Shisan, then walked straight to Brother Ba.Thirteen sighed softly behind him and told everyone to avoid it. The two looked at each other silently for a while, and I bowed to him and said, "Thank you!" A smile suddenly appeared on his expressionless face, "I have my own selfishness." I said, "If it wasn't for To fulfill my desire to leave, you would never do that." He said: "Zunhua Hot Spring is very good, it is good for your leg problems, and the scenery is also very beautiful. Fourteenth brother will definitely treat you very well, I just hope you treat yourself well. Since you have decided to leave, you should cut off everything." Everything in the past is like dying yesterday, and everything in the future is like being born today.'” I was silent for a moment, then nodded slightly, "Do you have anything to say to the Fourteenth Master?" The eighth elder brother said with a faint smile: "This life is over, there is nothing to say." I said: "Take care of yourself " He narrowed his eyes slightly and looked towards the place where the sun was rising, "You probably already understand my thoughts, and since you understand, you can understand, so there is no need to be sad." He stared at me, reached out and patted my head lightly and said, "Go!" I stared straight at him without moving, knowing in my heart that this was the last time we will see each other in this life.When that man in a moon-white robe with a face like a crown of jade walked in from outside the house, I never thought about our future story.Qianchen's past was rolling in his heart, he held back his tears and bowed to him, turned around and walked a few steps, then suddenly turned around and ran to him, hugging him, tears finally rolled down. He froze for a moment, then slowly put his arms around me, hugged me silently, patted me on the back and said, "Forget about the Forbidden City, forget us all!" Wipe my tears for me, and said with a smile: "Being a bride has to look like a bride, why are you crying? Hurry up, brother Thirteen can't help it anymore, he is now a 'smiling tiger', really irritated He's troublesome." I nodded, the two stared at each other silently, Thirteen shouted from behind: "Ruoxi!" I smiled at the eighth elder brother, he gave me a slight nod, I turned around and ran back, hurriedly jumped into the carriage, shouted: "Let's go!" Sitting quietly for a long while with curled up body and head in the arms, suddenly the body trembled, and he hurriedly raised the curtains, leaned out and looked back, one person and one horse stood by the empty roadside, the figures were already blurred, only the great sadness and loneliness Even after being so far away, it still hurts my heart. He sent me off, and he also sent off his former self.With indifferent and tired eyes, he closed the door to the world that was once buzzing because of him, and will still be buzzing without him in the future.No matter how the world commented, he didn't care at all. Finally disappeared, I still stared blankly for a while before slowly retracting my body.Thirteen's face was very ugly, and he gave me a look and said, "Why are you like a clay figurine, you have no energy at all? I have been wary of Brother Nine, but I never expected him to run to the place by himself. Go in front of Brother Huang, and carefully tell Brother Huang about the good times you and him have had together, but never mention anything about your separation from him. No matter how much he hates Brother Huang, he should still miss you a little bit." I was silent for a while and said: "What he did was just to force the emperor to let go so that I could leave the palace. Hurting the emperor is a side effect, and he didn't do it deliberately for the purpose of hurting the emperor." Thirteen was slightly taken aback, and sighed softly : "It seems that I still read mynah correctly." The carriage stopped slowly, and the guard outside said in a low voice: "Master, it's time to go back." Thirteen didn't move, I forced a smile and said, "I will send you off for thousands of miles, and there will be a farewell!" Thirteen wryly smiled and shook his head: "I used to laugh at others Daughter, now I know the pain of saying goodbye." Saying that, he jumped out of the carriage, and stretched out his hand to help me out of the carriage. Cheng Huan had already been waiting by the car, when she saw me getting out of the car, she rushed over and hugged me tightly.Shisan ordered: "Cheng Huan, give Auntie three kowtows." Cheng Huan quickly knelt down and bowed to me.I squatted down, embraced her, hugged her tightly for a while, and said: "Remember what my aunt told you in the past." Cheng Huan nodded.He whispered in her ear again: "Don't forget to kowtow to that aunt on December 22 every year, but no one can let anyone know except Uncle Huang." Cheng Huan's eyes were full of tears, she just bit her lip and nodded. I let her go and smiled at Shisan, "Go back!" Shisan just nodded, but she didn't move for a while.My heart was sour, I stretched out my arms and hugged Shisan vigorously: "Farewell, each of you should cherish it." Shisan hugged me vigorously and said: "Next year the grass will be green, so we will see it differently." The ends of the world are like neighbors." Thirteen sighed, "Let's go!" I nodded to him with a smile, hugged Cheng Huan again, turned around and got on the carriage, just as the curtain of the carriage came down, tears were streaming down my face.Qiaohui didn't say a word, just handed over the handkerchief.The carriage started slowly, only to hear Cheng Huan crying: "Auntie, come back and see Cheng Huan!" No matter how hard I could restrain it, I buried my head in Qiaohui's arms and wept wantonly.