Chapter 92 Chapter 91

Leaning blankly against the carriage, I heard my own voice seem to float from far, far away, empty and lifeless, "We are all right, so who is wrong?" Thirteen remained silent for a long time: "Heaven and earth are not benevolent, and treat everything as a straw dog." The carriage stopped slowly, and Gao Wuyong helped me get out of the carriage.Shisan and I entered the warm pavilion one after the other.Yinzhen was eating alone, when the eunuchs who were serving next to us saw us coming in, they hurriedly bowed and exited quietly.Thirteen greeted Yinzhen, and Yinzhen said lightly: "You are running around here and there, I'm afraid you don't have time to eat, so let's eat some together!" Thirteen replied lightly, "Cha!" Still standing still, frowning and staring at me.

I walked to the table and sat down, Gao Wuyong set the table and chopsticks, I picked up the chopsticks and looked at the table full of food but I had no appetite at all, hesitated for a while, put down the chopsticks and said: "I can't eat." Yinzhen ignored me, Only to Shisan said: "I have sent someone to pass the decree: I will go to Dunjun Wang Yun to send me back to the capital, and I will be imprisoned forever." Thirteen shook his chopsticks and looked at me.I sat still, my mind was racing, my knowledge of history was wrong?Or is history wrong?I always thought that the eighth elder brother, the ninth elder brother and the tenth elder brother all fell into trouble in the fourth year of Yongzheng, but isn't it the second year of Yongzheng?In the chaos, I couldn't think of anything about the tenth elder brother, and his figure was faintly hidden behind the eighth elder brother and the fourteenth elder brother.

I bowed my head and smiled wryly, and told Gao Wuyong, "Go get a jug of wine." Gao Wuyong glanced at Yinzhen, bowed his head and quickly exited. I poured two glasses of wine with a smile, and said to Shisan: "I don't know if you would like to drink with me again in the future, can you have another drink with me today?" Shisan looked surprised, I put the wine in front of him and said: Do you remember the first time you drank alcohol? We also became attached to alcohol." After speaking, he finished.Shisan nodded with a smile on his lips and said, "Remember! I have never seen a woman who can drink so well, who can make me 70% drunk." After finishing speaking, I also drank the wine in the glass, and I said: "Today's fate It seems that it will also be destroyed by wine."

After finishing speaking, I ignored him, and stared at Yinzhen who had been watching us quietly, "You always thought it was Bafujin who killed our child, but it wasn't. It was me." I smiled and thought for a while, Shaking his head, he said, "Where do we start? How long ago did this happen? Kangxi forty-eight years? One day, Lord Babeile and I, who was my brother-in-law back then, talked a few words and told him to beware of the Fourth Prince. There are also Longkodo, Nian Gengyao and others." Thirteen turned pale and scolded: "Ruoxi, begging is for begging, not trying to get things done by yourself. This will not help. How could you know this in forty-eight years?" I bit my lip and looked at the expressionless, sitting still Xu Yinzhen said: "It's true. Brother Nine and Brother Fourteen both know about it. Send someone to ask and you'll know."

I turned to Thirteenth and said, "I'm sorry! The person who caused you to be imprisoned for ten years turned out to be your frank confidant. If it weren't for my warning to Eighth Master, Eighth Master would not plan to deal with Fourth Master, and would not be implicated. It's your turn." I wiped away the tears that I was holding back as I spoke, and then I stood quietly for a while with my head bowed, and said to Yinzhen, "I caused the suffering and suffering of the Thirteenth Lord, and I did it myself. I deserved my own body, and I also killed my child. You have hated the wrong person for so many years..."

"Shut up!" Yinzhen shouted angrily, his fist resting on the table was throbbing with veins, he stared at me and said, "Get out! I don't want to see you again!" Thirteen shouted: "Brother Huang!" Yinzhen Sweeping the bowls and chopsticks in front of him to the ground, he shouted in a muffled voice, "Get out!" I saluted him slightly, turned around and walked out quickly.Standing outside the house, with his hands on his chest, his heart ached so hard that he couldn't move, as if a sharp knife had pierced his chest, and he spread his hands to check, but there was no blood.I was puzzled for a while, and smiled, it turned out that my heart was taken away, no wonder I felt that something was taken away from my chest.

In the dark night, I stood there blankly, where should I go?Where is my home?Everyone has a home, what about my home?Dad, mom, sister, sister!While murmuring in my mouth, I wandered around looking for it. I searched and searched, but there was nothing but darkness, and my heart was frightened and impatient. Sister, where are you? "Miss!" Qiaohui rushed forward, hugged me gently and said softly, "Let's go back." I looked at her for a long time, and suddenly said, "Why are you different from before? Where's sister? I'm going to find her." Qiao Hui said: "Master is waiting for you in the house! Go back with me obediently, and we will see you again." She said and helped me to go back.I was overjoyed, as if I suddenly saw a light in the dark night.

I looked at Mei Xiang who was holding a lantern in front of me and said, "Where is Dongyun? Why did you change the girl?" Qiaohui said, "Dongyun is married, this is a newcomer." I just followed Qiaohui into the door, bright When the candlelight shines, like lightning flashes, I suddenly understand that I have nothing left, no sister, no Yutan, no children, no friends, no Yinzhen, I have nothing!The fire in his heart was extinguished in an instant, and all the strength in his body was also gone, his body went limp, and he fainted in Qiaohui's arms. Body light as a feather, floating in a dark river, no pain, no joy, no sorrow.I was about to go with the waves, but there was always a voice calling me stubbornly, calling 'Ruoxi' over and over again, saying 'we are still friends' over and over again.In the haze, I feel that I can't just leave like this, I want to confirm.

"Ruoxi!" I opened my mouth weakly, but there was no sound.Shisan held my hand tightly and said, "Why are you so stupid? You know each other once, and you will be friends forever! None of this is your fault, and I don't have the slightest bit of resentment towards you. " My tears rolled down the corners of my eyes, and Thirteen kept wiping my tears with a silk cloth, "Promise me, you won't give up, you won't give up! Ruoxi! I can't bear too much loss." My lips parted, Not a single sound came out, and it was already a cold sweat.Thirteen hurriedly said: "Don't worry, we'll talk about it later. You've had a fever for several days, and your throat may slow down for a few days."

I stretched out my hand tremblingly and gestured twice. Thirteen hurriedly stretched out my palm and gently supported my hand. I wrote on his palm with my index finger: "I'm so happy!" Thirteen nodded and said, "I've always been very happy to be able to Make friends with acquaintances." I twitched the corners of my mouth, but I couldn't stop laughing, and continued to write: "Fourteen, I am willing." With a few words, I have exhausted my strength. Shisan was stunned for a moment, then leaned into his ear and asked in a low voice: "Tell Fourteenth Brother, would you like to?" I nodded slightly.Thirteen quietly stared at me for a long time, then suddenly seemed to make up his mind, and asked in a low voice: "If I do it, will you promise me that you will never give up on yourself?" I nodded again, and made a bird flying motion with my hand.

Thirteen nodded with tears in his eyes, "I will tell the fourteenth brother as soon as possible." I thanked him with my eyes, and he said, "You rest!" My eyes swept around the room, only the one standing quietly by the curtain Qiaohui.I slowly closed my eyes and fell into a half-asleep and half-awake state. Dizzy day and night, sometimes wake up the room is bright, sometimes wake up in darkness.Always persevering, trying to see the people around him clearly, sometimes Qiaohui, sometimes Meixiang, sometimes Juyun, nothing else.After a moment of clarity, I fell asleep again, and it was still the same when I woke up. I don't know how many days and nights passed, and finally I was able to speak. The first sentence I said was to tell Ju Yun to open the window. Ju Yun persuaded: "My aunt is not well, I'm afraid I can't help the wind blowing." Looking at the window, Qiaohui hurriedly opened it, looking out of the window at the blue sky and long white clouds, that is my home, and the Forbidden City where no one else is there is not my home. Qiaohui and Juyun bowed to pay their respects and said, "Master Thirteen is auspicious!" Shisan rushed in from outside the bead curtain, waved Qiaohui and Juyun to retreat, and said anxiously: "Fourteenth brother actually has the emperor in his hand!" Ma's decree! Now the civil and military officials of the Manchu Dynasty already know that Huang Ama has left a decree to marry the fourteenth brother and you. As long as the fourteenth brother is willing, he can announce the imperial decree to marry you at any time. I am afraid that the emperor will come soon, so you hurry up and think about it. how to deal with it.” No wonder Fourteen dared to say that he could take me out of the palace. I was stunned for a moment and asked, "When did the Emperor Shengzu give the Fourteenth His will?" Thirteen said, "November in the 60th year of Kangxi." I suddenly thought What I said at the Huanyi Bureau in the 14th year, "Huang Ama said that I had made great achievements, and asked me what reward I wanted, so I proposed to Huang Ama again. Asking him to grant marriage is a reward for me. Begging him to read you for many years For the sake of serving, I forgive you, even if there are mistakes, the hardships I have endured for so many years are enough. ', smiled slightly and said: "This is a reward from the Emperor Shengzu to the Fourteenth Master for his military exploits in the Northwest." Thirteen anxiously said: "Why aren't you afraid at all? Do you know that when Brother Huang received the imperial decree in the court hall, his face lost all color in an instant, but he still listened to the officials discussing the matter with a smile on the corner of his mouth." Before he finished speaking, I pointed out to him, and Thirteen hurriedly turned around to say hello.Yinzhen outside the bead curtain stood still, separated by emerald green glazed beads, his face was blurred, only his cold eyes fixed on me.After a long while, he slowly stretched out his hand to push aside the bead curtain, hatred and resentment flashed across his eyes, I couldn't believe it, my heart was in severe pain, I didn't dare to look at him again, I looked out of the window, and said in my heart over and over again, "It's easy to be in love, it's hard to stay together, It's better to go back, it's better to go back. " After hearing only a few 'clicks', there was a clear and pleasant sound of beads hitting the ground, varying in severity, noisy and torrential rain, and whispers.Noisy and chaotic, one after another, one after another, a bunch of them fell.After a long while, there was silence, only a field of emerald pearls remained. Yinzhen stood beside the broken bead curtain, still holding some pieces of bead curtain in his hand.The cheerful sound just now more and more set off the deathly depression at this moment.Yinzhen threw the bead curtain in his hand to the ground, and there were a few more clear sounds, accompanied by beads rolling all over the floor. He suddenly burst out laughing, leaning on the door frame and laughing back and forth, stopped after a while, and still asked with a smile: "What have you been doing all these years? Since you want to marry the old fourteen, why did you resist the order back then? I don’t have to suffer so much for myself.” Thirteen, who bowed his head and stood quietly by the side, exclaimed in a low voice: "Resist the decree?" Yinzhen pointed at me with a smile, and said to Shisan, "I never told you that she was punished by Huang Ama to the clothes bureau because I refuse to marry the old Fourteen." Thirteen stared at me, with mixed admiration and pity in his eyes. I lowered my eyes and leaned on the couch without moving, Yinzhen walked a few steps, sat beside me and held up my face and said: "Since I can order the eighth to retire from Fujin, I can also make the fourteenth marry It's up to you." I smiled lightly and said: "The crime of not obeying the edict is not ordinary, and it immediately increases the pretext in the eyes of others. If you can ignore this edict, then other edicts can also be ignored. ..." Thirteen stopped and said, "Ruoxi!" I quickly swallowed the words on the tip of my tongue, but the smile on Yinzhen's lips has disappeared. I sighed softly and said: "Since ancient times, the emperor has been most afraid that his will will not be respected. If you openly disobey the imperial edict of the ancestor emperor, then there will be an example for future generations to follow. Where should the ancestor's family law be? There are many people talking about civil and military affairs in the Manchu dynasty." Yinzhen stared at me and sighed with a smile: "Are you using your intelligence and eloquence to hurt me?" The two gazes were like sharp swords, piercing my heart, and the pain was unbearable. We are hurting each other. When I was in the Huanyi Bureau, although separated by many palace walls, my heart was full of love and distress for you. Now, although I face each other day by day, I am gradually afraid of you, even when I think of... think of you ...I will hate you. You also hate me a lot now. I don't want to end up hating each other one day. I can't imagine how I will face it when that day comes, so I want to leave. Yinzhen, let me out Palace!" Yinzhen was silent for a while and said: "If you want, we can still go back to the past." I shook my head and said, "No one can go back to the past. Yutan is dead, the child is gone, and Thirteenth Lord has been imprisoned for ten years. Fifty-one years later, the days of being cautious and compromised are all between us. It is impossible for us to pretend that nothing happened, and I will never be able to turn a blind eye to Ba Ye and the others. I put it aside No more!" After sitting quietly, Yinzhen got up and went out. He walked straight through the broken bead curtain, and there was another "ding dong" sound, which lasted until he disappeared outside the curtain. Shisan and I looked at each other for a while, and I said, "Go and accompany him!" Shisan sighed lightly, slumped on the chair and said, "Brother Huang definitely doesn't want to see me now. I can help you and Shisan this time." The fourth brother passed on the news to anyone other than me. Although the emperor didn't pursue it, he must be angry with me." I said, "I'm sorry!" Thirteen smiled wryly and said, "If I knew that Fourteenth Brother had a marriage decree in his hand, I'm afraid I wouldn't agree to you so readily." I said, "I didn't expect that either. I thought that he might have the intention of allowing me to leave the palace, but now I think it is my wishful thinking." Thirteen suddenly sat up straight, and said joyfully, "You don't want to marry Fourteenth Brother? As long as you don't want to, there is still room for change in this matter." I was silent for a moment and said, "I don't want to marry him, but if I can Let me go out of the palace, I am willing to choose this method. Besides, this is just a nominal matter." Shisan sighed, fell back into the chair, and muttered to himself: "This is all a mess!"