Chapter 36 Chapter Thirty-Five

These days I have been asking myself 'why' non-stop.Why can't I live and die with him?It is now the forty-eighth year of Kangxi. If bad luck cannot be avoided, he will die in the fourth year of Yongzheng. If we decide to be with him, we can be together for another 16 years.Isn't true love life and death?Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, Romeo and Juliet, why didn't I shed tears for these touching loves back then, but when things came to an end, I hesitated here.Do I love him or not?Is it love but not enough?Or did I just want to try my best to save him because of the accumulated emotion and sympathy for him over the years, but I never thought about living and dying together?Or both?I can't read my heart, I can't tell my feelings.

In Beijing in October, there is a layer of autumn rain and a layer of coolness. I love Beijing this month. The Forbidden City is shrouded in misty rain. The coldness and rigidity add a bit of tenderness and charm. Even though I know that after the drizzle, everything remains the same. Now Just a faux pas.But this rare tenderness and charm made me often linger in it with a green bamboo umbrella. The weather is like life, misfortune and good fortune are unpredictable, just now it was drizzle and misty, and now it will rain heavily, the small bamboo umbrella is no longer enough to cover the sky and wind and rain, and the bottom of the lake green skirt has been partially splashed.I hurriedly ran to the nearest porch to shelter from the rain under my umbrella.In the misty rain, I saw other people sheltering from the rain on the porch.But when I found out who it was, I hadn't gone in yet, and I had already started to regret it. If I knew they were there, I would rather be drenched in the rain than come here.But now I can't let me go back.

Ignoring the need to close the umbrella, I put it on the ground and bowed down to say hello: "Blessings of the Eighth Fortune! Good luck for the Tenth Fortune!" The Tenth Fortune turned his face away and ignored me. The Eighth Fortune smiled and said, "Get up!" I stood up , I couldn't distinguish the feeling in my heart, I just wanted to retreat quickly, and then bowed and said: "If Fujin doesn't order, this servant will leave first!" Ba Fujin didn't speak, just stared at me.She didn't speak, and I didn't dare to move. The hairy body was being watched by her, and the sound of running "dongdong" came from the side of the corridor, and a clear and clear child's voice called: "Er Niang!" I turned my head and saw a boy about five years old Regardless of the little eunuch chasing behind, he ran all the way and threw himself into Ba Fujin's arms.The eyebrows are seven to eight points similar to the eighth elder brother, this should be Hongwang!My heart tightened, I didn't want to look any further, I lowered my head.

Eight Fujin put his arms around him halfway, and said with a smile: "Next time, you can't run like this. If you fall, you, Ama, should feel sorry for you again! Last time, because I was playing for fun, I took advantage of the girls not paying attention, so I took the candlestick away. It was knocked over, and a few drops of candle oil were splashed on the back of your hand. It was not a serious problem at first, but you, Ama, punished all the servants in the house. The most severe punishment was that they couldn’t get off the ground for three months.” I squatted down and listened to her words quietly. I didn't expect such a scene to happen so soon!No matter how much he had imagined in advance, he still felt wronged and embarrassed at this moment.I am quiet and alone, why should I mess with them?If this kind of thing happened every day, how would I live my life?

Hongwang obviously didn't pay attention to what her aunt said, and leaned into Bafujin's arms, looked at me, and shouted: "She and my aunt look alike!" Shifujin said: "They are sisters, of course they do!" When Hongwang heard this, he broke free from Bafujin's arms, came over and kicked me, cursing: "You are all bad people who made my mother angry!" He just kicked me on the knee, I covered my knee and looked at this face that was very similar to the eighth elder brother, the three points of pain became nine points!Eight Fujin reprimanded in a low voice: "Hongwang, what are you doing? You haven't come back yet!" Ten Fujin looked at me with a three-point smile.

Hongwang ignored Ba Fujin, looked at me and said, "If you bully Erniang, I will bully you!" After speaking, he looked at me, as if he was thinking about it and wanted to kick him again! 'you'?Does this include my sister?What did they do to their sister?Anger suddenly sprang up in my heart. Since forbearance cannot resolve the conflict, why bother to forbear?I stood up at once, walked a few steps away from him, and said to Fujin: "It seems that Fujin has nothing important to do, and this servant is leaving!" Obviously Fujin did not expect that I would dare to do so without her permission. He stood up by himself, and stood still, looking at her while talking, feeling a little dazed for a while.

Shi Fujin laughed a few times and said: "Sister! I told you a long time ago that she is a savage with no rules! Her elder sister is not a bit of a savage in front of you, but she is so lawless as a court lady. It's gone!" I glanced at her, turned around and left.Bafujin suddenly said: "Stop! Who gave you permission to leave?" I looked back at her, and said with a three-point smile on my lips: "The so-called 'state-owned state law, palace has palace rules', no matter how humble my status is, I am still a member of the Qianqing Palace. If Fujin wants to punish him, he can directly tell Li Wenda Li Wenda will follow the rules for the disrespect of the slaves. Could it be that Fujin wants to lynch here?"

Both Bafujin and Shifujin were stunned, unable to advance or retreat for a while.Ba Fujin looked at me with hatred in his eyes, and I raised my chin slightly and looked back at her without giving an inch. The three of them were frozen to each other, and the eighth and tenth Fujin stood up suddenly, their expressions slowed down, and they turned to bless me behind me: "Good luck, the fourth prince!" Hong Wang also greeted him crisply.I hurriedly turned around, and saw the fourth elder brother coming in from the side of the corridor under the escort of two eunuchs. Although he was wearing an awning and the eunuchs were holding umbrellas, the inner skirt was still a little wet. It seemed that he had come in to hide from the sudden arrival of heavy rain.I also hurriedly bent down to say hello.

The fourth elder brother glanced lightly at our faces, and said lightly: "Get up!" I blessed, and asked: "The lord has something to order, if not, the servant will leave!" He glanced at the eighth and tenth Fujin With a glance, he watched the downpour outside the corridor and calmed down for a while, then said in a low voice: "Go!" I was about to leave when I saw the heavy rain, and suddenly remembered that I hadn’t taken the umbrella yet, so I went back and picked up the umbrella that was on the ground. They all looked at me, and I only gave a blessing to the fourth elder brother and said: " The maid came back to get the umbrella." After speaking, he held up the umbrella, thinking about the thoughtful expression of the fourth elder brother, and was about to go down the steps, when he stopped suddenly, looked sideways at Bafujin and said with a smile: "Why do you always use those sincerity?" How about you bullying someone who chanted scriptures all day long and wouldn’t argue with you at all?” Glancing at Shi Fujin who was slightly startled, he continued to look at Ba Fujin with hatred in his eyes and said with a smile: “I’m hiding in the Is it interesting to pretend to be virtuous behind the scenes?" After speaking, he turned around and walked into the wind and rain without any haste.Feeling the gazes from behind were fixed on me, I straightened my waist more and more, walking gracefully, as if I was walking in the April spring breeze, even if I lost, my posture should still be beautiful.

I walked in a meandering way, with my feet stepping on the rainwater on the ground, and the surrounding water was steaming, and I was the only one left walking alone in the vast world.The crackling sound is endless, knocking on the umbrella surface, knocking on the ground, and knocking on my heart.How can a small umbrella cover God's sad tears?Soon most of the body was soaked. Although I soaked it in hot water for a long time to get rid of the cold, I still had some sacs in my nose. Fortunately, I took good care of it and my body has always been healthy, but there was no other discomfort.

Holding the quilt and leaning on the couch, looking out the window in a daze.The rain had already stopped, and the leaves of the sweet-scented osmanthus tree outside the window had become thinner after a rain.The raindrops hanging on the leaves are still dripping intermittently, it seems that the tears of the leaves are mourning for the partner who has left him. A figure wandered into the yard, I didn't pay attention to it, and still leaned quietly.He saw that the window was wide open, so he went to the window, looked at me with his head, and saw that I was leaning on the couch, and hurriedly lowered his head to say hello: "Good luck, girl!" Xiao Shunzi who came to give necklaces on the first day of junior high school.Turning away his gaze, he said lightly, "Get up!" Seeing me lying motionless on the couch, he bowed his head and said, "I've brought something for the girl!" I stared at the sweet-scented osmanthus tree, and said softly: "Take it back! I don't lack anything." He looked at me a few times in embarrassment, seeing that I ignored him, he took out a snuff bottle from his pocket and put it by the window Looking down at the table, she lowered her head and said: "Girl speak with a little pouch, pick up some snuff and sniff, and sneeze a few times, you will feel refreshed!" After finishing speaking, before I could speak, I turned around and ran out of the yard. The night was getting dark, and I felt a little cold, so I shrank into the quilt, but my body didn't want to move.After Yutan entered the courtyard, she saw that the window of my room was wide open, so she rushed in a few steps, and sighed: "My sister was caught in the rain in the morning, why are the windows still wide open now?" As she spoke, she closed the window.I said, "Too lazy to get up and close it!" She lit up the lamp on the table, picked up the snuff bottle on the table casually, looked at it a few times, and said with a smile: "What a delicate thing! The puppy painting on it is so vivid, it's really cute! "While talking, he walked to the side of the couch. "I heard the sound, but my nose is still stuffy. My sister has snuff, so can I smell it?" I shook my head slightly, and she hurriedly opened the cover, pulled out the hairpin from her head, and wiped some on my fingers.I brought it up to my nose, and a hot and sour smell rushed straight to my forehead. I couldn't help but leaned over and sneezed three or four times. All of a sudden it really feels quite fast!He smiled and said: "This thing really works!" He took the snuff bottle and looked at it carefully. It was double-glazed and painted with three poodles fighting inside. The expressions were realistic and funny, and it was indeed interesting.As I was looking at it myself, I suddenly remembered what happened to me in the morning with Ba Fujin and Shi Fujin. When I took a closer look, the painting suddenly changed.It was two yellow-haired dogs bullying a white-haired dog together.Although the white-haired dogs were a pair of two, they looked very relaxed and at ease. On the contrary, they teased the two yellow-haired puppies anxiously and annoyed. I couldn't help laughing all of a sudden, this man actually compared us all to dogs.Don't know whether to make fun of us 'dog bite dog, mouth hair'?I really don't know where he found such a suitable thing?Usually his expression is cold and serious, but he never expected to be so funny.Cold humor!Thinking about it became more and more interesting, and unknowingly, the unhappiness that had been pent up in my heart all afternoon was swept away.