Chapter 35 Chapter Thirty-Four

His face was as calm as water, and there was no emotion in his eyes, which were dark and hard to distinguish.He just stared at me deeply, and I stared back at him firmly with wide eyes.After a while, he asked, "I don't think this has anything to do with us." I looked at him and said slowly, "You agree! We'll be together. If you don't agree, we'll separate." .” After finishing speaking, I just felt that I had never said a word in my life, and it took all my strength.Every word hurts my heart. He looked at me in disbelief, and I looked at him very seriously, I'm not joking, I mean every word.The hands we held turned cold.He dragged me violently and walked away, saying as he walked, "Go back and have a good rest!" I tried my best, but refused to move forward, and dragged him, "I'm serious. I'm sober."

He stopped, turned his back to me, as quiet as a fossil, his back was so desolate and sad, I took two steps forward, circled him, put my face on his back and said: "How happy we are these days! This is also possible! In spring we go to the suburbs to enjoy flowers, in summer we can go boating on the lake, in autumn we ride horses and gallop on the green grassland, and in winter we can enjoy the snow and plum blossoms with a fireplace. We can read and write poems, and I can sing songs for you , I am still very good at dancing, I have no chance to show you this time, you will definitely like my dancing posture. I have always wanted to enjoy the scenery of the north and south of the river. We can go to see Yanyu Jiangnan, or go to Desolate Saibei. I can also cook a lot of dishes, although I haven’t made them for many years, but they are definitely delicious. Some dishes look at the entire Qing Dynasty, and I’m afraid no one else can cook them except me! I will also..."

He interrupted me, turned his back to me and asked coldly: "You are premeditated these days, aren't you?" He turned around, looked at me and said, "Every song you sing, every word you say One sentence! Just for today!" I bit my lips, with tears in my eyes, I pulled his arm and said, "But my heart for you is absolutely true!" He stared at me coldly, without any response. His cold gaze frightened me. I took his hand and pressed it to my heart and shouted, "You know it! You know it contains you! You know it! You know it!" He closed his eyes, deeply Taking a breath, he hugged me violently, and asked with a painful tone, "Ruoxi, why? Why? I still clearly remember what you said back then, 'why should one's fate be at the mercy of others, why can't Make up your own mind', although I scolded you at the time, why didn't I think so in my heart. Because of Er Niang's low status, I was not taken seriously in the palace when I was a child. But I have always been strong! Be cautious in everything, be careful in everything, and watch your words I treat people with humility and courtesy, because I don't have the capital to be arrogant. The prince, the fourth, the ninth, and the tenth all have distinguished mothers, and there are support from the uncle and relatives outside the palace. The prince has Suo'etu, the eldest brother There is Mingzhu, the fourth child has Longkodo, but what do I have? I have nothing! I can only rely on myself! For so many years, I have worked hard at every step, and I only think that my destiny is in my own hands Yes, they are all princes. The prince can do it, why can't I? If he is so talented, I have nothing to say, but how can he convince the public? Because his mother is Huang Ama's beloved queen, Can he have these from birth? I don’t agree with the so-called ‘get it for the capable’! Do you know how much I have paid from no one’s attention to no one dares to underestimate it? Follow me, how much effort did I spend on them? I have no relatives to support, I can only make courtiers, how much effort did I spend?"

Before he finished speaking, I was already in tears!Heart like a thousand cuts!He held my face, wiped my tears with his fingers, and said: "Ruoxi! I want the throne, and I want you!" I hugged him, but kept crying.I just feel that the sadness of this life is gathered at this moment! He hugged me tightly with one hand and stroked my back with the other. I cried until I had no more tears to shed, but my heart was distraught. Relentless!If you drag it on, it will be too late even if you want to quit.Now it's just a battle between you and the crown prince, the fourth elder brother hasn't had any direct conflict with you, and even now he's still half-side with you secretly, but everything will be different in two years.I understand it in my heart, but I can't say a word of those decisive words.

He hugged me silently, and when I slowly calmed down, he took out the handkerchief I was wearing, wiped my face clean, and carried me onto the horse.When we arrived at the tent, he ignored the surprised eyes of the patrolling soldiers, and sent me directly to my tent, and said gently: "Don't think about it! Have a good rest!" I entered the tent, Yutan had already rested, and I lay down on the bed in the dark. Bed, rest well?How can I have a good rest? Rolling the wheel, took me away from the grassland, and gradually approached the Forbidden City, which I don't want to go back to, day by day.Laughing in front of others, sad in the back, is probably the portrayal of me now.Yutan, who was in the same car with me, also became extremely quiet because of my abnormal behavior.The two often sat in the carriage without saying a word for a whole day.

I deliberately avoided every possible opportunity to see the eighth elder brother. I really couldn't avoid it, and I never gave him a second look.I have to think clearly, what should I do?I don’t know if the eighth elder brother also feels that he needs some time to calm down, or there are too many things waiting for him to decide when he returns to the Forbidden City, and he has never come to me. The eighth elder brother is kind to me, but it's just a man's kindness to a woman who is still attractive within the scope of his ability.It's not that he gives all his best to the king, and he is definitely not a person who loves beauty and doesn't love country.Power is already a part of his life, and he will never give it up.Now it seems that he will never withdraw from the battle for the throne because of my request.This path no longer works.

Can I help him deal with the fourth elder brother together?These elder brothers have been caught up in power struggles since they were born. I am afraid that when I was still playing with sand on the Gobi Desert, they were already thinking about how to get more attention from the emperor.What they have learned since elementary school is the art of governing the country, and they can apply what they have learned to practical struggles at all times.And the biggest distress I have had since I was a child is nothing more than the fact that my first love boyfriend left me.The only book I know about strategy: "Sun Tzu's Art of War", I haven't read it! I don't know more than ten of the "Thirty-Six Strategies". I don't even like to watch the TV series.Compared with this battle for the throne, the strife in the office is like a child's play.In the four years in the palace, I have made a lot of progress, but compared with them, I am afraid that they can see through my wrist at a glance. What I rely on is only Kangxi's respect for me.If I had known earlier that I would go back to ancient times, I should not have studied accounting in college. It might be more practical to apply for a military academy now.

I know that the fourth elder brother will ascend the throne, but who can tell me what he secretly arranged for this?What is his plan of action?In modern times, historians are still debating whether Lian Kangxi passed the throne to Yongzheng or Yongzheng usurped the throne!In terms of scheming, the eighth elder brother doesn't know how many levels higher than me, why does he need my advice, and how can I come up with a strategy to help the eighth elder brother fight the fourth elder brother?What do I know about everything in the officialdom?I told the eighth prince to beware of the fourth prince, because the fourth prince is the most powerful contender for the throne, how much help can this be?Is the eighth elder brother not wary of the fourth elder brother now?If I told him that the fourth elder brother would get the throne, would he believe what a woman like me said?Saying that my soul came from three hundred years later, and I know what will happen in the future, he is afraid that he will either think that I am crazy or that I am a monster.I've been foolish enough to try to hold a man's heart once, so why do I want to do Bai Suzhen again to test whether a so-called man who loves you can accept an alternative?Are you afraid that he will find Fahai to take me in?

Back and forth, back and forth, thinking about it, it turns out that I have reached a dead end, and there is no way to go.I covered my face with my hands and bowed in pain.Yutan, who was sitting next to me, called out with concern: "Sister!" Without changing my posture, I asked, "If you know a person is going to die and you want to save him, but he refuses to listen to you, what should you do? ?" Yutan didn't say anything for a long time, and finally called out timidly: "Sister!" I quickly raised my head, looked at her and said, "Nothing! It's just nonsense!" She tilted her head and thought for a while, then asked, "How did you know he would die? You told him, would he die? What did he do?" Why don't you listen?" It didn't make sense to her, I shook my head at her, and she immediately obediently stopped asking.

We will arrive in Beijing tomorrow morning.In the evening, please ask Yutan to help me dress up carefully, and Yutan will try her best to release my beauty.Curved crescent eyebrows, eyes full of sorrow and affection, the time of looking forward is like rippling autumn water, pink and fat and greasy skin, lips that seem to be smiling but not smiling.She in the mirror seems to be mocking herself, you still don't give up!Why are you so stupid? Li Fu opened the door to see that it was me, and hurriedly bowed to let me in.The eighth elder brother sat behind the desk, his face was as bright as jade, and his eyes were as clear as water. I looked at him quietly for a while.Gentle gentleman, what is hidden under the calm water, I can't see through, so I asked myself, I actually want to change the will of such a man with the love between a man and a woman?When did I become so childish?Reason fully understands, but still can't give up!

He stared at me for a long time, finally stood up, walked to my side, and embraced me: "I will return to Beijing tomorrow! I will ask Huang Ama for a marriage as soon as possible!" I put my hands around his waist, thinking of letting me go. I will be in his arms for a while, maybe this will be the last time. The two hugged each other quietly for a long time.I endured the pain in my heart and pushed him away. He put his hand on my shoulder and looked at me quietly.I bit my lip, but I really didn't have the courage to look him in the eyes again, and asked with lowered eyes: "If you can't agree to my request, you don't have to ask the emperor for a marriage, I won't agree! "He put his hands on my shoulders tightly, and said gently: "With the imperial decree, how can I allow you to mess around again!" I looked back at him, and said with a tactful smile: "Even if you ask for the imperial decree, if I don't want to marry , no one can do anything to me! At worst, I will cut off my hair and become a sister-in-law, or I will still have a three-foot white ling!" He pinched my shoulders so painfully, he smiled lightly, nodded frequently, and said in a cold voice: "So she is still a fierce woman! But I don't understand, why would you rather die than marry me?" ?” I looked at him and said softly, “It’s not that I don’t want to marry you, I just hope that you don’t want to fight for the throne!” He said, “I don’t understand this even more. You marry me and I promise you or not. What does your request matter?" I bowed my head in silence for a while, looked up at him, and asked: "The battle for the throne is extremely dangerous. If you win, you will be above ten thousand people, but what if you lose? It's better than being imprisoned for life like a big brother. Almost, but...if you...you...will die in the future, do you still want to fight?" After hearing this, he let go of my shoulders, walked slowly to the chair and sat down, with a calm face and eyes He stared at the front and said: "Winners and losers, I am willing to gamble and admit defeat!" He looked at me and said softly: "But if I want to give up now, it is absolutely impossible. What I have learned since I was a child, and I have worked hard for many years, let me give up now , Impossible!" He paused, "Don't say that I have a better chance of winning than the prince now. Even if there is no chance of winning, I will fight for it." Although his tone was soft, I fully understood that he was absolutely, Never give up, even if the price ahead is life. I had no strength to ask: "Why can't you be like the fifth elder brother? Isn't he also outstanding in literary talent? Isn't he also learned everything?" He sat quietly without any response. I bent down and made a blessing, and turned to leave, but he said behind me: "If I ascend the throne someday, I promise you to be the queen. Would you like to play this game with me?" I stopped in my tracks and said without looking back. : "I don't want my own destiny to be controlled by others, but I have never thought of controlling other people's destiny." When he was about to leave, he shouted in a low voice: "Stop!" I stopped again, and he ordered behind me: "Turn around!" I turned and faced him.His expression was calm, but there was sadness in his eyes, and my heart ached a little, so I hurriedly turned my eyes away, unwilling to look into his eyes again. He asked: "In order not to marry me, you threatened to die, so why can't you live and die with me?" I was shocked, yes, why can't I live and die with him?My mind was in chaos for a while, I just thought about how to avoid the final ending for him all day long, I never thought that I could make such a choice, regardless of life and death, honor or disgrace, just grab some happiness in front of me! In the end, he could only say: "I don't know! I'll think about it!" He sighed: "Then think about it!" When I turned around and came out, I heard him say softly behind me: "If you are afraid, I won't blame you."