Chapter 37 Chapter 09

The countess lived very well.The rooms are comfortably and tastefully furnished, though not in the least luxurious. However, everything has a temporary quality, and it is just a fairly good temporary residence, not the kind of settled residence of rich people. It was a permanent residence, and therefore it had neither the splendor of a landed aristocracy nor the outlandish decorations that were supposed to be necessary.It is rumored that the countess goes to her own manor every year (which is dilapidated and mortgaged several times), to Simby spent the summer in Orsk province and was accompanied by the Duke.I had already heard about it, and at the same time I thought sadly: what will Alyosha do if Katya also goes with the countess?I haven't told Natasha about it yet, I'm afraid; but by some indications

See, she probably heard the news too.But she never mentioned it, secretly suffering. The countess received me with great civility, held out her hand amiably to me, and repeated that she had long wanted to see me at her own house.She poured me tea herself from a very handsome silver samovar, around which we sat: Me, the duke, and an elderly gentleman with a star, well-washed, and a diplomatist, of great society.It seems that they have a lot of respect for this guest.After the Countess returned from abroad, here This winter has not yet had time to socialize widely in Petersburg and establish his position in accordance with his wishes and plans.There was no one else but this guest, and no one came all evening.I searched for Katerina Fyodorovna with my eyes; she

We were in another room with Alyosha, but as soon as she heard we were coming, she came out to welcome us.The Duke kissed her hand fawningly, and the Countess pointed to me.The Duke immediately introduced us to each other.I can't wait to use He looked at her carefully: this is a gentle and elegant blonde girl, wearing a white dress and a short figure, with a quiet and serene expression on her face, just like Alyosha said, with a pair of blue eyes and a youthful look. beautiful, but that is it.I thought I would see a stunning beauty, but who knows she is not beautiful.A straight, oval face with soft outlines, regular features, thick hair is really beautiful, ordinary hairstyle, a homely dress,

Quiet, focused eyes; if I meet her somewhere outside, I will definitely pass her by and never pay special attention to her; but this is just the first impression, and later, on this night, I finally got a better look at her.she to I stretched out a hand, without saying a word, but kept looking into my eyes with an innocent, intent look--this alone surprised me, and I thought she was strange and also For some reason, I couldn't help smiling at her.visible , I felt at once that standing before me was a man of pure heart.The Countess watched her intently.Katya shook hands with me, left me in a hurry, and sat down with Alyosha on the other side of the room.Alyosha whispered to me when he said hello to me

Said: "I will stay here for a while, and go there immediately." ①The original text is French.Here it means to talk back. The "Diplomat" (I don't know his last name, but there must be a title, so let's call him a diplomat) is talking about something, he speaks artificially and with great style.The countess listened to him attentively.male Jue smiled approvingly and obsequiously; this high-talking diplomat often talked to him, probably thinking that he was the bosom friend, and only he was worthy of listening to him. The servant brought me tea, and I have never bothered again. Me, I can't wait for that.

So I took advantage of this opportunity to start looking at the countess.According to the first impression she gave me, I couldn't help but have a good impression of her.Maybe she is not young anymore, but I don't think she will be more than twenty-eight.Her face is still very Delicate and delicate, she must have been beautiful back then, when she was young.The dark brown hair was still quite thick; her eyes were unusually kind, but a little flippant, with a kind of mischievous mockery at the same time.But now, I don't know why However restrained.This pair of eyes also shows that she is very intelligent, but the most impressive thing is her kindness and joy.Her main qualities, I think, are a bit of contempt, a quest for pleasure, and a kind of benevolent selfishness, even, perhaps, a serious kind of selfishness.

.She was completely at the mercy of the duke, who had great influence over her.I know that they have an ambiguous relationship, and I also heard that when they were abroad, although he was one of the lovers, he was not jealous at all; but I always felt (and still feel) that There was something else, somewhat mysterious, which bound them together besides their past relationship, something like a mutual obligation based on a certain plan... In a word, there must be some kind of Something like that.I know too, sir The Duke now felt that she was a burden, but their relationship was not broken.Perhaps it was Takatya's idea to tie the two together, and it goes without saying that the duke should have been the one who started it.It is for this reason that the duke excuses not

married the countess (she had actually proposed to marry him), and at last persuaded her to consummate Alyosha's marriage to her stepdaughter.At least, from what Alyosha has said in the past, I have come to this conclusion, which although true Careless, but I still see some tricks in it.I also always felt (and this I heard more or less from the same conversation with Alyosha) that although the countess was obedient to the prince, the prince was somehow afraid of her. Even Alyosha noticed this.I learned later that the prince was very keen to marry the countess to anyone, and it was partly for this purpose that he sent her to spend the summer in Simbirsk province.

She is looking for a suitable husband in other provinces. I sat listening to them, wondering how I could have a private conversation with Katerina Fyodorovna as soon as possible.The diplomat was answering the countess' questions, talking about the current political situation, about the reforms that were about to be introduced, and And should or should not be afraid of reform, and so on.He talked like a powerful man, with pomp and air.He was succinct and intelligent when he made his point, but it made me sick for three days.he insisted repeatedly A view that this spirit of reform and change will soon have certain consequences; people will see these consequences and think about it, and this new spirit will not only be in society (Needless to say, is in a certain part of society) disappears,

And people will see from experience that it is wrong to do so, and they will redouble their efforts to support the old things. Experience, even sad experience, is very beneficial, because it can teach people how to maintain this. save The old things that save the country and the people, and provide new materials for this; therefore, even the current bold reforms should be hoped to rush to extremes. "It is impossible to leave us," he concluded, "without us there has never been a social station." Have to stay on your feet.We have nothing to lose, but on the contrary, we are sure to win; we will come back, come back, and our current slogan is: 'The worse the better'②. ’ the duke smiled at him with an air of disgusting approval.

.The bombastic diplomat was delighted.I was a little too stupid to try to make a rebuttal; I was on fire, but I was stopped just in time by a malicious look from the Duke; he glanced in my direction, and I I think that's what the duke expects from me to do some queer, bloody thing; maybe that's what he wants to see, so he can appreciate how shameful I am.At the same time, I am convinced that diplomats will not Heed my objections, maybe even dismiss me as a person.Sitting with them made me sick; but Alyosha saved me. He walked up to me quietly, patted my shoulder, and asked me to go over and say a few words.I figured Katya must have sent him.really.A minute later, I was sitting next to her.She first looked at me carefully from top to bottom, As if to say to myself: "So you are like this," at first, neither of us could find the words to start a conversation.But I believe that as soon as she opens her mouth, she can't stop talking, even if she keeps talking until dawn, Alyosha The so-called "just five or six hours of conversation" flashed through my mind.Alyosha was sitting next to us, eagerly waiting for us to speak. ① Refers to the hot topics in Russian newspapers from 1858 to 1860: a series of reforms such as the upcoming abolition of serfdom, judicial openness, and new censorship regulations. ②The original text is French. "Why don't you two talk?" He looked at us with a smile and said. "Sit together and don't speak again." "Oh, Alyosha, what are you doing.... Let's go right away," answered Katya. "You know, Ivan Petrovitch, we have a lot to talk about together, but I don't know where to start. We It's so late to meet each other, let's meet sooner Good knowledge, although I have heard of you long ago.How I long to see you.I even wanted to write to you..." "What's in the letter?" I could not help answering with a smile. "Is there not much to talk about?" she answered gravely, "and even that, is what he said about Natalya Nikolaevna true?—he said he was She was not surprised to be left alone at such a time. Oh, Is it possible to do things like him?Well, why are you staying here now, isn't that unreasonable? " "Oh, my God, I'll go as soon as I say it. As I always said, I'm only here for a little while, to see you two, to see how you two talk together, and then I'll go to Natasha's." .” "Didn't we sit together—see? He's always like this," she added, blushing slightly, pointing at him with her finger. "What did you say 'for a little while, just for a little while', but you see, I sat until midnight, and at that time It will be too late.Say 'she won't be angry, she has a good heart' - look, that's what he said!Oh, is this good, is this noble? " "It seems I must go," replied Alyosha sadly, "but I would very much like to stay with you two for a while..." "What are you doing with us? On the contrary, we've got a lot of things we'd like to talk about alone. I say don't be offended, too; it has to be—be obedient." "Since it must be so, I'll... have no reason to be angry. I'll go to Levinka, stay a little while, and then go to her right away. One more thing, Ivan Petrovitch, ’ He picked up his top hat and continued, ‘You know Well, my father was going to give up the money he had won in court from Ikhmenev. " "Yes, he told me." "How noble he did it. Katya still doesn't believe that he can do it so noblely. Tell her about it. Good-bye, Katya, please don't doubt that I love Natalz. Why do you always put These rules and regulations are imposed on me, always blaming me Prepare me, watch me--as if I were under your watch!She knows how much I love her, she believes in me, and I firmly believe that she believes in me.I love her unconditionally with no responsibilities attached.I don't even know how much I love her.only Love is it.Therefore, there is no need to ask me like a prisoner.If you don't believe me ask Ivan Petrovich, he is here now, and he will prove to you that Natasha is jealous by nature, that although she loves me, there are many selfish things in her love ingredients because she was not willing to sacrifice anything for me. " "What?" I asked in surprise, unable to believe my ears. "What's the matter with you, Alyosha?" Katya clapped her hands together, almost screaming. "Isn't it? What's the fuss about? Ivan Petrovitch knows. She always keeps me company. She doesn't say it, but you can see that's what she thinks." "Why are you not ashamed, why are you not ashamed!" said Katya, flushing with anger. "What's there to be ashamed of? Really, what's the matter with you, Katya! You know, I love her more than she thinks, and if she could really love me as I love her, she'd be happy I sacrifice her happiness. Yes, it's her Let me come, but I could see in her face that she was having a hard time doing it, so it seemed to me that she wouldn't let me. " "No, it's not unfounded!" cried Katya, and she addressed him again with her angry eyes. "Confess, Alyosha, confess at once. Your father taught you that, didn't he? Today, didn't you? You. Don't Play tricks on me: I'll find out right away!Is it this way? " "Yes, he did," replied Alyosha coyly, "what's the big deal? He talks to me very nicely today, as if he were talking to a friend, and he always compliments me on how good she is, how good she is." I feel strange: she insulted him so much, he still Praise her so much. " "And you, you believe it," I said, "she gave you everything she could, and even now, today, she cares most about you, lest you lose sight of Katerina Fyodor. Rovna will be bored! She said it herself today told me.But you suddenly believed this kind of lie, bullshit!Why are you not ashamed? " "Ingratitude! What's the matter, he's never been ashamed!" said Katya, waving at him as if he were utterly hopeless. "What's the matter with you, really!" continued Alyosha complainingly, "you're always like this, Katya! You're always suspicious of me and think of me as bad... I won't say Ivan Peter. rovich! y'all think i don't love nata Sarah.I didn't mean that when I said she was selfish.I just want to say that because she loves me so much, she often loves me inappropriately, which makes me and her very uncomfortable.My father could never fool me, even though he wanted to.I won't fall for his tricks.he didn't To say she was selfish was to say without malice; I understood what he meant.He said exactly what I just told you: because she loved me so much, so much, that it was almost selfish, so that neither I nor she felt It hurts, and I will feel worse in the future.Why, he's telling the truth, because he loves me, which doesn't mean that he wronged Natasha; on the contrary, what he sees in her is the strongest love, love without measure, love beyond measure degree of love..." But Katya interrupted him and did not let him continue.She began to reproach him furiously, and repeated that his father's repeated compliments to Natasha were trying to deceive him with a superficial kindness, and that all this had another purpose, Breaking up the relationship between the two of them unknowingly caused Alyosha himself to resent her.She deduced passionately and intelligently how much Natasha loved him, that no love could forgive what he had done to her, and that it was he himself who was really selfish. Myself, Alyosha.Slowly, slowly, Katya made him feel very sad and remorseful; he sat beside us, looking at the ground, unable to answer a single word, he was refuted to pieces, his face was full of pain expression.But Katya Still ruthless towards him.I watched her with intense curiosity.I really want to get to know this strange girl quickly.She was quite a child, but a strange, determined child, with firm principles, There is a passionate, innate love of the good and of justice.If she could be called a child at all, she would belong to that class of thinking children who are quite a number in our families.She had obviously thought a lot about it. I really want to see what is going on in this thinking little mind, and how this little mind combines completely childish ideas and concepts with those serious ways of dealing with the world and life experience (because Ka Jia already has a certain life life experience); in addition, there must be some thoughts in her mind that she is not familiar with and has never experienced, but these thoughts are very interesting to her because they are abstract and bookish; these thoughts must be in her head. a lot of , Maybe she thought that these were all things she had personally experienced.All that evening, and afterward, I felt that I knew her quite well.She has a warm and sensitive heart.In some cases, she seems to have no intention of restraining herself, and It is to put right and wrong first, regard any way of life and self-restraint as hypocritical prejudice, and take pride in having this belief; many passionate young people have this situation, and some are not very young anymore. The same is true.but it is This gave her a peculiar beauty.She is very thoughtful and loves to explore the truth, but she is not pedantic, but her behavior is abrupt, full of childishness and childishness, which makes people like the difference in her at first glance, so they listen to it Let it go, don't care about it.I thought of Levinka and Paulinka, and it all seemed quite natural to me.The strange thing is: I didn't find anything particularly beautiful about her face at first glance, but that night, this face was always It is changing all the time, and I think it is becoming more and more beautiful and attractive.This is a naive duality, childlike and thinking woman all at once, this childish yet highly authentic desire for truth and justice, this An unshakable confidence in her own pursuits--all this gave her face a sincere beauty, endowed her with a noble spiritual beauty, and you will gradually see that the whole meaning of this beauty is not just a moment. can be unearthed, Nor is it all grasped at once by every ordinary and indifferent person.Then I understood that Alyosha must be infatuated with her.Since he is incapable of thinking and judging himself, he will definitely fall in love with those who can think for him, and even To whomever he hoped for -- and Katya had put him under her custody.His heart was noble, captivating, it yielded at once to everything that was sincere and beautiful, and Katya had already presented him with the most sincere childishness and companionship. Love said a lot.He has no will of his own; she has a lot of persistent, strong and fiery wills, and Alyosha can only love those who can dominate him and even order him.while natasha was with them This was partly what attracted him in the first days of their acquaintance, but Katya had one great advantage over Natasha—she was a child herself, and it seemed that, even after a long time, she was still a child. child.her childishness , her brilliant intelligence, and at the same time a certain lack of reason—all this somehow made Alyosha feel more familiar.He sensed this, and Katya became more and more attractive to him.I believe that when he When the two talked alone together, apart from Katya's serious "propaganda" conversations, their conversations might turn into child's play.Although Katya may have often criticized Alyosha and had him in his hands, it was evident that he felt I must feel more at home with her than with Natasha.They are more compatible with each other, and that is the main thing. "Come, Katya, come, that's enough; after all, you're always right and I'm never right. It's because your heart is purer than mine," said Alyosha, getting up, holding out his hand, Say goodbye to her. "I'm going to see her right away, not Le Vinka..." "Anyway, you'll be all right at Levinka's; now you're obedient and willing to see Natasha, and that's lovely." "And you are a thousand times cuter than everyone else," answered Alyosha sullenly. "Ivan Petrovitch, I want to say a few words to you." We take two steps away and step aside. "What I did today was shameless," he whispered to me. "I did it despicably. I'm sorry to all the people in the world, let alone the two of them. This afternoon, my father introduced me to a man named Alexander. Linna's woman acquaintance (a French woman) - this woman is very attractive.I... I'm so moved... Well, let's not talk about it now, I don't deserve to be with them... Good-bye, Ivan Petrovitch! " "He has a good heart and a noble heart," Katya said hastily when I sat down next to Katya again, "but we will talk about him in detail later; and now we must agree : What do you think of the Duke?" "A very bad man." "I feel the same way. So we agree on this point, and it will be easier for us to talk in the future. Now let's talk about Natalya Nikolaevna. . . . Von Petrovich, my eyes are dark now , I have been waiting for you, I hope you can teach me.Please explain all this to me, because on the main point my opinion can only be based on speculation, on what Alyosha told me.Besides, I have no other sources up.Please tell me, first of all (and this is the main thing), would Alyosha and Natasha be happy together, in your opinion?This is the first thing I have to figure out before I make the final decision to figure out for myself what to do." "How can this be accurate? . . . " "Yes, of course, not quite," she interrupted, "and what do you think?—because you're a very clever fellow." "I don't think they will be happy." "why?" "They're not compatible." "I think so too!" she said, folding her little hands upon her breast, as if in deep sorrow. "Be more specific. Listen to me: I want to meet Natasha very much, because I have a lot to say to her, and I feel that, together, we can decide how everything should be done. Now I keep imagining What the land looks like: She must be very smart Bright, serious, sincere, and Bai is very beautiful.Is it this way? " "That's right." "I believe so, too. Well, if she is like that, how could she love a boy like Alyosha? Please explain to me why; I've often wondered about it." "It's inexplicable and inexplicable, Katerina Fyodorovna; it's hard to imagine why and how one falls in love with a man. Obviously, he's still a child. But you Know how to love a child? ( Her eyes were so absorbed in me, her expression so deep and serious and eager, that I looked at her.Looking into her eyes, my heart softened. ) the less childlike Natasha herself is," I went on, "the more serious she is, the more she Will fall in love with him more and more quickly.He's honest, sincere, and terribly innocent, sometimes downright lovable.The reason why she fell in love with him may be...—how should I say this?It seems to be out of a kind of pity.A magnanimous heart is born of To love someone with pity... Then again, I don't think I can say anything to you, but I want to ask you: don't you love him too? " I boldly asked her this question, and I felt that although such a question was raised a little hastily, it would never disturb the infinite purity of a childlike heart. "Honestly, I don't know," she whispered back to me, her bright eyes looking at me, "but, it seems, very much in love..." "See, that's over. Can you explain why you love him?" "There's no hypocrisy in him," she replied after a moment. "I like it when he looks me in the eye and says something to me at the same time. . . You say this kind of thing, I'm a big girl , you are a big man; can I do this well? " "What does it matter?" "Isn't it? Of course, what does it matter? But they (she pointed her eyes at the group sitting at the samovar), they'll say it's bad, won't they?" "No! Since you don't feel in your heart that what you are doing is wrong, it can be seen..." "I've always done my own way," she interrupted me, obviously anxious to make the best of it possible for me. "Whenever I'm in doubt, I just tell myself that if I'm not ashamed, Take it easy. Alone Every word and deed should be like this forever.The reason why I am as frank with you as I am with myself is that, in the first place, you are a very nice person, and I also know that you were with Natasha before Alyosha. Relationship, I cried when I listened to it. " "Who told you?" "Alyosha, of course, and he told me with tears in his eyes: it's very nice of him to have such an attitude, I'm glad. I think he loves you more than you love him, Ivan Petrovitch. And that's what I like about him. Well, Secondly, I speak to you as directly as I speak to myself, and also because you are a very wise man, and you can advise me on many things and how I should do them. " "How do you know I'm smart enough to teach you?" "Oh, yes; what's the matter with you!" she mused. "That's all I said; let's talk about the main thing. Please teach me, Ivan Petrovitch: I feel now that I am Natasha's rival in love, and I know it." , what should I do? So I Let me ask you: will they be happy?I think about this question day and night.Natasha's situation is dire, dire!You know, he no longer loves her at all, but he loves me more and more deeply.Is it not? " "It seems so." "You know, he didn't lie to her. He didn't even know he didn't love her anymore, and she sure did. How miserable she must have been!" "What are you going to do, Katerina Fyodorovna?" "I have many plans in my mind," she replied solemnly, "but I still can't figure it out. That's why I can't wait for you to come and help me solve all this. You know all this better than I do." Many. You know, you now Now it looks like something to me.You know, I thought at first that if they love each other, I should sacrifice myself to help them in order to make them happy.It must be so! " "I know you have sacrificed yourself." "Yes, I sacrificed, and then he came to me again, and he loved me more and more, so I began to ponder in the depths of my selfishness, always thinking: should I sacrifice myself? You know, this is very bad, Isn't it?" "It's natural," I replied, "it's human nature...you're right" "I don't think so; you say it because you have a good heart, but I don't think mine is quite pure. If I had a pure heart, I'd know what to do. But let's not talk about that! Afterwards, I began to publicize the relationship between the two of them. Sir, I have learned more from mother, and from Alyosha himself, that I can see that they are not compatible; you have confirmed this just now.As a result, I thought even more: what should I do now?You know, if they won't be happy, it's better Let's just break up; but then I decided: I'll ask you about all this in detail, I'll visit Natasha myself, and we'll solve the whole problem with her. " "But how? That's the problem." "I was going to say this to her: 'Since you love him above all else, you should care more about his happiness than your own; therefore you must part with him." "Yes, but what will she feel when she hears that? If she agrees with you, will she be able to do it?" "This is exactly a question I've been thinking about day and night, and...and..." She burst into tears at this point. "You can't believe how sorry I am for Natasha," she whispered, her eyes blurred and her lips trembling. So far, there is no need to add anything.I was silent, I looked at her, and I wanted to cry with her, I don't know why, maybe it was out of a kind of pity.This is such a cute child!As for why she I thought it would make Alyosha happy, but I didn't ask her. "You must be very fond of music, don't you?" she asked, somewhat calmer, but thoughtful from having just cried. ①The original text is French. "Yes," I replied slightly surprised. "If I had time, I'd like to play Beethoven's Third Concerto for you. Right now, I'm playing it in my head. All the emotions, there's in it . Play it again; talk now . " So we began to discuss how she would meet Natasha and how this should be arranged.She told me that she was being watched, and that although her stepmother was a good person and loved her, she would not allow her to go to Natalia. Nikolai waited for acquaintance.So she can only play tricks.Early in the morning, sometimes, she would go for a drive, almost always with the countess.Sometimes, if the countess could not go out with her, she let a French girl People (she is sick) accompany her.This was often done when the Countess had a headache; therefore she had to wait for it.And before that, she could convince the French woman (an old lady who is somewhat like a chaperone), because the French daughter's heart The intestines were fine.It follows that, in any case, it is impossible to predetermine the exact day when Natasha will be called on. "You won't regret getting to know Natasha," I said. "She wants to know you too, if only to know to whom she has left Alyosha. Don't worry about that. If you don't This leisurely mind, time will solve the problem. Aren't you going to the countryside? " "Yes, very soon, perhaps in a month," she answered, "and I know that the Duke insists on going." "Do you think Alyosha will go with you?" "I've thought about that too!" she said, looking intently at me. "I think he will go." "I will definitely go." "My God, I don't know where all this is going to end. Listen to me, Ivan Petrovich. I'll write to you, I'll write to you often, and I'll write a lot. ) on you. You will come to our house often ? " "I don't know, Katerina Fyodorovna. It depends. Maybe I won't come again at all." "why?" "It depends on many reasons, mainly on my relationship with the duke." "This is not a man of honor," said Katya decisively. "I say, Ivan Petrovitch, what if I come to see you? Is it all right?" "What do you think?" "I think it's good. I came to see you for no reason..." She smiled and added another sentence. "What I mean by this is that, in addition to respecting you, I like you very much. . . I can learn a lot from you. I like you . . . Aren't you ashamed to tell you all this? " "What's there to be ashamed of? I think you are very dear, just like my own sister." "Will you be my friend?" "Oh, of course, of course!" I replied. "Well, they'll say it's shameless for a young girl to do it, and it shouldn't be," she said, pointing to me again at the group chatting around the tea table.Here, I want to say that the Duke seems to have deliberately asked us to have a chat together. Enough. "I know very well," she added, "that the duke wants my money. They think I'm quite a child, even to my face. I don't think so. I'm not a child any more. These people are also strange: they I'm just like a child; hum, I don't know what they are busy with all day long? " "Katerina Fyodorovna, I forgot to ask you: what is the business of those two whom Alyosha visits so often, Levinka and Paulinka?" "They're distant relatives of mine. Very clever, and very decent, but talkative. . . . I know them . . . " After she finished speaking, she smiled slightly. "You plan to donate one million to them in the future, is there such a thing?" "Well, look, let's talk about a million, and they're blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. I don't know when the donation will be made; but he Now they have divided it there, discussing, yelling, and arguing: what should the money be used for, and even quarreling about it-isn't this a strange thing.It's too hasty.But they are very sincere after all , and... very smart.在学习。这总比有些人纸醉金迷，混日子强。对不？ " 我跟她还谈了许多。她几乎把自己的一生经历都说给我听了，同时又非常用心地听我说话。她还总要求我多说点关于娜塔莎和阿廖沙的事，而且越多越好。当公爵过来找我， 告诉我应该告辞了的时候，已经是午夜十二点了。我告了别。卡佳同我热烈地握了握手，别有深意地望了我一眼。伯爵夫人请我有空常来；我跟公爵一起走出了大门。 我忍不住要谈一个奇怪的也许与这事完全无关的看法。我跟卡佳谈了三个小时，我无形中得出一个奇怪的、但同时又很深刻的想法：她还完全是个孩子，对男女关系的种种奥 秘还全然不知。这就使得她的某些言论，以及她在谈许多十分重要的问题时所使用内那种一般说很严肃的口吻，显得异常滑稽。