Chapter 25 Chapter 08

I get up very early.Throughout the night, almost every half-hour, I woke up, went over to see my poor little guest, and observed her condition carefully.She had been running a fever, dazed, and seemed to be talking nonsense.But when it's almost dawn At this time, he fell asleep, and slept soundly.It was a good sign, I thought, but when I awoke in the morning I resolved to run to the clearing doctor while the poor child was asleep.I know a doctor, a single, kind old man, He had been living on Vladimir Street for some unknown year or month, and he had a housekeeper, a German, who lived together and depended on each other.It was him I wanted to find.He promised to come to me at ten o'clock.It was only eight o'clock when I went to see him.I am not

I often wanted to go to see Masloboyev, but I changed my mind after thinking about it: he probably hasn’t woken up since he lay down yesterday, and Yelena might wake up, and she can’t see me after waking up, but Seeing myself sleeping in my room, maybe I will be scared .Because of her illness, she may forget: when and how she came to me. By chance, she woke up when I entered the room.I walked up to her.Asked cautiously: How does she feel?Is it better?She didn't answer, but she stared at me for a long time with those talking black eyes.i from her I can see in her eyes that she understands everything and remembers everything.The reason she didn't answer me was probably out of old habit.Whether it was yesterday or the day before yesterday when she came to see me, she didn't say a word about some of my problems, she just used her persistent

Looking into my eyes for a long time, apart from confusion and strong curiosity, there is also a strange sense of self-esteem in this gaze.Now, I found a kind of firmness in her eyes, even as if I didn't trust her.I want to reach out and touch her head, To see if she has a fever, but she silently stretched out her little hand, gently pushed my hand away, then turned around, faced the wall, and ignored me.In order not to disturb her, I left her and walked aside. I have a big copper kettle.I have long used it instead of a samovar to boil water.I have firewood, and the janitor brought me a lot of firewood at once, enough to burn for four or five days.I lit the stove, got water, and sat on the copper kettle.Put me on the table again

tea set.Yelena turned to me and watched all this curiously.I asked her if she wanted something to eat?But she turned away again, said nothing, and ignored me. "What the hell is she mad at me for?" I thought, "What a strange little girl!" The old doctor I knew came at ten o'clock as promised.He examined the patient with the conscientious and careful attitude inherent in the Germans, and said that although the patient was hot and cold, he was not in any particular danger, which reassured me greatly. .He added that she must have other chronic diseases, such as arrhythmia, "but this requires special observation and examination, and she is not in danger now." out of habit, not out of

Necessary, Bingqu immediately began to ask me questions: how did she come to me?At the same time, he looked around my room in surprise.This old man talks so much, it's annoying to death. He was startled by Yelena's attitude towards him; when he felt her pulse, she drew back her hand and refused to show him her tongue.He asked many questions, and she didn't answer a word, but kept staring at his The large Order of Stanislav on and dangling. "Her head must be hurting," said the old man, "but look at her!" Regarding Yelena's life experience, I didn't think it was necessary to tell him.

"If anything happens, just let me know," he said before leaving, "but now, there is no danger." ① Hanging around the neck should be the second-class Stanislav Medal awarded to civil officials in Tsarist Russia. I made up my mind to be with Yelena all day, and to leave her alone as little as possible until she recovered.But I knew that Natasha and Anna Andreyevna were waiting for me, and they must be very anxious because of the long wait, so I Decided to write a letter via the city post office, telling her I couldn't see her today.But it was not enough to write to Anna Andreyevna.Once Natasha was ill, I once wrote a letter to tell her, and later she begged me to never

Don't write to her again. "The old man frowned when he saw your letter," she said. "He wanted to know what it said, but, alas, he couldn't find the courage to ask. Glum. Besides, little old man Brother, your letter will only make me like an ant on a hot pot.What's the use of ten or so lines!I want to ask you in detail, but you are not here. "So I wrote to Natasha alone, and when I went to the pharmacy to buy medicine, I sent the letter to . Meanwhile, Yelena fell asleep again.She moaned slightly in her sleep, and shuddered from time to time.The doctor guessed right: her head was in severe pain.Sometimes, he even yelled softly, waking up from time to time.When she opened her eyes and looked at me, she was even annoyed

, seems to be particularly uncomfortable with my concern.To be honest, I'm in a lot of pain about this. At eleven o'clock Masloboyev arrived.He was preoccupied and seemed to be absent-minded; he just stopped by for a visit and left after sitting for a while, as if he had something important to do and was in a hurry to go somewhere. "I said old chap, I expected you to have a bad little life," he said, looking around, "but seriously, I didn't expect you to live in such a broken box. You know, this is a box, not a room. OK Well, let it be nothing, the worst thing is that you are too nosy, these irrelevant things will distract you and affect your work.I thought of this yesterday when we went to see Bubnova.I say old man, it's just my nature

In terms of social status, I belong to the category of people who never do good things themselves, but prefer to teach others and let others do it.Now listen to me: I may come to see you tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, but you must come this Sunday morning Give up for a while.I hope the little girl's business is all over with before then; and then I'll have a serious talk with you, because your business must be taken care of too.It's not okay to live like this.I just mentioned it a little bit yesterday. , and Guanzai, I want to explain everything to you clearly.In the end, you should talk about it: what disgrace is there in taking some money from me for a while? "

"Stop arguing!" I interrupted him, "Why don't you tell me how you ended up there yesterday?" "What's the matter, it's settled very well, and the purpose has been achieved, do you understand? Now I have no time. I just came to say hello and say that I have no time to attend to your business for the time being; and at the same time, by the way, why, where are you sending her Do you want to go, or do you want to adopt yourself?Because this is something to think twice about. " "I haven't thought about it yet. To tell you the truth, I want to wait until you come to discuss it. For example, why should I adopt her?"

"Oh, what's the point, even if you are a servant..." "Please, lower your voice. Although she is sick, she is fully conscious. When she saw you, I found that she seemed to be shaking. This means that she remembered what happened yesterday..." So I told him about her character, and all that I found in her.My words interested Masloboyev.I added that I might send her to someone's house, and spoke briefly to him about my two elder.To my surprise he already knew something about Natasha, and I asked him where he heard it from, and he replied: "I can't tell where; a long time ago, when I was doing something I somehow heard some.Didn't I tell you that I know Prince Valkovsky.You want to send her to those two old men--that's a good thing to do.Otherwise, she will only hinder you when she is with you.One more thing: I have to get her an ID card randomly: Don't worry about it; I'll take care of it.Goodbye, please come often when you are free.How is she now, asleep? " "I guess so," I replied. But as soon as he left, Yelena called me. "Who is he?" she asked.Her voice was trembling, but the way she looked at me was the same as before, her eyes were fixed, and she seemed very proud.Besides, I don't know how to say it. I told her the name of Masloboyev, adding that it was thanks to him that I rescued her from Brenova, and that Brenova was terrified.Her little face suddenly flushed red, probably recalling the past. "Now, will she never come here?" Yelena asked, looking at me suspiciously. I hastened to comfort her and reassure her.She fell silent, and grabbed my hand with her hot little fingers, but as if she had come to her senses, she immediately shook my hand away.I thought, "She can't really be that disgusted with me. It's one of her things." This kind of style, or...or this poor child has suffered too much misfortune, so he doesn't trust anyone in the world. " I went out to buy medicine at the prescribed time, and at the same time I went to a small restaurant I knew. I sometimes ate at that restaurant, and it trusted me and allowed me to pay on credit.This time, I took a lunch box with me when I went out. The restaurant ordered a chicken soup for Yelena.But she didn't want to eat it, so the soup had to be left on the stove for now. After I got her off the pills, I sat down and went about my business.I thought she was asleep, but I inadvertently looked up at her, and suddenly saw her raise her head slightly, writing with her heart.I pretended not to notice her. At last she fell asleep, and to my great joy he slept soundly, without talking or moaning.I couldn't help thinking; I thought, because I didn't see Natasha today, and she didn't know what was going on. , not only will she be angry with me, but she must be very sad because I don't care about her at this time. Maybe, at this time, she needs me to give her advice.Now, she may even be in some trouble, something to ask I'll do it, but I'm not by her side. As for Anna Andreyevna, I really don't know what excuses I can use to get rid of her when I see her tomorrow.After thinking about it, I suddenly decided to take a trip to these two places first.Just leave for a short while, two hours at most.yelena fell asleep No, she won't hear me go out.I jumped up, put on my overcoat, and picked up my hat, but I was about to leave when Yelena suddenly called me over.I wonder; is she pretending to be asleep? Let me note by the way that Yelena, although she pretended not to want to talk to me, often called me and asked me any doubts--this proves the opposite, and I was even glad to see it. "Where do you want me to go?" she asked when I came up to her.Generally speaking, her questions always came out of the blue, and I didn't expect them at all.This time, I didn't even catch it right away. "You just told your friend that you were going to give me away to somebody. I'm not going anywhere." I leaned over her: she was hot all over; her fever had returned.I began to reassure her, and told her to be at ease; I assured her that if she would stay with me, I would never send her anywhere.As I say this, He took off his coat and hat.Under the circumstances, I couldn't be more relieved to leave her alone. "No, go if you want!" she said, and immediately understood that I wanted to stay. "I wanted to sleep; and fell asleep in a moment." "How can you do it alone?..." I said hesitantly, "However, I will definitely be back in two hours..." "Well, you go. Otherwise, I'll be sick for a whole year, and you can't go out for a whole year," she said, trying to smile, and at the same time gave me a strange look, as if with A beautiful emotion aroused in her fought like.Poor child!Although she is withdrawn by nature and obviously stubborn, her kind and gentle heart is revealed from time to time. First I hurried off to see Anna Andreyevna.She was waiting impatiently for me, complaining when she saw me; she herself was in a terrible state of anxiety: Nikolai Sergeyitch had gone out as soon as dinner was over.but where It's gone, but I don't know.I figured that the old lady must have been unable to bear it, and according to her old habit, she told him everything in a roundabout way.Then again, she confessed it to me almost bluntly, saying she couldn't help it. Share this joy with him, but Nikolai Sergeyitch, she said, had a gloomy face, blacker than a cloud, and said nothing, he "was always silent, not even my I don't answer any questions," he said suddenly after lunch. Then he patted his ass and left.When Anna Andreyevna said this she was almost trembling with fear, and she begged me to stay with her until Nikolai Sergeyitch came back.I found an excuse, declined her invitation, and almost flatly I told her that I might not be able to come tomorrow, and the reason why I came to her now was to tell her about it in advance.This time, we almost didn't quarrel.She wept; she reproached me violently and sadly, till I was gone After leaving the room, she rushed over, put her arms around my neck, hugged me tightly with both hands, and told me not to be angry with her as an "lonely old woman", and not to take her words to heart. I unexpectedly found Natasha alone again—strange to say, I thought she was not very happy about my visit this time, compared with yesterday and the previous few times.It was as if I had something to displease her, to hinder her.I asked Has she, Alyosha, been here today?She replied, "Of course he has, but not for long. He promised to come again this evening," she added, as if pensive. "Did you come here last night?" "No--no. He's busy," she added as if in a tongue twister. "Well, how are you, Vanya, how are you?" I saw that she wanted to talk about him for some reason.I looked her up and down: she was obviously upset.However, she found that I was watching her, looked at her, and suddenly gave me a quick and slightly angry look, she The blow was so ruthless, as if my whole body was burned with eyes. "She has misfortune again," I thought, "but she just doesn't want to tell me." Because she asked me about my situation, I told Yelena exactly what happened.She was very interested after hearing it.My story even surprised her. "My God! You left her alone and sick!" she cried. I said that I didn't want to come to see her today, but I was afraid that she would be angry with me, maybe there was something I could help. "Help," she murmured to herself, as if thinking of something, "I need your help, Vanya, but we'll talk about that later. Have you been to the old men?" I told her what happened. "Yeah, only God knows how Father will react to the news. But then again, what doesn't react..." "How can you say that?" I asked, "Such a sudden change!" "That's right... where has he been? Last time you thought he came to see me. I said Vanya, if you can, you must come to me tomorrow. I'll tell you." I can't say anything. I'm bothering you, I think I'm very sorry; now you'd better go back to your little guest.It's been about two hours since you left the house, right? " "It's been two hours. Good-bye, Natasha. By the way, how did Alyosha treat you today?" "What's the matter with Alyosha? It's nothing... Your curiosity is even puzzling." "Goodbye my friend." "Goodbye." She handed me her hand a little casually, and when I shook her goodbye for the last time, she turned her head away from me again.I left her a little surprised. "But then again;" I thought, "she did There are many things that should be carefully considered.This is no joke.Tomorrow she will be the first to speak, and tell me everything. " I came home gloomily, and as soon as I walked in the door, it took me by surprise.it's getting dark.I saw Yelena sitting on the couch with her head bowed, as if she was deep in thought.She didn't look up at me, she seemed lost in thought.i walked up to her side; she was talking to herself, whispering something. "Shouldn't you be talking nonsense?" I thought. "Elena, my dear, what's the matter with you?" I asked, sitting down beside her, and putting my arms around her. "I want to get out of here . . . I think I'd better go to her place," she said, without looking up at me. "Where are you going? Who are you going to?" I asked in surprise. "Go to her, to Bubnova's. She keeps saying that I owe her a lot of money, and that she paid for my mother's burial... I don't want her to scold my mother, I'm going to her house to work, Earn money to pay her back... After the debt is paid off, I will automatically leave her. And now , I'm going to find her again. " "Don't worry, Yelena, it's impossible to go to her," I said, "she'll torture you; she'll ruin you..." "Let her destroy me, let her torture me," Ye Jianna said enthusiastically, "I'm not the first one; aren't people better than me suffering too? A beggar on the street told me that .I am poor, I want to be poor. I want to be poor All my life; that's what my mother told me when she was dying.I'm going to work... I don't want to wear this dress..." "I'll go buy it tomorrow, and I'll change it for you. I've brought your book too. You can stay here with me. As long as you don't want to, I will never give you to others; don't worry... ..." "I want to hire someone as a servant." "Okay, okay! But don't worry, lie down and sleep for a while!" But the poor child burst into tears as he spoke.Gradually, her tears turned into wailing.I don't know what to do with her; I bring her some water.Wet her temples and head.Finally she collapsed exhausted On the sofa, her cold and fever broke out again, first she felt cold all over.I covered her with everything I could find, and she finally followed, but she slept restlessly, shaking from time to time and waking up with a start.Although I didn't walk much today, but I was very tired, so I decided to lie down early.I was distracted and overwhelmed.I have a hunch that this child will definitely bring me a lot of trouble.But what troubled me most was Natasha and her recent situation.Anyway, now that I think about it , seldom was my heart more heavy than this unlucky night when I was about to fall asleep.