Chapter 37 Chapter Eighteen 1

* Right[1] because he never did that Tell him to bring breakfast with two eggs to his bedside I haven't been like this since I was in the City Emblem Hotel He used to pretend to be sick in bed voice ailment To win the heart of that wizened old crone Riordan He thought the old woman would be at his mercy But she didn't leave us a penny all dedicated to mass for herself and her soul The number one stinger in the world I'm afraid to pay fourpence for the glass of wood spirits I drink for myself Jing told me about this disease and that disease she suffered from. blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah.

Earthquake, the end of the world[3] let's have some fun, shall we? Well, if all the women in the world were like her, it would be terrible Damn the bathing suits and topless evening dresses of course no one would ask her to wear something like this Presumably because no man would pay her a second glance She is so religious because she is religious hope i never become like her Oddly she didn't ask us to cover our faces again she is indeed a well educated woman She just babbled and kept talking to Mr. Riordan. I think he's glad he got rid of her and her dog always sniffing my fur clothes

keeps getting under my petticoat especially when it comes I like it though that he[4] is polite to an old woman like that Regardless of whether it is against the plate or the beggar he is like this Never put on airs but it won't always be like this if there's something seriously wrong with him hospital is much better everything is so clean there But I think I'll have to push him for a month before he says yes right But there's another nurse in the hospital He will refuse to leave the hospital Until they kicked them out maybe the nurse was a nun like in that nasty photo he was wearing

But that woman is no more a nun than I am right Because men get weak when they're sick Just say useless things It wouldn't be good without a woman to take care of it. if he has a nosebleed that would be a big deal That time at the choir picnic at Sugar Cone He sprained his foot not far from the South Loop The look on his face looked like he was about to whimper I was wearing that dress that day[5] Miss Stark brought him flowers The worst wilted flowers she could find on the bottom of the basket She begs for nothing to get into a man's bedroom speak in her girly voice

As if he was dying for her sake Then I'll never see your face again he is lying on the bed beard grows longer more like a man Dad used to be like this too, I hate bandages and medicines When he cut the corn with the razor and the big toe bleeds I've always been afraid he's going to get sepsis If it is me who is sick I want to see what kind of care I can get But when Of course Women and Taoists always hide their illness save people all that trouble they are this like right where has he been Judging by his appetite I'm sure of it in spite of Why can't I always be in love

Otherwise, I just think the girls won't be able to eat. or in the middle of the night A kiln sister who solicits customers on the street if he has been there So what do you say when you go to the restaurant, it's just him A set of lies deliberately deceived [6] hines keep me who did i meet what right i met menton Do you remember who else is coming let me think about it i think of him baby face Not long after he got married, he was at the Puer Wanjing Art Association[7] Flirting with a chick I just put my back on it he sneaked away looks shy What's the matter?

But there was one time when he made a bold move to please me. thank goodness he can do it self-important big mouth swollen eyes the biggest idiot i've ever seen Everyone still calls him a lawyer i don't Willing to talk so long on the bed Otherwise it would be him[8] where did you meet or just a sneaky little bitch If only they knew him as well as I do right I went to the front room the day before yesterday When fetching matches and showing Dignam's obituary in the newspaper He's writing some letter where he covered it with blotting paper Pretending to be thinking about something business

that was probably addressed to someone That woman must think he's being taken for a ride Because that's what all men do at his age Especially since he's almost forty now So the woman tried to cheat his money with sweet words There's no fool like an old fool Then again to cover up kiss my ass like always He studies Who is doing this trick with or has been dating for a long time? i don't care at all Although I'm still trying to figure it out As long as the two of them don't always be under my nose Like the guy we hired back in Ontario Heights bitch mary[9] like

Put a fake ass on him to teach him how to fuck Smell the paint on him The smell of powdered pussy disgusting Once or twice I got really suspicious. called him over Aren't they afraid of being kicked or punched in that part when they walk around?[154] woman of course means beauty everyone knows this when we lived on hollis street He got fired from that store in Healey i sell clothes And strum[155] live in the coffee palace He said I could be a nude model for some rich guy if I let my hair down Will it be like the nymph out of the water[156] except that she is younger Or I'm a bit of a rotten whore in that Spanish photo he kept[157]

I asked him[158] Is Nymph always walking around like that[159]? I also asked him Met something with a rubber tube in it[160] that word He brought out the tongue twister about the avatar[161] He'll never explain a thing so easily that people can understand and then he burns the bottom of the pot[162] and it's all for frying his kidneys There's nothing here He[163] always wants to bite that nipple over there There are still teeth marks I couldn't help shouting how scary they were always trying to hurt you I had so much milk when I gave birth to Millie Enough to feed two dolls

What the hell is going on? He says I'll make a pound a week if I go to be a nurse I'm bloated in the morning overflowing Penrose, a frail-looking student at the Citron's at No. 28, almost caught sight of me washing there through the window, but I quickly grabbed a towel and covered my face. That's what he does when weaning her They[166] can make me sick enough It wasn't over until he asked Dr. Brady[167] to give me a belladonna pill and I had to ask him to suck it for me and he said they were hard But sweeter and thicker than a cow's and then he wanted me to squeeze the milk into tea He's a real fool I bet someone should put him in a news column If I could remember half of everything, I could write a book Let's call it the Prince Poldy portfolio, right? The skin here is much smoother and he sucks them [168] a variety of heads right I look at the clock and it's like I have a big baby they put everything in their mouths These men always want all the pleasure they can get from a woman Until now I still feel the sucking force of his mouth Oh my God I have to spread myself out i wish he was here or someone else It made me throw it over and over again so that I felt like my body was full of fire. Or if only I could dream how he dropped me a second time and he scratched me with his fingers from behind I put my legs around him Lost for five minutes in a row and I couldn't help but hug him tight oh my god I can't wait to yell out all kinds of words fuck it shit or say something but don't look ugly Exhausted, wrinkled face Who knows what's going on in his mind You have to figure out how men feel Thank goodness men aren't all like him Some guys like women to be gentle when they fuck I noticed the difference He didn't say a word when he did it I raised my eyes and looked at him like that Dian Luan Dang Feng's hair is a bit messy I stuck my tongue out of my lips towards this savage beast Thursday friday day Saturday two days sunday three days Oh God how can I wait for Monday furu si ee ee ee ee ee eh eh eh eh eh Where is the train pulling its nose? Those locomotives are really strong like a big giant water rolling all over Splashing in all directions like the end of the old sweet Yiyi's love song oh oh oh [169] Those poor men had to leave their wives and families all night in a smoky locomotive It's been a suffocating day and luckily I've burned half of the back issues of the Freeman and the Photo Dips[170] He is getting more and more sloppy this kind of stuff is lying around I threw the rest in the latrine Tomorrow I'll ask him to cut them out for me or save them for next year for a few pennies and save him from asking where are the papers from January last year All those old overcoats are just adding to the heat I got bundled up and took it outside the hall. That rain was so nice and refreshing I woke up after a good night's sleep I think it's getting more and more like Gibraltar man How hot that place is, and then the fierce easterly wind blows from the Mediterranean, black and shining like night Rocks[171] stand in the middle Compared with the Sanyan Mountain they think is great, it seems to be a tall and big giant There are red sentry boxes and poplar groves in the east and west Everything is hot and smoking, and there are mosquito nets[172] and the smell of evaporating rain in gutters from looking at the sun all day get dizzy That pretty dress from a Paris bargain store[174] that father's friend Mrs. Stanhope[173] gave me is all over the place. How bad it is! She also wrote my dearest Miss Dog on it. She is so nice. What's her name? It said on it that I will only send a postcard to tell you. I sent a little gift just had a nice hot bath and felt like a very clean dog Middle Eastern[175] also had a good time She called him Middle Eastern We must go back to Zhibu[176] to hear you sing Waiting and in old Madrid[177] The collection of etudes he bought me is called Conkorn [178] also bought me a new shawl, I can't pronounce the name, it's very sweet, but it tore after a little trouble But I think it's still pretty Do you keep thinking about the delicious tea we had together I love the sweet raisin scone and raspberry crunch Here, my dearest Miss Dog must write me a kind reply as soon as possible. She forgot to write her greetings to your father and Captain Grove. With deep affection Sincerely love you Hester XXXXX[179] She doesn't look like a married at all she's like a girl He's older than she This Middle Eastern guy loves me That time at the bullfight in La Linea[180] He put his foot on the wire so I could step over That time Matador Gomez[181] got a pair of bull ears[182] We gotta wear these clothes who the hell invented it and expect you to walk up Jillini Hill[183]? Take that outing for example I got my corset so tight I couldn't run or run in a crowd can't jump aside So when the other ferocious old bull started to pounce on the matador with the belt and the two decorations on the hat, I was scared those beastly men shouted Long Live the Matador[184] Women in beautiful little white capes are just as loud Those poor horses were torn apart[185] Internal organs are exposed I've never heard of such a thing in my life Yeah when I imitated the barking of the dog over at Bell Lane[186] he always looks sad at me but the dog is sick what happened to them I guess they're already dead, both of them are dead. It's all like a fog that makes you feel so old I baked those cookies, of course I ate them all myself. And there's a girl named Hester we used to have thicker hair than mine than hers when i comb my hair She taught me how to tuck it in the back How to tie a knot with one hand and a thread we're like cousins I was in my teens I slept in her bed that windy night She put her arms around me till morning we grab the pillow how interesting When I went to Alameda Promenade with Pa and Captain Grove to hear the band play He stared at me every chance he got and I first looked at the church Then look at the windows again I look down Our eyes meet, I feel like needles are strung all over my body dizzy eyes I remember looking in the mirror afterwards and hardly recognizing myself[187] the sun was tanning my skin so excited I was like a rose I didn't close my eyes all night because of her[188] It's not good But I could have stopped half way and she gave me a copy of the Moonstone[189] and told me to read it was the first Wilkie Collins I ever read I also read Lady Henry Wood's Easterlynn[190] and Ashley Diart's Shadow Henry Dunbar by another woman I lent him the book There is also a picture of Malvi in ​​it to let him know that I am not without [191] She also sent me Lord Lytton's Eugene Allam[192] Lady Hungerford's Fair Molly[193] I don't like books with Molly Take the one he [194] borrowed for me. It's about a woman from Flanders. a bitch[195] she always steals what she can get Clothes are made into yards of material Oh this blanket weighs too much on me now it's fine I don't even have a decent pajamas He curls up when he sleeps next to him And he's always playing around It's good now When it was hot, I turned over and sat on the chair and my underwear was soaked in sweat. stick to ass Stand up fat and hard and sit down on the sofa cushions Lift up the clothes and see that there are tons of bedbugs at night I can't even read a line with a mosquito net God That's a lot of us. Seems like hundreds of years ago. Of course they never came back. Besides, she didn't write the address right. Maybe she was paying attention to her Middle Eastern guy. People keep walking away. Don't we, I still remember the waves on the sea that day, the high bows of the small boats swinging up and down and the smell coming from the boats I'm seasick with the uniforms of the officers ashore on vacation. He said nothing[196] he is serious I was wearing button-up boots and my skirt was blowing up and she kissed me six or seven times did I cry? yeah i must be crying or almost cried My lips trembled when I said good-bye She was wearing a fancy blue shawl made for sailing with a fancy side very beautiful Bored like a ghost when they're gone I almost think about running away, crazy lonely No matter where I stay, I can't settle down father, aunt marriage waiting[197] always waiting lure him to me oh oh oh here Waiting for no way to add ah ah fast his fast pace The damn cannon is firing[198] Rumble over the shop especially on the queen's birthday If you don't open the windows it shakes everything down in every direction Whoever General Ulysses S. Grant [199] is is always considered a big man when he disembarks he's been there since before the Great Flood Old Sprague [200] of the Consul wears his frock coat Poor man, he's actually mourning for his son drums rumbling So those poor hapless soldiers walk around with lunch boxes this place smells Worse than those bearded old Jews who come to the assembly of the Levites[201] in their long hooded coats the bugles over and over order the artillery to wipe their guns and get ready for battle Fire the cannon and return to the camp The guard with the key is walking forward The gates are locked and the bagpipes only Captain Grove and Pa talking about Rock Beach and Previn[202] Sir Garnett Wu Shili [203] and Gordon of Khartoum [204] I light their pipes every time they [205] go out That old drunk always keeps his watered-down liquor on the window sill Don't want to see him have a drop of wine left He picks his nostrils and ponders some dirty stories next to him where to talk But he never careless when I'm around Always find some lame excuse to send me out of the house Still complimenting Of course all on the back of Bushmill whiskey[206] But if another woman comes he'll say it again I guess he's been dying to drink non-stop for how many years It's been like a year No one writes to me except the ones I send myself with a few slips of paper I'm sick of it Sometimes I want to fight with my nails I prick up my ears to hear that one-eyed old Arab playing a jackass-like instrument side hee ah hee ah ah hee ah singing All my homage to your jackass jumble of shit sucks Now I hang my hands Looking out the window, is there a handsome man in the house just across the way? Hollis street medical students being chased by nurses I stand at the window put on gloves and hat Said I'm going out now The other party didn't understand my intentions at all. how dull they are Never understood what you said You even wanted to print it on a big poster for them to see I actually shook hands with him twice with my left hand[207] He ignored me when I frowned a little outside the chapel in Westland Side Street I wondered where their great wisdom came from Their gray matter [208] is all in their tails If you ask me about the intelligence of those country crooks[209] in the City Emblem Hotel they suck Not worth the bulls and cows they slaughtered for meat and the ringing of coal bells the loud bastard Trying to rip me off with someone else's bill out of his hat look at his claws And those who eat and drink while repairing pots and pans come to ask if there are any broken bottles for the poor no guests no mail Except for the check[210] mailed to him and the advertisement for the Miracle Lotion to my dear lady Just his letter this morning[211] and Millie's postcard yes She wrote him[212] a letter Who sent the last letter I got? Oh, it's from Mrs. Devon. Here she has a whim Writing from Canada after so many years Ask me for tomatoes and peppers[213] for this recipe Floyd Dillon[214] hasn't heard from me since she wrote to tell me she's married to a rich architect if what I hear is to be believed If so, they have an eight-room villa Her father[215] was a very kind man He was almost seventy years old always so good tempered Say what there you go miss tweedy Either Miss Gillespie's got a steel kiss[216] He also has a full sterling silver coffee set in a mahogany sideboard but died so far away I hate the kind of people who are always complaining to people Everyone has their own troubles. Poor Nancy Blake passed away last month. acute pneumonia here I don't know her very well. She's not so much my friend. Rather Floy's It's such a hassle to have to write back What he said [217] is always wrong no period like a speech My condolences on the unfortunate passing away I keep typos Write nephew as a shackle or something I hope he writes me a longer letter next time [218] if he really loves me Oh thank goodness I found such a person He gave me what I needed so badly to cheer me up In this place you don't have the kind of opportunities you had long ago I hope someone writes a love letter to me His writing wasn't very good and I told him to write whatever he wanted Song Taian Sincerely Hugh Boylan In old Madrid[219] that set silly women believe love is sighing i am about to die But if he writes I guess there's always some truth to it Whether it's true or not Anyway, it will keep you busy all day. There's always something to look forward to in life Looking around, it's like a new world I can write back in bed so he can picture me reply short just write a few words Not one of those long letters that Artie Dillon[220] used to write to a guy in the Dublin courthouse Added the mark of XXX on it It was copied from the Lady's Ruler Book [221] In the end he kicked her away. I told her then Just write a few simple words in the letter. let him figure it out In fact, to remind her don't act rashly marriage proposal to the man with the same frankness In this way you can get the greatest happiness in the world my god no other way To them everything is fine what about women As soon as they get old, they will be thrown to the bottom of the ash pit. The first one was from Malvi where was i lying in bed that morning Madame Rubio[222] brought it with the coffee she stood there dumbfounded i want to use hairpins to open letters and pointing to them[223] But I can't remember the word Herkira. Isn't the hairpin staring her in the face, a stubborn old guy? with her wig what an ugly It's also strange to be smug, almost 80 or 100 years old Wrinkled Although pious But you have to listen to her for everything. There is one thing that she can't figure out. Although there are so many border guards[224] But the Atlantic Fleet, which accounts for half of the world's warships, is still here British flag waving Because four drunken british sailors took the whole rock from them And because unless there is a wedding ceremony I accompany her in the shawl to the Church of the Virgin Mary [225] to attend Mass not often enough she is not happy She speaks of the miracles performed by the saints and the dark-haired Virgin Mary in silver And said on Easter Sunday morning The sun jumped three times[226] When the priest sent the Vatican[227] to the dying people with the ringing of the bell She crossed the Eucharist He [228] signs an admirer i almost jumped for joy I saw him follow me from the window of Carrier[229] I'm determined to hang with him He touched me lightly as he walked by But it never occurred to me that he would write to set me up on a date, and I tucked the letter in the bodice of my petticoat all day. When dad goes out to practice, he hides in dark places and corners and reads Desperate to discover something in the language[230] of the handwriting and stamps remember singing May I wear a white rose[231] I even want to set that old ben clock a little faster He was the first man to kiss me At the foot of the Moorish Wall[232] When my lover was young[233] I never thought about kissing until he sticks his tongue in my mouth his mouth is so sweet and young I put my knees towards him a few times good to learn how to kiss what did i say to him I told him for fun I'm engaged to the son of a Spanish nobleman named Don Miguel de la Flora[234] And he still believes it. I can't say that I'm going to marry that person in three years. Jokes often tell a lot of truth There is a blooming flower[235] I did say a few honest words to him about myself. so that he can imagine he doesn't like those spanish girls Probably one of them dumped him I turned him on and he crushed all the flowers he brought me on my chest He cannot count pesetas and pera gorda[236] I taught him He said he was born in Capoquin[237] on the edge of the black water But the days go by so fast the day before he left may right it's may The month in which the Spanish doll emperor[238] was born I'm always like that when spring comes I wish I had a new guy every year Climb high up under the rock cannon near Ohara Tower [239] I told him it was struck by lightning And all those stories about the old man they sent to Clapham[240] monkeys have no tails Carrying each other on their backs and running around quickly for others to see Madam Ruvio says There is an old female monkey born and raised in Gibraltar Capture the Chick from Insyth Farm [241] as soon as you approach it throws stones at you he's looking at me[242] to try to encourage him but without being too revealing I'm wearing the white blouse with the front open they become plump I said I was tired and we lay down on the fir col[243] it was a desolate place I think that must be the tallest rock in the world With tunnels and concealed battery[244] And those dreadful rocks and St. Michael's Grotto[245] Hanging icicles upside down or whatever they call Still with a ladder[246] My boots are splattered with mud dots Those monkeys must have taken this road across the sea to Africa when they died.[247] Ships on the sea in the distance are like thin chips of wood It was the Maltese ship that sailed past[248] right ocean and sky You could literally just lie there forever and do whatever you want He loves to touch them tenderly through the clothes[249] It's that bulging energy that rushes I snuggle him from above To wear out my white straw hat wear it on your head The left side of my face is the prettiest Since it's his last day my blouse is open He is wearing a see-through shirt I can see his pink skin He begged me to let his dick touch mine a little bit but i didn't agree At first he was annoyed and I was scared Who knows if you can get lung disease Either get me pregnant[250] and leave me a doll that old maid Ines told me It's enough to drop even a single drop Then I tried it with a banana But I'm worried that it will fold inside me can't find it Yeah because once they took a piece of something out of a woman been there for several years Topped with lime salt They were all frantically trying to get back where they came from You always thought you would never go that deep Somehow they've already done it with you since they arrived. just wait for next time right because there is such a wonderful feeling always so gentle how did we end up right Oh right I dragged that one into my handkerchief pretend not to be so excited But I still spread my legs apart I don't let him touch the inside of my petticoat because my skirt has side slits I tortured him to death provoke him first I just love teasing that dog in the restaurant Rust oh ok ok oh ok he closed his eyes A bird flies below us he shy But I just love the way he looked that morning when i lay on him like that unbutton him When he pulled out his one and pulled the skin back I made him blush a little That thing looks like it has eyes Men's lower body is all buttons He called me Molly, my dear[251] What's his name[252] Jack Joe is Harry Mulvey right I reckon he's a lieutenant white and clean He had a cheerful voice so I stroked the whole thing That thing is everything and he still has a mustache said he would come back my god It seems like yesterday to me Said even though I'm married He'll do that to me too i promised him ok[253] sure now i'll let him[254] fuck me fast maybe he's dead Either die or become a captain or an admiral almost twenty years if i say fir tree col He will soon [255] if he came from behind Cover my eyes with your hands and let me guess I'll feel it's him he is still young forties Maybe married a girl by the Blackwater River And totally changed Men are all that virtuous Men don't even have half a woman's personality She has no idea what I did with her dear husband He hadn't even dreamed of her back then. And again in broad daylight Saying that it is in front of the whole world is not enough for them to write an article and publish it in a news paper[256] I got a little wild afterward. I blew up that old paper bag that the Bernardi brothers [257] used to hold biscuits and cracked it my god bang loud The snipe and the pigeons all screamed and we walked back the way we came Go over the middle mountain and bypass the former guard house and Jewish cemetery Pretending to read the epitaph in Hebrew i want to take a shot with his pistol He said he didn't bring it with him he can't figure me out No matter how many times I correct him He always wears his cap on one side HMS Calypso[258] shaking my hat The old bishop [259] from the altar A long discourse on the higher duties of women Now girls ride bikes also wearing a pointed hat What time to wear the new bloomer suit God please give him sanity and give me more money I guess it was named after him[260] I never thought Bloom would be my last name I typed it over and over to see what it would look like on a business card Or when ordering from the butcher shop, practice pen mobloom tribute After I married him[261] Josie [262] used to say You are like a flower in full bloom[263] Oh better than brin or steal[264] briggs or one of those nasty surnames with the word ass in it Mrs. Ramsay Bartom[265] or another kind of Bartom I'm not going to be obsessed with the last name Mulvey either. Or if I divorced him[266] Then I'll be Mrs. Boylan Whoever my mom is since she has a lovely name like Lunita Laredo herself God should give me a better name we turn around Bypass Jesse's back Running down Willis Road to Cape Europa[267] a pair of little things like Millie[268] dangling and jumping under my smock Now I love looking down at them when she runs up the stairs I leap up towards the pepper trees and poplars Pull off a leaf and throw it at him He went to India[269] Said to send me a letter telling me about the sailing these men are going to circle the earth while they still can At least give the woman a hug or two and get drowned or blown away as soon as she sets out That Sunday morning I climbed up to the level ground on Windmill Hill with the now dead Captain Rubios. His little binoculars are like the ones sentinels carry and he's gonna get one or two off the ship I'm wearing the dress from the cheap mall in Paris[270] Wearing that coral necklace the strait glistens I can see all the way to Morocco through it And almost overlooking the white Bay of Tangier and the snow-covered Atlas Mountains[271] Strait is like a river so clear harry Molly my dear[272] Since then I always miss him at sea[273] When celebrating Mass and celebrating the Eucharist My petticoat is starting to slip I kept that handkerchief under my pillow for weeks In order to smell the smell on his body[273] Can't find decent perfume in Gibraltar Only one cheap Spanish skin [274] It will go away soon Instead it will leave a bad smell I want to give him a memorial for good luck He gave me a crude Claddagh ring[275] when gardner went to south africa I gave him the ring where the boers killed him with war and fever But they still beat it brings bad luck like an opal or a pearl That must be pure gold of eighteen ka[276] Because it's so heavy[277] I can see his smooth-shaven face fururu si ee ee ee That train is crying again, but the past is nostalgic, the years are gone forever Return [278] i close my eyes breathe lips forward kiss Open your eyes with a sad look Weakly Before the fog falls on the world[279] i hate this place A sweet love song came[280] oh oh oh oh Next time I'm standing in front of the footlights I'm going to sing this out loud Kathleen Carney[281] and her squeaky gang this lady that lady that other lady A group of sparrows are giggling and giggling Talking about politics that I don't understand at all how funny they look Irish native beauty I'm a soldier's daughter and who is your father, a bootmaker and a tavernkeeper? please forgive You were riding in a four-wheeled carriage I just thought it was a wheelbarrow[282] If those bitches ever get the chance to be like me Walking in Alameda with an officer's arm on recital night If my legs give up, I will fall to the ground and die. My eyes are shining. And my boobs they lack that heat God have mercy on their stupid brains I knew more about men and life when I was fifteen than all of them knew when they were fifty They don't know how to sing a song like that Gardner [283] said Any man who sees my mouth and teeth and my smile just think of that At first I was worried that he would not like [284] my pronunciation he's so british This is all my father left me Although there are still those stamps Anyway, my eyes and figure catch up with mom he keeps saying how proud they are some people are nasty he's not like that at all he does have a crush on my lips Let them find a decent husband first Raise another girl like my daughter Then see if they can teach a fashionable rich girl like Boylan who can pick and choose with any woman to work hard Hug it tightly and throw it four or five times Or let’s talk about it with my voice, or if I didn’t marry him[285] I could have been a lead singer Came the old sweet low voice chin up don't hold it too tight avoid double chin My wife's boudoir [286] is too long the audience won't ask you to repeat About moats and rooms with vaults at dawn, yes I want to sing about the wind blowing from the south[287] He sang after doing that shit on the steps leading to the chorus seats I want to change the lace on that black blouse 好让奶头更显眼些 我还要对啦 我得把那个大扇子修理好了 让那帮人眼红得要命 只要一想到他[288］ 我那个眼儿就总是发痒 我憋不住啦 觉得里面有股气儿 还是放掉的好 不要吵醒他[289] 省得他再来那一套 我已经把肚子后背和侧腹都洗干净啦 可别让他把我弄得浑身是口水 哪怕我们有个洗澡间也好哇 或是我自己能单独有个房间 不管怎样我希望他自个儿能睡一张床 那样就不至于把他那双冰冷的脚丫子压在我身上啦 天主啊 哪怕给我们一块能够放屁的地方呢要么稍微放松动点儿 对啦 像这样憋着稍微侧着身子 微弱地[290] 悄悄地 嘶喂咿咿咿咿咿 这是远处的火车 极弱地[291]咿咿咿咿咿 再来一支歌儿 这下子可松快啦 不论你呆在哪里 放屁尽随你的意[292]难道是干完了之后我就着一杯茶吃下去的猪排在作怪吗 由于天气热不怎么新鲜了吧 我倒是一点也没闻出什么来 我敢说猪肉铺那个长得古里古怪的家伙[293]是个大骗子我希望那盏灯没冒烟儿 那会叫我的鼻子堵满煤烟子 可也总比他整宵点着煤气灯强 在直布罗陀的时候我躺在床上总是睡不消停 就是得爬起来瞧个分明关于这一点 我怎么会敏感得这么历害呢 不过一到冬天 我就喜爱上它啦觉得有个伴儿 Oh 老天爷 那年冬天可冷得蝎虎 那时候我才十来岁 yes? 对啦 我有个大娃娃一会儿把那些稀奇古怪的衣服都给它穿上 一会儿又一件件地扒下来 冰冷的风从山上飕飕地刮过来 什么内华达来着 希拉内华达[294] 我穿着一小件短汗衫 站在炉火跟前 是爬起来取暖的 我就爱穿着汗衫满屋子跳舞 后来又飞快地跑回床上 夏天的时候对面那所房子里那个家伙准是把灯熄啦 经常一直守在那儿 我呢 赤条条地跳来跳去我常常喜欢站在脸盆架跟前 脱光了衣服轻轻地拍一拍 要么就抹点儿雪花膏不过使用便器的时候我也总会把灯灭了 我们俩曾这么躺来着 这一夜我就甭打算睡啦 不管怎样 我希望他[295]可别跟那帮医科学生打得火热他们会教他走上邪路 让他以为自己又年轻起来啦 早晨四点钟才回家 准是四点 要不是更晚的话 but 他总算还懂得规矩 没把我吵醒 亏得他们能找到那么多话题 絮絮叨叨居然聊上一宵 乱花钱 喝得越来越醉 难道他们就不能喝白水吗 然后他就对咱点起菜来啦 要吃鸡蛋喝茶 还要芬顿黑线鳕和烤得热热的面包抹黄油 我想他会像一国之王似的在床上欠起身来倒提着调羹对着鸡蛋使劲儿地抡上抡下 这一套到底是从哪儿学来的呢 我就爱听他早晨端着托盘 那一个个杯子咯嗒咯嗒响成一片 跌跌撞撞地爬上楼梯 还有他逗猫的声音 猫儿是为了图自个儿舒坦才往你身上蹭啊蹭的 不晓得它身上长没长跳蚤 猫儿简直跟女人一样坏 老是舔啊舔的都给弄湿啦 可我讨厌它们那爪子我倒想知道它们是不是能瞧见咱们瞧不见的东西呢 它总是在楼梯顶儿上一坐就是好长时间 瞪大了眼睛听着 而我还在等着它呢 一向总是这样的 可它又是能干的强盗 偷了我买的那条漂亮新鲜的比目鱼[296] 我想明天买点儿鱼要么今天就去买 是星期五吧 对啦 这就么着吧 添上点儿牛奶冻 加上乌梅果酱像老早以前那样 那种李子苹果混合的两磅重的果酱罐头可不行就是伦敦和纽卡斯尔的威廉斯一伍兹[297]那家店买的 能保存一倍时间 只因为有骨头 我就讨厌那些鳝鱼 鳕鱼对啦 我要去买一段新鲜鳕鱼 我总是买够三个人吃的 净忘记[298] 反正我对巴克利[299]肉店那一成不变的肉已经感到腻味啦牛肋肉和腿肉 牛排和羊脖子和小牛内脏 只要一听这名儿就够啦要不要组织一次郊游呢 假定我们大家每人摊五先令 或者叫他出钱[300] 还为他请上另外什么女人 请谁呢 弗莱明大妈[301]吧 我们坐马车到荆豆谷或草莓园[302]去 先得叫他把[303]所有的马蹄铁都检查一遍 就像他检查信件一样 No 可别请博伊兰到那儿去啦 对啦带上些夹着冷小牛肉和火腿的什锦三明治 那儿的河堤脚下特地盖起了一座座小房子[304] 但是他[305]说那简直热得像火焰一样 反正银行假日[306]可出不得门 我就讨厌杂耍演员那样打扮的俗气娘儿们赶在这一天成群地拥来 圣灵降临节的第二天也是个倒楣的日子难怪蜜蜂要蜇他[307]哪 还是到海边儿去的好 可是我这辈子再也不跟他一块儿坐船啦 上回跟着他去了一趟布莱[308] 他对船老大[309]说 他会划船要是有人问他能不能参加获得金质奖杯的越野赛马 他也会说 能呀然后海上起了风浪 那个老掉了牙的家伙[310]就七扭八歪起来 份量整个儿偏到我这边儿来啦 [311]忽而要我把身子往右边儿靠 忽而又要我朝左边儿靠 潮水从船底儿上哗啦哗啦往里灌他划着的[312]桨也从链子上脱落下来啦 亏得我们还没统统淹死他当然会游泳喽我可不会 他穿了条法兰绒长裤 说是啥危险也没有要我放镇静点儿 我恨不得当着所有人的面儿 把那条裤子从他身上扒下来撕个稀巴烂 给他一顿常说的鞭刑 打得他浑身又黑又蓝 这对他好处可大着哪 可惜我不认识那个鼻子挺长的家伙 还带了个美人儿 从市徽饭店来的伯克[313]照例呆在码头上 四下里偷看着 他总是跑到用不着他去的地方 想瞧瞧有没有打架的 要是给啐上一口那脸蛋儿也许会变得好看一些哩 我们俩已经没有爱情啦 早就消失啦 这总算是个安慰他[314]给我带回来的是本什么书呢 偷情的快乐[315] 是位时髦绅士写的 还有一个德科克先生 我猜想他总是带着他的管子挨着个儿找女人 大家才给他取了这么个外号[316] 我甚至没能换一下我那双崭新的白鞋 完全给咸水泡坏啦我戴的那顶插着羽毛的帽子整个儿被风吹得翘了起来 在我头上摆来摆去 多么让人厌烦冒火啊 一闻海水的气味我就兴奋起来啦 当然喽 卡塔兰湾[317]的沙丁鱼啦 大头鱼啦在岩石后面那一带 它们可好看哩在渔夫的篓子里统统发着银光 他们说老鲁依吉眼看就一百岁啦是从热那亚来的 还有那个戴着耳环的高个子老头儿我可不喜欢那种你非爬上去才够得着的男人 我猜想那号人老早就死光啦 而且烂掉啦 再说我决不愿意晚上一个人呆在这个兵营般的地方 我看也只好凑合呗我们刚搬来的时候 一片混乱我甚至忘记带点儿盐来[318] 他打算在二楼的客厅开所音乐学校 还挂起一块黄铜招牌 他还提议经营起一家布卢姆私人旅馆那样一来就会像他爹在恩尼斯那样 把自己毁掉拉倒 就跟他对爹说的所有那些他要做的事情一样对我也是这么说的可我已经把他看穿啦他还对我说过我们能够去度蜜月的一切可爱的地方 月光下在威尼斯划着贡多拉[319] 他还有一张科莫湖[320]的剪报又是什么曼陀林啦 灯笼啦 Oh I say 可好啦不论我喜欢什么 他都马上着手去办要多快有多快 你要做我的丈夫吗 你肯替我拎罐儿吗[321] 就凭他所编造的种种计划 也该奖给他一枚镶着油灰边的皮制微功勋章 把咱成天家撇在这儿 你万也想不到站在门口乞讨面包皮并且罗哩罗嗦诉说身世的老叫化子 兴许就是个流浪汉 他伸过一只脚来让我关不上门 就像劳埃德新闻周刊[322]上登过照片的那个老惯犯似的 他坐了二十年的牢 刚一放出来就又图财谋害了一位老太太 替他那可怜的老婆妈妈或家里旁的女人想想吧 冲他那个长相你见了就得一溜烟儿跑开好几英里 不把所有的门窗都牢牢地上了闩我是不能安心睡下的 可这下子就更糟啦 简直像是关在监狱或疯人院里似的应该把那些家伙一古脑儿给枪毙掉 要么就用九尾鞭来抽打这么一个大块头畜生居然去向一位可怜的老太太动手把她残杀在床上 要是我的话 就把他[323]那物儿割下来 非这么做不可他这个人顶不了多大事儿 不过总比没有强那天晚上我肯定听见厨房里进了一帮贼 他只穿着件衬衫就下楼去啦 手里拿着蜡烛和拨火棍儿 就像是去逮老鼠似的 魂儿都吓掉啦 脸色刷白 做出的声音要多大有多大 那帮贼倒是得了济哩 天晓得家里其实没多少可偷的 不过尤其是因为如今米莉也走啦 那滋味儿不好受 由于他爷爷的那点因缘[324] 他竟心血来潮 打发闺女到那儿去学照相啦 可没把她送到斯克利斯学院[325]去念书 她不像我 她在国立学校的时候 可门门都考头一名哩 but 由于我和博伊兰的缘故 他不得不做那样一档子事儿 正因为如此 他才这么[326]做的 对于他怎样设计和策划一切 我心里是一清二楚的 近来只要她在家除非先把门上了闩 我简直连动也不能动 她从来也不先敲一下门就闯进来弄得我总是提心吊胆 得先用椅子把门顶住 才能戴上手套洗下身 这样会使神经受刺激的 要么就让她成天像个木头小姐似的 干脆把她装在玻璃匣子里我们俩一道看着她好啦 她离开家以前 由于笨手笨脚 Carelessly 竟把那座中看不中用的小雕像的手给弄断啦 我花上两先令才让那个意大利小男孩给修理好的 如今一点也看不出接缝儿来啦 要是给他[327]知道了呢 她甚至不肯替你把煮土豆的水倒掉 当然喽 她也是对的 省得把手弄粗啦 我留意近来他在饭桌上老是跟她讲这讲那 讲解着报纸上的事情 她呢 就假装听懂啦当然挺狡猾啦 这可是从他那边的血统来的还帮助她穿上大衣 可她要是觉得哪儿不舒服就会告诉我 而不告诉他 他不能说我装模作样 他能吗 我的确太老实啦 我估摸着他以为我已经没戏啦 再也不会有人理睬啦 Oh 我才不会呢 No 决不会那样 Oh 等着瞧吧 Oh 等着瞧吧 如今晚儿她也和汤姆德万斯[328]的两个儿子调起情来啦 都是跟我学的还跟来喊她的默里[329]家的野丫头们一道吹口哨 Millie 请你出来吧 她红得很哪 大家都尽量地向她打听这打听那 天都黑啦 还在纳尔逊街[330]骑着哈里德万斯的自行车兜圈子 他把她送到现在这个地方去也有好处 她刚巧变得约束不住了 老想去溜冰场 跟大伙儿一起从鼻孔里喷出纸烟圈儿 当我替她在上衣下摆上钉纽扣儿把线咬断的时候 从她衣服上闻出气味来啦她什么也瞒不住我 real 只怪我不该在她还穿在身上的时候就替她缝 这会造成离别的[331] 而且前一回做的李子布丁竟裂成两瓣儿啦[332] 不管人家怎么说 瞧这不就应验了吗 从我的趣味来说 她未免太爱饶舌啦 她对我说 你这件衬衫的脖领儿开得太低啦 这就好比是锅对壶说 你的底儿大黑啦我还得告诉她可不要当着一个个行人的面儿 把你的两条腿那么显眼地在窗台上翘着 人家全都在瞧着她 就像瞧我一样 当然喽 我指的是我在她这个年龄的时候 in those days 不论穿什么旧衣烂衫都显眼 在皇家剧院看唯一的路[333]那回 她傲慢地摆出一副谁也不许碰我的架势 说什么把你的脚闪开 我就讨厌人家碰我 她怕得要死 惟恐我会把她那条百褶裙给压坏啦 在剧院里黑咕隆咚的 趁着拥挤可没少碰碰撞撞的那帮家伙总是想方设法扭到你跟前儿来 上回我们在欢乐剧场后座站着看比尔博姆特里[334]公演软毡帽的时候 就有那么一个该下地狱[335]的家伙 不管是为软毡帽也罢或者为她的屁股[336]也罢 反正我再也不到那儿去给人挤来挤去啦 每隔两分钟那家伙就戳我那个部位一下 然后朝一旁望去 我认为他有点儿半吊子 后来我又见过他 正在想法儿靠近呆在斯威策[337]的橱窗外面那两位衣着时髦的太太呢好耍他那套花招儿 从他那副长相和旁的一切 我马上就认出他来 他可不记得我啦[338] 在布罗德斯通[339]临动身的时候 她甚至于不愿意我跟她亲一下嘴儿 Oh 我希望她会找到个对她献殷勤的人 就像我当年那样 她得了流行性腮腺炎 那些腺都肿胀起来 病倒了的当儿总是问这问那