Chapter 3 kitchen-2

"Mother said to come back soon. If you want, you can look at the house first. I will be your guide. Where do you judge?" "Judge what?" I sit on a soft sofa. "The mood of the room is the taste of the owner. People often say that you can tell it at a glance by looking at the bathroom." He smiled faintly and spoke in a calm and gentle manner. "kitchen." I say. "Here, here it is. Look what you want." I walked around behind Yuichi who was pouring tea, and looked at the kitchen seriously. There is a comfortable doormat on the floor.Yuichi was wearing nice slippers.The minimum necessary kitchen utensils that are commonly used are neatly placed and hung.Like my house, there are silver frying pans, German paring knives.Grandma can lose her temper, but she's happy as long as it's easy to peel.

Under the illumination of small fluorescent lamps, the tableware is waiting to be released, and the glasses are clean and shiny.At first glance, it looks messy and disorderly, but it is pure boutique.There are also special utensils: bowls for rice bowls, plates for gratin, extra-large plates, and large beer mugs with lids, all of which are also very exquisite.Yuichi told me to look around casually, so I even opened the small refrigerator and looked inside. It was neatly arranged and there was nothing left unused.I couldn't help nodding my head in approval. It's a really nice kitchen. I had a deep love for this kitchen at the first glance.

I went back to the sofa and sat down, hot tea was already served. In this room where I entered the door for the first time, I sat opposite someone I had hardly met so far, and I felt a sense of loneliness at the end of the world. The rainy night scene outside the window is gradually submerged in darkness.The big glass window reflected my figure, and I looked at myself in the figure. In this world, there is no one who is close to me by blood. No matter where I go or what I do, I am completely unrestrained. How refreshing it is. The world is so vast, the night is so deep and bottomless, joy and loneliness are so boundless, I have never experienced it until recently.I think, before that, I just closed one eye and saw the world.

"Why did you call me here?" I asked Yuichi. "I think you're having a bit of a problem." He said kindly, squinting his eyes. "Your grandmother loved me very much, and as you can see, there's a lot of empty space in the house. You have to move out of there, don't you?" Yes, now thanks to the kindness of the landlord, we are still delaying." "So you live here anyway." Yuichi said, it seems that this is a matter of course. His attitude is neither too warm nor too cold, which makes me feel very warm now.For some reason, a feeling of tempting me to cry entered my heart.

At this time, a beautiful and beautiful woman opened the door with a click, and came in panting heavily. I widened my eyes in surprise.She is much older than me.But she was really pretty.From her unusual attire and heavy make-up, I guessed right away that she worked a night job. "This is Miss Sakurai Mikage." Yuu introduced me to her. Panting for breath, she said in a slightly hoarse voice: "Take care of me." She smiled, "I am Yuichi's mother, and my name is Eriko." She is Yuichi's mother?Startled, I stared at her.The flowing and soft shawl hair, the deep and narrow eyes, the charming lips, the straight and straight nose bridge, and the fresh luster of life all over her body make people feel that she is beyond the real world.I have never met anyone like this.

I blatantly.He stared blankly at her. "Please take care of me." After being stunned for a long time, I managed to return a smile. "Please start tomorrow." She said kindly to me, and then hurriedly said to Yuichi: "I'm sorry, I really can't get away. I ran out with an excuse to go to the bathroom. If I have time in the morning. Let Miss Meiying Stay here." She flicked her red skirt and ran towards the door. "Then I'll take you by car." Yuichi said. "Sorry, for me." I said apologetically. "Where, I didn't expect there to be so many people in the store. I'm sorry for you. See you in the morning."

She lifted her high heels and ran. "You watch TV first, wait for a while." Yuichi said and then followed out.I was left alone. If you take a closer look, from the age-appropriate wrinkles and uneven teeth, it does give people the feeling of an ordinary person.Even so, she is still beautiful and beautiful, and I really want to see her charm again.A beam of warm light flickered quietly from the bottom of my heart, like a residual picture scroll.I think this is called charm.Just as Helen first learned what water is, language conjures images, which appear vividly in front of her eyes.This is not an exaggeration, this meeting is indeed so amazing.

Yuichi came back fumbling with the car keys. "I can only spare ten minutes, why not make a phone call." He said as he polished his shoes on the concrete floor. I'm still sitting on the couch. "Ok." "Mei Ying, is your mother fascinated?" "Well, it's so beautiful." I'll be honest. "However," Yuichi walked into the room with a smile, and sat on the floor in front of me, "she had plastic surgery" "Oh." I said pretending to be calm. "No wonder your faces don't look alike at all." "And, you know what?" Yuichi continued with a funny face. "She's a man."

Now I can no longer pretend to be calm.I was dumbfounded and could only stare at him, waiting for him to say it was a joke.Those slender fingers, speech and manner, body shape, could it be a man?Her beautiful figure appeared in front of me, and I held my breath waiting for him to say that sentence.But Yuichi just smiled. "But," I began, "you don't call me mother... mother?" "Actually, if it were you, would you call him father?" he said calmly.Indeed, it is a perfectly reasonable answer. "Eriko, is that the name?" "No. So it seems to be called Xiongsi."

There seemed to be a blank in front of my eyes, and I finally regained the posture of listening to the lecture, and then asked again: "Then who gave birth to you?" "In the past, she was a man," he said. "When she was very young, she was married, and the woman he married was the mother who gave birth to me." "What kind of... people?" I couldn't imagine it, so I asked Yuichi. "I don't remember either. She died when I was little. But there are pictures, see?" "Ok." I nod.He sat and pulled his schoolbag, took out a photo from his wallet, and handed it to me.It was a man with an indescribable face, short hair, small nose, and small eyes. He couldn't tell how old he was, giving people an inexplicable impression.I was silent.

"It looks weird, doesn't it?" Xiongyi asked.I smiled confusedly. "The Eriko you saw just now was adopted by the mother's family of the person in this photo for some reason when she was a child, so she grew up with my mother. When she was a man, she was good-looking and talented, and many girls liked him. But for some reason, he made his face like this." He looked at the photo with a smile, "He became obsessed with his strange-looking mother, and even ran away with his mother regardless of the family's kindness in nurturing him." I nodded. "After his mother passed away, Eriko gave up his job, held me as a child, and thought about what to do. Finally, he decided to become a woman. Because he didn't love anyone anymore. Before becoming a woman, he had Day is taciturn. He doesn’t like to give up halfway, so he has all the operations on his face, and uses the remaining money to open a bar like that, and raise me. Is this also a housewife?” He smiles. "Ah, a very unusual encounter." "I sighed. "He said that people still have to survive." I don't know whether to believe it or to hide something, the more I hear about this family, the more confused I become. But I believe in the kitchen, not to mention that the completely different mother and child have something in common: when they smile, they both shine like a Bodhisattva.I love their smiles so much. "I won't be here tomorrow morning, you can use whatever you want here." Yuichi hugged the blanket and pajamas with a sleepy face, and told me how to use the shower and where the towels are. After hearing Yuichi's extraordinary life experience, I don't know what to think.Watching the video tape, Kazuoichi chatted about what he saw in the flower shop and anecdotes about his grandmother.Time passed quickly, and it was one o'clock in the middle of the night in a blink of an eye.This sofa is very comfortable, deep, soft and big, once you sit down, you don't want to stand up again. "Your mother," I said, "since she sat on the sofa at the furniture store, she wanted it, so she bought it?" "You guessed it," he said. "She's all about whims. She's also capable of realizing her ideas, which is remarkable." "yes." I also agree. "This sofa is yours now. It's your bed," he said. "It's very useful." "I," I asked cautiously, "can I really sleep here?" "Ok." He said it very simply. "...Thank you so much." I say. After giving a brief introduction to the house, he said good night and went back to his room. I am also sleepy. I took a shower in someone else's house, and the hot water dispelled the fatigue of many days.At the same time, I was thinking, what am I doing? Putting on the borrowed pajamas, I went to the quiet room.Barefooted, I went to the kitchen again.It is truly an unforgettable kitchen. I turned back to the sofa that was my bed tonight and turned off the light. The plants in the window emerged in the half-bright moonlight, especially the night scene on the tenth floor was covered with a halo, and they were breathing quietly.The rain has stopped.In the transparent atmosphere full of moisture, the night is shining, charming and charming. Wrapped in a towel, I thought it was ridiculous to sleep next to the kitchen tonight.But I am not alone.Maybe I am looking forward to, looking forward to such a bed, enough to make me forget the past, forget the future, even for a moment.No one should be around, because it will only increase loneliness.But the kitchen, the plants, the people under the same roof, the peace and quiet... no regrets, nothing is missing here. I fell asleep peacefully. Hearing the sound of water, he woke up with his eyes open. It was a dazzling morning.I got up in a daze, and saw the back of "Eriko" in the kitchen.The clothes are more elegant than yesterday. "Good morning." She turned around with heavy makeup on her face, which made my eyes widen. "Good morning." I answered.She opened the refrigerator door, showing a embarrassed look.look at me and say: "Usually before I get up, I'm a little hungry...but there's nothing at home. Let's buy something ready-made. What do you want to eat?" I stood up and said: "Let me do something!" "Really?" she asked, and then said anxiously: "I'm so sleepy, can I hold a knife?" "It doesn't matter." The room is sunny like a solarium.The sky is blue and the colors are soft and brilliant. I stand in my beloved kitchen, feeling happy and refreshed.Suddenly I remembered that she was a man.He glanced at her involuntarily, and a storm-like shock wave swept over him. The morning light is like a rush, and the woody fragrance is elegant.She was on the dusty floor, pulling the cushions and leaning over to watch the TV.Her appearance is very kind. She happily ate the egg porridge and cucumber salad I made. At noon, the sun is shining brightly, and spring is full of vigor.From outside came the sound of children clamoring in the apartment courtyard. The flowers and plants outside the window are bathed in the soft sunlight, and the green leaves are tender and shining.The faint distant sky and thin white clouds drift leisurely. This is a warm and leisurely noon. I find it incomprehensible to have breakfast with someone you've never met at a time when it's not breakfast.The scene could not have been imagined before yesterday morning. There is no dining table, and all kinds of things are eaten directly on the floor.The sun shines through the glass, and the green waves of the Japanese herbal tea are reflected beautifully on the floor. "Yuichi," Eriko said, staring at me suddenly without moving. "I said before that you are very similar to Ale who was raised in the past. You are really like it." "Who is Ale?" "It's a puppy." "Ah—" It turned out to be a puppy. "That look, those eyelashes... When I saw you for the first time yesterday, I almost laughed out loud. Really." "Really?" I thought it was lucky to be a puppy, but it would be a disaster if it was a St. Bernard. "When Ah Le died, Xiongyi couldn't even swallow the food. So Xiongyi won't treat you as an ordinary person. As for whether there is love between men and women, I'm not sure." Mother chuckled. "Anyway, I'm still very grateful to you." I said. "He said that your grandmother loved him very much." "Yeah, grandma likes Yuichi very much." "That kid, who wasn't always brought up by me, has a lot of problems." "What's wrong?" "Yes." She said with a motherly smile. "Emotional changes, always a little cold when getting along with others, and there are many problems...In order to make him a kind-hearted child, I worked hard to raise him. He is still a kind-hearted child." "Ok, I know." "You are a good boy too." It turned out that she, who was supposed to be him, was grinning, her expression was like the shy smiles of New York actresses often seen on TV, so I felt that her expression was too enthusiastic.She was full of seductive charm, and it was the charm that made her so.I think this kind of charm is irresistible whether it is the deceased wife, son, or even herself.So she was permeated with desolate loneliness. She ate the crispy raw cucumber and said: "There are still a lot of people who don't agree. As long as you really like it, you can live here. I believe you are a good boy, and you are happy from the bottom of your heart. When you are sad, there is nowhere to go. It is the most painful. You Just live here in peace, huh?" She exhorted, that look seemed to look into my eyes. "...I will pay the rent." I said excitedly with a surge of enthusiasm in my heart. "Let me live here until I find another place to live." "Okay, you don't have to be polite. I make some egg porridge from time to time. It's much more delicious than Yuichi's." she laughed. Living alone with an older person can be very disturbing, and the healthier the older, the more so.In fact, when I lived with my grandmother, I never had such thoughts, and I was very happy.But looking back on the past now, I have to feel this way. In fact, I am afraid of "grandmother dying" all the time. Whenever I came home, my grandmother would come out of the Japanese-style room with the TV and say, "You're back." When I came home late, I always bought cakes to bring home.I was out overnight, and if I told my grandmother, she wouldn't be offended.Grandma was a very generous and kind person.While the two of us watched TV and ate cake, we sometimes drank Japanese tea and sometimes coffee to pass the time before going to bed. My grandmother's room hadn't changed since I was a kid.Here we are casually chatting about anecdotes from the literary world, or trivial matters of the day, and that's when we talked about Yuichi.No matter what ecstasy I fell in love with, no matter how much I drank and got drunk, the lonely home was always on my mind. No one told me, but I have already felt the breath coming from the corner of the room, the shocking silence, and no matter how happy the children and the elderly are, there is an irreparable space. I think Yuichi will do the same. On that dark and lonely mountain road, I don’t know when I will be able to survive independently and make a difference?Although she grew up surrounded by love, she was always lonely. ——I don’t know when, everyone will turn into dust and disappear in the darkness of time. I am staggering with my eyes open with this skin-cutting experience.Yuu's reaction to me may be natural. ...In this way, I unexpectedly started a sojourn life. Until May, I allowed myself nothing to do.In this way, every day is as happy as being in a fairyland of bliss.Temporary workers still go to get off work, clean the room after work, watch TV, bake cakes, and live the life of a housewife. The sun and the breeze slowly blowing into my heart make me very happy. Yuichi goes to school and works part-time, and Eriko works at night. It is rare for this family to get together. At first, I wasn't used to sleeping in full exposure.Some things still need to be tidied up a little bit, so I have to run back and forth between the original residence and the Tanabe house. I feel very tired, but I get used to it quickly. I love the sofa in Tanabe's house, just like the kitchen in that old house.Experience sleep on the couch.Listening to the breathing of flowers and plants, enjoying the night view outside the curtains, I always fall asleep soundly. I can't think of anything I want more than this right now, I'm very happy. I have always been like this, and I am always unwilling to move until I am forced to do nothing.This time, I got this warm bed when I was really desperate.I really appreciate God, even though I don't know if God exists or not. One day, in order to sort out the remaining things, I went back to the original house. After opening the door, I was surprised.After I stopped living there, the room completely changed its look. Silent and dark, lifeless.Everything that was familiar and kind seemed to turn away, ignoring me.I didn't say I'm back, but wanted to say sorry, and walked in lightly. Grandma died, and so did time in this room. I really feel this.There is nothing I can do.There is no other way but to get out of here.Before you move out, you need to do something about your old home.I muttered to myself as I packed my grandfather's old watch and cleaned the refrigerator. At this time, the phone rang. I thought about picking up the microphone.It's Sotaro calling. He is my past lover.We broke up when my grandmother's condition worsened. "Hey, is it Meiying?" His voice was so kind that it almost made people cry. "Long time no see!" I replied happily.Absolute lack of shyness and vanity, which is a sickness. "You didn't come to school. I thought what was wrong with you, so I asked everywhere. Later, I heard that your grandmother passed away. I was shocked... Are you sad?" "Well, it's a little flustered." "Now, can I come out?" "Ok." After I agreed, I casually looked up, and the window was gloomy and gray.It looks like the cloud flakes are being blown very fast by the wind.There must be no sorrow in this world, and nothing else.nothing. Sotaro is a person who especially likes parks.He likes the place surrounded by emerald greens, the open and distant scenery, and the wild.In college, he was also always on the bench in the yard and on the side of the sports field. As long as you want to find him, there is him in green.This has become a well-known saying.He wants to work with plants in the future.I have a relationship with a man who loves plants. The me when I was peaceful and quiet, and him when he was gentle and happy, just like the pair of student couples depicted in the painting.Because of his hobbies, we often meet in the park whether it is cold winter or other seasons.But I was often late and felt embarrassed, so I thought of a compromise location, which was a big bar next to the park. Today Sotaro was also sitting on the seat closest to the park in the big bar, looking outside. Outside the glass window, the sky was covered with dark clouds, and the trees swayed in the wind.I passed through the coming and going of the maids, and when I came to him, he spotted me and smiled brightly. I sat down on the seat opposite and said: "It is going to rain." "No, it will clear up," Sotaro said. "It's been a long time since we saw each other, why are the two chatting?" His smile is reassuring.I thought what a treat it would be to have an afternoon tea with friends who were free from each other.I know how unsightly and ugly he looks when he sleeps, I know his habit of adding a lot of milk and sugar to his coffee, and I also know that when he looks in the mirror to straighten his hair with a hair dryer, he looks silly and unruly. serious.If we were still intimate with him, I think I would not be relieved because I wiped the refrigerator and bald my right nail. "Now," Soutaro said in the midst of chatting, as if suddenly remembering, "where are you living in Tanabe?" I was taken aback. Because he was too surprised, the black tea cup in his hand tilted, and the black tea splashed into the saucer. "It's been the talk of the school. You're so good that you haven't heard anything?" Sotaro said with a puzzled smile on his face.