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Chapter 28 Six gardens

Selected works of Osamu Dazai 太宰治 7728Words 2018-03-21
Queen, Ophelia. princess. "The weather is getting warmer and warmer. This year's spring may come earlier than usual. You see, the grass is already a little green. Oh, come spring, I can't stand the winter anymore. You see, the ice on the creek has receded , the willow buds are still tender, really cute. When those new buds grow, the white leaves turn and turn in the wind, this grassland should also be full of wild flowers. Buttercups, nettles, daisies, And Zilan, uh, what do Zilan and those civilians call it, Ophelia, do you know? Seeing how red your face is, you must know. They can say no matter how dirty they are , I’m quite envious. Ophelia, what’s your name? You can’t really use such an explicit name, can you?”

Curcuma. "Your Majesty, we are the same. I didn't care about it when I was young, I got used to it, and now I sometimes blurt it out accidentally. It's not just me, the ladies in other places also call it by that explicit name, they It doesn’t feel like anything.” princess. "Oh, that's it. I didn't expect these little girls to be so generous now. But if they bark like that, maybe they are much purer than us." Curcuma. "No, when there are men around, they all call it dead man's finger." princess. "I see. That's right. I'm still embarrassed in front of men. It's fun. But it's nice to get the name Dead Finger. Indeed, I feel the same way. What a poor flower, a dead man with a golden ring finger... Oh, I'm not sad, how can I shed tears. At this age, I am so stupid to shed tears over a mere flower. Women are like this, no matter how old they are, they like to use The nature of temperament will not change. Women are probably so boring and cannot be changed. At this age, the whole of Denmark is still not as lovable as a daisy in my heart. Women are really useless. No, I shouldn’t say it’s a woman. Recently, I feel that none of the human beings are reliable. The man who looks the most reliable on the surface is not the same timid in his bones, and only cares about what others think. Now I can finally see clearly. Human beings are so pitiful and pitiful. We only see success, failure, cleverness, stupidity, winning or losing, working hard from morning to night, and getting older day by day. This is what we came into this world for. It's no different from a bug. It's so funny. No matter how sad or sad things are, I will tell myself that this is for Denmark. I am so stupid. I was deceived by the previous king, the current king, and Hamlet , everyone is lying to me. For Denmark! This sentence sounds so great, so I always thought that no matter how hard I was, no matter how sad I was, it was for Denmark. I work, so I can endure no matter how lonely I am. I am conceited and think that I am a person selected by God to give me a heavy responsibility, so I can endure it silently until today. Thinking about it now, I am really stupid. What kind of heavy responsibility can an insignificant person like me be? Everyone doesn't take my heavy determination seriously at all, they only know that they are pitifully worried about trivial matters such as winning and losing, and then they will come up with some dirty things without purpose, and openly put other people's fate We all dragged ourselves into the water together, and then we were busy shirking each other's responsibilities. I was the only one who was so nervous for Denmark and for Hamlet's royal family. I was like a straw in a muddy current. Yes. Really, how silly, Ophelia.—How are you doing?"

Curcuma. "Huh? Very good." princess. "Don't hide it from me, I know it all. Don't worry, I'm Hamlet's mother, and I love you the most. You look much better today, and you shouldn't feel uncomfortable anymore." Curcuma. "Yes, Your Majesty. Thank you. I woke up this morning feeling much more comfortable in my chest, and I don't smell bad smells anymore. Before, I always smelled the smell of my own body, the smell of sheets, and the smell of underwear. , It was fishy like chives, no amount of perfume was useless, it made me cry secretly several times. This morning I felt like waking up from a nightmare, and my body was much more comfortable. I really haven’t felt like this for several days I drank the soup so deliciously earlier. But I am still a little worried, whether I will become as melancholy as yesterday again at some point. I feel like my body is about to break, and I can’t even step on the grass now. They are all very carefully regulating their breathing step by step. Is it really healed? I don’t want to go back to suffer that kind of torture again.”

princess. "Of course it's fine. Your appetite will only get better in the future. You really don't know anything, and you can't blame you. If you have any problems in the future, come and talk to me. You are just like That way, you can talk about whatever you think of, how cute it is. Don’t be shy, I just like generous people.” Curcuma. "No, Your Majesty, I have been lying to you before. There is no hell that is more painful or terrible than lying to others, but now I don't need to lie anymore, everyone already knows it. Fortunately, my body is also It’s much better, I won’t be eccentric anymore, I want to change back to the lively and mischievous Ophelia before. Many unexpected things have happened in the past two months, it’s really like a dream.”

princess. "You're not the only one who feels like you're dreaming. In the past two months, who hasn't been dreaming like a nightmare. I wonder if those peaceful days when the former king was still there really existed. , and the whole of Denmark, the kind of days full of hope every day, it is probably impossible to come back. No one is bad, in the city of Elsinore, and the whole of Denmark, it is gloomy everywhere, just listen to To get sighs and whispers, one feels that something terrible and tragic must be about to happen. At least if only Hamlet would grow up, but the kid is going crazy for you, and the others are trying to keep their status and Face is so busy, no one is reliable. Women are very superficial, but men are not very smart. You still don’t understand how much men are eager to please us. That kind of mood is very pitiful. Don’t laugh like this Exaggeration, I mean it. I’m not self-aggrandizing. A man will say a lot of beautiful big words, but what he really cares about is what his lovely wife thinks of him. Getting rich, succeeding, and winning are all about making yourself cute His wife is happy. They will make up many reasons to make themselves work hard. In fact, they don’t all want cute girls to praise him. It’s really useless, poor. I found this phenomenon recently, and it’s really surprising. No, it should be said It’s disappointment. I respect men’s world very much. I always thought that they live in our unattainable and painful ideals. We can’t understand, so at least I want to take care of their daily life behind their backs and help them. How stupid , the only purpose of a man's existence is the woman who is helping him behind his back. Do it well. Don’t think that they seem to be staring at the sky, talking about ideals, philosophy, or whatever. In fact, their minds are full of women. It’s just that they want to be praised by women and pretend to be liked. Recently, I’m getting more and more I feel more and more that men are boring. Ophelia, you don’t understand. In your eyes, Hamlet is probably very good, but he is actually a fool. In order to study how to be popular with everyone, you can forget food and sleep every day. For young people, relatives and friends No matter how you look at yourself, it seems that you are the most important thing, this stupid boy. He knows that he is timid, and he always does things regardless of the consequences. This way, he can get praise from you and his friends, but he has no ability to deal with the aftermath. In the end, he still only knows Crying, only know to play a bad temper, while looking forward to us to help him deal with everything. You see, he always puts on that annoying face to say something that he thinks is very philosophical, and coaxes Horatio and the others. So worshiping him, but refusing to take any responsibility, what is the truth? He is a philosopher, almost like us begging for candy. It is shameless. This cheeky boy, he just wants to let everyone praise him all day long. He'll be happy if everyone coaxes him. He'll use those superficial tricks for a moment's applause, so ignorant of self-love, seriously, what will he do in the future? Not like your brother Latis, who's as big as Hamlet, just You are so sensible and know how to plan for yourself.”

Curcuma. "No, this is my brother's shortcoming. Your Majesty, you said just now that no matter how great a man looks, he is cowardly in his heart. He always looks at his words and looks on fear, but now he praises Letis. Don't you think it's funny? Brother, actually He is not much different from His Royal Highness Hamlet. Compared with His Highness Hamlet, he is a bit vulgar, and he is more active in doing things, but living alone is too simple and reasonable, and it is unreasonable. I definitely don’t hate my brother, but But he and I can’t kiss enough to make me want to tell him everything I think in my heart, and it’s the same with my father. Maybe I’m not a good daughter, a good sister, and I’m not close to my family, but…”

princess. "Just feel like a family with Hamlet? It's boring, forget it. Who doesn't hate his parents and brothers when he is in love? It's natural. I want to listen carefully to you people, really like Idiot. Not sure what you're trying to say?" Curcuma. "No, Your Majesty. I'm not dazzled. I felt this way long ago before this incident happened. No, it's not Her Majesty Hamlet, but Your Majesty. In fact, I have always admired you. Recently, I have I accidentally developed such a relationship with His Royal Highness Hamlet. I am happy, sad, and shocked. Forgive me, Your Majesty, but I have a little bit in my heart. Maybe I can call your mother and act like a baby to you in the future. A little anticipation, I am so happy in my heart. Please believe me, how much I have respected and liked you since I was a child, Your Majesty Princess, you must not have imagined. My every move, every word and every action, my whole body has been working hard to show you Study. Sorry, I am not because of your status as a princess, but because you are such a charming woman, you are such a good person, such a perfect person... Ah, how should I put it, Your Majesty the Princess, Laugh at me, I'm a fool. If Hamlet hadn't been your child, I wouldn't have caused this kind of thing. I'm not a woman who is indiscreet, because he is your Majesty's most beloved child, so I just want to love him as much as I can..."

princess. "Your jokes are too cute. I just can't stand how you guys can say whatever you think, without going through your brain. If you really like me, it must be because I'm the princess, and your eyes are covered by me." The halo of identity has been spoiled, and you will feel good about what I do. I am just a boring old woman. You have no way to resist Hamlet, because of Hamlet’s identity, why because he is the child of the princess, so I have to do my best Love him... I can just smile and laugh alone. If you talk about this kind of thing with others, they will definitely think that you are either an idiot or a psychopath. What do you want to call my mother the most, and want to act like a baby with me? It’s so naive, I know what you’re thinking. You’re just telling me how happy you are to be a Danish princess. Which Danish girl doesn’t look forward to most in her life when she’s a princess and calls her a mother? This kind of thing. It's all a matter of course. You guys keep embellishing your vulgar ambitions with words to make them naive. I almost got over it. I just can't stand the young people these days, pretending like they don't know anything The childish tone makes me happy, but in fact, what I have in mind is my own dream of fame and fortune. He is really cunning and cunning." "

Curcuma. "No, Your Majesty Wangfei, why do you have such terrible thoughts and so much suspicion. I don't have such arrogant and superficial ambitions at all. I just really like Your Majesty Wangfei. I like it so much that I want to cry. I am very My biological mother passed away when I was young, but even if she is still alive now, I don’t think she can compare to Her Majesty Wangfei. Your Majesty Wangfei is more gentle and charming than my dead mother. For Your Majesty Wangfei, I am ready to sacrifice my life at any time I have always fantasized about having a mother like Her Majesty the Princess who can be a role model for me all my life. I have never thought about identity. I am an unfaithful daughter. Maybe it is because I don’t have a mother. I will admire Her Majesty the Princess more than others. I really have no ambitions. To put it bluntly, I have even forgotten the identity of Her Majesty Hamlet. I just feel the fragrance of your milk on him, which makes me feel He is so cute that he made me look so embarrassing now. I didn't dare to imagine it at all. I can swear clearly before God that I never even dreamed that I would become a prince and concubine and enjoy fame and fortune. This kind of ambition without self-knowledge. As long as I can feel that I have a little relationship with Her Majesty, I will be happy enough. I have no extravagant hopes. Now I only hope to give birth to the grandson of the princess safely and raise him healthy I grew up. I think I am so happy. Even if His Royal Highness Hamlet does not want me, I can live happily with my child every day. Your Majesty, I have my pride, and I know that I did not make good use of Pulonges I know everything about the wisdom a daughter should have. I was simply fascinated by His Majesty Hamlet. I definitely didn’t think he was the most beautiful person in the world or a perfect warrior. Forgive my offense, his nose is too long and his eyes are small, His eyebrows are too thick, his teeth seem to be very bad, he is not beautiful at all, his feet are a little crooked, and his back is hunchbacked. He looks pitiful, and he is not generous. Should he be girlish? I was frizzy and worried that other people would say bad things about him. One night he told me that others lied to me and took advantage of me. You are the only one I can trust. I am a poor child, so please don’t Leave me, it made me feel pitiful, and I covered my face with both hands and pretended to cry. Why did he play this kind of scene? Then when I hesitated to comfort him at first, he immediately yelled, Ah, how unfortunate I am, everyone doesn’t understand how miserable I am, I’m the most unfortunate person in the world, I’m so lonely, I’m pulling my hair and shouting miserably. He doesn’t seem to insist on making himself the protagonist of the drama Not addicting. Last time he stood up suddenly and smashed his coffee cup against the wall into pieces, and then said with satisfaction that no one in this world has a smarter mind than me. I am like lightning. I know everything, and even the devil can lie. Forget about me, as long as I have that intention, I can do anything, no matter how scary the adventure is, I will definitely succeed, I am a genius; I smiled and nodded, but he lost his temper and said it is no wonder, you are obviously perfunctory me, You must think I'm only bragging, you don't believe me anyway, you don't understand. No matter how much I swear to him, he gets more excited,Criticize yourself as worthless, "Actually, I'm bragging, I'm a liar, I'm mean, everyone knows it, everyone is laughing at me, only you don't know."Look at how stupid you are, you have been cheated, you have been played around by me, ah, I am really useless.No one in the whole world wants to talk to me, I can only find an idiot like you to bite me hard, I'm really worthless! 』Oh, he scolded himself endlessly, I felt like crying, but he didn't even frown.A few days later, he stared at the mirror for more than an hour, probably thinking that his nose was too long, so he kept pinching it in front of the mirror, which made me laugh.But I like him, and I can't find another person like him in the world. I think he must have something that no one can compare to. Although he has many strange shortcomings, I feel that from him, I can You can smell the Son of God.I'm also a woman with strong self-esteem. I won't just be dazzled by a boy and think he's good for everything. Even if the other guy is a prince, I won't fall into his arms blindly.His Royal Highness Hamlet is the most affectionate person in the world. Because of the deep affection, he doesn't care about himself at all, letting his heart and words be as slutty.It must be so, Your Majesty, you are clearly aware of Her Highness Hamlet's merits. "

princess. "What's with what? You guys are not coherent at all. Just now you insisted on explaining that you admired me and that you liked Hamlet, and then you started to speak ill of Hamlet. Now it's good, Hamlet has become a good person that no one in the world can match, God Son of me. You just want me, an old woman, to say that I am charming like a child, and then pretend to say that you are not fascinated or extravagant at all. I really don’t know how and where I should listen. You probably It must have been influenced by Hamlet, you can be his proud apprentice. I thought Horatio was the only one, but I didn’t expect you to be as good as him.”

Curcuma. "Your Majesty, if you say that about me, I will be too disappointed. I should just describe what I feel. I am telling the truth. You have so many misunderstandings. It must be because my ability to express is too poor. I don't want to lie even in front of Your Majesty, and even if I lie, I don't think I can deceive Her Majesty, so I hesitate, and really want to put me in front of you. I will tell you everything I think and feel. It was because I was in a hurry, so I didn’t use the words well and hesitated. I really couldn’t fully express what was in my heart. I can swear to God that I am absolutely honest, I am only honest in front of the people I love. I like Her Majesty the Princess, so I try hard not to utter half a lie, but the harder I try, the more stupid I am. Nothing is better than hearing from the mouth of the truth. It's more funny, intermittent and disorganized. It makes me sad when I think about it. My words may be inconsistent and disorganized, but I understand them in my heart. They are wrapped in a bead in my heart. They are too complicated , so complicated that I can’t easily describe it in words, so I can only pick up their fragments and try to connect them into a whole, but the more I talk about it, the more confused I become. Maybe it’s because I love too deeply, Maybe it’s my lack of common sense.” princess. "Hamlet taught you all these nonsense, right? I can't stand the young people of this age who are so good at finding excuses for themselves. Needless to say, why don't you just say this: I'm confused, I have mixed feelings, It's as simple as that, but we understand. You're a good boy, and you can talk about other things freely. Why do you have to beat around the bush to cover up your own shame when it comes to Hamlet? You haven't apologized to me yet Woolen cloth." Curcuma. "Your Majesty, a sincere apology is hard to say. I don't think the trouble we caused this time can be resolved with a single apology. I already feel that my body has been written all over with blue ink." I don’t know why, but I just can’t open my mouth to Your Majesty Wangfei. This is too thick-skinned, I have done a huge mistake, and I just want to forgive you with a single apology. I am not so lacking in self-reflection. I absolutely can't do it. I know His Royal Highness Hamlet is suffering for the same reason, and I know that he is only thinking about how to make up for his mistakes. His Highness Hamlet and I are both worried about how to give to the princess. Your Majesty apologizes for one thing. Your majesty, your current situation is so isolated, we should comfort you, but now this kind of thing has happened, but it makes you worry, what is it right to talk about now, so naive? It’s too late for the question. This feeling is more painful than death. I really, have admired you from a long time ago, Your Majesty Wangfei. It’s true. I want to give myself a chance to hear Your Majesty Wangfei praise me once in my life. , I have been working hard to improve my self-cultivation and knowledge until now, ah, why am I so stupid! How could I be so confused that I would do the most sorry thing to Her Majesty. Her Highness Hamlet, he respects Her Majesty the same as me, no, more than me , thinking of Her Majesty the Princess more than I do, we have always prayed that Her Majesty the Princess will be healthy and happy forever, and one night I had a serious discussion with Her Majesty Hamlet, that in our lifetime, Her Majesty the Princess must see us change our appearance... Your Majesty the Princess , Your Majesty Princess, alas!" princess. "I'm sorry. I kept telling myself not to cry, so I kept telling myself that you were wrong. I didn't mean it. Ophelia, you treat me so well and worship me so much. My heart hurts. My heart hurts You're going to crack, Ophelia, you're so good, you must be an honest boy. You're a little cunning, but I don't blame you for naive, heartless lies. Such lies are more beautiful, Ophelia , there is nothing more beautiful and charming in this world than an innocent girl's lies. Compared with you, we are so dirty and shameless. We are all so tired. You still love me, pray I live a long life, how can I bear to hear your words? Ah, just for you, I have to live, Ophelia, please forgive me." Curcuma. "Your Majesty, what are you talking about? Aren't you talking ironically, Your Majesty, you have thought of other sad things, oh, here is good, come on, Your Majesty, please sit here, don't think too much. Seeing Her Majesty the Princess crying so sadly made me want to cry too. Come on, let's sit together. Ah, Your Majesty, this is the place where His Majesty the late king sat when he was dying. His Majesty was sitting here basking in the sun that day. Sudden discomfort, when we arrived there was no way to recover, and that morning I was wearing my new red dress for the first time, and I was so sad and angry that I thought my skirt was green. It seems that when people are too sad, they will see red as green." princess. "Ophelia, it's okay, I was wrong! I have no hope in this life, and it's so boring wherever I go! Ophelia, it's up to you to be careful in the future." Curcuma. "I don't quite understand what you mean, Your Majesty. But I don't need you to worry about it. I will bring up Her Highness Hamlet's child." Note Christina.Rosser/Time and the Undead 【クリスチナ.ロセチ/Time and Undead】No data found LESEDRAMA [LESEDRAMA] (Germany) is for reading only, not for performance purposes. (Online Xincilin) Except for Ophelia, the translations of the following people/places refer to the current translation (see Note 4). Alittlemorethankin,andlessthankind.【Alittlemorethankin,andlessthankind.】The Complete Works of Shakespeare in Chinese and English [Hamlet], published by World Book Company in 1996 ISBN: 957-06-0093-4NT$150, translated by Mr. Zhu Shenghao: "Extraordinary relatives, indifferent Passerby".Please see Act I, Scene II of the original. Which way to do it, which way to go 【直の路(みち)はへび】Refer to Daxin Mingjie Rihua Dictionary (published by Daxin Book Company) p.1295 Do not do business properly [Dao Yue Zhe] is also explained as idlers, prodigal sons, etc. (Daxin Mingjie Japanese-Chinese Dictionary) The original text of a line of lyrics is 【あたしも苦しい事があるのよと思う兵にもぐうぐうと床る].The authenticity of the song cannot be tested. 【すまいとばし思うて? ] Tsubouchi Xiaoyao’s translation of Ophelia’s line "Doyoudoubtthat? 』, the meaning cannot be guessed, to be investigated. Ten times is not too little 【十度くりかえしても不着でない】(It seems weird) Hill [High Platform (たかだい)] A platform terrain that is slightly higher than the surrounding area. (Fukutake Mandarin Dictionary) Jacket 【ジャケツ】It turned out to be a jacket (=jacket: a western-style short coat with front opening; Fukutake Mandarin Dictionary). The original text is 【云からレエスが重って来るような...】.I do not know what it meant tobe, ornottobe [tobe, ornottobe] Note 4: "to be or not to be, this is a question worth considering (Tobe, ornottobe, that is the question.)".See Act III, Scene 1 of the original.
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