Chapter 11 Old age - 5

"Yes," I blurted out. "Counterfeit!" "That's right. You really have it, Sano Jiro. This is for life, Mr. Dazai. The silver-plated one with the fake beard pattern should be very suitable for you. Alas, Mr. Dazai is already holding it in his hand nonchalantly. Only we are naked." "Don't mind me saying something weird, which side do you think is more dignified, the naked wild strawberries or the packaged strawberries in the market? Door. But, I know the sadness of packaged strawberries. And recently I have begun to think they are very noble. I will not run away, and I will accompany you to the end whatever you want to do." He tilted his mouth like a smile very painful. "Soon you will wake up to—"

"Oh, don't mention that." Baba waved his right hand weakly in front of his nose, stopping Dazai's words. "Once we wake up, we won't be able to survive. Hey, Sano Jiro. Let's just let it go. It's no fun. I'm sorry for you, but I won't do it. I don't want to be someone else's bait 62. I hope Dazai can Find fried tofu that can fill his stomach in other places. Mr. Dazai, the Pirate Club will be disbanded today. Instead,—" Baba stood up and strode towards Dazai, "You monster!" Dazai received a blow to the right cheek.He slapped loudly and hard.Dazai showed a crying face like a child for a moment, but immediately closed his dark lips and raised his head proudly.I suddenly felt that I really like Dazai's appearance.Satake gently closed his eyes and pretended to be sleeping.

It rained until night.Baba and I drank in a dark black wheel shop in Hongo.At first the two drank in silence as if they were dead, and after about two hours, the horse farm finally began to speak. "Satake must have recruited Dazai beforehand. They walked together until they reached the dormitory. Satake can do this kind of thing. I know Satake must have discussed something with you in private, right?" "Yes." I added wine to the racecourse, trying to comfort him. "Satake tried to pull you away from me. There's no reason. That guy has a very unusual vengeance. Greater than me. No, I don't know very well,--no, maybe he has nothing at all, He's just an ordinary person. That's right, he should be regarded as an ordinary person by the society. But that doesn't matter. It's refreshing not to be a magazine. I can sit back and relax to my heart's content tonight! , Let me tell you, I might be cut off from my family recently. When I open my eyes one morning, I will be a lonely beggar. So in fact, I didn’t really plan to make that magazine in the first place. Because I like You, because I don't want you to leave me, that's why I didn't hesitate to use pirates as a means. When your chest is full of fantasies about pirates, and you make plans one by one, your blinking eyes, that's the only way. Is the meaning of my life. I think I live today because of looking at your eyes. I learned true love from you, as if I didn't know what love was before. You are transparent, pure .And——you are a beautiful boy again! I think I see the ultimate flexibility63 in your eyes. That’s right. The only one who has seen the bottom of the well of wisdom is not me, not Dazai, and not Satake, but you! I was surprised that it was you.—Tsk! Why do I talk so much. Frivolous. Manic. True love can’t be said in death, that guy Xiaoju told me. Hey, big news. A little way No. Xiaoju is in love with you. I can’t tell Mr. Sano Jiro, because I like him to death. She poured the whole bottle of cider on my head while deliberately saying those irony, laughing haha It’s like going crazy. By the way, who is your favorite person? Do you like Dazai? Huh. Satake? It’s unlikely. That’s right? I—”

"I..." I was about to say what was on my mind. "I hate them all. I only like Juju. I feel like I knew her before the girl on the other side of the river." "That's fine," Baba whispered, trying to smile, but suddenly covered his face with his left hand and started whimpering.With a beautiful rhyme like an acting line, "Listen, I'm not crying. I'm pretending to cry. These are fake tears. Damn! Everyone try to laugh at me by saying that. I will I have been acting non-stop from the moment I was born until I died. I am a ghost. Ah, please don't forget me! I am very talented. Who is the composer of Moon in the Deserted City. Some people say that Taki Rentaro is not me, you guys Do you have to be so suspicious of others? Just let it be a lie. ——No, it’s not a lie. The right thing must be said clearly. It’s definitely not a lie.”

I staggered outside alone.It's still raining.The street is raining.Ah, isn't that what Dazai said just now?Yes, I am very tired.please forgive me.what!I'm learning Satake's speech.Tsk!Ahhhh, even the staggering voice seems to be more and more like the horse farm.Before long, I was caught in a wave of bleak doubts.Who am I?The thought made me shudder.I've had my Shadow 64 stolen.What is the ultimate in flexibility!I ran straight ahead.dentisit.bird shop.Gan Li shop.bakery.flower shop.Street trees.used bookstore.Bungalow.While running wildly, I seemed to hear myself whispering words,——Run, tram.Let's run, Jiro Sano.Let's go, tram.Let's run, Jiro Sano.I sang it over and over again with a messy tune.Ah, this is my creation.This is the only poem I have ever made.How useless!I'm just out of my mind so I'm useless.I'm just a wimp, so I'm useless.headlights.bang.Star.leaf.lights.wind.what!

Four "Satake. Did you know that Jiro Sano was hit by a train last night?" "I know. I heard the news on the radio this morning." "That guy is full of disasters. Unlike me, as long as I don't hang myself, I probably can't die anyway." "Then, you will probably be the one with the longest lifespan. My prediction is very accurate. Hey,—" "What's up?" "There are two hundred yen here, and the paintings of gannets are quite easy to sell. Originally, I wanted to play with Sano Jiro, so I worked hard to raise so much."

"give it to me." "Can." "Kiku. Jiro Sano is dead. Well, he's gone. You won't find it anywhere. Don't cry." "yes." "I'll give you this one hundred yen. Use this money to buy some beautiful clothes and belts, and I will surely forget Sano Jiro. People need to know how to work around. Hey, hey, Satake. Tonight we will reconcile for a day, Let's go play together. I'll take you to a good place. It's the best place in Japan. ——It's a nostalgic feeling that both of us are alive like this." "Everyone is going to die sooner or later."