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Chapter 6 Granny House 3

Selected works of Osamu Dazai 太宰治 3908Words 2018-03-21
"I said, you still have nothing to do with my parents in the end. It seems so." Kazue answered quickly without taking his eyes off the magazine. "Yeah, anyway, I'm a daughter-in-law that your family doesn't welcome." "No, you can't say that. It's true that you didn't work hard enough." "That's enough, I don't want to hear it." The magazine was thrown aside. "You will find reasons. That's why you are annoying." "Ah, that's it, so you hate me. I'm really sorry." Jiaqi's tone was like a drunk.

Why don't I feel jealous at all.Maybe I really have a narcissist.She can't hate mine.Maybe I'm just too confident about this, so I don't even get angry.Maybe it's because that guy is so useless.Maybe my judgment standard is called Yelang's arrogance.In this case, my thoughts are all rubbish.The way I've been living all this time has been rubbish.There is no way.Why I just can't figure it out, I can't just hate people.This kind of jealousy is so humble and beautiful, isn't it?Finding someone to challenge again and again, this kind of anger, how noble and straightforward, isn't it?Betrayed by his wife, just such a blow is going to kill him, that look, how pure and sad, isn't it?But what am I.Talk about nostalgia, talk about good children, talk about gentleness and kindness, talk about morality, talk about debts, talk about responsibility, talk about being taken care of by others, talk about counter-evidence, talk about historical obligations, talk about parents.God, no.

Jiaqi picked up the stick and wanted to smash his head with it. "I woke up and left. It's decided, it's decided." Jia Qi roughly pulled his quilt over, and got into it. Probably drunk, fell asleep after a while.When I opened my eyes in the mist, it was already past noon.Jiaqi, who was feeling depressed, jumped up, and immediately shouted "It's so cold, so cold", and asked downstairs for a drink. "It's time to get up, let's go." He Zhi fell asleep with his mouth slightly open, and suddenly opened his eyes. "Ah, it's already this late?"

"No, it's only past noon. Anyway, I don't care anymore." Don't bother to think about anything.I just want to die quickly. After that, time passed quickly.Kazue said that she wanted to take a stroll and see the hot springs in this area, so the two left the hotel.The sky was so clear that there was no impurity. We told the driver that we were going for a stroll while looking at the scenery on the way down the mountain, so we didn’t take the car and walked for a while (one mile). When we looked back, the old wife of the hotel was chasing us from a distance. run over here.

"Hey, Auntie is here." Jiaqi was very disturbed. "This," the old wife blushed, and handed Jiaqi a paper package, "This is pure cotton, made of cotton spun by our family. There is nothing good for you." "Thank you." Jia Qi said. "Oh, Auntie, I've made you worry so much." Hezhi said.The two breathed a sigh of relief. Jiaqi immediately started to walk forward again. "Be careful on the road." "Auntie, I also wish you good health." They were still greeting each other behind.Jiaqi turned her head around, "Auntie, shake hands."

The old wife's hand was held firmly, her expression was a little shy, and at the same time showed a little fear. "He's drunk." Kazue explained for him. Drunk.The two said goodbye to the old wife with a smile, and just wanted to go down the mountain quickly.The snow also became thinner, Jiaqi whispered, how is it there, how is it here, and began to look at Kazue.Kazue said that she wished to be closer to the water station, so that she would not feel lonely.The streets on the water unfolded little by little in front of our eyes. "It can't be delayed any longer." Jiaqi said with a cheerful look.

"Yeah." Kazue nodded seriously. Jiaqi deliberately walked into the fir forest on the left side of the road in a calm manner.Kazue also followed behind.The snow has almost disappeared, and there is a thick layer of fallen leaves on the ground.Regardless of the ground, the two walked forward quickly, and climbed if the slope was too steep.It takes a lot of effort to die.Finally, I found a prairie that could fit two people, where there was a bit of sunlight and there was a spring beside it. "Just here." Both of them were tired. He Zhi spread a handkerchief on the floor and sat down, being laughed at by Jia Qi for a while.Kazue did not speak at all, took out the medicine one by one from the burden, and cut the seal.Jiaqi took the medicine,

"I know the usage of the medicine best. Come, let me have a look, this is enough for you." "It's so little. Will you die if you eat it?" "People who eat it for the first time will die if they do this. I eat it often, so I have to eat about ten times as much as yours to be effective. Even if I survive this way, I probably won't be able to open my eyes." If you survive, That's going to jail. But I want Kazue to survive so that I can realize my humiliating revenge. . .How could it be possible, the kind like third-rate popular novels——I was even a little angry when I thought of this, Jiaqi gulped down the pills that almost overflowed his palms with spring water.Kazue also drank together clumsily.

The two kissed and lay down next to each other. "Then, let's meet again. If someone is alive, please live strong." Jiaqi knew that she couldn't die with sleeping pills alone.Jia Qi secretly moved her body to the edge of the cliff, untied her belt and tied it around her neck, and tied the other end to a trunk that looked like a mulberry tree, so that when she fell asleep, she would be strangled when she fell down the cliff. die.From the beginning, Jiaqi deliberately chose this grassland on the cliff for this reason.Fell asleep.Jia Qi vaguely felt her body slowly slipping down.

cold.When I opened my eyes, there was darkness in front of my eyes, and the moonlight was scattered sparsely.here it is? ——Jiaqi suddenly remembered. I'm alive. Touching his throat, the belt was still tightly tied to it.The waist is cold.Get yourself stuck in stagnant water.Jiaqi understood.Instead of falling vertically along the cliff, he rolled over and fell into a depression in the cliff.The trickling spring water accumulated in the depression, and Jiaqi was as cold as if frozen to the marrow from his back to his waist. I survived.I didn't die.This is a pretty serious fact.In this way, I can't let He Zhi die.Ah, please live, please live.

Jiaqi's limbs were so weak that it was difficult for her to even stand up.I stood up with all my strength, untied the knot tied to the tree, loosened the belt from my neck, and sat cross-legged in the water beach, looking around.Kazuki is gone. Jiaqi crawled around looking for Hezhi, and at the bottom of the cliff, she recognized a black object, which also looked a bit like a puppy.Slowly climbed down the cliff, and took a closer look, it was Kazue.He shook her feet, it was cold.do you died?Jiaqi lightly put her palm on Hezhi's mouth, trying to breathe.No.Fool!You actually died.Why are you so capricious?A strange anger.Grab your wrist roughly and look for your pulse.A thin pulse came over.She is still alive.She is still alive.Put your hand on your chest, it's warm.What, you idiot.you are still alive.Great, great.She made Jiaqi look extraordinarily cute.It's just that amount, it's impossible to die.Ah, ah.With a sense of happiness, Jiaqi lay down beside He Zhi, and then lost consciousness again. Opening his eyes for the second time, Kazue was snoring loudly beside him.Jia Qi listened and even felt a little embarrassed.She is really strong. "Hey, Kazue. Take heart. You're still alive. We're all still alive." With a wry smile, he shook Kazue's shoulder. Kazue looked very peaceful as he was sleeping soundly.In the middle of the night, the cedar trees in the mountains stand upright and soar up silently. On the pointed needle-like treetops, there is a half-curved and icy moon hanging.I don't know why, tears welled up.Jia Qi whimpered and sobbed.I'm still just a kid.Why does a child have to live so hard? Kazue next to him suddenly yelled. "Auntie, it hurts. My chest hurts." The voice was like a flute. Jiaqi was taken aback.It was so loud that if someone who happened to pass by the foot of the mountain heard it, things would be troublesome. "Kaeda, this is not a hotel. Aunt is not here." She couldn't hear it.Kazuki screamed in pain, his body seemed to be writhing in pain, and then he just rolled down the hillside.The slope was not too steep, as if he wanted to roll Kazue to the street at the foot of the mountain, Jiaqi also chased Kazue, forcing his body to roll down.Kazuki was blocked by a cedar tree, wrapped around the trunk, screaming. "Auntie, it's cold. Bring me a kotatsu." When he got closer, he saw Kazue under the moonlight, and he was no longer human.The hair was scattered, and it was covered with dead leaves of a cedar tree, like the hair of a lion spirit, or like the hair of the mountain grandma, it was too messy to look at. I need to cheer up.At least I cheer myself up.Jia Qi stood up unsteadily, picked up He Zhi, and tried to lead her back to the place deep in the cedar forest.He fell down, climbed up again, slipped and fell, leaned on the roots of the tree, pulled the soil, and dragged Kazue's body back into the forest inch by inch.I don't know how many hours passed by working so pitifully. Ah, I've had enough.This woman is too heavy for me.She is a good person, but she is not what I can handle.I am a powerless person.Do I have to live so hard for her all my life?I do not want.I've had enough.Let's break up.I have used my strength and tried my best. At that time, I clearly made up my mind. This woman is too bad.I don't know how to rely on me alone.It doesn't matter what others say.I want to leave her. Dawn gradually approached, the sky began to turn white, and Kazue gradually calmed down.The morning mist hung between the trees. Learn to be simple, learn to be simple, manly, don't make fun of the simplicity of this word.Human beings have no other means of survival except simplicity and simplicity. While helping Kazue who was sleeping next to her, carefully remove the dead cedar leaves from her hair one by one, I love her.I love her helplessly.All my troubles started from her.However, enough is enough.I have been able to stay away from her in love, and have possessed my unconscious strength.Even love must be sacrificed in order to live.This is a matter of course.Everyone in this world lives like this.Lived on as a matter of course.There is no other way to survive.I'm not a genius, and I'm not crazy. Kazue slept until late afternoon.During this time, Jiaqi staggered off his wet clothes to dry, found out Hezhi's clogs, buried the empty medicine box in the soil, and wiped the mud off his clothes with a handkerchief. Wipe it off, and a lot of work has been done on the other. When Hezhi woke up, Jiaqi told her a lot about what happened last night. "I'm sorry, Dad." Kazue bowed his head.Jiaqi couldn't help laughing. Jiaqi is already able to walk, but Kazue is not.The two sat and discussed their future.There are nearly ten yuan left in the money.Jiaqi suggested that the two of them go back to Tokyo together, but Kazurue said that her clothes were dirty and there was really no way to take the train like this.In the end, the two decided that Kazue would take a taxi back to Tanigawa Onsen, and explain to his aunt some clumsy lies that he fell and stained his clothes when he was walking to the nearby hot spring, and then stayed in the hotel to rest until Kaqi returned to Tokyo. Pick her up with a change of clothes and money.Jiaqi's clothes were already dry, so she left the cedar forest alone, went out of the water, bought senbei, caramel, and apple cider, and went back to the mountain to eat with Wazhi.Hezhi took a sip of cider and spat it out again. After staying until dark, Kazue was finally able to move around, and the two quietly walked out of the cedar forest cautiously. After Kazue hitchhiked to Tanigawa, Jiaqi took the train back to Tokyo by himself. Jiaqi told Hezhi's uncle everything, and asked him to take care of everything. "That's too bad." The taciturn uncle seemed to feel really sorry. Uncle took Kazuki back and took her home, "Hezhi, like the daughter of that hotel, sleeps soundly at night with the quilt spread between the boss and the proprietress. What a weirdo." Jiaqi said, shrinking her neck and laughing.There is nothing else to say. This uncle is very nice.After Jiaqi made it clear that he broke up with Hezhi, he would often drink and hang out with Jiaqi without any shyness.but, "Kazure is too pitiful." Sometimes he would say that as if he suddenly remembered it.Every time, listening to Jiaqi's ears, Jiaqi's heart softened and she was very distressed.
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