Chapter 4 Granny House 1

that time, "It's okay, I will prepare well. I have this awareness from the beginning. It's true." Her voice sounded a little weird. "How can I do that? I am very clear about your realizations. You will die alone, or you will give up on yourself. I know that is what you plan to do. Your parents are very good, and you have a younger brother. I can't know it clearly If you have such an idea, you will do it by default." She seemed to be very organized, and suddenly, Jiaqi also had a change of heart, and she had the determination to die. "It's better to die. Let's die together. God will surely forgive us."

The two began to pack their bags seriously. The wife who caressed the husband who confessed to her mistake, and the husband who even forced his wife to this behavior with the deserted attitude of daily life, hoped that death would be the end of each other.It was a day in early spring.This month's living expenses were 14 or 15 yuan, which I carried quietly on my body. In addition, there were two changes of clothes, Jiaqi's cotton robe, Hezhi's jacket and two belts.That's all there is to it.Kazaki wrapped them up in a bundle and carried them in his hands, and the couple rarely went out together.The husband did not have a cloak, but wore a Kurume floral cotton robe and cap, and a dark blue scarf around his neck. Only the clogs were as white as new.The wife didn't have a coat either, and the clothes and clothes were made of the same arrow-shaped floral quilt, and a light red foreign-made shawl was draped over her upper body, which was too big and out of tune.The two broke up shortly before the pawn shop.

At Dikubo Station at noon, you can see many people coming and going quietly in the dark.Jia Qi remained silent, standing in front of the station smoking a cigarette silently.Kazue looked left and right to find Jiaqi's figure, and as soon as he recognized Jiaqi, he immediately stumbled and ran over excitedly. "Success, great success! When it reaches fifteen yuan. The boss is so stupid." she will not die.I can't let her die.She is not like I have been trampled to pieces by life.She still had the power of life within her.Damn not her.Even if she had only thought about death, she would have paid enough to this world.That's all.The world will forgive her.That's all.I want to die alone.

"It's all thanks to you." I praised her with a smile, and I really wanted to pat her on the shoulder. "It adds up to thirty yen. Then we can take a small trip." The two bought tickets to Shinjuku.After getting off the bus in Shinjuku, I rushed into the pharmacy, where I bought a large box of sleeping pills, and then went to another store to buy another large box of sleeping pills.Jiaqi asked Hezhi to wait outside the store, and went in to get the medicine from the boss with a smile on her face, so no one in the pharmacy suspected it.Finally, I came to Mitsukoshi and entered the pharmaceutical department. Taking advantage of the large number of people in the store, Jiaqi became more courageous and asked the boss for two large boxes.The female shop assistant with big black eyes, a long face, and a serious expression frowned suspiciously, with a displeased expression.Jia Qi was also taken aback, unable to even smile for a while.The clerk grabbed the medicine coldly and watched our leaving back.Knowing this in her heart, Jiaqi purposely sticks with Hezhi and walks in the crowd.Even if I walked so nonchalantly, in the eyes of others, it was somewhat unnatural.Jiaqi felt a little sad about this incident.Afterwards, Kazeda bought a pair of white socks at a special store, and Jiaqi bought top-quality foreign cigarettes. The two left Mitsukoshi, took a ride to Asakusa, and entered the event hall, where the movie "Moon of the Deserted City" was being shown.At the beginning of the movie, the screen illuminates the roof and fence of the country primary school, and the singing of children can be heard.Jia Qi cried when she heard the voice.

"The so-called lover," Jiaqi said to his wife with a smile in the dark. "I heard that they hold hands like this while watching the event." Jiaqi felt a little distressed, and pulled Kazue's left hand with her right hand, covering it with a hat, trying to hold Kazue's little hand tightly, but, There is nothing but terrible filth between husband and wife in such a heart-wrenching position.Jia Qi silently let go of her hand, and He Zhi laughed softly.It wasn't because of Jiaqi's clumsy joke, but because he couldn't help laughing out loud after hearing the silly joke in the movie.

She is a kind and innocent person who can feel happiness from movies.I can't kill her.Such a person is going to die, it shouldn't be like this. "Do you want to die?" "Well, please." She watched the movie absorbedly and replied clearly. "I was planning to die alone." Her female body aroused a strange feeling in Jia Qi's heart.By the time we left the activity hall, the sun had already set.Kazue said that he wanted to eat sushi.The sushi has a fishy smell, which Jiaqi doesn't like very much.Moreover, tonight, Jiaqi hopes to eat something more expensive.

"I really don't like sushi." "But I want to eat." It was none other than this Jiaqi who taught Hezhi the virtue of self-will, using his dirty (impure) expression as an example when he swallowed and pretended, and taught her complacently. All retribution came back to me. After drinking a little wine at the sushi bar, Kachi ordered fried oysters.This is my last food in Tokyo, Jiaqi tried to say to herself, and couldn't help but wryly smiled.And stick point is the tuna hand roll. "Is it tasty?" "It's not delicious." It seemed to be a disgusted expression from the heart, and he took another big mouthful. "It's unpalatable."

Neither of them said anything. Walking out of the sushi restaurant, I came to the cross talk restaurant again.The cross talk hall was full, and there were no seats to sit. The audience who squeezed outside the entrance pushed and stood outside the door to watch, and they heard them laughing in unison from time to time.Squeezed between the crowd of spectators, Kazue was pushed five pillars away from Kashichi.Kazue is small, and it takes a lot of hard work to look from the auditorium to the stage. He looks like a short country bumpkin.Jiaqi was also squeezed into the crowd, standing on tiptoe frequently, worriedly looking for Kazue's figure.He spends more time focusing on Kazue than on the stage.He hugged the black bag tightly to his chest, and the medicine was also packed in that bag; nervously shaking his head from side to side, trying to see Kazue of the artist on the stage, and turning his head from time to time to confirm Jiaqi's position.Just when their eyes met, the two of them didn't smile, they were expressionless, but their hearts felt much more at ease.

She has done many things for me.I will not forget.The responsibility is all on me alone.If someone dares to count (finger) her, I will protect her no matter what.she is a nice person.I know it, and I believe it. But what happened last time?Ah, no, no.That's not something that can be solved with a smile.I can't do it.Only that, I can't pretend not to know.I can't stand it. Forgive me, this is the last time I will be selfish.Ethics, I have a way to restrain myself, but I feel like I can't suppress it.I really can't stand it at all. Laughter suddenly spread in the hall.Jia Qi winked at Kazue and came outside the hall.

"Let's go to Minakami (みなかみ), shall we?" Last summer, both of them spent an hour's walk from Minakami Station in the mountain hot spring called Tanigawa Onsen.That summer was really too bitter, but because it was too bitter, now it is like a brightly colored picture postcard, turning into a sweet memory.Mountains and rivers with white showers make people feel that they can die sadly there.Hearing Shuishang's words, Kazue immediately looked energetic. "Ah, then I'm going to buy sugar-fried chestnuts first. My aunt keeps saying that she really wants to eat them." Hezhi is very attached to the old wife of the hotel owner, and the owner's wife seems to like him very much.That hotel doesn’t look like a hotel at all, there are only three rooms, and there is no bathroom in it, so you can only borrow a bathroom from the big hotel next door, or carry umbrellas in rainy days and lamps or candles at night Go down to the river to soak in Kawahara's small open-air bath.There were only two old couples in the hotel, and they seemed to have no children, but the three rooms would occasionally be full, and the old couple would be very busy at that time, and Kazue would go to the kitchen to help clumsily.The same goes for the food in the hotel. There are salted salmon roe and natto in it, which are not the dishes that a hotel should have at all.This made Jiaqi feel very warm.The old wife often suffered from toothaches. Jiaqi couldn't bear it, so she gave her aspirin. The result was so effective that she dozed off and fell asleep after a while.The husband who usually takes good care of his old wife seems to be walking around worriedly, and Kazue can't help laughing when he sees it.Once, Jiaqi staggered around in the grass near the hotel with his head down. He glanced at the entrance of the hotel inadvertently, but through the dark wooden stairs under the entrance, he saw the old wife sitting in a small huddle. In the back, he stared at Jiaqi ecstatically.That became a noble (贵い) secret of Jiaqi.Although she is said to be an old wife, she is only forty-four or five years old, and she is a very blessed-looking and well-cultivated person.The husband seemed to be the adopted son of her family, and she became his old wife.Hezhi bought chestnuts, and Jiaqi urged her to buy more.

Ueno Station is full of the taste of hometown, and Jiaqi is always afraid of meeting people from her hometown here.Especially on this night, he is as afraid of being noticed as the servants and maids in the shop who wander around on holidays.Kazue went to the store to buy a special issue of popular Japanese detective novels, Kashichi bought a small bottle of whiskey, and boarded the 10:30 train to Niigata. Picking a seat facing each other and sitting down, the two secretly smiled. "Hey, I don't know if my aunt thinks it's strange that I'm dressed like this?" "It's okay. Just say that the two of us went to Asakusa to watch an event. When we came back, your husband was drunk and arguing that he must go to Auntie Mizukami, so we just came here." "That's right." Kazueda looked indifferent.