Chapter 16 Bouquet for Algernon - dare not try

Bouquet for Algernon - dare not try Progress Report 11 "May 1st" I didn't notice Alice before?Kinnian is so pretty.She has dove-like soft brown eyes and long, loose hair that falls to her shoulders.When you smile, your lips curl together, sort of like a pout. Today, we go to the cinema and have dinner together.I didn't even notice when the first movie started because I was so obsessed with Alice sitting next to me.Twice our elbows touched on the armrest, and I was afraid she would not like it, so I quickly drew my hand away.All I could think of was her soft skin inches from mine.Then, a few rows ahead, I saw a young man putting a wristband around his girlfriend's neck.I wanted to do the same, but was held back by fear.I wondered what would happen if I started slowly placing my hands on the back of her chair and then moved them up inch by inch, pretending to be casually on her shoulders and the nape of her neck.

After all, I dare not try. I just put my elbows on the back of her chair, but my cheeks and neck were soaked with sweat from nervousness, and I had to pull back to wipe it off from time to time. Another time, her foot accidentally touched mine. Afterwards, sitting next to her seemed to turn into a torture, and it was excruciatingly painful.I forced myself not to think about her for a while.The first movie was a war movie, I almost didn't watch it from beginning to end, I just remember that the ending seems to be that the hero returns to Europe to marry a woman who saved his life.The second movie is a psychological movie, which is very attractive to me.The plot is about a man and a woman who love each other unknowingly destroying each other.In the play, the hero wants to kill his wife, when his wife suddenly screamed in a nightmare, prompting him to think of something that happened in his childhood.Memories from the past make it clear to him that his hatred actually comes from the corrupt governess.She intentionally told scary stories to scare him, causing him to lose his personality.After discovering this fact, he cried out with joy, waking up his sleeping wife.He grabbed her arm excitedly, as if all problems were solved in an instant.I thought the movie was rough, and I was a little unhappy after watching it. Alice seemed to see it and asked me what was wrong.

"It's just a lie," I told her as we walked down the hall. "It's just not like that in real life." "Of course not," she replied with a smile, "because it's a made-up story." "That's not the point," I insisted. "Even a made-up story should have rules. It has to be coherent, but this one doesn't. , probably because the writer or director themselves didn’t know what they wanted, so it didn’t feel right.” As we walked into the brightly lit Times Square, Alice looked at me thoughtfully and said, "You're making great progress."

"But I'm confused because what I know so far feels foreign." "It's okay," she reassured me, "you're starting to understand things." As we passed Seventh Street, she waved her hand in the air, lighting up the neon signs and various flickering lights around us. "You will slowly see the truth behind the surface of things. Just now you said that the plot should be coherent, which is a good personal opinion." "Stop praising me like that, I don't think I'm anything special at all. I don't understand myself and my past, where my parents are, what they look like. You know? Sometimes, I will I can see them in past memories or dreams, but their faces are blurred, so I can't see their expressions clearly. If I can't see them, I can't remember what happened before..."

"Charlie, calm down." Everyone passing by was staring at us.Alice took my hand, reminding me to control my emotions. "These things take patience. Don't forget, what you achieve in a few weeks may take someone else a lifetime. You are like a big sponge absorbing knowledge. Before long, you will have all You can connect things together and understand the relationship between various fields of knowledge. Charlie, you will be like climbing a tall building, the higher you climb, the wider the scenery around you will be.” We entered a restaurant on Forty-fifth Street.When picking up the plate, Alice said to me as if she was painting a beautiful vision: "Most people can only see a little bit. They can't change the status quo or climb higher and see more. But you are different, you are a genius. You will climb higher and higher and see more. Every time you go up, you will find areas you have never seen before."

She spoke excitedly.Everyone in the line who heard our conversation turned to stare at me.I nudged her to hint her not to speak, and then she lowered her voice and whispered in my ear: "For God's sake, I hope you won't be hurt in the future." Later, after a while, I didn't know what to say.When the food was ordered at the dining table and brought to the table, we were silent.That silence made me nervous.I knew why she was worried, so I joked with her. "Why am I hurting? I can't be any worse than I was. You see, Algernon's smart now, isn't he? As long as he stays that way, so will I." I watched her play The table knife in his hand carved circles one after another on the cream.These movements suddenly confused me and made me feel a little dazzled. "And," I went on, "I overheard Professor Nemur arguing with Dr. Strauss. Professor Nemur said he was pretty sure nothing would go wrong."

"Hopefully," she replied. "I don't think you understand how worried I am. I've always been terrified of my experiments going wrong. I feel responsible for this." She caught me staring at her knife and set it carefully beside her plate. . "I wouldn't have done it if it wasn't for you," I said. She laughed and it made me tremble a little.At this time, I felt that her eyes were very soft.She knew I was looking at her, so she quickly lowered her head to look at the pattern on the tablecloth, her face flushed. "Thank you, Charlie," she said, shaking my hand.

It was the first time someone did this to me, and it inspired my courage.I leaned forward, held her hand, and unconsciously said: "I like you very much." After I finished speaking, I was afraid that she would laugh, but she didn't, and instead nodded and smiled. "I like you too, Charlie." "It's not just like it. I mean... oh! How do I say this?" At this moment, I felt my whole face flushed, my eyes didn't know where to look, and my hands didn't know what to do for a while, making me Dropped the fork.When she lowered her head to pick it up, she accidentally knocked over the water glass and wet her clothes.At that time, I seemed to suddenly become as clumsy as before.I wanted to apologize, but my tongue got stuck and I couldn't say a word.

"It's okay, Charlie." She tried to calm my nerves. "Just knock over the water glass, don't be so nervous." On the taxi ride home, the two of us didn't speak to each other for a long time.Later, she put down the purse and straightened my tie and the handkerchief in the breast pocket of my suit. "You're kind of out of your mind tonight, Charlie." "I think everything is ridiculous." "I shouldn't have said that to upset you and make you worry about yourself." "It's not that I'm bothered by it, it's that I can't put my feelings into words."

"You're only just learning to feel. Besides, not everything needs to be... put into words." I moved closer to her, trying to take her hand again, but she flinched. "Not yet, Charlie, it might not be good for you. I've bothered you enough that it might affect you negatively."