Chapter 3 Chapter 2 The Perfect Woman
When the girl came in, Shinna Katsuhiko felt something like a shudder for a moment.Perhaps it can be said that it is trembling.When she was in the distance, she watched him, and then approached him straight, sat down on the chair directly opposite him, and smiled at him.That seat happened to be empty.
"Let me introduce. This is Ms. Kitazawa Yukiko." The editor-in-chief Gu Hai who brought her said in a slightly flustered tone.Gu Hai also brought two other girls, but Katsuhiko didn't notice it at all.They are not as strong as Yukiko Kitazawa's impression on him.
That night, the publishing house replaced Katsuhiko's editor who had been with him for many years.Ke Yan invited editors from several companies close to him to hold a small farewell party at a restaurant in the city center.Gu Hai brought three young girls over, and said that if the farewell party was filled with men who looked intimidating, it would be really a sight to behold.
They are all female college students.Furukai also introduced two other girls to Katsuhiko.Although Ke Yan also wanted to remember the other party's name, he still couldn't remember it firmly.The three girls were all beautiful, and under the dim light in the store, they looked like flowers blooming suddenly, adding to the lively atmosphere.But Ke Yan was not moved by the lively atmosphere.
When he saw Kitazawa Yukiko, he suddenly awakened distant memories.He felt that the girl in front of him was very similar to someone in his memory.I thought that the trauma of the past had been healed, but after seeing Yukiko, the scene of first love flooded my heart like a flood from a reservoir.Ke Yan shivered unconsciously.
Kitazawa Yukiko's long hair was shawl, carefully combed one by one, the black and beautiful hair softened her very distinct facial features.She has a pair of big watery eyes, a high nose bridge, and the corners of her mouth are tightly closed. Her whole face looks quite serious; her skin is slightly bronzed by the sun, and she obviously likes some kind of sports.Shinna Katsuhiko had briefly observed her the moment she stepped into the restaurant.She is tall and tall, and the ratio of her measurements is also very standard.Although she was about the same age as her eldest daughter, she exuded a mature aura all over her body.
She was wearing a very matching, slightly glossy white dress.Moreover, she also restrained herself moderately, not letting herself be too noticeable.A shimmering gold necklace adorns her pink neck.Rather than a necklace, it is an elegant, delicate and meticulous handicraft like silk thread.She is very aware of the good looks she was born with, and deliberately dresses up with clothes to cover up her stunning brilliance.But her crystal clear and jade-like complexion could not be concealed in case, on the contrary, it bloomed with a clear brilliance.The whole feeling made Ke Yan look very comfortable.
The type of opposite sex that everyone likes is different, but Yukiko seems to have hormones (male-attracting chemicals in animals) that attract all men.
"I am a loyal reader, and I have long wanted to meet you." Yukiko said without fear, staring at Katsuhiko.
"You don't need to flatter me like that!" Ke Yan smiled wryly.It's a cliché to tell a writer you're meeting for the first time that you're a devoted reader.Most of his works describe the world of men with rough and powerful brushstrokes, and there are few female readers.
"Oh! How do you say that? I really like your work, and I don't mean to flatter you at all!"
Yukiko replied with some dissatisfaction, and then cited several works of Katsuhiko, and made short comments.Although it is very concise, it can go deep into the core of the content of the work, which shows that she has indeed read it, and did not grind her guns just to meet him.
"It is my great honor that my novel can be read by a beautiful lady like you."
Ke Yan felt very happy to be able to get the support of the young and beautiful young lady.Yukiko overlapped with the image in his distant memory, which also made his long-closed heart jump for joy.
Since all the staff were present, the dinner began.Katsuhiko glanced at Yukiko's eating without showing any trace, and felt that her expression was calm and her attitude was very natural.But it wasn't her sophisticated relationship, she was clearly raised in affluence.
Although it was the editor's farewell party, Katsuhiko only talked with Yukiko.I don’t know if it’s because other people also sensed the unusual atmosphere between the two of them, so they avoided them intentionally and didn’t interrupt when the two of them were talking. Although there were ten people present, the two of them seemed to be sitting in the airtight space of a spaceship. In a small cockpit, isolated from other people.
"What kind of work do you plan to do after graduation?" Ke Yan asked.The so-called "aspect" does not only refer to employment, but also marriage.Yukiko said that she is now a third-year university student. She is 21 years old and has only one more year left in school.When Katsuhiko asked this question, Matsuo Basho's haiku-"Who will feel sorry for the red flowers if they go away" came to mind.Starting from Yukiko's mature body, he was blindly thinking wildly.But he is also a bit self-defeating: "Anyway, the person who has a physical relationship with her will not be me!" - This is also the realm of Basho's haiku.
"Teacher, I think I am suitable for any job." Yukiko replied in a mezzo-soprano.
"Hmm..." Ke Yan was momentarily at a loss for words.The other party seemed to have seen through the malicious intentions of this fifty-odd old man.
Anyway, Katsuhiko made a statement first: "I think you might as well move towards a field where you can give full play to the original abilities of women, and you don't need to be a man's assistant."
"For example?" Yukiko asked.
"For example... let's say night work, what do you think? The so-called night work refers to working in restaurants or bars at night, or coquettish work. Industries of this nature are often viewed with colored eyes by the world. ...However, this is a world where women can use the weapons or abilities she was born with to decide the outcome. At least there, women are the protagonists." Katsuhiko said irresponsibly.He didn't have a solid basis for saying this, but he felt that the hormones exuded from Yukiko's body could be sold at a very high price in the special industry at night.
Katsuhiko originally thought that Yukiko would be angry, but unexpectedly she nodded and said, "I also vaguely feel this way."
"Women's golden period is very short. I think it's a pity to waste this precious period as a female employee in a company, as a tea pourer or as an assistant to men," Yukiko continued.
The special industry at night is also an enterprise based on the abundant economic power of men.In terms of the golden age of women, the remuneration they get is much higher than that of ordinary female employees in the company.
"However, my parents are very verbose. They will never allow me to work in nightlife after graduating from college." She seemed to be talking to herself.
"Are your parents talkative?"
"Hmm! Very verbose."
Raising their daughters through college, few parents would send their daughters to work as waitresses or geishas.
A night job has a cruelty and danger that a day job doesn't have.Ke Yan felt that it would be useless to explain to her now.Moreover, he believed that there was no difference in the degree of danger of Yukiko whether it was day or night.Because the hormones she exudes are dangerous to provoke men.This will not only bring danger to her, but also put the man in crisis.
Although Katsuhiko is well aware of this, she hides an irresistible temptation.In her presence neither experience nor judgment was of use.The reason why he was able to comprehend the dangerous hormones in Yukiko's body was also based on his experience and age.
"In short, I am definitely not suitable for the kind of work that is confined to a desk from 9 to 5."
"You prefer active, non-monotonous work to transactional work, don't you?"
"Why don't I be your secretary, teacher." Yukiko looked at Katsuhiko and said this out of the blue.
"Be my secretary!? I'm not worthy of hiring a secretary." Ke Yan replied in a panic.
"Why! No such thing. A writer like you should have had a secretary long ago."
"According to the type of work, someone should help me collect data and information. But if a beautiful girl like you serves as my secretary, I will definitely not be able to concentrate on my work." Half of what Ke Yan said was true.If Yukiko constantly emits hormones around him, it will be difficult to concentrate on creating.
"It's an exaggeration to be my secretary. However, maybe I can serve as your literary and art instructor and give you some advice on the road of life."
Ke Yan made a wishful thinking and came up with a compromise.He wondered if Yukiko was telling the truth?In order to alleviate the possible danger between her and herself as a secretary, she came up with the ambiguous word "literary and art instructor".As a teacher, he hoped to bring this beautiful female college student under his control.
At Ke Yan's current age, he has gradually missed young women.As a writer, you must constantly maintain some form of contact with young people of the opposite sex in order to maintain a keen sensibility.
Speaking of the opposite sex around Katsuhiko, they are all the women in the hotels in Ginza or Shinjuku that he often goes to.Moreover, their relationship with Ke Yan is not very close.The wife is a "relative" and can no longer be regarded as the opposite sex; although he occasionally performs Zhougong rituals with his wife, somehow, they both have a feeling of "incestuous adultery".
For a writer, even if it is not specifically about sexuality, isolation from the opposite sex can be dangerous to a writing career.
"Teacher, please guide me in literature and art." Yukiko didn't know if she knew Katsuhiko's intentions, and her gaze stayed on his face.Qianxi smiled sweetly on her slightly tipsy cheeks, and she already had a somewhat mature charm. It was really hard to imagine that she was about the same age as her own daughter.
Ke Yan lived such a long time, seeing this young and beautiful female college student in front of him, he felt shaken and confused.He doesn't see her as an object of sexual desire, though.Anyway, the other party is a twenty-one-year-old, young and beautiful female college student, and she is a somewhat scruffy fifty-two-year-old writer. There is no balance between the two.What's more, Yukiko is a child of a good family.In the final analysis, she is just a beautiful model in the window.
Even sitting at the same table with her for dinner, there is an invisible wall between them.
It is precisely because of the fence that we can talk to each other irresponsibly about everything.However, Yukiko crossed the wall and released the hormone.Even if Ke Yan felt that she was out of reach, he still hoped to put her in his sight.
"I'd be happy to be your art instructor." Ke Yan leaned out his upper body and said.
"But..." Yukiko hesitated to speak.
"But what's the matter?"
"What if I fall in love with the teacher?"
"Eh!?" Ke Yan froze for a moment.He wondered if his ears had heard wrong.For a moment, I felt like I was being mocked.
"I feel like I'm in love with Sensei. Maybe it can be said that I've already fallen in love with Sensei." Yukiko said with her hands folded on her chest.It seems that this sentence has been held back for a long time before it is said.
"You can't mock the adults!" Ke Yan reprimanded.
The two had just met tonight; and, no matter in terms of age or circumstances, the difference was too great.
"I'm serious, I didn't mean to mock you!" Yukiko raised her voice slightly.
"If you're not mocking me, you're drunk."
"I drink a lot, how can this little wine make me drunk."
"The literary and art instructor is very determined, and will not be fooled by you just because of your few words."
"Teacher, you are indeed an adult, so you will avoid the important and ignore the minor." Ke Yan felt that Yukiko's tone of voice was mixed with disappointment and a bit of contempt, as if he was complaining about his timidity and not being able to grasp the opportunities offered by women.
"I'm not shying away from the important! We just met for the first time tonight, and I think it's too early to talk about love."
"Does it take a certain amount of time to develop a relationship if you love someone?" Yukiko approached Katsuhiko.Her thought-provoking face overlapped with his distant memory.
When Ke Yan was at a loss for words, the restaurant waiter had already finished serving the dishes.Because I was intoxicated in the conversation with Yukiko, I couldn't remember when and what kind of dishes the waiter served?
The reception staff stood up and told everyone that they were going to go to karaoke to sing later, and timely helped Ke Yan out of danger.
Everyone is going to take three cars and move to the venue of the second booth.Yukiko seemed to follow Katsuhiko into the same car as a matter of course, and sat beside him.As the car vibrated, Ke Yan touched her hot body, feeling as if he was in a dream.He had a premonition that there might be something that didn't happen tonight but happened.
In the karaoke, Yukiko continued to ride in the taxi, sitting next to Katsuhiko.When they were eating just now, the two of them were sitting across the dining table, facing each other, but now there is nothing between them.Under the dim light, Ke Yan boldly shortened the distance between him and her.
"Maybe you've fallen in love with me?" Yukiko's words quickly reached Katsuhiko's ears.
From Yukiko who was close to each other, she could feel her body temperature.Because the music was very loud, the two could no longer talk at the volume they had just had.
Those who can sing stand in front of the microphone one by one and show off their voices.Ke Yan's singing voice is not very good, and he always sits quietly in the corner as a listener.Although he doesn't sing himself, he likes to listen to others sing.He especially likes to hear strangers sing, it doesn't matter whether the singing is pleasant or not.He feels that from the singing, one can feel the singer's mental journey.
Yukiko's voice is as clear and sweet as a silver bell, and her singing must be very beautiful.But she has been staying close to Ke Yan, and has no intention of singing.They sat in the darkest corner, silent...
"Teacher, teacher." Gu Hai's voice brought Ke Yan back to his senses.
"What's the matter?" Katsuhiko looked up from the "small airtight cockpit" where he and Yukiko were shut together with embarrassment.
"Just now everyone discussed that we will go to the third booth later, and we are now looking for volunteers."
"Then, I'll take part, too."
"No, no! I want you to send Miss Kitazawa back."
"You want me to send Miss Kitazawa?"
"Miss Kitazawa can't stay too late, I hope you can be her flower protector."
Seeing how harmonious the atmosphere between Katsuhiko and Yukiko was, Gu Hai had an idea to make such an arrangement.He's just so thoughtful.
"Can I?"
With the other party's arrangement, Ke Yan didn't know what to do?Among those present, he was the oldest, and the others were all young editors.Gu Hai is currently a single nobleman, and Yukiko was brought by him, so he should be the guardian of the flower.
"Miss Kitazawa also hopes that you will send her back!" Gu Hai said with a knowing expression.
Yukiko also nodded beside her.In the end, Katsuhiko became Yukiko's flower protector under the farewell of everyone.Her home is in Seta.The two came to the side of the road, ready to hail a taxi.At this time, Yukiko said coquettishly: "I don't want to go home yet!"
Ke Yan once heard that her parents stipulated that she must return home before ten o'clock.
"It doesn't matter if you go back a little later today! I don't know if there will be a chance to be with you in the future?" Yukiko boldly took Katsuhiko's arm as she spoke.
Ke Yan wondered if she would regard the hero and the author in the work as the same person.The characters in the works are of course fabricated by the author out of thin air, not real people.
The characters created by the author's imagination are unrealistic distorted images. After the author's special emphasis, they have appearance, talent, gentleness, strong body, indomitable spirit, or annoying defects that do not exist in real life.
Some readers develop empathy for the characters in the novel, equating them with the author.Because I fell in love with the characters in the novel, I turned this feeling to the author.This is a common psychology of loyal readers of the opposite sex.
Even if the author projects his fragmentary feelings on the characters in the novel, the characters in the novel are by no means the author himself.For better or for worse, they are nothing but illusions embellished by literary veneer.
If that virtual image is confused with the living author, sooner or later it will bring disillusionment to the readers' dreams.The author should hide behind the work and should not be exposed in front of the readers.This is the principle that Ke Yan has always adhered to.
However, if Yukiko confuses him with the characters in the book, isn't this also a rare opportunity?Ke Yan thought to himself, generally speaking, it is impossible for a girl as delicate and charming as Yukiko to throw herself into her arms.Ke Yan convinced himself in his heart: no matter what, we must seize this opportunity.
The women Yukiko and Katsuhiko used to date belong to different worlds.It's not just her elegant temperament that belongs to the upper class.If it is a high-society temperament, it can be expressed through acting skills and disguise.
Yukiko gives people a sense of futility, although there is a substance, it is light and difficult to grasp.This may be Katsuhiko's personal feeling.If you are not deeply attracted by the other person, there is also the danger of not knowing what will happen.If this danger is combined with her unique hormones, it will be an irresistible temptation for men.
She seems to be a mermaid who has not yet been raised the banner of "possession" and "conquest".Ke Yan thought to himself, if he didn't erect that flag himself, sooner or later someone else would be there first.
Katsuhiko has set up the banner of "owning" and "conquering" all the women he has dated with in the past.Even though there are no flags now, there are still shadows of those flags in the past.
Judging from Yukiko's mature figure, it is difficult to say that she is an unexplored virgin land.Even if her body has been touched by men, it has not yet been dyed.This feeling of uncontrollability seems to be her armor, so she will not accept the banner of any man.
In the past, there must have been many men who wanted to plant the banner of "conquest" on her.Even if they have tried many times, it is probably like nailing tofu with no response.Maybe she didn't refuse on purpose, but she is not easy to be tempted by nature!
Because of this, Ke Yan even wanted to take her as his own.He rekindled his ambition to take women as his own, and this drive made him want to tear down the transparent wall between him and Yukiko.
"I think the only chance to meet you is tonight."
"Bite! If the teacher wants to see me, I can fly over anytime."
"Really?"
"of course it's true."
"You're going to make meeting me a top priority?"
"of course!"
"Then, I want to meet you once a month!"
"Wow! I'm so happy! I can meet with the teacher once a month!" Yukiko covered her cheeks with her hands, as if trying to suppress the excitement in her heart.
Ke Yan felt that her actions were really cute, and unconsciously, his face thickened: "Can you bear seeing me only once a month?"
"I can't bear it!" Yukiko replied immediately.
"I probably can't bear it either."
"Then let's meet more often!" she said happily.
"Twice a month...no! Three times is fine."
"Just meet once a week! Will it hinder your work? Hehehe!" Yukiko smiled mischievously.
As they walked, they saw a coffee shop in front of them. The two walked in naturally and started chatting again.The topics were endless, and when they suddenly found that there were no customers in the store, they looked at their watches and it was past midnight.
"Oops! Why is it so late?" Ke Yan said in astonishment.
Yukiko also looked at a loss.The happy time always flies by unconsciously.
"Are you going to be locked out?"
"No! I have the key."
"You're bound to be scolded by your parents, aren't you?"
"They're asleep now; I slipped in quietly and pretended nothing happened, and they probably wouldn't notice. By morning they'll be all over. I'll try to stay up late tomorrow."
"Then how do you go to school?"
"I can ask for a temporary leave!"
"Bad kids!"
"Don't forget, you are also an accomplice!"
"Since you say that, I have nothing to say."
"I hope to have many opportunities to become accomplices with you in the future." Yukiko calmly said something that disturbed Katsuhiko.Under the strict upbringing of her parents in the upper class, Yukiko has a free-spirited character.There is something charming about her unbalanced psychology.She was born with a feminine part, beyond the strict supervision of her parents, with a coquettish beauty that is not restricted by any frame.
Katsuhiko stopped a taxi on the road and took Yukiko home.Although there were thousands of words, due to the relationship of the taxi driver, the two remained silent in the car.He gently held her fingers, and she held his outstretched palm tightly without politeness.The bright street lights projected on the dim interior of the car, revealing her sometimes gray and sometimes hazy face.Every time she tilted her head, the long hair fell down: when she pushed it up, he felt that the movement was full of feminine allure.That blinking expression was even more gorgeous, making it hard for him to hold back.He didn't remember where he read an article that said: "Hair is a part of female genitals." At this time, he deeply felt that hair is really a beautiful genital.
"If I say I want to kiss you, will you feel insulted?" Ke Yan couldn't refuse the temptation emanating from Hanko, and whispered in her ear.
Yukiko brought her soft cherry lips closer, instead of answering.She didn't care about the driver's gaze, and kissed Ke Yan passionately without fear.Ke Yan greedily sucked the forbidden fruit that fell from the flower stand.
"Where do you want to park?" The driver's polite voice brought them back to their senses.Although Ke Yan deliberately did not allow the scene of the two kissing to be reflected in the rearview mirror, but seeing the strange smile on the driver's face, he understood somewhat in his heart.
Yukiko instructed the driver the driving route, and soon the car stopped in front of a magnificent mansion.Ke Yan got out of the car and took a look. It was a door built on two wooden pillars with a crossbar. The wide front yard was paved with stepping stones, leading directly to the deep entrance.At night, the roof of the main house can be vaguely seen among the dense garden trees.
"May I call you in two days?" Yukiko who was standing in front of the door asked.
"Anyway, I hope you can call me."
"I will definitely fight!"
Katsuhiko also asked for Yukiko's phone number, but he felt that he had to control the temptation to call.The two kissed goodbye at the door.
After sending Yukiko home, Katsuhiko felt that what happened tonight was really like a dream in the car on the return journey.It was hard for him to believe that this kind of thing could happen in reality, he felt that it was impossible for this kind of thing to happen.
It was just a night of co-existence, but there was such a result, which made him puzzled.In short, he has a premonition: tonight's encounter is the beginning of "a long story between men and women".
In terms of modern sexual concepts, it is not uncommon for men and women with huge age gaps to fall in love or have sex with married men.Ke Yan never dreamed that he would fall in love with a female college student who was thirty years older than himself.
Katsuhiko couldn't believe that Yukiko, who was young and beautiful, had a bright future, would be chosen among thousands of choices.
He thought to himself, how could he be so panicked at his age.At best, it's just a kiss with a young girl, what's the fuss about.Modern women think of sex as a handshake, or at best, fun!What's so good and elated about kissing them?Maybe tomorrow...
No!Maybe after getting out of the car, she had already forgotten about what happened tonight.
Ke Yan smiled self-deprecatingly.It's not that I haven't played with women at all, and those women were all beautiful and coquettish at the beginning.My mood is now ups and downs, it's almost like a high school boy who just fell in love.Maybe it's because of the "flower girl (female college students like flowers and jade) complex" of middle-aged and elderly people who are adoring it!
Thinking about it this way, his body and mind were like a deflated ball, and his whole body became sluggish.At the same time, it cannot be denied that he has a sense of relief.
Judging from the magnificent mansion, she must be a rich lady from a wealthy family.It must be quite troublesome to fall in love with such a rich lady.Ke Yan's group of drinking and meat friends will never get involved with the children of good families.Their targets are all women in Fengyue places, at most they are married women. "Safety" is the first consideration.
They only choose people who can be solved with money in case of trouble.
The more pure and free of disadvantages (a perfect woman), the higher the danger.It has been more than fifty years since I came to this world, and I also carry a lot of burdens on my shoulders. These burdens cannot be unloaded for the sake of love.In other words, he cannot take on the responsibility of being in love.For "dangerous women" who know from the beginning that they cannot let themselves take responsibility, it is best to stay away from them, so as not to cause trouble to the upper body.
When he got home, his wife hadn't gone to bed yet, and was still waiting for his return.Tonight, her face looked very harsh.The two daughters had already entered the dormitory.When they were young, if Ke Yan came home late, he would definitely go and see how they slept.But the daughter has grown up, and if she still does this now, she will be regarded as a sex maniac.However, for him now, that would save a lot of trouble.
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