Chapter 8 Sex poisonous saliva

When Nishinazong urinated, a nasty chill came up from his back, and his lower body seemed to be anesthetized. Even though he wanted to urinate, he couldn't urinate.This feeling is the first time.Not long ago, it seemed to have a feeling, but it was never as obvious as it is now. Isn't this a symptom similar to some kind of STD?This feeling reminded him that he had read about sexually transmitted diseases in a weekly special issue before, but Nishina believed that he would never contract that disease, so he dismissed the idea of ​​uneasiness. Renke, nicknamed "Old Babaner" by his friends, is a law-abiding person.When it comes to women, he has never been dissatisfied with the fact that he is only familiar with the body of his wife who has been married for 15 years.

Nishina's wife Yuko, just like her name, is a beautiful and virtuous woman. As a husband, Nishina has received due respect and thoughtful service.Since his marriage, he has been very satisfied with his wife. People around Yuko's comments are also very good.She is already in her early 30s, but she has only given birth to one child, and she is still as slender as in her 20s, and with her maturity after marriage, she has a strong feminine charm. The men who met Yuko for the first time all showed surprise at first, and then showed envy. "With such a beautiful family member like a flower, it is not difficult for Mr. Nishina not to be promiscuous." They all showed understanding.

Her only shortcoming (if viewed from an outsider, it is better to say her strengths) is her extreme enthusiasm for the education of her only daughter Yingzi. As soon as Yingzi was born, Yuzi's educational ability was brought into play.Passed the test with a competition rate as high as dozens of times, and entered a nursery school (not a kindergarten) that has been evaluated in terms of early childhood education.Then, I stayed up for two more nights to get admission to the famous kindergarten.The precious "mother spirit" is shown here. "In the past, child prodigies were just like ordinary people. Don't become too neurotic when you were young, that's fine!" Nishina warned, but Yuko retorted gently and refused to give in.

"A child's ability is determined by the education before the age of seven or eight. If you are not careful during this period, then a good seedling that you have finally obtained will wither and wither." Traffic accidents often occurred in elementary and middle school, so I did not go to famous schools far away.In order to make up for this, I hired a top-notch college student as a tutor, but I was still a little worried, so I went to a cram school for various subjects. "In that case, wouldn't the child have no freedom? Besides, if a girl gets married, she will always be bound by her husband. So, at least during her childhood, let her be free."

Surprised by this educational method, which is almost like cultivating scholars, PeopleSoft once again warned.If it's a boy, it can be ignored, but for a girl who is going to be another man's wife after all, it's useless to frantically pursue that kind of cramming education. "It is precisely because of this that I want to let her study hard now. If she becomes someone else's wife, no matter how hard she tries, she will not be able to study well. Besides, Yingzi also likes to study." Hearing what his wife said, Nishina did not object.Although forcing the child to do something she hates is another matter, but the child himself wants to improve, and the parents can't say no to disagree.

For children, there seem to be many more interesting things than studying, but due to the induction of mother's gifted education, Yingzi seems to like learning unconsciously. If it was a boy, Nishina would also firmly oppose becoming a bookworm from such a young age.Just because she is a girl, even if she is bored at home studying, she will not have any resistance. Compared with making friends outside, Yingzi is a child who prefers to study and listen to the radio alone at home. It would be nice to have another child, but the 2DK housing complex that is used to living in also has housing difficulties.If you move to a spacious residence and have the trouble of birth restrictions, it seems that there will only be one Yingzi.

Miss Yingzi will be the age to take the high school exam next year.Yuko must ask Yingzi to enter the famous private S high school that often wins the top one or two of T major passers to take the exam.Relying on the relationship, using the door, and obtaining the qualification for the exam that is only nominal, now it is entering the final juncture of putting in more effort. As long as she doesn't have the stubbornness of her mother, Yuko is a wife who can't be picky.However, her mother's stubbornness is not alone, but seems to be a recent common phenomenon among mothers across the country.

With the cruel modern competition, in order to be undefeated, the mother's kindness, even if it is an extremely small advantage, is not necessarily not condemned. Regarding this matter, Yuko did not complain once, nor did she show any slack.But deep in the thought of wanting his children to receive a super education, perhaps engraved with the reality that Nishina, who only received a high school education, did not go well. PeopleSoft is the investigative director of a state-owned company corrupted by the central government.The bureaucratic system of the central government is carried on in the same way in the company, and the top is completely controlled by the wings of the competent department and outstanding figures who graduated from national universities.

Not only graduates of national universities, but also graduates of private universities have set limits for promotion. Therefore, high school graduates like PeopleSoft have been ignored from the very beginning. For an unqualified person like him to set up such a wonderful position as an investigation director, at least he has the warm care of the chairman who only cares about him on his business card, right?But the work they do is no different from that of ordinary employees. But for PeopleSoft, it's a title to be grateful for.In fact, people in their 40s are just like ordinary employees, and they can't bear to see their wives.The ambiguous title of investigation director is quite suitable for him.

Of course, it is clear what kind of position the general titles of director and section chief occupy.Compared with this, the investigation director seems to be very good. PeopleSoft's philosophy of life is not to do things reluctantly, and there is no end to climbing.As a kind citizen, if you fulfill the assigned tasks and work well, you can ensure your little happiness. That happiness, even small, was enough for him.When I go to work, I have a decent job to guarantee the corresponding income; when I come home, I have a beautiful wife and lovely children to accompany me.In a word, PeopleSoft is satisfied with the current situation in all aspects.

Among the most average wage earners in Japan, he was this super decent guy.Therefore, in this regard, although I showed obvious symptoms of venereal disease and gradually worsened, I really didn't think that I would suffer from that disgraceful disease. He thinks that he has no chance of contracting venereal disease at all. If it is about sex, he has sex with his wife twice a week, only on Wednesday and Saturday nights. This is a rule that has been stamped for many years, and it is true.When this pattern is disrupted, PeopleSoft is feeling unwell.Yuko probably also regarded sex as a barometer of Nishina's health. Therefore, he believes that he will not suffer from venereal diseases. Recently, the frequency of urination has increased significantly.Although I want to pee, I can't pee. There seems to be something blocked in the urethra.When I looked closely, there was something like pus coming out of the urethra, where it was red and swollen. When urinating, it felt like being squeezed, and the local burning sensation finally turned into an unbearable pain.Even Nishina thought that some germ must have invaded a certain part of the body. I went to see a specialist with anxiety and was diagnosed with "gonococcal urethritis". It was a shot to his back. "Ah, there's nothing you can do about it. Don't get too close to unwholesome women from now on." The doctor ordered and injected him with antibiotics. "Sir, isn't this disease transmitted from places other than women?" Nishina asked because it was an unbelievable disease. "Well, there are occasional cases of infection in public baths or when wearing patients' underwear, but the chances of that kind of infection are minimal, and the main reason is that men did dirty things." "But doctor, I don't think it's my problem!" "I don't think so, you..." The doctor showed some surprise. "That is, you don't think you did the kind of thing that made you sick?" "Exactly. I don't go to public baths, and I don't wear other people's underwear." "What about sex?" "Absolutely not." "Not with your wife either?" "That was with my wife." "You are so pathetic, this is by no means an accidental disease. Anyway, the fact of this infection has been proved, and it must have been exposed to germs somewhere. Ah, the matter of husband and wife is something outside of my profession, but it should also be Try to solve it properly." The doctor seemed to say that the source of the infection was his wife, and then urged the nurse with his eyes to call in the next patient. Nishina was hit hard, and the enemy who suddenly attacked from behind was his most trusted wife. —that quack doctor!Talking nonsense about other people's affairs-- He cursed viciously in his heart, but when he thought about it seriously, the job of a doctor is to diagnose and treat diseases, not to discover the source of infection.It is too harsh to ask a medical practitioner who treats himself like that. ——Then, could it be Yuko? asshole!Zhenshu's Yuko would never do that kind of thing!PeopleSoft immediately denied the doubts that had arisen from the bottom of his heart.But if so, where exactly did the nasty germs get in? Although it is an ancient way of expression, Nishina swears to the gods of heaven and earth that he has never touched any opposite sex other than his wife, although it is now fully proved that his body has germs. "It's definitely not an accidental disease." The doctor's words echoed in his ears again.This is not speculation and feeling, but a convincing diagnosis based on scientific understanding. Looking at my wife again with such a light, her recent behavior is indeed strange.The mature body used to hardly wait for sex twice a week, and recently it seems to be negative. Can't help but have doubts, is this the same woman as Yuko in the daytime?All the unrestrained and greedy movements at night have turned into passive gestures that only respond to her husband's request.This is completely different from the past. Treatment for STDs is meaningless if couples don't start at the same time.Even if one spouse is cured, the other remains sick, and the germs will circulate between the couple. ——Maybe Yuko didn’t want to prevent the infection from being transmitted to me, but he has already started treatment to prevent the reverse infection from me, so he is so passive—— As doubts grow about his wife, speculation turns against her. "Ah!" Nishina was stunned suddenly to discover some tendency of his wife recently.It can be said that that is the obvious sign of the source of the disease. Yuko said after the latest couple's sex life: "You often want to get close to other women's bodies besides mine!" "There is no such thing, as long as you have it, you will be very satisfied!" Nishina replied. "Lie! Of course, don't be polite to me. It's instinct for a man to pursue the body of a strange woman. Don't suppress your instinct for me!" "Men are also different. In short, I have you enough, no matter now or in the future. First of all, women with unknown origins are not clean. Please don't worry about this anyway." "It's a pleasure to satisfy me, but it's so easy for you to be a man, but you have to be bound by your wife. You only know that I am a woman, and you will always feel a little regretful." "I don't think there's a restriction. Listening to you, it always feels like you're advocating such a thing as sexual freedom." "It's not advocating it on purpose, but seeing other husbands who do whatever they want, don't you feel that you are not too rigid?" These days these conversations happen a lot between couples. ——Yes, it was because she was trying to cover up her innocence. Nishina seems to have finally discovered his wife's cunning purpose.Before the husband finds out that he has gonorrhea, if the husband is exposed to another woman, the source of infection can be passed on to that woman.Therefore, he persuaded Nishina with reasons that violated his wife's psychological requirements. This was a trick to conceal the route of infection. "Bastard!" Although it was too late to understand, the anger towards his wife still spewed out.With the weight of trust in his wife that he had cultivated for many years, he suppressed the suspicion that he wanted to take the lead, and now he suddenly took it off.The anger that could not be contained boiled up instantly. Nishina threw his anger directly at Yuko.Because the definite evidence is that gonorrhea has eroded the husband's body, he cannot be prevaricated with rhetoric like a husband who has general promiscuity. Under her husband's questioning, Yuko finally admitted that she had been in contact with other men. "Who is that man?" Nishina's angry look was horrifying, he bit his tongue and didn't let go. "Only once, please forgive me!" Yuko begged desperately. "Don't make wishful thinking, steal a man behind your husband's back, and you are sick, and you still want to hide it from me? I have the right to know who that man is!" He hit his wife for the first time, leaving deep handprints on her cheeks.But his anger didn't subside, instead it intensified with his violent actions. Continuing to keep the man's name a secret, Yuko feels the fear of being strangled by her husband. "You, forgive me. It's my fault. Mr. Guan Zinan..." Yuko finally confessed the man's name. The unexpected name made Nishina speechless.Nan is a tutor hired for his daughter Yingzi.Minami Saichiro is a young student in the fourth year of T University. "So, you seduced the other party, right?" "I'm sorry, I'm obsessed. I didn't think that way at first, but somehow..." Yuko knelt down in front of Nishina while weeping.He was more confused than angry.Minami Saichiro is fifteen or sixteen years younger than Yuko.In fact, no matter which party seduces first, it can certainly be determined that she has taken the initiative. "Is it a disease transmitted by Nan?" Nishina finally recovered from the initial anger and consternation, and he continued to ask. "At first, I thought it wouldn't be such a coincidence. But because I didn't feel well, I went to the doctor behind your back, knowing that I was sick. After questioning Mr. Nan, he confessed that when he was walking drunk at a club party , had sexual intercourse with a woman who was stopped and got infected." "When did you have a relationship with Nan?" According to Yuko's confession, the first time they had sex was three months ago, which seemed to be a little earlier than the onset time. That day, Eiko hadn't come home from school, and Nishina was of course also at work, so when Yuko brought out refreshments to entertain Nan in the guest room, both of them stretched out their hands and hugged each other unconsciously. Yuko only wants to do it once, but once a young man has tasted the taste of a well-ripe woman's body, he won't allow it. A woman who gives permission once is powerless if she is entangled by a man.What's more, as someone else's wife, I don't have that kind of sexual self-cleaning feeling.If so, I would never have entered into this relationship from the very beginning. With repeated relationships, Yuko became obsessed with Minami's young and powerful body; Minami was exploited by Yuko and indulged in the skillful body of other people's wives. But Yuko never dreamed that Nan's young body like a pony actually harbored serious venereal diseases. "So, do you still maintain the relationship?" Nishina asked again until everything was cleared up and the boiling anger had to be suppressed. "No, there will be one more time after being infected. It's true, please believe it." "The trust has been completely shattered, what is there to talk about trusting, there is such a brazen guy!" "But it's true." "Why not fire?" Nan is still safely serving as Yingzi's teacher. "Yingzi's exam is not far away, changing the teacher now will affect the exam, and Yingzi is also familiar with Mr. Nan." At this time, Nishina discovered another greater danger, which was far more serious than stealing his wife. "Don't Nan reach out to Yingzi?" Nishina turned pale because of his own imagination.As a governess, a pervert who reaches out to a student's mother will not be indifferent to the student. Eiko's appearance is very similar to Yuko's, with the bright and moving beauty of a flower bud, and she is a charming girl.But that bud may have been eaten by the fangs of a greedy satyr. "That is absolutely reassuring!" "Why are you so sure! Will the man who reached out to you promise not to attack Yingzi with his fangs?" "Eiko is still a child." "Pretty young girl in third grade now, fully grown up." "I'm staring at it with my eyes wide open!" Nishina was indeed surprised by her strange idea.Yuko is so convinced that there is no problem, it is probably because of women's jealousy and motherly love to protect their children. "In short, it's dangerous to dismiss Nan immediately. There are many people who can be tutors." Nishina said in a tone that did not allow rebuttal. "Please, now is the most important time for Yingzi!" "You thing, are you qualified to talk about that matter? At such an important time, who was the one who had an affair with the tutor behind her husband's back?" The words were sharp, and Yuko was left speechless by the question.But there was a strong counterattack from unexpected places.Yingzi proposed that if Nan was dismissed without sufficient reasons, he would not be admitted to high school. No matter what PeopleSoft said to find a better teacher, Yingzi disagreed.She is satisfied with Nan and seems to respect her.Of course, that kind of worthless man would not expose that relationship. Such a respected tutor had an ugly relationship with his own mother.He considered the impact on Yingzi after the truth came out, and decided that this fact must be concealed. Besides, she is at a sensitive age.This kind of shock may lead to an unimaginable decline in the intelligence of young people. Nishina had to compromise in front of Yingzi.In this way, the uncontrollable anger due to his wife's betrayal had to be suppressed for the sake of his daughter, and Nan continued to serve as Yingzi's tutor. After Nishina's treatment, the symptoms disappeared soon.This time, because the husband and wife visited the doctor at the same time, the effect was remarkable. Even with the recovery, however, the gulf dug between the Nishinas has deepened.Nishina would never forgive his wife.For Yingzi's high school exam, it was just a momentary suppression of boiling anger and a "truce agreement" with his wife. And Minami, the culprit who caused the dispute, still went in and out of Nishina's house as if nothing had happened.Time cannot erase the traces of memory at all.Needless to say, Nishina's anger and hatred, the more time passed, the more it boiled in his chest, and accumulated unstoppably. Yingzi failed in S High School.The test results in the past have been good, and I am confident, so this blow is quite big.Nan's face was also pale, and he said that he didn't know why he failed the ranking. But failing the ranking is a matter of fact.Eiko stayed behind closed doors in her room.Want to comfort, but it is difficult to open Yingzi's heart, the whole family is helpless. Nan just insisted that with Yingzi's strength, he could pass the exam.But since then, it has come less and less, and finally disappeared.There was also a reason for not being able to bear Nishina's piercing gaze. In Nishina's view, Minami is both a man who steals and rapes other people's wives, and a hateful man who can't fulfill his duties as a governess. The hatred is dual. About a month after Yingzi failed the exam, an unexpected accident happened. Minami Saichiro was involved in a traffic accident and died easily.After Nan's employment unit was confirmed, a press conference was held in order to win Nan's first entry into the company. He had an accident on his way home after the meeting. At about 10 o'clock that night, the announcement meeting ended. Nan and his partners who had set the date of joining the company drank and broke up. When they were walking on the side of the road near the residence, a high-speed car (because there were no witnesses, it can't be finalized) drove from behind. Come, knock him down, and run away, so that he dies at last. The cause of death was respiratory paralysis due to cerebral contusion and cerebral hemorrhage caused by the force of the impact.He was dead when sent to the hospital.Police believe it was a vicious hit-and-run incident.The special hit-and-run search team began to deduce the type of vehicle involved in the accident from the paint flakes dropped at the scene and the fragments of the vehicle's cargo. When hearing this news, Nishina felt that his long-suppressed heart suddenly relaxed, and at the same time felt a little regretful.Because for the man who secretly played with his wife, the opponent died in an accident before he even took revenge. The opponent is dead, even if he wants to take revenge himself, there is no other way.Perhaps Nan was punished by God.Thinking about it this way relieved the knot of regret. But there was another unexpected ambush here, because Yuko's attitude suddenly became tough.In the past, because she concealed the disadvantages of infidelity and infectious diseases from her husband, she always bowed to Nishina. This is not a submission under force, but a manifestation of regretting one's past from the bottom of one's heart, and only seeking to please her husband in order to make some compensation. No matter what humiliating attitude the wife took to repent of the past, Nishina did not intend to forgive her, and responded strongly to her attitude in this way. But recently, Yuko's attitude has obviously changed, and the wife has adopted an attitude that should not be treated by her husband.That attitude is professionally indifferent and blunt, just like a ticket cutter at a station who receives many strange guests or a gatekeeper at a large institution within a limited time. Although I have to fulfill my obligations to my husband first, but in my attitude and words, there is a routine-like indifference, which often stimulates my husband's nerves. "Hey, what's the matter with you recently?" Nishina asked. "Nothing else." She asked blankly.Totally emotionless, rather like the dry tone of a telephone switchboard.It was never like this before, Yuko is a woman full of expressions and emotions. "Why shouldn't it be like this, isn't this kind of face just like a poker face?" This is a strong expression. "That's because you look at me with that look. I'm the same as usual." "The same or different, you and I both know that you made a mistake that you can never repay in your life, and you should never forget that!" PeopleSoft's "credit" to his wife is to prevent the other party from forgetting about that matter.However, according to recent observations, Yuko not only forgot about the "relationship of creditor's rights", but even her position has undergone a fundamental change. "There is nothing to forget, I will use my whole life to make it up, then, what about you..." Yuko paused here, looking at her husband with a piercing cold light in her eyes. "What do you mean? Is your vision trying to make up for the past?" Although his wife flinched from the unexpectedly strong gaze, Nishina uttered a stern voice in order to make his wife recognize her husband's authority again: "That's not looking at your husband, it's like killing someone." "You just need to understand!" Yuko said in a strange voice, and opened her eyes. "What does this mean?" Nishina was confused for a moment, not knowing what kind of medicine his wife was selling in the gourd. "I can't make it clear, you know that." "I don't know, I don't understand what you mean in your words?" "You are too scary, it would be great if no one is killed!" "What?!" Nishina was stunned by his wife who suddenly popped up a babble for no reason. "I, are you saying I killed someone?" "I can't be sure. On the night Mr. Nan died in an accident, you came back later than usual; on that day, you said that you were driving to work, but you hit a power pole on the way and went to the repair shop." After listening to Yuko's words , Nishina felt that his wife had fallen into a major mistake. Recently, a friend bought a new car and resold the old car he used in the past to him at a low price.Although it is an old car abandoned by the owner, PeopleSoft still tastes the satisfaction of owning a private car.Yuko repeatedly discouraged him from driving after familiarizing himself with the car's performance, but he didn't listen at all, and always drove to work.One time I drove that old car out, which happened to be the day when Minami Saichiro had an accident. Unfortunately, the trip was safe, but something happened on the bend near the house on the way home.The car hit a utility pole, smashing the headlights and radiator grill.This is something that a licensed but infrequent driver cannot rule out. After finally sending the car to the repair shop, it was around 10 o'clock when I got home. After that, the news of the accident spread.Presumably the change in his wife's attitude began that night. Yuko mistakenly thought that Nishina had killed Nan, even if she was wrong, there was nothing she could do about it. "Asshole, Nan is too hateful, but he didn't want to kill him." Nishina was more puzzled than angry at the unreasonable suspicion suddenly expressed in his wife.Although bad luck keeps happening, how can this woman not even know whether her husband who has been with her for more than ten years will kill someone? His mood developed from anger to callousness. "I didn't know you were such a terrible person!" She seemed unable to solve this mystery at all. "Stop it!" Nishina slapped his wife so that her eyes were full of golden flowers, her lips were torn, and blood oozed out. "Before doubting, think about the car, don't you understand? Would I just send the car that hit someone to the repair shop as if nothing happened?" In this way, Yuko seems to have discovered the rashness of her suspicions, but she still can't solve the doubts smoothly about the situation that happened. "After checking the car, it is not clear what was sent." "You man, why do you always want to treat me as the criminal who caused the accident! The scars from bumping into people are different from the scars from bumping into electric poles. Experts can tell at a glance..." While speaking, a flame of anger kept burning in his chest.Why do you need to say such things to your wife?Nan died and had nothing to do with himself.In return for his crimes, he had been punished by heaven; and if Nishina had anything to do with it, it was that damage to Nishina was included in his crimes. However, even the punishment given to him by God was completely irresponsible. "Yuko, before you suspect your husband, don't you reflect on the mistakes you have made? It is really unreasonable to deceive your husband under the guise of chastity, hook up with your daughter's tutor, and infect your husband with a dirty disease What a serious crime you have committed. As long as you know it well, there is no reason to doubt your husband." Nishina scolded his wife with dirty words as much as possible, and the swearing fueled his anger.In a vicious circle, even he felt such a rampant self-euphoria. "Your body was born with lecherous blood, so you shamelessly seduced your daughter's governess. Aren't you the one who is sick? You frivolous slut, a married woman who is about 15 years older than Nan, actually Easy to fall into the arms of filthy venereal patients. There must be many other than Nan, and the one who is exposed is just like the most innocent Nan. How is it? That’s right? You whore, what qualifications do you have to be a mother and wife? Even Yingzi doesn't know whose child it is!" That's what was said in the scolding.Yuko, who was insulted by Nishina, turned from red to white. At this time, there seemed to be movement outside the house. The couple quickly opened the door, but no one saw it. If Yingzi overhears the quarrel at this time, it will be troublesome.Even Nishina found himself talking too much. It was three days after her daughter Eiko ran away from home.Speaking of Yingzi who went to a friend's house, she didn't come home at night. Yuko was very worried. She called the friend's house and found out that Yingzi hadn't been there once in two weeks. "What's wrong with you?" Yuko cried to her husband who had just returned from get off work. The quarrel three days ago created an irreparable rift between the couple, but at this time, the wife is most dependent on her husband. Despite the cracks in the relationship between the couple, the fact that Yingzi is their daughter has not changed. "Don't panic, you won't run away from home." Even though he scolded his wife, PeopleSoft also felt the ominous omen.Of course, there was a reason for leaving. Maybe she heard the quarrel between him and his wife the day before yesterday. Letting her anger vent, her head became hot, and she scolded her wife with filthy words. If Yingzi knew the truth of the matter, her heart, which was completely immune to the filth in the adult world and was easily hurt, would probably be torn to pieces. yes. In the past two or three days, although I secretly paid attention to Yingzi's expression, I didn't find anything particularly abnormal, so it happened when I just breathed a sigh of relief. "Always check Yingzi's room." Nishina came to his daughter's room with ominous thoughts churning in his chest.Steel and wooden tables and bookshelves, a stereo tape recorder and a puppet stand in one corner of the room, pink printed curtains and carpets of the same color set off each other, it does resemble the gorgeous atmosphere of a young girl's room, but it feels too clean. There is a library version of the book on the table, which is "The Sorrows of Young Werther" that Yingzi likes to read most. Nishina picked it up unconsciously, and something fell out of the page, which was a small folded note. "It's a letter left behind!" Nishina's face suddenly lost its color, and Youxin stayed behind because he was prepared to leave.I hurriedly opened it to read the contents, the letter was written very simply - I lost the courage to live, never would have thought that such a thing would happen.Why is the world so dirty!I hate everything!I have caused you a lot of trouble before!Please don't look for my whereabouts.Yingzi. This is not just a letter left behind, but a suicide note. "You said, does Yingzi want to die?" Yuko said, sobbing. "Asshole, don't think about unlucky things!" "If something happens to Yingzi, I, I won't live anymore." "Let's talk about that kind of thing after thoroughly finding out Yingzi's whereabouts. In short, make a request to the police as soon as possible." Suicidal intent is literally implied.Said to go to a friend's place, and the time to leave home was around 1:00 noon, and five or six hours had passed.During this period of time, you can probably go very far, and now you can't hesitate for a moment. The police station under the jurisdiction that accepted PeopleSoft's request made deployments in both busy places and tourist attractions as a case of suicide risk. Runaways who are determined to commit suicide generally tend to choose the place of death in a famous tourist attraction, so they can only rely on the police department under their jurisdiction to protect the runaway and take emergency rescue. Although the astute police made deployments, Yingzi's whereabouts were still unknown. "If Eiko commits suicide because of this, I will kill you!" Yuko glared at Nishina with cold eyes.This person was no longer the virtuous wife he was familiar with. She was on the verge of going crazy because of her daughter's disappearance. For Nishina, Eiko is also an irreplaceable daughter.But for him, who barely works, and his mother Yuko, who only lives on Yingzi, although they are both their own children, the proportion of love is different. ——If Yingzi commits suicide... the thought that maybe this woman will go crazy, a chill hits his back.But this cannot be compared with the aversion to cold at the onset of the disease infected by Yuko. This is an aversion to cold that cannot be cured even with antibiotics.Nishina was shaken by the chill that penetrated into the depths of the human heart, and could do nothing about the quietly approaching disaster except to wait in horror for its coming.Not only did they entrust the police, but the couple also searched separately at the places Yingzi often went to, but there was still nothing to do but wait. Nishina just didn't move at all, he seemed to go crazy first.The police did not come to make any contact; of course, there was no news from Yingzi either.Time stood still as if frozen. Nishina stared blankly at a point in space, squatting at home like a domestic animal.Next to him was his wife, who was also staring at the wall.Of course they didn't stare at each other on purpose, the two of them remained silent for an unknown amount of time and didn't want to eat. "Yuko!" Nishina broke the long silence, and Yuko turned her head silently. "Are you sick, are you well?" PeopleSoft asked an inappropriate question. "If you need to know, you might as well check it." Yuko's eyes flashed a coquettish light, and a tacit understanding was reached in an instant. After the rift between the couple, there was actually no sex life for a long time.Both sides are hungry, and it is hatred that fills that hunger. However, physical desire and psychological hatred are two different things.Although a man and a woman lived together as a couple, the carnal desires that had been sealed up by monks and evil suddenly exploded because of the sudden event of a child's disappearance. Early the next morning, Yuko delivered the newspaper to Nishina with a stiff expression.Last night's actions did not eliminate the gap between them at all, and the roots of hatred took root even deeper. On the page opened by his wife, he cast his gaze inadvertently, and saw the news "Search camp deduces the suspected vehicle type was successful" on the third column, followed by the news report on the search for the hit-and-run. The type, model, and coloring of the listed victimized car were exactly the same as his old car.It was another unfortunate coincidence. But PeopleSoft did not get angry, nor did it have the idea of ​​defense.Any kind of inference is fine, but the most important thing now is to know Yingzi's whereabouts. Yingzi's body was found this afternoon, and the place where she committed suicide was the famous Shayu Bay on the coast of A.Throwing into the sea seems to be two days ago.The body was severely damaged like a small fish smashed against a rock.But the beauty of the past still remains on the face, which is consistent with the features of the missing person introduction issued by Tokyo. 从沙鱼湾跳海，一般说尸体是打捞不上来的，而英子的遗体被潮流冲到离海岸20公里左右的海面上，被附近的渔船发现了。 接到通知的仁科夫妇慌忙赶来，确认是自己的女儿英子。那瞬间的优子，好像被切断了身体重要部位的脉络，陷入虚脱状态。 英子的安葬结束后，优子带着过度悲伤的表情来到仁科面前，说要分手了。这时，仁科才感到优子对自己来说，是绝对不可缺少的人。 憎恨即使融化了，也不会宽恕错误。那是因为需要她，才作为暂且不提的一个问题保留下来，就像自己身体讨厌的一部分一样，尽管讨厌，也是不可缺少的。 仁科不想离婚，这时优子首先离开家。数日后，他从机关回家后，家里充满着凄凉的气氛，已经看不见妻子的身影了。 马上查看一下她的私用物品，并没有发现少了东西，也没有看见留下的信。 也许刚好出去了吧，他怀着被不安压倒的心情进入内室，饭桌上准备着一个人的饭菜。盛着的都是他喜欢吃的食物。 仁科感到好像有什么东西突然涌向心头。饭桌上只准备一个人的饭菜，那是只让他一个人吃的。 这是表示妻子已经先吃过了呢？还是表示今天夜里不打算在家吃饭了呢？或是今夜之后将永远在别处吃饭的无言表示呢？ 仁科似乎证实了最后的一个推测。 “优子——”他呆立在空旷的家中，呼喊着妻子的名字。 “求求你了，回来吧。”他的眼泪滚滚而出。 妻子出走之后，仁科连上班的心情也没有了。整天像家畜一样呆在家里。 仅仅几天，家里就像畜舍一样乱糟糟的了，没有成员的家，难道竟是这样荒寂吗？ 已有妻子的人，一旦失去家庭的那种荒凉，就像沉淀的污水一样，没气力自我挽救了。那不是剩余能量的糟粕。简直是腐败的东西失去了投弃的地方而堆积起来放出的恶臭。 仁科家滞留的臭气，已经近于尸臭了。 自杀的优子尸体，也在沙鱼湾被发现，是她出走的儿天之后。 游览客人来到沙鱼湾最前端的锯峡照相，在断崖上发现了脱下扔掉的女用浅口无带皮鞋和手提皮包等东西。 或许发生了什么事，从崖上提心吊胆地向下窥视，看到了白浪拍击的礁石上倒着一个女人。 知道是自杀者的游客，跑到最近的派出所去报告，本地警察署警察赶到现场，岩石上的自杀者全身受到强烈撞击，已经死亡了。 能证明身份的东西，什么也没有。但本地警察之中，有一个认识自杀者容貌的人。面孔尽管有些变化，却很像不久前从同一场所跳崖自杀的少女的母亲。动机完全明白了。失去姑娘的母亲，在女儿之后追来了。 马上和仁科宗一取得联系。从东京匆匆忙忙赶来的他，确认是妻子无疑。 “太惨了，请不要绝望，要不泄气坚持下去，一生不会总是不幸的。”担任现场指挥的老练的主管警员，不断地进行安慰，他好像担心仁科还会去步妻子的后尘似的。 优子的遗体就地火葬了。回到家后，看到邮递员在自己外出时送来的一封信。 发信人是优子，印戳是A市邮政局，日期是尸体被发现的前一天。那是她投身沙鱼湾之前投寄的。 仁科迫不及待地拆开信封，展开了信纸。上面写着： 看完了信的仁科，目瞪口呆，过了一会，他才喃喃地说：“我什么坏事也没做，可偏偏……”这个叨念谁也听不见，他自己好像也没有说这种话的心思。 优子说情热消失了，可仁科感到自己在实质上已不存在，存在的只不过是他的形骸。 这时，他陷入一种强烈的虚脱感中。他明白，在现在的这个世界里，尽管自己什么坏事也没干，也会被他人迫害：不伤害人也会被别人伤害，不侵犯人也会被别人侵犯。 小小不然的幸福，竟是如此的脆弱。高度物质文明的社会将被这冷漠地孕育着的凶恶意志击得粉碎。 从自失状态中清醒过来，他被一阵激烈的恐怖捕捉住了。 大约一年半以后，S高中的学务部长篠崎隆夫，从位于高速公路旁边的汽车旅馆回家时，叫了一辆出租车。秋日黄昏的余晖很快便从天空消失了。这里能够避开别人的眼目，可以说是有非常好的外部条件。 他告诉司机住宅所在的位置，听凭车身的快速震动。速度加快了。这个震动使他联想到乘车之前，在汽车旅馆的密室中那浓厚而又细腻的行为。 任他蹂躏的女性身体都是成熟了的。经过篠崎巧妙地诱导，由最初想让孩子上著名学校的母亲的慈爱心，变成了可以委身于他的暧昧姿态。不知不觉间，他就把自己的本能扩大成赤裸裸地追求女人的行为了。 教师和应该成为自己学生的母亲这种完全不同的异质组合，比一般的奸情产生了更强烈的腐臭。但这种“被禁止的放荡”，却勾起了他们隐秘的兴奋。 况且这种奸情，刺激是强烈的，加以安全度高，只要不让人看见就不会暴露。因为女人方面有向丈夫隐瞒外遇的弱点，所以绝对可以保守秘密。除此之外，还有不被孩子知道真相的母亲身份在掩盖着。 在两重安全保障之下，篠崎可以尽情地玩弄熟透了的女性身体。在他饱尝之后，也接受对方赠给的金钱和物品。 ——再没有这种神灵暗中保佑的额外便宜了—— 他暗暗得意地笑了。从秋天到第二年的春天，是他笑得最开心的时期。今天的女人特别有味道啊。 标新立异的汽车旅馆密室内所有的设施，都在她美丽的身体面前褪尽了颜色，她其有夺人魂魄的迷人魅力。 “你丈夫真让人羡慕啊！”他以毫不掩饰的心情说。眼睑轻染的女人也说：“我有这种想法是第一次，先生的太太也是让人钦羨的啊！” 恐怕我和这个女人来往是最得意的了。她可以少交一些入学斡旋费。不，就是完全不交也可以。 回味着令人贪恋的女人的篠崎，身体突然震动了一下。司机为了超前驾驶猛打了方向盘，这种令人害怕的速度，使他感到不安。 “你，速度稍稍过快了，不要那么急，慢慢开吧！”忍受不了的篠崎提醒说。可司机不但不减速，反而加大了油门。不是高速公路，用这种速度行驶是没有道理的。 "you!" “减低速度？”篠崎正要抬起腰身的时候，司机发问了，“客人是不是S高中的篠崎先生啊？” “是啊……”在无准备的时候突然发问，不留神承认了的篠崎终于有些慌神了。 “你是谁？”反问的时候，车子再一次加速，越过了道路的中心标线。 “喂，停车，你，打算干什么？”篠崎的叫声，根本没入司机的耳朵。折射镜里映出司机的眼睛，紧紧地盯住前方，闪着异样的光芒，那不是一般的眼神。司机的口中反复地叨念着：“我是什么坏事也不做的，我是什么坏事也不做的……”他反复地说着这句话。 “发疯了！”恶寒从篠崎的脊背袭上来，这种恶寒和第一次意识到被某少女传染上性病时的感觉相似。 这个少女，如果无论怎样也进不了他的学校的话，因无法向父母交代，就必得自杀，因而向他主动奉献出那完全成熟的肉体。 连篠崎也感到了踟蹰。被谁梳弄过吗？那是已经知道性行为的身体了。 但以后更使他大吃一惊的是，他被少女传染上了可怕的疾病，真是令人难以置信，这个少女身上竟有严重的性病。盘问少女，她坦白地说是被家庭教师传染的。 感染之后，少女的母亲出现在篠崎面前。这个愚蠢的母亲，不知道孩子的另一种生活经历。篠崎在复仇的念头下，占有了这个母亲。 女儿的考试成绩是出类拔萃的，是靠实力合格的，但篠崎却判她成绩不合格，即使这样，她母亲仍然采取了缄口不言的态度。 病源根本不是篠崎。“我是没有责任的。”他又若无其事了。 姑娘不久就自杀了。动机不是因为家庭教师的死亡，也不是因为没有入S高中，而是因为由自己缘起的病毒竟可耻地扮演了中转的角色，传染给母亲的强烈冲击。 从女儿身上接受的病菌，向母亲成熟的肉体深处放射的时候，也有同样的恶寒。亲生母女连这种事都如此相似——恐怖之中，联想翩然浮现出来。 “你不停车吗？”正想更严厉地制止司机的时候，从前方出现的一辆巨型卡车压了过来。 --why?Why?在这种时候，我为什么必须死去？ ——我什么坏事也没做，可是…… 两个人的话都还没说出来，闪光撕裂了视野，轰音剥夺了听觉。篠崎一瞬间失去了意识，竟没有来得及看一眼驾驶席上标示司机姓名的名签与那个愚蠢的母亲同姓。