Chapter 61 second quarter

The story of Lu Xun and Xu Guangping is familiar to those who understand modern literature; but the original partner, Zhu An, has been deliberately buried in the dust of the years for a long time, and it was not known until more than ten years ago, when it was introduced in the overall social atmosphere of reform and opening up. , entered people's field of vision. Zhu An married Lu Xun. At that time, Lu Xun's family was in decline, but he was still a respectable family in the local area. Lu Xun was a student studying in Japan.She didn't have any dissatisfaction with this marriage; and according to her natural character, she rarely had dissatisfaction or resentment.

Lu Xun, who was three years younger than her, was a son of a prominent family in Shaoxing.Lu Xun's grandfather, Zhou Jiefu, was born in the Imperial Academy. He was a county magistrate in Jiangxi Province first, and then he was promoted to the capital to serve as a cabinet secretary. On the door of his house, there are conspicuous plaques of "hand-picked" and "Hanlin".His family property, and 40 to 50 acres of paddy fields, can be said to be an enviable "bureaucrat plus landlord" family. But when Lu Xun was thirteen years old, his grandfather Zhou Jiefu was in a daze and bribed the chief examiner in charge of the Zhejiang Provincial Examination for his relatives and friends.When the bribery incident happened, my grandfather, who was afraid of this serious crime, took refuge in various places, and then surrendered in despair, and was detained in Hangzhou Prison.Then, in the second year, his father Zhou Boyi suddenly became seriously ill and vomited blood, and he was bedridden.

In just three years, Lu Xun's family fell from being prominent to being impoverished. As the eldest son and grandson, he experienced all the cruelty of the world during the upheaval.As an adult, at the age of 18, Lu Xun went to take the county examination of Kuaiji, the imperial examination, and ranked 136th out of more than 500 people; when he was preparing to take the re-examination in Shaoxing Prefecture, a younger brother died of illness, which made him feel sad. Big bad, didn't take the exam.He had no enthusiasm for the imperial examination, and never took the exam again. Without taking the imperial examination, Lu Xun went to a new-style school that was full of "heresy" and not the "right way" in people's minds at the time.He first went to Nanjing Jiangnan Lushi Academy. He stayed in this semi-military academy for half a year and met a teacher who pronounced the word "Zhao" as "Jun". Lu Xun transferred to Mining Road School after being recorded twice as a major demerit and two minor demerits within two days.Here, he really came into contact with modern science, and his grades were mostly the first.

In March 1902, Lu Xun went east to Japan. He first studied Japanese at Hongbun College in Tokyo, then went to Sendai to study medicine, and then returned to Tokyo to study German and miscellaneous books.He stayed in Japan for more than seven years.During this period, Lu Xun cut off his braids, broadened his horizons, and deepened his thinking. At the same time, he and his younger brother Zhou Zuoren met the landlady’s daughter Tainobuko Ha in Tokyo. All these had a long-lasting and huge impact on his thoughts and life. When Lu Xun was studying in Japan, he was already 21 years old. Three years ago, his mother Lu Rui had arranged a marriage for him: the woman was Zhu An from an ordinary family in Shaoxing. Lu Rui treated her with gentleness, obedience and diligence. Full of praise.

Lu Xun hated the practice of arranged marriages very much, but he was very filial to his mother who suffered from countless ups and downs in his family.Lu Xun used about one hundred and fifty-eight pen names in his life, and the most commonly used one was "Lu Xun" because his mother's surname was Lu.He accepted the engagement. After the engagement, Lu Xun was not even interested in seeing his future wife, and tried to delay the marriage as much as possible. In 1902 and 1903, Lu Xun returned home from Japan twice. His mother and the Zhu family repeatedly urged them to get married, but the wedding failed.By 1906, Lu Xun was twenty-five years old, and Zhu An was already twenty-eight years old. Lu Rui felt that he would not be able to explain to the Zhu family if they dragged on, so he resorted to strong measures.

Lu Rui wrote to Lu Xun in Japan repeatedly, sometimes twice a day, urging him to go home and get married.Lu Xun, who was extremely resistant to this marriage, was miserable and said, "I was made nervous because of anger and irritability"; Lu Rui finally asked someone to write another letter, saying, "Mother's serious illness will return soon"! Helpless, Lu Xun returned home from Japan.As soon as he entered the house, there were lights and festoons, and he was beaming. How could Lu Rui, who was full of joy, have a sick face?After Lu Xun was arranged by his mother to have a long talk alone, he was immediately put on a dress and put on a fake braid, ready to marry his bride Zhu An.

When the bridal sedan chair arrives, the sedan chair curtain is lifted, and one foot is stretched out first, this foot is not too small, it does not seem to be bound all the time.When the bride got out of the sedan chair, she staggered and almost fell. The shoe fell off, and a standard three-inch golden lotus was exposed in front of everyone. The shoe that fell on the side was filled with cotton. Zhu An, who had been uneasy for many years because of Lu Xun's delay in refusing to marry him, heard that the groom liked big feet, so he made such a cover-up before getting into the sedan chair.As soon as she got off the sedan chair, it was revealed, and the bride Zhu An's expression was extremely distressed.

Lu Xun, who had been engaged for seven years, saw his woman for the first time: she was thin, with a sallow complexion, a pointed chin, and a protruding forehead, which had nothing to do with beauty or youth. Under the arrangement of the master of ceremonies, the dumbfounded Lu Xun mechanically worshiped the world with Zhu An.The lively wedding with firecrackers is covering up the great tragedy that will happen between a generation of ideological and cultural masters and an ordinary woman. On the wedding night, Lu Xun stayed up all night.The timid Zhu An only dared to say two words carefully and softly: "Go to sleep." What he got was Lu Xun's boundless silence.

The next day, Lu Xun didn't even enter the new house. He read books in his mother's room for half the night and slept in his mother's room for the rest of the night. On the third day, Lu Xun still slept in his mother's room. Panic and shame, surprise and pain, the newly married Zhu An was at a loss in the empty new house, crying every day. Without a honeymoon, Lu Xun quickly returned to Japan after getting married; he never came back after this trip, until he ended his study abroad career three years later.The time he was at home this time was generally considered to be only four days, and the longest was no more than half a month.

Talking about marriage, Lu Xun said to his friend Zhou Shoushang: "This is a gift from my mother. I can only support it properly. Love is something I don't know." Lu Xun, deeply influenced by modern new thoughts, always thinks about China. Faced with this ironic arrangement of one's own destiny in the "new life" that a person should have, the pain in his heart is not under the indifference of Zhu An. For this "gift" given by his mother, Lu Xun did not "properly support it". In August 1909, he returned from Japan and first taught in a normal school in Hangzhou; in July of the following year, he returned to Shaoxing and served as the dean of Shaoxing Zhejiang Provincial No. 5 Middle School, then the school supervisor, and then the principal of Shaoxing Normal School .He works in Shaoxing, very close to home, but he only occasionally goes back to see his mother on weekends, and stays alone in school the rest of the time, either grading students' homework, or reading and sorting out ancient books all night.

He is trying not to contact Zhu An, he thinks this should not be his wife.In his inner distress, Lu Xun, who was in his thirties, had no intention of trimming his appearance, and looked almost like an old man. The filial Lu Xun did not explicitly complain about his mother, but only showed his heart in a tortuous way.He has a famous saying about maternal love: "Mother's love is like a wet padded jacket. It's too cold to take off, and it's uncomfortable to wear." When he said this, what he was thinking in his heart was that his mother had arranged for him something that didn't suit him at all. Did the marriage of his heart cause him lifelong pain?