Chapter 19 Retreat in the Three Mountains

I don't know when, we began to envy those lonely people and fell in love with a simple and simple life.Maybe it's because I have seen too much of the prosperous world, and I want more peace and purity in my heart.So everyone is trying to change themselves, try to reduce the complexity, regard thinness as perfection; try to get rid of impetuousness, and regard coolness as detachment.Life is a long process, and no one can deliberately delete the plot or the ending.But one day, we will all return to peace, because that is the essence of life. Because of the desire for purity, everyone is willing to grow like a plant in the world, quiet and beautiful, lonely and proud.I have always liked the artistic conception in Wang Wei's poems: when walking to the poor water, sit and watch the clouds rise.We carried heavy bags and ran around the rivers and lakes, watching the hurried steps, never asking why, and not knowing which day we would stay.When you and I thought that life was so far away that we couldn't see the edge, but looking back, it was only an inch away.A person's life is only the distance from noon to dusk, when the willow shoots are on the moon and the tea is cool, everything can come to an end.

Lin Huiyin knew that she was a plant, a clean white lotus, but because she couldn't let go of the colorful spring, she bloomed early in the cool early summer.Many times, she doesn't want the world to see her weakness, so she tries to make herself strong, letting herself walk in the crowded crowd, so that no one can notice her extraordinary beauty.But after all, she is a woman with amazing beauty, peerless talent, prosperous career, happy marriage and family, and many beautiful things gathered in one body, so Lin Huiyin always feels so unattainable. In those years, Lin Huiyin had always had bad lungs, but because of trivial matters, she never got a good treatment.

When she was twenty-six years old, her lung disease became more and more serious. The doctor at Xiehe Hospital believed that she could no longer devote herself to her career, and suggested that she go to the mountains to rest for a while.In March 1931, 27-year-old Lin Huiyin went to Shuangqing Villa in Xiangshan to recuperate.After so many years of busy life, she almost forgot that life can be so peaceful. In the spring of the world, everything grows, and the scenery in the mountains is even more charming. Every plant has its indescribable beauty and spirituality.Lin Huiyin was originally a poetic woman, and her long-silent feelings were once again moved by these creatures.It was as if a flower blooming, an insect chirping, or a breeze could touch her tenderness.During the days of recuperation, Lin Huiyin regained his old mood, read the long-awaited literary works, and wrote at his desk alone in the quiet night.During this period, she wrote many poems and novels and published them in journals.

Lin Huiyin likes to wear a white nightgown, burn a stick of incense, put a few flowers in a vase, and write with low eyebrows in a small room with bright and clean windows, which is extremely elegant.The amorous Lin Huiyin once said to Liang Sicheng: "Seeing me like this, any man would faint." Liang Sicheng was angry with her: "I didn't faint." Her beauty was always a threat to him.Liang Sicheng lacked some talent in literature, and he could not express his love for Lin Huiyin with beautiful words.He also likes the libretto in Kunqu Opera: For you, you are like a flower and a beautiful family, and the years are like water... When Lin Huiyin was resting on the mountain, friends often came to visit him, which made Lin Huiyin, who was used to the bustle, not deserted.The visitors included friends from the literary world and some social celebrities, such as Bing Xin, Shen Congwen, Jin Yuelin, Han Xiangmei, etc., were regular visitors, and Xu Zhimo was the one who came the most.Three or five confidants get together, cook tea and talk at night, such a leisurely time is what Lin Huiyin has always yearned for, and now he is only seventy-nine to realize it when he is ill.

This year, Lin Huiyin wrote many poems with a fluent pen, and the elegant scenery in the mountains and Xu Zhimo were her source of inspiration.Every time Xu Zhimo comes, he will discuss words and express his feelings with her. The emotion between them has gone far beyond pure love.Xu Zhimo once said that only by being with Lin Huiyin can one's soul be truly released.In those days, Lu Xiaoman spent every day, drinking and dancing, which made Xu Zhimo feel exhausted.Although they have always loved each other so much, their lives have had endless quarrels since they do not know when. For Lu Xiaoman's waywardness, Xu Zhimo can only blindly pamper him. When he can't bear it anymore, he will always think of Lin Huiyin, this girl who looks always chaste and beautiful. She is not as charming and enchanting as Lu Xiaoman, but she can be caressed at any time. Calm your restless heart.When upset, Xu Zhimo said to Lin Huiyin: "It seems that I will no longer have happiness in my life!" Lin Huiyin comforted him very gently, because she hoped that Xu Zhimo would be happy from the beginning to the end.But what a luxury happiness is, there are always too many regrets in life, it is up to you and me to indulge in happiness.

You stretch out like a lake facing the clear sky Baiyun, like a first-class cold stream, clarifies Allow me to search for your source along the banks of the forest: I still have all sorts of doubts For every image of you! You unfold like a flower with a thousand petals! Xianyan is every petal of you, more fragrant, The gentle flower scent, accompanied by the evening coolness: I say flowers, this is the trick of spring, Come to steal people's infatuation! You also learn from Ye Ye's book that blows with the wind, Reveal your every deep thought, every corner of your state of mind, your eyes are watching, I am constantly talking: but I still have no answer, a piece of silence will always guard my soul.

Did Lin Huiyin write "Still" in response to Xu Zhimo's song?In her heart, Xu Zhimo will always be her cleanest confidant, and will always guard her soul quietly.No matter where he is, no matter who he falls in love with, as long as he is with Lin Huiyin, Xu Zhimo will always be the passionate man on the Cambridge Bridge, without any change.In Xu Zhimo's eyes, that little girl has grown into a quiet and charming woman. This woman is the only beauty in his life, and she will always be as beautiful as when he first met. That night my boat rolled out of the river's heart, The clear blue sky is supported by dense stars.

That night your hand held mine, Confused starry night closed heavy worry. That night you and I set a direction, The two each recognize their own life. To this day my ship is still floating on the sea, The thin mast is often shaken in the wind and waves. Till now the sun hovers only behind me, Layers of shadows remain around me. I still remember the day of that night, Starlight, tears, and the white riverside! Till now I miss your plowing on the shore: Red flowers and yellow flowers are blooming vividly. That day I hope to reach the top floor, Honey generally brews the nourishment of that memory.

On that day I will mount an arrow with wings, Watching you shoot a full string in your garden. That day you will hear birds singing, That's what I'm waiting for your admiration. On that day you will see the scattered shadows of flowers, That was the border where I broke into that year! Lin Huiyin thought that the last bit of poetic sentiment had been wiped away by the years, and that the fireworks of the world of mortals had replaced the whole of life.But she knew that as long as she reunited with Xu Zhimo, the romance and talent in her bones would reappear.Although they have their own lives, love the one they love, and seem to be in peace with each other, they have already taken root.

This kind of feeling is only once in a lifetime, and only once.Lin Hui has bloomed beautifully because of Xu Zhimo, so she will have no regrets no matter what way she walks or how she lives in this life.The same is true for Xu Zhimo. In his life, it is really enough to have loved so clearly.Their youth was bound into a beautiful collection of poems, which made everyone who read it love it eighty-two times and couldn't stop.