Chapter 1 Loner
Loner
1
In the crowd of mortal beings,
Do you dare to isolate yourself from the world and be alone?
Let the people around you make noise,
You are indifferent; snubbed, reckoned,
Like a flower in the barren desert,
Don't want to breathe in the breeze?
2
Even if a Balian is in the Indian jungle,
Alone, thin, hated by my fellow men,
Bitter as his cup of fate is,
Better than a poor wretch who doesn't know how to love:
Carrying a deadly load, causing endless harm,
A burden that can never be shaken off.
3
He smiles—this is Sorrow's harshest irony;
He speaks—cold words, not from the soul,
He acts like any other, and eats good food;—
Yet, yet he longed—though feared—to die;
He longs to reach, though seems to escape
The final destination of that gray career.
1810
Translated by Yang Xiling