Chapter 8 chapter Ten

Retreat and Introspection (1) Soon my life was busy again, and it was difficult to close the door of goodness; my natural inability to reject people made the situation more serious.I non-stop giving speeches, performing gong exercises, engaging in environmental protection campaigns, and solving doubts for others. After two years, my limited energy has almost been used up.Even though I am a natural conductor and can perform gong for others at any time after I get my inner qi up, I still have to take good care of my body.I have always been too reckless in the allocation of time and energy, and I have an inexplicable confidence in myself, thinking that positive thinking can create positive situations.But reality is not all created by idealism. There are too many details in life that need to be aware of and pay attention to, such as environment, diet, daily routine, sleep, posture and exercise, etc., which will affect our quality of life.Once people fall into altruistic idealism, these important self-interested details are easily overlooked; contacting the masses is an exciting thing, and it is also a deep trap. No wonder Kirschner reminds time and again that the redeemer will one day It will be someone else's nightmare.At this stage, I was invited by Wylie to give a speech in the Bay Area of ​​San Francisco. It happened that Gyaltrul Rinpoche was also in the Bay Area, so we met.He told me that he had a dream about my reincarnation, and he suggested that I must go to retreat for a period of time, otherwise my life might be lost.His reminder made me realize that the situation was a bit serious, so I decided to conduct an informal retreat at my home on Siwei Road.I am scheduled to have no calls, no TV, no visitors for a year, but I need a customs helper.At this time, I remembered that a nurse in Kaohsiung once came to see me in the north, and she seemed to be interested in being my personal secretary.My mother likes her very much, and I also think she is a capable, loyal, and service-minded girl, so I called her and asked her if she would like to spend a year in self-imprisonment with me under the same roof ; she readily agreed.Soon she was going north with a big suitcase to retreat with me.

Many people heard that I was going to retreat the next day, so they called me one after another, asking me to do exercises for them on the last day before entering the retreat.As a result, a total of more than one hundred people came that day, squeezing the tatami room tightly.I think that although the awakening of inner qi can sharpen people's perception, it may also trigger some special functions prematurely or expose strong emotions intensively. If there is no long-term tracking and guidance, it will cause negative effects.I secretly decided in my heart that I would no longer do this for others at random after leaving the customs. The most important thing is that I tend to have a desire for authority when I do this; this is the last generation I don’t want to fall into. trap.

In the first month of retreat, I wanted to try the taste of silence, so I wrote down all the trivial needs in my life on a small note and handed it to Cuiying for review; she was in charge of going out to buy, and I just meditated and practiced self-discipline. .I sit for 40 minutes every day, and then I get off to exercise my muscles and bones, and then I sit for 40 minutes; I have to sit quietly for two or three rounds in the morning.After lunch, take a break, read a book for an hour or two, and go hiking with Cuiying at Maokong after three o'clock in the afternoon.After walking for more than two hours on the mountain road, I returned home before dinner.

I have found that silence silences the delusions quickly.In the first week, I was still a little distracted. Sometimes I thought of my old friends, and sometimes I planned to travel to a certain country after leaving customs. The friends who didn’t communicate with each other on weekdays also became more and more friendly. It seemed that they were about to leave the world, and I felt a little reluctant to part. .After a week, the delusional thoughts completely subsided, and my mind was very empty during meditation. Occasionally, one or two words popped up, but when I looked at them in the demon mirror, they appeared in their original form.I later found that the rest-style lying down was more suitable for me. I always became more awake the more I lay down, but I became drowsy after sitting in meditation for a long time.Usually I like to listen with tactile hearing—try to listen to all the sounds without deliberately distinguishing the types and attributes of the sounds. This is also a non-selective way of awareness.When you really enter the situation, you will find that the discriminating mind will create the illusion of loud and small sounds. Once the discriminating mind stops functioning, the thunder is as loud as the sound of water droplets upstairs.During this period, I began to have the ability to see the essence of every thought without being deceived by it.

Mountain climbing is an excellent exercise for the body.On the first day, Cuiying and I walked bravely along the mountain road in the Maokong tea area. When we reached the steeper section, our small bodies were almost unable to support us. We were so tired that we were out of breath. Breathless, his face was pale, and his clothes were soaked in sweat.Being able to sweat profusely in November is really beneficial to our damp and cold physique. Two hours of heavy exercise has promoted our blood circulation and cardiopulmonary function; after more than two months, our body has improved significantly .I noticed that when a person's energy is saturated, the inner conflicts are easily unified, as if every thought, every action, and every emotion is appropriate and appropriate.That kind of feeling is very comfortable, a bit like I am the only one in the world.However, I know in my heart that this state is still a long way from the state of no-self.I remember that during the Chinese New Year, Cuiying went back to Kaohsiung to reunite with her family, and I went to the World Tower to celebrate the New Year with my mother; my high energy quickly affected my mother, and she watched me dance with the music with a smile on her face.Since I moved out of the World Tower and started to live alone, my mother’s mentality has also changed. She told the visiting friends earnestly: The times are different after all. After all, children have their own opinions. The previous generation must learn to respect the independent needs of the next generation; But behind the scenes, she was still stubborn when chatting with Cuiying, thinking that my life of studying Buddhism and Taoism was over.She said that she was most afraid that I would become someone like the evangelist Song Nenger in the future or be dubbed "Hu Jushi".In fact, if you are not her daughter, you will like and even appreciate this old man who speaks sharply and has a lively temperament. Many of my friends later became her close friends, but as her daughter, if you love freedom at the same time, life But it's not easy.

After two months of retreat my energy has returned to normal.Although two books of Kelvin's teachings have been translated into Chinese - "Things You Must Not Think About in Life" and "Freedom from the Known", after comparing the original texts, it is found that it needs to be refined.During the retranslation process I decided to just do the translation myself. The first book I want to translate is "Prajna Journey", which was originally called Exploration into Insight in English.After reading the content of this book carefully, I feel that it completely coincides with the wisdom of Buddhism.The wisdom of prajna that the teachers and scriptures I have come into contact with in the past cannot explain clearly—for example, "five poisons are five wisdoms", "afflictions are Bodhi"—this book has a detailed and delicate discussion on psychological dynamics.In order to provide millions of Buddhists with the opportunity to get in touch with the ultimate truth of modern times, I decided to use Buddhist language to translate this book (the Kirch Foundation once discussed with me the issue of translating Buddhism with me after the publication of this book, and in the end everyone agreed The appropriateness of this approach. This book is currently the best-selling one among the twenty-three works of Kerry published by Fang Zhi Publishing House).During the process of translation, I have a feeling that the psychological and religious knowledge I have dabbled in for half my life, as well as the sufferings of fear, violence, conflict, despair, etc. in the depths of human nature that I have experienced since childhood, are for the purpose of letting me Can understand the ultimate truth.I sat at that super-large black desk and translated quietly, and suddenly felt that this was where I should sit, and all the contradictions seemed to be unified; Cuiying and I joked that we were monks who translated scriptures in the Sutra Pavilion .Seriously, I feel like I've done this job countless times, and it feels so handy, without a doubt.When the situation is the best, my translation is like an automatic secretary. After reading a sentence in the original text, I can write the translation naturally without thinking.When the fluctuations in our hearts are completely still, the outside world seems to stop moving.Occasionally, I would look up at Cuiying and ask her suspiciously: "Do you feel that everyone outside seems to have disappeared, and we are the only ones left in this world?" Cuiying said that she felt the same way.This young girl who has a deep karma with me has somehow embarked on the path. Life really has its own arrangements and its own mysteries!

Retreat and Introspection (2) The first chapter of "Prajna Journey" discusses the observation without an observer (observation without self). Participants understand the structure of the observer, the ego, through gradual disclosure—it is nothing more than a combination of ideas. Most of the content is self-blame and justification and so on.The traditional way of practice is to deal with the afflictions of this moment in a way full of moral condemnation, thus creating an observer with a sense of self rather than purely mindless observation.For example, I said: "I want to be enlightened." If you look at the truth of this sentence with pure observation, you will find that greed is behind it; idealism is a kind of greed that is rationalized by us, the more reasonable it is Greed is less likely to be detected.But why are we greedy?What is greed?Not happy with yourself and want to be great?When I translated here, I have clearly seen that my great desire for redemption actually contains a kind of heroic greed, an attempt to be a great man, mixed with unresolved and untransformed grief .I found that such ruthless contemplation can not only bring you the touch of discovering the truth, but also make you fall into a void where you can't grasp or touch anything.It turns out that emptiness, the ultimate liberation that human beings yearn for, is also a horrible situation of "nothing artificial" that human beings try to escape all their lives.The three words "non-attachment" are easily misused by ordinary people into a relaxed slogan. No one knows how unbearable this non-attachment is in life!Can I completely let go of this huge and boundless desire for redemption?Can I really face the loneliness that shakes me?Can I bring all the drama to peace?Can I be really okay?Asking these questions kept me at a low ebb for several weeks, and suddenly one day the answer emerged self-evidently—only by going deep into my heart can I know what the truth is.

At that time, I had very clear dreams for two days in a row.In the first dream, Kelvin was wearing a white robe, holding my right hand and walking up the mountain.His face is the same as the photo taken when he was in his early fifties. Our relationship seems to be that a person who has been there leads a person who is still studying to go up together.When I was about to reach the top of the mountain, there was a fork in the road on the left, and there was a group of bushes on the fork in the road. Behind the bushes, a group of women were chatting; only their voices could be heard, but no people could be seen.Kirsten motioned me to go in the direction of the fork, but he himself walked to the top of the mountain without looking back, and disappeared in an instant.In the second dream, Ke Shi, Pupu and I were sitting in a living room, and the three of us were seriously discussing some issues related to teaching. I can't remember the other details, but the picture is very clear.During that time, my thoughts on the only other person in the room——Cuiying—almost reached the point of my palm. I wrote her an eight-page letter, analyzing her psychological state to give She listens and helps her overcome her insecurities and fears.After reading the letter, she burst into tears, and her defense mechanism against me has been relieved a lot since then.Two strangers from different backgrounds were suddenly imprisoned in a space of only 50 square meters without warm-up, and they were imprisoned for a year. It was indeed a bit difficult.Fortunately, we have a deep karmic relationship. Although there were many frictions in the process of getting along for many years in the future, because we are really committed to transforming fear, the relationship has become more and more peaceful.

The second chapter of "Prajna Journey" discusses the relationship between awareness, consciousness and brain cells. Participants put forward the Buddhist theory of "no beginning and no knowledge".Human ignorance and ignorance can’t find a starting point. We don’t know when we started to have a limited sense of self. Once this sense of self is broken, we will be liberated from the cage, but all our actions, Both thought and instinct are protecting this sense of self, and are also working to thicken the prison wall, making it a wall of iron and steel that even a Rambo's heavy machine gun can't break through.Kirchner pointed out that it is not necessary to look for the starting point of ignorance, the most important thing is to recognize that ignorance is just a need to gain more experience, and only pure observation without purpose and choice can stop those endless needs .When the need ceases, a completely different realm emerges.Finally, the participants began to discuss the issue of the power of the universe. Kirschner pointed out that this power is omnipresent and exists at any time, just because our needs cannot be stopped and our thoughts cannot be stopped, so we cannot connect to this energy.If you can observe yourself peacefully while walking, standing, sitting, and lying down, the conflict in your heart will stop; once the conflict disappears, you can be in the infinite energy at any time.

In the sixth chapter, Rick pointed out the tendency of human beings to seek happiness and avoid suffering. This point of view is exactly the same as the observation of Buddha.Kerch said: "We can use the word suffering to summarize all the loneliness, attachment, dependence and conflict." As long as we encounter a huge blow in our life, all the suffering will be exposed, but why only when we are ourselves? We only feel pain when we encounter blows. Why can’t the pain of others or the pain of the collective move us?The reason is that our mind is too insensitive, it has been dormant for many years.In fact, we don't need any blows to wake us up, because existence itself is a kind of suffering.This point of view coincides with the truth of suffering in the Four Noble Truths of suffering, origin, cessation, and path pointed out by the Buddha.Both Buddha and Krishna were extremely keen beings. Their innate sensitive perception made them empathize with the sufferings of other beings. It was a kind of great compassion for the same body, an immeasurably profound experience and insight into the truth of life; When you look at a boy who died in Vietnam, you immediately see that nationalism was the real killer, and yet the mother of the boy can't see the truth.If you see the truth for her, you are bound to suffer, so what are you going to do?What should you do if you see asceticism and the dogmas in the scriptures as a prison for the monk who wants to be liberated?Most people take external actions to help those who are suffering, but Kirk is quick to point out that external reformation, social charity work, dedication and sacrifice are the main causes of human degradation.How can we help others if we degenerate ourselves, so the first task of human beings is to stop our own suffering.If one's own suffering persists, all idealistic behavior is basically just an escape.The next question to be addressed is: How to stop suffering?The answer is that you can only turn around and face it completely. If you can face it without evasion and observe it as it is, the self or observer made up of thoughts will cease to act, and then the sense of self-existence will cease. gone, and all that's left is that great energy we call pain.Now that the thoughts have stopped, the word "suffering" will also stop, so this energy will automatically turn into a passion for liberation without any signs or names. , Turn troubles into the true meaning of Bodhi.

Retreat and Introspection (3) While translating, I digested, organized, and took notes.These astonishing insights allowed me to fully understand what it is like to be free from restrictions and clarity. In Chapter 11, "The Essence of Despair", Kristen referred to what Christians call "the dark night of the soul" or "the dark night of the soul", that is, when all hopes and expectations It all ends in a state of utter despair, anguish, and isolation.To my surprise, Kelvin actually called this state a spiritual state, as if one had to fall into the bottom of the valley to be reborn, just like Zen Master Huangbo's narration poem: "It's not a bit of cold, what Plum blossoms are so fragrant?" In other words, when a bone-chilling situation appears, can you stay in it and not try to escape; if you can maintain that state, you may have an explosive breakthrough.When I was translating this chapter, I never expected that the future would actually fall to the bottom. After the translation of "Prajna Journey" was completed (it took about a month), my mother offered to help me transcribe the manuscript. Her beautiful handwriting is still as neat as ever at the age of eighty-two.In the process of transcribing the manuscript, she began to look at my journey of seeking Tao with admiration.In the past, she always thought that religious organizations were money-making units, and there was no truth in them; her sharp eyes can usually distinguish the truth from the false.One day she said to me very seriously: "This Kirsten speaks the truth." I am very glad that she finally agreed with something I did.In fact, I sincerely hope that she can not only face the external reality, but also face her own inner truth.Had the truth played any part in her remaining years, her miserable life would not have been in vain. The second book I want to translate is "Beyond Time and Space".In this book, the partner who talks to Kerr is David Bohm, an important scientist in the field of physics.He is one of the main philosophers of the twentieth century, a disciple of Oppenheimer and a colleague of Einstein.His representative works are: "Quantum Mechanics", "Causal Law and Probability of Modern Physics", "Special Theory of Relativity", "Order and Creativity", "Integrity, Implied Order and Science".I have watched the video tape of the conversation between Kerry and Bohm, and Bohm's modest and gentlemanly temperament has left a deep impression on my heart.I really want to know what kind of sparks can be sparked by the intersection of scientific mind and religious mind.During the process of translating this book, my body began to undergo unstable changes again. Usually, I was paralyzed in bed for two days and couldn’t get up, but I was so excited that I couldn’t sleep on the third day.I had to lie on the bed to dictate, and Cuiying sketched it out. After I revised it, Cuiying transcribed it again. Our climbing activities continue as usual, usually two days a week.There were not many tourists in Maokong Tea Garden at that time, and Cuiying and I often walked alone on the mountain, with huge and lush ferns and tropical plants on both sides, showing deep and shallow dark green, emerald green and tender green.There are still many households in Maokong who keep cats and dogs.There are many tea sheds along the road. If you are tired from walking, go in to drink tea, add some food before continuing on the road.There were a few times when we were still hiking on the mountain at eight or nine o'clock in the evening, but we didn't meet any tourists along the way.Apart from the sound of the wind, the rustling of leaves, the chirping of insects and the occasional barking of dogs, there is almost no noise of civilization in the whole mountain.The lights of thousands of houses down the mountain made me realize that the sensory memory I had had for many years was no longer there.In our teens, twenties, and even early thirties, as soon as we hear some kind of hawking sound outside our house, the sonic boom of an airplane passing through the clear sky, or the whirring sound of a door or window as the north wind blows , There will always be some subtle reactions, memories and associations in my consciousness, mixed with vague sadness and anxiety.Several months of retreat have cleared away many subtle obstacles; the skin on my face and the radiance on my forehead show that my heart spring has gradually become clearer. What a delightful time-space transition from nature to the words of truth.When I got home, Cuiying and I dived into the dialogue of the century in "Beyond Time and Space".When translating to the second chapter "Clearing the Old Traces in the Heart", Kerr and Bohm discussed that emptiness is the universal mind, that is, when a person's mind activities completely cease, he gradually merges into the universal consciousness with no beginning and no end. That is, real creativity begins to operate; however, this begins without any temporality.I was very curious why a scientist whose career is to observe the phenomenal world would think that there is an inconceivable and immeasurable realm, so I re-discovered "Aquarian Conspiracy" to read.One chapter of the book is devoted to new information in the uncharted realms of science, and a passage mentions Bohm's theory that this seemingly stable, touchable, visible, and audible world is actually an illusion.The world isn't really "out there" - it's in constant motion, like a kaleidoscope.The order of things we usually see is like watching a movie, an explicit or explicit order, but this is only a second-hand reality, and another hidden order is the father of this second-hand reality.This other order, which Bohm calls the "implicate order," considers all apparent matter and activity to be an illusion, a phenomenon he calls "holomovement."He once said in 1978: "Matter is like a small ripple in a sea of ​​energy... This hidden order implies a reality far beyond what we call matter. Matter is just this Just a circle of ripples in the background." The new theories developed intuitively by scientists have changed the old scientific paradigm. Although their scientific training is not mystical, and their spiritual training does not come from a religious worldview, they are mystics themselves.Not only Bohm holds a mystical world view, but even Einstein, Schrödinger, Werner Heisenberg, de Broglie, Bohr, etc. all have the same view.I feel very excited when I read the above materials. It seems that the human knowledge system is rapidly verifying the inner evidence of mystics under the impetus of a cosmic accelerator.I feel that such dialogues should be the most recommended books in the publishing world, but unfortunately, all the works or translations that can be seen in the market are too frivolous.I really want to translate "Aquarius Conspiracy", a heavyweight handbook for the new era, but one person's ability is limited. I still choose to introduce the ultimate truth of mystics first. Scientific works can be translated by more appropriate people.Later we found Liao Shide (Ade), who is sensitive to Taoism, science and literature, and he translated "Aquarian Conspiracy".Many years later, some intellectuals reported to me that this book had a great enlightenment effect on their lives. Retreat and Introspection (4) "Beyond Time and Space" uses Bohm's logical deduction to challenge and dialectically challenge Kirschner's subjective understanding, and the process is very interesting.Sometimes I don't quite understand what's going on with me. Since I was a child, I have never been very interested in literature and novels-I am impatient that a thick book is full of trivial entanglements, thought-provoking Insights may not be enough to make up three lines, but blunt theories or abstract ideas can arouse my emotional response, and even feel very concrete.For example, the book in front of me may be extremely boring to many people (the reaction to Krecht’s translation was polarized after it was published, some people said that they fell asleep after reading it, some people felt angry, and some people were so moved. treasure), but I was as excited as if I had glimpsed the secret method, especially Chapter 9 "The Relationship between Aging and Brain Cells", which made me realize that if the mind always maintains rational thinking activities, it is less likely to shrink and degenerate, but if it falls into Routine, it will gradually become dull.Routine refers to a mechanical and unchanging mode of thinking, such as chanting mantras, meditation, preaching, farming, and a nine-to-five lifestyle. potential.Therefore, Kerr said: "Those who sit and meditate for many years are probably the most boring people in the world. Others, such as lawyers or professors, have the same characteristics." In other words, if the thinker's heart remains unchanged, rational thinking It can also become a rigid pattern.Bohm then puts forward something worthy of consideration, which is that "human beings were so close to nature before they formed a social society that they could not live a routine life at all."Because there is no security in such a life, the brain becomes very active and alert, "In other words, a life that is too secure will make people nervous."But aren't those around us, or ourselves, all chasing after a debilitating but secure life?Then Kirschner proposed that a distinction must be made between external knowledge and psychological knowledge, because the former is indispensable in life, but the latter will cause the atrophy of the brain.By psychological knowledge I mean prejudices—prejudices about oneself and about relationships.I made some important notes reading this, because these words made it clear to me how my stereotypes about my mother, and her stereotypes about me, formed a negative pattern of interaction between us.She always thought I was incompetent, I always thought she was self-serving, we didn't appreciate each other, disagreed, and grew tired of each other, so one of them tried to break away from the relationship.It sounds like this is the pattern of all unhappy marriages, but how do you break this brain-shrinking, energy-draining pattern? What Kirschner wanted to exclude first was psychoanalysis, which I have always been most interested in. He pointed out: "Humans have always healed themselves through analysis, introspection and self-demand. I personally never take these methods, so I put them all Rejected." Kerr's reason is: "These methods are actually contributing to the atrophy of the brain. We must take action at any time to solve the problem now." These words sound simple, but they are full of obstacles in practice, because the two The interaction pattern formed by people over the years cannot be broken immediately.For example, I found that since I can remember, my mother and I have never had skin-to-skin contact. She never hugged me or hugged me. I got the satisfaction in this aspect from my father.After my mother got old, she occasionally needed to help me or hold my hand when crossing the street. That feeling turned out to be very unnatural and embarrassing.I couldn't tell whether it was my resistance that made her embarrassed, or her stubbornness that made me unnatural. In short, it was a very subtle mental disturbance.If a model like this is to be resolved immediately, it really requires great rationality, sincerity, goodwill, and trust in oneself and others.My mind fully agrees with his point of view, and I also understand that gradual enlightenment and gradual cultivation are harmful, easy to degenerate and wear out, and only when I suddenly realize the mode of giving up the self can I be freed from the inner knowledge block or prejudice.But at the same time, I am also very clear that the karma between me and my mother is not trivial, and it cannot be resolved in a short period of time.However, Kerr's reminder has been deeply rooted in my heart. As for the extent to which it can be practiced, it can only be discovered in real interaction. After the completion of "Beyond Time and Space", it took me more than two months to translate "Humanity's Imperatives", because I made some strict self-requirements in terms of the rhythm and beauty of the text.Cuiying's dictation speed is getting faster and faster. Although she is engaged in nursing work, her Chinese level is quite good. She is really the best helper sent to me by God. Originally, it was expected that I would only leave the customs in one year. By the tenth month, I already felt that I had received enough rest and replenishment in all aspects of body, mind and spirit, so I left the customs two months earlier.It is said that the media once visited some mages to see if I was eligible for retreat;In fact, my retreat has basically nothing to do with others. I don’t want to show off my skills or kung fu to the society, nor do I need other people’s approval and approval. A caring expert saw my needs and reminded me in due time, which contributed to this "self-imprisonment".I have found that truly compassionate teachers are usually people-centered, with the liberation and health of people as the focus of care, rather than the rules of the sect or the authority of the Sangha. answer yourself Q: Why did you write your autobiography? Answer: In order to integrate oneself, do a thorough exposure self-healing, connect the subtle cause and effect, if it can benefit the readers, it will be even better. Q: Why write a biography at the age of forty-six? Answer: If the theory of destiny is true, I may live to be ninety years old, then the age of forty-six will be a halfway point, so we might as well make a staged arrangement. If the theory of destiny is overturned, maybe a year or so later I'm leaving, not writing at this time is a bit disappointing to my treacherous and changeable life. Q: What did you discover during the process of writing your autobiography? Answer: I found that this book is also an independent organism, and it has its own power; it is not completely controlled by my will.When "I" tries to lead it in the direction of kitsch, it will automatically return to the reality of Ruru; when "I" wants to show off its courage against vulgarity, it starts to introspect again.This process of wrestling is a new discovery that I did not expect, and I have a glimpse of the ambiguity between action and inaction, fiction and reality, fiction and biography.As Milan Kundera said: A writer who thinks he has more insight than his work might as well change his career. Q: How did you feel when you wrote your autobiography? Answer: A person was imprisoned in a small room of less than 30 square meters. After traveling through time and space for more than three months, he ate the same food, sat in the same position, and faced the same scene every day, but he was involved in it for more than 40 years. The sensory memory, emotional memory and thinking memory that comes from the past can be called ups and downs.Among them, what I resist the most is the sadness deep in my father's heart in my childhood memories.The young and helpless orphan in his heart once unbelievably aroused my childhood empathy, sympathy and desire to help; My most repressed vulnerability.Being able to reconnect with this most vulnerable part is an amazing and moving healing experience. First love is another crux of consciousness that I think has been resolved but it is not. I find that I still have a strong sense of beauty, reluctance and regret in the process of memorizing and writing, but once these powerful emotional energies are exposed, the power of persistence will disappear. Dissipated; bursting suddenly in the sun like a charming colored bubble. Q: How did your body respond when you wrote your autobiography? Answer: When I started writing, I found that the energy center of the throat chakra at the back of the neck was blocked; once the mind was concentrated and the thinking activities were on track, the energy of the throat chakra moved along the governor channel to the top of the head.Sometimes the specific time and place are incomplete and must be checked, and the flow of writing is interrupted because of this, or when I resist and do not want to enter a certain memory, I immediately realize that the energy in the back of the neck is stuck.This is the first time I have clearly confirmed that the Vishuddhi is indeed the energy center in charge of thinking activities.In the book "Spectrum of Consciousness", Wilbur once quoted the human body diagram in "Depression and the Body" written by Dr. Alexander Lowen; the diagram shows hostility, negative mental state and withdrawal tendency, which will cause Muscles in the nape of the neck, neck, and shoulders tighten.Later, I took Gegen Decoction of traditional Chinese medicine on time every day, and my condition improved a lot.In qigong health-preserving methods, "thinking" is a commonly used method. For example, "Zen" is originally the transliteration of "Zhanna" in Sanskrit, which refers to the use of thinking activities to practice. Xuanzang translated it as "quietness". Consider”—meaning to think calmly and carefully.This reminds me of what Kirschner and David Bohm said in "Beyond Time and Space": "The brain must be exercised frequently, otherwise it may atrophy." For more than three months, I had almost no body. Physical exercise, but the overall blood circulation is not bad, appetite and digestion are still normal, much stronger than when translating "Grace and Courage".I think the main reasons for the improvement are: first, the voices accumulated for more than 40 years are finally expressed; second, Professor Xiao Shengyang, who integrates Chinese and Western medicine and pharmacology, suggested that I change my eating habits. His suggestion and Jia Churen Poche’s observations are very similar. They all think that my constitution is congenitally bad, and I should not be a vegetarian all the time, and I should supplement meat food; so I eat a little mutton that I have never touched in my life every other day or two, and the result is indeed improved. , it can be seen that no method is suitable for everyone. Q: Is there anything you want to add?What denomination do you belong to? Answer: Due to the constraints of time and space in the biography, many integrated concepts cannot be clarified completely and in detail, so they have to be supplemented in future books and audio publications.I don't belong to any sect, I only obey the truth and people who are honest with themselves. Q: What are your hopes for this autobiography? Answer: I am satisfied and relieved to be able to complete the work of writing the biography as scheduled. As for the consequences, let it play the role of what the audience needs on the altar! Q: What are your future plans? Answer: I think the Chinese people urgently need research on the integration of body, mind and soul. I hope that the integration of the Western world can be combined with the ancient observation and verification of the East, and then implemented in China, so that the common people suffering from physical and mental illness can be saved.This kind of research direction requires the cooperation of friends with great ambitions.