Chapter 7 When I write novels, why have I ever been pessimistic?

Yesterday at four o'clock in the afternoon, I came home from school. As soon as I came in, I saw dozens of pots of chrysanthemums in the courtyard, all blooming like clouds and brocades, but the fallen leaves in the flower bed were full, so I put down the books and picked up the watering pot. Come on, water the chrysanthemums one by one, take the broom again, and slowly sweep the fallen leaves one by one.Both my father and mother sat on the porch, watching me sweep and gossiping. Suddenly a servant came in from the outer courtyard and handed me a letter, which was sent to me by an old classmate. When I opened it up, there was a passage in it, referring to my writing of novels. I have read several novels by Zun Zun, they are very good, but why bother to write more pessimistic words, so that people can read it, and feel full of autumn sounds." I smiled and handed it to my mother, and my father also came closer to watch it together. letter.After my mother finished reading it, she said to me, "He's right. The novels you write are always a little tragic, which makes people feel uncomfortable. You shouldn't be like this at such a young age. You want to Knowing a person's writing has a lot to do with his future." The father nodded and said, "I'm not talking about taboos, but I'm afraid that if I write more of this kind of writing, my thoughts will gradually become negative. Go, your usual ambitions will eventually be destroyed."

I smiled and argued: "I didn't talk about myself, I was talking about others. Does it have any influence on me?" My mother also smiled and said, "You didn't make this text, why do you argue?" Enduring a smile and lowering his head, he still went to sweep the fallen leaves. After five o'clock, my father went out and my mother went into the house.I was the only one standing on the porch, facing the chrysanthemums. Because I thought about what my father and mother said, I was concentrating for a while. When I looked up, I saw faint clouds, embracing half a bright moon, and falling from the fallen leaves. The chrysanthemums in the yard, shaded by the shadow of the new moon, look more and more charming, like a wonderful autumn landscape.

In front of the window of my study, flowers and plants are often planted continuously, and the courtyard is the most secluded.Outside the house, there are open spaces and other people's gardens all around. The towering tree shadows are like Ququping Mountain.When I come back from school every day, I usually sit by the desk under the window to appreciate the "beauty of nature" and distract my mind.Even when I wrote this article, the wind was blowing from the west, the night was as cool as water, the garden was full of flowers, and I was very thin... I always feel that the words written by a person are closely related to the scenery in front of them, and in the novel, When it comes to writing scenery, if you want to describe the quiet realm, you will inevitably use a lot of cold words to describe it. Every time I write a novel, because of the relationship between the scenery and the influence of the contact with my eyes, it may inevitably bring some There is no need to deny the sad color.As for the word pessimism, I really dare not admit it to myself.

Furthermore, the purpose of my novels is to influence the society, so I try my best to describe the bad situation of the old society and old families, so that people can be alerted after reading it, so that they can think about improving it, otherwise it will be painful and tragic , it is difficult to attract the attention of readers, if it cannot attract the attention of readers, it is difficult to motivate them to improve.What's more, in the old society and the old family, there are many real situations, and some are ten times more miserable than what I said.I remember that a few days ago, in the "Inch Iron" column of the "National Gazette", I saw a certain gentleman commenting on my novel, roughly saying: "Lonely Haggard" novel, and I hated the bad old family habits... I said It is useless to only know how to hate. It is better for everyone to work hard to improve.

This "hatred" and "effort to improve" are the results I want to achieve in writing novels.This is to use the "negative words" to do the "positive cause". Even if it affects my personal future, I am willing to accept any impact, let alone it will never be like this. But in the universe, there cannot be only "autumn su" without "spring warmth". Since my words are all "bitter rain and desolate wind", there should also be "Liu Minghuahuaxiao". In a few days I want to write an optimistic novel, so as to save my parents and friends from worrying that my spirit is gradually turning negative.What I just said is just a kind of appointment for me. (This article was written on November 5, 1919, and was originally published on the fifth page of Beijing Morning Post on November 11, 1919.)