Chapter 6 -2

Ximei bends the snake in Xiyu's dormitory, like a married couple, during the day Xiyu goes to teach training classes and practice, while Ximei goes to the market to buy vegetables, and cooks a dinner with soup, vegetables and desserts in the public kitchen of the dormitory. Free time to weave.Watching TV together in the living room at night, those vulgar dramas of love and hatred between the dead and the collapse of the building, and the martial arts dramas of the children of the country, everyone was engrossed, and the thin eyebrows laughed so hard that they read magazines there to hide their embarrassment.At night, the two of them squeezed together on the same bed as when they were children, and when they woke up they told each other about their dreams, like a promiscuous couple, both of them knew that the days would not last long.

It was Xiyu's birthday, and the two spent the money Xiyu taught for three training classes to eat a home-cooked Japanese meal and drink a few pots of warm sake. The weather was cool, and Ximei's plastic slippers added a pair of knitted wool socks .Half full and half drunk, Xi Yu raised her eyebrows to buy leather shoes: "If you dress like others, they will think you are like them. They don't care what you think." Thin eyebrow put on new leather shoes, said: "Sister, it's strange, my heart is so quiet, so quiet that I can hear other people's thoughts." Xiyu smiled and said: "So what do I say in my heart?" Thin eyebrow Said: "You think in your heart, I don't know if my sister is sick or not. Why does everyone say she is sick?" Xiyu was startled and pulled away: "We will go to find Xiliang next week. She is now in Brazil She works as a waiter in a restaurant. If you don’t look for her, she’s changed jobs again, so I’m afraid you won’t be able to find her.” Slender Mei didn’t answer, and walked with her new leather shoes clapping.

After returning home, all the lights in the room were turned on, and the dormitory supervisor sat on Xiyu's bed and waited for her.The dormitory supervisor is a kind woman who teaches the Bible in the YMCA middle school.Before Xiyu could open her mouth, she said, "I know. This thing will happen sooner or later. Who reported it to you?" Xiyu opened her eyes and saw that some roommates were reading, some were sleeping, and there was another Not in the room, probably going to take a shower.The dorm supervisor was a little embarrassed, and said, "We can introduce your sister to the rehabilitation center." Without further ado, Thin Mei took off her new leather shoes, put on her green plastic slippers, and tidied up the plastic bag, saying "Sister, it's useless. It's useless to wear leather shoes." The dormitory supervisor touched her lightly and said, "Sister, the dormitory rules do not allow people to stay overnight, let alone your situation... But, so It's getting late, you don't leave until tomorrow." Slender Mei held the mouthwash cup: "No, thank you." Then she left with bags of plastic bags on her back.Xiyu chased her: "It's so late, where are you going?" Ximei didn't answer her, and started to trot, walking to the end of the dark blue street.Xiyu came back to the room, and kicked the board on the bed: "You got up, you must have reported the news." Without any explanation, she punched her roommate all over.Of course, Xiyu was kicked out of the dormitory in the end.

Later, Slim Mei always felt that she was always wearing a pair of rubber slippers, carrying a few plastic bags, and holding a mouthwash cup in her hand, knocking on doors from door to door.That night, she hung around someone else's house, and they called the police, and she was sent to a mental hospital, and soon transferred to a halfway dormitory. She also accepted her fate, watching miserable TV dramas in the dormitory every day, and laughed out loud. Xiqing, Xiyu, and Xirong sometimes came to see her, so she put on the leather shoes that Xiyu gave her later, and greeted them politely, making the sisters wonder: "Is Ximei sick?" Ximei understands Seeing them, she shook her head sympathetically, "Everyone has their own difficulties, sister." Xi Qing felt that she was becoming more and more like a devil.

Xiqing didn't eat much, just drank, only felt the light and shadow were vain, and there was no solid place in her heart, so she recruited Xirong Xiliang Xiyu: "Open the stage, let's play mahjong, Xiyue, do you want to play?" Xiliang shook her head Said: "I won't fight anymore, I'm not lucky this year, as the fortune teller said, I won't fight anymore." Xiyue said: "When did I learn to be so superstitious." Xi sneered: "I'm lazy. Superstition makes life easier." Xiqing said, "Stand there, are you going to fight or not?" Xiyue pulled Zhao Deren, "You go." Zhao Deren was about to decline, so she said: "Let's fight for a while, if you don't hit big sister, I won't let you go." Xiqing smiled openly, "It's a mess three times, no flowers. How big is the fight?" Seeing Zhao Deren sitting down, Xiliang clapped her hands and laughed: "You I was fooled. My eldest sister can win but not lose. If she loses, she will always be at the table. We play cards with her just to have fun with her." Zhao Deren said to Ai Ai: "This... I don't know how to loose chapters." Yue Xiao: "Don't be confused, just pay the money."

After so many years, Xiqing still hasn't grown up.Now Xiqing is like the younger sister of all the sisters.Now Xiliang has lived with a man, was abandoned and had double eyelid surgery, and changed at least 35 jobs. Now, as a distributor of love, hope, and meaning of life, she can already own tens of millions of mansions in Hong Kong Island. With 5 houses, you can retire from MLM and speculate while you live. If the property market does not collapse after 1997, you can live comfortably in this life. You are only 27 years old and already have such achievements. This is true love and hope for the meaning of life.Xiliang sometimes looks at those students who spend tens of thousands of yuan to find the meaning of life, love, hope, will and care, and feel that they are very pitiful. "You will not be deceived by others. You are all successful people in society." Xiliang told them. "Let's talk about what we want to do but are afraid to do. Jennifer, talk about it first." The thing Xiliang most wanted to do but was afraid to do was to point at them and say, "Hehehe, I think I'm smart There are too many smart people and too few stupid people in this world. Thank you for giving me a mansion and money. Of course I will give you meaning in life. Hahaha.” When they talk about childhood tragedies, they can bear it Laughed so hard. "I found it," said a student. "I found it too," said another student. "In this way, you can enter the advanced study class for 9 weeks. You don't have to go to class, and you can practice what you have learned in your work and life every day. You are old students, and the tuition fee will be reduced. The original fee is 50,000, and now it is 30,000." Bao Na bitterly With a straight face: "I have to pay taxes for the building, the car and the tax. How can I find 30,000 yuan?" Xiliang said lightly: "Sell the car. Compared with the meaning of life, what are cars and buildings worth? "Xi Liang felt more and more like the leader of a cult.After the students found the meaning of life, they divorced, got back together, jumped off the building, resigned, and used all their savings to speculate in stocks. Homosexuals showed love to their secret lovers, and their lives were truly wonderful.Maybe I should retire early, so I don't have to mess with anything.Think coolly.They say it's perfectly legal.They want to pursue the meaning of life, no wonder the distributors.

How can you say this is a scam?She, too, thought life was bright and bright, and roses were blooming.In the end, she was devastated, and she was deceived by someone.Like her sister Xiyue took Zhao Deren, she likes to take the man home diligently: "This is my fiancé." She introduced it to Xiqing.Xiqing just smiled, dragging her high-heeled embroidered slippers: "Please sit down, Joseph." Xiliang said anxiously: "This is John Company." Xiqing Fang said: "Sorry, I remembered wrongly. You guys The young people are about the same length. It’s your first time to sit up? There are too many people, I can’t even remember.” The man frowned and said softly, “Joseph is my cousin.” The man said: "How many cousins ​​do you have?" Seeing something wrong, Xiqing brought them coffee and asked, "How long have you known each other." Xiliang said, "Three weeks. We met on the plane. Do you remember when I boarded Going to Malaya once?” Xiqing frowned, “I’m confused, didn’t you go with Lian Yiming?” Xiliang added sugar to the man, adding 5 teaspoons in total: “Lien Yiming already had cancer and died. "Xiqing said: "Yes, yes, so fast." The man put his arms around Xiliang: "That is really God's will." Xiliang said: "We decided to obey God's will, and we are getting married." Xiqing's coffee Almost didn't spit out: "God? That God? I didn't hear you mention it before." The man said: "It's the Christian God, there is only one." Xiqing thought for a while, and said in a low voice: "What does God mean by this? When it’s time to get married, should we serve wine or not?” The provoking man taught Xiqing the truth for a long time, starting from Genesis.That was just a few months ago, why is it like a lifetime away.

"Do you remember the pair of dragon and phoenix gold bracelets that I called you for your wedding last time? I made them into a pair of Greek bracelets, have you seen them?" Xi Qing was confused for a moment, happy , Go back to the room and show Xi Liang a pair of golden bracelets: "Fortunately, I haven't bought anything for that Yi Lianming yet. I've taken a fancy to a pair of platinum cuff buttons and I'm about to buy them. I'm smart. Ask that God’s will, can there be any change.” Xiliang said angrily, “Then Lian Yiming has already died of cancer.” Xiqing waved his hand and said, “Ah, ah, I forgot, so fast, who is called What." The sister laughed, and said carefully, "The one she brought to Australia last time, it wasn't even Ye Ming or God's will, the hair was long and good-looking, and it seemed to be called Gu Gu." Xiyu heard the second half of the sentence, and asked: "What is Gu Gu, what kind of pet do you have?" Ximei continued, "Gu Gu is a white pigeon." What kind of intentions, one after another, what are you looking for." Xi Liang stumbled and said, "I don't want to either. I think every one of them is true." Xi Yue said: "This is someone who lied to you. Slender eyebrows continued: "This is God's will." All the sisters laughed, and the mahjong table was reshuffled.

Many things turned out to be a misunderstanding, and everyone was fooled, taking the falsehood as the truth.When I met Lian Yiming, I was working as a magnetic mattress MLM.She met Lian Yiming through a wrong number.She opened the elementary school yearbook, checked the phone book for each elementary school classmate to find their numbers, found Lian Yiming, and hung up: "Do you remember me? I am your elementary school classmate Zhou Xiliang, the one sitting in front of you. Yes. Well, I don’t have long hair now. I remember you, you are very smart and naughty. What do you do now? Bust business, let’s talk about it.” When we met, the other party was a disabled man, limping Yes, after much deliberation, Xiliang never thought that there was such a classmate in elementary school, who may have injured his foot later, so he only looked at him, but didn't dare to ask, so he had to ask about the old situation in a nonchalant way: "How about the pockmarked teacher Zhu? Lian Yiming frowned: "I don't remember this Mr. Zhu, is it Mr. Yang? We call him the Cobra." Xi Liang was a little puzzled, but she also bit the bullet: "Yes, her husband later instigated others to revise the will. I heard that They are relatives of Teacher Yang." Even Yiming was a little confused: "Isn't Cobra gay? He has a wife." Xi Liang didn't dare to show off, and began to sell magnetic mattresses to him. "It's very cheap. I'll give you a 30% discount. It's 21,700 yuan. It can relieve fatigue, prevent cancer, repel mosquitoes, and suppress ghosts." Lian Yiming actually agreed to try it out, and then invited her to go for a ride in Shek O, like a childhood sweetheart Like lovers, I held her hand on the beach in the dark night.Xi Liang dragged her wet and fat hand, feeling flustered: "I'll send it tomorrow, you can order some first, okay-H" Then Lian Yiming let her go.The two were silent in the car on the return journey, Xi Liang had nothing to say: "Actually, I only sell mattresses to earn tuition fees. I am currently taking part-time law courses, and I will become a lawyer in the future." Lian Yiming laughed: "Is that so? , at that university?” Xiliang said, “University of Science and Technology.” Lian Yiming smiled: “I didn’t know they had a law department. My younger brother is studying at the University of Science and Technology.” Xiliang blushed a little in the dark, and clicked cigarettes.Lian Yiming said, "Don't worry, I'll buy the mattress for you anyway." Xi Liang thought, he is a good man.He didn't touch her again when he said goodbye.When she returned home, she looked through the elementary school yearbook again, and found that Lian Yiming turned out to be You Erpeng, and there was a photo, a female classmate.Later he hung up the phone and said, "Can you come and see my mattress, there is something wrong with it." Xi Liang was also alert, and said, "I'll ask the company's customer service to take a look." He insisted, "It's better for you to take a look." "Xiliang found another distributor, Liberia, and said, "Accompany me to deal with a client. He has just divorced and is not emotionally stable." The two went to Lien Yet Ming's home in Mid-Levels.When Lian Yiming saw two people, he also smiled, and greeted them to drink coffee, listen to music, and watch DVDs. Xiliang asked, "Where is your mattress?" Lian Yiming only shrugged, leaning against Xiliang, and asked Her brother's recent situation.Xiliang changed his face and said that there is no big brother, Lian Yiming moved closer to her, and said: "Are you angry with me? It's useless to find a colleague to accompany you. I apologize to you." This made Li Bergaard embarrassed Said to go first.Xiliang wanted to go with her, but Lian Yiming smiled and said, "I want to send a mattress to my Filipino maid, please leave it for her to explain. Marian, Marian." Lian Yiming called.Xiliang was afraid that Liberia would snatch her order, so she would rather take the risk to stay: "Thank you Liberia." Then she sent her away.Later, Xiliang thought, I don't know if this is what it means to die for money.

It was very quick and tasteless sex.Looking up, she saw Lian Yiming's wedding photo, hanging above the bed, the color is still new. "Where's your mattress?" Xi Liang asked first after finishing the work.Lian Yiming didn't answer her, just took a shower.She said loudly: "If you don't want the mattress, I'll take it back, and you can sell it again." Lian Yiming came out wet, pinching his slender chin: "I don't have the other ones, but I have the money. You still don't want to sell it." What about mattresses? Can you massage? I'll teach you." If you don't sell mattresses, you can become a massage girl, Xiliang thought.In just two months, Lian Yiming no longer had any sexual interest in her, so he rented an apartment for her, went up to find her, paged her, but asked her to massage her and tell her stories. "What a genius for storytelling." Lien Yeh Ming admired. "It's just a lie. Maybe I can be a writer and pass the day." Smiling.Xiliang received a salary from Lian Yiming, and gave some money to her elder sister Xiqing.That day, Xiqing wore a bun and wore a lavender fine morning glory Tang suit silk jacket, a pair of moon-white silk trousers, and a pair of silk slippers. There were a few dishes of warm porridge placed there. The weather was hot, and Xiqing sat Shaking a paper fan on the sofa, the inscribed poem on the fan is Zhou Qiuli's handwriting. I can only vaguely see "Peach Blossom Still Smiling", and I don't know what I am laughing at.Xiliang was a little strange, and asked: "Why, are you a treat?" Xiqing smiled slightly, and said, "You can say that. Today is my father's death day. Why did you come back?" Xiliang leaned against the light blue and pink wall, covered all over They are all blue shadows, and the slender eyes seem to grow into the wall: "You still remember him." Xiqing smiled: "You must laugh at me. Yes, I still remember him. Why not. We have us day." Xiliang closed her eyes: "What are you laughing at, I am like you, I have become an involuntary person." Then she took out a small stack of thousand-yuan banknotes from her handbag: "Here for you. Okay Let's live. Buy something for Ximei." Xiliang walked into the halo, and the bright shadow on her body became clear again: "I'm leaving." She said.Xiqing stood up and said, "Don't go, talk to me, I'm so quiet." The two opened a bottle of whiskey, accompanied by side dishes, chatting and laughing, Xiliang remembered, the eyes Net is hot, but no tears.That night, my father died just 5 years ago.

When I was half drunk that night, I felt very uneasy. When I got home, I didn’t turn on the lights. I took off my high heels and skirt, and lay down on the sofa naked.Lian Yiming said in the dark: "It's me. Are you going on a date?" Xiliang was shocked, and said coldly: "What, so what?" Wait. The days won’t be long anyway.” Xi Liang frowned and said, “Why, you’re going to emigrate.” Lian Yiming smiled dryly, “Almost. I’m in the final stage of cancer.” Xi Liang woke up immediately, and said half-way: "What should I do in the future." Lian Yiming said, "So I have to inform you earlier, you have to plan carefully." He hugged her tightly in the dark, but Xiliang imagined the smell of rotting corpses, At this time, he shed tears. Since then, Lian Yiming has never been seen again.When I mentioned him, I only said to people: "Then Lian Jiming died of cancer." I don't know if he died, maybe he just lied to her and wanted to leave her.Since the result is to leave, no matter what the reason is to leave, there is no difference for any reason. Xiliang has never been deceived, because she never believed it. The first time I tried to believe in God's will, I ended up like this. At that time, they promoted aloe vera water, shark bone powder and the like, saying that they could prevent cancer.One thousand yuan per bottle, the guests still died one by one, and some of them hadn't paid their bills. She was so remorseful that she wanted to go to the mourning hall to recover it. A relative had a fit: "It's all the water or powder you sold , The dead ghost died within two days of eating, and he didn't even make a will, which made me split up with such a roomful of people, and you still come to trouble me? I'm going to sue you for fraud." Xi Liang argued: " He started the treatment too late, and I can't help it──" Before she finished speaking, she pushed away, so she had to walk away in a sly way, and took back her silk gold at the reception: "Sorry, I made a mistake, it should be next door The mourning hall." Stepped out of the mourning hall, opened the auspicious instrument, and ate a candy: "Alright, at least I ate a free candy." She thought.In the murmur of the Taoist priest, Xiliang couldn't help but think that the patient's death might really have something to do with her, and felt terrible. Then go to church.I met John Lian in the church, and he said it was God's will. Xiliang is just very tired.She no longer wanted to be responsible for her own life, and no longer doubted, so she said, "God's will. Everything is God's will." God loves the world, but God does not pay the world's bills.John Lian said that he was the creative manager of an advertising company. When the two went to test the yarn, John Lian said: "Can you pay first." Xi Liang also paid the bill, but I always felt a little strange, as if she got married alone , everything is paid by her.She wasn't one of those women who folded her arms and waited for a man to pay her bills, she made money and she liked to spend what she made, but she was a little sad when John even asked her to borrow money. "My car needs to be paid in installments, the car's air conditioner needs to be replaced, and the license plate has expired again," he explained.Suspicious, she called John Lian's HR department: "I'm an employee of the credit department of the bank. Is there a Mr. John Lian? OK. What's his position? OK. No, thank you." It turned out that John Not even a copywriter.Xiliang didn't have a seizure, she was just looking for a house to move, and a new job.Johann Lian still came to her and said, "It is probably God's will for us to buy a new car. I owe some money in cash, can you lend me some?" Xi sneered and said, "I think it is God's will for you to sell the car. drop it, and pay me the debt.” Later, when she settled the bill, it was God's will that she lost 158,977 yuan. Did she think that only her guests needed lies? She was no different from them.It turned out that one cheated the other, and no one owed anyone.She is also more at ease, continuing her sales business, she is happy, and making money again, why not. At this moment, she was smiling, squeezed among the sisters, and felt a kind of stability in the sound of mahjong.Because she has a desolate understanding of life that is not similar to her age, her slender eyes have a contemptuous style, so that she looks older than her actual age. "So when will the third sister get married? Be sure, don't be like me. People still see me as single and insist that I'm divorced. It's all because I was too flamboyant with God's will," she said. "Marriage is not a panacea. We are all the same when we are married. We are a lot of age, and everything is the same, so we shouldn't be too nervous." Xiyue smiled, but Zhao Deren was there wiping his sweat again and again, no It's easy to say yes, but it's hard to say no, I'm being confused, I'm anxious, I don't know whether to be confused or not, the side of the body is already blurred, Zhao Deren is relieved, and saves himself from not knowing whether to let Xiqing or not. No, so I paid very happily. Xiliang looked at the fine wrinkles on Xiyue's face, and missed her various grievances, but she couldn't see it on the surface, and she didn't know how to ask, but she thought she understood, because they are sisters, there are many things that don't need to be asked, don't need to be said , there is sympathy and understanding.She reached out to caress the fine lines on her face, and said: "There are more and more." Xiyue pushed her away: "Don't disturb. Are you trying to sell some youthful placenta, don't follow me." Xiliang Laughter: "Not only to promote placenta, but also to promote the old man's class cream." Xiyue said: "It's not good, but also to promote environmental protection and re-use paper coffins to me, and I can leave it to you after use." Xiliang held the thin eyebrows beside her and said, "A sister. It's really a wonderful thing." Then she hugged Xiyue again: "Just pretend I'm drunk." It was so warm and touching that she would mistake it for happiness.How illusory the feeling of existence is.For a moment, she couldn't tell what was real and what was illusion. "Actually, when he was hugging you, he kept calling your mother's name. Don't you know?" Xi Liang and Xi Qing stood in front of Zhou Qiuli's body, looking at his face, wearing his clothes in "Horse Dealer" "Writing a letter" is a costume embroidered with gold dragons, wearing thick-soled boots, and the makeup of civil and military students on the face. The whole funeral is like a scene. "Look at him, how beautiful he is, and Empress Li is about the same appearance." Xi Qing leaned against the glass of the dead man's room, the heating sprayed into a circle of white mist, Xi Qing wrote Zhou Qiuli's name on it with her left hand, and stroked the glass with her right hand , infinitely gentle, as if caressing his face. "You still don't understand." Xi Liang wiped off Zhou Qiuli's name, and pulled her hand away from the glass.That night, the night when Thin Mei started to go crazy, Li Hong wore a colorful blue peacock cheongsam and a pair of lake green satin shoes, and went out to "play a little mahjong", she said.Zhou Qiuli was extremely restless all night, sitting in the living room and sighing, spitting mouthfuls of pale green phlegm into the Tanmeng, floating on the weak tea, blooming like flowers.Xiqing didn't dare to move too much, so she sat in front of him and called him timidly: "Father." Zhou Qiuli was spitting "ke tuk ke vomit", smoking cigarettes one by one.Xiqing said in a low voice: "Go to bed early, Dad." Zhou Lili kicked Tanmeng over: "What is it called? It was all caused by you." Xiqing was a little wronged: "I... I don't know ...you..." The ground was covered with pale green phlegm flowers.Zhou Qiuli said: "Dad, what kind of dad, I'm not your father at all." Xi Liang fell asleep in the room, heard the noise outside, opened the door and wanted to go out to have a look, Tan Meng just rolled over, she shrank back in fright The room was stuck behind the door, and wanted to know what happened, so he secretly poked his head out to look.Ximei also woke up, standing barefoot in the darkness, said: "Why." Xiqing was crying outside.Seeing Xiqing's desolation, Zhou Qiuli went to the toilet to get her a towel, and handed it to her, "Don't cry." Xiqing cried more and more desolately, wiped her face while crying, and put it under the towel. Secretly see if Zhou Qiuli is looking at her.Zhou Qiuli looked at her and sighed: "You are so like your mother. She was like you when she was young." She sighed again: "What a sin." Xiqing continued to cry, Zhou Qiuli went over to coax her, gently Hugged her tightly: "Li Hong, don't cry, don't cry." Xiqing opened her half-swollen eyes, a little bit surprised and a little bit happy, then covered her face with a fright, and shouted: "No, no, we were all wrong. At this time there was a sound of shoes outside, Li Hong ran in with a flushed face, the collar of the cheongsam was unbuttoned, revealing a jade phoenix hanging around his neck, seeing Zhou Qiuli holding Xiqing, she paused , Said: "Pervert." At this time, Ximei was wearing a nightgown, opened the door, and Xiliang saw the faces of her sisters in the dark, overlapping, pale and slender faces.Li Hong turned around, threw the sequined handbag into the air, and fell heavily, the small mirror rolled out, fell to pieces, she closed the door, and let them stand in the barren light.After her mother Li Hong left, Xiqing became ill and had a high fever.Zhou Qiuli locked herself in the room and didn't come out for three whole days. She was so frightened that Xiyue Xiyu knocked the room open, only to find that there was no one in the room. "He went out, took a bank passbook, bought a boat ticket, and went to Macau to gamble." Xi Liang said. "How do you know?" Xiyue asked. "I don't know, I'm talking nonsense." Xiliang replied.Xiyu then said: "Seal your mouth with tape." Xiliang argued: "How do you know what is true and what is false. Dad said that the eldest sister is not his daughter. How do we know whether it is true or not? We I probably won’t know it in my whole life.” Xiyu raised her hand to hit her, Xiliang flinched and said, “I saw my father going out, he told me not to say anything, just pretend I don’t know anything.” After a pause, she continued. Said: "He probably has his eyes on someone again. He sneaked out at night and came back with a smell of perfume on his body." Xi Liang was afraid of the heat, and slept in the living room at night, but she knew a lot of things.Zhou Lili came back that night, drove a brand-new Mercedes-Benz, parked outside the house, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, came back and took out a bag of diamond rings and pearl necklaces, and said: "You guys share it." Then Xixi said, "Take one for self-defense. Money is the best." She then stuffed a large stack of hundred-yuan bills into Xixi.Xixi was only five or six years old, and had never seen so much money, so she burst into tears.Zhou Qiuli ignored her, went back to her room, undressed and showered for bed.Xiqing had a high fever for two weeks, and the fever subsided and subsided again. Zhou Qiuli didn't go to the room to see her, but collapsed in the room by herself, looking at Li Hong's photo, muttering to herself.Xiqing called Zhou Qiuli's name when she was on the verge of coma, and when she got better, she sat silently, but she couldn't eat, and she lost weight little by little, getting smaller and smaller on the bed, like a little old woman.There is a patient at home, and the room is full of things left by Li Hong. Zhou Qiuli avoids it even more. He is not at home for 3 days and 5 days. Xiliang followed him after class and found that Zhou Qiuli had avoided it. The apprentice went to his house, and sometimes went to Macau to gamble, and the Mercedes-Benz was mortgaged within two weeks, and the big roll of banknotes given to Xixi was also taken away one by one.Xiliang watched her father get on the boat at the Hong Kong-Macau Ferry Terminal, and walked back to the West Ring Road for two hours alone. In the evening from summer to autumn, Xiliang was only 10 years old, climbing up the moss-green stairs step by step, the air was full of Purple, stepping into the woody and moldy house, the sky darkened, and she was the only one in the huge house.Xiliang stood in the living room and wept, the dark blue night came in through the skylight.She suspects that she is hallucinating herself.Since then, her life has also taken on an illusory meaning.At this moment, Xiqing was moaning in the room, calling Zhou Qiuli non-stop. "Stop barking, it's no use," she said.Xi Qing's voice was getting closer and more intense. "Don't yell anymore. Don't yell again." Xiqing kept yelling. "Who is calling her, don't call her anymore." Xi Qing called: "Father." Xi Liang covered her ears and shouted: "Don't call her again." Xi Qing's voice dropped, but kept calling in a low voice I can't let go of my heart.Like a ghost, Xiliang broke into Zhou Qiuli's room, opened Zhou Qiuli's wardrobe, Xiliang put on Zhou Qiuli's black silk shorts, his black silk trousers, and ordered Zhou Qiuli's clothes. Li took a few puffs of his hookah, tied his hair up, combed Zhou Qiuli's hair cream, looked in the mirror in the dark, and looked like Zhou Qiuli, only smaller.She followed Zhou Qiuli's footsteps and pushed open the door of Xiqing's room. Xiqing's face was flushed, seeing Zhou Qiuli who was pretending to be Xiliang, she couldn't help swallowing, Yuli Jinbo immediately calmed down, no longer tossing and moaning, her eyes that were so hot that they almost burst, looked hard at what she thought That's right Zhou Qiuli, Jiu Jiufang said: "You're here." Xiliang didn't dare to answer, but just said "um".Xiqing shed tears: "I thought you didn't care about me anymore." Xiliang just shook her head, pulled the quilt back for her, and gently closed her eyes for her, Xiqing wanted to pull Zhou Qiuli's love in her heart Xiliang hurriedly withdrew her hand, stood up, retreated to the door, and signaled to Xiqing to rest from a distance, then pretended Zhou Qiuli's square steps, went back to the room, closed the door, and took off Zhou Qiuli's shirt. Clothes, thinking of the scene just now, couldn't help but burst out laughing. After growing up, Xiliangfang understands that people only believe what they want to believe. What people want to believe is true. Xiqing is stubborn. Xixi listened to her father Zhou Qiuli's heart attack call in the dark room: "Xixi. Xixi. Xixi." She actually called her name.Mother Li Hong closed the door with a "bang" and went out. Zhou Qiuli called her: "Li Hong, Li Hong." Slender eyebrows cried "Wow".Xiliang opened a gap in the door of the room, and heard her father calling her.She stood in the dark, but Xiliang pulled her and said, "Don't go out." She saw her father, resting on his heart, lying on the ground, sweating profusely, pulling up Xiqing's calico pants, Xiqing looked at him coldly: "Go to hell." Zhou Qiuli was a little surprised , let go of her, and called her thin name. Xiqing may have forgotten that she told her father to die.That didn't fit the plot she had imagined.But remember carefully, very clearly. After a burst of throbbing pain, Zhou Qiuli crawled back to her bed.Years later, Xixi still had the same nightmare: Xiqing killed Zhou Qiuli, he crawled back to the bed with his bleeding body, and stood by the bed watching him.He called: Be careful, be careful, don't forget.Mother Li Hong danced tango with several men in the distance. Don't forget to be careful.do not forget.She wakes up in a nightmare and cries. That's not what she remembered. The Zhou Qiuli she remembered was always smiling, with thin and red lips, and always warm in her arms. "Father, why don't you wear lipstick?" Zhou Qiuli smiled, "I think so too." Sometimes he carefully grabbed Zhou Qiuli's hair and said, "Dad, you are so beautiful. Will I grow up to be like you Beautiful." Zhou Qiuli would lift her thin high into the air, causing Xixi to cry, Zhou Qiuli smiled and said to her: "It's useless to be beautiful. Only smart is useful." After thinking about it, he said: "It's useless to be smart." Said softly, "I'm smart and beautiful, so I'm useless." Zhou Qiuli tickled her: "The little man is right. Only a good character is useful. It's also useful if you can make money. Living a normal life is also useful.” How embarrassing it is to grow up.It was a summer evening.Zhou Qiuli had just finished singing the magic performance of the Yulan Festival. He injured his ankle when playing Lu Bu Wusheng while jumping and limping. He sat quietly in the room, and the sunlight from the skylight shone in one by one.Xixi had just finished class and called him: "Dad, Chen Reguang, who was sitting next to me, had his dick between the toilet door. Why does he have a dick and I don't?" Zhou Qiuli hugged her: "In the future, what you have will be better than his. The dick is even better." She said in detail, "Is it the same as what my mother and sister have, a big, big pustule on the face?" Zhou Qiuli didn't answer, and carefully pulled his hand away to look at him: "Father, did the teacher scold you? Why are you crying?" Zhou Qiuli said, "Father is getting old, and his body is not working. I think the days are almost over." She said in detail: "Yes, it's getting dark , Summer is coming to an end again, why don't we go swimming." I remember carefully that day she was wearing a large floral skirt with green-green spots, which was very narrow and short, and it took a lot of effort to squeeze in.Zhou Qiuli helped her put it on, and sighed: "The child grows up really fast, he is really a soul-stimulating angel." Jumped up thinly: "I grow taller and taller, taller than you." Zhou Qiuli hugged her she. She remembered that the sunset was so red and big that day, as if it was burning to the sea.Holding the buoyant carefully, stroked and stretched, giggling.Zhou Qiuli pushed her to the end of the sea, followed him carefully and said: "Father, why don't we go out to the sea and don't come back again." Zhou Qiuli said: "I have exactly the same intention." Then Turned her over, pushed her head down in the middle of the sea, she saw that her eyes were all purple and blue, and her inside was like a fire, her tears fell into the sea, not turning into tears, she opened her mouth and cried, it was all salty and bitter sea water She thought her father was going to kill her, but she was willing. She turned over and took a deep breath.Zhou Qiuli filled her with foam and said, "Let's go back, it's too dangerous here." When she came back, Xixi was very silent, when Zhou Qiuli wanted to drag her hand when crossing the road, she put her hands tightly on her belly. This time it was the first time she took a bath by herself.In the past, Zhou Qiuli or Xiqing would wash her body.That night she found that the little spot on her chest was swollen like a plum, and it hurt: "I have become like my mother and elder sister." She thought: "Don't let Daddy bathe you, they are perverted." she says.She just fell silent, not knowing what a perversion is, just like her lavender little plum is swollen, a perversion is something that can only be known but cannot be said. Her plums are getting more and more ripe, and they are becoming less and less talkative.When she came back from school, she locked herself in her room and listened to the radio, and she didn't call her father when she had dinner at night.Zhou Qiuli looked at her faintly, and said to Xiqing: "Take a look at your little sister, do you want to buy clothes, do you have enough pocket money, and do you have a boyfriend?" Xixi just ate silently, hearing so , didn't say anything, put down the bowls and chopsticks before finishing the meal, and closed the door with a " ".Zhou Qiuli let out a long sigh: "A girl is a big girl." Xiqing said: "Don't mess with her, things are not enough." After her mother Li Hong left, Xixi avoided her father. "Pervert" seemed to be an infectious disease. She simply took her meals back to her room to eat, went to school before dawn every day, waited for the school gate to open, and returned home after dark, hiding in the room and listening to the radio.周秋梨又发了一次心绞痛，自此有轻微瘫痪，经常在床上叫：「细青，细青，我很辛苦，我要小便。」细青不管他，把电视儿童节目的声浪调得高高的。周秋梨蹩得辛苦了，便哀求：「是我对你不起，你来帮我小便好不好？」细青冷冷的笑道：「我给了你前半生，你就给我一泡带血水的小便。」周秋梨便发脾气自己起来小便，啪的跌在地上，细青方给他丢了便盘：「自己解决吧。」细细看不过眼，便扶周秋梨上床，给他解开裤当，周秋梨非常难堪的道：「是我不好，是我不好。」 细青在一个大年夜，和精神稍好的周秋梨上年宵市场，买了一支盛放的桃花，回来便收拾离开。细细在房间里看着她收拾，她连卫生巾都悉数拿走，细细便站着，拉着蚊帐，不敢说话，眼泪一滴一滴的掉下来。母亲李红走后，细月细玉细眉细凉一个一个的搬了出去，连过年都不回家，细容老早在外面住的，一屋子空荡荡的，衣柜打开都是一个一个的空衣架，一只大老鼠在床底探头出来，又唧唧的缩走。细细穿一条碎花睡裤，刚长高，瘦伶伶的在打颤。细青没有话，低头收拾，外面周秋梨吃了安眠药，在呼噜呼噜的沉睡。 「啪」的关上小皮箱，见到了泪眼连连的细细，只轻轻的抱着她：「你乖乖的听爸爸的话，我们家里有很多事情发生，希望不会影响你，呵？」给细细塞了一叠钞票，便走了。细细独自站在客厅之中，桃花盛放，一瓣一瓣的跌下来，下了一个冬天的桃花雨。 就在这一刻，温柔，内在，惆怅，她流了血。 血暖暖的沿着她的小腿，流到地上。 她「哇」的一声哭了。 周秋梨听到了声音，半醒不睡的爬出来，细细哭喊道：「大姊走了。所有人都走了，只剩下我一个。」周秋梨看到细细流的血，明白过来，跑到细青和细细的房间，打开衣柜，要找卫生巾，却碰到一柜的空衣架，玲琅作响。周秋梨发了一回怔，一会，方对细细道：「要来的终要来。你这个叫月经，很正常的。」然后找了点卫生纸，为细细抹拭。 多年后细细还记得这个大年夜，她的父亲周秋梨和她在午夜的街头找一间便利店买卫生巾。她的长大与启蒙，总是与她父亲，或离开有关。 这一年细细升上中学，理科成绩特别好：她看不起所有与感情有关的事物，譬如爱、譬如文学。李红和细青走后周秋梨登时没有了靠山，没有收入又没有照顾，便将房子拿去抵押，拿一点钱度日。细细身世褴褛，穿一条过短的校服裙，一双袜子穿完洗洗完穿，经常还未乾透便得穿上脚，没腕表，老问人：「现在几点了。几刻了。」也就成了她一天会说的话。晚上和老父吃极咸极咸的小菜：「咸便少吃些。」周秋梨说。一碟小咸鱼可以吃5天，好像在50年代，吃得细细脸如菜色，神情又冷静，益发像小尼姑。周秋梨时好时坏，没病的时候就问她：「大姊有没有来看你。」心绞痛的时候便怨天怨地：「女人都是贱货。」将全屋可摔之物摔过稀烂。细细也学会了泰山崩於前而色不变，老是目无表情的将一屋碎片收拾，给周秋梨吃药，然后回房间计算几何三角。 细青来学校看过她一次。她下课，见细青穿一件芍药大花丝长裙，戴一顶血红的大草帽，站在火红的野火花树影里等她。细青见得细细小乞丐似的，摘下了草帽，便流了眼泪：「我和你去买几件衣服吧。」细细一挑眉：「我不需要衣服。我要电脑。」细青眼红红的道：「衣服我买得起，电脑我可买不起。我跟细青细月她们张罗一下吧。」便和细细往酒店的咖啡店喝下午茶，一迳问细细周秋梨怎样怎样。细细吃完栗子蛋糕又吃芝士饼，再叫了客大雪糕，有搭没搭的道：「我想他快要死了，他老早就应该死的。」细青大吃一惊：「他是你爸爸，你怎可以这样咒他，是不是他侵犯你了。」细细吃光了雪糕，调匙搁在玻璃杯上，锵然有声，道：「吃完了，我要回去了。」细青便将预备好的钞票给细细。细细也没看，接过来，说：「好了，可以交电费。这个月家里都没电。」细青瞪着她，觉得完全不认识这个妹妹，和几个月前那个扯着蚊帐哭泣的小女孩子完全两个样。 成长这样残酷，细细完全忘记了一阵子前的自己。 她付清了所有帐单，在一个灯火明亮的晚上，迎接她父亲的死亡。 周秋梨老早知道自己会死似的，寒流初袭，他去街市张罗了一点肥肉、南乳、芹菜、栗子，做了个暖哄哄的扣肉锅，买了一条乌头鱼、乾烧，又做了点红豆暖粥，暖了梅子绍兴酒。细细放学回来，闻到一屋的肉香，陌生至很不真实，心里便觉得很恍惚，有不祥之感。她也没问他，只搬了小板凳，坐在厨房门口，拿著计数机在计算或然率，周秋梨哼著「东坡访友」，锅里肉气氤氲，隐隐有俗世喜悦之意。周秋梨叫细细摆了九双碗筷，却只著她盛了两碗饭，跟细细说：「你去跟姊姊们说，家里常备她们的碗筷，她们要回来甚么时候都可以回来。我有甚么做得不对，我还是一家之主。」细细想，所有人都跑清光，他还在说甚么一家之主。也没答他，端起碗筷便吃。 饭酒过后，周秋梨脸红耳热，登起步子，唱起京戏来：「我楚霸王力拔山河气盖世。」嗓子还未拔高，便按著心脏，脸上由红而紫而蓝，呼吸急促，身体像虾一样蜷曲。细细飞快给他拿了心脏药，周秋梨已经无法吞咽，细细用手把药丸按进去，惊得牙齿一直格格作响，把周秋梨扶到床上便打电话叫救护车。周秋梨一直按著心脏，说：「很痛很痛很痛。呀──」叫到细细的骨头里面去，流了一脸的涎液和一床的小便。她没想到结局会这样猛烈。他一口一口的抽著气，破风琴似的，一只手紧紧的捉住了细细，把细细捏痛得眼泪都流出来。「放开，放开。」她说：「细细，细细，好可怕。」周秋梨断断续续的说。「放开。」周秋梨愈握愈紧，他一定想将她捏死。细细想起多年前与父亲游泳的那个黄昏。或许当时他将她的头按进水里，或许真想杀她，或许只想和她开玩笑，这个可怖的谜她一生都不会知晓。「放开。」她说。周秋梨只馀下几口气，他死了都可能这样捉著她。细细发起狠来，便用另一只手按住了周秋梨的嘴。 周秋梨放开了她。他停止了呼吸。 到底是她杀了他，还是他自然死亡，和他那个黄昏是否想杀她一样，都是一个她一生都不会开解的谜。 她坐著那里，空气还有残馀的肉香和酒香。细细低头看看自己，又是穿著一条吊脚睡裤，一双破拖鞋。她的父亲死了，她想穿好一点来送他终。 衣柜空荡荡的都是衣架，还有的便是一套她刚洗乾净的校服。她便换上了校服，穿上上学的鞋子，端端正正的坐在她父亲身旁，等人来收尸。 后来她记得那天她下课便到医院认尸。医护人员力称是她报的警，当时病人经已死亡，细细经已全记不起来。 从那时开始细细记性便很差，连到殡仪馆都摸错地方，万国殡仪她记得是香港殡仪，害得她每层每间的去找，待她搅清楚地方又得摸过海去，过海隧道又惯常的塞车，她到殡仪馆时他们已经走清光，殡仪馆在关门，她在纷杂的花堆里徘徊了好一阵，想乘隧道巴士回西环的家，大概走错了方向，在车上迷迷糊糊的睡了，醒来车上只剩下她一人，下得车来，凉风阵阵，原来去了沙田，又来来回回的坐公共交通工具回家，她老觉得，永远在寻寻觅觅，永远回不了家。 因为专注於解释事物的客观规律，细细的生活总是十分糊涂，成了一般人口中的「艺术型科学家」，将手表当作鸡蛋放进热水煮那种。细细熟悉质子分裂的速度，光的折射途径，硫磺氢炭氯氮氨及其化合物的性质，却可以考试忘记带准考证，袜子只穿一只而忘记另一只，出门忘记关水喉经已4次，每次屋子都是淹得几乎可以养鱼，细青大吵了好一阵细细索性自己在离岛租间小房子，读书考试，入大学念工程后搬进宿舍连过春节都不肯回细青的家睡，每次回到细青处都热水烫脚的赶这赶那，细青嘲她「旋风式到访」。现已杯盘狼藉，细青细月都喝得满脸通红，细细挂念无人宿舍的冷静，长长的走廊只有自己的脚步声，和她案头电脑绵延的电流声，便轻轻说：「我想我还是先走了。」细凉「嗖」的一声止着她：「你这时叫走大姊少不免会哭闹一顿，还是耽一会吧。」细容听到了，便低低道：「你要走不如悄悄的走，我看大姊还是大哭一顿收场。我们都走吧。」尽管麻将声啪啪响，细青听得一个「走」字，便麻将都不打了，跳了起来：「谁要走了，这夜不是团年夜吧，谁要走了，你们都看不起我，都要走了。爸爸死后，你们都当我死了，我死了倒好。」细容便拉着她：「怎么了，大家开开心心的，你又何必伤感。」细青听得「伤感」两个字，才觉得伤感，便呜呜的哭了起来，细月也过去搂着她：「姊姊，这不好。赵得人是客人，你让客人难做有甚么好呢。」细青益发哭得厉害了：「你要结婚了，我还要自己一个人。」细容笑：「你如果肯我给你介绍人好不好？」细青哭得一脸都是泪：「现在我是甚么了，我都要你们给我介绍人，我竟沦落至此了。」赵得人站在那里，实在插不上话，见细青及姊妹们你一口我一语，却任由细青眼泪鼻涕的直流，便给细青递上了自己的手帕。细青接过来，深深吸一口手帕遗留的古龙水香气，问赵得人：「你是不是同性恋的？这么好。」惹得众姊妹都笑了。又问赵得人：「你觉得我们家姊妹怎样？」吓得赵得人满脸赤红，嗫嚅道：「没怎么样，很……很……很没怎样。」细月笑：「你到底说甚么。」此时细眉掩上眼，道：「好黑。」然后「拍」的一声，客厅便陷入黑暗之中。细凉哇哇的叫起来，细玉在黑暗中道：「这是个黑暗的大年夜。你看，整个城市都黑了。」细月在漆黑中握住赵得人的手：「停电了。」细眉说：「黑暗里有光。好光。」细凉便拉尽了窗帘：「失火了。或许因为停电，所以失火」姊姊妹妹便围在窗前看失火。赵得人方知原来夜里的火是这样的美丽热烈。失火的大概是近摩星岭的木屋房子，橙黄的烈焰吃进沉绿的山里去，喜欢跳跃，如狂欢节。救火车和救护车划着鲜红明蓝的闪光，呜呜的前进，时而停顿，有片刻的寂静，或许有点人声，不过无法听清楚，那或许是个懒惰的父或母，第一次情深的叫唤他们的子女，不过他们可能已经葬在烈焰之中了。姊妹们紧紧的搂着，以火以死，她们才相互绻恋。赵得人站在她们背后，说：「我知道怎样形容了。你们姊妹就像活在烈火中一样。」细凉道：「这你是自视为救火车了。」赵得人道：「不敢不敢，实在是杯水车薪，能自救就差不多了。」细玉道：「好吧好吧，你请我们喝酒，以酒当水吧。」便摸黑去点蜡烛。细眉不知从那里找到了好几十支白烛，借点摇动的烛光，一支一支的截断，在窗台上，桌子上，椅背上，地上，点了一支一支的小蜡烛。细玉开了赵得人带来的圣安美莉安红酒，给赵得人及众姊妹倒了半杯，酒就倒空了，细眉在她身后叫她：「玉姊姊，人老了是不是会像河马。」细玉一震便推翻了酒瓶，碎了一地的绿玻璃。细眉道：「你们会受伤的。」细月已经一脚踏在玻璃碎上，她没有穿鞋子，脚底流了一行基督钉十架一样殷红的血。细容跪下来想拾玻璃，膝头又嵌进了绿宝石般的碎片。细凉叫她们勿动，去厨房找药箱，回来时一脚踏在洋烛上，烧得痛，跳开时跳到绿晶莹上，又流了血。细眉弯下身来，左手擎着烛，处女新娘一样静默专注，为她们拔出碎片，然后在地上摸索，一一将碎片拾起，灰黄的柚木地板已散布了一滴一滴的血。细眉蘸了血，舐了舐，道：「血是甜的，酒是涩的，而水是无味的。」站起来，左手依然提着烛，右手拿起杯，大口大口的喝着水。赵得人想起他中学时代念的圣经，忽然明白过来：以血救赎，以酒解忧，以水洁净。各人流各人的血，各人寻得各人的救赎。毕竟彻悟并不容易。这一夜，血酒水都有了，算是人生的得着。他不知道如何对细月说清楚，只道：「我想我今夜……。」细青按着他的唇，说：「别说话。」原来细青已经伏在地毯上睡了，囡囡在她身旁打鼾，此起彼落的，细青喃喃的说梦话：「窗关好了没有，要下雨了，我要给妹妹们买雨衣。」众姊妹演员退场似的，轻手轻脚的在收拾。 细月买来的那株桃花，盛夜黑暗之中，忽然开放，或许因此会忽然堕落。 细容站在桃花之下，有点恍惚。 So many years.细青执於她自以为的爱。永不可得的爱。超越道德的爱。因其如此，她和所有姊妹都不一样。 细青梦见了桃花不停在流血，她站在花枝下，不得不打伞。 「窗关好了没有，要下雨了。」她说。 她要给妹妹们买雨衣。唯独不给细容买。 「这么多年了，你还执迷不悟，细青。」细青听得细容说。她听不清楚下一句是甚么，想靠近一点，细容却一点一点的退后，然后，飞走了。 「细容，细容。」她一叫，便醒来了，很想张开双眼，可惜眼皮并不听使唤，想扬手，手却不知那儿去了，想开口，却无法说话。 「我一定在作梦。」细青想。 细容正在穿大衣，戴一双夜绿色手套，抹了抹嘴，想补点玫瑰野露口红，隐隐听到细青叫自己的名字，看看，她还伏在地毡上，细玉给她盖了薄毛毡。她便对着小镜涂口红，在镜里看到了细青。 她打开了皮包，掏出了支票簿，给细青签了一张支票。 细月已经穿好了短夹克，见到细青在签支票，便止着她：「我来，我来。你把钱省下了给囡囡买点好东西。你在外靠救济金，环境也不会十分好。」便从皮包里掏出一叠现金来。细玉瞠目结舌，细月苦笑道：「我愈来愈像黑社会。没办法，他们都这样。」细凉笑道：「我以为你已经是黑社会。」细细已经穿戴整齐，忽然眼前一亮，电灯一一亮着，细青转一个身，手上握了一朵刚落的桃花，掩着了脸。细细吹熄了白洋烛，便脱下大毛衣：「今天晚上我还是不走了，我看一看她。」细容道：「乖孩子。或许应该留下的是我。」囡囡一直在打呵欠：「妈妈，走吧走吧。我们回舅舅家睡吧。」细月便将两叠现金塞给细细：「厚的给大姊，薄的给你，可不要弄乱了。」细细将客厅大灯关掉，以馀饭厅的一盏吊灯，照着一桌子凌落的碗筷，散落的麻将牌、水果皮、瓜子壳、空酒瓶、茶叶、莹绿的玻璃碎，一滴一滴，枯乾的血迹。细眉走到垃圾堆里，找着她的羊毛袜，站在那里，半明不暗的在编织。赵得人觉得有点湿湿的，抬头看，大年夜竟然下起牛毛细雨来，街灯份外的橙黄，火烧似的，远处的火经已熄灭。 夜深赵得人觉得前所未有的清醒。他忽然记起一个意大利神父的脸孔。那是张安详而清醒的脸孔。关於阿都诺神父，有人说他是个没落贵族之后，有人说他是个同性恋者，有人说他「躲进了修道院」，为了甚么，不得而知。他教的是数学，上课却给他们讲苏格拉底之死。他们发现阿都诺神父在垃圾桶里那一年赵得人念中五。他们围住了垃圾桶，说阿都诺神父死了，没有表面伤痕，可能是自然死亡。赵得人站在人群的外圈，挤不进去也没打算挤进去，站在修道院校园的草地上，赵得人突然觉得很清醒。 如今他想他明白。「躲进修道院里去。」各人或以血以酒以水，寻求各人的救赎。 在修道院里，躲无可躲，所以躲进了垃圾桶。 但救赎就在眼前。 细月在他身旁睡了，胸脯微微起伏，如同鸽子。汽车在公路上静静奔驰。他握著驾驶盘，却伸手握住了细月的手。在幻灭的不惑之年，他们能够遇上对方，又能够发生感情，是生命给予的福惠。细月的过往是他无所知甚至不愿知，他知道的只是眼前的女子，他并愿意包容与接纳，一切关於她的，创伤与骄傲。她这时只是非常疲倦的睡了。雨愈加的大了，密得近乎紫色。他只是听得雨的落下，非常静，静得整个世界都要塌下来。再看细月，她流了一脸的眼泪，双眼仍然紧紧的闭著。他摇了摇她，问：「怎么了。」她方缓缓的张开眼，道：「我做了一个梦。我梦到我父亲要杀我。」赵得人伸手摸她的脸：「不会的。你父亲已经死了。」细月含含糊糊的道：「是呵。」又沉沉的睡去。赵得人掏手帕来替细月抹乾了眼泪，然后用手帕掩住自己的嘴。泪的气味，微酸，勾起婴孩记忆，但细月的身体又明明散发成年女子的脂粉与汗香。赵得人才想起，这是他第一次看见细月的眼泪。这样她就是他的妻子：他看到了她从不让人看见的。 这时漫天的雨，由紫而红，夜里像也有彩虹，慢慢的淡化，愈来愈轻，赵得人以为是下著粉红的雪，揉揉眼睛，满目满怀，都是堕落的桃花。他加快油门，开进桃花雨里去，落红纷纷，不过是过目急景，过了便天蓝海绿。他一直开一直开，愈开愈漆黑，开到无色无声的混沌去，黑暗尽处，有光。他开到微亮之处，彷佛有桃，但已经长了绿叶，亭亭如盖，花不过是记忆。他想景色至此，真是好，眼前豁然开朗，无夜无色，一夜风和雨，就此收尽。 细青就在这时醒过来，如此这般，由血肉相连的痛楚，想起了七姊妹。