Chapter 6 painter brother

——Excerpt from Miscellaneous Notes of a Temple Laoer Today's elder brother is simply a warm and loving mother to me.As for the appearance of turning back the time for seven or eight years, we can be said to be a pair of enemies! Yes, a pair of enemies!When my elder brother came back from the painting school, disturbed the happy things my sixth brother and I were doing, and threw his palms in our faces for no reason, my mother was cooking in the kitchen. Seeing us crying and complaining, she often said that we were a couple. What about the enemy? Now that I think about it, it might be our fault.Because of the stubborn behavior at that time, it was not impossible to beat them one by one.This is obviously because my elder brother loves me and my sixth younger brother, but at that time, because of him, we spoiled our happiness, slapped our mouths, and treated him unfairly, so that we secretly cursed him all the time to make his ears more deaf and his eyes more blind .

As soon as my elder brother graduated from the local painting school and went to Changsha to study, haha, I never saw any enemies again.Please think!How happy we are.Three days after my brother went out, at home, I actually acted like a king.My mother’s doting, no matter how she looks in the hemp basket, she can’t find a way to deal with me: My second sister who only returns home once a week can hide my subtle lies, so I have many opportunities to get close to those vice.It hasn't been a month since my enemy went out, and I have learned the "bottom scripture" and "skin scripture" of six dice. Every morning, I go to the gambling stall to grab six dice and play with him.Quietly drink those obscenities...Three you roll a six!May Fourth is here!Shoot Miao Cubs!Liuhong is coming soon! ... One drink and one throw, one throw and one drink, and there is no need to turn back to prevent that hand that suddenly came and grabbed my ear, so happy!

If my mother hadn't been so helpless and reluctantly sent me to a fellow regiment leader to serve as a soldier, so that I would continue to degenerate at home, I would have earned the lame Ma San's career at the gambling stall. ………… Over the past few years, the environment has separated us far and wide, and we can never find a chance to meet each other.But no longer curse the enemy blind and deaf in bed.Every time I get a letter from my brother, mentioning the current events of the children in the past, it always makes me cry.My elder brother has become a professional painter because of his closeness to art.And me?Nothing is achieved, here and there in the army, turning around in circles, but open your eyes, look at those fellow comrades, one or two lost their lives under the pointed bullets, let yourself escape amidst the shouts of others; I saw the same ridiculous expression as others and fled.Running by myself, watching others run, the cycle of the two makes me feel extremely tired of life, but I still turn, turn!

The first time I saw my brother was last fall.I transferred from Hunan to Beijing, and he also transferred from outside the customs to Beijing.Under the wheel of time, our appearance has changed.The enemy from previous years has become as thin as a bunch of rice drafts. If it weren't for his unique pair of eyes to prove it for me, I would have almost missed him at the station.I turned my back and shed some tears, and then I turned around and smiled and asked him about the situation on the road.Studying his body, hands, feet, voice, and color, he is no longer like the big brother back then.Even the hand that used to scrape my ear and punish me to kneel at the foot of the table seemed to have lost a lot of weight.

"Haha, I have a beard!" "Seven years, old, beard, (touching chin with hand) Haha, it's really grown! I don't think we will meet again... You had a serious illness last year, I heard, crazy! Who knew—"His eyes were red, so he stopped talking, and at the end he only asked me how I lived in Beijing. ………… Recently, my elder brother, who went back to live his romantic life outside the pass, sent a letter—brother, brother, you are young and have too little experience, although you are smarter and capable than me in many ways, which is enough to make me admire.People have also changed, not as naughty as in previous years, but you are still ignorant.

You don't know what life is, you don't know what life is, wandering alone in the city of Beijing alone, but hanging around here and there, I am very worried.When I come here, I don’t have much to do every day. I just teach a few girls and draw some models for them. When I feel lonely, I think of you.Sleeping at night, I dreamed several times that you were bullied by those bad women, and woke up crying loudly in front of me. You are already a person over 20 years old, no more than when you were a child, you should live with your spine erect!Although you have been wandering outside alone for several years, from what I observed with you last year, for some reason, your life can't make me very relieved.You can't survive without someone to take care of you.There will be many embarrassments in society, and you have to accept them respectfully, and they will climb up on your back before you are caught off guard.I want to loosen up my business a little here, and bring you by my side so that I can take care of you from time to time so that you don't suffer outside.

It is fitting that you ask your brother to be Jack's mother.Your ignorance of dealing with human affairs is no different from that little thing.But, brother, brother, your hope should be a little bigger than that of Dali's brother!I have money, so I can print the articles you wrote for you, and Jack's mother, who is still incompetent, will also share a lot of glory for his Dali child! It is too tiring to make a fuss, and you should also take care of your not very healthy body-even if it is for my expectations. Before you come to my side, what I have to tell you is: You should be careful.Especially for women, you should not leave your sorrows to Jack's mother who loves you!

your brother Fengtian on July 29 My brother's letter brought me some joy but also some sorrow: he was always worried that I would be fooled by others because of my ignorance.Although it is true that Dali's child is in trouble, how could it be like this?Some of what he said made me feel uncomfortable. He was afraid that if I was not careful, I would be snatched away by a white partridge unknowingly.In fact, this is just my brother's excessive worry, which is not the case.Although there are a lot of white partridges in big cities, who would come to snatch a younger brother like you among the partridges of this era?They have flown to their comfortable and safe nests!

I'd better not go to my brother's side!The prophecy told me that if I believed my brother, there would be some black eye that would bring pain to my mother. Written in the West Building of Jingyi Garden on August 25, 1925