Chapter 122 The Legend of Niu Tianci (16)-Death by One Life

Although the battle between the old lady and the director was not very lively, she did not save her strength.Originally, she was not in good health, but with this anger, she fell ill when she got home.Spiritually, the victory was hers; in fact, her haughty approach was going to take advantage of the Director.Twenty years ago, she might have won a complete victory by attacking her personality; the director is a person who values ​​face by studying, according to the old rules.According to the old rules, Wang Lang could be scolded to death.However, the current director only wants things to go well: wouldn't it be easy to expel the student if he didn't ask to come back; what's the point of scolding?The old lady wasted her efforts and did nothing to the director.She felt that she deserved to die.All her life she stood on the principles of etiquette, righteousness and shame, and the rules of a middle-class family, and now these seem to no longer exist.The more she thought about it, the angrier she became.

Tianci is very sad.My mother was angry and sick about him, something she didn't expect.When encountering actual problems, he can no longer imagine, because the things in front of him are so real and obvious that he can no longer deal with them like a game.Mom's sick, it's too serious, he can't "fake" it anymore.He can pretend to see eleven men with single swords in the school room, because the things there are not close; Mom is really humming, mother is really sick because of his things.There is him here!He was lost.He was in a hurry: he went to find medicine for his mother, and poured boiling water for his mother. He wholeheartedly hoped that his mother would recover.But my mother's illness is getting worse and worse.He would like to ask his mother if she feels better?Mother's body hurts, he would like to say - let me give you a light thump?However, he couldn't speak, he walked around the room, unable to speak.Mom said he had no conscience, and Ji's mother blamed him for being ignorant.He was speechless.At home and at school, there was always a lot of sulking; sympathy often caused disputes, and his aloofness made him unwilling to be flattered.He could tell stories, but that didn't make him sweet talk.When the real thing happened, he was afraid.In imagination he can be solemn; in reality he cannot imagine, and therefore cannot be solemn.He really wanted to comfort and comfort his mother, but her mother was really sick, how could she pretend to ask?What is there to say without pretending?

My mother, like the general elderly in their sixties, thinks of death when she is sick, and is very afraid of death.It's not necessarily that you live in a coffin just because you don't inhale. The embarrassment of dying is because others are still alive.To die is to worry about being alive, which makes death uncomfortable.The closer you are to dying, the more you realize how important you are, otherwise wouldn't this life be in vain?If she dies, she will figure it out for herself: what should Tianci do?Who will take care of the old man?Who manages that industry? ... The more I think about it, the more I feel that I can't die, and death is even more terrifying.One point of pain, she thought, was two points, the more terrible death is, the more serious the illness seems to be.She almost dreamed of dead ghosts every night!

In the hearts of relatives, it is more reasonable for Mrs. Niu to die before Mr. Niu.They can't afford to offend her, but if she is to get married in the end, it's best to die first.They couldn't kill her, of course; she was ill herself, as God willed, and they were glad to hear that she was ill.They came to see her with presents, to comfort her, and at the same time to see if she was going to die or not; if her complexion was what they hoped, then the gift would be worth throwing away.People come to see her every day, and they observe Tianci carefully.Godsend straight hair.In their minds, if the old lady was ill, they would try to get the property of the Niu family to fall into the hands of the Niu family.Tianci felt that the corners of their eyes were a little uncomfortable.

The old man called a doctor for his wife.The doctor checked the pulse and said that he was not afraid; he would be fine after taking two doses of small medicine.He prescribed twenty small medicines.The old lady Niu took one dose and became even more ill. Twenty small medicines did not work blindly.Another doctor was changed, and another twenty small medicines were prescribed; these twenty medicines were probably too useful, and the old lady was talking nonsense. Mom is out of shape.Under the lights, she is very scary.With her eyes closed, her lips moved quickly, sometimes speaking, sometimes silently, muttering to herself.Sometimes she touched the edge of the bed with her hand: "By the way, you can take the twenty; you can't move the thirty!" She opened her eyes and looked around: "Let's go? Take the money and leave! Morning I know, don't give him..." She was stunned, and said twice: "Give me some water!" Tianci boldly gave Mom some water, and Mom swallowed half a mouthful, "It's not the taste!" Tianci lost his mind .He didn't expect his mother to have such a day.The relationship between him and his mother is not very good, but after all, mother is in charge of everything, and mother is indispensable.His mother called him: "Fuguan, come here!" Tianci approached his mother. "Me, I probably can't do it. Pass me the little white cloth bag in the drawer!" Tianci found the bag and wanted to call out for mom, but he didn't, and his tears came down.He had never been so close to his mother, and his mother never said anything intimate to him. "Open it, there is a small seal, a small seal, isn't it? You take it, it is your grandfather's seal. You, Fuguan, be strong, study, and be an official, I like it underground. Your grandfather The ancestor was an official! Always carry it, seeing it is like seeing me, understand?"

Godsend can't say anything.He couldn't think of the meaning of being an official, and he didn't care about it.His mind was fluttering.He saw death.Mom talked again, and what she said had nothing to do with him.It's not like Mom, who never talks nonsense!Mom fell asleep again, her whole body motionless, her mouth opened a little, and there was some unsmooth breathing.The more she looks, the less she looks like her mother. She has no rules, no style, just such a thin thing.Every part of her body seemed to have shrunk, and there was no sign of energy.This is not the mom who will manage everything.He didn't dare to look any further, and turned to look at the lamp.There is a smell of medicine in the room.He seemed to be in a dream.He ran to call Dad.

Dad came, and the house changed again.Pa's round head and belly made the light brighter.There was some heat in the room.Tianci looked at Dad and looked at Mom. There are two kinds of waves in this room, it seems.His poor mother is so thin and quiet, and his father will cry, but his eyes are beautiful and alive. Mom opened her eyes, looked at them, and closed them again with extreme anxiety, her eyelids covering the things she hadn't read, as if she had buried some endless meaning.Mom's eyes never open again. Tianci couldn't cry aloud, years of school training prevented him from crying aloud.His heart seemed to have split open, but he couldn't cry out, sobbing dryly with his mouth open.After his mother's shroud was put on, he didn't dare to look at it anymore. It seemed that the gorgeous clothes and the motionless body should not be put together.

There were many mourners, but they didn't show much sadness. He felt extremely lonely amidst the noise.There were many people whom he had never seen before, and who paid little attention to him.He was wearing filial piety clothes, and he was at a loss, wondering why everyone was so lively and excited, as if it was fun to die.When the mother died, all the rules died, and they drank tea as soon as they picked up food, and ate food as soon as they picked up food. On the day of sending off three, he will imagine again.The house is so lively that it doesn't look like there is a funeral, everyone is playing.After entering the door, they cried and played, then ate and played, and talked and played. Except for the mother who was silent in the coffin, the rest of the people had nothing to say.The trumpeter at the door was banging and blowing, joking.There are paper carts, horses, cartons and paper figures outside the door, which are very bright and unsightly.There is a table in the yard, and everyone eats, eats, eats, and their mouths look like small slop buckets.Smoking, everybody smoking; and two big smoking guys in Westinghouse.The monks who recited the scriptures played "Small Shangfen", "Sighed at the Fifth Watch", and sang some small tunes.The children came out and in, and the wild dogs followed suit.Plain candles are lit in front of the coffin, and there is a "Jiangmi Man", which is holding "Flame Mountain", "Empty City Strategies", and "Shuang Sha Hui".When children enter the door, Jiangmi people are required, and when adults enter the door, they must give up their seats.There were also those who cried, wiping away their tears and saying "let others go first", followed by "please drink, the wine is not bad!" , large tin teapots... Different colors, different tastes, different sounds, make up the most complex play.Tianci knelt beside the spirit, listening, watching, and smelling, he couldn't think about his mother anymore, couldn't be sad anymore, he was about to laugh, it was so fun.Dad was wearing a blue padded robe with a white belt across his waist, walking around the courtyard like an idiot.He gave tea to cigarettes to wine, and no one comforted him, so he had to smile reluctantly with red eyelids and entertain guests.Those women, who are especially coquettish in plain clothes, and some are also very ugly, all want to share some of their mother's things as a souvenir.They were picky, they pretended to be friendly with each other, and they all looked down on Dad.Tianci couldn't stop laughing, he thought of a way to be more lively, since funerals need to be lively.He imagined, why doesn't Dad hold a funfair, where everyone dances in front of the coffin and sings "Rooster Crows"?Why don't you have a meatball eating competition to see who can eat a hundred in one go?Or competition crying, to see who can cry loudly for half an hour, no rest?After thinking about it this way, he was no longer dazed or confused; he solemnly admitted that death is fun.A person should die when the time comes, for everyone to play with.He thought that he should die once, lie in the coffin, dig a small hole, and watch how everyone is playing outside.Or maybe that's what mother did, maybe she'd knock on the coffin and say, "Give me a bowl of tea!" He was frightened, and his fear was all the more real because imagination was more complex than fact and had a definite effect.He should go to play, he can't see the point of kneeling here, he should pick up a single sword and kill a few monks, the fat one first, because he has more blood.

Facts are facts, imagination is a luxury.He heard an old woman in the room whose face looked like it had been buried and then dug out, saying: "Which one is this child kneeling down?!" A middle-aged woman with a big white nose replied: "Dead ghosts are fine, just don't do it." It's business. Don't marry the old man with a second wife, or let the boy inherit from the same family; get such a thing!" Everyone sighed together.Tianci knew it was about him.The women's eyes were so cold to him, like snowflakes falling on him.He was at a loss again.When it comes to himself, he is baffled.He once asked his mother why he was called an illegitimate child, but his mother didn't say anything.Is he an illegitimate child?Mom said he was born by her mother.What's wrong with an illegitimate child?Mom didn't want to answer.Mom Ji, Si Huzi, and Dad didn't say anything.He didn't understand what was going on.In his imagination, he can become Huang Tianba or Zhang Liang, he is very sure.When it comes to what he really is, he has no claim.Now people scold him again.He wasn't very sad, just unhappy and didn't know what he was.And what's even more uncomfortable is that at this time, he can no longer imagine that neither Huang Tianba nor anyone else lost himself!In this kind of season, life is very small and wobbly, like a narrow wooden bridge, which looks inappropriate.

It must be ten o'clock, and many tables have already been seated, and the drum outside is ringing again.A woman came in with four children, all dressed in filial piety clothes, with many yellow clay ideas on the clothes, which seemed to be from the countryside.The woman looks like Grandma Leigong, and the children look like Little Leigong.Tianci didn't see anything else at a glance, only five sharp beaks.The woman cried when she came in, crying very sadly, the first sentence was: "I came late, I only got the letter last night, my sister-in-law—" The four little thunders stood behind the woman holding hands, and said nothing. not out.The woman cried about how she got up late, how difficult the road in the country was, and why she and her four children hadn't eaten yet.He grabbed his nose suddenly, and then kicked Tianci away with his foot, as if kicking a brick in the way.Immediately after, the four children were pressed to the side of the spirit: "Just kneel here, do you hear me? If you move, you will die!" Turning his head, tears were still streaming down his face: "The waiter! Serve the meal, come here Come, give them a bowl of meatballs and five steamed buns for each of them!" Then he rushed over to the old man: "Brother! Sister-in-law, I have no filial piety, just this filial piety, four children come to kneel; your second brother is sick and can't come , and called my sister here. Who is that kid?" She pointed to Tianci: "Brother, you are wrong, let your nephew not want it, and find a wild child. What do you say? We are poor, poor In my heart, I didn't ask my brother and sister-in-law to give me a candy bean! Let's make it clear today, in front of all relatives and friends, the flood can't wash away the Dragon King Temple, and the family must know the family; your nephew is you Although we are not brothers and sisters, we are not far away. You can’t ask the wild child to pretend to be here!” He turned his head and said, “Eat well! Don’t make people laugh at you!”

This monologue aroused everyone's sympathy. The old woman who had been buried and then dug out, with a big white nose and red eyes, all swarmed up and surrounded the old man.Everyone scrambled to say, no one heard who, the old man's head was sweating.He didn't have to sit next to each other to listen, everyone blamed him anyway.He couldn't answer, and couldn't remember what to say.The men are not allowed to come if they have a relationship, let the women take the lead, and it doesn't matter to stand and watch the fun.As he was talking, Big White Nose also pushed one child in front of the coffin, and Red Eyes knocked down three at once; in a hurry, he also pushed the children of other people's family there.After a short while, kneeling in front of the coffin was completely white.In the end, it was Grandma Lei who took the lead, "Kick that wild child out!" Tianci is standing next to the coffin.He thought those people were terrible, but he couldn't say how terrible they were.It is not surprising that he often suffers from humiliation.It is normal for him to feel lonely in the crowd.He didn't panic, he just didn't know what to do.He stands still.Dad was surrounded by people and couldn't come over.He couldn't find anyone who sympathized with him.Mom is dead.The children kneeling beside the spirit heard Grandma Lei's cry, and the older one stood up, eye to eye with Tianci.Godsend does not move.The kid rolled up his sleeves.At this moment, the young master who was holding his sleeves was bumped loudly.The four tigers pulled up Tianci and walked out. "What?! Hitting someone?!" How many people shouted together. "Damn it stinks!" Si Huzi twitched his head and walked out of the crowd, pushing and shoving.Everyone didn't know who he was, so they didn't dare to do anything.By the time everyone found out who he was, it was too late, which made them very frustrated. After going out, Tianci trembled instead.Si Huzi led him to Lao Hei's shop without making a sound. The children of the Hei family are all at home, and they warmly welcome Tianci, but Tianci has no intention of playing with them.Si Huzi said a few words to Lao Hei, and Lao Hei nodded: "Yes, leave it to me; when the nails are so black, I will find the shopkeeper Niu, yes!" "Where are you going?" Tianci asked Sihuzi, "Don't go back, they will beat you!" "I won't go back, you can play here and see you later!" Sihuzi left. Old Hei sent "Bee" to play with Tianci at home and was not allowed to go out.The bee led everyone to the backyard and played for a whole day.They are now "civilized": the bee's big brother has gone to school.He taught everyone to memorize for him. At the beginning of the bee memorizing people, he himself had a good memory, and his second brother had a similar memory... If he couldn't memorize the books in the school room, he would remember them all when he got home, so he often stayed at home, He will not go to school until everyone asks him to learn a few new sentences.He doesn't memorize the words, but only the sound of a sentence. It doesn't matter if he doesn't remember it accurately, everyone can create it temporarily.So this book from the Hei family is different.He went to school alone, everyone had pens, and the walls in the backyard were full of pictures.Lao Hei likes the "book spirit" at home very much. Playing and playing, Tianci gradually forgot all the troubles, and he began to tell them stories.They like to listen to Huang Tianba very much, but they don't like to listen to frogs and small fish, because they know that frogs can't talk.After listening to several stories, they decided to take Godsend as their husband.Tianci is very grateful to them, he has never received such respect.The master had to teach them the book, so he made up a few lines: Huang Tianba, playing single-handedly, red hat, green waistband,... Everyone immediately recited it, and soon discovered that the red hat and green waistband were referring to the fifth younger sister, the fifth younger sister. The waistband of his trousers, because the gown is short, does have a piece of green exposed.Everyone admired Godsend very much. The children of the Hei family don't know clocks and watches, so they go to bed when it gets dark.They will lie down wherever they are sleepy, and the "bee" has to carry them to a big bed and count them.Sometimes the wrong number is very troublesome, because it is not easy to find those who sleep in the coal basket.They fell asleep, and Tianci sat at the counter very lonely.He remembered what had happened half a day earlier.He didn't understand the allusion in it, and when he thought about it, he felt that he should be an adult, and he should no longer play with children, nor should he be happy.His thin eyebrows furrowed. Dad didn't come until after eight o'clock.Dad has also changed, the lines on his face are darker, not the usual sloppy look, those lines are hiding something, like little bugs sucking Dad's blood.Father and son have nothing to say.After sitting for a long time, Dad said, "Let's go for a walk in the street." Dad didn't seem like he wanted to talk.Tianci couldn't help it: "Dad! Are you really my dad?" He tugged on Dad's cuff. "Really!" Dad nodded. "You still want me, Dad?" "want you!" "Why did they kick me out?" "They want money." "Isn't it over for them?" "It can't be finished, they think there are too few." "Won't you give me more? What is money?!" "I can't give more, my money!" It's not like Dad.I didn't expect Dad to do this.Isn't dad just so-so when things happen?Why are you serious about these few dollars?Why is money so cute? "My money!" Dad repeated. "I can give it to whomever I love, and I can give it to anyone I don't love, and no one can take it away!" "If I don't give a lot of money, if they don't leave, I can't go home?" Tianci asked. "Go home! Why don't you go home?! I'll take theirs! The money is mine!" Tianci couldn't understand Dad.Money must be the best thing to make Dad not careless.This is the first time Dad is so serious.He didn't dare to ask again, he just felt that his mother lived on his father, and his father was as powerful as his mother. "Let's go home!" Dad's wrinkles were obviously deeper and uglier under the light. Tianci is afraid of going home, but he must show courage for his father; his mother is dead, and his father only has him, and he can no longer make his father unhappy. The four tigers are at the door, God-given muster up his courage.The courtyard was deserted, and most of the guests left when the third party was being sent off, and the monk also went to rest.Westinghouse has two or three people who are going to stay up all night.A pair of plain candles were lit before the coffin, and the candle seedlings were dancing.The queen was very dark, and the coffin was like a giant beast crawling in the dark.Godsend cried.He felt very empty and lonely, his mother was in the coffin, and his father had to fight for some money.Si Huzi came over to comfort him: "Don't cry, buddy! Look at me, I don't cry! Mom is dead, we are not children anymore, let's do it with them! Mom often said: "Like an adult!" "Mom is dead, this sentence must be realized immediately," not a child anymore! "Tianci felt a little old in his heart. Yes, he can no longer play with the "bees", and he can no longer cry casually. He has to act like an adult. How can he act like an adult? He has to pretend, pretend to make him solemn, he It seemed that Dad understood that money cannot be given to others, and he is an adult. When the adult saw the beggar, he said, "Go!No! "Even if you have a lot of money in your pocket. This is what adults do, and he has to do it. No wonder Dad changed his temper, probably because Dad became an adult after Mom died. He stopped his tears and questioned Si Huzi, what he had to do Concern is no longer a child. Si Huzi told him: They asked for money, but Dad didn't give much. They said that there would be trouble on the day of the funeral.There are two ways to avoid a funeral: Dad gives them more money.Or Dad sticks to it.They all know that Dad is honest, but Dad really doesn't want to take more money from others, so they have to accept what Dad is willing to give. Tianci is in favor of giving more money in his heart, but now he is pretending to be an adult and cannot give more. The money belongs to us, and Dad is absolutely right.He bit his thin lips, closed his eyes, put his hands behind his back, and grabbed the ground with his toes.He seems to grasp something, he is a kind of power, a kind of power that is not afraid of anything.Even if they make a funeral because of lack of money, they have to rely on them to make a fuss, money can't be added, can't be added!Dad is not sloppy, Dad is admirable, and he must help Dad resist.He fell asleep, and even the monk chanting scriptures didn't wake him up, and he gained the ability to be confident.