Chapter 99 life(18)

The storm that Gao Jialin had foreseen finally came, and the fierce struggle in his heart was inevitable.Although he is only twenty-four years old, he is no longer a sloppy person; moreover, he often has more complicated thoughts and feelings than young people of his age. He's making a very serious decision. There is no doubt that when Huang Yaping and Liu Qiaozhen are compared together, the imbalance is obvious-in his initial consideration, the tendency is to be biased. Of course he wanted to combine with Huang Yaping.He now feels that Huang Yaping is suitable for him in all aspects.She is educated, intelligent, and has a good family background, and she is also a beautiful southern girl.There was a charm about her that was very mysterious to him.He is very familiar with local girls like Qiaozhen, especially rural girls, and he can see the bottom line at a glance.He thinks they are simple and often monotonous.However, Huang Yaping knew and didn't understand.Although she has a lot of contacts together, she seems to have countless more things that he doesn't know.Differences in family background and economic conditions, different living environments and personal experiences made them naturally separated by a layer of something, which in turn increased his sense of mystery to her.He felt that she was clouded, and he could not approach her.Like a beautiful rainbow in the blue sky after the rain, the communication in middle school quickly disappeared and became an impression in memory.This impression had popped up in his mind by chance before, making him feel melancholy as if he had lost something; but then it quickly disappeared without a trace...

Now, these broken strands, once imagined in the past, suddenly became a real thing.Huang Yaping has expressed her love to him.As long as he is willing now, he will live with her again!Live, live!Sometimes it turns reality into a dream, and sometimes it turns a dream into reality! But he couldn't help but seriously consider his relationship with Qiaozhen.He and she have been passionately in love for some time.Qiao cherishing her is no worse than Kenan's love for Yaping.The difference is that Yaping said that she has no feelings for Kenan, but he loves Qiaozhen deep in his heart.Qiaozhen's beauty and kindness, amorousness and tenderness, selfless and whole-hearted love, Zeng initially awakened his latent youth and ignited the flame of love in him.For all of this, he is very grateful to her in his heart - because of her, despite other troubles in the previous period, he was so rich in his emotional life... Now, when Huang Yaping expressed her love to him, and When he was about to let him go to work in Nanjing with her, he connected love with his future.He thought: Qiaozhen will have nothing to develop in the future except being an excellent rural housewife.If he had been a farmer all his life, he would be satisfied with the combination of Qiaobiao.But now he is a "public family" and will marry Qiaozhen in the future, so he has little interest in living together; and it is also difficult to have a common language: what he considers is writing articles, and Qiaozhen can only talk about rural life. Mother-in-law's business.The last time she had visited him, he had been visibly moved and distressed.Besides, if he married Qiaozhen, he would actually be chained to this county seat; and his aspirations were very high and far away.As soon as he came to work in the county seat, he thought that he would never stay here for the rest of his life; he wanted to go far away and go to a big place to develop his future... Now, all this is waiting for him to say "yes".

He thought over and over again, and felt that he couldn't miss this important turning point in his life for the sake of Qiaozhen's love—it might be the turning point that determined his entire life's destiny!Not only that, but from the perspective of finding a lover, Yaping may be much more ideal than Qiaozhen!Although he has not been in love with Yaping like Qiaozhen, he feels that it must be better, richer and more colorful! After weighing everything, he has decided to sever ties with Qiaozhen and fly away with Yaping!Of course, his conscience is very disturbed - he is not a heinous villain!He thought very little about Kernan, mainly about Qiaozhen.He walked around in his kiln like a madman; pounded his fist on the desk; bumped his head against the wall... Later, he forced himself not to think about it.He mocked himself in his heart and said: "You are a bastard! You don't have a conscience anymore, what do you want to do with a conscience..." He tried his best to harden his heart, and gritted his teeth to warn himself: Don't look back!Don't be weak!For a great future, sacrifices must be made!Be cruel to yourself sometimes!Now, this "hardened" person began to think about the way he and Qiaozhen broke off.He expected this to be a heartbreaking scene, so he wanted to bid farewell to the past in a very short way.What annoyed him was that Qiaozhen could not read a word, otherwise, writing him a letter would be the best way to break off the relationship; this would avoid the pain of face-to-face.

So he lay in bed all day, thinking about how he could break off with Qiaozhen. Huang Yaping came here without losing the opportunity and asked him what he was thinking? He hesitated for a while before telling Yaping roughly about his relationship with Qiaozhen.After hearing this, Huang Yaping didn't speak for a long time.Later, with a look of surprise on her face, she said, "So you wanted to marry an illiterate rural woman in the countryside?" "Yeah." Galin nodded affirmatively. "This is a kind of self-destruction! How can you, a literate high school student and full of talents, marry an illiterate rural woman? I really don't understand what you were thinking at the time!"

"Shut up!" Jialin jumped up from the bed angrily, "I was covered in yellow dust back then, and I was just a commoner. Which of your city ladies would love me?" Yaping was frightened by his anger all of a sudden, and it took a long time before she said: "You are so fierce! Kenan has never been so angry with me before!" "Go find your Kenan!" Jialin lay down on the bedding and closed his eyes.A new worry came to my mind.He also thought in his heart: "Huh! Qiaozhen never talks to me like this... After a while, Yaping came to his bedside and gently pushed his shoulder. Gao Jialin opened his eyes, I saw tears in her eyes.

He is still angry and ignores her. Yaping said with a little excitement: "Jalin! Don't be angry! If you get angry with me, instead of being angry, I am very happy! You don't know, even if you put a knife on Zhang Kenan's neck, you won't be able to get angry!" Get angry! Sometimes, I really want to make this person angry, and Meimei will send me a fire and scold me, but no matter how you scold him or ridicule him, he always smiles at you, and you can only cry when you are angry. I just like your character! A man, a real man, a young man..." Gao Jialin still can't know for the time being whether what she said is true or made up to reconcile with him.But when he saw Yaping's teary eyes under the two curved slender eyebrows, his heart softened, and he said, "I have a bad temper... You may not be able to stand living together in the future."

"Galin!" Yaping grabbed his shoulders and asked, "Then you mean, are you willing to live with me?" He nodded to her in a daze. Yaping sat down beside the bed, next to him.Jia Yao quickly moved his body away.For some reason, he suddenly thought of Qiaozhen again.He felt that he could not accept Huang Yaping's way of expressing his feelings at this moment. Gao Jialin was silent for a while, and said to Yaping: "I have to discuss this matter with Qiaozhen... To tell you the truth, I feel very uncomfortable... Please forgive me, I don't want to lie to you words." "Yes, you should put an end to your misfortunes soon!"

"It could be an unhappy ending, too!" he answered her fatalistically. "It's easy for me and Kernan, I just write him a letter. I don't have any special pain in my relationship, I just sympathize with and pity him. He really loves me..." "Kenan will Very painful..." Galin sighed. "Kenan I don't think about it first, I mainly think about my parents now. They like Kenan wholeheartedly, and they are all veteran cadres, and their moral concepts are completely out of the past..." "Your parents will definitely not accept me! They want to be right I am the son of a common people, and I will humiliate their dignity!" Jialin suddenly shouted violently.

Yaping said in a very gentle tone: "Look at you, you lost your temper again. In fact, my parents are not necessarily that kind of people. The key is that they think that I have been with Kenan for a long time. The whole city knows that the two The family relationship is very deep again, I'm afraid..." "Forget it!" Jialin interrupted her. Huang Yaping burst into tears, stood up and said, "Jalin! Don't lose your temper like this, can you? I am in charge of my affairs! My parents will definitely respect my choice in the end... the only thing I need to know now is that you Love me or not! Do you want to be nice to me!" She said, and sat down beside him resolutely...

When Huang Yaping returned home, her parents, who worked on schedule, had already fallen asleep in their room.She went into her house, turned on the light, sat on the chair in front of the table, did nothing, and sat quietly—her heart was beating wildly! She immediately stood up again and stood for a while in front of the mirror.She saw herself smiling. She lay down on the bed again; sat up again as soon as she lay down. She stood in the middle of her feet, not knowing what to do; her thoughts fell like waves and splashing water.First, a series of fragments of the past flashed before her eyes; then all the details of what happened just now from beginning to end, and then all kinds of fantasy scenes in the future... It was not until she finished washing her face that her mind cooled down a little.

Definitely going to lose sleep at night.Insomnia is insomnia!Anyway, she will not be on duty tomorrow morning, and another person will broadcast, so she can sleep at home - as for whether she will be able to fall asleep tomorrow morning, she is not sure. So what to do now?Write to Kernan?Or "issue a statement" to the parents?Parents are already asleep.Then, write to Kernan first! As soon as she took the letter paper, envelope and pen, she changed her mind immediately: No!Or talk to your parents first!This is the main thing!It's better to let them know sooner! So she opened her own door and went out of the yard. The sleepless person was also determined not to let her parents sleep. She knocked on her parents' door and shouted, "Dad, Mom, get up and come over to me! I have something important to tell you!" The lights inside were turned on, and a nervous sigh was heard.The wayward daughter who was standing outside pursed her lips and smiled, and returned to her house. Her mother came first.Then my father stumbled into her room as he put on his coat.Both of them asked her nervously one after another: "What happened?" Seeing that her parents were so nervous, Huang Yaping couldn't help laughing, then became serious again, and said, "Don't be nervous. This is not urgent, but it's shocking!" The father stared at her, but he still didn't understand why Heitian woke up his old couple in the middle of the night. Her mother rubbed her eyes, and said to her anxiously, "Oh, what a Pingping! If you have anything to say, tell me quickly! You're driving me to death!" Huang Yaping thought for a while and said: "It's very complicated, but I'll give you an overview tonight. I won't tell you the details in the future, and you will ask questions... That's it, I've made up with another gay man, and Already in love; therefore I am disowning Kernan..." "What? What? What?..." Both her parents stood up from where they were sitting and looked at their daughter in panic. "For me, this can't be changed. I know you guys love Kernan, but I don't like him..." There was a long silence.It took her father a long time to wake up, swallowed with difficulty, and said sadly: "Kenan was not brought back by you? It's been more than two years, and everyone in the city knows! Lao Zhang and I, your mother and Ke Nan Mother Nan, this relationship... Oh my god, you wayward thing! Your mother and I have spoiled you, and now you are making us sad..." The old man beat his chest and feet, his thick lips trembling like the wings of a bee. Her mother was already crying on her bed. Her father, although he loved her more than he loved himself, seemed really pissed off tonight, and raged violently: "You are typical bourgeois thinking! You young people are so distressing! The beat generation ! Lawless generation! The revolution will be ruined in your hands!..." The old man was too impulsive, and he would pour out any exaggerated words!Huang Yaping fell down on the table and cried.Her father had never scolded her like that; she couldn't bear it all at once. Seeing her daughter crying, the mother cried too, and she came over and talked about the old man: "Even if Pingping is wrong, you can't yell at my baby like this..." "It's all your spoiling!" growled the old soldier. "Aren't you used to it?" Yaping's mother also yelled. Yaping's father turned around and went out.After he went out, he didn't go back to the house. He stood in the yard, took out a cigarette, slammed it on the cigarette case, and didn't light it.Yaping stood up, pushed her mother out of the house with both hands, and closed the door.She went to wipe the tears off her face with a towel, then sat down at the table and began to write to Kernan— Kernan: For the sake of all of us, I must tell you: I have fallen in love with Jialin, and our love relationship should be severed now; in the future, we will still be good classmates and comrades as in the past.I know you will be miserable.But you should think about it, it's not worth it to suffer for a woman who doesn't love you.You should look for someone who truly loves you.I'm sure you'll find someone like that.I wish you happiness. You should know yourself that I had a good relationship with Galin when I was studying.Now I feel like the one I really love is him, not you.In the past, the reason why the two of us developed a relationship was entirely because you cared about me in a timely manner and I was moved.But this is not love.You are a good person and a wonderful person.Don't influence your development because of me.Don't hate Jialin either.If you think you've been hurt, it's all one man's doing; I'm chasing Galin, hate me! I will always thank you from the bottom of my heart.I also want to tell you: Of all my friendly friends outside of love, you are my first friend.If you will forgive me, then I ask you to bless me. Yaping wrote in a hurry