Chapter 73 You can never think of 20-(Zheng Xiaofang)

I don't know how I got from the bus station back to the farm... I can't think of it, he still left. He may never come here again.He loves me, but not the life path I'm on.Since this is the case, how can we live together again?When he first appeared in front of me, I seemed to be elated to think that he was finally walking side by side with me on the same road again.I even wanted to read aloud to him that great Whitman line we both loved: Come with me, walk with me, and you'll never tire...   But I was wrong.He just came to see me.He still chose the latter between me and the big city.But, Xue Feng, since this is the case, why did you come here again?You left me with hardships and sadness, and then you left... A painful emotion surged into my heart from time to time.Yes, like any other woman, I hope to do noble labor and creation according to my own thoughts, but I also hope to be happy and fulfilled in love.However, life often does not go as one wishes—you gain some things, and you may lose others.

But after much deliberation, no matter how painful it is, what should be lost can only be lost.One cannot betray the principles of life in order to obtain some kind of emotional satisfaction. For me, it's not like nothing now.I have a career that I love, and that's enough to keep my spirit alive.In any case, I can't leave here anymore.Here are my flower sticks, my mulberry saplings, my silkworms... A few days later, I suddenly received two letters from Xue Feng in one day. The first letter reads: "Fang: Dear one! I beg you for the last time, come to me! Otherwise I cannot live! Your peak is written in the waiting room of the railway station." The second letter Wrote: "Fang: Dear person! As soon as I stuffed the letter into the mailbox, I regretted it again! I know you will not answer my call. So, I beg you, give me some time, let me think about it." .I may come back to you soon. You should believe me. If I come back to you again, I will never leave you. My brain hurts like a fire! My dear, you promise me Now! Wait for me!, Wait for me!! Your peak is written in the waiting room of the railway station."... I put the two letters on the table and sat silently for a while.

At this moment, I seem to see how in the waiting room of the small train station in the distance, how he is walking in circles like a deranged person, smoking one after another...I understand his pain, and I also know What a cruel struggle his contradictory soul was waging!Maybe he can overcome himself and face life bravely and noblely again.Maybe he still can't repent and continue to walk on the original life path... But no matter what, my dear, I still want to say to you: I promise you, I'm waiting for you, I hope you will come back to me .You know, although I am away from you, I have always loved you, missed you, and often meet you in my dreams... Come back!my dear!I'm waiting for you……