Chapter 52 On humility

When I was in the second grade of the teacher’s college, on a crisp autumn day, a boy suddenly went crazy.Holding an iron bar in his hand, he first smashed the glass in the corridor on the third floor, and then jumped to the second floor, still smashing the glass in the corridor with the iron bar.The classmates fled from the classroom like a frightened bird, and he rebelled in the whole building like Monkey King holding an invincible stick, invincible.We stood outside the building, listening to the thrilling sound of broken glass, staring nervously at the door of the teaching building.Once he's out, we're ready to bolt and retreat.Now that he's crazy, he might as well smash our faces down as glass on the way.The school leaders, teachers and officers of the security office were helpless, because he had a very lethal iron bar in his hand, so no one dared to enter the building to stop him.He also triumphantly smashed all the glass all the way, and then walked out of the teaching building very excitedly and heroically.As soon as he came out, he was caught by the security officer hiding at the door.

It turned out that he was a boy from the Department of Mathematics. He looked gentle, never spoke loudly, studied hard, and showed a humble smile when he met everyone.Although I have never spoken to him, when I met him by chance, I also experienced his humble smile after nodding.His sudden madness caused an uproar on campus. Some said it was because of love, some said it was because of the pressure of homework, and some said it was dissatisfaction with the society.I think it would be sympathetic if it was because of love, but it would be ridiculous if it was because of the pressure of homework.Because our teacher's college will graduate safely no matter what you do, so why bother asking for trouble.As for dissatisfaction with society, I don’t know what kind of setbacks he has suffered. In my opinion, no place in the world is a real paradise or pure land. It is normal to be dissatisfied with some ugly phenomena in society, but if justice is enough to make yourself Does being crazy really mean that you are a true defender of truth through and through?In my opinion, defenders of truth should first be strong.

The classmate was picked up by his parents and sent to a lunatic asylum.The school had to bring in a car of glass, and it took a full two days for the glassmaker to cut and install them one by one.The new glass gives a washed-out lightness, and the corridors are brightened by it.We were talking and laughing in this corridor and looking at the field and the river outside the window, completely forgetting about this crazy classmate.It's just that when he was about to graduate, someone suddenly mentioned him again, and his madness without knowing the truth aroused everyone's discussion again.People felt sorry for him, saying that if he hadn't gone crazy, he would have gone to work like us.All the classmates who have interacted with him have a good reputation for him, and think that his greatest advantage is humility and he is a good person.When they jointly emphasized "humility", my heart suddenly lit up: maybe it was "humility" that drove him crazy.Just think about a person who suppresses his likes and dislikes all day long and cares about other people's faces, his nature and instinct will inevitably be hindered, and sooner or later he will not be able to bear these and go crazy.

The word "humble" is annotated in the "Modern Chinese Dictionary" as follows: modest, not conceited (mostly used by younger generations to elders). I think the hints in parentheses are especially important.Since humility is mostly used by juniors towards elders, is it abnormal to show "humility" in the interaction with peers?Excessive humility makes people feel the humbleness of being a human being with their tails between their legs. People of the same age should laugh and curse frankly and relatively.I think the main reason why the boy went crazy is that he exhibited his terrible humility to his peers extensively. He seemed to hang himself in mid-air and couldn't get up or down. He was in an embarrassing situation. Over time, his soul collapsed, so he In the end, he will face the glass without humility and smash it bravely.

Humility is really a disguised quality.It has a smug connotation.It is an invisible killer that suppresses the healthy development of personality.In modern life, due to the intricate interpersonal communication and all kinds of conflicts of interests, humility sometimes becomes an effective way to protect oneself, that is to pretend to be humble and pretend to be a grandson to benefit from it.Because our Chinese nation, known as the "state of etiquette", regards humility as a virtue.It is much more comfortable to see a person talking to you tremblingly in front of you, lowering their eyebrows, cautiously, nodding and bowing, than seeing a person talking to you condescendingly, ecstatically, domineeringly or even domineeringly.Therefore, false humility is very popular in the society, and it is very popular. Knowing that it is a kind of hypocrisy, it still sings in harmony.

True humility hurts yourself (like my crazy classmate) and is therefore sympathetic; fake humility hurts others and all it wants to do is drive you crazy.This is something I have only recently realized deeply. Not long ago I went to a famous tourist spot to attend a conference.The host was really thoughtful and enthusiastic in the reception, which was touching.Whether it is food or accommodation, it makes people feel very comfortable.One of the people who received us was even more humble, asking whether the stay was good for a while, and whether the food was delicious. This kind of meticulous care sometimes even made people feel sincere and fearful.When this person says anything to you, he must first say "I'm sorry". At that moment, you will feel flustered and think that you have done something wrong. Where to go to attractions and so on.It is unavoidably surprising that there is really no reason for this polite expression.I have always been shy about writing with a brush, so I feel uneasy when it comes to signatures. If the owner has a soft carbon brush, this embarrassment can be relieved, but sometimes there is only a brush next to the inkstone. Looking at the Four Treasures of the Study is like seeing instruments of torture. Feeling cold, I, being vain, often leave the lively autograph place ahead of time and run away, fearing that my handwriting will be embarrassing.One day I slipped away like this, but unexpectedly, this man with a humble face came to me and said, the people who entertained you have no malicious intentions, I just ask you celebrities to sign, it is to respect you, why do you have such a face? dismissive?I told the truth as if I was facing a big enemy, but to no avail.This person has probably decided that I am playing "celebrity" style, really wronged!Let me not say that I want to be a famous person, no one who attends the meeting will think of offending the host.So I thought that the humility I had seen before was just a fake gentleness behind the murderous look, and the facts proved it.When I told a few truthful words to an interview with a certain news unit at that scenic spot, saying that I was not unfamiliar with the scenery and didn’t find it novel, I was immediately attacked by another humble person: I’m so arrogant, I’m too self-righteous ...

So what do they need me to say?I finally understand that it is necessary to shape me into a humble person like them, smiling heartlessly at the old scenery, and humbly treating every waiter (no matter how temperament you don’t like) Thank you, probably only in this way, I am the perfect person they think, right? But I don't want to be that humble, because that kind of humility would drive me crazy.Although my life is not splendid, it is very plain. I am looking forward to love and love literature, and I don't want to go crazy.Moreover, I believe that a truly free soul will never exhaust my passion and talent.Only then will I be worthy of myself and God.