Chapter 31 Chapter 31 From Love to Hate

Because it was summer, Xia Yixue deliberately took the evening train, and went to Nanzhang City to visit Zhang Ruyue before the weather got hot.It was not yet nine o'clock in the morning when she arrived at the mental hospital. She has come to visit Zhang Ruyue many times, and the cleaners recognize her.Even the old and talkative cleaner who cleaned the environment started nagging when he saw her: "You are so kind, and you don't have any relatives, and you often see her. Usually, even relatives don't come But most of the people imprisoned here are good people. If they were bad people, they would have done bad things long ago. These people didn’t want to do bad things. They made themselves suffer as a result. There is one person who can play the flute, and that flute is really good ..." Xia Yixue smiled, ignored her, and just walked along the wall by herself, thinking of Zhang Ruyue who slept in a big room with many patients on such a hot day, her heart ached.As soon as he was distracted, his steps became staggering.

She didn't look up.There were windows on the wall, but they were all nailed.The windows were not only covered with iron sheets, but also iron bars were added. That big house had neither a lock nor a latch on the door.A large ceiling fan that has been in disrepair for a long time is turning around like a devil above the head, and it makes a sound like laughing.In such a room, people would be suffocated to death, how could Zhang Ruyue bear it.Xia Yixue continued to walk, and there was a lonely wind in the skirt that she raised due to walking, blowing the fallen leaves on the ground.It's no surprise that leaves fall in summer too.In any case, let her speak.Xia Yixue's heart was beating wildly.Maybe this time I can make her speak, I don't know if she can stand the stimulation.

Xia Yixue never felt that there was anything abnormal about her, she just felt that she was a friend who was speechless, and she had to be allowed to speak first. In the reception room, Xia Yixue saw Zhang Ruyue being led in like a lamb, and couldn't help but tremble, a heart-wrenching pain spontaneously arose. When Zhang Ruyue appeared in front of Xia Yixue, Xia Yixue still found traces of charming charm from her indifferent face, dull eyes, and unreasonable mocking corners of her mouth.Every time, every time she discovers something new from her. "You don't know me anymore? I'm Yixue. You must remember me."

Zhang Ruyue sat indifferently opposite Xia Yixue, unconsciously turning the corners of her clothes mechanically. "You really don't know me? You can't fool me. You're not crazy." Zhang Ruyue turned a deaf ear, still flipping through the corners of her clothes, her hands didn't stop. "Why are you bothering? Sitting alone facing the wall all day long, keeping silent, suppressing yourself, what is the reason?" Zhang Ruyue's eyes never blinked, like a scarecrow.To her, Xia Yixue's voice was like a sparrow that could not disturb her. "Kisara, you must know how many times I've been here, you're counting in your head. You just don't talk."

Zhang Ruyue's hands were still pinching the corners of her clothes, like twirling rosary beads that went back and forth without beginning or end.She is like a monk and nun who has entered the Buddhist gate and her heart is as still as water. She has nothing in her eyes, only the ancient Buddha with blue lamp. "Jiyue, take a look at the photo of the two of us together." Xia Yixue handed over the photo. Zhang Ruyue did not answer, she refused to have emotional communication with Xia Yixue.She intends to forget the past, she may have forgotten the past.Maybe, she no longer knows how to refuse, and she doesn't know what plans she has. Her mind is blank, and Xia Yixue still doesn't give up.

"Kisara, I have to say it. I know who you are doing this for." Zhang Ruyue's eyelashes blinked suddenly like a superficial touch.Xia Yixue seemed to see a dignified woman with bright eyes buried by the wind and sand, suddenly shaking off the dust on her face, she looked at the real Zhang Ruyue in surprise.She believed in her own judgment - Zhang Ruyue was not crazy. However, the blinking of the eyes was nothing more than a slight ripple in the stagnant water, and it became calm again in an instant, the stagnant water was still stagnant water.Zhang Ruyue seemed to have lost consciousness again, dazed, dazed even if the electric shock couldn't wake her up.

"Jiyue, I know what's on your mind. I can understand you, you can understand, and you can think of me." Xia Yixue put her hand in Zhang Ruyue's palm, scratched it gently with her little finger, and then put her hand in her palm with confidence, just like putting a key to open the door of memory. "You can think of me, it's not that you can't think of me, you just deliberately pretend that you can't remember me." Xia Yixue had an insight into Zhang Ruyue's internal organs, she didn't want to say it.She doesn't want to be a mentor who criticizes others, let alone a close friend who is already in adversity and has to endure unbearable suffering for ordinary people just by avoiding disasters.Still, she said it.After she said it, she also felt a sense of relief.

"It's hard to live with a mask. It's the same with a disguise. Besides, you're pretending to be crazy, which is bad for your health. No matter what happens in the future, you should take off the mask first. You can't be here anymore Let’s live in this life—you don’t need it at all—it depends on whether it’s worth it to bury yourself. Maybe my words are too strong, like a poisonous nail, it will definitely pierce you. But seeing you in this kind of situation Place, you don't know how uncomfortable I am. I can't watch you ruin yourself and spoil yourself like this. Look into my eyes and tell me, am I right?"

——Xia Yixue shook Zhang Ruyue's shoulders, Zhang Ruyue's whole body swayed like a swing, but she neither yelled nor broke free, letting Xia Yixue shake.So docile, so dull, like a rough-carved puppet with vague expressions.Her eyes seemed dead.Either her eyes don't exist, or Xia Yixue doesn't exist. "Maybe you want to wait for Cheng Jiaqing's case to be settled before reverting to his original self. Tell me, is that right?" Xia Yixue stopped shaking Zhang Ruyue a little discouraged, retracted her hand, and murmured softly: "I really wish I could bite you a few times, whip you a few times, so that you can fully understand that you really forgot everything. You really forgot our friendship for many years. Do you only have Cheng Jiaqing in your heart, not even yourself?"

A beautiful and graceful woman was tortured until she was physically and mentally haggard, and she was stupefied (again)!Xia Yixue thought angrily, feeling an urge to accuse.The urge is like that bad wine watered down that profiteers sell.The upper body is also fast, and the body is also fast.Although enthusiastic, but short-lived, people who are angry and those who suppress their anger are always sad, and Xia Yixue is no exception.She stood up, and another thought flashed through her mind: "I should think of another way, what kind of way should I think of? Zhang Ruyue is so self-destructive, she should be allowed to turn around. Turning back is right, but turning back is not right. At least let her Let her change the environment to cheer her up. If you suppress yourself like this, maybe one day you will really drive yourself crazy." Xia Yixue is sure that Zhang Ruyue is not crazy, and under this premise, it always thinks that Zhang Ruyue is humiliating herself, Spoil yourself.At the same time, I deeply admire her for having such a strong nerve.

I am not a clumsy person, why can't I move Zhang Ruyue.Xia Yixue thought. "Kisara, do you still remember the song we love to sing? The song we sang ten years ago: Wings flying together will always make you tired, not as good as a red candle to accompany you to tears. I will be on my travel days. The starting point and ending point of thinking about you and me are in your arms..." The song is like a smoke painting that flutters.Xia Yixue clearly saw the subtle movement of the smoke.A completely strange, brand new, sudden and unprecedented change took place in Xia Yixue's heart.She had no intention of touching Zhang Ruyue, she just wanted to sing this song very much, without any purpose.But this song suddenly moved her.She honestly touched herself.Not only did she know, but she clearly felt that there was a void in her life that needed a man to fill.Although the ideal of celibacy she embraces is lofty, it is too monotonous to arouse the rich and colorful emotions inherent in people.The virtual you in the song "I will miss you when I travel" made Xia Yixue feel a pain beyond reason and perception.The pain she had never experienced in all the past experiences in her life. People are always slaves of emotion, and pure emotion is the antibacterial agent of life.Tears, though only a by-product of emotion, are also antibacterial. For some reason, two streams of tears flowed from Zhang Ruyue's face.Obviously, her heart was shocked like never before. On her face, which had shown too much fear and pain, and was now almost dry into a river bed, tears of humanity finally flowed again. This cannot but be said to be a miracle. At first, Xia Yixue was immersed in a kind of lingering longing and care caused by her singing, and she didn't notice any changes in Zhang Ruyue.When she found Zhang Ruyue's changes, she was shocked.She did not expect that the power of singing is so unstoppable, it can open a heart like a lock.Song, this winged language, this opening of your eyes, it can bring you back to life in an instant. "Kisaragi! You shed tears, you really shed tears!" Xia Yixue was as excited as a mother who heard her child yell for the first time.She couldn't help hugging Zhang Ruyue.After hugging and letting go, she patted her chest with her left hand while turning around. Like a dance and not like a dance.Like a gluttonous child who steals a snack from a snack jar without an adult noticing, get carried away. "This time it's good, this time it's good." She has already made up her mind to leave here with Zhang Ruyue. She paced up and down the room excitedly, then picked up the little bag she had brought. "Kisara, come with me." Don't hesitate, quickly take Zhang Ruyue out of this cage, which is not a cage. Before she repents, maybe she will soon. Zhang Ruyue still didn't say a word, she listened quietly, her eyes began to move slowly, so slowly.And like the moon that is covered by shadows, it shines brightly in the process of moving.She didn't nod, she didn't shake her head, she didn't speak, was it because she had been sitting alone facing the wall for a long time, no one talked to her, and the noise could no longer make a sound. Xia Yixue became a little anxious, she couldn't speak.Since I can't speak, does my thinking also become dull? "Jiyue, why don't you talk? Come with me, get out of this damn place." Zhang Ruyue's attitude greatly reduced Xia Yixue's optimism.Zhang Ruyue didn't seem to mind. Could it be that her consciousness has not fully recovered yet?It seems that the resurgent paper ash has been blown out by the wind again. "Speak up, Kisaragi, if you don't come with me, I will stay here with you until you agree to come with me." Xia Yixue's appearance was as resolute as her tone, but Zhang Ruyue's eyes gradually dimmed, as if a dark cloud from Mulu stayed in the inner wall of her eyes. "Instead of sitting here waiting to die, why don't you come with me. Ruyue, there will be no one to help you except me... You know you're not crazy, and I know you made this move for the sake of Cheng Jiaqing. You want to wait for something to do with Cheng Jiaqing Only after your case was settled, did you tell the truth. But at that time, who can prove that you are not crazy?——You didn’t even say a word to me, and you refused to say a word. Why did I come here over and over again? What's the point of me coming here again? Don't you treat me like a friend? You don't have many friends. It must be a pity for you to lose me as a friend. Similarly, losing your friend is a pity for you. For me, it's also a pity. Is it so difficult to let you speak? Do you have something to hide? Tell me, don't be afraid. I will do my best to help you, and no one will hurt you. " As soon as the words came out, even Xia Yixue herself felt extremely cold, and her heart began to ache.Although these words had a sincere and affectionate shell, after taking off the mask that Zhang Ruyue had worn for a long time this time, in an instant, the fate she longed for was torn to pieces like a moldy broken thread. Xia Yixue's words were like a beam of bright light, strongly stimulating Zhang Ruyue.Zhang Ruyue lowered her head and cried bitterly.His frail shoulders trembled like a kite in the air, and his entire upper body trembled.She clasped her hands together like shells, trying to hide her face.It was as if her face was scarred by shells, she was ashamed to see others, like a group of small torches wandering in the mountains, her cries continued, and she gradually turned into obsession, it seemed that it was not out of pain, but out of pain. Enjoy - enjoy the tenderness of the soul and a subtle mystery. I don't know if I sprinkled a handful of salt in other people's new wounds?If so, Xia Yixue didn't know what kind of behavior she was doing, she began to feel guilty, she couldn't do it without feeling guilty.She walked to Zhang Ruyue's side, comforted her shoulders, and said softly: "Don't cry, Ruyue." At this time, a female nurse with a huge face, pimples, and a hunchback in a white coat came in, and she put the pills on the table in front of Kisaragi. "It's time to take medicine." After finishing speaking, he frowned again, shrugged, curled his lips, and said contemptuously: "Why, she's crying, her mood is always so unstable. It's useless to persuade, and it's useless to coax her. Let her be used to being pampered, and she can't stand this kind of blow, she is really weak." Xia Yixue ignored her, she really wanted to say to this talkative nurse: "Who says she is weak, she is stronger than anyone else." But she didn't, she didn't think it was necessary. "You don't need to talk to her much, she won't get better." The female nurse said to Xia Yixue again in a flattering tone.Xia Yixue was furious, but she didn't have an attack, she just said coldly: "She will be fine, I believe." The nurse who looked like a man and spoke like a man replied angrily, "That's good." Then she left. Xia Yixue turned her head, glanced at the coffin-like back of the female nurse, and felt that her throat was congested. ... Time suddenly stopped, and the house was unusually shady, as if the house was made of moss.Zhang Ruyue has stopped crying, her eyes are like the dew in the morning, showing the inexplicable melancholy of the short-lived life. "Jiyue, come with me, let me tell the dean, let me ask her. You are not crazy, you should be let out. If you agree, nod your head, if you disagree, shake your head." Xia Yixue's words were like echoes bouncing off the wall. Xia Yixue was waiting for Zhang Ruyue's answer.She didn't move, and Zhang Ruyue didn't move either.Two people, like two human beings carved in stone. Xia Yixue thought: As long as Zhang Ruyue nods her head, life will start again, and the warm current of friendship will flow between the two of them again.But should Cheng Jiaqing tell her about another lover?If you should tell her, how to tell her?Even if she doesn't tell her, she will know sooner or later, she loves him so much, so desperately, so relentlessly, and so obsessively.Once she knew that Cheng Jiaqing had betrayed her and hugged another woman like a honey pot, would she be furious?You know, turning from love to hate is a hundred times, a thousand times stronger than pure hate, like adding wine to a burning flame.Will she - Xia Yixue looked at Zhang Ruyue's graceful neck and slightly trembling lips, and sighed, not daring to think about it anymore. Lovely life is like the frozen sea water, simple yet complex, containing everything in the sea, surging and unrestrained, just like the sea.However, in order to thaw the sea of ​​life, in addition to the fire of love, there is also unstoppable anger. I gave my whole life to one person, but this person treats her like a gherkin, twisting it off first, and then biting it bit by bit, so that this life is full of scattered tooth marks.Who can accept such devastation?Sometimes, the destruction is hidden, it appears in the dark with the face of love, full of tenderness, when illuminated by the light, you will find that you have been destroyed and bruised.This kind of devastation is not a one-shot injury, but an instantaneous evolution like nuclear fission. The lights go on and off, the play is over, the curtain is down, the sad thing is that a tragic character doesn't know that he is in the play, even if he knows, he knows that he is a tragic character, he still can't get rid of the sadness, which comes from his own past Know nothing about their role. Xia Yixue didn't know whether Zhang Ruyue could bear such a fatal blow, Xia Yixue didn't know whether what she sent this time was flowers or bullets?To Xia Yixue's surprise, Zhang Ruyue shook her head, which meant she refused. Xia Yixue blushed. "Okay! You're infatuated. I'm lighting a lamp for a blind man. It's a waste of wax. Okay! I don't want to see you again in my life. Good you infatuated girl. I'm ashamed of you. For a man, I don't want my own." dignity." Xia Yixue gritted her teeth and cursed, the instinctive cursing confused Xia Yixue herself.All imaginations disappeared from her mind, and there was only one thing left in her consciousness: anger and earnestness only won a rejection, who would be willing?Disappointment came next. "Zhang Ruyue, Zhang Ruyue, don't think that I will come here again." Xia Yixue's face was tense, she was preoccupied and determined to go out.She felt like a dog meddling with mice, and now she didn't want to meddle in anything.She didn't see that Zhang Ruyue, who had listened to her words, was leaning limply on the chair, her hands drooping weakly, like a leather bag whose cork had been removed and the contents inside had been drained.Zhang Ruyue, why is she absent-minded?She could hear Xia Yixue's words clearly and clearly. "If I had a gun and a few bullets, I'd point it at you, a woman with no self-respect—I'd do it if it was a crime." After finishing speaking, Xia Yixue turned around, furious, and strode away, but the room and the corridor outside the door were relatively dark, and her footsteps seemed hesitant. "Kisaragi, you really..." As if remembering something, and as if she couldn't bear it, Xia Yixue turned around again.She suddenly felt that her face was burning hot, how selfish she was.He kept saying that Zhang Ruyue was rescued from the fire pit, but when he didn't get a response, he became angry and yelled, and it didn't count if he became angry and yelled, and he wanted to put Zhang Ruyue, who was on the verge of desperation and weak and helpless, to death and then quickly.Although Zhang Ruyue was on the verge of desperation and was weak and helpless, she was also a loyal and fierce woman. It wasn't because of her loyalty and strength that she would not have fallen to this level, like a pyramid sunk in a flooded swamp , and no one knows.Xia Yixue stared at Zhang Ruyue with pity, bent down (forbidden), and took her hand. "Jiyue, I'm leaving, take care, I really don't have the courage to see you again. You are more noble than me and ordinary people, but your nobility is not rewarded. You are still infatuated, maybe it's just for a despicable person, Forgive me for saying this about your dear husband. I have no right to interfere with what happens between you, but I want to ask you, do you really understand him thoroughly? Maybe you will laugh at me, maybe you will say, do I Don’t you know your husband yet? Kisaragi, I think you are a person who lives in a bottle and was thrown into the deep sea. You don’t know everything about the outside world. A big lobster outside the bottle barks its teeth and claws a few times , it will raise smoke, which can disturb your sight. And Cheng Jiaqing, he is a big crab on the bottom of the sea who works with lobsters. You may not know at all how he is perverted and domineering. Because you stay in the bottle After a long time, I don’t know the direction and goal. When I say this about you, I don’t mean to despise you, but to judge you. The person who sleeps with you is the devil who deceives your feelings.” "No! I don't believe it!" Zhang Ruyue's eyes widened, as if surrounded by a group of crocodiles, she screamed like a siren when the soul and (forbidden) were torn apart. "Listen to me, I wanted to get everything done quietly, gently and even politely, and I'll tell you everything when you go out. Not hurting the peace, politely trying to get things done But it can't be done, I feel sorry for your misfortune, hate your ignorance, and almost ruined our friendship for many years." "What you said is not true!" Zhang Ruyue was shocked, as if seeing the end of the world. "It's all true. You'll understand when you go out. It's not me who is cheating you. It's your husband, Cheng Jiaqing, who has ulterior motives." "You're lying!" Zhang Ruyue raised her fist and nodded her head towards Xia Yixue, as if the most plump and chestnuts had landed on Xia Yixue's body. "You are still in the dark! You offer your heart and everything you have, use your body as an altar, and offer all the good things in you for him to enjoy and for him to trample on. But he deceived you, To lessen his guilt, he sent you hastily to this kind of place. Not only that, but he also abandoned you like his ex-wife. He has another woman, and there has been a lot of trouble in the city, only you are still in the dark .” "You're talking nonsense." "To tell you the truth, I'm not talking nonsense. You imprison yourself in a small room all day long, live alone, don't care about the world, and don't even bother to open the window to smell the air and the flowers in the grass outside the window. You don't know Are tulips or packing grass planted on the meadow outside the window? Don’t you know what happened outside the window? Before you know it, you almost forget which century you live in. You love your husband with all your heart. For twenty-four hours, every minute and every second is in his heart, and he only thinks of you for ten minutes, maybe only a few minutes-maybe only a few seconds, but only in He only thought of you because of guilt when he was having fun with other women. You were loyal to him, true, and there was no cover, but he, duplicity to you, he wore a thick mask and thick armor, Talking to you is like reciting lines. You are still rubbing his armor and thinking you are touching his (forbidden), you are kissing his mask and thinking you are kissing his face. All he gives you is (forbidden), You thought it was spirit. You love him with weight like a rock, and he loves you with lightness like flying catkins; you love him with all the passion in your body, and he loves you with sweat all over your body. For love , the most intolerable thing is hypocrisy, which itself conceals one person's betrayal of another person's moral obligations. What I'm talking about is not a rumor, but a fact that has nose and eyes. You have to believe me, I don't need to deliberately slander." When Zhang Ruyue heard this, her body was like a broken boat sucked by the sea, spinning and about to sink continuously.Xia Yixue grabbed her hand, but Zhang Ruyue resolutely pushed her away.What shocked Xia Yixue even more was that Zhang Ruyue suddenly laughed out loud without any scruples. "You are a spy sent by them. You are the one who is hypocritical, and you are the one who harbors evil intentions. Xia Yixue! You are the hypocrite, uh, uh, I just saw it today...you...you are here to sow discord and slander... ...Old Cheng is not that kind of person...Old Cheng is far-sighted...He will not be so short-sighted...He loves power, and men love power, there is nothing wrong with it...He will not love other women. He loves me. I firmly believe...I'm not crazy...I just love him so much that I'm crazy..." Zhang Ruyue expressed her deep belief in Cheng Jiaqing in her words, which just shows that she has doubts about Cheng Jiaqing, and this doubt is almost It was the suspicion that subverted Cheng Jiaqing's entire image.Her tears burst into laughter like chestnuts bursting from a brazier. "Jiyue, what's the matter with you? Alright! You can think whatever you want... You scared me, sit down." The panicked Xia Yixue stuttered at the end, finally , she calmed herself down. "Ruyue, listen to me, don't take Cheng Jiaqing too seriously! He is not the only one in your life, you have to live without him, and you have to live happily. I know you can't stand Cheng Jiaqing's treatment of Cheng Jiaqing. Your betrayal, I know, you don't want to see the feelings you gave go to nothing." "Okay, I believe you, Xia Yixue! I believe what you said is true. Then, tell me now, who is Lao Cheng's new love?" Zhang Ruyue raised her head, her hands stroked the hair covering her forehead, and her attitude took a 180-degree turn. "You really trust me." "I believe you, as long as you tell Lao Cheng who his mistress is?" "It's good that you believe in me. You've made me feel a little bit relieved. I can't tell you who she is. You will know when you go out." "Are you scared, or don't you know? How can I trust you if you're like this?" "Of course I know. I know this. It's not out of curiosity. It's like a rainy day. I didn't bring an umbrella, and the rain fell on us naturally. Cheng Jiaqing not only had a hot relationship with that woman emotionally, but also in the economic field. Cooperating with that woman—maybe you'll be offended if I say that." "No, I'm not angry, as long as what you say is true. After listening to you, I'm like a deaf man who suddenly regained his hearing. I'm an outdated woman with no new ideas, but I don't want to be one either. A victim of a man. I can dedicate everything to him, as long as he is sincere to me. He is sincere to me, including being loyal to me. To Qin Muchu, that is not acceptable. Women and men are independent countries. The feelings between the two My envoy, women are not men's vassal states. Once a woman becomes a man's vassal state, she will inevitably be ravaged, and she can't stop a man from advancing to another woman. That's what I think. Tell me, let me see Look, who is this woman that this man I gave everything for is in love with? Let me see which woman he's crazy about?" "You really want to know now?—so urgently." "I don't want to wait any longer." "Well, I'll tell you now, I hope you can restrain your emotions." "I will." Even though Xia Yixue agreed to tell Zhang Ruyue, she still hesitated before speaking. "Please forgive me for saying it. You have always bowed to Cheng Jiaqing, worshiped him, and trusted you so much. You are more foolish and loyal than a minister to the emperor. Indeed, we don't know the essence of a person before we dissect him. Good or bad, you can’t find a mark on his appearance. You can’t tell it, and you can’t blame it all. A person’s good or bad is also uncertain, sometimes good, sometimes bad, or good for this person, good for that person He's a bad person. I don't judge whether Cheng Jiaqing is good or bad—it doesn't matter to me. What matters is that while he has a wife, he also has immoral deviant behavior. His new best friend is Fu Mei." "What? It's her! A man who regards power as his life, and a young woman who is well-known in politics, is really a one-on-one match made in heaven." After the flood receded and a flat beach appeared, Zhang Ruyue looked extraordinarily calm after she understood everything, and there was bright irony in her words. "Thank you for telling me this, Yixue." "You're welcome, will you punish him?" "I don't need to punish him. His crimes will punish him. I just feel that what I have done is not worth it." "Let the past be the past." The past is a brand imprinted on the body, and it cannot be removed unless it is completely reborn. "Don't hate, don't complain, not for others, but for yourself." "I'm very calm, Yixue. It's like an avalanche is coming. I know I can't escape. What else can I do except calm down?" Zhang Ruyue let out a long breath at this point.This tone seemed to be as difficult and profound as the Silk Road, as if she had expressed all the resentment and dissatisfaction she had accumulated all her life. "Why bother? He lied to me and he doesn't seem to be much better now. The funny thing is that I listened to his words and suffered myself." "Come out with me and end this nightmare." "OK?" "Why not, you can do it." "Then I'll listen to you. But, I can't be too cheap, Cheng Jiaqing, that incarnate demon king." "You have to be forgiving and forgiving. He has done a lot of evil, and he will get what he deserves. You don't need to add trouble." "Can such a person be spared? He only has power in his eyes, and he loves women to show power, or to combine love with power in women." "But in China, how many people love a man not for his power?" "I'm not! At least I'm not. I must expose his infamy." "Kisara, I don't think you need to bother. He can't do it in prison if he doesn't confess, and there are many people who are dissatisfied with him." "I don't know about other things. I'm quite clear about his financial problems. The things he collected can't escape my eyes." "You don't want revenge." "I am expressing my attitude. I am putting an end to my emotional life with him. From then on, he is him and I am me. I will never fabricate, I will seek truth from facts." "Since you insist on doing this, I have nothing to do." "If he is crushed by several stones, I will add another stone to the pile of stones. I will never tolerate it, and I will never let it go. Do you know who made me pretend to be crazy?" Xia Yixue shook her head. "It's Cheng Jiaqing. I just now know why he told me to pretend to be crazy. He didn't want me to hide his crime for him, but to keep me from knowing about his scandal with Fu Mei. He is too despicable and shameless. He knowingly let me Playing crazy, my heart would bleed, all in a pool, and he let me do it anyway. Funny how innocently I prayed for him while I was bleeding myself - hoped he would get away with it. See It looks like he will end up betraying his relatives." Xia Yixue asked in surprise: "Aren't you separated? How could he tell you to pretend to be crazy?" Zhang Ruyue smiled lightly and said: "Of course you don't know that. I have lived with him for so many years to know that he is used to foresight and foresight. He can predict things before they happen. He can do it if the will happens. He has all the qualities of a conspirator. He is not insane, but too sober. Like all conspirators, he is sober enough to confuse too many people Make the world dangerous. This kind of person will not have the joy of love. Someone said: ignorance is the main feature of love and its whole charm. This kind of person also has no love. I remember someone said: sprouting The reason why spring love is beautiful is that it neither realizes its own birth nor considers its own end. But this kind of person has to weigh and consider everything before this. People without love are neither worthy of marriage nor worthy of marriage. Having a good life, I want to divorce him. Before the divorce, I want to make public all the bad things I know he has done." The noisy cicadas outside the window are like a dull saw, ups and downs, pulling back and forth, with a single sound, as if to saw down every big tree before being reconciled and giving up.